#…i feel discouraged LMFAOO

[solplease]

finally finished redesigning my old ocs,,,, now im just writing notes on em (mainly for myself lmao…)

[circuscl0wn]

Thoughts on Ep.5 of MSP

The counselor was discouraging but he was honest and I loved that. There was something about his energy that showed that he wasn’t completely trying to ruin everyone’s dreams but more so like “let me give it to you straight”.

“Enough to say I’m on you’re side??” I WOULD’VE FAINTED😮‍💨 Tinn really said “I’m flirting with you…and what about it?"

GUNS MOM IS SO PRETTY…but can we talk about how she said “this happens all the time and then I get up and keep working”, if my mom said that I’d be in TEARS☹️

Gun went over to that table so fast. He said NOT ON MY WATCH…the smile on his face gave “y’all lucky this my momma’s shop”💀

Can someone make a gif of the scene in Part 1 where Gun is throwing invisible money💀 I know the scene was endearing but that part actually made me cackle out loud. But it was so sweet “how much do you want mom?”🥺 shout out to his momma for raising him with so much love fr. Because she raised him with love he wants to repay her efforts even though I know for sure she wouldn’t want it. She would most def only want him to be happy…now I’m teary eyed

Also Guns mom calling him Jackass consistently takes me out💀 it’s like when Dads call their sons “Dickhead” endearingly

SOUND IS FINE ASF

“When he’s famous I’ll leech off him!” I KNOW THATS RIGHT MOMMA LMFAOOO. Fr the relationship Gun has with his mom is so nice to see

Gun is such a Brat LMFAOOO!! The fake cramp, the drink, the piggy back ride LMFAOOO and Tinns gonna give in Every time😂

Guns tiny growl when he said “are you happy?”🥺

How did Tinn get into Guns house if Guns mom thought Gun was with his band mates…💀like who let Tinn in?

That fake interview scene was wholesome but funny. I love the way they were both dressed…also Tinns face after Gun said his Dad passed away is so me💀 cuz I wouldn’t know what to do/say after that

“Anything you wanna tell me?” Tinn I oughta beat your ass LMFAOO. I was squealing he got so confident and smooth, aaaaahhhhhh

That’s all for now though cuz I stopped watching cuz I REFUSE to see a devastated Gun. I stopped watching when the lady started responding about debuting and stuff. I feel like my heart won’t be able to handle it

[flowerslut]

random/general/personal fanfic rambling + whining beneath the cut ♡

sometimes I think to myself: "lmfao I have such a tiny audience!!" but not in a self-deprecating 'oh woe is me no one reads my stuff' way. more like a "hell yeah I can do and say whatever the fuck I want because no one is looking in this direction anyways" which is just.... so nice???? and not entirely true but true enough that twilight has been my most peaceful fandom experience in a long time (despite still being Hated by certain fandom niches lmfaoo 😘)

like I often forget that the twilight fic I write has the least amount of interaction overall in comparison to literally Every Other Fandom i've ever been in. which is SO funny. even my unfinished dbz fic from forever ago has more hits than most of my twilight fic combined (the curse of being a jalice girlie 💔) which is also lowkey nice as hell because I don't have bratty teenagers and weird middle aged men in my comments/reviews/ask box bitching that "SaSuke wOULD NEVER—" and I can live in relative peace now 😌

but then that post saying "post the difference in hits between your most and least viewed fics" gets put on my dash again and I spend at least 20 minutes each time looking for someone with a comparable difference (SOMEONE TO RELATE TO YOU KNOW?) and out of the 5 or 6 times I've done this I've found ONE person. ONE!!! which just reminds me of how often I forget that although I can be a rando who flies under the radar here in twilight I will Not Be Afforded that luxury when I eventually go back to n*ruto. just look at how comical it is to look at my goddamn ff stats page. and yes, these two are listed right next to each other bc it's an alphabetized list, which just further emphasizes the absurdity in my different fandom 'audiences':

(it goes 'Word Count' -> 'Chapters' -> 'Reviews' -> 'Hits')

so its a weird feeling to be in a more niche, smaller fandom (largely by choice) and then seeing people constantly bitch and fucking moan about how their content doesn't get the hits it used to. or how they wish their numbers were higher. and instead of being like "these are personal, internal issues I must work on" they're like "ITS NOT ABOUT NUMBERS ITS ABOUT RESPECT" while they're BITCHING about wanting their numbers higher????? like bitch make it make sense! just say you're vain and want more hits/kudos! this is the worst part of being a part of the larger tumblr fic writer community because it's so insufferable to see

like yknow those popular posts that go around saying "Ummmm it's an UNSPOKEN RULE and always HAS been to ALWAYS leave a kudos and ALWAYS leave a comment even if you didn't enjoy the fic 😌💅" it makes me want to laugh in their faces. because I don't know what delusional circles you run in to think you're entitled to what you deem is 'adequate attention'?

"but fic writers spend hundreds, sometimes thousands of hours on—" and no one is making them do that. fic writing is a hobby.

"it's discouraging to get no engagement on fic—" then reexamine why you're writing and maybe take a break from the internet

"some fic writers are trying to establish an audience so when they switch to ofic or traditional publishing it'll be easier—" if this is a strategic business choice then either get into a bigger ship or fandom (hp/marvel/etc) or change your strategy dude because this is not going to work the way you think it will

"seeing so few kudos/hits makes me want to delete everything some days—" again: reexamine why you write fic. if you're doing it for external validation then there's a bigger issue at play here. if no engagement affects your mental health you really need to take a step back

and I will always understand wanting acknowledgement for the hard work content creators do. it feels really nice to get a kind comment or a bunch of favorites/kudos/whatever. but the tumblr-popularized mindset of "your readers OWE you for what you've provided for them" has skewed so far off from the original "fandom is a community" and into a weird "fandom has a hierarchy that we are attempting to enforce" mindset and I can't fucking stand it dude!!!!!

I wouldn't consider myself a fandom veteran because there are so many people who have been around far longer than I and who have seen some worse shit than I have, but over the past ~17 years that I've spent in online fandom spaces (and ~15 as a fanfic writer) the worst part of creating in fandom isn't that "kids these days are soooo entitled" or "noBoDy kNowS HOw tO CoMmEnT ANYmoRE" its that capitalism has warped everyones fucking mindsets!! now that content creation can be monetized people are viewing the content they create as things they can charge this weird 'social currency' for if they can't exchange it for actual currency (which you can't with most fan content).

you don't get to demand that people owe you interaction for you providing a service that you were not required to provide anyways. this banker ass capitalistic republican ass energy makes me wanna scream. and like, if you DO do this (we've all read a fic on FF.net where an authors note says "no more chapters until I get at least 5 reviews!!") then stop trying to moralize it and pretend that people who DONT comment are not doing what is required of them. which, is nothing. nothing is required of them.

tldr; anyways I always feel weird about my experience in fandom and as a fanfic writer bc I don't know where my peers are who can relate to my strange experience but who also don't subscribe to this bullshit "readers OWE the writers" mindset that's becoming aggressively popularized. either encourage friendly engagement with people's content or shut up. no more of this bs "fic writers Deserve More because I'm mad my highly-niche 7k pwp only got 18 kudos" bullshit

okay love u all happy friday bye bye can't wait to work on prompts for u guys this weekend ♡♡♡♡♡

[kokoch4n3l]

Maya’s better than me I would’ve gladly accepted Izana into my life and stayed with him forever 🥵🥵! Like you NEED ME?? say less!

The way you have me obsessed with Izana is unhealthy like fr! Maybe I need therapy LOL cuz why was I literally like I wanna marry him while reading ahaha! Same for Mikey to be honest like why can’t I have both?

Now I shall rant:

You’re really talented! You painted the story and the characters really well and that’s actually super hard to do especially with fan-fiction cuz they’re someone else’s characters that we are building upon and you did such a fantastic job. Fuck the haters!

You need to give yourself more credit you write so well (even the smut is so well written wouldn’t be able to tell that you don’t usually write smut if you hadn’t mentioned it). The way you have me counting down the days before you update your story is insane.

Contrary to what seems to be the majority on this app I actually prefer the oc having name and personality (if I don’t like them I just switch up the image in my head). It also makes me feel like I’m reading an actual book (which by the way you have the skills and talent to write your own book!)

Having a name is so much easier to read in my opinion when it’s a y/n I start literally thinking the name is “y/n” like I don’t remember to substitute my name in you know 😂😂? Like I’m in the middle of reading a story I’m gonna imagine myself in the main characters spot regardless (maybe I’m crazy I don’t mind reader insert stories it doesn’t bother me I’m just saying it’s not a big deal either way)

All this to say if you don’t like the style of the fic either change it in your head or don’t read it. I promise you life will go on and life is definitely much harder than “this made up story isn’t how I like it.”

Let creators CREATE! We (the readers) are living in the worlds they create if you don’t like this one just find one that suits you and move on!

Take it easy y’all and enjoy the story!

Anyway you’re doing great!! Now I’m gonna spend the rest of my week maybe even more thinking about how much I love Izana and Mikey. Thank you for keeping these characters alive for me! 😊 Sorry for my essay I just don’t want you to feel discouraged!

no cuz fr. while I was editing I was like,, damn I would've given in right away 💀 I'm so crazy obsessed with them it's like 🤭

Thank you so much for reading and the message. I really really appreciate it. The long message is very much appreciated and which is why I have anons on because I know many people prefer to be on it. Getting shitty anons like that made me contemplate turning anon off but collective punishment is war crime lmfaoo and not all my anons are like that.

really tho, I appreciate it, the small and long messages <3

[kiyoo-omi]

valentines day event: feb 8th — feb 10th | REQUEST: CLOSED

hi bunnies! we are live! Love you and happy valentine’s week!! (please read everything thoroughly)

important note: since i am doing slots this time, please make sure before requesting you check the status of each slots on this original post (not the reblogged version). i will be avidly updating this post as i get request!

♡ — you’re my everything [38/43]

➸ followers only ➸ couple pictures ➸ light colors ➸ choose any of the poses in the pinterestboard (one only) and I’ll draw you and your fav like that! ➸ send pics as usual ➸ art wont be exact; and some will be modified ➸ just link me the picture or send in the photo of the poses

link to poses: HERE

♡ — be my valentines (version one)

➸ followers only ➸ manga panel ➸ black/white/screentones ➸ you (+ choice of character) asking your choice of characters to be your valentines ➸ send pictures as usual

REF: HERE

♡ — be my valentines (version two) [2/4]

➸ followers only ➸ manga panel ➸ black/white/screentones ➸ your choice of character (+ you) asking you to be their valentines ➸ send pictures as usual

REF: HERE

♡ — love me dearly [3/4]

➸ mutuals only ➸ animated gif ➸ light colors ➸ a first person pov of your choice of character saying ‘i love you’ to you! ➸ 2 frame gif ➸ I have no time to draw but it’ll be soemthing like the ref lmfaoo

REF: HERE

♡ — passionately yours 18+ [24/29]

➸ mutual only ➸ 18+ only ➸ full colors ➸ i’ll draw this spicy scene of you and your choice of character ➸ send pictures as usual ➸ feel free to include any dialogue you’d like them to say

REF: HERE

Rules + Read Before Requesting!

♡ rules before requesting —

➸ official request goes to ask/submission box only

➸ tell me which section of request you want!

➸ send me a headcanon of your selfship of what you did for valentine’s day! [ required ]

➸ for the section that requires you to send a picture: send in any pictures of your avatar/picture of you along with any pictures of clothing ideas

➸ you can only choice one section per person! meaning you only get to choice one type of artwork for me to do

➸ to make it fair so I don’t get request overnight; ask box will be close when at night and will open the following day (PST)

➸ haikyuu!! (please specify if you want pre or post timeskip) | kuroko no basket | attack on titan | demon slayer/kimetsu no yaiba | my hero academia | obey me!

please keep in mind i will be going at my own pace! meaning i most likely wont be able to get through all of your request right away, even after the end of february.

as much as i encourage request, please dont be a silent requester. i do find myself seeing requester not reblog the request i do for them, and it does get discouraging. a simple thank you would suffice if you rather not reblog. sorry if i sound like a bitch, but dont bother requesting if you can’t do either or. 

have fun requesting! here’s some hearts! 🤲🏽💞💞💞💞

[gokubrain]

Hope it's still okay to ask for shrumo!

Does she get along with the rest of the Z-Fighters? I know in canon for whatever reason Goku doesn't tend to visit them until a couple reasons but I'd like to know nonetheless if that's okay.

And do they accidentally turn into Oozaru? Since tail and all.

Have a good day!

HI <3

yea LOL i know he doesnt like. hang out with them much but i like to think he takes her to kame house every so often, especially if he needs someone to babysit her for whatever reason he’ll just drop in and then like. leave without saying anything while they’re all distracted playing with her LMFAOO

shrumo really loves hearing stories about goku so i feel like they’ll all bond over reminiscing hehe <3 even tho theyre all much older than her she considers all the z warriors her friends !!

and tbh i havent even thought abt ozaru LOL, shrumo def can transform and i think vegeta would probably teach her how to do it and control it, its likely one of the earliest things she learns but im positive they both discourage her from doing so since its kind of needlessly destructive compared to super saiyan

[doctorguilty]

Not to be controversial but I really wish “writing styles” were as accepted artistically as visual art styles. What I mean is, I feel like the fanfiction world especially can be really vicious online--we make fun of art posts that say “DON’T EVER draw like this INSTEAD draw like this” but then agree with posts that say the same things about writing? And they tend to be really self entited--”readers HATE when you do this, THIS is really annoying.” 

Like, I get it, writing, structurally, is a little easier to critique because it certain ways it’s less subjective than visual art. But I’m not talking about people intending to publish novels or write scientific research papers, I’m talking about.. people online just posting fanfics on ao3 for fun. Why is it like, such a common thing to mock hobbyist writers. 

And the thing is? Writing is still subjective in its own way. I actually have disagreed with many critiquing posts on what readers find “annoying,” because in my opinion, I preferred it over the “proper” way. I feel like all this does is bring people down and discourage them, especially since many fic writers are young and, frankly, your writing can’t improve without practice any more than your visual art can. Writing of all flavors has the right to exist. 

idk like. I just feel there’s a difference between putting helpful tips out there and making posts like LMFAOO IT’S SO ANNOYING WHEN PEOPLE WRITE LIKE X like ok? Who asked you anyway? 

[soobinies]

hey don’t be discouraged! I’m a 96 liner so I’m TXTs noona too. They know they have older fans. They’re not creeped out at all. They love you. Never let anyone make you feel bad about supporting TXT or ANY artist or celebrity younger than you, okay? I’ll kick their ass if they do ❤️

Thank you and lmfaoo

I had someone tell me that I’m too old for them like bro I’m just a fan

[aftout]

Oh my God I hope you don’t mind me adding to this but I know EXACTLY what you’re referring to LMFAOO.

I think the biggest struggle with media and how it’s consumed is that sometimes that consumption can end up translating into this sense of righteousness and, almost in a way entitlement. Just barely. I’ve been in fandom spaces for YEARS, and it’s happened time and time again. You become so invested in what you perceive that things can go from being harmless personal opinion (a headcanon, if you will) to “I am speaking gospel and if you disagree I’m going to lose my mind.” For some, the “fandom” aspect of being in fandom (as to say being surrounded by several different people who enjoy the same content as you yet not always in a perfectly aligned way) can be SUPER overwhelming. It leads to this defensive hostility. Humans don’t LIKE being disagreed with, I’m in no way exempt. But it’s SUPER IMPORTANT how you go about with expressing this uncomfortable feeling of disagreement; at the very least when it comes to something inherently harmless like, let’s say a ship you might not personally enjoy.

The thing is that these interactions VERY RARELY happen in the outside world. It’s this online phenomenon that comes with anonymity and echo chambers. Not bearing the shackles of being fully known does boost one’s confidence, and being surrounded STRICTLY by how you think and perceive makes outside objection come across as inherently violent or threatening. And I think falling into a mindset like that around an abstract work that CAN be interpreted in many different ways adds more stress onto the individual than those around. Like it sounds like such an unenjoyable way to engage with any sort of interpretive, symbolic media.

As I said, I’ve seen it happen time and time again. And as discouraging as it is, once I turn off my phone it’s not there anymore. What are we REALLY fighting over, actually. As op said, Stevenson isn’t coming back to smite us. I don’t think the man would even know what a platform like tumblr is. I wouldn’t even call this discourse because of how little it leads to. But I feel like it is an interesting conversation to have.

So I saw a post that kind of made me want to post this.

I feel like there’s a lot of gatekeeping in the J&H fandom. I’ve see a lot of posts like “you’re wrong if you like TGS” “you’re not valid in the fandom if you interpret the duality differently” “we don’t stan if you think Jekyll is cis.”

It feels really toxic, imo. I interpret the story differently than others, and that’s fine. A lot of the story is really open ended and up for interpretation. Specifically with the second point with the duality, I’ve seen hate on the “Jekyll has OCD” interpretation on here in the past, and like? Why?

While that’s personally the interpretation I choose to agree with, that’s not what I’m talking about in this post. There’s really no need to hate on seeing the book differently. As with most other fandoms, you’re not looking at the big picture. There’s a group of people who enjoy the same media as you, and you’re really just going to trash their opinions?

I dunno. I don’t really have a solid point I’m getting at. It just pisses me off. I have a lot of opinions about the book that I’m afraid to share, and I’m sure tons of others do too.

Please be nice y’all. It’s not like Stevenson is coming back from the grave to confirm any interpretation is right.

[b1oodpink]

i just wanna say ur art keeps me wanting to draw!!! i dropped art years ago bc of a whole of things going on in my life and felt like i couldn't never be a good artist, so i never rlly sought out to pick it up again, but ever since i discovered u i was so enamoured by ur works that it fuelled this passion in me to start drawing again!! tho i'm like rlly rusty nd rlly bad atm (i get highly discouraged a lot too), i wanna thank u for giving me the motivation to keep at it :( ur a star!!!

omg... this is the sweetest thing im cry ;_____; im sorry you had to drop art but its never too late to pick it up again slowly!!! im amazed at how u could be inspired by me like this but its great!! when i look at other amazing artists i get the same feeling tho. and i personally am a very self deprecating unmotivated artist LMFAOO but yea lets work hard together to make better art!!!  

[nyanzaya]

// More like... spanked??? or MAYBE just scolded It really depends

Oh god he wouldn’t be able to handle getting spanked skdhfsjd he would get triggered. He can handle a lot but somethings activate his fight or flight response and/or something related to his previous abuse. But Don’t feel discouraged to not do it! LIKE IF THEY WANNA SPANK HIM THEM LET :CLAP: THEM :CLAP: SPANK :CLAP: HIM. 

He might cry/lash out right quick but he was I think given plenty of warning, just I don’t think he’d understand why that happened since I don’t think a relationship is exactly established? Rn he just sees them as some person who comes with snacks and he wants them and always gets told no so he gets a little rebellious about it lmfaoo