#—joytalksalot

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would i get cancelled if i just started telling men that they have to wear bras because their nipples r provoking me.

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i havent watched the call me by your name movie, but i am reading the book, and can i just talk about how REAL the author is?????

like when i tell you 70% of the book is just elio's INTRUSIVE thoughts, i mean 70% of the book is LITERALLY ELIOS INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS. like typically id get so bored and hate a book if it was just a characters thoughts the whole time, id be like omggg wheres the drama... babe. his HEAD IS THE DRAMA.

i mean like,, its not your typical "oh he's so fine, i wonder if he thinks of me". nah. its "holy shit hes wearing blue swimming trunks i wonder what they smell like? what would he do if i snuck into his room and put them on after he went swimming so that they're dirty and smell and got myself off in them?" LIKE WHAT?????? bro said "i want to lick every single one of his toes, between every crevice and" HUHH????

i mean honestly, not a big fan of the age gap, and im not saying that i love whatever is going on in elios head, i'm saying i love the way the author wrote this. like it reminds me that elio is really human like the rest of us, and unlike most writing styles, we aren't just seeing 20% of his thoughts, all normal, we're seeing EVERYTHING. the author holds nothing back

(ps i got my nails off so i can use my clicky keyboard again and go back to typing at lightning speed) (this is so refreshing yayayay)

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buckle up bitches im abt to play russian roulette with my drafts

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guys a writer beige flag i have is that i literally can't commit, i didn't think my commitement issues literally reflected in my writing habits its so bad, i'll come up with the best series ideas and quit midway!? to her monster was so clever and then i dropped it, then the one with bokuto and reader growing up and then i dropped it, then it took me THREE years to post the last episode of to her flowers, i dropped m for manipulative (which wasn't that good anyways)....

at least we know why i slay all the drabbles though, short sweet and ignore everyone that screams part two in my inbox TnT

oh, and WHY CAN I ONLY WRITE ANGSTT

i have not had one happy idea since that drabble with omi and the valentines day card, after that it's all been smut or angst i cant generate happy thoughts guys this is so bad

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my theme has literally been black and neon blue for literally forever to match the angst and dark content on my blog.. should i try something new again?? add more colour maybe?

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i feel like ending something in complete unexpected angst is like my form of lazy writing 😭 like if i wanna get it over with ill slap on a major character death, like oh yeah she killed herself and boom im done,, except everyone likes that better??💀

anyways, i need to think up a 3k event so help please🙏🏽

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i haven't seen this much discourse in ages.. 💀

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2 am and i’ve once again fallen into the rabbit hole that is tumblr. i have work in the morning.

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its so sad to know that i've been gone for so long because i've been so busy with school and exams, and all the people i used to talk to everyday have disappeared. there are so many new accounts, new posts, new fics, and some things are different. i don't know when i'll be back, seeing how i've lost so much of my passion and time , but i will. i miss all of you guys <3

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started, posted, and cancelled a haikyuu mystery au series before i even started it, and it unexpectedly blew up, so now i’m trying my best to write the rest of the plot in a way that’ll make everything make sense

because what y/n did seems literally impossible without some kind of magic LOL anyways i need help now, so can someone PLEASE tell me which version you prefer? the series is seen through the eyes of the guys, but i can’t figure out if i want it in first person or third :) oh and these are through bokuto’s eyes

disclaimer: these are not official parts of the story, they are just samples to help me figure out which i want :) THEY’RE UNEDITED TOO

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1) FIRST PERSON

I wonder why I even try anymore.

This was the sole reason why I’ve stayed at home: the looks that everyone is giving me.

Wether I stay at home or face the public, they’re all thinking the same thing — poor boy, lost both his parents in one day, what a pity. They’ll come up to me and offer their condolences, but they’re silently judging me. I can see it in the way their brows furrow, or the way they cannot meet my eyes.

I don’t want to be pitied, not when it makes me feel guilty for not feeling even a quarter of the pain that they’re assuming I do.

“Bo!” Miss Lana greets me, opening her arms and succumbing me in a suffocating embrace. “I am so sorry, my home is always open to you.” And she does the same thing that everyone else is doing: tilts her head, takes his hands, and smiles pitifuly.

Oh fuck me.

2) THIRD PERSON

Bokuto wonders why he even tries anymore.

This was the sole reason why he’s stayed at home: the looks that everyone is giving him.

Wether he stays at home or faces the public, they’re all thinking the same thing — poor boy, lost both his parents in one day, what a pity. They’ll come up to him and offer their condolences, but they’re silently judging him. He can see it in the way their brows furrow, or the way they cannot meet his eyes.

He doesn’t want to be pitied, not when it makes him feel guilty for not feeling even a quarter of the pain that they’re assuming he does.

“Bo!” Miss Lana greets him, opening her arms and succumbing him in a suffocating embrace. “I am so sorry, my home is always open to you.” And she does the same thing that everyone else is doing: tilts her head, takes his hands, and smiles pitifuly.

Oh fuck me, he thinks.

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i’m rooting for first person because it seems kinda more, understanding??? idk, i feel equally and i need help so please do not turn a blind eye to my struggles :(

(ALSO, WOULD YOU RATHER THEY REFER TO Y/N IN THE STORY AS ‘YOU’ OR ‘HER’? BECAUSE Y/N IS A WHOLE MYSTERY, SO IDK)

reply, rblg, asks, idc, just help, please !!!! (u dont have to be a mutual btw)

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for all the 16 y/o’s rebloging 16+ nsfw content and getting hate for that, ignore them. if the work was tagged as 16+, then you are allowed to reblog it 

y’all can’t be making smut content and then tagging it as 16+, then getting mad at said 16 y/o’s for checking things out that they were allowed to

instead of getting mad at them, just tag your work properly

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fluffy sakusa headcanons in inbox please, because im currently dying from period pains

oh, and i just watched my ex bring a girl to the side of his house, they’re smoking weed.

and he looked up at my window and im pretty sure he caught me watching before i could duck.

lol, fun.

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hi babes! <3

unfortunately, i won't be posting chapters (for mfm and with the flowera) both thursday (which is tday where i am) and friday bcuz i'll be busy!

as usual, i also wont be posting on the weekends, but i'll def post monday! <3

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okay so i read this thing a few days back where sakusa (i think it was sakusa i cant even remember) was having a makeout sesh with y/n and like he just cums 😭 it was so well written but i cant find it someone help

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h-hey y’all,, 🥲

i’m rlly overwhelmed with school stuffs rn (BECAUSE FOR SOME FUCKING REASON THE ENTIRE WORLD IS ALREADY ON SUMMER BREAK AND IM NOT) so i think i’m going to end my hiatus around june 25 or like june 30 so i can rlly be focused

(i’m also reading the from blood and ash series, so if you can rec me anything similiar i’ll be v v happy 🧍🏽‍♀️)

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I GOT BORED ND DID WTVA THIS IS BUT IGNORE THE EYEBROWS BCUZ WTF

i acc cannot draw for my life so idk how this happened