#| she has no idea they will shave her like aslan

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META ON BEING CHALLENGED TO ORDER AND JAIME’S LEAVING I trust in Lena Headey’s acting, not in D&D’s writing. Thus the only reason I am giving this any thought. And then special shoutout to @cerseilionesslannister for helping me with the Cersei and Jaime scene and helping me regain perspective on Cersei’s mental state of this and how this should be view rather than a YAY! BREAK UP TIME. And how logic really is concerning this subject. AND ALSO META-ING WITH ME IN OUR TEXT MESSAGES. Bless your heart okay. Scarlett. This is as much your meta as it is mine. Seriously.

         When Cersei was challenged by both brothers to kill them there were two different things that happened. One of which affected the other. After Tyrion had done it, it became a matter of broken pride. Once a challenge was issued by Jaime, it was tinged with a sense of betrayal by the one who had promised her always that he would be there for her. First I want to take apart the Tyrion scene, take apart the Jaime scene, and what would drive Cersei to do the things that she does. Again, I am not condoning D&D but more so relying on my faith in Lena Headey.

      First and foremost I want to point out how Cersei is always, at this point , throwing herself into the tactics to keep the iron throne. She was once a mother of all three, and now they are all gone. Every thing that she is doing is an extra way for her to push her grief away for them. Unhealthy coping mechanisms aside this makes her angrier, more colder, and taking that final step to be like the man she has always wanted to be like. (see. Tywin Lannister.)  And Cersei never talks about her children because it’s too painful so when that Tyrion scene came up I literally teared up. Anywho-

      TYRION:

       It’s so easy to dismiss this relationship as evil sister and pour innocent man. But we all know that this relationship is so much more complicated than that when you start digging into the roots. And we find that Cersei’s reasoning isn’t all that horrible, we discover the WANT to love him like a little brother. Then we discover that Tyrion hasn’t exactly been acting like a sweet little lamb. Cersei has her flaws, I’ve always state this, but so does Tyrion. We all know this. OKAY. SO. Since I am keeping this ONE scene without changing anything (aside for a tiny piece of dialogue at the end about the wrath)

       So I want to talk about the interesting part for me; so HERE is the timestamp. Look closely at Cersei’s expression while Tyrion challenges her to finally kill him. And don’t misunderstand the silence, she is deeply considering just ending his life right then and there. And really? What’s to stop her? Cersei has LITERALLY been expressing her need to see him die since the very day he was born? While it was impulsive grief in the beginning it quickly formed into a living form of paranoia due to the prophecy. He had killed her mother, and father, and she had just laid Myrcella and Tommen’s death at his feet. She wants nothing MORE than to kill him right then and there. Her eyes flick to him- considering, reveling, and hungry. And then her eyes flick up to Ser Gregor and there is a moment where she just thinks to herself; how easy it would be just to smash his little head. And the urge takes over and oh how she wants to see it down. She had needed this done all this time, all these years, and she thinks of all of his mockery and his cruel japes. And moves to give that one order she has dreamed to speak.

       Only she doesn’t.

      And that makes her angry. She twitches, almost smiles, and breathes in. The URGE is THERE but she can’t bring herself to do it. After all of this time and all of these years of dreaming of killing him, a willing sacrifice she would make to void out the prophecy. And she can’t bring herself to do it. Instead the order dies on her tongue and she throws herself back, and quickly looks away. Now why is that? Why didn’t she kill him after promising him every day of his life that she would do it the first chance she had? Why is that she looks away and chooses to let him go? Even while they go RIGHT back to disagreeing when she refuses to drink? These are interesting points in all honesty and it was something that I had actually noticed in my reading of A Clash of Kings, it’s something I noticed in every scene that Cersei and Tyrion have together in the show.

      Cersei wants to love him like a genuine little brother. The NEED to care for him is there, the want to love him like family has never went away. He killed her mother, her father, and is blamed for her youngest children’s deaths. But- he DID love them, and that is one thing that she cannot deny him. We notice that when he mentions them again her fight is gone. She starts to say- “i will not hear-’ lowly but he cuts her off and says  “I don’t care I LOVED them. You know I did. You know it in your heart if there is anything left of it.” and it doesn’t matter how mean she got after- it as the very fact that she LET him cut her off and LET him finish speaking. And then after their usual style of conversation has begun, when all of the anger and the tension and the words had gotten out. Their tone had faded back into the tone that it held back when Tyrion was the Hand of the King under Joffrey, and that was a need to love your youngest/eldest sibling sitting across from you.

       JAIME:

     Let’s flash back for a moment to the moment that Cersei announced to Jaime that she was pregnant. She told him, never betray me again right here. Let’s consider for a moment what just happened. Jaime had met with Tyrion, a man who is openly conspiring to have them all thrown from power without consulting her first. 

      Alright now let’s consider the fact that Cersei is indeed PREGNANT here in this scene, as Scarlett and I discussed IN THIS POST RIGHT HERE, we have to realize first that Cersei’s body is going through the beginning stages of change when it comes to having a child. All of which included and it not limited to any of the following;

Regular Nausea and vomiting

Sore and tender breasts

fatigue

full bladder, or as scarlett put it, having to literally pee all the time

heartburn, and acid reflux

diarrhea and/or constipation

mood swings

bad headaches/migraines

new levels of anxiety.

      So on top of all of the normal feelings of anxiety (including that which has stemmed since she was a child), worry over the well being of her child and herself, PTSD over the abuse suffered at Robert’s hand, denied grief over losing THREE children, there is all of the experience of the physical changes of pregnancy listed above, and anxieties over Jaime leaving her to go into battle while she is going through these.changes all on her own, a pregnancy through war time, and a pregnancy that has it’s own dangers of not going well.

      Now that we have the physical and emotional aspects noted, lets move onto the mentality.

      What was Cersei and Jaime thinking? I’ll tell you first and foremost; THIS WAS NOT A BREAK UP! CERSEI AND JAIME HAVE NOT BEEN TOGETHER FOR OVER 30 YEARS JUST TO LEAVE EACH OTHER NOW. THEY DON’T KNOW HOW TO LOVE ANYONE ELSE EVEN IF THEY HAD WANTED TOO. 

      Anyway, to put it simply their end goals were the same, only each had different intentions of doing so. And to put that to words exactly. Would the one word; Survive. Yet each had their own idea in doing so. Let’s remember THE most important aspect of Cersei’s character that makes up a HUGE part of who she is. And that is her role as a mother, Cersei cherishes her children above ALL else. And her intentions here is thinking of the child she is soon to have. I’ve said, Scarlett has said, we all know this, that Cersei would DIE for her children. But now that she has lost her first three, this next child that is growing inside of her is far more important because it is all that she has left. The prophecy never told Cersei of a fourth child born to her, and unlike so many other times. Cersei has a major hand of power to play for this, to protect this one light that she has left in this cruel world.  She has a kingdom, she has Lannister men at her beck and call, she has MORE coming from across the sea, all that she could dream to keep her child safe.

      “Yes the monsters exist. But let them fight each other.” were along the lines of what she said. Cersei is literally modeling her decision after what Tywin Lannister had done when the Rebellion had occurred. And by protecting HERSELF- she is protecting the only thing that mattered in the world at this moment. The thing that is far more important than even the power that she had pursued all of her life. And that is her child growing inside of her.

      Again; JAIME IS NOT HAVING A REALIZATION THAT CERSEI IS INSANE, or that she is ‘wrong’ for him, or he is ‘tired’ of her. Jaime literally does what he ALWAYS has been able to do when Cersei threatens him, when Cersei slaps him. He calls out her shit because he KNOWS that she loves him so much that she never means any of it. Be it playing, or having an argument ,he literally calls Cersei out so much and that is all this was. Jaime has literally been spending the entire series (both book AND show) acknowledging how she is and refusing to budge from her side. (even when he is angry at her at the end of the series, his thoughts STILL revolve around Cersei.)

       When he speaks his plan is to protect her, her reign, and their child, through direct battle. There is no interior motives happening here. All intentions are on the board, nothing hidden between the two of them. What secret Cersei DOES have she spills to Jaime, which ensues their next disagreement. Which our main Jaime touches upon a little IN THIS POST. (Not to mention that Jaime is also going through his own grief, PTSD, and mental anxieties). His plan is literally going in the order of; protecting the Realm, for his own form of honor, and the reign of Cersei and their child. All the while resotring the family name and relationships with Cersei. (and sure yes, Tyrion). All the while Cersei wants to protect their own, the legacy she promised for their child, and relationships with Jaime. While each is aiming toward the same end goal, the road toward said end goal is viewed differently from both Jaime and Cersei.

      Both are aiming toward the restoration of their family, for the safety of their child that is yet to be born. This is not one casting off the other, or washing their hands of the dirty evil one at their back. And neither is there anything that has ever existed called the REDEMPTION ARC, it’s not back on, and it was never on in the first place? Because Jaime is literally doing what he is doing FOR Cersei, FOR their child. As he said in his very own words;

     ‘you don’t matter- CERSEI matters, and i will kill every Tully if I have to, to get back to her.’

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@iniziare said: Meta time, Mel, I’m asking for a friend (hi Ezio). How does/would Cersei in the position of Westeros’ ruling monarch, regard the common people; not only of KL but of the Seven Kingdoms as a whole? Where do they stand for her, does she see them as a responsibility or does she see them a menace and/or hassle that she’d perish? What do they represent for/to her?

    “The people? You think I care?”.

        That is the simplest way to put it and I could end this whole meta session and be done with it. But that wouldn’t be any fun would it?

        Okay so consider the lions pride that Cersei is integrated with since she was a small girl. We have both her mother and her father who have strong pride, having brought House Lannister back from the ruin her grandfather had tore into. She, as are many higher born children [yes Cersei even teaches her children this, see Myrcella being somewhat mean to Arya thinking that she was a dirty street boy.] were raised to believe that she is 200% better than those that were considered ‘beneath’ them. rather in Cersei’s case specifically, anyone who wasn’t part of their inner circle. 

        Cersei grew up knowing well the story of Tyto’s and his whore that was marched through the streets. How the mob surrounded her and almost ate her up. And i imagine that, being as young as she was, this mental image probably stuck with her. (as often times the most random things would stick in your mind.) She makes note of it moments before her shame walk began, she herself was only a year old, but she recalls the story of how the woman cried and begged. 

       And with this in mind, Cersei has only had one good experience with the people and that was on her wedding day when she and Robert stepped out of the Sept of Baelor.

       So with that in mind, the Lannister pride, the generalized and accepted concept that anyone and everyone who is remotely poorer is automatically considered lesser. With that alone we can pretty much assume that Cersei doesn’t care at all for the common people. (I’ve often stated that while Cersei would be good economically for the general ruling of Westeros, the common people do not stand a chance.). She sees them as a generalized mob crying out for the blood of anyone who is up to lose their head, and that’s it. And in most experience she has with them they are often calling out for blood, or war, or some feral means that calls for the first two stated topics. Be it Tourneys and Feasts hosted by Robert, or the mob that roared for Eddard Stark’s head, or when shit was flung at Joffrey’s head, and the shame walk. To Cersei they all have the same face, the same blood thirsty need to rip them down and hurt them. She holds zero empathy for those who she would rather see as worms than people. (in fact I recall a dead baby being shoved into their parties attention but Cersei paid no mind, it wasn’t her child so why should she care right?)

      This is also where the infamous line comes in; ‘a lion doesn’t concern himself with the opinion of sheep.’ That’s literally all they are to her on good days. Little people who work in the pot shops and mines, and dirty themselves in the mud with the other rabble.

      I think you might recall Sae the one scenario I gave you where Cersei would have rather closed the gates to the Red Keep and leave the entirety of King’s Landing population to freeze in winter if it meant choosing between them and her family. Note how in the books, and first few seasons when the shitty directors gave a crap about detail, they were having several courses of their meals while the entirety of King’s Landing is literally starving. And then recall how at Joffrey’s wedding in the show, Cersei ordered that the leftovers of their feast would actually go to the dogs rather than the starving people simply because her pride couldn’t allow another to give an order that should have been hers. Yes, Cersei chose her pride over the poor people eating.

      So all in all; the common people are only one thing to Cersei and nothing more.

       A massive mob.

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Jaime is scornful and hateful of Joffrey IN CANON though? Like Jaime literally says that Joffrey was nothing more than "a squirt in Cersei's cunt" deserved to die (!) literally the ONLY person who loved Joff was Cersei (Though I think Tyrion did too, in his own way, what with his attempts at correcting Joffrey's behaviour and trying to mold him to being a good king. No one else makes such an attempt)

We Only Love and Respect Joffrey Here Nonnie | AnonymousAccepting Fealty For King Joffrey Here, always, Thank you Nonnie.

       You know, Nonnie, I haven’t been impressed with Tyrion since he struck Joffrey to the ground and kicked him, and then threatened to Rape Tommen to make Cersei listen to him. (Why is it funny to see Joffrey being slapped I will never understand. It would be an uproar if it was anyone else being struck so that is the same age as him. It’s basically saying that ‘oh it’s okay for this 13 year old boy to be abused by his uncle because he’s a spoiled brat anyway and his mom is a bitch’. No, I don’t agree with that.) But my dislike for Tyrion is a whole other thing that you all know about [and i swear if any other person comes up to me again and shouts at me about how Tyrion was the real rape victim over Tysha I am going to have a FIT and will verbally slap them this time.] All of his over looked and erased flaws despite how they scream in the books and the general fandom’s made pedestal for him has ruined him for me. So I’m not even going to discuss him here.

        Where exactly does it say that JAIME thinks that JOFFREY, his FIRST BORN SON, the one he always regrets that he never got to hold deserved to die? Which book is it in? It’s certainly not ASOIAF? Did good ol’ Georgie make another set of books that I haven’t seen? I don’t understand that? WHERE does he say the exact words; “I hate Joffrey. He needed to die. I’m so happy he’s dead.” In fact  " deserved to die (!) little excerpts from a father denying his grief over losing his son-

     Jaime sat silent through it all, letting the words wash over him, a horn of ale forgotten in his one good hand. Joffrey. My blood. My firstborn. My son…

      “ —- You should have come sooner,” She murmured, when he took her in his arms. “Why couldn’t you come sooner, to keep him safe? My boy …”

      Our boy. “I came as fast as I could.” –

     And the famous; 

      I’ve lost a hand, a father, a son, a sister ,a lover, and soon enough I will lose a brother. And yet they keep telling me House Lannister won this war.

        ANYWHO.

        The Lannister’s are renowned for suppressing their emotions, just looking at the Lannister children alone. Tyrion drinks and whores, Cersei drinks, and Jaime turns to brash humor, All three of which have an equal harsh temperament because of denied feelings. From my understanding this is one of many things that he shares with Cersei. They both turn to something to protect themselves from the feelings that are hurting them. They shut down, they turn to something easier to deal with. Cersei turns to anger, and Jaime shuts himself off. Recall how he told Tommen that very thing- when something is too much to handle. Shut down. Cover it up. or in Jaime’s case, push it away. Cersei in her own grief, unintentionally shoves Jaime away emotionally and denies him his own grief over his son. So what does he do? He covers it up, Jaime, like Cersei, turns to anger.

        Recall the moment in the show how Jaime was indeed there, and recall how when Jaime ran to Joffrey’s side as he lay there convulsing in poison. Recall how Cersei ran up and shoved Jaime away. That is EXACTLY what remains in the books, except it represents an equal deeper level because by denying him, even in death, the acknowledgement that this was their boy rather than hers. She cut him off the way his hand had been severed, again, a gesture toward losing a hand, a father, a son— 

        So imagine how Cersei compensates her grief for her anger. Okay. Imagine how it would be if she was not only cut off from her grief but also her anger? Eh? You see what is happening here now?

        Cersei never allowed him to hold Joffrey in his birth, never allowed him near, for the safety of them all because the littlest suspicion could endanger them all. Because during that time, even Cersei knew that their tie to the throne depended solely on Robert’s name. Thus Jaime had no choice but to be bared from his son’s infancy, childhood, and thus grew distant from his son. And furthermore created an unfulfilled void inside of him, and in his anger, jealous rage, bitterness over this, he himself never gave any meaning to the term Uncle and regrets it later. He doesn’t get to know his son, and before he even gets a chance to try and get to know him-  [ and I repeat, his blood, his first born, his son...] he was taken from him. So, like Cersei’s bitter thoughts later calling Jaime a wretched creature, Jaime’s thought’s shouldn’t be taken into too much LITERAL consideration and should be considered more through the eyes of a hurt man, who lost himself, his son, the grounds of which his life is built around is shaken [of course by this I mean the falling OUT of Sync with Cersei] and everything he knows. And like a proper Lannister, turns to the only thing he knows. Rage.

       SO why don’t you say what you really want to say and repeat your hinted thought of how Joffrey DESERVED To die. Go on. And please. Stop forcing your OOC hate for a character on someone who loved them as best as he could, and is currently struggling with his grief and loss over said character. 

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Do you think Cersei is really pregnant? (Serious question; i want to see some meta c:)

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         Okay but first off, to all those Anti-Cersei scum out there that think that Cersei would go so far as to FAKE a pregnancy to control Jaime. Kiss my ass. (Not you Bronn Mun ilu never at you i know you’re not saying it). So yes, I don’t think that Cersei is pregnant, there isn’t any thinking about it when it comes to Cersei and wanting her babies. She IS pregnant. Cersei truly believes that you can manipulate people, you can use their feelings, their desire, and their greed to make them do what ever you want. All you would have to do is say the right words, do the right things, and control your enemy and manipulate them into ruin.

        First and foremost of Cersei Lannister; in a way I suppose Jaime was a always a willing sword hand for Cersei. Bearing the strike to kill when all was said and done and Cersei could not do it herself. (And before any random scoffing at me saying that, I want to remind people that canonly there are very FEW women that aren’t Wildlings or Dornish who could wield a weapon. ‘oh but Brienne-’ ,’oh but Arya-’, ‘oh but Ygritte-’, Ygritte was a Wildling and BOTH Arya and Brienne were exceptions made by the Lord Fathers. A girl, or woman, with a sword was highly peculiar in the customs of Westeros) If Cersei wanted the act that required physical strength this is where Jaime came in. He would hurt for her, punish those who make her uncomfortable, and most important to the both of them. KILL in her name. Where Cersei was the speaker, the guarding lioness, and her lion, Jaime, was the hand. The sword to cut down their enemies. Cersei could never carry a sword, was never allowed to continue learning, and sharpened the only weapon she knew. Her words, politics, the master hand that controls the very fabric of peace of war. The infamous Game of Thrones.

         Secondly, Cersei HAS lied about her pregnancy before. She lied about it for YEARS, and this is the parentage of her children. The very FACT that her children were actually fathered by Jaime, which I will note that people were more concerned for the fact that they might have the blood of KINGSLAYING in them years later. And not only that but the very FACT that Cersei would have no other child that wasn’t Jaime’s, would REFUSE any child borne from Robert’s seed, not saying in an AU she would hate a true born child if she ever had one. But that is the very thing, she LIED so she could have Jaime’s children. She lied FOR Jaime, and for the sake of their children. Because I can promise you that there was no way in hell her children would exist as bastards. Being pregnant this second time doesn’t matter because she alone is Queen, she could claim their new baby legitimized the day (s)he is born.

         Lastly, Cersei loves her children. She loves being a mother, her own babies make her happy. One of her infamous lines is how she wouldn’t be alive if it weren’t for her children. (Which tells me that Cersei had/has/did at one point had suicidal tendencies. She said she would have thrown herself from the nearest tower and since I’m keeping things from personal experience that is what it tells me.) Her children coming into her life have brought such a light to her life, we have Joffrey her independent soul, Myrcella her sweet girl but fierce in her beliefs, and Tommen the very embodiment of Cersei’s lost innocence. Each different, each loved, and cherished more than anything else in her life. I once had a friend, (shout out to @cerseilionesslannister ) that said while she loves Jaime, would kill for him, love him beyond the fabrics of the universe. But it is her children that she would die for. The prospect of having another child steadily quickening in her womb would bring Cersei joy no matter what, because in her experience children are GIFTS. It would bring her hope, a prospect of the future, and a twisting ache for joy.

         So in conclusion; Cersei would never in any life time. LIE about her pregnancy to control Jaime, not when she lied FOR him for so many years. She would never would pass up the one opportunity to finally be able to have a family together, and not only have one. But EXIST as one as they were meant to be, as they had promised each other for years. And live and breathe as a mother, a father, and a son or daughter. Yes Jaime is being an OOC door mat, yes Jaime is for some reason questioning the ‘fuck them all’ logic they’ve always had. The ONE he reminded her of in the last season. (Seriously what is with those looks he gave her when she told Gregor what to do if things went wrong? it’s what you do when you take a gamble? You PREPARE.) Yes, for some reason D&D are making all of these awkward arguments.

          But Cersei Lannister would NEVER lie about being pregnant with Jaime Lannister’s child. Nor is she controlling of every fabric of what he does. Jaime is not a good perfect character, NOR is he stupid, he is perfectly capable of doing the bad all by himself.

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     SO HERE IS AN INTERESTING THOUGHT.

      So as I was doing some house errands on my way to the computer I was listening to a song and something dawned on me so hard that I stopped in my tracks and mulled over it.

     It occurred to me that this song linked the two of them together in my head. It blew my mind because this song was the same EXACT song (notes & all), but the only difference was the artists and the general tone of the beat, (one maybe in 1,2 and the other 1,2,3,4 for my musician followers out there.) But what I find interesting is that one reminds me a 100% of one without touching the other BUT THEY’RE THE SAME DAMN SONG. Okay here are the links;

      CERSEI

      SANSA

       See you notice the one with Sansa’s not only is the singer herself a bit younger (im not sure how much?) but you can tell in her voice. OR you get that sense at least? (I do ) and it has that youthful hope. That onlooking into the unknown abyss we know life as and in some way finding your strength, And the pace of the song is quicker, darting, if you would have it. I suppose I could say a hopeful sense of wonder and a willingness to SURVIVE most of all. I’m not sure how to go into detail here, I’m not in Sansa’s head so much but- i think it’s interesting.

        Now we turn to the one I’ve selected for Cersei, or at least the one I feel makes me think of Cersei’s speech, and this song feels more matured in a sense. Angry, yes, and in a way I suppose. it feel more sadder?  “I’ve been waiting for this moment all my life.” -- “I’ve waited half my life.” You see there? It’s like Cersei is ready to finally step up and take what is hers. It’s like she’s done with waiting, she’s done with being treated like less than she is. And she is ready to fight, she’s already survived so much, and she is willing to survive so much more.

       I’m not sure where I’m going exactly with this. But I see that it’s almost like we have two different people on the same ends of a path so similar. We have one at the beginning staring into the abyss, and the other at the end of the abyss having survived it’s darkness. It’s an interesting though, don’t you think?

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for that meta meme: "what of my wrath, Lord Stark?"

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     "Exile.,” she said. “A bitter cup to drink from.”

     “A sweeter cup than your father served Rhaegar’s children,” Ned said, “ and kinder than you deserve, Your father and your brothers will do well to go with you. Lord Tywin’s gold will buy you comfort and hire swords to keep you safe. You shall need them. I promise you, no matter where you flee, Robert’s wrath will follow you, to the back of beyond if need be.”

     The queen stood. “And what of my wrath, Lord Stark?”

   Hearing her family threatened in such a manner had immediately cause an rise of anger to course through Cersei in that moment. Cersei loves her family more than anything, as she had just told him, ‘no more than I-’ when asking him if he loved his own. In her mind set there is a large, albeit cocksure, note that she is thinking over and that is; She is the most powerful woman in the entire Seven Kingdoms, part of the most powerful and feared HOUSE of the Seven Kingdoms. Daughter of the most powerful and feared MAN of the Seven Kingdoms, (voice in the background; WE GET IT )  

    You don’t just threaten a lioness in her own den.

     Fury thrown toward the protection of her family, this attack against her title, house, and blood, she also knows that she is witnessing Ned playing himself into his own grave.. Especially moment that the ‘honorable’ man before her not only defended the man she has grown to HATE through experience (via abuses and the likes), who is also speaking to her as if she should cower in fear. (this at least, is how Cersei is interpretation it.), which is not something that she would ever allow herself to do. Cower.

     She also knows now that Ned Stark has completely and utterly underestimated her and her ability to turn the table to her favor. He doesn’t know how far she would go to protect her family, her children, brother, father, and herself. He knows not the lengths nor the, for the lack of better word, stubbornness in her own anger. Ned Stark has judged her in this moment, and thinks about how he had judged her brother the same way years ago when he slew Aerys II. (I still lowkey headcanon that Ned was the first person to ever call him Kingslayer.).

      He had judged her yes, and Cersei knew it, but he did not know her, and thus;

      “And what of my wrath, Lord Stark?”

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I’M TRYING TO FIGURE OUT MILES BUT LOOK AT THIS.

The path of Cersei’s shame walk. She nearly walked the entire length of the city.

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Write meta on Teague and Cersei. Yes. Do it. Go

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             In this particular verse, Jaime has died, I haven’t decided when that is exactly. I’m going to take a wild guess and say a little bit before Robert himself died? Because by the time she meets Teague does in fact have her three children. Joffrey, Myrcella, and Tommen. Considering Myrcella is a teenager, Joffrey is probably around the age of 18. What i’m wondering is how long it’s been since Jaime died.

           It’s hard to ship Cersei with anyone who isn’t Jaime because of just how much she is just in LOVE with him. He part of every other, if not every, fabric of her thought process.revolves around him and her children.

           SO — Existing without Jaime has taken it’s toll heavily on Cersei’s mind. Cersei can’t deal with death, she doesn’t know how. I’ve said so many times how she doesn’t grieve. Cersei is still very much angry over her mother’s death 25+ years later. Lannisters are ever so perfect at holding things inside of themselves until they are literally mental shambles. Her drinking has increased to dangerous levels, depression levels had sky rocketed past the usual, because to Cersei it feels like half of her soul is gone. There is void inside of her that can never be filled, yes there is her children, and yes she loves them more then anything. In fact they are the reason that Cersei has literally survived for so long without Jaime, whereas they also helped her endure Robert. 

         By the time she meets Teague there is little interest in him. He is a part of her father’s business, official workings that she has asked for at times. And that’s all she saw him as; business partners. And from what I’m understanding so far is that when they’d talk they would be finding small intrigues in the conversations. First it would be just the generic asshole-ery shared between the two. General uncaring quips changed into exchanges of intrigue, which then turned into a drink. And after that- of course there is the sex. Coworker with a benefit. A way to fill the hole ripping inside of her chest. A way to soothe the pain through sex; another indulgences to run from the pain.

        At least until she realized that the reason they work so WELL is because Teague has also lost someone dear, has also experience what it felt like to have your soul ripped from your body. To live off of drink and anything to dull that hole in your chest. And what’s so perfect about it is that neither of them expect to replace the one that was lost? Cersei would never EVER replace Jaime and actually withdraws when she is reminded of something that he does; and what makes it work is that Teague understand that.

        And in an odd way; these two broken halves help each other heal the shattered edges that is their broken hearts.