#^he is the only other white person ive seen in my ward lmao

[website-com]

i need to speak to a man my age or i will kill myself

[sequoiann]

❧ h.js | assassin!au

pairing; seventeen joshua x reader

genre; bulletpointed, assassin!joshua, fluff, doctor!reader, mentions of blood

collab with; @kpop–fics

tags; @lunarjihoon

notes; my asssassin!aus are getting waaay to fluffy for a supposedly dark au i’m sorry everyone AHAHA but hope you like this one!!

joshua assassin!au

did you think you were gunna get some dark shua

SIKE

jkjk

he’s the medic ??? of the team 

idk what you wanna call it but

he basically cures everyone on the team

and prevents them from dying lol

no i mean seriously joshua is seen as the florence nightingale of the group 

but ok he does go on the missions too

since he has the most advanced knowledge on medicine and stuff like that ,, he can make doses that can kill their targets

basically poison doses lol

andddd he’s always busy 

like 

he doesn’t have time to rest 

AT ALL 

because

every day 

like every single day

after every single mission

there would be at least one wounded member on the team 

“smh guys can’t you be more careful” 

“YOU TRY IT THEN” 

“...nvm” 

he usually does the behind-the-scenes work and not the actions aha

& he usually gets really worried when someone gets injured bc he knows how bad it could get

it could go from 

“seungkwan got a scratch on his cheek”

to

“SEOKMIN HAS HIS INTESTINES RIPPED OUT JOSHUA SAVE HIM” 

like what the fuck guys

well 

no matter how busy it could get 

it was something he did like doing 

he liked the feeling of being important to the team 

and 

the fact that he could make the members feel better

but surprise surpriseeeeee

he actually didn’t plan on becoming part of an assassin team 

all he wanted was to become a doctor 

but 

since his group of friends pulled him into this 

,,,

why not 

they were all childhood friends and had promised to stay as a group when they were still really young

and their friendship had remained strong throughout the years

so sure

they need someone to look after them anyways

it was kinda funny to imagine that they would be nowhere without him 

seokmin would probably have his kidney hanging out of his body or something

but today, it was joshua himself who got injured 

they were on a mission to kill the president of a corrupted company

so all of them went,, since the building was really big

and jeonghan stayed in the car as standby

jihoon too,,, he was just monitoring them aft hacking the building’s cctvs

soo for those in the building

they were moving tgt, although pretty spaced out

joshua lagged behind the group bc he was on the lookout

but suddenly someone just grabs him from the back and joshua managed to kick him off

but that man came back and just flung him

shua was practically thrown against a window + shelf while trying to attack back

and there was a huGEE gash running up his upper arm

resulting in his arm bleeding a waterfall of blood

apparently the company had higher security than they had predicted so

abort mission for real

when they were in the car + when they got back, joshua couldn’t do anything bc ,,,

i mean ,,,

how tf is he supposed to treat himself

soonyoung was just pressing a thick cloth onto the wound but it wasn’t of much help really

everyone else would be able to help with minor wounds but this one was asdfgkl

,,, joshua wouldn’t be able to help even if it happened on another member

it was that bad

and ok jeonghan knew how to stitch wounds up 

but they don’t have anesthetic

so he couldn’t stitch the wound up bc joshua would probably die from the pain first before dying from blood loss

and joshua was just getting paler and paler by the minute

this wound just couldn’t get treated by any of them

“i think we need to get you to a hospital”

cue joshua pouting bc he never really liked hospitals

the doctors never really cared

shua had a few hospital visits when he was younger

none of them being good experiences

like omg the doctors act as if everything can be cured by ice packs

got a bruise? have an ice pack. 

have a stomach ache? have an ice pack. 

broke your neck? have a fucking ice pack.

like do i look like a moron to you

ok back to the story

seungcheol was kinda hesitant at first but 

1. he knew their assassin group was pretty private so no one would recognize them 

2. shua was gonna die and

3. shua is screaming

ok not really screaming screaming

but making weird grunting noises

of pain

whatever 

he needed to live

the team needed him

so 

an hour later 

joshua and everyone else were in front of the local hospital 

andddd you worked there as a pretty experienced doctor

so! 

suddenly

that night

a horde of men just run into the hospital like a fucking tsunami was chasing them lmao

“is there a doctor available?!!!” 

you were the closest to them and you didn’t even have to ask who’s injured

bc this,,, brown-haired guy,,,, in the middle of all of them,,, being held up by 2 guys,,, was literally red

like i mean everything was red

except for his face which was ghostly !!! white !!!

but his clothes were soaked in his own blood and his flesh on his arm was cut open and it was so deep and just

omg it was really really gory

you were pretty shook

“did you guys murder someone or something??”

everyone just gave each other awkward glances 

like um techincally yes we did

you quickly led them to a room and did all the procedures

aka stitching of the wound

but you didn’t allow the whole group of them to follow you in bc you counted 13 of them in total like nonononono get out all of you

so only seungcheol followed

you stitched up joshua’s wound after injecting him with local anesthetic to numb the area

and seungcheol had to look away bc ew

joshua was still really pale tho like the amount of blood he lost was ,,, a lot ,,,

“i think he’s gonna have to stay here for a day or two,” you told seungcheol

seungcheol just nods and leaves and you try to call him back to sign the papers but he juST LEFT 

you were dumbfounded like okay so you’re just ?? gonna ?? leave your friend here ???

but joshua (you learnt his name from seungcheol while you were stitching up joshua’s wound) was asleep

and reasonably so

he would’ve been really weak and tired, considering how much blood he lost

you couldn’t help but stare at him for a while bc he,,, looked ,,, cute

there was a little frown on his face but he still looked pretty relaxed

and his features and everything were just so perfectly sculpted ajdskjfh

ok no y/n you’re a professional doctor stop it

so you let him sleep in the ward after updating his medical reports

and you were on night shift so you were gonna stay in the hospital through the night

you went on your daily rounds and settled more patients

but when you went to check back on joshua about 4 hours later

mEJIK

pOOf

hE wAs gONe

the hospital bed was empty ,,, with just a few cash notes lying on the sheets

o and a little handwritten note too

which just said “thanks for stitching up my wound & taking care of me”

and the amount of cash beside the note was the exact fee he had to pay

okay maybe a few dollars less but that didn’t really matter

what mattered was that hE wASN’T WELL ENOUGH TO LEAVE YET

the wound would open again if he does any strenuous activity omg

but that worry didn’t last very long bc you had other patients to take care of

you couldn’t keep him on your mind like that

fast forward a few weeks later

joshua’s wound !! has healed !!!

not completely but the stitches are out (yes he did it himself) and the wound’s pretty closed already

but he still wasnt in prefect condition so he was sent on a fairly simple mission

which involved killing someone again

but this target was hospitalized 

so it was an easy task

all joshua needed to do was to insert the poison,,, venom thingy,,,, into that person’s IV

but no 

it didn’t go as well as planned

he realized that the person was staying in the same hospital as he was previously

but he didn’t think much of it bc he was here for only a short while

and his identity wasn’t really recorded soOooO 

he just went into the target’s ward, acting as a visitor, a regular mask covering his nose and mouth

and a casual cap over his head

i mean he looked pretty normal

and the target was soundly sleeping

joshua pulled the tiny vile from his pocket, quietly grabbing the syringe from the nurse’ table at the corner of the room, filling it with the poison and injecting it into the IV

“what are you doing?” 

joshua threw the syringe under the bed and stuffed the empty vile into his butt pocket and turned around

shit 

out of all doctors, it had to be you

you ran over, pushing him aside, ripping the IV out of the patient’s arm

the patient had woken up, obviously alarmed and confused

joshua looked away, afraid of being recognized by both you and his target

he quickly turned and walked-jogged right out of the room

you quickly told the patient to just go back to sleep first and ran after joshua

but by the time you got out, you couldn’t see him anywhere 

so you just ran down the hallway, pulling out your phone and calling the hospital’s security.

“hello? someone just entered the---”

you didn’t finish your sentence

the door of the storeroom on your right opened and someone grabbed you, placing a hand over your mouth and pulling you in

your phone was snatched out of your hand and that person switched your phone off

the door got locked but the hand was removed from your mouth

you were about to scream but when you saw the perpetrator’s face ;;; 

“joshua....?” 

you recognized him almost immediately 

he was one of the patients you wouldn’t forget easily

besides, he just came in a few weeks ago

joshua smiles a little when you remembered him

“hey.”

“what the hell? why were you in the patient’s room? what did you put into the IV?” 

your voice was getting louder and louder, causing him to widen his eyes & place his hand over your mouth again

he shushes you

“stop speaking so loud!” 

you stare at him like ??? i’m speaking loudly?? you’re the one who just tried to kill my patient???

joshua couldn’t reveal anything so he just ,,

“that guy isn’t good.” 

you were so pissed like did i ask that ????

joshua just changes the topic suddenly like nothing happened 

and he thanked you for the other time

“i know i haven’t thanked you face to face yet, but thank you. it’s a lot better now.” 

you looked at his arm where the wound was, but it was covered by his sleeve so

nvm 

he smiled at you again and you wanted to scream at him like

stop !!! smiling at me !!!!!

he was so cute you really couldn’t take it 

and so you just snatched your phone from him and left the storeroom 

but not before joshua makes sure you “don’t tell anyone about anything” and “pretend he was never here”

like ok i totally can do that 

he honestly didn’t seem like a bad guy

he seemed to hv good reasons

but no your morals got to you

you had to report him

he nearly killed someone

but before going to the security, you went back to your patient’s room to check if he was fine

but the moment you stepped in

you got fuckign strangled

by your patient

he was shouting something like “are you from their team?! did you just try to kill me?!” 

you were just helplessly clawing at his hands while your lungs contracted

you panicked

but suddenly the pressure on your neck disappears and you just crUmble to the floor

joshua had kicked him in the face and he was sprawled on the floor now

joshua grabs another syringe that was from his jacket pocket and just stabbed it into the man’s neck 

and the man just went unconscious

you were still,,, on the floor,,, spluttering and wheezing

joshua rushed over to you 

“are you okay?” 

he pats you a bit, and he suddenly just reaches around your neck gently, his thumb caressing your sore skin

when you could finally breathe again, you were just

“what was that? did you kill him?” 

joshua shook his head.

“it was just a heavy dose of general anesthetic.” 

that was joshua’s back-up.

you heaved a sigh of relief ;;;  joshua would’ve gotten into huge trouble if the man died 

you got really suspicious of joshua bc of what the man had said to you so you started ,,, cautiously ,,,, questioning joshua

and joshua told you. bc he trusted that you wouldn’t do anything.

and you didn’t !!! bc he just saved your life ,,, he was obviously a good guy

everything he said made sense too sooo okay

so you became a new “partner” of his team

you always helped the members treat their wounds and everything whenever they got injured

it was fun

and joshua liked to make jokes about how “getting injured isn’t bad now, i get to see you” 

:”))))) 

[kpopfanfictrash]

(1) Hey girl, Eva sent me your Nurse Jackson AU and I just had to send you feedback. I'm a surgical nurse specialising in orthopedics and urology. I usually forgo Nurse and Medical AUs because the representation of my profession in coin with medical inaccuraccies makes me mad af because nurses arent always sweet hearts like we are cardinally believed to be. Ive only read the first part and will read the others when I have time but so far, you are amazing...

(2) Firstly, “Does anyone know CPR?” My heart fell into my gucci hole. What a good liner. Love it. Can tell it will be American / Author will be American as Heimlich Man is being illustrated. Your writing is phenomenal. Secondly, A NURSE EXAMPLE THAT MAKES ME SO FUCKING HAPPY!!!!!!! WHO ARE YOU AND HOW DO YOU KNOW ABOUT DRUG ERRORS???? Ive lost count of how many times Ive caught prescription fuck ups. Or even doctors prescribing two drugs that cancel each other out, ayos mio

(3) HAAHAHHAHHA WE REALLY DONT GET ALONG WITH MED STUDENTS HAHAHAHHAH

(4) In my country, doctors only wear scrubs for surgery and they wear the same sexy grey colour as nurses in theatre. Nurses everywhere else wear white and then according to ward colour, black/blue/green/grey/pink/floral on Fridays. We dont use pagers either. We use iphones with a triaging text system so doctors go to life threatening emergencies before requests to rechart meds or check wounds lol

(4) Ive assisted with a lumbar puncture suspected meningitis (was defs menin, soon as needle went in, white pusy fluid dribbled out), not fun, doctor told me he couldnt remember how to do one. Me: aha fuck my life im going to be in this room for long ass time. Had an interning medical student watching beside me. Was confused as to why she was just watching instead of getting her hands dirty. Never seen any intern do one. V rare indeed. FUCK I LOVE YOU.

(?5) OMG JACKSON IS PERFECT. Wait, just to go back. When doctors prescribe wrong, nurses recieve disciplinary action here instead because we administer the drug and should always double check dose, time, route, rate, person, renal and liver function lmao fuck our lives. Theres a line that sticks out to me here too. “One day youre going to make a mistake and it’s going to be your fault” i think it was. BEAUTIFUL. LOVE IT. EVERYTHING ABOUT JACKSON IS AMAZING

(6) In summary, thank you for writing this relatable and scarily accurate medical/nurse AU. Your writing is amazing and I hope you continue to write, bloody blew me away!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM YOUR FAN

OH MY GOSH. This was the most wonderful, THOUGHTFUL and helpful ask in the world!! Haha yes, I am American and I’m so glad you enjoyed that bit about CPR/Heimlich confusion ahah - and WOO! DRUG ERRORS! My best friend from college is actually a med student and my roommate from college is actually a nurse - so I did run a lot of my thoughts by them, but as you can see, it’s not always entirely accurate. Or I embellish slightly for dramatic effect (the pagers LOL) but AH, this is so interesting about scrub color/clothing! AND about the nurse receiving disciplinary action when the med student makes an error. I almost want to go back and rewrite that into a scene now. LOL thank you so much for telling me! 

and alskjdfalks I LOVE YOU, TOO! This wonderful feedback made me so happy :)) I am so, so happy you found the first part relatable, that you enjoyed Jackson (that’s my favorite line!!) and I hope you continue to enjoy the next parts! THANK YOU FOR READING AND SENDING THIS LOVELY MESSAGE!

[kpop--fics]

Assassin!Joshua

Collab with @theliqht <3

---

joshua assassin!au

did you think you were gunna get some dark shua

SIKE

jkjk

he’s the medic ??? of the team

idk what you wanna call it but

he basically cures everyone on the team

and prevents them from dying lol

no i mean seriously joshua is seen as the florence nightingale of the group

but ok he does go on the missions too

since he has the most advanced knowledge on medicine and stuff like that ,, he can make doses that can kill their targets

basically poison doses lol

andddd he’s always busy

like

he doesn’t have time to rest

AT ALL

because

every day

like every single day

after every single mission

there would be at least one wounded member on the team

“smh guys can’t you be more careful”

“YOU TRY IT THEN”

“...nvm”

he usually does the behind-the-scenes work and not the actions aha

& he usually gets really worried when someone gets injured bc he knows how bad it could get

it could go from

“seungkwan got a scratch on his cheek”

to

“SEOKMIN HAS HIS INTESTINES RIPPED OUT JOSHUA SAVE HIM”

like what the fuck guys

well

no matter how busy it could get

it was something he did like doing

he liked the feeling of being important to the team

and

the fact that he could make the members feel better

but surprise surpriseeeeee

he actually didn’t plan on becoming part of an assassin team

all he wanted was to become a doctor

but

since his group of friends pulled him into this

,,,

why not

they were all childhood friends and had promised to stay as a group when they were still really young

and their friendship had remained strong throughout the years

so sure

they need someone to look after them anyways

it was kinda funny to imagine that they would be nowhere without him

seokmin would probably have his kidney hanging out of his body or something

but today, it was joshua himself who got injured

they were on a mission to kill the president of a corrupted company

so all of them went,, since the building was really big

and jeonghan stayed in the car as standby

jihoon too,,, he was just monitoring them aft hacking the building’s cctvs

soo for those in the building

they were moving tgt, although pretty spaced out

joshua lagged behind the group bc he was on the lookout

but suddenly someone just grabs him from the back and joshua managed to kick him off

but that man came back and just flung him

shua was practically thrown against a window + shelf while trying to attack back

and there was a huGEE gash running up his upper arm

resulting in his arm bleeding a waterfall of blood

apparently the company had higher security than they had predicted so

abort mission for real

when they were in the car + when they got back, joshua couldn’t do anything bc ,,,

i mean ,,,

how tf is he supposed to treat himself

soonyoung was just pressing a thick cloth onto the wound but it wasn’t of much help really

everyone else would be able to help with minor wounds but this one was asdfgkl

,,, joshua wouldn’t be able to help even if it happened on another member

it was that bad

and ok jeonghan knew how to stitch wounds up

but they don’t have anesthetic

so he couldn’t stitch the wound up bc joshua would probably die from the pain first before dying from blood loss

and joshua was just getting paler and paler by the minute

this wound just couldn’t get treated by any of them

“i think we need to get you to a hospital”

cue joshua pouting bc he never really liked hospitals

the doctors never really cared

shua had a few hospital visits when he was younger

none of them being good experiences

like omg the doctors act as if everything can be cured by ice packs

got a bruise? have an ice pack.

have a stomach ache? have an ice pack.

broke your neck? have a fucking ice pack.

like do i look like a moron to you

ok back to the story

seungcheol was kinda hesitant at first but

1. he knew their assassin group was pretty private so no one would recognize them

2. shua was gonna die and

3. shua is screaming

ok not really screaming screaming

but making weird grunting noises

of pain

whatever

he needed to live

the team needed him

so

an hour later

joshua and everyone else were in front of the local hospital

andddd you worked there as a pretty experienced doctor

so!

suddenly

that night

a horde of men just run into the hospital like a fucking tsunami was chasing them lmao

“is there a doctor available?!!!”

you were the closest to them and you didn’t even have to ask who’s injured

bc this,,, brown-haired guy,,,, in the middle of all of them,,, being held up by 2 guys,,, was literally red

like i mean everything was red

except for his face which was ghostly !!! white !!!

but his clothes were soaked in his own blood and his flesh on his arm was cut open and it was so deep and just

omg it was really really gory

you were pretty shook

“did you guys murder someone or something??”

everyone just gave each other awkward glances

like um techincally yes we did

you quickly led them to a room and did all the procedures

aka stitching of the wound

but you didn’t allow the whole group of them to follow you in bc you counted 13 of them in total like nonononono get out all of you

so only seungcheol followed

you stitched up joshua’s wound after injecting him with local anesthetic to numb the area

and seungcheol had to look away bc ew

joshua was still really pale tho like the amount of blood he lost was ,,, a lot ,,,

“i think he’s gonna have to stay here for a day or two,” you told seungcheol

seungcheol just nods and leaves and you try to call him back to sign the papers but he juST LEFT

you were dumbfounded like okay so you’re just ?? gonna ?? leave your friend here ???

but joshua (you learnt his name from seungcheol while you were stitching up joshua’s wound) was asleep

and reasonably so

he would’ve been really weak and tired, considering how much blood he lost

you couldn’t help but stare at him for a while bc he,,, looked ,,, cute

there was a little frown on his face but he still looked pretty relaxed

and his features and everything were just so perfectly sculpted ajdskjfh

ok no y/n you’re a professional doctor stop it

so you let him sleep in the ward after updating his medical reports

and you were on night shift so you were gonna stay in the hospital through the night

you went on your daily rounds and settled more patients

but when you went to check back on joshua about 4 hours later

mEJIK

pOOf

hE wAs gONe

the hospital bed was empty ,,, with just a few cash notes lying on the sheets

o and a little handwritten note too

which just said “thanks for stitching up my wound & taking care of me”

and the amount of cash beside the note was the exact fee he had to pay

okay maybe a few dollars less but that didn’t really matter

what mattered was that hE wASN’T WELL ENOUGH TO LEAVE YET

the wound would open again if he does any strenuous activity omg

but that worry didn’t last very long bc you had other patients to take care of

you couldn’t keep him on your mind like that

fast forward a few weeks later

joshua’s wound !! has healed !!!

not completely but the stitches are out (yes he did it himself) and the wound’s pretty closed already

but he still wasnt in prefect condition so he was sent on a fairly simple mission

which involved killing someone again

but this target was hospitalized

so it was an easy task

all joshua needed to do was to insert the poison,,, venom thingy,,,, into that person’s IV

but no

it didn’t go as well as planned

he realized that the person was staying in the same hospital as he was previously

but he didn’t think much of it bc he was here for only a short while

and his identity wasn’t really recorded soOooO

he just went into the target’s ward, acting as a visitor, a regular mask covering his nose and mouth

and a casual cap over his head

i mean he looked pretty normal

and the target was soundly sleeping

joshua pulled the tiny vile from his pocket, quietly grabbing the syringe from the nurse’ table at the corner of the room, filling it with the poison and injecting it into the IV

“what are you doing?”

joshua threw the syringe under the bed and stuffed the empty vile into his butt pocket and turned around

shit

out of all doctors, it had to be you

you ran over, pushing him aside, ripping the IV out of the patient’s arm

the patient had woken up, obviously alarmed and confused

joshua looked away, afraid of being recognized by both you and his target

he quickly turned and walked-jogged right out of the room

you quickly told the patient to just go back to sleep first and ran after joshua

but by the time you got out, you couldn’t see him anywhere

so you just ran down the hallway, pulling out your phone and calling the hospital’s security.

“hello? someone just entered the---”

you didn’t finish your sentence

the door of the storeroom on your right opened and someone grabbed you, placing a hand over your mouth and pulling you in

your phone was snatched out of your hand and that person switched your phone off

the door got locked but the hand was removed from your mouth

you were about to scream but when you saw the perpetrator’s face ;;;

“joshua....?”

you recognized him almost immediately

he was one of the patients you wouldn’t forget easily

besides, he just came in a few weeks ago

joshua smiles a little when you remembered him

“hey.”

“what the hell? why were you in the patient’s room? what did you put into the IV?”

your voice was getting louder and louder, causing him to widen his eyes & place his hand over your mouth again

he shushes you

“stop speaking so loud!”

you stare at him like ??? i’m speaking loudly?? you’re the one who just tried to kill my patient???

joshua couldn’t reveal anything so he just ,,

“that guy isn’t good.”

you were so pissed like did i ask that ????

joshua just changes the topic suddenly like nothing happened

and he thanked you for the other time

“i know i haven’t thanked you face to face yet, but thank you. it’s a lot better now.”

you looked at his arm where the wound was, but it was covered by his sleeve so

nvm

he smiled at you again and you wanted to scream at him like

stop !!! smiling at me !!!!!

he was so cute you really couldn’t take it

and so you just snatched your phone from him and left the storeroom

but not before joshua makes sure you “don’t tell anyone about anything” and “pretend he was never here”

like ok i totally can do that

he honestly didn’t seem like a bad guy

he seemed to hv good reasons

but no your morals got to you

you had to report him

he nearly killed someone

but before going to the security, you went back to your patient’s room to check if he was fine

but the moment you stepped in

you got fuckign strangled

by your patient

he was shouting something like “are you from their team?! did you just try to kill me?!”

you were just helplessly clawing at his hands while your lungs contracted

you panicked

but suddenly the pressure on your neck disappears and you just crUmble to the floor

joshua had kicked him in the face and he was sprawled on the floor now

joshua grabs another syringe that was from his jacket pocket and just stabbed it into the man’s neck

and the man just went unconscious

you were still,,, on the floor,,, spluttering and wheezing

joshua rushed over to you

“are you okay?”

he pats you a bit, and he suddenly just reaches around your neck gently, his thumb caressing your sore skin

when you could finally breathe again, you were just

“what was that? did you kill him?”

joshua shook his head.

“it was just a heavy dose of general anesthetic.”

that was joshua’s back-up.

you heaved a sigh of relief ;;;  joshua would’ve gotten into huge trouble if the man died

you got really suspicious of joshua bc of what the man had said to you so you started ,,, cautiously ,,,, questioning joshua

and joshua told you. bc he trusted that you wouldn’t do anything.

and you didn’t !!! bc he just saved your life ,,, he was obviously a good guy

everything he said made sense too sooo okay

so you became a new “partner” of his team

you always helped the members treat their wounds and everything whenever they got injured

it was fun

and joshua liked to make jokes about how “getting injured isn’t bad now, i get to see you”

:”)))))

>> Masterlist

[magnusclarys]

So- I read Pillow Talk and really loved it. I was wondering, do you have any Magnus heacanons that are your favorite?

that is so great to hear! glad u like it

for magnus headcanons, get ready lmao bc i have a LOT

- magnus drinks tea. more specifically chai with less milk and cinnamon (just bc i do too lol)

- harry has the tiniest hint of an accent right, so I love thinking of magnus slipping into ancient languages (which he does canonically) and never quite dropping that way of speech bc imo its cute and i love it

- religion: oh boy i’ve thought about this a lot. what I sort of despise is this assumption that Magnus celebrates christmas or just partakes in all western christian traditions bc the shadowhunters are assumed to, even though downworlders are specifically an analogy for other cultures races and religions. so by his actual age, I’d say he was probably raised buddhist/hindu or an ancient religion influenced by those two (no way my boy does not have a little laughing buddha somewhere in his loft). if it’s a modern au, I’ve really not seen much of what magnus would probably be - which is muslim. again, a mainly white fandom afraid to explore religions and cultures or hamfistedly writing about them makes for a very shallow exploration of his religion.  i assume he’d celebrate christmas with ragnor but by himself? nah, i dont see it

- now that I’m on the religion tangent, I just think about it so much. how does he come to terms with being bisexual? how does his religion (i only have knowledge of hinduism and buddhism) help or harm him in discovering that? does he ever approach religious figures (priests etc) and beg for forgiveness or change? i think magnus has definitely read the gita, mahabarata, or the sutras. I’ve read some of the gita and the sutras and Oh man is that some shit to read when you’re literally figuring yourself out from the ground up. there’s also evidence of transgender figures and same-sex relationships in these texts specifically, so he probably really clings to them

- he also had a wild-child period lasting an entire century bc like why not? flirting with married women, sleeping with people wildly older than him - just generally being reckless with substances like drugs and alcohol. he doesn’t grow out of it until much later

- also, makeup. eyeliner (or kajol) is another cultural thing for south/southeast asians. typically we’d put it on young children to ward away evil spirits. does that have any connection with how he wears his eyeliner now - which is very smudged and reminds me of how a south asian person would apply itagain, his relationship with makeup and clothes. where did his love of finery come from? the rings he wears remind of the way literally every uncle I’ve met wears rings - thick and chunky, often with birthstones. 

- i picture him as a loner type, sort of a writer (not a poet) - someone who just soaks in the details and keeps it in his mind for later

- and for magnus as a person, I’ve discussed this with @menckenschrestomethy before but like, for a very white writers room, magnus is very asian in the way he speaks. for example, he’s got this very interesting way of saying things without divulging any important information - basically how i’d share personal details myself (I won’t) 

- for example, he often just trails off and never says things ‘explicitly’ like in 2.07 when he was discussing how he felt about having sex too soon, he never says the word ‘sex�� after “I’m afraid if we…” hell, I even expected him to say ‘being intimate’ which is literally the tamest way to discuss it and he didn’t! 

- which brings me to my biggest headcanon which has so far been proven true: magnus is the most private person in the world. he just does…not….tell people anything. which I can definitely relate to, asking me to share my feelings or details is like pulling teeth. I also think he does not trust the shadowhunters (not even alec) with some of the things he’s going through, since most of s1 and s2a has been focused on alec’s side of things, i can only imagine that magnus’ main issue would be being unable to express that he needs help

and thats all bc ive hit world limit lmao but please feel free to ask/discuss any more hc you’d like! and thanks for reading pillow talk !!