#ৎ ⊹ h. sero .ᐟ ⟡

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STRINGS OF ATTACHMENT

starring. pro hero!hanta sero x ex!gn!reader

summary. despite being broken up with your boyfriend, hanta, you find yourself at his apartment far more often than you should, and this time he says something you weren't expecting

content. use of 'y/n' and 'l/n' for last name, hookup themes, mentions of poor mental health, sero and reader are both over 20 just for the purpose of the storyline making sense, angsty, implied sex, post-sex angst

a/n. this is like the extent of straight up mentioning sex i'll do lmfao, i think

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Staring at the wall, your eyes felt widened, but they weren't. Why were you here, again? You were already mentally kicking yourself.

You and Hanta had broken up months ago when things got toxic; he got busy with hero work and wasn't home enough, you were starting to get depressed and anxious and couldn't communicate what was wrong, and eventually, you started to argue. The realisation was made after the third week of arguing every other night that you'd both be better off on your own.

And really, you planned on turning over a new leaf. You swear you did! Unfortunately, that didn't last very long. You don't even know how it happened – the texting the other to come over and satiate your needs. But it was just sex though, right? Nothing more.

Now you lay wrapped up in the sheets of your ex-boyfriend's bed, one of his arms wrapped snugly around your middle, the other outstretched under your neck.

”(Y/n)?” Hanta's voice rang through your ears, and your fingers stuttered tracing lines on his arm. You weren't sure how long you'd been laying with him, turned over facing away with him with your head on one of his pillows.

You only hummed in response, not quite sure you were ready for the silence to be over.

”Do you ever wish we could, you know,” He pauses, pursing his lips together. Not that you could see it happen, but you knew. ”go back?”

What? You knew what he meant, but you didn't really want to answer. You take a deep breath, but you don't say anything.

”Like–” You hear Hanta sigh before his arms slithers away from your body he turns onto his side, holding his torso up on his elbow. He's facing your back, and he wants nothing more than to reach out and trail patterns into your back like he used to, to press kisses your shoulders, but he isn't sure whether he'd be met with hostility or not. ”to before we broke up.” He mutters.

Reluctantly, and with a mental curse to yourself, what is wrong with you?, you turn onto your back. You don't look at him, eyes glued to the ceiling, trying to make it the most interesting thing in the room.

”What do you mean?” You ask, letting out a breath you didn't realise you were holding.

Hanta almost, almost smiles when you turn over. He almost, almost reaches to put his hand over your stomach. Then when your eyes don't travel to him, he straightens up.

”I just mean, you know.. do you ever think about it?” The question hangs heavy in the air, your lips pursing together. ”Do you ever wish we– or you, could go back to the moment it all went wrong? And just, fix it?”

”'Cause I do.” He says, letting his head fall as he looks down to the sheets, where he's starting playing the tips of his fingers.

Then there's silence. You turn your head to look at him. He just looks so sad. Your voice snaps him out of his moment of self-wallowing dread.

”Do we even know when that was?” Oh. That was not the response he was hoping for. But on the other hand, he didn't know the exact moment, the exact day, the exact argument when it all went wrong.

When Hanta looked up, his eyes were drawn to yours, which stared right back at him. He tried to look away, but your eyes were like magnets to his, making him unable to tear his eyes away.

”I, uhm.” Hanta's tripping over his words. God, he always got so lost in your eyes. ”I suppose not.”

Another ”hm” from you, and your head turning back to stare at the ceiling, allows him to blink a few times, looking anywhere but you. It allows him to breathe again, fully.

After a few moments, you start to sit up, hugging his sheet close to your chest, as if he hadn't seen you bare several times over.

”Listen I'm uhm,” You start, turning to look at him. ”I'm gonna go, I think.” You say, awkward smile on your face.

Hanta only nods, his eyes scanning over your face, committing every detail to memory. You'll be back in less than a month, you always are, but he always worries that this time will be the last time.

”Oh, okay.” He mutters, but you're already getting out of his bed, wandering to his bathroom that you're all too well acquainted with.

He lets himself fall back into his bed on his back, heavy breath leaving his body. Where did everything go so wrong?

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STUDENTS , the masterlist

– here you'll find all my bnha works centred around ua students

navigation – masterpost

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | IZUKU MIDORIYA ;; " deku "

there's nothing here yet.

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | SHOTO TODOROKI ;; " shoto "

SO THIS IS LOVE? – coming soon ! ↳ what happens when your best friend, shoto, tells you he wants to know what love is like and that he wants it to be you he shares it with

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | KATSUKI BAKUGO ;; " dynamight "

KNOW YOUR AUDIENCE – 1.7k words ↳ appeasing your fans and the press with your fake boyfriend, katsuki bakugo

ANGEL-IN-LAWS – blurbs ↳ headcannons about mitsuki and masaru as your in-laws

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | EIJIRO KIRISHIMA ;; " red riot "

FROM BREAKING CURFEW TO SETTING BEDTIMES – coming soon ! ↳ thinking about the early days of your relationship and friendship with your husband, eijiro

HEARTS OF GOLD, BOUND TO FIND ONE ANOTHER – coming soon ! ↳ just sunshine kirishima and slightly less sunshiney reader fluff

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | MINA ASHIDO ;; " pinky "

GIRL OF MY DREAMS – 1.6k words, ANGST ↳ pointlessly pining over mina, one of your best friends from ua who you don't talk to anymore

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | HANTA SERO ;; " cellophane "

STRINGS OF ATTACHMENT – drabble, ANGST ↳ waking up in your exes bed again is already not something you're proud of, but why does he make it awkward?

SWEEP ME OFF MY FEET – coming soon ! ↳ sometimes there aren't words, sometimes there isn't time for words, of course hanta doesn't always think before he acts

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | TENYA IIDA ;; " ingenium "

there's nothing here yet.

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | HITOSHI SHINSO ;; " mind jack (?) "

there's nothing here yet.

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | NEITO MONOMA ;; " phantom thief "

there's nothing here yet.

── ᵎᵎ ✦ | MULTI + MISC

EIGHTEEN mlist– miniseries ! ↳ incl. | izuku, katsuki, shoto, eijiro, denki, hanta, mina, hitoshi, touya, & shouta

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