#ღ 『🍵 anon』

[hanbinics]

OMG (tw!) imagine reader has been going to tattooartist!matt to get tats for a while now (scar coverups amongst others) and then one day she comes in to get a new tattoo and he finds new scars (maybe he brushed over them by accidernt and reader flinches or like he saw em (and even maybe noticed hehe 😊😊😊)) n hes like "fuckin thought you quit that shit kid" or like "-hey quit that shit now kid, 's not fuckin good for ya" or something FUCK im convulsing

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(sorry and please lmk if youre uncomfy w reqs like these!!)

a/n. sorry i took so long to get to this !! hope you like it x

TW: self-harm.

matt had been your tattoo artist for a while now. ever since you'd decided tattoos would be your way of reclaiming your skin, your story, he'd been there to do all of them. it's not just that he was incredible with every design or stroke of a line—nobody could capture the story the way he did. the two of you had built this quiet trust that you didn't feel could be recreated with anyone else.

today, though, you feel uncharacteristically anxious. you've long gotten over the nerves when it comes to inking something new on your body, but it's been a while since you've felt the shame of revealing your skin to the brunette prepping his equipment beside you. your fingers shake as you reach for the fabric of your sleeve, slowly and carefully pulling it up your arm so that matt can see what he expects to be his familiar canvas; only he doesn't expect there to be something new.

he glances up from his gloves, pausing for just a second longer than usual when his gaze falls on the area just below your wrist. his brows pull together as he studies the new scar that sits just beneath your skin, not quite as healed as the other ones. for a moment, he doesn't say anything. he just continues to mess with his equipment, but you can see the subtle flex of his jaw upon the realization of what he's looking at, and your heart pounds in your ears.

without looking at you, matt finally speaks, "didn't we talk about this, kid?" he asks without looking at you, a hardness to his tone though there's an edge of something softer there—concern maybe. "thought you were done with that."

you can feel shame bubbling in the pit of your stomach, your cheeks burning as your breath hitches in your throat. you want to look away, but you can't when you feel the brunette's gloved hands grip your arm firmly, grounding you in the moment as he finally looks up at you with hard blue eyes. you bite the inside of your cheek in an attempt to compose yourself, matt's gaze softening slightly when he realizes the state you're in. he looks like he wants to chastise you, but for whatever reason, he doesn't.

"hey," he says softer this time, "quit that shit now, alright?" he breathes out, shaking his head. "there's better ways to deal. s'not worth hurting yourself over, yeah?"

you nod your head at him, but it feels like you're barely in control of your body. you're barely even able to hold his gaze, but he doesn't press you any further. instead, you watch as he turns back to his tools a little slower than usual.

"alright, kid," he concedes quietly, gloved thumb brushing over the skin of your new scar as he reaches for his equipment. "let's make somethin' good out of this."

[aeriscallanga]

𝗡𝗲𝘄 𝗢𝗖 𝗔𝘀𝗸 𝗚𝗮𝗺𝗲: send me "🍵" and I'll tell you rumors about any of my OC(s) without mentioning their name(s). Juicy questions are also welcome but again...𝗻𝗼 𝗻𝗮𝗺𝗲 𝗱𝗿𝗼𝗽𝗽𝗶𝗻𝗴 🤫

anons are welcome here ღ

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[hanbinics]

binnie im so fucking dumb i thought my exam was next week and its TOMORROW im stressed out of my mind rn and its the dumb one where its set at 5pm so ill be stressing about it for the whole day but im going jellycat shopping for a friend and for me hopefully! bc the cauliflower is going to be discontinued and ive really really wanted that one so if i find it its a good luck charm

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OH NOOO. i fear this would send me spiraling LMAO

but i'm glad you're going shopping !! honestly i've learned that some stuff you can't change, so it's better not to stress yourself out more over it. now you know it's at 5 and you'll still do your best, but don't beat yourself up over it !! go have fun and get ur cauliflower jellycat lmao <3

[hanbinics]

DEALER CHRIS im on my knees

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we liked that last blurb huh

[hanbinics]

genuinely belive an american hs experience would fix me

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in another universe we're just privileged teenage besties living the american hs dream <3

[hanbinics]

YESS thank u i’ll give u a big fat kiss rn im a slut for angst especially if it’s mh related LOL

oh and also the matt bot is based of an ed so please don’t interact w if u get triggered!!

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wait i'm stupid what's "mh"

[hanbinics]

i miss u i hope youre takinf care of yourself!!!

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i miss u sm omg my luv my heart my soul

come off anon rn it's time to kith

[hanbinics]

tweaking tf out exam SOON im going to poo myseld

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u got this i believe in u angel

[hanbinics]

oh i dunno if my plane ask sent i think i closed the tab whoopsies

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if it was the one about going with your mom, then yes lmao.

[hanbinics]

SO INCREDIBLY PROUD OF U!! and i ate that fic up its tew good

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[hanbinics]

how was ur day cutie i feel like ive been on and off tumblr we need 2 catch up!!

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yes omg. i have been crazy busy and gotten off schedule, so that's why i haven't been on much. :/ which, this has always just been something fun for me in my free time, but i have been itching to write, and i do lowkey feel bad if i don't post in a bit. but i don't like the idea of making this a priority, so i like it being a fun side thing. i just wish i had more time for it sometimes because i do love to write !!

how have you been? tell me all abt life cutie

[hanbinics]

I LOVE THE FIC youre crazy talented!!!! giggling n kicking my feet fr hehe

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I'M SO GLAD <33 i'm sorry it took so long, i'm still working through my asks D:

[hanbinics]

hope you are doing ok baby !! flu season is Real in winter i’ve heard

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i haven't had the flu since i was a kid but my immune system is so shit and i'm surprised i haven't gotten sick yet tbh. (knocking on wood after this)

ily and i hope ur doing so good <3

[hanbinics]

ooh lowkey gross but when i had contacts and long nails i used to just like ?,, peel it off my eyeball if that makes sense

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i fear i lowkey understand this and it's the most uncomfortable feeling omg. i have to pinch it i can't deal w anything else

[hanbinics]

omfg i fear i don’t have it in me to be angry when im stressed Aldo off topic but i can hear a lizard chattering in my room rn as we speak get it outt!!!!!!

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what's he saying tho

[hanbinics]

WINTER ACTIVITIES YES PKEASE!!! call me the next eileen gu i’ll be doing those crazy jumps on skis fr :3

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and don't even get me started on ice skating !!