#{ ❥ lostbelts (part 2) . maybe if I keep believing }

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@theabyssalmuses​ asked:  "i wish i could get rid of my scars.  they’re just reminders of everything i want to forget."  Wodime

scar related prompts  |  open

❝   To forget...  Yes, that’d certainly be nice, wouldn’t it?  You never told me the full story about them,  and i’ve never wanted to pry too much,  but I can imagine how much it must hurt to be reminded every single day...   ❞

A hand moved to the space just to the side of her stomach,  a wound that still felt as tender as the day she’d gotten it so long ago.  The number of days she’d spent wishing it away  —  hoping that maybe one day she would wake and it would have magically disappeared;  that she wouldn’t ever have to think about that day again.  She wouldn’t ever have to feel so guilty every time she looked down at herself.

But there was no magic cure for that,  not for her.  And of course,  it wasn’t the only scar on a body that had been fighting just to survive each day for years,  but it was the most painful.

She could imagine so clearly how much it must hurt to look at herself and remember all the suffering because she lived it already.  Yet despite the heartache it brought,  she kept going,  smiling on as though it were the easiest thing in the world.  Even now,  as the conversation turned so melancholic,  Yuko’s smile returned as her delicate touch moved to the man’s chest,  finding its place resting over his heart.

❝   But it’s those scars and the time we’ve spent living with them that make us who we are.  They helped shape us into the people we are today,  and for that reason I would never never choose to erase them.  They’re proof that we survived and continue to choose to live  —  to keep moving foward despite how much it hurts sometimes.

And when you think about them like that instead of merely what caused them,  it becomes a lot easier to see yourself past them.   ❞

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@theabyssalmuses​ asked: kissing under the stars from Wodime :plead:

a hundred different kisses  |  open

A peaceful evening was something that grew ever harder to come by,  especially as the end of the journey grew closer each day.  Even rarer was time spent alone together,  making this moment even more special as the pair sat silently together in the simulation room.  Though only brief,  and even if the stars above were fake,  the moment still belonged to them.  

It was that thought which brought solace to the Chaldea Master’s heart.  Of course,  it wouldn’t change what was to come;  nor would it fix the heartbreaks they’d already endured...  But it was enough.

Well,  almost enough.

❝   Kirschtaria...   ❞

Yuko was by no means particularly forward about her feelings,  especially when it came to him.  They were something she’d only  JUST  come to terms with herself, so what happened next was uncharacteristic of her.  Even so,  it felt...  Right.  If the moment had been let slip by,  then she knew in her heart that it would be yet another regret that she would cling to for the rest of her life.

And she already had far too many of those weighing her down.

As soon as his face turned from the glittering lights above to look at her,  his lips would be met with hers.  It was far from perfect,  only lasting a couple of seconds and maybe just a little more forceful than she’d intended it to be;  though perfection never really suited either of them anyway.  In that sense,  maybe it was perfect.  At least for Yuko it was.

The high of the kiss was quickly constested by the embarrassment that followed,  the woman’s cheeks flushed red as she quickly averted her gaze once more to avoid his surprised stare.  Despite the frenzy of emotions running through her heart,  she knew that she wouldn’t regret it one bit.

❝   S  —  Sorry,  I just   ——   under the stars you look...  Breathtaking.   ❞

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@theabyssalmuses​ asked:  Recomended Partner meme: Wodime

Recommend romantic candidates for my muses and see their reaction

“  Ah, Wodime is...  I  —  I mean,  Lord Kirschtaria  is...  ”

There was a long silence following her words, seeming to go through a series of emotions all at once as she struggled to form an answer.

What was he to her?  Even she wasn’t quite sure anymore.  Too many thoughts about the most talented magus of their generation seemed to swirl around her head, so much so that she could barely make sense of them all.

First and foremost he was her  Friend.  The first one she’d ever made and the one who had pushed her to keep walking down the path she chose for herself.  He was the boy in the clocktower who had said ‘good morning’ and asked her about her day every time he saw her.  He was the man she’d spent hours debating over tea about the smaller aspects of mage life that annoyed each of them, before laughing about how ridiculous each of their situations were.  Wodime was the one who was there for her when she had nothing and noone.

He  saved  her.

On the other hand...  Lord Kirschtaria was her  Rival.  The one she’d dueled over and over again and never beaten, no matter how much she practised  —  no matter what tricks she learned, she had never beaten him once.  In all their time as friends in the clocktower, she had only come close once.  Well, at least...  Not until...

And finally, he was a  Crypter.  A man resolute in his drive to see his lostbelt prevail above all others.  Resolute in his path to destroy the world that she so loved, despite its flaws, the very world where she had met him and he had given her far more than she could ever have wished for when she joined the Mage Association.  Despite all that happened, he was  determined  in his path to erase it all...

Or he had been...

Coming back to her senses, Yuko let out a soft sigh, her cheeks still faintly burning from the embarrassment.  Wait...  Why was she so embarrassed?  She’d never felt like that before when thinking about him...

“  Wodime is very important to me.  I...  I admire him  and his determination, even if I don’t agree with the path he chose to take.  And despite how much he hurt me when he chose that path, I still forgive him, and I would do that over and over again.  He’s the one who’s saved me twice now from a darkness that I couldn’t pull myself out of, and I will be grateful for that  forever.

I don’t know exactly what it is that I feel for him, but...  I hope that the warmth in my chest I feel when I think of him never fades again.  ”

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@moonlightmagus​ asked:  [ NURSE ] for one muse to tend to the other while they’re recovering from injuries.

angst starters

The magus stayed quiet sat upon the medical bed despite the stinging pain throughout her body, and unable to sleep even though she was exhausted.  But it was  FINE   ——   she’d received far worse injuries than this and been  ( almost )  perfectly okay.  Compared to that, this was nothing that she couldn’t handle.

No, what hurt far more was the  guilt  threatening to tear a hole through her body, only worsened by the presence of another, watching over her, and every so often checking on the machinery Yuko was tied up to.

Why did she stay?  Was it only to make her feel even worse than she already did after all that had transpired just days before?  If that was the case, then it was working.

“  ...Yuuki-san,  I   ——  ”    

She started to speak, but past those few words, she didn’t know what to say.  That she was  SORRY  for all the pain she’d caused?  That she didn’t  MEAN  to hurt anyone, as she’d been doing almost every day since their journey through the Lostbelts began?  That it wasn’t  HER FAULT  that she’d almost ended the life of another Master in Olympus?

Everything she could say sounded like just another excuse for her behaviours.  She’d been told by so many now that she couldn’t help it, that it was the influence of the curse that drove her to all of it...  But was that really it?

Yuko could barely feel the tears that began to slip down her cheeks as the memories flooded her mind once again, making her sick to her stomach.  Just how many people had she hurt and, in the moment, not given a second thought about?  Thinking about all the sorrow she’d caused to her fellow Masters was almost too much to bear...

But it was a burden she’d have to carry for the rest of her life.

“  ...I’m sorry...  I’m so, so sorry...  I hurt so many people and I   ——   I did so many terrible things that I can’t forgive myself for.  You don’t...  You don’t have to stay here with me if you don’t want, I  KNOW  that you’d probably rather not, after all I did.  I don’t blame you if you   ——   if anyone at Chaldea doesn’t forgive me for it.  I just...

I’m so sorry for the pain i’ve caused, Yuuki-san...  ”

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@moonlightmagus​ asked:  “You should have told me. I would have helped.”

from a meme i cant find

“  Yuuki-san...  ”

The mage’s voice trailed off, not quite looking her fellow Master in the eye.  Every day it seemed to get harder to look at the fellow candidates she’d continued this journey alongside...  Fear of their piercing gazes filled with disappointment and pity, or worse,  HATRED,  plagued her more recent nightmares.

No, Yuko didn’t want to see how they looked at her had changed.

“  I’m sorry, but I...  I’m not sure anyone could have helped.  If even Berserker couldn’t get through to me, then what hope did any of the Masters have?  It keeps me awake at night wondering...  If I’d told someone then perhaps it wouldn’t have gotten so bad, maybe it would have all been different and noone would have gotten hurt like they did.

————   But that’s only with the advantage of hindsight, and at that time, especially after...  After what he said to me...  I felt so alone, like there was noone I could trust in the world except myself.  Now I  KNOW  that I should have spoken up but, as much as I wish it were so...

We can’t change our past sins, we can only move forward and try to live with them... ”