#‘my family would mock me’
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finds 101 reasons I shouldn’t get a cane
#‘if I get custom insoles for my shoes then my feet won’t hurt and I won’t need to sit down as much’#‘I may get breathless but it’s not that bad’#‘canes are for balance issues of which I don’t have’#*proceeds to randomly lose balance for no reason while standing still*#‘my knees are fine’#*knee hurts then randomly buckles*#‘it would be offensive to actually disabled people’#‘I’d be too embarrassed to use one anyways’#‘my family would mock me’#‘people who see me will judge me#nagichi talks
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watching Gladiator feeling like a wife who’s sighing over her beloved who was put in prison for a crime he didn’t commit. free my husband
#he wasn’t guilty#he didn’t deserve any of it#i would throw myself at the judge’s feet and beg for his life like in a dramatic movie#anything for him 😭#gladiator gives me 1000+ emotional damage every time i watch it#no other movie makes me so happy yet so sad#it just guts me every time#seeing him lose everything and just give up 😭😭#and then be mistreated and abused and mocked and forced into horrible situations#but continuing to be noble and honorable#and doing his duty even when all he wants is to die and be with his family#and when it seems like there’s some hope but then he’s betrayed again 😭😭😭#and his death#the staggering the pained breathing the soft smile when he sees his family waiting for him#I WANT TO DIE I CAN’T TAKE IT ANYMORE#maximus let me love you all the days of my life#let me love and comfort and hold you#i would be so good to him :(#i just love him so endlessly and so painfully#gladiator#text posts#russell crowe#maximus#gladiator 2000#maximus decimus meridius
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Viren finds Aaravos hunched by the cliff, coated in grime, torn up cloak, dark blood covering the lower part of his face, dripping from his chin, and he's like “hey, babe, what's up?”
“God is dead. I know it because I feasted on its carrion like fifteen minutes ago, so I guess that makes me god now. I saved you a bit.”
To which Viren blushes and responds, “Oh, thank you, you didn't need to. Which bit?”
So Aaravos fishes out a wriggling, pulsing piece of stark white flesh from his pocket and offers it up to him. It's only because of the rhythmic beating Viren recognizes it as a heart, or what was left from a once upon a time dragonheart.
Falling on his knees, Viren eats it directly from his lover's palm, chokes a little on the rancid flesh that fights being chewed, Aaravos's firm hand on the back of his head thankfully keeping him in place.
The now demigod hums happily as Viren finishes his treat, not giving him a beat to breathe before pulling him into a sloppy kiss.
It is such a beautiful evening. They go for a stroll. They bang by the riverbank, with a clear vision of the so-called corpse of god rotting and birds chirping in the distance.
#Viren#Aaravos#Viravos#wrote this in fifteen minutes while around me my beloved family mocked everything I care about and believe#which is really just repetitive and annoying at this point#but they would not shut up and my chair was too comfy to leave#so as the sensible person I'm I decided that are better things to occupy my mind than talking to them#like#whatever the fuck this is#tdp
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every now and then i remember that i once spent just over 1 month totally unable to talk and another 2 months trying desperately to build my voice back up to being able to talk normally again. what the fuck was that.
#actually the more i think about it the more fucked up that situation was#vus i went to the ER about it but military hospitals are absolute ass and i was told they didnt see anything wrong#then was given advil and told it would go away in a few days#(it didnt)#my voice was so so weak and my family mocked me constantly about it the whole 3 months it was going on#cus i was super squeaky and breathy for a long time before my voice strengthened again#and now its like it never happened and i still have no idea what DID happen#shh ac
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idk if there's anything in stories i get more petty about than poorly-written "main character shows up to a new place and meets everyone" character introduction scenes
#personal#they make me SO ANGRY ahglkmsfkl#it isnt just the trope of showing up and meeting everyone either#like it works for me in some things!#i think pacific rim does a really good job with characterization for example#and it's got a sequence of scenes where raleigh arrives and the audience is introduced to the shatterdome & important characters basically#my working theory until i do some more analysis is that stories that do it well leave some mystery#like in pacrim you don't find out mako's whole deal immediately upon meeting her#pentecost doesnt go ''this is mako mori. one of our brightest. her whole family was killed by a kaiju and she wants to be a pilot''#he says she's in charge of the mk 3 restoration program#and she doesn't immediately offer up her backstory because why would she. real people dont do that#the russian pilots dont show up and go ''hello we are russian''. pentecost just tells raleigh briefly who they are#etc. newt & hermann's intro scene is one of my favourite bits of characterization Ever and you don't learn that much about hermann during i#all the info you get is from newt being chatty and ridiculous and mocking hermann and putting his foot in his mouth. i.e. newt being newt#and that's what makes it good!#when chuck and herc are introduced you learn absolutely nothing about chuck. hes just there in the background#he and raleigh look at each other for a second and you kinda go ''who's that guy''#AND THATS ENOUGH TO ESTABLISH HIM AS ''PROBABLY IMPORTANT LATER''#idk idk but so many books do this kind of scene so badly that it pisses me off#so many POPULAR books too. like i either am uniquely annoyed about this or other people are way more willing to overlook it lol#as far as examples go. the house in the cerulean sea and every heart a doorway were the books where i got so annoyed i immediately DNFed#i feel like the long way to a small angry planet does it a little bit but not as bad. i cant remember for sure it's been a while#i did finish that one but i had extremely mixed feelings about it#and now im reading a big ship at the edge of the universe and. once again it is happening#aaaargh
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I need to draw Wolf Link again. I fucking love this feral beast.
#dragon's stupid thoughts#i already started with that today#while sitting next to my very annoying brother in law...#cuz my niece celebrated her birthday and we got invited over#it wasn't so cool today cuz I felt pressured to over eat myself...#I'm know for eating a lot. yes ok that's fine. but today they served me a whole pot of lasagna cuz last time I said:#I could eat one pot for me alone!#so they did and I felt very ashamed that I didn't catch up to what I said#i tried to finish it but I just couldn't keep going. if I had eaten one more spoon I would have thrown up#my bil's family is pretty teasing and ''jokely mocking'' all the time and I'm joining in on the fun sometimes but it wasn't really fun today#i think this is how ed can develop. peer pressure.#not that I'll fall victim to that I just thought that's how this can start for others
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Not to be a jingfu on main, but it's so cute that Jing Yuan thought of Fu Xuan with those jelly beans
#me: the Xianzhou characters are all just coworkers#also me whenever anyone is shown to be fond and have intimate knowledge of some other character: awwww#Like Fu Xuan and Jing Yuan playing starchess and teasing each other or making a reference to things they like#or Jing Yuan talking about young Yukong#Quingque apparently disliking Fu Xuan but obviously that not being the case‚ knowing what she likes and how she thinks#Fu Xuan hiding that she has a sweet tooth but Jing Yuan and Quingque knowing it and teasing her for it#I don't know. There are a lot of instances of these small intimate details in the middle of what looks like a coworker relationship#Good coworkers‚ but coworkers nonetheless#And ironically it moves me so much? Even more so than Belobog. I've been told several times that Belobog seemed more tight. And I agree#In Belobog people were friends or family or companions but linked by something closer than mere coworkers with Wildfire#Even Sampo in the Underworld was strangely 'theirs'. He had the magenta colour of Wildfire and he was trusted to some extent#The Luofu characters don't have that. And yet the fragments of intimacy scattered through their interactions move me a lot#These are people who have known each other for centuries. Jing Yuan knows of Yukong's youth‚ its joy and grief#He knows Fu Xuan has a sweet tooth and teases her about her height. Quingque does too#Fu Xuan chastises both of them for being lazy but she knows they're smart and good at their job. She plays starchess with Jing Yuan#Quingque mocks Fu Xuan for being a workaholic but is very aware of the weight she carries both in her position and ideas about destiny#I won't mention Yanqing and Bailu because there is obviously more than a coworker bound when it comes to them#But yes I love the moments of intimate knowledge scattered through the Xianzhou‚ so telling of the fact that these people have known#each other for longer than several human lifetimes‚ and that perhaps they don't necessarily regard each other as more than their coworker#But perhaps that's enough in order for them to care. Perhaps in a lifetime over one thousand years the intimacy gained with a coworker#through several centuries is something beyond what we could understand in our decades lifespan#But also‚ perhaps‚ I don't know. Also‚ perhaps‚ the do care beyond coworkers in that strange line between work and friendship#Perhaps it's strange for Xianzhou natives to tell apart that kind of relationship after so much intimacy and knowledge through the years#And perhaps‚ once again‚ as it often happens for them‚ they think they'll always have enough time to tell; until they run out of it#They play chess together. Quingque can lose time because Fu Xuan can't stay mad if she brings her sweets. Are they just coworkers?#We play chess. I know what tea and sweets you like best. I brought them today since you would indulge me and play starchess with me#Thanks for playing with me‚ I'm running out of book puzzles. You keep divining my moves but I'll invent a fake story to distract you#Are we coworkers or something more like friends? Where is the line after so many years?#I talk too much but I love this charged nothingness haha I find it ironically so true to how many relationships in real life develop#And I find it so moving‚ that representation of this endearing smallness of everyday life. Of these small things is life made
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trying to write a short little self reassuring comic in my head with death the wolf bc of my struggle with suicidal thoughts- I truly believe that he would want me to live longer. he wasn't even evil in the movie he was just an antagonist, death surrounds my life so often he's probably like an old friend to me at this point
#personal#speaking as someone whos parents are dead and like half the family members are too#death would want me to live. ive had thoughts when i was younger how it would mock me with all the losses but not anymore though#death exists so we can appreciate the one life given#and living with my abuser who glorifies and fetishizes death a lot it really damaged my psyche#i doubt he likes being used as a threat to control another#suicide mention tw
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#I'm so sick of Touch starvation#I am sick of bringing it Up#I'm sick of pity Hand pats from Friends#I'm sick of clinging to greetings hugs Just to be asked If i'm okay and making Things awkward#I'm sick that No one ever initiates physical affection with me and why would they#I'm sick that I can't bring it Up with my Family because once I did and I was being mocked for it#I'm sick that Not even my Friends want to hug me because I guess its weird when you have Partners and Kids to hug cuddle someone Else#I'm sick of the yearning so much yearning it's some Boulevard of broken Dreams Level Kind of shit#I'm sick that once my sis has a hugging me Phase (only when Shit is horribly horribly wrong mind you) I get called an opportunist#I hate that the nicest hug I've ever gotten was from a stranger and it gave me a monthlong crush#I can still remember what it feels like I've been feeding of it for the past two years#I don't know why I cant have that am I that unloveable and disgusting?#Also I hate that Intervalls between the months Off being fine and being Like this are decreasing rapidly
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hnm.
#why is my family so toxic lol#i try talking to my sister and tell her that theres pandas at the zoo near where we live bc ive never seen pandas irl#and she fucking mocks me#every time i try to have a fucking conversation in this fucking house it turns into a fucking mockery or an argument#im so fuckign sick of it#im fucking sick of wanting to cry everyday#im fucking sick of going to work and working myself to the bone until im drop dead fucking exhausted#only to come home to being mocked or argued with. EVERY DAY.#i cant have a single fucking conversation irl without people growing fucking sarcastic or assholeish and im fuckng SICK of it.#im so fucking mentally physically and emotionally drained. the fuck am i even living for???#like honestly what is the point in ME living???#irl and online. everyone would honestly be fuckng better off without me.#people wouldnt even notice in the end since i fucking suck at responding to shit anyway.
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#I'm just so tired of posts mocking people without siblings#I know in the grand scheme of things it doesn't mean very much#and I know many of these posts are probably made by teenagers to whom sibling status seems much more important than it will in 10 years#but what if we didn't make negative generalizations about people based on circumstances outside their control at *all*?#sure your upbringing affects your personality in some ways!#but maturing is a process of adjustment and of learning to be more considerate of others for EVERYONE#having siblings does not magically speedrun this process for you#just. next time you see a post about how only children entirely miss some essential aspect of human development#stop and think about people with no siblings that you know#which - if you know me - includes me#stop and think about how you would feel if someone made a post like that about a group to which you belong#stop and think about whether you really think people develop fundamental personality flaws based on whether their parents have other kids#stop and think about how much some of us WANTED to have siblings and didn't#how thrilled we were when we got to spend time with a big family or sleep over at a friend's#how much it means when we're able to say to a friend 'you're like the sister/brother I never had'#(one of the 'sisters I never had' is my college roommate btw)#(so I can't have been THAT bad of a roommate)#stop and think and then decide if that's the attitude toward other people that you want your blog to embody#and if this tag rant has made you think 'wow! only children can't take a joke!'#I promise you that's just me. there are plenty of others that can#I also want to add that this is not directed at anyone in particular.#there are many such posts I've seen and I don't think I know the OPs of any of them#this is just a general reflection on how that whole genre of post makes me feell#*feel#eta: and to be clear there's good-natured joking and there's mean-spirited mockery and I'm not always great at telling the difference
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Basically like. Onewhisker definitely has a point in wanting to keep relationships good when WindClan is just now setting up it's borders. Mudclaw instantly jumping to "no we gotta hate the other clans and beat the shit out of them if they look at us NOW" isn't productive and would have been a terrible beginning for WindClan. But also Onewhisker is definitely vulnerable to being taken advantage of. If he's too giving, then that's something the other leaders can exploit and hold over his head. Firestar in particular, cause they're besties, and they're both like "oh windclan owes thunderclan soooooooo much! we HAVE to give them everything or else we're ungrateful brats!" at this point. It's one of the reasons he doesn't bode well as a leader. I find it perfectly believable that he snaps so hard in the other direction when ThunderClan DOES take advantage of his kindness AND he nearly gets assassinated by half of his clan over this. Like goddamn I'd be throwing hands too.
#idk. i kinda relate to onestar in this regard? where other people will do a nice thing for me and ill feel compelled to defend them over it#but said people would also hold that over my head to make me do things i didnt want to do and give them so much#and i felt like i HAD to overcompensate and give them so much ''in return'' cause like. well i didnt want to be ungrateful.#i couldnt ever pay off my debt and i could not get out of it without being shamed. and then id face the consequences of giving too much awa#back at home where my family would be rightfully pissed saying that i was wasting their money by just giving so many things away#and also as soon as the well stopped? id get dropped like a hot potato and antagonized and mocked by those people#thats something ive definitely improved on over time like i dont give people my possessions anymore and i hold ppl borrowing from me accoun#accountable#but being a doormat is something i struggle with to this day. actually going through something that happened cause i was doormat#and idk i see that in onestar. hes being a doormat in starlight. hes being taken advantage of#so i dont blame him for finally snapping and full on being a dick to firestar. he kinda earned it#its better than him giving up everything for him#gn liveread
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anxiety will have you convinced of the dumbest shit ever and yr like thats so fucking stupid <- gets scared anyway
#IM SO SCARED ILL BE IN WASHINGTON AND ILL HAVE TO SAY A WORD THAT MAKES MY ACCENT STAND OUT#AND EVERYBODY WILL THINK IM STUPID AND KICK ME OUT OF THAT STATE. WHY WOULD THEY KICK ME OUT#my accent isnt super suepr heavy unless im With my family that has thicker accents or if m like Rly rly unfocused#i dont conciously hide it or anything its just somrthin i like. started doing at some point. yk#n i like my accent n stuff m judt also scared.. bc ive heard Legit horror stories from like. so msny ppl#abt them or a loved one going to a non southern state snd getting mocked or written off as a hick#and like. that actually is so scary to me... i hatee preconceived notions i hate ppl likee. having opinions of me b4 i meet them#im just rlt scared basically. n i Fucking hate being seen as stupid more than anything on earth i hate being condescended to#and i rly rly rly am scared ppl might hear my accent and treat me like im dumb. DIGH#and its dumb of me to think thay bc my accent seriously isnt that thick. but im scared abyways
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I do remember that, yeah.
I also remember the text above from 5 days ago when my grandmother died and you didn't say a single fucking thing about it. And then went on Facebook and posted pictures of you and your stupid wife putting up your christmakkah tree.
Jesus fucking christ are you serious right now?
#what the actual fuck is wrong with my family????????????#christ i know you left my mom 20 years ago but a little basic compassion goes a long way you shithead#on that note when i called my boss on sunday to tell him i wouldn't be in monday his reaponse was awwww did your grandma die?#said it in a baby mocking voice#like I'm mostly ok BUT WOULD IT KILL PEOPLE TO BE NICE TO ME?#i keep thinking about her frail tiny body just giving up#about how my mom said all she's done the last few months is sleep#i have more memories of growing up with this woman than anything else#like i can't remember doing things with my mom but we basically grew up at my grandparents home#like most of my best memories from when i was a kid was at her house#and she's dead and i just want people to be nice to me!#i don't think that's asking too much!#am i losing my fucking mind?
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white women MUST be stopped as they are a plague upon our society,
#what kind of low born heathen would think to name their child like this#it’s not even cultural.#sure shaniqua or runs with deer are ‘WEIRD NAMES’#but this shit is okay? REALLY?#white people must be stopped they are the bane of societ#i’m like not even joking anymore#they won’t hire someone with a black ‘ghetto’ sounding name like da’quan#or mock native names that have been passed down from generations or are tribal names#but this shit. is okay.#it’s too hard to say xijing so you have to call someone ‘dave’ instead#but if someone doesn’t put the second ‘g’ in little figgus’ name may god have mercy on their soul#there are names that are normal sounding but still uncommon#this shit is you making up a name#i have more respect for the family that named their kids ron harry and hermoine#or like bella edward and jacob than whatever this shit is#don’t get me wrong i don’t respect those people either but it’s better than whatever this is#it’s been an insane trend tho lately like everyone having kids right now is naming them dumbass shit#my racist cousin and his wife named their baby ‘breckin’#and their second one…halsey. like the fucking singer#they tried to lie and say it wasn’t after the singer but they absolutely named her after the singer#even the people i went to highschool with…
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I met a girl when I was fresh out of high school in undergrad who frankly, annoyed me quite a bit, but I also had an inkling to continue to be compassionate to her given a few things about her life/background/family
I ran into her two years ago. Last week, her daughter turned 1. This girl, let’s called her “P”, is a really good example of why I never feel comfortable mocking trad wives
Her perfect trad husband, who was a shining young figure in the local religious community, volunteered in all sorts of groups, well loved in his workplace and everything else, beat her up at 1 month post-partum. I reached out to her after seeing her desperately asking for a stroller on a page, confused and slightly concerned knowing both of them came from wealthy backgrounds.
The reality for lots of tradwives living “perfect lives” is this: P was immediately ostracised. All the wealth of her husband and her family meant absolutely nothing if she wasn’t in favour and doing what she was told. Her child and her well-being didn’t matter. P, at 25 years old, was basically deemed an oopsie, and left on her own to figure out how to pay for herself, a baby, find housing, and every other task you can think of.
Having known many of these women (and supported many of these women), another factor most people don’t consider is this: they are intentionally raised to be helpless. When I immediately offered my support to P, she really needed it. This young woman needed to be guided through how to apply for government assistance, how to weigh up rentals and apply for them, how to apply for jobs, how to sign up for childcare. How to sign up for your own power and internet, and how to connect them.
It wasn’t that she was “stupid”, or incapable, or spoiled. While it looks like they’re being sheltered, in reality, these women are practically being held hostage. Sure, they might be allowed to learn things that are expected of them (see: basic cooking, baking, cleaning, child rearing, women’s bible studies, hosting, and so forth) but they are heavily controlled from family life into marriage life, and they are never given the opportunity or the reality of what many of us would consider basic adult tasks.
She’s doing okay now. Her daughter turned 1, is happy and healthy. They live frugally, but they have a roof over their heads and the essentials. I often babysit for her so she can attend counselling, or go to a woman’s support group. She is painfully aware that she has so much to learn about how to live as an adult.
I don’t envy tradwives, but I don’t find any joy in mocking them either. Even when they live the most picturesque lives, they’re also practically living a real life Jenga game. If (and often, when) it comes tumbling down, they’re screwed too, and they often have 0 skills to help themselves or find community (that again, isn’t carefully curated).
#if anything I would say I pity the majority of them#material living aside - what an awful way to live.#katie rambles#tw domestic violence#tw abuse#ask 2 tag
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