#— heartofasoldier.

[oculiaperticlausi]

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Adaline tucks her leg underneath herself on the couch at Mateo's place. As he's working outside, her and Brooklyn are inside with some hot coca in between their hands. Pressing her lips together, the brunette glances up to look at her friend. "I slept with Zachary." She clears her throat. "Not once but twice," she chews on her lower lip as she taps her fingers against her mug. "And I know it's stupid because…" She's been there, she's done it… with Viktor. "But… And don't tell him I said this but he's not so bad." She glances down to her mug, pressing her lips together as she waits for her best friend to say something.

[oculiaperticlausi]

Atticus can't get the image of her out of his head. All the what ifs have been stealing the air away from him, making it impossible to breathe but he can't say any of that to Isabella. Her tears are enough to make him push down his own grief in order to be there for her. It's a welcome distraction from the way his heart is breaking in his chest. He wraps his arms around her, tightening his grip as if it's going to stop her words. How could they not think about the what ifs? If he had brought her with him would she still be alive? Would they be laughing in each other's embrace? He presses his lips together. He lets her go as she pulls away to stand up. He reaches up to take her hand, standing up as he glances in the direction of where Jake is. "Want to get out of here?"

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"If we what?" Isabella echoed, finishing his sentence before he can get a word in edgeways as the tears continue to fall marking haphazard tracks down her face. "If we had of stayed... if we had of taken her with us? How are we supposed to not consider the what if's when she was right there!" She added, as if the guilt baring down on her surrounding her brother and Kai weren't enough. Adding the death of her best friend onto the pile only seemed to pour gasoline onto the already blazing fire. "I'm sorry.. I.." She added as Atticus affirmed he didn't blame her nor regret going to her aid. Reaching for the other she pulled him into a hug, clinging to him until her breathing equalized, tears subsiding and she was able to pull back and shift to stand, extending a hand out to him as she did.

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"Is this seriously all you have in your fridge? how do you survive?"

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“See this line here?” For nearly five minutes now, Quinn had been cooing over Jackson’s open palm. Merely just so she could flirt, making up everything as she went along, a pointer finger running along the creases in his hand. “That’s, like, really good! It’s long - your life line, see? Which is good, given the circumstances. You might just make it out of town alive. Take me with you?”

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[oculiaperticlausi]

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THE SUMMER I TURNED PRETTY 2.03 "Love Sick"

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She'd waited a good while trying to see if Brooklyn would reach for the last piece. Had stared at it a couple of times, but not said much regarding it as they were engrossed in conversation... at least some form of it anyways. "Are you going to-" Juno didn't bother finishing the sentence, instead pointing at it with her finger. "The bacon. It's... taunting me." The poor piece of bacon screaming for her to consume it in its entirety; to savor the salty crunchy delicacy. "I just didn't wanna get it if you planned on it first, you know?"

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A worrier at heart - it felt like that was all Eden was capable of anymore; there wasn't any room left in her for any other emotions, except anger, maybe - at the situation they found themselves in. Months of no answers, of shoddy arrests and then releases - several steps back with every new murder, and none forward. It felt - hopeless, and Eden hadn't felt that way in a very long time. But she could control the small things, maybe - spotting Alara in front of the counter at Rise n' Shine - her body moving before her mind could to saddle up besides her and extend her card out to the barista first. "That's on me." Said with a small smile, Eden glanced down at Alara with her usual worry, "How have you been holding up?"

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Iris was a few coffees, and what felt like a handful of Advil, in when she finally noticed that someone else had taken a seat across from her. Was the coffee shop busy? Were they sitting here first? Did she care? "Do I look as bad as I feel?" she asked, although she knew that the hangover this morning still wasn't bad enough to keep her from doing it all again tonight.

[oculiaperticlausi]

@heartofasoldier

Ooh, that feels good. Yeah, that’s because you’re cold-hearted. For everyone else, maybe. Not for you.

[intothevnkncwn]

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Location: On the way to Emre's house

"I need you to steal my house key back from Hazal," spoken as if he'd asked her to simply pick up a package off the porch. "But she can't know that I told you to do it." Incurring the wrath of his sisters was daunting enough, but Hazal in particular? Nightmarish and she'd no doubt find some way to playfully spite him as a result. Either by climbing through a window regardless or scrawling something obscene on his bathroom mirror in lipstick, whatever sprung to her brilliant yet terrifying mind that day.

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Mateo lays next to her, his fingers brushing through the strands of her hair. He's been practically attached to her hip and since he only has the farm to take care of along with some in house therapy appointments he goes wherever she does. He knows they are supposed to be taking this slow but he hasn't been able to let her out of his sight after his friend Stefan died. He leans in, placing his forehead against hers as he moves his fingers down to her exposed back. "Move back in," he whispers. "Please."

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location: Marina General Hospital

"Hey you, I brought you a coffee and some snacks from the cafe," Zara greets as she approaches the tired-looking frame of Matthew. "I hope the coffee is still hot enough, it took a while to find you. I think I walked around in a circle a few times... How do you not constantly get lost?" She offers a warm smile, hopeful she can lift his spirits just a little. "When does your shift end?"

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His expression falls when she flinches, it changes his entire demeanor. He steps closer, his lips parting to apologize. But before he can say anything she's spitting out words at him. Each one brings tears to his eyes, for the first time since she walked out on him. He can feel the emotion building up inside of him, the emotion he has tried so hard to bury as far down as possible because he didn't want to be weak or a cry baby but losing her had been one of the hardest things he's ever done. She's been his since... forever. Since they were fifteen. Hell, maybe even before they had an official relationship. He knows his mother adored her, wanted nothing more than for them to end up together but life got so hard the last couple of years. Each month that went by, each pregnancy test that was taken, the hostility in their relationship made it impossible to breathe in his own home, made it impossible not to step on the eggshells spread out all across the floor. He shakes his head, stepping closer. "How many times do I have to tell you none of that matters to me? We can adopt! We can find other ways to build a family together but right now you're my fucking family, Brooklyn. Losing you is fucking killing me! Do you hear me? It's fucking killing me." He closes the rest of the distance between them, his hands raising up and resting on each side of her neck as he tugs her closer, pressing his lips against hers. "I want you." He mutters before returning back to the kiss.

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The sudden shift in his demeanor is is so abrupt she flinches some, taken aback by his outburst and yet not surprised to say the least. She knew her actions had been the cause of his confusion. Hell, she was confused herself for the longest time. But after not one but three intensively intrusive tests had all but confirmed her fears she had acted selfishly and out in anger. Hopeful that she could push him away while avoiding the truth in the matter and that was that she couldn't complete her wifely duty and give them what they both had wanted for so long; a family of their own. Turning away from him she attempted to swallow her own fear but to no avail as it escaped in a heated apology. "I'm sorry -- okay. I messed up, I messed up so many times all because I thought it would be easier, that it would be enough to make you realize you're better off alone. Is that what you want to hear? Because it's fucking true, okay." What she wanted didn't matter, what she wanted she could never have. But he could. There was still hope for one of them. "I want you -- I want you to be happy. To be the dad you've always wanted to be, not weighted down by some ball and chain that is your defective wife. Because I can't give you what you want, what we both want. I'm the one with the problem Mateo. Me. I got tested, multiple times and every doctor told me the same damn thing, that I can't conceive and I'm sorry, I'm sorry because I failed us both and I couldn't hate anyone more than I hate myself for that very reason." @oculiaperticlausi

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“God - can you move it, gigantor?” Rosa didn’t bother trying to get along with Jackson when she was in a good mood. Today, she felt like she was rotting on the inside out, and they’d played a back and forth game of trying to move out of each other’s way for one too many steps now. “You practically reach the ceiling and yet you still manage to just - be impossible to avoid. I should see you coming a mile away, how do you just. Still get in the way.”

[tcintedsvcrets]

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"You should know," Sera started, setting the take away coffee she'd gotten for him - already knowing exactly what his order was after months of hearing it over and over again. A fact that still didn't lose it's touch when she thought about how much they'd learned about each other in such a short amount of time, "You're quite the topic in the nurses lounge at the moment." Her own cup lifted to her lips as she offered a small smile - one that perhaps covered up how she felt about it all, after their relationship had been discovered.