#{ musings; shibusawa }

[fyodior]

About Shibusawa and Mori being fathers.

Shibusawa is always bored, so getting himself a child and heir will decrease his boredom, yes? He did not care for you first, you just an incubator and when finished you will cast aside. BUT being near you after getting pregnant, awaken something in him. He want to spend more and more time with you, maybe because of his ability he sees you as his mate now? Even after birth, he won't let you go, EVER. Mind you he got an unhuman cock/2 cocks, so you are for an ride. As for his "hatchlings", he will spoil them and will teach them to be cunning and strong as their daddy.

Mori will love his children (especially girls), he will give them best education, toys, books, food, medicine, clothes, protection, etc. but also teach them important medical knowledge, how to fight, educate them, help them to grow to be cunning, strong and mature human beings. I think he would prefer his child/ren to choose their own path, other than mafia, and even after possible parting ways will still love them will all his heart.

~🩺

OBSESSED WITH THISSSSSSS hehehehhe

i love the idea of shibu falling in love with the forced mother of his children (esp if this is an ovi situation...) and calling them hatchlings... anon u get me so much omg. but maybe in a scenario where like u said he purely just saw you as a means for incubation, he never quite pays attention to you. to who you are beyond what you (your uterus) can provide. until … he does. the man starts to notice how loving and caring and patient and kind you are in the way you take care of and love on his hatchlings. and of course he was possessive over you the second you got pregnant with his babies but it was different - in his head, you were a thing; a means of production. but you became his. and by god you better feel lucky and special because tatsuhiko shibusawa doesn’t fall in love with just anyone. but when he does, he falls hard. he’s so obsessed with every little thing you do, just wants you by his side 24/7. and now he’ll use those 2 cocks to actually pleasure you vs. only just impregnating you :)

and abt mori - i agree!! i think how he raises his own real children would be a bit different than how he treats elise. he’ll genuinely try to raise them and shape them to be the (like you said) cunning, strong, sophisticated people he knows they can be. they are mori children after all. i think he’d maybe give the illusion that he wants his kids to have freedom outside of the mafia and be able to choose their own life path, but he’ll always have them under his thumb i think. he’ll always have some semblance of control over their life whether they see it or not. and i can see mori choosing one kid (not even necessarily the oldest) to act as his heir, but they’d definitely have to pull their own weight and prove that they genuinely have what it takes to fill his shoes and potentially follow in his footsteps. as doting and spoiling as the man is, i don’t think he’d just hand the title of pm boss down to any of his kids if they didn’t deserve it.

thank you for sending this in hehehe i love talking abt this

[the-ability-collectors-hoard]

intro .

tatsuhiko shibusawa.

❝ do you even think there's one human...❞

- 29 - birthday is may 8th - he/they - semi canon compliant (some divergences and some headcanons mixed in). - unlabeled but a man liker - list of au shibusawas that can also be interacted with. ability: draconia a multifaceted ability.

❝... who can win against their own ability?❞

rules under the cut. please do read them.

no nsfw. mod frankly does not want to deal with that.

be polite. there is a person here.

shibusawa is not your friend and he will not act like it.

you are allowed to bring up things that happened in canon.

characters whomst shibusawa knows in canon (or doesn't know) are welcome to interact.

you can flirt, i suppose, but shibusawa is mainly devoted to the ivan over at @the-very-earth-you-stand-on, so do so at your own caution.

crossovers okay. encouraged, really.

more rules may be added if mod deems it necessary.

[etherbonded]

Don't mind him, he's just here to surprise Takuto and co. " Heeeey Takuto, Mukuro, been awhile huh? Thought it'd be a nice surprise to drop by on such an important day~. "

" Christ, Shibu-Kun, you gave me a heart attack! But at least you made it. "

[gemkun]

🖤 bc i almost forgot !!!! shibu for dazai pls pls

send 🖤 and my character will answer about yours.

note: not involving his draconic form cause it’s just not a look i’m afraid

attractiveness:

repulsive / hideous / ugly / not attractive / unappealing / not unattractive / meh / no preference / ok / mildly attractive / nice looking / cute / adorable / attractive / pleasant on the eyes / good looking / hot / sexy / beautiful / gorgeous / hot damn / would tap that / perfect / godlike / holy fuck there are no words.

personality:

grating / irritating / frustrating / boring / confusing at best / awkward / unreasonable / psychotic / disturbing / interesting / engaging / affectionate / aggressive / ambitious / anxious / artistic / bad tempered / bossy / charismatic / appealing / unappealing / creative / courageous / dependable / unreliable / unpredictable / predictable / devious / dim / extroverted / introverted / egotistical / gregarious / fabulous / impulsive / intelligent / sympathetic / talkative / up beat / peaceful / calming / badass / flexible.

note: this stems from a mix of feelings from dragon’s head conflict and dead apple

how likely they would have sex with them:

not if they were the last person on earth and the world was ending / fuck no! / never / no way / not likely / not sure / indifferent / I’m asexual / maybe / probably / it depends / fairly likely / likely / yeah sure / yes / would tap that / hell yes / fuck yes! / wishing that could happen right now / as many times as possible / we are already having sex.

level of friendship:

never in a million years / worst of enemies / enemies / rivals / indifferent / neutral / acquaintance / friendly toward each other / casual friends / friends / good friends / best friends / fuck buddies / bosom buddies / practically the same person / would die for them / true friends / my only friend.

first impression of them:

i hate them so much / i don’t like them / i don’t trust them / they annoy me / they’re weird / I’m indifferent / meh / they seem alright / they’re growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / I’m not sure if I trust them / I trust them / they’re cool / they’re genuine / I think we’re going to get along / I really like them / I think I’m in love / oh fuck they’re hot / I love them.

current impression of them:

i hate them so much / i don’t like them / i don’t trust them / they annoy me / they’re weird / I’m indifferent / meh / they seem alright / they’re growing on me / truce / I think I like them / I like them / I’m not sure if I trust them / I trust them / they’re cool / they’re genuine / I think we’re going to get along / I really like them / I think I’m in love / oh fuck they’re hot / I love them.

note: where’s the i pity them option 🤭

[selfaware-bungou-stray-dogs]

I have a question

What does BEAST!BSD cast call GL? If you don't have an idea set for that yet, feel free to ignore.

- 🃏 anon

BEAST! Cast's nicknames (and comparison with OG! BSD nicknames)

Universal - Light of hope/Guiding Light (Guiding Light)

Reason: Self-awareness and Reader helped BEAST! Dazai (because now he was sure, that Oda won't die). So, he demanded for Port Mafia calling Reader that. Others equally use Light of hope and Guiding Light.

For OG! BSD Cast Guiding Light were explained here (in point 2).

And to characters nicknames.

____________

Armed Detective Agency

BEAST! Akutagawa - Sunshine (Sparkle)

Reason: Both Akutagawas will deny it, but they adored Little Light, so they choose light related nicknames.

BEAST! Oda - Muse (Novel Luck)

Reason: Writer-themed nicknames.

BEAST! Kunikida - Perfection (Ideal)

Reason: Reader became a Perfection/Reachable Ideal for both Kunikidas, while they tried to deal with the fact, that they were fictional.

BEAST! Yosano - Suama (Dango)

Reason: Both Suama and Dango are Japanese desserts/sweets. And both Yosanos think that Reader are sweet and nice.

BEAST! Tanizaki - Mystic (Rice Cracker)

Reason: For BEAST! - from Tanizaki's Illusion. For OG- from Tanizaki's love of Chinese food. With a bit of "me" lore, ever since I was little I loved Chinese rice crackers. I still love them.

BEAST! Ranpo - Trusted Assistant (Best Assistant)

Reason: Both Ranpos see Reader as their future assistant.

BEAST! Fukuzawa - Purrfect (Kitten)

Reason: Cat lovers

Port Mafia

BEAST! Dazai - Eranthis Flower (Iris Flower)

Reason: here and here

BEAST! Chuuya - Melody (Symphony)

Reason: From Chuuyas' love of music.

BEAST! Atsushi - Chamy (Beacon)

Reason: For BEAST! - From Atsushi's love of chameleons.

For OG! - The first week of self-awareness, that OG! Atsushi has to live alone in a fictional world, surrounded by empty husks of his friends were a pure torture for Atsushi. But, when he learned, that Reader were here, despite him not feeling their gaze, Reader immediately became a "beacon" for him. Because, he wasn't really alone.

BEAST! Gin - Cloud (Tea Leave)

Reason: Came from the fact, that Reader's presence is calming for Ryunosuke. While BEAST! Gin simply use something soft, OG! Gin use her and her brother's favorite drink.

BEAST! Higuchi - Pumpkin (Honey)

Reason: Higuchis are more "traditionally romantic" and picked up traditional nicknames.

BEAST! Tachihara - Pencil Prodigy (Hyacinth)

Reason: From Tachihara's likes (pencils and hyacinths).

Government

BEAST! Ango - Butterfly (Almond blossom)

Reason: Both Butterfly and Almond blossoms are symbols of hope.

Angos were in hacker teams, reason for BSD Cast having an access to Reader's phone. For BEAST! Ango Reader became a symbol of hope for a new world. For OG! Ango Reader became a hope for a new life and repairing of old friendship.

Others

BEAST! Fyodor - Myshka (Myshonok)

Reason: BEAST! also called Reader Myshonok, but, after a long talk/near fight with OG, he agreed to call Reader Myshka instead. The difference:

Myshonok is baby mouse in Russian.

Myshka is an "affectionate" form of the word "mouse".

BEAST! Shibusawa - Green peridot (dragon's jewel)

Reason: Green Peridot stone is a symbol of strength, creativity, vibrance, energy, and a naturally curious nature. BEAST! Shibusawa, who didn't become a singularity, saw Reader as someone interesting.

OG! Shibusawa view Reader not only as interesting, but the most valuable jewel in his "collection" [of people he knew].

BEAST! Mori - Helping Heart (Sweet Bean)

Reason: For BEAST! - medical themed

For OG! - from him liking sweet red bean chazuke

[kaurwreck]

There's certainly Something about singularities in Bungou Stray Dogs presenting as massive, myth-derived creatures with more than passing resemblances to kaiju given the setting predates its analog to World War II.

Gojira and the kaiju genre were born in the aftermath of Hiroshima, Nagasaki, and the Lucky Dragon Incident (in which an American hydrogen bomb test rained radioactive ash on a Japanese fishing boat and much of the South Pacific). Life form singularities (like Chuuya and Verlaine), the Seven Traitors, the Transcendants, Mori's fixation on skill-based warfare, and everything else about the Great War all indicate that skills are akin to nuclear arms.

But unlike nuclear arms, skills are generally framed as intrinsic to their user. They're neurological; as much as part of skill users' wiring as the rest of their synapses. Even for Kyouka, whose skill was inherited but not fully integrated, her skill more resembles hereditary neurochemical wiring than it does nuclear proliferation.

Gojira (1954) ends with Dr. Serizawa's promise that hydrogen bombs would always assure nightmarish, monstrous manifestations of the horrors of war. You'd think Dazai's gift, then, would be the enigmatic focal skill of the series; he's capable of nullifying hydrogen bombs, after all.

But it's Atsushi and his celestial Byakko that Shibusawa calls the antithesis of all other abilities. And, as explained in 55 Minutes, Byakko doesn't heal or regenerate Atsushi, it negates his wounds. Atsushi isn't only a particularly tenacious shounen protagonist, Byakko compels him to stand when he's been cut down. When Atsushi is at the edge of death, Byakko consumes him completely, and Atsushi is lost within him, moreso than even Chuuya is in his Corruption state (Chuuya is fully conscious in Corruption— if Atsushi is conscious, he's either repressing or sluggishly recalling the memory of what occurred). Akutagawa also mentions during the Cannibalism arc that Atsushi's claws cut through skills themselves (even Rashoumon, which eats space). Akutagawa also becomes aware, in 55 Minutes, that Byakko can be triggered by Atsushi's peril, and Akutagawa does so to negate the manifestation of a seemingly transcendant skill that otherwise had utterly defanged them (although he seems sorry to have to do it).

Nevertheless, although Atsushi's Byakko seemingly negates the metaphorical horrors of the Great War illustrated by the others and their relationships with their skills, it's Atsushi who posits that perhaps skills aren't innate. He says to Kunikida, "Maybe they come from somewhere else and stick to us. Maybe they're something we can't understand... I don't really know how to put it into words, but that's how I feel."

Much of 55 Minutes is colored by Atsushi's fear of Byakko and his understanding that Byakko could devour him. His fear is seemingly validated by the antagonist, a manifestation of a skill that seemingly swallowed its human. But although textually consistent with his expressed fear, Atsushi's tone, demeanor, timing, and thought processes from when he speaks that line until the light novel ends aren't. His musings reflect his namesake's exploration of and uneasy relationship with the nature of existence, which he understood to be constructed by one's culture and environment better than most due to his somewhat rootless childhood.

I think it's interesting that someone with a skill capable of cutting through other skills, negating wounds, and antithesizing all skills challenges whether skills are innate at all. And if they're not, what does that imply about the parallels between skills, the horrors of war, and the fear of nuclear holocaust?

It's important to me that the scars of American imperialism and disregard for the sanctity of life are not erased from the narrative when discussing the world wars and nuclear proliferation. So I hesitate to posit anything about what skills may be in Bungou Stray Dogs that is too abstracted from trauma wrought by Western imperialism, Japanese imperialism, or the horrors of World Wars I & II. But perhaps that's it; when Atsushi speculates that skills are something that sticks to you, I'm reminded of how trauma has shaped and informed his own. He is certain that Byakko's negation and restless hunger are connected to his birth and subsequent suffering. At first, I thought we were being teased with his early background. But there's no need to tease; the reason so many characters in Bungou Stray Dogs are orphans directly relates to the Great War and the generational trauma still reverberating in its aftermath, and amid the threat of another, even more destructive war.

Perhaps Atsushi was implying that skills are constructs born not from any innate self, if there's such a thing, but from traumas, experiences, needs, cultures, and environments. Which is to say that skills aren't separable, exactly, from their users, but they're not innate either. They're like our personalities: immutable once shaped in the crucible of our most formative years, but nevertheless reflections of not only ourselves, but of what we need and who we become when confronted by others, in all of their beauty and horror.

Thus, perhaps it isn't Atsushi's skill that's so very antithetical to all others. It's his understanding of it, his ability to cut through to others, his compassion, his cowardice, his curiosity, and his separation from his sense of self that both inflicted him with Byakko and which will allow him to transcend it to become who he desires to be. It reminds me that, shortly before his death, his namesake decided to become a writer. And that although he wrote and lived only briefly, his sincerity, thoughtfulness, and introspective skepticism cut, and continue to cut, with a brilliance emblematic of life.

Anyway. Atsushi is both the main character and protagonist of Bungou Stray Dogs. Dazai knows this, too; even if he can nullify Byakko, he's just as impacted by Atsushi's brimming earnestness as everyone else Atsushi encounters. Atsushi liberates the narrative so that it's not a warning that the horrors of war will proliferate so long as we are capable of mass destruction, but instead it's a promise that hope needn't be intrinsic to persist all the same.

[fantastic-rambles]

BSD Headcanon: Fyodor the Wandering Jew

(Warning: Spoilers for Chapters 112-113/Season 5)

Disclaimer: I am not religious in any way and mostly just have a passing knowledge of various bits of different religions, including Christianity. No blasphemy is intended in these wild ravings of an overly obsessed fan.

As always, I can be a bit rambly as I mostly throw my thoughts out as they come, so apologies if it's somewhat disorganized. Many of my claims/connections are very tenuous (in particular, the final jump to the Wandering Jew), and I understand that, which is why this is just a headcanon.

Fyodor has always been a rather enigmatic character in Bungou Stray Dogs. Sometimes referred to as a "demon," and with an intelligence that rivals that of characters including Ranpo and Dazai, he has repeatedly shown himself to be a formidable foe capable of manipulating a great number of people and devising plans that are quite difficult to overturn. He also seems to be very religious, speaking often of God and sin and seeming to believe in predestination. Furthermore, despite his significant role in many of the plots involving the Detective Agency--from apparently being, at the very least, an active observer of the Guild's actions to devising the "terrorism" plot--very little is known about him and his ability "Crime and Punishment" other than its ability to kill without the need for skin contact. Although fanon has come up with a fairly plausible mechanism for how his ability works, it has not yet been discovered or revealed in canon, even up until his "death."

Immortality

"Death" because I am not entirely convinced that Fyodor is actually dead, despite Dazai's claim in Chapter 112. In the most recent chapter (Chapter 113), it has been revealed that Fyodor has many more mysteries to him as Sigma struggles to process the information overload that is his memories. Most significantly, that he has been alive for a very long time: at the very least, from a time that appears to be during the Middle Ages, when Bram was still alive and whole. This, of course, shocks Sigma (though, to be fair, that isn't a great metric for "shock" as he is easily surprised 🤣), but at the very least, Fyodor is as old as Bram and does not appear to age.

At the time, he apparently was passing himself off as a traveling minstrel, and he claimed to have intentionally gotten himself caught for the sole purpose of getting a look at Bram to judge his character as "evil incarnate" (something that would have appealed to Fukuchi for many reasons in apprehending him centuries later, as a prerequisite of the Decay of Angels plan). Of course, this seems like a preposterous reason to throw yourself into the jaws of death, so Fyodor is believed to be a spy and sentenced to death the following day.

Assuming that he wasn't somehow saved/Bram wasn't incapacitated (possibly stabbed by the holy sword for the first time) in the intervening time and his sentence was carried out... that means that Fyodor somehow also survived being killed at the time, while gaining some information about Bram that would have been useful for his "future" plans. (Some more of my musings on that topic can be found here, though the anime covered most of the key points--and especially confirmed my central theory--when Untold Origins was animated.)

If he is immortal, this could also help explain why his ability did not attempt to kill him when they were separated by Shibusawa's mist in Dead Apple: the "reason" provided was that Fyodor was "crime" and his ability was "punishment," and that they were good friends, but if Fyodor is immortal for reasons that are not tied to his ability, then it simply couldn't kill him even if it wanted to.

His Goal

Of course, this then raises the question of how long Fyodor has actually been alive. Although he has lent his assistance to many others, in the end, as he told Bram, he is working for himself. But to what end?

Ostensibly, of course, to rid the world of the "sin" of abilities. But coupled with immortality, which is, more often than not, a curse rather than a blessing in the hundreds of works on the subject out there, it raises the question of whether he is just seeking his own death. Maybe that was even part of his reason for getting caught by Bram: because he wanted to see if another immortal could kill him. But if there is some sort of supernatural, non-ability-based reason for his immortality (or even ability-based but not lost during Dead Apple), perhaps there are conditions that must be satisfied for him to achieve this: it is not enough for him to merely commit suicide or be killed. Thus, all of his plots could just be the means to an end, literally, for him.

Surprisingly, he does seem to have a genuine belief in God, which is quite interesting for a control freak like Fyodor (distinguished from cults that use religion as a tool to control followers but whose leaders do not genuinely believe in God). Even so, he expresses an understanding of and even an admiration for Gogol's desire to defy God and "lose sight of himself."

Perhaps he, too, wishes that he could oppose God and achieve his own sort of "freedom" or "release from the yoke of sin" that is denied to him.

The Wandering Jew

Which leads to the equally curious Wandering Jew (at least, in my weird brain). His relationship to Jesus seems to be a subject of contention, but at its core, he is said to be someone fated/cursed to walk the Earth until the Second Coming (via Wikipedia).

In my opinion, it is possible that Fyodor has been alive since the time of Jesus--if not longer--given the vast amount of memories that Sigma has to sort through of "every single one of [his] secrets." Enough, Fyodor says, that he may never wake up, just as Atsushi needed some time to process the information about the "page" that he received from Sigma. Thus, if he committed a "crime" at the time that resulted in his being cursed with immortality (by a higher power, or perhaps Jesus' ability--I'll try not to go down that rabbit hole 🤣), he could have a reason to believe in God, and he could also believe that engineering some sort of Armageddon might finally free him from his mortal coil. Just because Fukuchi wanted to achieve world peace doesn't necessarily mean that was also Fyodor's goal: especially given how he has apparently been manipulating people for centuries, at the very least, someone as "simple" and idealistic as Fukuchi was probably easy for him to use. I also highly doubt that throwing him into Meursault would have interrupted Fyodor's plans in any significant way, even though Fukuchi seemed to think that it would.

Furthermore, although he currently passes himself off as Russian and has taken on an appropriate alias, he has also claimed to be a "traveling minstrel" without any official affiliations and was suspected of being Roman by Bram's guards... which could also strengthen the connection to his being a "wandering" Jew.

And if we want to stretch it even further, he could possibly be another wanderer: Cain, cursed to roam the Earth for the sin of killing his brother, Abel, with God's mark on him that would prevent him from being killed by anyone else/that would return an injury sevenfold. Which didn't kick in when Ace tried to brain him with a wine bottle, so this is less likely on my list of "possibilities" (a term I use very loosely here, as I don't really think any of them are probable).

Of course, there are also his "last words," which are (allegedly) Jesus' last words when he died on the cross, though I think that is more of Fyodor seeing himself as a Jesus-like figure than him supposed to be representing Jesus. (The Wandering Jew and Cain are already a stretch as they are. 🤣)

[cousticks]

I should reread the dead apple novel next.

How many times did Shibusawa theoretically die? Three?? Once when Chuuya fucked him up in Dragon's Head Rush, once when baby Atsushi killed him, and then during the main events of Dead Apple?

Unless Shibusawa had been doing his Pure Ability research before the events of DHR, and Fyodor brought him back during the Dragon Head Conflict to stir up more trouble in Yokohama, and then later again for the main Dead Apple events?

I'm also wondering if Shibusawa's ability research is at all tied to N's, but that's just a side musing. A lot of researchers escaped with documents when the facility was ransacked in Stormbringer, it wouldn't be impossible to think Shibusawa could have been one of them. That or he went rogue after the facility went down and that's when he got to Atsushi?

Hopefully I'll have a better guess after I reread it, its been well over a year or possibly more since I last read or saw it I believe.

[frost-eyed-autumn]

all three for envy on the seven deadly sins hcs :3c

seven deadly sins headcanons

1. does your muse get jealous easily, or does it take a lot for them to feel it?

Generally, it takes quite a bit for Chuuya to feel jealous about things. Although Chuuya has been through a lot of hardships, he knows full well that he also has a lot of things going for him that other people don't.

He's a powerful Gifted that a lot of other people fear and respect. He has good physical looks. He has status and money now that he's worked his way up the ladder within the Port Mafia. He has a lot of loyal subordinates and colleagues that he knows he can reliably count on to have his back, who would throw down their lives if need be. He has the praise and approval of Mori, whom Chuuya looks up to highly as his leader and mentor.

That's not to say that Chuuya has never felt jealous before, or never lamented where he was in life or the things he had or didn't have, but he generally recognizes and appreciates everything that he has now even if he had to suffer to achieve it.

2. what kinds of things does your muse get jealous about?

If anything, the one thing I'd say he sometimes gets the most jealous of is that his life hasn't been simpler by allowing him to just be a "normal person" with "normal problems".

If he hadn't been a powerful Gifted, then the Port Mafia would have never chased after him and the Sheep would have never outcast him.

If he wasn't Arahabaki, then he would have known what it was like to grow up in a regular family home, and Verlaine never would have shown up and killed his friends in the Flags.

If he didn't have Corruption, then he wouldn't have to keep gambling his life to save Yokohama again and again (against Guivre, Shibusawa, Lovecraft, the Dragon, etc) knowing that one of these times, he might be killing himself by using his Ability, while also being unwilling to let other people he cares about die if that's what it takes to protect them.

Its the small things he's missed out on or lost or never got to experience because of his status as "Arahabaki" and the "Gravity Manipulator" that he gets jealous of the most.

3. does your muse compare themselves to others often? if so, how does it affect them?

He does and he doesn't.

For the most part, Chuuya doesn't like to make comparisons, and its honestly difficult for him to do so. There aren't many people he can make an honest comparison to (except for Verlaine), given his origins and abilities. As far as he's concerned, comparisons would only serve to drag himself or other people down. Chuuya is just Chuuya. That's all he tries to be.

That's not to say there aren't times when he does privately compare himself to others though, even if those moments are fleeting. As above, sometimes he does lament about himself compared to others in his weaker moments.

One of the biggest things for him is that he does sometimes get jealous of how easy it is for other people to get close to each other, physically and emotionally.

Its something Chuuya used to be better at himself, when he was with the Sheep, but the day that Shirase stabbed him with the poisoned knife changed all of that. It was a major trauma for him that made him a lot more dodgy about letting people get close to him, considering he viewed Shirase like his own brother.

Following that, the death of the Flags was another huge blow to his willingness to get close to other people, considering they were targeted and killed horrifically, just when he was starting to learn to get close to people again, specifically because they were his friends.

And then, there was the Dragon Head Conflict only a few months after those events, where six more of Chuuya's friends died before he could save them.

And then of course, while he would never call Dazai his "friend", there was his betrayal and flight from the mafia.

Suffice to say, experience has taught Chuuya again and again that getting too close to people will either lead to betrayal or their deaths, so he finds it incredibly difficult to get close to people either emotionally or physically.

Even with most of those he seems "close" to, Chuuya always keeps up a certain amount of distance and keeps most of his friendliness professional, out of a buried fear of something bad happening if he doesn't.

He generally doesn't like other people getting close enough to physically touch him unless he has no other choice, since it would be a perfect time to try to hurt him while his guard is down, which means physical intimacy is pretty much completely off the table.

Certain "nice" gestures are also something he's highly skeptical of, such as receiving mystery foods or drinks from other people as gifts, which he always has Mori or someone trusted on the medical team test for poisons before he eats/drinks them if he doesn't know for certain that it comes from a trusted source.

Suffice to say, he does hold some jealousy towards people who can make close friendships and connections easily and don't have to live with such paranoia always on the back of their mind, but its generally not something he'll ever admit to even if asked.

[fyodior]

Facefucking shibusawa with a strap...

anon ur a fucking genius

its so perfect because it's so fucking degrading, especially to someone like shibusawa. he holds himself in such high regard, considers himself to be beyond human, so to do something so lewd and demeaning and emasculating like shoving a dildo down his throat is both horrifying and unbearably hot to him. shibu looks so damn hot doing it too, with his normally perfectly preened hair a tangled fluffy mess from your previous activities, on his knees for you. his face is bright red and he's breathing quickly, nervous but excited. his breath quickens and so does his heartrate when the tip of the strap presses against his lips, and he licks it a bit, making you smirk - he's already doing so well. you're gentle but still a little forceful as you thrust in a little further, inching the silicone into his mouth, allowing his jaw to widen to accommodate for the sudden intrusion. and when you hit the back of his throat and he starts gagging, gripping and digging his fingers into your hips, if that cock was real you woulda came right down his throat already. stabilizing his head with your hands, you begin to fuck his throat, and like the whore he is, shibu LOVES it. loves how violating it is and how it hurts, stimulating his gag reflex over and over so he's choking on your fake cock and slobbering everywhere, bringing a hand up to feel the way his throat bulges in response. the best part of it all ? he cums completely untouched because of it :)

[jestersclowns]

You and Rumi had a beautiful wedding, accompanied by your friends and family. Her parents cried tears of joy and Shibusawa was your best man.

You both bought a little cottage on the coast, make dinner together in the evenings, and hang your laundry out to dry on the clothesline. There, you have enough time to finish your thesis, and it's published to critical acclaim from the public and academics alike. Your methods are being used to help patients and rehabilitate criminals.

Several years pass, and you and Rumi have a child together. She's sweet and loving and looks just like her mother.

You're never bothered by headaches again.

Build a dream world for my muse. Try your best to make them want to stay forever.

There's a soft smile on his face as he watches his child run around in the park. After everything he's been through, this is something that he deserves.

...Everything he's been through? That's not right, it's always been this wonderful. Of course. What was he thinking?

Rumi calls for him and he quickly snaps out of whatever thoughts he had. Maruki grins and follows after her.

There's a part of him screaming that this is wrong, but it is quickly silenced.

[studies-of-the-soul]

Your ex, Shibusawa Tatsuo. @ Kawakami. (( hi sunny u kno who this is KJLHASDJHGASH i just wanna know her reaction))

Go on anon and suggest someone for my muse to kiss, and see their reaction! Or give them two names and ask who they’d rather kiss!

“ Shibu?? “

Sadayo’s face flushed a shy shade of pink, choosing her words carefully.

“ I mean… he’s a good kisser! I wouldn’t mind doing that again. Buuut it’d be awkward to bring up after all this time… “

@supportive-editor

[viisiond]

                           Become what they fear

[supportive-editor]

Hey uh like this if u want a shibu

[multi-mused-menagerie]

content to follow orders leave behind your conscience abandon those who need you most convince yourself you’re noble but we both know it’s not so