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trans-estinien · 5 days

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i think its hilarious i tried to be friends with the other theater seniors last year like. bestie you are the weirdest freak of them all theres no way they like you. why did i even tryyyy. i wouldve been better off not giving a fuck but i ruined prom and my entire graduation. wow.

#theyre all out. doing things.#and i havent gone outside more than 10 times since i graduated. three months ago.#im really surprised i didnt get diagnosed with autism. its the fact i didnt fail school is what #“autism traits dont just appear out of nowhere” yes they do if you stop masking in the middle of covid #i learned very fast how to mask cause my mother is a awful person #autism + anxiety is a fucking hell of a combo #everything is so much all of the time. which is why i stay home and play video games and do nothing else #i do. miss. hanging out with people irl.#but its also the most terrifying thing ever because i cant tell if everyone secretly hates me or not #the one benefit to having a shit home life is that i lacked the energy to care about people at school.#unfortunately when the home life improved my brain latched onto school instead. because FUCK me i cant ever enjoy anything ever #and then since i never learned to properly interact with people cause of covid and shitty friends i fucking failed so miserably #and now i never want to show my face to people i knew in highschool ever again #i hate that miserable ass building and everyone in it #except the teachers i love them. they were nice to me

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