#›› Verse: Complicated but ours. ❝A little messy but so worth it at the end of the day.❞

[existentialmagazine]

Review: St. Buryan’s newest indie offering ‘Illogical’ bursts with vibrant sounds and a lyrically complicated love-affair

Over the last few years, five-piece St. Buryan have established themselves to be a group wielding a sound both original and sure-to-be arena-filling, blending indie-rock rhythms with pop and pop-punk sensibilities. Making their first release of 2023 with ‘Illogical’ the group continue on from a streak of success that came with their previous offering 'Wait For Me', a track that ended their two-year break from releasing any new music back in September.

Set off with deep bass twangs and groovy percussion, ‘Illogical’ immediately looks to capture a positive, uplifting energy you can’t help but want to dance the night away to. As an infectious electric guitar chimes in too, St. Buryan are here to remind there’s nothing better than a self-assured release with a lot to give, and ‘Illogical’ is here offering all that and more on a plate. The verse slows to more of a padded drum beat, the occasional guitar strum and continued bass, setting up the chorus for an explosive interruption that doesn’t disappoint. Bursting into colour, a catchy electric guitar sets a thrilling tone, complemented by resounding drum beats, percussion and more for one hell of a memorable mix. All of this is topped off by their vocalist’s delivery throughout that drips with a charisma in every word, soaring in higher and lower ranges whilst channeling the most emphatically fitting energy for a track so passionately driven. From their melodic guitar to their engaging evolution, St. Buryan have nailed a release that doesn’t stop giving, and even the bridge has something to give. Switching up the mood to at first just electric guitar strums, a masterful riff and thudding drums, this moment almost feels intimate until it progressively builds into one final chant-along chorus to dig your teeth into. ‘Illogical’ is a little lighthearted, and sure to get you bouncing along in it’s nearing four minute journey.

If it weren’t clear from the title, ‘Illogical’ is all about a romance that doesn’t even remotely seem worth pursuing, and yet even in the early-days our protagonist finds themselves hooked on them anyway. Offering a challenge and handful of cancelled plans, ‘Illogical’ really sets the scene for a partner you’d think would be better left unexplored, but the track continues to pursue: ‘I can’t do this anymore, and could you run that by me one more time? Why can’t this be simple? Can’t get my head around it’. Doused in constant frustrations, let-downs and regrets, lines like ‘why’d I pick up the phone when I saw you calling?’ seem to second-guess their decision making, knowing better of continuing a romance and yet still too transfixed to let it go. Completely self-aware the entire time, ‘Illogical’ is perhaps a release many can find themselves relating to, hoping for someone they’re obsessed with to change and become the rose-tinted vision created in our minds instead of the messy reality. From knowing that they’re ‘making no sense’ to doing it anyway, ‘Illogical’ is a bubbly but confused journey of complicated love, and really what’s more relatable than something telling it how most seem to experience it?

Check out ‘Illogical’ for yourself here to enjoy St. Buryan’s catchy indie-rock sound and frustrated (but head over heels) lyrical narrative!

Written by: Tatiana Whybrow

Photo Credits: Will Gorman

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[ofuntoldstories]

" Shut up. " to Nikolette

Did this Nikolette stutter?  The quidbrid stares down from her homework page that has been making her eyes ache for the last hour and a half.  Her younger sister was ANNOYING and beyond complicated but it was all theirs.   The news of a daddy coming into the picture was HORRIBLE and she had been itching to tell someone that didn’t know.  When the green-eyed phoenix showed up things got messy.  When she joked earlier with Beth about their mama having slept with the guy the math had not been done until the moment her mothers are sitting down with the guy and his wife and said he’s your dad.   What the fuck?  Had been her first response and she hadn’t been composed when she stormed out of the room and broke a vase.

                                                      ❝ I’ve got a DADDY !! ❞

How many purses could she get out of her family for this one?  Nikolette was the type of person to be SPOILED to a fault and she isn’t afraid of playing her parents into getting more.  She’s a brat and everyone knows it but at the same time has that soft streak within that makes her behavior seem to sugarcoat the burn.  She’s her mother’s daughter and the personality is very much there.  She has that entitled personality that every single Mikaelson has.  She has known that she is the special child that her mama seems to dot on hand and foot but at the same time she isn’t because Beth does share a better connection with Hope in some ways.  They bond over spells and secrets and a stupid bracelet.  It isn’t the same kind that Nikolette has been forced to wear as a small child by any means and that makes matters worse.                                           ❝ Turns out that DONOR was not the real story. ❞ It was easy to assume that both girls were the product of donation from a wolf  (Or in her case another creature) but nope!  Her mama had been with someone else before she got married to her mom.  If her sister dare goes haha, I was the wanted child after all the quidbrid might burn the school down tonight.  BUT her mama does deserve it so would it really be a bad thing?  Yes,  she is pretty sure that Hope will take away everything that Nikolette holds dear including the card that the other has.

                                           ❝ Sorry,  he was donating but not to the                                           collection of I want to help this happy couple                                                           have a baby fund. ❞     

She is bitterly spitting out those words as green eyes look up at her sister and there is a shove that comes when she passes over a pink highlighter from her box on her desk.  Her life is falling apart so don’t tell her to shut up!  Although Nikolette did snap first when Beth came in to ask to borrow a highlighter.  It wasn’t her fault that her parents were liars at the passes.  It wasn’t Beth’s fault that the perfect little life that Nikolette had in her head was crumbling at the core.  Each of them struggle a great deal with their own things and always needing to be PERFECT because she was a Mikaelson firstborn was top on the list for her.  If this turns into a fight the one that started it would very much be Nikolette.  She did start first with the biting comments from the moment that her sister knocked on the door.  

[wishingicouldfly]

I've been actively blogging for more than six months, even though I've had a tumblr account for ten years. I started reading One Direction (specifically Larry) fanfiction about the same time.

Originally, I read exclusively canon compliant fiction--I was hungry for industry insider, what-could-have-happened narratives. But I've slowly branched out into other genres. I find fanfic--good fanfic--super calming. When I've had too much stunting, too much noise, I grab a fanfic and immerse myself. So I thought it was time to do a post about my favorites. Keep in mind, I'm terrible at cataloging, and I have over 150 bookmarks on my A03 Account, so this is by no means an exhaustive list.

I'm not including the classics like Tired, Tired Sea and Escapade. While I do love both of those (so well written), because a lot of people know about those already.

My all time favorites are by @helloamhere

1. The Multipicity of Powers - https://archiveofourown.org/works/28580229

Maybe in another universe he isn’t different. Maybe he hadn’t been given an impossible choice. Maybe he wouldn’t have lost everything and broken everything and then fallen impossibly, irrevocably in love with the first next thing that was kind. Maybe in that universe he doesn’t feel like he’s never breathing, always pretending, teaching the kids even though they all have to learn alone, trying hard not to read the headlines, and so afraid, every day, that he won’t be a good enough teammate to the superhero he can’t live without. He knows that love isn’t supposed to feel this way, slid secret under your skin like a surgical razor, an invisible war held close over the tender vein that keeps you alive. On the other hand, Louis wonders, had he ever known how to do it any other way?

Maybe there’s a universe where he doesn’t have to keep all his secrets on the inside.

But this isn’t that universe.

//an X-Men AU.

Me: I never thought I'd love a super hero 1D cross over, but this is so well done. The backstory, the pacing, the characterization, the friendship. Read it.

2. Saving Symphony Hall and it's prequel Night Out - https://archiveofourown.org/works/12633921

“I think I have an idea,” Louis said. Slowly, and reluctantly, but with a growing sense of the inevitable. “God damnit, I think I have a really good idea.”

“Oh christ, that's the problem-solving face,” Babs said. “Last time we saw that face, he sold a company.”

“Wait, what?” Zayn asked.

“Right place, right time,” Louis said. “Also, fuck my life,”

“What?” Zayn repeated. Niall patted his hand.

“I usually just roll with whatever Louis is about to do,” he said. “It’s better for us all.”

“That’s the attitude,” said Louis, “I’ll tell you tomorrow. Tonight, I need to do some research. Zayn, give me your number. I’m gonna save our symphony.”

Me: The best sex scene I've ever read is in the prequel Night Out. Sexy, but tender. I love the characterizations in this duo--ABO but not traditional. Doesn't feel out of character.

3. Just Let Me -https://archiveofourown.org/works/11695350

The party was going well. So well, Niall had already sworn undying love to one multi-tiered chocolate cake, two friendly corgi-poodle mixes, Zayn’s hair, and the entire population of Los Angeles. So well, Zayn had only laughed and ruffled Niall’s hair and not even twitched towards a cigarette. So well, nearly everyone had spilled far past the boundaries of the night’s original plans, extracting bottles of vodka from the cabinets and losing a lot of clothes. Harry had proclaimed that he was finally going to throw a small and very grownup dinner party and of course here they were three hours later, fifty people half-naked in the pool. Soon to be full-naked, if Louis had to guess. Everybody in LA loved a heated pool. Everybody loved Harry.

Me: I love love love this. Harry is so gentle, and Louis is so stubborn and needy. It's ABO but subtle. I'll read this one again and again. It's comforting.

@HelloAmHere is one of the best writers I know--amazing stuff. I also love their werewolf story, but it's not finished, so I won't link it here.

Other favorites:

1. Seven Up by cherrystreet - https://archiveofourown.org/works/5828539

Very loosely based on the British TV show "The Up Series" and somewhat inspired by the song “Something I Need” by Onerepublic, we follow the lives of Harry Styles and Louis Tomlinson in an interview setting every seven years. They fall apart and come together, their lives and emotions recorded. Harry calls it a time capsule. Louis calls it a pain in the arse.

Me: Trigger Warning, major character death. I literally SOBBED through the end of this. It was lovely and devastating. So good. But be warned.

2. Light, Spark and Fire series by @greenfeelings

Life’s pretty ordinary for Harry. He lives with his best friend, got into university just like he’s planned, and manages to support himself just fine for an unbonded omega. If he sustains that lifestyle by getting paid to help alphas through their rut every now and then, that’s nothing to be hung up on. Until he’s hired by an alpha that turns everything upside down.

Or, Louis and Zayn run a music label, Liam is Britain’s up-and-coming pop star, Harry’s working on taking Louis’ walls down until he builds his own up, and Niall holds them all together without realising he does.

Me: A nice healthy three-parter. Characters you just want to live with for a while.

3. Relief Next to Me by dolce_piccante - https://archiveofourown.org/works/1117942

AU. What happens when a baker and a graphic designer meet via a very specific Craigslist post? Fate, friendship, food, and maybe more.

Me: This one is super long, so be prepared when you dive in. It's got a lot of lovely bits, and some great smut.

4. 2012 'Verse by ashavahishta - https://archiveofourown.org/series/27601

Me: This is a five-parter and satisfies my love of canon compliant stories. It spans most of 2012 and into 2013, and illustrates the difficulties of Harry and Louis' relationship amid the band success and management disapproval.

5. Love After the End of the World by mercurial-madhouse (writing_practice) - https://archiveofourown.org/works/31251434/chapters/77248901

Society shattered when all electricity suddenly cut off across the globe, plunging the world into darkness. Now, Prometheus Industries is the sole remaining supply of power, a saving grace to those who survived Lights Out. As fugitives in no-man’s land struggling to break into Prometheus HQ, death lurks around every corner for Louis and Zayn. Things get complicated when a routine recon falls apart and Louis collides with Harry and his mates Niall and Liam, survivors with their own agenda.

When staying alive is already a constant battle, the deadliest weakness is to be in love. For Harry and Louis, finding each other sits on top of the endless list of What Else Could Go Wrong.

Me: Really unusual (as far as I can tell) end of the world story. I loved the characterizations of soul mates here at the end of the world.

6. Flightless Bird by audreyhheart - https://archiveofourown.org/works/6401653/chapters/14656807

AU where Louis Tomlinson is a principal dancer with The Royal Ballet. When his rival from ballet school, moody dance prodigy Harry Styles joins the company, old wounds are reopened and old passions reignited. During the company's production of Swan Lake the secret that doomed their love is finally revealed, but will it be too late?

Me: Trigger Warning, sexual assault (by an original character to a major character). This was a little brutal because I hated to see a broken Harry, but it was well written and has a happy ending.

7. Wear It Like A Crown by zarah5 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/1816771/chapters/3900322

AU. As part of a team of fixers hired to handle a gay scandal in Buckingham Palace, Louis expects Prince Harry to be a lot of things—most notably a royally spoilt brat. Never mind that the very same Prince Harry used to star in quite a number of Louis' teenage fantasies.

Me: I loved Louis in this one--actually they are both pretty great. Scratch that, they are ALL pretty great.

8. Shake Me Down by AGreatPerhaps12 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/3331958/chapters/7285322

Harry's new to college, fresh out of Catholic school and conversion therapy camp, and Louis runs the campus LGBTQIA organization.

Me: I don't like the self-hate here, but it was necessary for the story and H comes around. Found family vibe.

9. Gods & Monsters by Velvetoscar - https://archiveofourown.org/works/2090982/chapters/4550871

The instructions were simple: seduce and destroy Harry Styles. Not once did they discuss the option of Louis actually falling in love. So, naturally, that's exactly what he did.

Me: I loved Harry in this one. Louis gets there. I don't like Liam, but I don't think you're supposed to. Zayn is great.

10. Own the Scars by crinkle-eyed-boo (KimmieRocks) - https://archiveofourown.org/series/1010796

Louis has never felt like he was good enough: for his stepdad, for his life-long best friend, for the life he's supposed to want. After an accident that nearly costs him his life, Louis' parents send him to rehab where he’s forced to face his demons. On the long and difficult road to recovery, Louis must confront the truths he’s been avoiding about his future, his relationships, and his sense of self-worth. Because before he can love anyone else, he’s got to learn how to love himself first.

Me: Harry is lovely in this one. Trigger warning, substance abuse and near death.

11. Wild Love by purpledaisy - https://archiveofourown.org/series/1030904

AU: Two best friends try to date each other for forty days. It's supposed to be fun until emotions make it complicated.

Me: I loved this way more than I thought I would. It's lovely and messy and I love it.

12. Victorian Boy by audreyhheart - https://archiveofourown.org/users/Rosann1986/readings?page=6

Victorian AU. Harry the virgin Duke of Somerset knows little of love, while Louis the sly Duke of Warwick knows too much. When the two dukes come together for the Bilsdale fox hunt in York, Harry finds himself drawn into Louis' bed. But when secrets from Louis' dark past come to light, Harry fears that the fox isn't the only one being hunted.

Me: Historical fiction I didn't intend to love. I LOVE Harry in this one. LOTS of smut, so be warned.

13. Keep Me Closer by zanni_scaramouche - https://archiveofourown.org/works/30752633

Louis expects Harry to react poorly, maybe even file a formal complaint and that’s gonna suck ass but Louis won’t say shit cause he knows he deserves it, so he prepares an apology before Harry’s even turned around.

What he doesn’t expect is Harry to fucking drop.

Me: lovely, protective Louis just trying to do the right thing.

14. Turning Page by purpledaisy for SockstheDog

https://archiveofourown.org/works/11826345

AU: Harry Styles tries to get lost in a place he’s never been.  Louis Tomlinson has been perfecting the art of being lost for years. What they don’t expect to find is each other.

Me: sweet love story. Niall owns a bar, and is pretty great.

15. Freedom Always Comes With a Price by Cyantific - https://archiveofourown.org/works/30278514/chapters/74624262

A shared dream brings them together onto the X-factor stage, but one decision changes Harry and Louis’ lives overnight. Thrust into a world of instant stardom, they're forced to live a lie to sustain their dreams, but years of living in the shadows and under strict management takes its toll.

With the bands impending hiatus, there’s no better time for change, so they think.

Desperate for a solution, they turn to an unlikely source with a radical plan. An unfortunate accident sets everything in motion, but not how they intended, leaving Louis’ memories altered, Harry broken-hearted and full of regret.

Can Harry figure out a way to fix everything? Will he even want to once he sees how Louis moved on after the hiatus? Will Louis ever find out the truth of their past and can he forgive Harry after all this time?

In the end, two friends find out that memories are elusive, trust is everything and love is the only antidote.

Me: Heartbreaking when they lose each other, but really good in the end.

16. Little Technicolor Things by scary_crow - https://archiveofourown.org/works/6025519/chapters/13821628

Louis is a poor writer and recent university graduate, depressed, anxious, and living in London when he meets Harry, an artist with a secret who likes to paint sunrises and pretty boys from California.

17. Hold You Now by solvetheminourdreams - https://archiveofourown.org/works/30253536/chapters/74556744

Three years ago, Harry Styles said goodbye to communications consultancy firm McQuiston Worldwide, leaving a life of travel and agency PR behind. When he accompanies his best friend to a family wedding across the Atlantic, he'll be forced to reopen old wounds and face his past—one that no one wants to hash out, but may just have to.

Me: Niall is great. They almost miss each other in this one, and you just want to bash them over the head. But they figure it out.

18. At Risk, I Fold by clare328 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/26542480

2015 is a stream of hotel rooms and whisky on the rocks, tired glances and touching hands under tables. It’s the bears and the bees under a rainbow sky, and Harry and Louis have to figure out how to grow up together, instead of apart.

Me: A canon compliant fic that feels like it could have really happened. Set in 2015. Lovely first chapter and scene where Harry writes If I Could Fly--i could read that chapter over and over.

19. Into The Blue by zarah5 - https://archiveofourown.org/works/1035822/chapters/2065499

AU. In which Louis is Harry's scuba instructor and quite happy to provide the requested special treatment, pun fully intended. It can't be all that difficult to convince Harry that they're on the same page, right? Also, Niall and Liam may or may not be dating, and Zayn is surrounded by emotionally stunted idiots. He bears it with dignity.

Me: AKA the Scuba fic.

20. Tie Your Heart by ArcadianMaggie - https://archiveofourown.org/works/546688/chapters/973236

Harry grows wings.

Me: How can you not love a fic where Harry grows wings? Trigger warning: injury of a major character.

21. I think I'll end this here. My last and probably first favorite (read it more than once) is...

my heart is breathing for this moment in time by usedtothebeach - https://archiveofourown.org/works/934996/chapters/1820282

When Louis first saw Harry at the 2010 X Factor Auditions, he thought he was watching a peculiarly special stranger. But Harry has known Louis ever since he was five years old.

Because Louis has a rare genetic disorder that causes him to Time Travel to important moments in his past and in his future - and to Harry, always to Harry. When they're put into a band together, it seems like everything Harry has been waiting and wishing for has finally come true. Except for the small fact that Louis doesn't know that Harry is in love with him- that Harry's always been in love with him. Fate, it would seem, is just getting started.

A story about growing up and growing together, and the impossible love that makes it all worthwhile.

Me: I LOVED the Time Traveler's Wife by Audrey Niffenegger, and I'm a huge fan of time travel, so this is right up my alley. It's really well done, weaving canon into fantasy and then going years forward in tme. I love everything about it. Great character development. Really good smut. Trigger warning, there's a little underage sex, so be aware. Anyway, LOVE this one so much.

I'll add to this but it's already longer than I meant it to be.

[naturesloopholedaaa]

›› V: Complicated but ours. ❝A little messy but so worth it at the end of the day.❞

A new verse coming like real soon to several blogs.

[teudoongievibes]

Camren goggles™ on :  All These Years

Alright sweets, let’s get into this! The lyrics for All These Years are a little less profound and rich as the ones of Consequences, but still, it’s Camren as fuck once more… Again, this is all theory, and if you don’t like Camren move along.

“All These Years”

Your hair’s looks a little longer Your arms look a little stronger Your eyes just as I remember Your smile’s just a little softer

First verse! We know right away that Camila is talking about someone she’s known in the past, someone she hasn’t seen in a while. You can already feel the lingering in those words, making you think right away “whoops, bumping into the ex you’re still in love with…” 

Through the Camren googles™  : Lauren hasn’t cut her hair recently, she worked out, planet green eyes is still intact, and the smile Camila fell for is still there, maybe a little less bright than it used to be.

Some people living in an heteronormative world have said that the sentence “your arms look a little stronger” obviously refers to a man, hummm, no. A girl with good guns is hot as fuck, especially when they’re holding you, Camila can testify…

And I, I never prepared for a moment like that Yeah, suddenly, it all came back, it all came back

Girl is obviously shook. I noticed that Camila always describes her feelings as very intense, something almost physical. You can easily imagine her face seeing that person again. 

“It all came back” obviously a lot of history there, years of apparently. Now we all know that Camila hasn’t had any official relationships, no stolen photos of her with a boy or any indication that she was involved with someone (other than Lauren), she herself confirmed a couple days ago that her “relationship” with Austin was PR…  So who the hell could she be talking about? 🌚  

We know that Camila ran into someone during her studio sessions, we know that 5H was recording, Lauren might have been recording her solo work as well, and let’s remember that they all are under the same label, so chances are that they could’ve ended up in the same recording studio even for a day.

Having the feeling now that Camila and 5H didn’t really part in such good terms, probably civil ones but not “yeah go do your thing we’ll support you all the way” like I thought they had, it’s entirely possible that they didn’t keep in touch. Especially Camren, since I think they needed a clean break. That being said, it’s then possible that Camila and Lauren didn’t see each other for months, hence Camila loosing her shit when she saw Lauren again. You never really get over your first love…

‘Cause after all these years I still feel everything when you are near And it was just a quick hello And you had to go And you probably will never know You’re still the one i’m after all these years

Chorus time! Babe is still in love. That makes my Camren heart happy and miserable at the same time. 

I’d like to point out again the importance of the word “years”, as in a freaking long time! Not a two weeks fling, but a real relationship that consumed her whole and is still haunting her to this day *proceeds to listen to Consequences 20 times in a row*

“I still feel everything when you are near” that sentence is so important when you think about it for a sec. It implies that Camila was often “near” that person - we all know Camren’s love for little awkward spaces between their hands and giant pit between them on couches. The fact is, as years went by, Camila and Lauren had to distance themselves on camera, therefore they were never touching but somehow always stayed close and near to each other, “if I can’t hold your hand then at least I want to feel you next to me” kinda deal - that tension was always palpable, like they were trying hard to stop themselves from holding hands *goes to cry in a corner*

“And it was just a quick hello, And you had to go” referencing the studio run in. Obviously they are still on cordial terms but Lauren skedaddled quick outta there.

My personal Camren hypothesis is that Lauren fled the scene as quick as possible because she’s still crazy over hills in love with Camila, and she couldn’t handle it. #fanficmaterial

“And you probably will never know” Skinny love is a bitch.

“You’re still the one i’m after all these years “ 

Amazing play on words there, babe is hella talented. If we cut the sentence we get “you’re still the one” - you don’t call anybody “the one”  - then we get “still the one I’m after” our girl is still going for it 🌚  - and finally “after all these years” go get your girl back goddamnit! 

Couldn’t help, but overhear you Sounds like you’re happy with her But does she kiss you like I kissed you? Ooh, I wish I loved you like I miss you

Alright, I’ve read a few analysis of the song and for this part many of them are saying that the “her” there is Lucy, I personally don’t think so at all. First, because I still don’t believe to this day that Laucy was ever anything more than a friendship, but that’s just my own opinion. 

Second, if Laucy was indeed real, it obviously ended a while ago, so the timeline doesn’t match at all.

And finally, if Camila had wrote straight up “But does he kiss you like I kissed you?” she would have been out. 

In conclusion, I think she’s referring to Ty here. I know a lot of you don’t believe in Tyren and that’s fine too. But I’ve come to a point where I’ve accepted that it’s also possible that Lauren just fell for him, even if it started out as PR. Maybe Lauren found it safer to be with someone who’s the furthest away from Camila…

“Ooh, I wish I loved you like I miss you“  stab me in the fucking eye Camila.

I absolutely love that sentence, it’s my favorite of the song. Again this is about love not always being enough if you don’t put in the work to make it last. Also the fact that sometimes you don’t realize what you have until you lose it. So much regret in that one sentence.

And I never prepared for a moment like that Yeah, it suddenly came all back, it all came back

'Cause after all these years I still feel everything when you are near And it was just a quick hello And you had to go And you probably will never know You’re still the one i’m after all these years, oh 'Cause after all these years I still feel everything when you are near And it was just a quick hello And you had to go And you probably will never know You’re still the one i’m after all these years

I never told you, I should’ve told you I never told you after all these years I never told you after all these years

When I think of Camren now I always picture a very long treacherous walk. The girls went through so much together, they grew up together, they changed, and things must have been so complicated and messy at times that it was probably really hard to keep track of how they were feeling about each other. Going back and forth between being friends and being lovers, between loyalty and personal growth, having to stay hidden while wanting to be honest… it must have all been so tiring, and heart wrenching, and I think that maybe at some point they started wondering if it was worth all that hurt. I think that was their breaking point, not knowing if it was worth it. I don’t think neither of them stopped loving each other, I believe that because even in the few last days of Camila in 5H we were still getting iconic Camren stares. I just think that after a while they gave up trying to make it work. So when I listen to those lyrics, I interpret them as Camila wanting to say that even though they went through so much, and that at the end they couldn’t stay together, Lauren is still her person. Pride often gets in the way of true feelings, and I think Camila regrets that.

'Cause after all these years I still feel everything when you are near And it was just a quick hello And you had to go And you probably will never know You’re still the one i’m after all these years

Well that’s that. Everyone alright? Everyone dead? 

This song is definitely about Lauren for me *adds song to “Camren murdered me” playlist* - what more can I say than: Fuck this. Why does love have to be so freaking hard???

Yeah right Camila, we know, we know, we know…