#“Akutagawa hardly deflects‚ annoyed and displeased and distantly angry” might be the best sentence I've ever written musicality-wise lmao

[kyouka-supremacy]

Oooooohhh I just thought. I just thought about Akutagawa coming back to his senses after being a vampire and meeting Atsushi. And Atsushi is still so confused by everything that happened and is unable to process it yet, unble to unriddle what Akutagawa's sacrifice meant for him, for them. Which translates in him getting into a fight - verbal, this time, only barely physical - with Akutagawa, because he shouldn't have sacrificed himself! He shouldn't have given his life for something so worthless as his own! Why is he always so impulsive, why couldn't he stop himself to think before acting so carelessly! Why doesn't he value his life more, why is he so inconsiderate! And Atsushi can't even explain why it hurts so much, and it's so frustrating, so he just lashes out at Akutagawa, because he can tell that he's the origin of all this pain, so it must be something he's done that hurts him so much, it must be his fault as it always is; all the while Akutagawa hardly deflects, annoyed and displeased and distantly angry, unable to readily come up with any rational retort. Until Atsushi bursts out an “and all of that just to follow Dazai-san's orders! When will you learn that your life is more important than what he thinks of you!” to which Akutagawa, up to that moment barely irritated, freezes for several seconds, dumbfounded, and with newly raised fury and disgust manages to spit out “You think all of it was for Dazai-san?”