#˖ . ݁𝜗𝜚 Puppi-Venting

[flutterpuppi]

Dad wanted me to cancel my therapy appointment but I didn’t realize and he was so vague and kept saying I don’t know I don’t know I don’t know and now he’s mad that ***I*** didn’t know that he actually meant definitely cancel your next appointment but how was I supposed to know when he never gave a definite answer how was I supposed to know why am I being treated like a bad guy I’m not bad I’m not stop talking in that tone stop it please stop you’re making me cry please make it stop please please please

[flutterpuppi]

I’m so fucking useless I’m a worthless piece of fucking trash I should be wasting away under the ground I don’t deserve to live

[flutterpuppi]

I don’t understand I don’t understand I don’t understand why does the world want me to rot why does everyone hate me what did I do I don’t understand please stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it

[flutterpuppi]

I keep having flashbacks to the time a couple kids in my neighborhood forced me to watch them kill a toad and I feel so sick. Should fucking stab you with a needle over and over n see how you like it you sick fuck there’s almost nothing I despise more than animal cruelty

[flutterpuppi]

Haven’t showered in days and I feel so disgusting. M about to but god the feeling of grease in my hair makes me want to vomit :/

[flutterpuppi]

Oh my fucking GOD if my mom doesn’t stop screaming at everyone im going to stab something. Shut the fuck up shut the fuck up shut the fuck UP ALREADY.

[flutterpuppi]

Ughhhh I LITERALLY took my atarax over an hour ago n im STILL so anxious . What if I just like. Didn’t go to this new years party. I’m going to be expected to eat and my partner will be watching me like a fucking hawk to make sure I do, but I actually HATE HATE HATE eating in front of people . Everyone’s gonna think I’m fucking gross they’re gonna be like “omg look at this ugly bitch with her ugly hair and ugly clothes and ugly body eating !! She’s so fucking disgusting and she eats weird and she doesn’t watch her weight !!”

Maybe I can just pretend I’m not hungry until the foods gone n go “oopsie my bad!! ͈ര́ ̭ര̀” and they’ll feel bad for me instead

[flutterpuppi]

My mom just threw a keychain at my head and hit my nose with it hard :c for once I think she did it on accident but it still hurts bad

[flutterpuppi]

I’m actually so kms… my brother kicked ANOTHER hole in the drywall. I think we’re nearing on 15 holes now? And this one was bc he was melting down over not being allowed to use my laptop (which is because he stomped on my last one and broke it), so my parents might make it my fault. Either way they’re definitely going to scream at him once they see it so.

I feel so bad for being mad bc he’s intellectually disabled + autistic, and I have autism so I kind of get it since meltdowns suck, but it also just fucking sucks getting beat up and listening to my parents scream at him because he put another hole in the wall too. :/

[flutterpuppi]

God I hate being so fucking UGLY. Wish I could just carve my face until it looks like the pretty version of me in my maladaptive daydreams :/

[flutterpuppi]

I feel so evil,, I blew up on my partner this morning bc they hung out with our friends without me and then changed our new years plans with them without even telling me !!! I took my medz n feel lots better now, but m still feeling kind of sick even tho they said it’s okay. Apologized over and over but there’s part of me deep in my brain that still wants me to hurt myself over it.  ͈—̢̢́ ̭—̢̢̀ ͈

Agggghh being mentally ill is so HARD !! I guess that’s why it’s a sickness though :/

[flutterpuppi]

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