#‘just tell them’ Bet hope I get blocked 💗

[pastelpousay]

I’m so sick of everyone (kinda rant/vent to be deleted)

BRO ISTG THIS WEEK EVERYTIME SOMETHING BAD HAPPENS SOMETHING GOOD HAPPENS THEN IT GOED RIGHT BACK TO BAD. LIKE LITERALLY EARLIER I THOUGHT I FUCKED UP N SHIT AND THEN AFTER I GET AN AMAZING SUPRISE!! 💗 AFTER THAT THERE COMES THE ANON AND THEN I GET SOME SUPER SWEET MESSAGES FROM PPL BUT LIKE

I DOTM EVEN WANNA SAY WHAT THIS IS ABOUT LIKE I WAS JUST TRYING TO BE NICE AND THINK OF MY FRIEND LIKE AND BE KIND ONLY TO BE CALLED SELFISH LIKE WHAT. IDEK THIS PERSON IRL IDK WHY I GIVE A DAMN THEY DONT WVEN CARE ABOUT ME THEY ONLY WANNA TALK TO ME ABOUT THEIR SHIT LIKE DUDE I DONT CARE ABOUT YOUU, FUCK YOU. HOW ARE YOU GONNA TREAT ME LIKE SOME TOXIC FRIEND MEANWHILE ITS NOT EVEN THAT DEEP. IM NOT GONNA FIGHT OVER PIXELS I WAS LITERALLY JUST GOING TO HIDE IT IVE ALREADY BEEN LYING ALL THIS TIME WHAT DOES IT MATTER 💀😭

“You should probably try and let go again” FUCK OFF FUCK OFF FUCK OFF IM NOT DOING WHAT YOU SAY IM NOT A FUCKIN SUCK UP I DONT KNOW I FEEL LIKE THERES SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME BUT LIKE WHAT LIKE WHY DO PEOPLE HATE ME, WHY ARE YOU MAD I LIKE A CHARACTER WHATS?? WRONG WITH MY ART?? SOMETHINGS WRONG WITH ME BECAUSE I LIKE THE SAME CHARACTER AS YOU!! UR SUCH A PICKY BITCH I DONT EVEN KNOW WHY I BOTHERED WITH YOU I WAS PUTTING OFF EVEN INTERACTING WITH YOU CIZ I ALREADY KNEW IT WASNT GONNA GO GOOD THATS WHY I DIDNT WANT TO I SHOULDVE LEFT YOU ALONE BUT IM TO NICE APPARENTLY WHY AM I THE BAD GUY HERE WHY AM I THE BETRAYER (I get it from my man 💙)

I don’t get it I don’t get it it wasn’t even that deep why do I have to do something every time something might go south. ME it’s always me having to do something and never anyone else

Tomorrow I will stop interacting with that mf tomorrow I’m going to block you. DUD IM NOT A STEPPING STONE IM A REAL PERSON WITH FEELINGS I EVEN IF I AM ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE SCREEN. STOP TREATING ME LIKE IM A SUCK UP IM NOT A SUCK UP AND ESPECIALLY NOT FOR YOU. IF I DODNT SEE THE NEED TO APOLOGIZE I WONT IM SICK OF SAYING SORRY, IM SICK OF PEOPLE WANTING THAT, I REFUSE TO APOLOGIZE FOR SOMETHING I CANNOT CHANGE FUCK OFFFFFFF.

Thank you everyone who has ever looked out for me thank you to my friends and mutuals, thank you to everyone who was literally ever nice to me. I HATE EVERYONE BUT YOU 💗/j

Yall I promise I’m not this mean 😭 not unless you give me a reason to (once again from my man 💙)

[shiningmystic]

Hello💗

Can you please tell me about how H feels rn about me and what's hidden from me about him(so context is that he rejected me after showing all signs of attraction and caused me huge anxiety all the way) so i just wanted to know what information is hidden atm and what does the universe want me to know about him in general.

Thanks😊

Hello ab13th I hope you know how much that person doesn’t deserve your worry and energy, not saying they are bad person or anything like that it’s just you are a worthy partner and because someone who gave you signs that they are interested doesn’t mean it’s your fault they didn’t pursue you. If this is based on only passive interaction (like subtle smiles and sweetness) there may be something there but we aren’t responsible to read others minds and that’s something I remind myself everyday when I perceive a rejection.

Anxiety always brings that out in me as well; like we (meaning you and me) did something wrong that made whoever we want to please or invite into our lives reject us. Most of the time (surprisingly) it is the other persons own anxieties that stop them from pursuing us.

I hope that gives you a perspective that calms your anxieties some because we never think that the other person has anxieties plaguing them we never catch onto how it may not be our fault at all.

Now even if that isn’t the case I will see what could be blocking them from pursuing you (and I bet it has nothing to do with you being unlovable or undesirable or even to much)

Now from the page of coins I get an energy of someone growing beautifully in their own skin. Someone who is growing stability in a parts of there life and is learning independence (this could be you or them) there is an energy of not being able to be receptive and present for the person because they may not have the abundance to give to the other and want to grow into there own to be able to fully give in the future.

There is a sense of someone knowing that they will have to change for the other and that is scary; change always is. There is a feeling of unworthiness of deep love or not wanting to be dependent on love because of previous rejection. I’m assuming both of you hold these energies cause you both seem to mirror one another on traumas and fears. So I was onto something before I pulled the cards which isn’t surprising because my channeling has been coming much more naturally.

Also I think these feelings came on to fast for H and they got afraid or nervous about that energy like there was talk about something deeper and it made them realize how unworthy or just not in a place to give that love.

That’s really hard to deal with and I see you both growing into your own.

As advice just be there for one another and take it slower. Maybe not pursue each other to hard to soon and continue to grow into your own person (I’m sorry if you already had a feeling of this or being sick of waiting for something to happen I feel you)

I get why there was passion and excitement for this connection but for some people they may have had previous trauma or experiences that trigger a retreat. I do not see them having ill will or disliking you in any way but maybe both of you don’t hold what the other truly needs atm and that may be why H is not pursuing you; there’s a focus on building personal confidence and worthiness, or even just feeling stable enough in there life to commit to a relationship. Who knows; from the cards they may change their minds and suddenly take a leap haha 😂 it just seems like right now their commitment to you is not something they can focus on and it’s not your fault at all. The 9 of coins shows me that the 2 of cups reversed isn’t rejection but a lack of focus on connecting to a relationship and pursuing other things that builds independence and inner confidence within themselves. From the ace of cups you are right on there attraction to you 100% but your thinking to deeply on why they aren’t pushing forward already, just keep being you and knowing what you want and who you are!

I hope this has helped you figure out some things. Let me know what you think when you have the time! I would love to know more about this if you don’t mind 😌