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forzathunder · 4 months ago

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"I have many fears, most of them about Lucrezia." — Cesare Borgia (The Borgias, 2011-2013) + hints of insecurity

that she adores someone that much / if she will reject his dark nature and act of love and violence as Ursula did / if he truly is not part of her desires / that she easily forgets him

#i have so many thoughts on these two #hes such a clingy brother wth #as much as he soothes her it is only by asking lucrezia verbally or #by looking at her that his fears and insecurities in her life can be soothed #cesare torn between - being relieved she had some joy in the ruthless marriage he had no power to prevent and did not even want to bless #or being envious there is someone else now when his little sister once said she will not love anyone as much as she loves him #but Accepting it anyways because it is impossible loves and maybe he is starting to become aware his love falls in this same category.#“should i envy this narcissus low-born who shall never see you again because of his impossible love for you when i love you just the same?”#the knife more surprise than fear. in a time when he did not love himself...“she accepts me as i am? as i do her”#biting her as if another black panther pet looking for reassurance that their love #that HE is still included in her perfect world even if he himself pulls away #“surely you're in agony as much as i am? are you already satisfied with your child and husband if we cannot share our love openly?”#“your eyes drift to mine when you say 'husband' am i not he? do you see me as so even when it was just 'tonight'?”#and then his sudden gaze as if to look for truth because how can she forget him when he only thinks of her #AND AGAIN pulling away being eaten by shame and guilt of corrupting her (when their relationship is not just his doing)#torn between hope (we have the capacity to forget and move on) and hope (our love has that much devil power over her)#cesare as the god or the devil or whatever it is that overwhelms whether at war or in love #cesare is one confident man and even if his insecurities has layers of righteousness and importance..it is still insecurity nonetheless #and only for lucrezia #lucrezia borgia #cesare borgia #cesare x lucrezia #the borgias #dailyborgia #perioddramaedit #perioddramasource #weloveperioddrama #onlyperioddramas #romancegifs #the borgiasedit

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