#— chai's void updates. !!

[chaisshitposts]

istg if the reason why I haven't been wakin' up in the void state long enough to manifest things immediately is cause of my void assumptions and concept I'm gonna fuckin' scream 🕵️ how could I be a master of somethin' I didn't even understand?? 😭

i have woken up in the damn void before, my consciousness is always asleep while in the void BUT I HAVEN'T EVEN FIGURED OUT WHAT THE VOID MEANS??? how could I possibly skim over such a CRUCIAL PART??! I've been tellin' all these folks to ask themselves what the void means to them but I haven't even asked myself because I THOUGHT I knew the answer but it turned out I fuckin' didn't.

THE VOID IS WHEN YA BECOME YER GODDAMN SUBCONSCIOUS?!?! IT'S THE GODDAMN SUBCONSCIOUS' PLAYGROUND??? no wonder why ya can't fuckin' SEE OR FEEL NOTHIN' IN THAT STATE, it DOESN'T HAVE EYES ITS FUCKIN' BLIIIIIIIIIIIIND AND YOURE JUST A FUCKIN' FORMLESS THING. istg if I wake up in the void tonight just 'cause I finally figured this shit out I am goin' to scream my lungs out.

I'm so fuckin' stupid I hate it here im gonna curl into a ball and sob into the tile floors of my kitchen.

ladies, gents, and nonbines... before doin' somethin' ya should always figure out what it is first yer doin'.

[insanitybl00m]

I was debating making this a oneshot but I will start crying if it is a oneshot sooo here take my little idea from the void of my brain

(update from future bloom: I made it a oneshot, you are about to read the oneshot)

When Phil woke up the nest was empty. Mushroom hat discarded, Skull mask abandoned. He clung to the hope that maybe the kids were just playing in the rose sanctuary but his calls echoed with no reply.

His murder clung close, the crows tried their best to comfort their avian but the tears still clung to his face.

Phil was familiar with most of his crows, each had specific mannerisms and some even had glowing hearts on their feathers.

Two however seemed different.

They were smaller, much more like fledglings just learning that it was safe to leave the nest.

The crows seemed to instantly notice the new addition to their murder and instantly tried to protect them from any others. Including Phil.

"Guys can I please look at them, I need to check if they have any injuries." He said. The murder allowed him to check on the baby crows.

One of the crows had a bright red flower stuck in between her feathers. The other had traces of potato crumbs on their beak.

He held his hand out, hoping the two fledglings would hop in his hand, and to his surprise, they did.

"Amapolas, much like a little daughter of mine." He said, voice low. "And potato crumbs, huh, couldn't help yourself there had to get a little late night snack?"

The fledgling with the amapola hit the other with her wing. The two then started fighting, hitting each other with their wings.

"Oi am I going to have to break you two up again?"

The murder, watching this play out, was very confused.

With an excited caw, the crow with the amapola flew up and rested on Phil's shoulder. "Hola mi niña, I was scared that you had hatched and flew away."

Brian started to speak. "It seems I can only communicate through Brian now, huh, weird.”

Phil laughed. “You’ll gain your voice with time, how are you feeling Chay?” He turned his attention back to the other fledgling.

“Brian will butcher my words, but I meant it when I said me and Lullah will always be together. Even after hatching.” Brian cawed.

“I’m just glad you two are still here even when you hatched and could essentially go anywhere.”

Chayanne cawed and flew up next to Lullah, the two of them nuzzled their baby feathers against Phil’s neck.

“Do you guys want to head back home?” The two fledglings nodded and off they went.

The family was reunited even after the eggs hatched. They could spend their time without worrying about any harm to the fragile shells they left behind in the rose sanctuary.

[xannador]

Mostly (h)Armless, a Hi-Fi Rush fan comic: page 31

Updates every Sunday! Read from the beginning:

https://comicfury.com/read/mostlyarmless/comics/1795336

If you want to read the next 5 pages right now, please consider joining my Patreon! You will get exclusive access to the uncensored version of the story as well as WIPs of pages, and bonus/concept art.

https://www.patreon.com/Xannador

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I'm short on time so I'm throwing this page into the void a few hours early. Now, if you have a good memory of the museum level, you will know exactly what's behind that glass. It's just up to Indiana Chai to not get pancaked. And he sure is getting tired. I guess he doesn't look too bad here but on the uncensored version it's another story.

[redraven393]

Catching up with Philza QSM Vod

July 21

WAKE CHAYANNE YOU WILL DIE IF U DON’T DO YOUR MISSIONS OMG PLS

“I’ll stay Alive dad” he says as he did ZERO MISSIONS- lol he did just be Cucurucho all week

“bad lookn SO HOT” QSMP had change him omg

??was Dapper talking to Bad’s Chat??-oh yes he did!!

PHIL NO D:<

“I can be MORE of a shit head”

YES make a new Weapon- cause apparently yours are trash according to Etoiles

Ohh new music- its nice :D

the Dorime song is a copy right one good to know

?? who ruin the old man’s lawn??

CHAYANNE IM GLAD TO SEE YOU KIDO WE MISS YOU

“im not dead yet” he lied

Omg its Tallulah lol- PHILZA PLS THE 4th wall was just fixed u cant break I on first day

Selective literacy of course

POG to Tallulah for trying to roleplay Chayanne she is such a trooper

Yes that so crazy yes yes

Tubbo raid hello

Disclaimer : NOT CHAYANNE

Ohh a forbidden block?- oh don’t you dare play dirty Challulah

Omg PHIL pls these kids have a life

YAY EARLY BIRB STREAM - Omg Tallulah is ALSO ONE OF THE CROWSS??

Ohh MOVIE night?

Safety first before adventure

Aww but Phil think about the AEISTHETIC for your Angel of Death thing- SEE you got ALL the Materials

Godamn those hips- PHILZA PLS

Lol the kids alredy have them

I mean Etoiles was Right your gears was quite shit

Thanks Tubbo

LUCKY DUCKS YEAHH

Ah yes of course “chayanne” did not know Phil adopted her- PHIL PLS THE SONG

Oh god they do that back then?

Challulah update time

Oh the French national day?- ohh Horses- you guys did WHAT to Foolish??- and you Guys become him??-  Kelp didn’t help oh no-  mean he did ask for it- of Course Tallulah will know better.

Xoxox gossipgirl

Of course you are Chayanne kiddo we all believe you

 Ohh new plant pet- RAINBOW??GLAS??- oh no they can get damage now??

Yeah aint that crazy she is with u guys in spirits

Oh god

Love that Phil’s threat was not an attempt at harm but his rage and ire

Oh fuck that Nightmare – ah FUCK CHALLULAH

OH HEY THE BRAZILLIANS

HEY RICHA BABY HOW ARE YOUU

Hey MIKE hii PAC and AYEPIERRE

Oh no the wither

Oh no why are u guys sayog sorry??- omg are they BRIBING HIM???

LOL THEY DID-LMAO they are so Funny- OMG PAC AND MIKE is so FUKIN Awsome

AWW YES THE WEIRD GRAPLING THINGY

Omg pierre don’t do that

BAD MADE THAT NEW BUILDING 2 DAYS AGO?

Yeah Etoiles was so Great

Opp Challulah?- ah forbidden space ok

Huh so the Lucky blocks have a cool down time? – holly that is long

Ah of course Fit will find a way to go around it

“don’t do illegal things in front of the eggs” Philza warns him “some of them have more power than you”, Pierre smiled warily “yes” he agree easily as he  lock eyes with the young egg Infront of him “ especially you”

Pierre where the fuq are we??-  YEY FLASH LIGHT

OMG it’s a DRILL

Diamond termites? Oh of course you want them Challulah

Cute and Deadly the perfect baby

Yu cant put your near death encounter at the end Challulah you’ll just put him more into a paranoia

It is true

Lol Chayanne pls you have no additional life anymore

DON’T SULK- oh now you trying to be cute eh?- he’s being a brat.

THAT IS A GOOD QUESTION THE KID SHOULD HAVE FLOAT ON WATER ALL THE TIME

LOL HOME

TALLULAH NOOO- LOL 4th wall GONE- oh Tallulah got new PC nice :D

Whats with the fence?- Reddit /architect

Reject the gay/j

Ohhh she plans ey?- a diagram?- YESS

Ohh YES

Omg that would be SO COOL

Aww thanks BAD and Dapper

He is such a good kid-

Oh wait oh no shit Tallulah would die- lol I could hear Kristin on background.

O yah this is goig to be so cool

MOVIE NIGHTT

Lol there is no going back now

Hi again Pierre

HI bad

Yeah you sleepy little shit- HAH clingy- SINGLE FATHER ARC lets GOO

I think Richa have the most parents I think

Dapper IS crazy- lol-

“They LISTEN to YOU”

YEAH the Cinema is fuked

Oh OMG CHAY- imean CUCURUCHO- but lets be Real Chayanne :D

Yeah ya lil shit

Opp where to go kiddo?

Omg bad pls nooo

Oh no Challulah voided- eh?

YEAH WORK OUT TIMEE

HI JAIDEN

Cucurucho the fuk?- hey no CHEATING-

HAH GET PRANKED- oh hey Chayanne- lol Kritin

Woah2 Cucurucho chill-  Cucurucho u know Phil can just teleport

Ungay him Phill

Oh hey Foolish

OMG you two- BBH and Foolish is such riot

AWW Preety :D

“a two year old Gunned me down before” foolish says

oMG you all killed me- Chayanne noo

“KELP DIDN’T HELP”

??- omg Foolish Noo- OOOOHHH the Teather is shiny now

Ballon oh you can bumb in to them

POPCORN-NOOOO0- no Jaiden

Hi Pomme

HI WALTER BOB

YEAHHH POP CORNN

Ohh GIFT

Lol the Barbie posters – omg you can put the ballon in the box- Ballon for Chayanne

Retail  Philza – Barbie ticket is gone – good lord he sound so used to it.

OH CHOKY MILK

Oh hey Walter- TICKETS –

FOOLISH WTF??

Hey Cellbit.

“im A bby gurll”

MOVIE TIMEE- yeh get the ballon – YOOO

Oh what happened to Walter?- oh yeh poor guy need to get out-MOVIEMOVIEMOVIE

cant fit all of it sadge

[cookie-kat777]

I went looking for a KP fic on AO3 that hasn't updated in a while. I have been searching for 45 minutes and I think it's been deleted. 😭

Does anyone know the name or author of this fic?:

It's a mixed media fic where Porsche is a journalist at an lgbtq music magazine and he profiles Kinn, the lead singer of a famous band called Void. His brothers and Tawan are in the band also, and Kinn has announced he's leaving. Kinn is the adoptive father of a boy called Chai, the love child of Tawan and Kinn's best friend, who has gone missing.

[thefiresystem]

Oh hey quick question which of the pronouns you just listed had been included in the original too? I'm trying not to enter any sets twice for the same person, so if you could lmk that'd be great :)

-Saturn

The ones listed before todays update were discord/discords/discordself

note/notes/noteself

vamp/vamps/vampself

void/voids/voidself

ghoul/ghouls/ghoulself

moon/moons/moonself

fi/fir/fire/fiery/fireself

rose/roses/roseself

vile/viles/vileself

Dark/darker/darks/darkest/darkself

Scre/scream/screams/screams/screamself

Hor/horror/horror/horrors/horrorself

Ter/terror/terror/terrors/terrorself

Black/black/blacks/blacks/blackself

Ni/nigh/night/nights/nightself

Chai/chain/chains/chains/chainself

Spi/spike/spikes/spikes/spikeself

Alt/alter/alternative/alternatives/altself

[amoebo-id]

a o t d !!!

no more than 1 release per artist to keep it interesting. selection and ranking is arbitrary and would prob be wildly different if i did this tomorrow. also i only went down to #42 cause everything after that didn’t feel like real aotd status - at least as far as the specific relationships i built over the past 10 yrs with the music i was listening to

#1 laurel halo quarantine

nobody did machine-body dialectic like laurel halo in 2012. i loved everything else from her this decade too but every time i listened to Carcass it made me leave my body physically. absolutely unreal album art too

https://laurelhalo.bandcamp.com/track/carcass-2

#2 e+e the light that you gave me to see you

2012 was a good year. pop/ambient/noise/radio-dj-tag sound collage ascended to spiritual intensity. makes you feel like a child experiencing awe. also fire-gut used to have probably my favorite music video ever but i think it’s gone now

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-p-SSuwW9cw

#3 ilovemakonnen 5

not to be confused with Drink More Water 5, this one’s from 2010 during his mostly-forgotten diy outsider-pop phase. off-key singing and amateur beats and the sheer absolute joy of making cool songs. all 5 are perfect

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORKpg_-z0Mk

#4 macintosh plus floral shoppe

would’ve made top 10 on album art alone. music, aesthetics, and cultural impact are inseparable here but going back to the album reminded me just how engaging its 2010s-updated chopped-and-screwed sound is, musically not just conceptually

https://vektroid.bandcamp.com/track/420

#5 jason lescalleet this is what i do 17

hard to pick a favorite from jason lescalleet’s semi-monthly document of his electroacoustic / field recording / tape loop practice but i’ve cried to multiple tracks on tiwid 17 so it gets the nod. couldn’t find any of them online so here’s something else of his

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t33x8OOm68E

#6 barrio sur बड़ा शोक (heart break)

dedekind cut guy’s weird one-off side project ended up being my favorite thing to come out of the last few years’ obsession w cowboy/western/country music/aesthetics. pure mystery

https://soundcloud.com/user-366783613/redemption-7inch

#7 cities aviv come to life

i think maybe people thought cities aviv was just another no-flow pseudo-”conscious rap” type rapper in 2014 but actually this album is nuts. hyper-energetic vaporwave rap? what if death grips were happy? idk

https://citiesaviv.bandcamp.com/track/url-irl-2

#8 beach boys the smile sessions

this cool fresh 1960s rock myth arrived fully formed and way more fun than the other ones. brian wilson’s concepts and songwriting got so unwieldy we had to wait 50 years to hear the sessions. i don’t care about conversations about his genius or whatever these songs kick ass

https://oldmasterpainter.bandcamp.com/track/surfs-up

#9 mindspring memories & intl. debris international memories

did this really only come out in 2017? i feel like i’ve been listening to it since i was born. tangential lateral kind of wormhole out of vaporwave into two meditative spiritual infinite-feeling loops that perfectly complement each other

https://noproblematapes.bandcamp.com/track/sad-horizons

#10 nyege nyege tapes sounds of sisso

absolutely obnoxiously insanely high energy high pitch high bpm dance music. i can’t believe this isn’t what people mean when they say future bass. set me down the path of historical and contemporary non-”global north” ideas about dance/rhythm/bass which i’m still on

https://nyegenyegetapes.bandcamp.com/track/mshamba-video-mster

#11 blithe field face always toward the sun

the most gorgeous implementation of the sorta-ambient guitar-looping vignette aesthetic. is this a real trope or did i listen to this album so much i convinced myself it was a thing? for me this is the sound of what its like to feel completely content with life and at ease in the moment

https://blithefield.bandcamp.com/track/zen-den

#12 anohni hopelessness

listening to this album and singing along while driving my car made me feel absolutely disgusting. unbelievable hooks, grossly hi fi sound design, and overblown drama add up to imo a scary effective type of explicitly political or ‘protest’ music

https://anohni.bandcamp.com/track/drone-bomb-me

#13 21 savage, offset, & metro boomin without warning

why is these 3 pop stars’ vaguely halloween-themed one-off collab my favorite trap album? 21 savage, offset, and metro boomin were all wildly corny in different ways but everything was perfectly balanced. i hope metro boomin makes like one seriously ambient album next decade

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bWv-bR_X-VM&list=PLC1uUM4twa8i6zsD_Sn1LRUq4vhl_PLCx&index=11&t=0s

#14 laura les big summer jams 2018

‘crying in the club’ type bangers with no fear of ugliness and no fear of beauty and no fear of wildly unfashionable tropes like skrillex-y dubstep and guitar solos. so much input from other trans/queer artists it felt like a big t4t party

https://osno1.bandcamp.com/track/the-river-feat-scum-yung-skrrt-and-99jakes

#15 triad god nxb

the other triad god tape from 7 years later is just as good. what was this man doing in the intervening time? i just imagine him riding london public transit while it rains or something. i love knowing that most of his cantonese spoken-word/rap parts are insults and jokes rather than like, melancholy observations

https://soundcloud.com/hipposintanks/triad-god-remand

#16 dj koze knock knock

what if pop music sounded like this? somehow every song on here is wildly danceable, wildly sing-alongable, and also wildly detail-oriented. feels like a transmission from an alternate present where things are okay

https://djkoze.bandcamp.com/track/club-der-ewigkeiten

#17  ocora world of traditional music

box set of “world music” recordings from the label that french electronic composer pierre schaeffer started in the 1950s as a project to teach people in rural west africa how to dj. ethnography can be a fucked up idea but afaik ocora is one of the good ones and if you can sorta try to disengage from the tropes/cliches that get imposed on it, the music is phenomenal. hard to find a track specific to this box set but here’s another from the label

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XJm8rn6gW5I

#18 oneohtrix point never replica

opn feels like an artist i’ve ‘grown out of’ i guess but samples never felt more alive or more dead than they did on replica. set a template for the kind of melancholy ‘soundscape’-y vibe that i spent years trying to find more of after

https://oneohtrixpointnever1.bandcamp.com/track/power-of-persuasion

#19 rihanna anti

the most perfect imaginable pop album. i keep trying to move it higher up. i almost put club chai vol 1 on this list purely cause of the Woo remix but then i remembered the original is better

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_dDCUKElEwk

#20 colleen a flame my love a frequency

colleen’s ultra deadpan singing and wriggly rhythmic synth put me in a trance. everything sounded dry as hell even though it was covered in reverb. i think maybe some people were put off by the corny song names and lyrics

https://colleencolleen.bandcamp.com/track/separating

#21 dj paypal drake edits

back when drake seemed like a sorta-shitty dude rather than seriously creepy, dj paypal used the power of footwork to expose both the melancholy-ambient modality and the serious-bass-music modality latent in his voice and beats

https://mallmusicinc.com/track/brand-new

#22 huerco s. for those of you who have never (and also those who have)

not really as ambient as it first seems imo, but rather like a really intense focus on what we mean when we describe things as ‘static’ or ‘dynamic’. i know it’s corny but i wanna say these tracks are fully both and fully neither

https://brianleeds.bandcamp.com/track/promises-of-fertility

#23 girls rituals reddishness

for a track so deliberately shitty-sounding I Know had no right to be so fucking danceable. persona and production synthesized into the only ‘singer-songwriter’ music i could really get into

https://temporaryenjoyment.bandcamp.com/track/i-know

#24 chromatics kill for love

fakeass 80s retro melancholia digitized and pushed so far past pastiche it turned into pure slime. the phone call in There’s A Light Out On The Horizon came straight from the void

https://soundcloud.com/johnnyjewel/chromatics-kill-for-love-album

#25 actress ghettoville

the only genuinely post-apocalyptic music. specifically the postapocalypse in wall-e but if there was no wall-e to clean it up

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QcCPdfUFq6k

#26 playboi carti die lit

every beat on this album was reducible to a 4-second loop that perpetually demanded its own repetition and playboi carti somehow knew exactly what to do with them

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-2pjiKmhlAI

#27 charli xcx vroom vroom

the charli xcx that came after this was fun, but there was black hole levels of power compacted into when she said vroom vroom on Vroom Vroom

https://soundcloud.com/vroomvroomrecordings/charli-xcx-vroom-vroom

#28 pacific breeze: japanese city pop, aor & boogie 1976-1986

it’s kind of amazing to think that this compilation only exists because vaporwave aesthetics made ‘japanese grocery-store kitsch from the 80s’ a marketable thing in the us. anyway every single one of these is an absolute bop

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jl91bvEKj20

#29 young thug barter 6

i can’t get enough of listening to young thug’s voice. i’ve seen his rhythmic-melodic-textural sensibility described as virtuosic and i don’t know really if that term means anything but it feels right to me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qg9ZxQKSDuw

#30 magic eye babylon

smeared dreamy lo-fi guitar music w wistful buried melodies pushed to an extreme. every song sounded the same and i wish there was more than the one cassette

https://magiceye.bandcamp.com/track/flame

#31 tirzah devotion

you could say this was ‘stripped down’ r&b but i think more accurately what separated it was that every sound stood exactly and only for itself

https://tirzah.bandcamp.com/track/basic-need

#32 mount eerie clear moon

it’s amazing how well mount eerie navigated the move from a lo-fi sound/mode/affect to a hi-fi sound/mode/affect. clear moon wasn’t his first attempt but it was the one that most embodied the feeling of the new possilibities that had been opened up

https://pwelverumandsun.bandcamp.com/track/through-the-trees-pt-2

#33 kelela aquaphoria

this mix was such a good idea it immediately seemed shocking nobody else had tried afaik. and kelela executed it so well you forgot the tracks already existed in other contexts

https://soundcloud.com/kelelam/aquaphoria

#34 james ferraro skid row

not sure what it means that the only james ferraro i really love is also the one i think of as the least abstract/conceptual. his recited lyrics had a rare spoken-word-poetic power

https://breakworldrecords.bandcamp.com/track/to-live-and-die-in-la

#35 salyu x salyu s(o)un(d)beams

absolutely unbounded sense of joy and creativity and possibility hovering between bangers-lite and ‘soundscape’-y electronic manipulation

https://soundcloud.com/snouu/salyu-x-salyu-s-o-un-d-beams

#36 dj rashad just a taste vol 1

double cup got all the press but it was so smoothed-over it could never have done something as absurdly beautiful as Ghost or even Go Crazy

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OZuHPAbte9U

#37 yves tumor serpent music

i’m sorta put off by the high-gloss sheen of music like this but serpent music somehow had the right combination of total cohesion and a ridiculous density of impactful moments

https://soundcloud.com/pan_hq/yves-tumor-the-feeling-when-you-walk-away-pan-73?in=pan_hq/sets/yves-tumor-serpent-music-pan

#38 maral mahur club

lo-fi beat collage elevated to something that could actually genuinely be called world music

https://astralplanerecordings.bandcamp.com/track/avesta-khani-reggaeton

#39 lucki ecks watch my back

did not expect this super low-stakes sadboy trap to end up on this list but i love his min-effort flow and somehow every beat is exactly the vibe even when the tracks aren’t volume balanced

https://soundcloud.com/boob7/leave-wit-you-prod-plu2o-nash-clams-casino?in=boob7/sets/watch-my-back

#40 arca stretch 2

not sure why i get more out of arca’s nonsense broken-beat non-rap than any of her later projects

https://unonyc.bandcamp.com/track/tapped-in

#41 klein only

a new way to do fucked up noise w pop leanings. ‘audacitycore’

https://klein1997.bandcamp.com/track/pretty-black-2

#42 city arcadia

another mysterious transmission, this time w lots of harp

https://soundcloud.com/halcyon-veil/city-arcadia

[donnarider]

Some random facts and rl shit

This post is sort of a behind the scenes for chapter 3 of my Klance soulmate au

First some random (fun?) facts:

Like the nerds we are me, my beta&friend @alteanmoonchild, @beetle-love, and @lee1810 actually celebrated Lance’s birthday. We put on face masks and watched voltron, it was glorious ^-^

I had immense difficulties with the texts. I’m the dad friend™ (gonna cosplay Shiro) and wrote everything in proper English and all. Everytime alteanmoonchild made me delete an apostrophe or end a sentence without a period, I died a little inside.

The disgusting tea Lance drinks and Keith’s “Heathen” reaction were inspired by an actual conversation me and alteanmoonchild had when she told me about a chai latte coconut thing with white choclate or something. (ewww)

The restaurant scene also sparked a dicussion about what food Lance and Keith would order and eventually led to the pineapple pizza debate. (also ewww)

We had quite a few food/drink debates, e.g. when making cocoa, do you put in milk first or the powder (I do milk - powder, she does powder - milk) we almost started a war.

At one point we were pretty tired (3am or something) and couldn’t form coherent senteces anymore, I’d like to quote myself here for a sec “Talk is a word right?”

The sentences “Thx Keith”, “Keith shook his had in fucking disgust” and “he vomited rainbows” existed at some point. (again, we were really tired)

Writing a fanfic together is so much more fun! 11/10 would recommend!

Now on why I took forever to update:

In case you didn’t know, I failed university a couple of months ago and dropped out. Bascially I failed an advanced Japanese test 3 times (because mental health was shit and Japanese is hard) and therefore could not continue my studies. I was almost finished with my major (English) but would have had to start a new minor from scratch to get my bachelor, meaning I would have had to study 3 more years (I already had 3 and 1/2 years behind me at that point so thanks but no thanks) Stupid German system

Anyways... I worked at a clothing store part time for a couple of months until I could apply for a full-time job and this past month I suddenly got more hours than usually at that store. So yeah... work was in the way.

Then I had to apply for a new actual job, had job interviews and then had to work a couple of days at that job so they could decide if they wanted to hire me. Good news: I got the job. It’s actually an apprenticeship (is that what you call it in America? idfk) in the most wonderful bookshop I’ve ever been to. We have a fucking café in their, a juice stand, a carrousel in the children’s section and a roof terrace where the customers can read. It’s beautiful and giant and I feel so blessed to be given this chance honestly. The English novel section alone is to die for. Anyway that starts in two days and I’m stressed and scared and feel like dying but yeah... I’m also really really happy!

Because the new job is in another city and I can’t drive two hours every day and rely on public transportation (which is shit in the part of Germany I live in) I’ve also been looking for a new flat. So more stress.

A lot of my free time is ‘lost’ to my #1 hobby, cosplay. We had a big con last month where we cosplay greek gods in a big group and I worked on my cosplay for quite a while. (I was Poseidon and had to build a trident and all) If you’re interested in that, check out my cosplay tag.

Mental health’s been a bitch. I had a lot of void days and basically just lay in bed a lot. I had existencial crisis almost daily because if I hadn’t gotten that job I would have had to move in with my parents again and I’d rather die. Also my funny little brain kept telling me that everything that I write is complete garbage so that wasn’t helping either. You can all thank alteanmoonchild for motivating me and always offering to help, without her this would have probably taken another month.

So yeah, this is it. I don’t feel like I have to justify why it took me so long because I have a life after all but I just wanted to let you guys know this so you have some background and can understand it better. Thanks to everyone who actually took the time and read this ♥

[xiaoyaoma]

[Updated]Flavor or Choice

Emma helped us with the code so that all the options can be displayed

/* *  Xiaoyao & Lorenzo *  Tea Box Project *  This code is the input part of the project *  the input includes three switches *  the output is the lCD Screen *  A person uses the Arduino kit on a teabox to choose his/her/it’s *  tea via a multiple choice menu. The choice is based on their mood. *  Feedback (the type of tea that the person need) are displayed on *  the LCD screen. *   */

int C1 = 0; int R1 = 0;  int R2 = 0;   int R3 = 0;

//delcaring switch pins int sw1_pin = 2; int sw2_pin = 3; int sw3_pin = 4;

//current state of the switches int sw1_state = 0; int sw2_state = 0; int sw3_state = 0;

//previous state of the switches int sw1_preState = 1; int sw2_preState = 1; int sw3_preState = 1;

//counter for the number of presses int sw1_counter = 0; int sw2_counter = 0; int sw3_counter = 0;

boolean sw1_pressed = true;

#include <Wire.h> #include <LiquidCrystal_I2C.h> // Set the LCD I2C address LiquidCrystal_I2C lcd(0x3F, 2, 1, 0, 4, 5, 6, 7, 3, POSITIVE);  

void setup() {  lcd.begin(16,2); //initialize lcd  lcd.backlight();

 // initialize the button pins  pinMode(sw1_pin, INPUT_PULLUP);  pinMode(sw2_pin, INPUT_PULLUP);  pinMode(sw3_pin, INPUT_PULLUP);

 Serial.begin(9600);

}

void loop() {

//if nothing is pressed  if(sw1_counter == 0 && sw2_counter == 0 && sw3_counter == 0 ){  homeScreen();  }

 // read the switch state ��sw1_state = digitalRead(sw1_pin);  sw2_state = digitalRead(sw2_pin);  sw3_state = digitalRead(sw3_pin);

// if sw1 is pressed  if(sw1_state != sw1_preState && sw1_state == HIGH) {    sw1_pressed = true;    sw1_counter += 1;

   delay(200);  }

 Serial.print("sw1_presses:");  Serial.print(sw1_counter);  Serial.print(" sw1_state");  Serial.println(sw1_state);

 sw1_preState = sw1_state;

 // if sw2 is pressed  if(sw2_state != sw2_preState && sw2_state == HIGH) {    sw2_counter += 1;    delay(200);  }

 Serial.print("sw2_presses:");  Serial.println(sw2_counter);

 sw2_preState = sw2_state;

 //if sw3 is pressed  if(sw3_state != sw3_preState && sw3_state == HIGH) {    sw3_counter += 1;

   delay(200);  }

 Serial.print("sw3_presses:");  Serial.println(sw3_counter);  Serial.println(" ");

 sw3_preState = sw3_state;

 // select the firt row  if(sw1_counter == 1 && sw2_counter == 0 && sw3_counter == 0){    R1 = 1;    R2 = 0;    R3 = 0;  }

 // select the second row  if(sw1_counter == 0 && sw2_counter == 1 && sw3_counter == 0){    R1 = 0;    R2 = 1;    R3 = 0;  }

 // select the third row  if(sw1_counter == 0 && sw2_counter == 0 && sw3_counter == 1){    R1 = 0;    R2 = 0;    R3 = 1;  }

 int total_counter = sw1_counter + sw2_counter + sw3_counter;  if( total_counter > 2){    R1 = R2 = R3 = 0;    sw1_counter = sw2_counter = sw3_counter = 0;  }

 switchOne();  switchTwo();  switchThree();

}

void switchOne(){  if(R1 == 1){   if(sw1_counter == 1 && sw2_counter == 0 && sw3_counter == 0){      questionScreen();     }

  if(sw1_counter == 2 && sw2_counter == 0 && sw3_counter == 0){    optionOne();     }

  if(sw1_counter == 1 && sw2_counter == 1 && sw3_counter == 0){    optionTwo();     }

 if(sw1_counter == 1 && sw2_counter == 0 && sw3_counter == 1){    optionThree();     }  } }

void switchTwo() {   if(R2 == 1){   if(sw1_counter == 0 && sw2_counter == 1 && sw3_counter == 0){      questionScreen();     }

  if(sw1_counter == 1 && sw2_counter == 1 && sw3_counter == 0){    optionFour();     }

  if(sw1_counter == 0 && sw2_counter == 2 && sw3_counter == 0){    optionFive();     }

 if(sw1_counter == 0 && sw2_counter == 1 && sw3_counter == 1){    optionSix();     }  } }

void switchThree(){   if(R3 == 1){   if(sw1_counter == 0 && sw2_counter == 0 && sw3_counter == 1){      questionScreen();     }

  if(sw1_counter == 1 && sw2_counter == 0 && sw3_counter == 1){    optionSeven();     }

  if(sw1_counter == 0 && sw2_counter == 1 && sw3_counter == 1){    optionEight();     }

 if(sw1_counter == 0 && sw2_counter == 0 && sw3_counter == 2){    optionNine();     }  }

}

void homeScreen() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("how r u feelin'?");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print(":(     :S     :D"); }

void questionScreen() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("R U worried?");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("yes  bit   N"); }

void optionOne() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("100/100");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("VALERIAN"); }

void optionTwo() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("100/010");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("BLACK TEA"); }

void optionThree() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("100/001");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("CHAI"); }

void optionFour() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("010/100");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("LAVENDER"); }

void optionFive() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("010/010");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("MINT"); }

void optionSix() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("010/001");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("ROOIBOS"); }

void optionSeven() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("001/100");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("CHAMOMILE"); }

void optionEight() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("001/010");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("FOREST FRUIT"); }

void optionNine() {  lcd.clear();  lcd.setCursor(0,0);  lcd.print("001/001");  lcd.setCursor(0,1);  lcd.print("DRAGON MIX"); }

void reset() {  sw1_counter = 0;  sw2_counter = 0;  sw3_counter = 0;  //homeScreen(); }

[chaisshitposts]

by the fuckin' WAY, my subconscious has been lollygaggin' in the fuckin' void for a week straight every time I fall asleep 🧍

I need to change my experimental affirmation to have my subconscious manifest one thing at a time for me 🕵️ but the shit on my list has still been manifestin' left and right anyways sO I'm not as impatient anymore cause I'm gettin' shit done regardless

some success from this w e e k ->

Made a friend (potential F buddy) at work just by thinkin' of it.

I had three super chill days in a row of relaxin', two of the days I didn't even have to teach, I was just gettin' paid to wander around the campus after just affirming that I would get a break. I really like this particular school and I'll be goin' back again a couple times next week.

Also affirmed that every class I teach is super chill and respectful— worked like a fucking charm yesterday despite teaching a class of first graders with enough energy to fuel sixteen teslas. So many of the kids were so sweet and cute :( one of the lil' babies even asked to hold my hand while I walked the class to recess, absolutely made my fuckin' day she had tiny lil' HANDS. and I got so many hugs yesterday from them it made me want to drop to my knees and sob bc of cuteness aggression.

I left my special notebook in the classroom of one of the classes I was teaching for at one school and manifested that I'd get invited back at the school to teach so I could get my notebook back, which I did.

Some appearances change success -> longer lashes, fuller lips, edges are always tamed tyvm, purple's started to appear in my irises with each day, skin's lookin' fantastic, been dealin' with rapid weightloss, feet are shrinkin'. one of these days I might drop a reveal and then delete it an hour after just bc I can 🧍 not to be that person but... I'm really pretty and always have been 🚶🏾

Mental manifestation successes -> social anxiety has dissipated into nearly nothing, making it easier for me to do my job, my social battery is steadily increasing, I no longer experience burnout after every work day, my anxiety is pretty much gone but there is the lingering and there but I automatically shoo the thoughts aside— these were really big for me tbh and I am so happy that I can now walk into places without fearing like everyone is judging every little thing I do, I walk with so much more confidence it's almost terrifying how much I've changed.

A lot of manifestations this week had to do with my current job tbh which has been lovely!!! also, I hope these successes aren't too 'small' and 'ridiculous' for some people— lookin' at that one anon who had the fuckin' audacity to belittle my accomplishments, I'm still petty over it 🕵️— I'm a simple person who gets excited over every little thing so... I'm sorry ya don't experience joy in life like I do!!! hOpe ya enjoyed this week's update !!! be ready for next week nyohohoho

[ber39james]

Monday Motivation Hack: Coffee Alternatives

You’re jittery, sweaty, and unable to focus. What had seemed like the perfect dose of java to power all your feats of Monday superheroism has betrayed you.

In the throes of a caffeine come-down, as you blearily attempt to finish drafting your project update, you swear:

“I’m going to quit coffee.”

Though there are good reasons for healthy people to consume coffee in moderation, some individuals may find themselves overdoing it or may be simply too sensitive to the acidity or caffeine. If this sounds familiar, here is how you can quit coffee.

How to Quit Coffee

Assuming you really do want to quit drinking coffee—or at least limit your consumption—you are going to need another way to boost your energy and keep yourself at the top of your game. The number-one way to quit caffeine and boost your energy is to get your circadian rhythm on a regular, well-rested schedule. To do this, you need to:

Stay hydrated. The Institute of Medicine recommends men drink thirteen cups and women drink nine cups of beverages daily. Aim for mostly hydrating drinks like water, lemon water, and coconut water.

Eat Your Vitamins. Eating a balanced, colorful diet composed of whole foods, mostly vegetables, will ensure that you are getting the necessary amounts of vitamins and minerals to fuel your productive genius. Magnesium is a particularly vital mineral for energy. Eat plenty of nuts and fish to boost your levels naturally.

Avoid sugar. Sugars, whether in the form of sweeteners or the carbohydrates in processed foods, cause blood sugar spikes that might make you feel better in the short-term, but pack a nasty crash a couple of hours later. Blood sugar and insulin swings make it difficult for you to concentrate and weaken your willpower. Opt for healthy snacks with a balance of fat and protein that will keep you going strong.

Move more. Research shows that a ten-minute walk at a nice clip boosts energy more effectively than a candy bar and that regular walks improve overall energy levels.

Sleep. Insufficient sleep and sleep disorders are all too common in the U.S. Despite recommendations to get seven to eight hours of sleep nightly, 30 percent of adults get six or fewer hours. While the jury is still out on whether more sleep guarantees success, if you’re nodding off at your desk, it’s time to get some more regular shut-eye.

However, if your rebel heart simply refuses to abide by guidelines . . .

There are some non–Red Bull alternatives you can try.

Coffee Alternatives

Most people are simply looking for a replacement for their daily mug(s) of joe—something satisfying to fill the void during the morning routine. Luckily, there are many satisfying alternatives to coffee.

If you are looking to cut back on caffeine or the “crash” associated with coffee. . .

Make your life easy and switch to decaffeinated coffee. Voila, problem solved.

If you can’t tolerate the acidity of coffee. . .

Reach for some yerba mate or green tea. Both have caffeine, but yerba mate has a smoother come-down while green tea has a 75 percent lower dose of caffeine than coffee. Shorter brew times for both teas will weaken the stimulant concentration further.

If you want to get away from caffeine but still want some chemical energy. . .

Try ginkgo tea to boost circulation and energy levels. Siberian ginseng, not to be confused with American ginseng, contains compounds that may improve mental performance, not to mention boost your immune system.

If you want to try a whole new kick. . .

Spicy tea varieties pack an energizing punch. For no-caf, my go-to when I go sans coffee is lemon and ginger tea, fresh or in sachets. Personally, I love this as strong as I can make it with a cinnamon stick, honey, and coconut oil. If you’re comfortable with a bit of caffeine, try chai. This aromatic mix of black tea with warming spices and frothy milk contains between 25 and 50 percent the amount of caffeine found in coffee.

If you’re looking for zero-caf invigoration. . . Just can’t do caffeine? A number of herbal teas can be quite revitalizing. Lemongrass and citrus teas have a bite that perks you up, while mint teas are calming but refreshing. Stay away from lavender and camomile blends, which are soothing to the point of being downright restful.

If you’re looking for pure coziness in a cup. . . Carob powder drinks are your new go-to. This chocolate substitute gives you all the indulgence of hot cocoa and blends very well with all kinds of milk without any of the stimulant effects of coffee or chocolate.

Which drink will you try? Do you have any coffee alternatives that you swear by?

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[chaisshitposts]

I've been doin' my own challenge with the affirmation, "Regardless of everything, I have all that I desire." I have my long ass list— I'll share a couple of ss but this isn't everything.

soO, the progress so far has been very good, I've been manifestin' things instantly without much thought (I won't talk about those bc apparently they're 'ridiculous' and 'small' 💀) I've already crossed off some shit on my list. as for my thoughts towards the void —> amazingly enough, I have been thinkin' more from an 'expecting' mindset instead of desperation.

for instance, I know that one of these nights I'm gonna wake up in it and I feel excited for the surprise, and I don't feel disappointed//sad when I don't 🫡 although I do often find myself waking up and remembering that while my consciousness was asleep I was in the void state, that happens a lot but I'm not frustrated about that anymore 🌚 Ive been wanting to experiment with this as well, such as telling my subconscious to manifest things for me while I'm in the void but without needing for me to be conscious bUt I need to do some very specific scripting

oh and I have been gettin' lots and lots of tarot readings that all include similar messages and the same pulled cards, it's kinda scary tbh but also exciting bc I love surprises. I did also get reminded of some stuff about myself— originally I wanted to use the void to manifest a buncha shit all at once. but then I remembered— ayo??? I love surprises, what the hell? 🤨 sO, when I do wake up in the void soon I'll prolly take just a few affirmations from my void list and use them instead of the entire list so I can watch the other things unfold in front of me 🕵️

[chaisshitposts]

quick announcement! i see now why people tend to yeet off of tumblr when it comes to shiftblr and gettin' asks and what not... I'm gonna take a break from this account for a couple days 'cause I'm kinda tired of answerin' questions. plus, I got a message from malachi and I am beyond geeked.

before I disappear, I will say one thing— psych-k works, and ya can use it to manifest instantly, but ya must remind yourself that time is simply an illusion. after you've done psych-k and ya feel no different or see no change— remind yourself that it is done, the 3D is just catchin' up. patience is key, and nothin' can stop yer manifestations except for you. and when ya feel limited, doubtful, shitty, worried, or that you've done somethin' wrong— say that 'it is done' and forgive yerself for doubtin' yer creations, and doubtin' yerself in yer entirety.

it's up to you to fall back into old thought patterns or start thinkin' from the perspective of who you wish to become. why would you undo the programmin' you're tryna replace? bye for noooooow.~

[chaisshitposts]

haven't given ya lovely folks an update on my void journey in a wee bit, apologies--- alright, here we goooo...

been three days, I've been usin' psych-k to affirm that every time I fall asleep, I always wake up in the void, fully aware. and just like all the other damn times- my fuckin' affirmations work, I'm always aware when I'm in the fuckin' void but I'm not CONSCIOUS!!!!! the past three slumber sessions have been nothin' but pure darkness with no sound, feelin', etc. 🏃my subconscious got jokes... cause technically speakin' I do wake up when I'm in the void state.

and self-pause had the fuckin' audacity to give me this daily affirmation today..

like... are ya bein' fr right now??? who told ya I was havin' a problem?? 🧍 enkneeways... imma start affirmin' that I'm always conscious in the void with psych-k and we'll see what happens since it seems I need to be more l i t e r a l with myself.

[chaisshitposts]

y'know, I originally thought I'd get pissed about people constantly askin' me to regurgitate what I've already explained multiple times in the simplest terms over and over again but, it seems it's a learnin' opportunity for my teaching career outside of tumblr... which reminds me I'm gonna be in schools all week starting next week 😭 I'm excited but also a tiny bit nervous about applying the training I've learned this week, but while answerin' the asks on here I've been usin' the teachin' techniques I've been learnin' and holy SHIT it's been efficient. I'm about to be in elementary schools and shit, oh boy—

so, honestly y'all, thanks for helping me learn how to be patient with repeating the same material over and over again 💀 and unfortunately, I prolly won't be able to do as much daily affirmin' as I usually do which may prolong my void journey a wee biT buT I won't let that stop meeeeee yeehaw

life's been fuckin' jazzy all around, gotta admit!!! I'm feelin' pretty at peace with my life in general 🕵️ that is certainly a huge step in the right direction aH and I'm real excited about y'all participatin' in void 'n victory, I'll be doin' it myself the best way I can

[chaisshitposts]

this isn't really void progress but just a little journal entry for comedy purposes 😭

alright, well, i took an edible last night, chilled for a little bit, and when I started feeling the effects of it i went to my bedroom and laid my ass down.

then, i turned on the 'let go' void state subliminal, laid down on my back, and started doing the 'turn your left brain off' thingy. I'll tell ya one thing, edibles slowed my thoughts down and made my brain feel like it was being gently caressed by a million dandelion stems. it freaked me TF out.

anyways, the feeling spread over my body, and thEn suddenly I started seeing fractals of blue, green, red, and purple. then my heart rate just started going fucking NUTS, I thought my heart was about to explode right outta my chest. then the REM set in and I started freaking out and trying to open my eyelids while my actual eyeballs were moving on their own 😭 and not to mention some invisible force kept pulling my head downwards. this just further solidified why i don't actively continue to try entering the void while awake, I don't like those sensations at ALL. call me a lil' bitch if ya want but I refuse to put myself into a state that genuinely scares me just to reach the state of pure consciousness. I take my hats off to people who can lay still for hours on end without a care in the world, as well as people who willingly try to get sleep paralysis

moral of the story, i personally will NOT be doing that again. ill just save my edibles for the cinema like usual and will just continue to affirm that I'm fully awake and aware in the void every time I fall asleep. ig the best thing out of doing drugs before bed was i got a full night's sleep, and o f c o u r s e, i was in the void state again while i was asleep and only remembered doing so when I woke up 🧍but luckily, I remembered a haCk I saw some weeks ago for affirming and I'm still on my 10k affirmation shit. honestly, I think doing this experiment further opened my eyes on how one size does not fit all.

as of September 27th, 2023 11:50 am, I've affirmed for my 'rules', the void, and subliminals working instantly 5,000 times each using code words counting on physical counters I bought yesterday. I've never felt more unbothered + relaxed and I think I found what I've been looking for. if you're interested in hearing more about what I've been doing, ask away