#[she had no idea i could sing Rammstein]

[herrlindemann]

Bravo 05.06.1997, interview with Till

The halls burn at their concerts. With their spectacular fire show and their super hit 'Engel' (this week number 3 in the German single charts), Rammstein from Berlin rose to become the new stars of the German rock scene. Frontman Till Lindemann plays the wild man on stage: The muscular, broad-shouldered singer fires flamethrowers, lets showers of sparks spray and dances across the stage as a living torch - without batting an eyelid. In the BRAVO interview, on the other hand, the shrill 'fire devil' shows a completely different side. Till, who has recently dyed his hair silver, speaks softly, in a deep but gentle voice. He seems very thoughtful, almost shy — and he rarely smiles...

Rammstein landed their biggest hit with 'Engel'. How did you get the idea to sing about angels?

The text goes back to a fairy tale I heard as a child. A boy asks his dad about his deceased mother: "Where is my mommy now? » The dad replies: «She is now an angel in heaven. Look up at that star. There's your mommy now! » This story fascinated me. I could sense how lonely and vulnerable the boy must have felt without his mother.

Do you believe in angels yourself?

Anyway, I've never seen one. Richard always says my lyrics are childish and wise at the same time. I really am like a big kid — naughty but innocent. People always think I'm strong and badass. That's not true. I am sensitive and easily hurt — and romantic and passionate in love.

How did you grow up?

We lived in Schwerin in what was then East Germany. My parents are artists. They left me alone, I could do whatever I wanted. I was mainly interested in sports. I was good at swimming, so when I was ten I went to a sports school where I trained for an international career. At first everything went great. When I was 16, I went to Rome with the East German team for the European Championships.

Was that your first trip abroad?

Yes, anyone who went abroad in GDR times was king! We didn't have the freedom to travel back then. I was totally fascinated by Italy. After the competition I abseiled with a girl I met in Rome. I had no intention of running. The next morning I reported back to the team. Unfortunately too late. I got into big trouble and was interrogated by the Stasi. What I did was a crime for them. It was then that I noticed for the first time in what a slave system we lived in. After this trip, I was fed up with the system. I got out and became punk.

How long has Rammstein existed?

Richard, our rhythm guitarist, founded the group in 1993. At Rammstein all band members are equally important. The group can only function with this cast. If one of us gets out, it's over. The guys played in various Berlin groups like Feeling B and The Instabokatables until 1993. I got by in Schwerin as a basket weaver. From time to time I played drums in some punk bands for fun. Richard is an old friend of mine. My voice has always fascinated him. I used to sing out loud at work and he would listen for hours. One day he brought cassettes with new, super hard songs and told me to sing along. At first I didn't feel like it because I didn't want to go to Berlin.

But then you went to Berlin after all...

Yes, Richard talked to me for three days. Finally he convinced me. We then recorded the first demos in the apartment he and Schneider shared at the time. I always had to sing under a blanket because my voice woke the neighbors from their sleep. The three of us formed the core team. Paul, Flake and Olli came later when we won our first studio session at the Berlin Senate Rock Competition in the summer of 1993.

Where does the band name Rammstein come from?

At first we didn't expect to be commercially successful. For over a year we went without a name because we only played at friends' parties. When we signed the record deal, we had to come up with a name quickly. Someone said: "Rammstein. » We liked this name — «Ramm» and «Stein» express movement, strength and hardness. We knew nothing at all about the plane crash that happened in the 1980s at the military training area in Ramstein/Rhineland-Palatinate. We all come from the east and didn't notice anything about the catastrophe.

At the beginning of your career there were rumors that you were right-wing extremists...

Absolute nonsense! We have nothing to do with fascists. When Rammstein started, we seemed like a foreign body in the German music scene because we didn't conform to any cliché. We're just not easy-going heave metallers with long hair and short pants. People didn't know which box to put us in. The box on the right was obvious because we acted very tough and monumental, with long leather coats, shimmering metal, bare shiny skin and all that fire. We wanted to provoke people and do something totally crazy.

« Mein schwarzes Blut und dein weißes Fleisch, ich werd’ immer geiler von deinem Gekreisch. Der Angstschweiß da auf deiner Stirn, hagelt in mein krankes Hirn… » you sing on the number 'Weißes Fleisch'. Are such harsh texts also created out of sheer desire to provoke?

My texts arise from feelings and dreams, more from pain than from pleasure. I often have bad nightmares, waking up at night drenched in sweat from fear because I saw some bad bloody scene in my dream. My lyrics are an outlet for the emotional lava boiling over in my soul.

What scares you?

We all try hard to hide behind a well-mannered facade that we are ruled and guided by drives and feelings: by hunger, thirst, fear, hatred, greed for power and sex. Of course there is also a very strong positive force in us - love. Without them, humanity would have exterminated itself long ago. Drives and negative feelings are particularly dangerous when they are suppressed and hidden from consciousness. In my texts they are allowed to come into the open.

Are you a pyromaniac?

Fire fascinates me. I once brought two New Year's Eve fire breathers to a gig and lit them between songs. The fans cheered and I burned my hands. But I thought it was great that I didn't have to stand around stupidly between the songs, but had something to do. I made myself a gauntlet that could spit fire, then a fire arm. At one point, the fire department showed up behind the stage. On this occasion I learned that you need a ticket to play with pyro effects. So I took the firework exam.

How do you actually live privately? Do you have a girlfriend?

No, not at this time. None of the six of us have an intact relationship. We're just too much on the go. But I don't live alone. I am single father. My daughter's name is Nele and she's twelve years old: she's my everything - for me even more important than Rammstein!

[zoeykallus]

I just wanted to say the other night I had a dream where I asked you to write a fic where the bad batch where a rock band instead😭 and instead of you writing it you took me to one of their concerts😭 it was a very weird but fun dream lol

😅😂 Sounds like something I would actually do! If I could, that is.

A rock band, huh? A short look into this, shall we?

The Bad Batch As A Rock Band - HC's

Wrecker is definitely on the drums! Not only because he has enormous stamina and can pound the drum set for an eternity, but because he actually has a first-class sense of rhythm. But not when he has to dance or sing.

Tech is at the keyboard, one of those with multiple tiers to make multiple sound combinations at once. He always comes up with new ideas for melodies and sounds. (Although Tech is much prettier, I still had to think of Rammstein's keyboard guy here. And yes, I like Rammstein.)

Crosshair is the melancholy, gloomy looking guy on the bass. He doesn't like to be in the focus on stage, but he knows exactly, his contribution is not to be omitted at all in this kind of music. Without him, something very essential in this combination would be missing.

Hunter is responsible for the vocals and hits the strings of the electric guitar. His voice is supported by Tech's slightly higher pitch in the background.

Echo is the organizational brain behind every gig. Apart from making sure that the conditions for his brothers are always fair and safe, he makes sure that the guys don't let themselves go too much, and he has written some of their best and most profound songs. One of them is an acoustic version sung by himself and accompanied by Hunter and Crosshair on acoustic guitars.

Omega is mascot, motivator and voice of reason at Echo's side. She often helps her big brother to keep the rest of the gang on the ground. She can also play the violin and does it pretty well, one or the other song has already been spiced up and refined by it.

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[trickster-tabby]

Still Here

While caring for his newborn daughter, Shane spirals into some dark thoughts about his past... Luckily, his husband Graves is there for him.

I'm literally in bed writing this because I had a dialogue idea that was too good to lose lmao

Pairing: grane

Warnings: mention/very heavy implication of past suicide attempts, crying, mention of a trans man's pregnancy

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Shane rocked in his chair, humming to the baby in his arms.

Alice Delphine Roberts, born just a few days ago. Daughter of Graves and Shane Roberts.

Shane was running out of lullabies to hum, so he instead hummed the vocalizations from Rammstein's Sonne.

"Hey, Sundrop... Why are you singing Rammstein to our newborn?" Shane could hear the smile in that sentence.

Shane chuckled and looked up to see his husband stepping into the room. He had his long, blue hair tied up in a high ponytail; clearly, he just came in from working on the farm.

Shane looked down at Alice as Graves pulled up another chair and sat next to him. "Just look at her."

"She's gorgeous... Definitely got your eyes."

"I can't believe she's here... I can't believe she's ours!" Shane smiled down at the sleeping infant. "That she's mine."

Shane gently handed Alice to Graves, who stood up and walked over to her crib.

Shane suddenly let his smile fall, sighing sadly.

"Shane, are you... Are you okay?" Graves gently laid Alice down in her crib, then sat back down next to Shane.

Shane looked at him. "It's just... Love, a family?" He took a deep breath. "...Happiness?"

Graves looked at him, confused.

"I never thought..." Shane felt himself tear up. "I didn't think I'd live long enough to have this.

"Shane..." Graves laid his hand on Shane's back, feeling his husband hold back sobs.

"It scares me, Graves. It really, really scares me to think how many times I almost did it." Shane muffled a cry with his hand, so as not to wake Alice. "How many times I tried to do it."

Graves rubbed gentle circles on Shane's back, reaching out to offer to hold his hand, which Shane accepted.

"It's really scary to think how close I was. How easily I could have slipped away..."

"Even during the pregnancy, I had those thoughts. I still have them, Graves. Despite everything, sometimes I still want to... To..." Shane trailed off, feeling the tears flood down his face.

"Well... I, for one, am glad you're still here." Graves ran his thumb over the back of Shane's hand.

Shane nodded, swallowing the lump in his throat. "I want to be here for this girl. I want this family, I want to be able to love you both... And I almost took that away before it even happened."

Shane covered his mouth and let himself fully cry, his body racking with stifled sobs.

Graves pulled him into a tight hug, running his hand through Shane's messy hair. "I'm right here, Sundrop... I'm here..."

Shane turned and buried his face into Graves' shoulder.

"Thank you, Starlight..."

@catboygirlboss you helped with the pet names so I figured you'd like to see the finished product ^^

[damien-mlm]

Arrival to Ambrose

Chris is on a tourist bus. After coming back to Huston to visit his father and sister's graves one last time, he decided to tour around the country trying to find a place where he could finally die quietly. Now, the bus driver is cursing and they are running out of gas, Lester spots them and leads them to Ambrose. All the tourists get off the bus and get immediately introduced to the town by Cande, an old friend he met in his last year of highschool, who was calling herself Courtney, and leads them to the House Of Wax for a small tour while the bus gets filled up with gas.

They meet when she is guiding the whole group around the house of wax, eventually it gets dark and the entire group decides to stay at the motel and take off in the morning.

Before he went with the group into the House of Wax, he approached Bo who was naturally blasting Manson. Chris had an idea and took out his earphones, asking Bo if he ever heard of Rammstein, since he likes hard rock too and Bo doesn't know of them. So Chris gives him one earphone to listen to and very deliberately chooses a specific song called Küss Mich.

Bo likes it and starts to gently headbang to the beat, when Chris just casually says “Kiss me”

"I beg yer pardon?" Bo asked

"Oh, it's the name of the song, it's in German though…"

"I see... 'S a good song, I'll give the band a try, er..."

"Chris, Chris Alba" he offers his right hand to shake and Bo takes it gladly, in a firm but friendly handshake.

"Nice meetin' ya, Chris. I'm Bo" they let go of each other's hands after lingering for a second. Making Bo notice a long, vertical scar on Chris' right wrist, barely covered by his snake tattoo.

"It's nice to meet you too, Bo" Chris says with a smile.

Before anything else could go down, "Courtney" was calling the group together to give everybody a tour through the House of Wax.

"Sorry, gotta go. I'll be seeing you around?" Chris asks, a brow raised, and a playful smirk tugging at the corners of his mouth.

"Sure thing, enjoy the tour" Bo answered, So this is what it feels to be sweet talked and smirked at by a random southern man? He thinks to himself

Thus, Chris peakes Bo's interest as he walks away. He can't help but to stare at the man's ass as he goes.

He texts Vincent to leave the goth dude to him.

So when the group starts to head to the motel, Bo approaches Chris and offers him to stay the night at the house, Bo is confused but also curious, and he wants to know more about Chris, so he offers him something to drink.

A beer, but Chris asks for whiskey and Bo gets even more interested at this. So they sit on the couch and start drinking, and boy Chris cannot hold his alcohol to save his life. Bo is pretty amused at this, and teases him about it, but you see, Chris is a sad drunk.

At one point he just blankly stares at the way and mutters to himself "I don't want to feel anymore..."

Bo heard this then glanced back at the scar he noticed earlier, so he asks Chris if he is okay.

Chris takes a shot of whiskey and after a long pause "I'm.... tired" he says, without looking up.

Bo knows exactly what he means, but plays dumb and offers to help him upstairs into the guest room, since Chris can barely stand on his own. Chris just holds onto Bo for dear life and lets him guide him upstairs.

At one point, Chris starts humming a song and Bo asks what it is that he is humming, so Chris starts to drunkenly sing a verse:

"I long to be like you

Lie cold in the ground like you 

There's room inside for two 

And I'm not grieving for you

I'm coming for you…"

Bo is... concerned? He doesn't know why, but he finds himself caring for this random depressed man. Eventually they reach the guest room and as Bo tries to lie Chris down, Chris doesn't let go, making him fall on top of Chris.

Bo is incredibly flustered and tries to get up, but Chris keeps holding onto him, "Please.... Stay..." he begs, Bo just stares into Chris's big sad eyes, looking like they are about to burst and is barely able to blurt out "I can't, I'm sorry" before leaving.

Bo leaves the room, and Chris cries himself to sleep, clutching the pendant on his necklace in his fist.

A few hours later, Chris wakes up in a haze, groggy and hungover, with sunlight beaming into the basement of the gas station from the little drain on the concrete floor of the station. He is strapped to The Chair.

Despite his situation, he calmly scans the room with half opened eyes, until he spots Bo standing across the room, smirking maliciously at him. Chris can't help but to look up and down at him, raise a brow and smirk himself, maybe this was his lucky day after all.

Bo is confused as to why Chris is not only calm as a clam, but smiling under the tape covering his mouth. Is he still drunk? Why is he not fighting against the restraints? Why isn't he trying to cry out for help? He can't for the life of him figure out the man he has strapped, and it frustrates him deeply. 

Chris notices Bo's upset and starts to mumble underneath the tape.

Bo angrily stomps his way towards Chris, "Now, whatcha tryna say? Huh?!" He says in an elevated tone and snatches the tape from his mouth, hoping the pain would bring this insane man back to his senses.

"Ow~" Chris says, following it with a deep chuckle.

"What the fuck is wrong with ya?" Bo asks, his blood running hot, although he doesn't quite know in which way.

This only makes him the more confused as Chris calmly responds in a flirtatious tone "I know we had a connection last night but damn, at least take me out to dinner before tying me up, big boy"

Bo is not only confused and angry at this point, but also in disbelief, just what is going on in this man's head?

"An' here I thought I was the fucked up one…" he says as he grabs Chris by the hair and pushes his head back on the chair, holding him there

"... Or maybe ya don't quite understand the situation ya’r in…" he continued as he leaned into Chris' face with his signature sadistic smirk in his face, trying his best to hide the confusion and put up a more intimidating look in hopes of finally getting this man to break.

Chris looks up at him, without moving a muscle, and smiles softly, "Oh I know exactly what's going on, sugar. You seem to be the one who's confused" he said.

Bo is going insane, he must be. Not only he cannot figure this man out, nor scare him, but he also saw right through his facade this easy?

He pushes Chris' head into the chair with a frustrated grunt and turns away from him.

"Aw, don't look so let down, big boy. Here, I'll tell you a secret" Chris starts, and Bo turns back to look at his face, only this time he's keeping a small distance between them.

"You see��� when you've longed for death for as long as I have, you don't complain once The Reaper finally shows up…" Chris says solemnly, a tinge of anguish in his voice, much like the night before.

Bo gazed at Chris' scar, then back at his face, "... And, honestly? I couldn't have asked for a better looking Reaper than you, sugar" he said, winking at Bo, who is more confused, yet deeply intrigued by the second.

He's only able to blurt out, "You're fucked in the head…" as he turns his face away again, trying to hide a rising heat creeping up his cheeks. Just, what is going on?? 

Chris cackles at Bo's reaction, "Well that's rich coming from a guy who has a collection of snuff Polaroids in his torture dungeon" he says, gesturing with his head at the wall covered in victim's pictures.

Bo scoffed at Chris’ remark, then left the room in a huff, slamming the door behind him. He stayed with his back to the door, trying to recollect himself from the madness he just experienced. 

This Chris guy was more interesting than he originally thought, and he could hear him groan in frustration from inside the room, “Great! Now I can’t even get somebody else to kill me… way to go, me…”. Maybe he would keep Chris around for a while, see if he really meant all this or if he was just bluffing...

Well! I had this already so I decided to post it now 🖤✨

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Imma keep writting whenever I can 👀

[roaringxthunder]

That moment when your Pregnant fiance comes in and your singing in German.

[theelliottsmiths]

What are 5 things that make Rammstein special for you?

Hm.

1. The empathy in the lyrics. Almost every song oozes empathy and understanding, somehow. More than any other music I listen to, and I'm a person who mostly listens to music for the lyrics. The more upsetting or evocative the better. The thing about Till as a writer and person, especially when the band is vetting the lyrics, is that he's able to channel so much emotion into everything regardless of whether or not he's experienced it himself. Hyperempathy seems to be his thing, maybe even something he purposefully cultivates now.

Somehow he manages to make a song like Tier, which many bands would end up sexualising or making far too crass or just not taking the right amount of seriously as it needed to be, and work it into something that countless people who have been abused can find genuine comfort in it (and have told him as much). It's strange because it's not that it's not gross or anything because it is very up front and confronting with no sugar coating to make it more palatable, it's more that he shows a much more human aspect, which I find pretty rare. He... Zooms in closer? He puts himself much further into the person.

That's just one example, nowhere near even the best one for that since the first person songs tend to do that even more effectively, but really he manages to treat all kinds of complex situations and emotions perfectly, no matter how gruesome or upsetting. I mean, he wrote a song about child on child abuse, something rarely properly takes about, and despite it being provoking and uncomfortable it's still comforting because it's understanding? He can pretend to be a murderer and say the vilest shit and still somehow have it feel respectful. He doesn't punch down.

I genuinely don't know who could have written Mein Teil, which I absolutely consider to be a love song, so effectively. There is full acknowledgement of the gruesomeness and depravity that somehow doesn't sully the romance, which is very much true to the real story it's based on (Bernd Brandes consenting to being killed and eaten by his lover, Armin Meiwes). It was such a good choice to write from the victims point of view and also? Super interesting that he plays cannibal on stage whilst singing as the "victim". I don't know if it's intentional but Meiwes had this thing about eating someone so they'd be with him forever, so the idea of the victim speaking from inside the cannibal is fascinating.

2. Their solidarity as a group. I fully believe it's because of their personal and cultural upbringings, they just slot together and are willing to work on their relationships; Despite all disagreements and personal problems they chose to stay together and work it out because they love each other and they love their band. They fully believe that they need every member and they're correct. I'm endlessly glad that emigrate exists because otherwise who knows what would have happened?

3. Their dedication to their work. They mercilessly edit the lyrics over and over again until they're perfect. Schneider practices for several hours a day, often in front of a mirror so he can keep an eye in his posture. He's practiced so well that there are other professionals who can't even tell which is his dominant hand, which they seem to think is impressive. Richard spends god knows how long writing music, so much so that he had to form a second band to relieve the pressure that created. Till subjects himself to the raw agony of having his lyrics dissected over and over again. They're all so committed to their work and each other.

4. This overlaps with 2 but their ability to compromise despite all being very opinionated and pretty stubborn. It's a hard skill to master. I'm mostly thinking right now about Schneider saying he doesn't like the amount of pyro they use but very much in an accepting and not upset way? More just like someone saying they'd prefer their curry a little less spicy. They all disagree somewhat about the importance and inclusion of the pyro but they work out middle ground that everyone seems to accept as good enough, if not exactly what they'd prefer. Every opinion matters.

5. It has to be said, their shows are pretty unique. I completely agree with them when they compare it to an opera. For the most part they know their strengths and limits and focus on making it the best show they can.

I sometimes see people complaining about Till using playback for songs like Puppe and I get it, I like it when singers fuck themselves up too (Amanda Palmer used to lose her voice after every show, I love that, she did have to have surgery because it's a terrible idea), but he's saving his voice so the shows can be consistent? He still has good and bad voice days but he manages himself better, seems to plan things out. Seems like that's probably something he learned from the opera singer to some extent. It's the responsible thing to do and I appreciate that for them specifically, it being a Production more than just a show, consistency seems to be a priority. Quality is more important that it being as real as can be (Zoran take note).

Bonus: the love. The tenderness. The adoration.

[servin-up-surveys]

survey #046

(from yesterday)

To whom did you last give the finger? Probably Girt, haha. But playfully of course. What song was last stuck in your head? "Rein raus" by Rammstein is a WILD fuckin ride but man what a jam Where did you last sign your name? Eye doctor. Who was the last person to whom you spoke on the phone for over an hour? Holy shit, I don't think I've done that since the night I talked to Jason's mom in the middle of the night... How was the last egg you ate prepared? Scrambled. Where was the last road construction through which you drove? Literally RIGHT at my sister's house, haha. The road was closed for some piping work, but since there was no other way to her house, we obviously were allowed to drive through. Who was the last person to smoke a cigarette in your presence? My dad. In what kind of car did you last have an accident? We had a van then. What animal did you last pet or hold? Pet, my cat. Hold, I think our dog. To what song did you last sing along? I have no idea. Have you ever wanted to watch a scary movie with someone JUST to have an excuse to be close to them? No; horror movies don't affect me like that. If your best friend liked your ex, what would you do? Idk, other than be upset. I do not want to date someone who's cool with how toxic she was to me as well as after the fucking message she sent me. Do you think you were well-raised? Yeah, for the most part. Is Thanksgiving an important holiday to you? Who did you spend last Thanksgiving with? No, I literally hate Thanksgiving bc its origins are gross. Mom and I always go to my sister's place, and her husband's family comes there too. Are you a believer in “signs” from the universe about things in your life? If you are, can you think of a particular example? No; the universe doesn't give a shit about me or anyone else. Does your mom like the last person you kissed? She loves him. If somebody tried to steal your best friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend, what would you do? ... I'm my best friend's girlfriend lmao Has someone promised you something and broke it? Yeah, although to be entirely fair who hasn't at some point. Do you believe that there’s good in everybody? Sure don't. Most people though, yes. Can you dry swallow pills? Only some, but I don't like doing it. Would you break up with someone your parents didn’t approve of? Not just because of that, no. What’s the last reason you held someone’s hand? I think it was my youngest niece, making me follow her somewhere. I think. Have you ever experienced an earthquake? No. A very minor one did happen where I live when I was in the 5th grade though; I was on a field trip hours away though so didn't feel it. I totally remember activity just coming to a full stop at the zoo, though; everyone was suddenly on their phones, I'm guessing from family checking in. If you were in the hospital, do you think any of your exes would come see you? No. None of them would even know. What do you have in common with the last person you kissed? A lot. We like the same music, for one. We both love video games. Do you like being called baby? I don't HATE it if Girt says it, but it's definitely not high on my list of names I like being called. Have you ever slept in the same bed of the opposite sex? Plenty of times. What do you think of your best friend's ex? She cheated on him, so nothing good. Granted, this was over a decade ago, so I mean, maybe she's developed into a better person. What’s your favorite feature of the last person who kissed you? His smile could replace the sun. Probably be brighter than it. What bugs you about the last person you dated? Oh, you know, the whole "she's a Nazi" thing. Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you? He means the world to me. Have you ever kissed a brown eyed person? Everyone I've kissed has had brown eyes, actually. Well, maybe. I don't remember what color Tyler's eyes are. Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? Yep. Where did your last hug take place? My sister's house. Are you taller than your mom? No; we're basically the same height. Have you ever felt replaced? Oh yes. A feeling I will never forget that best encompasses the feeling in my experience is waking up one morning, going on Facebook, and seeing Jason was in a new relationship really not that long after we broke up. We were still "friends" on there at the time, but uh, not for much longer. Have you ever been tied up? Ha ha no. How many times have you been cussed out? At least once to my face. Are you anyon​e’​​​​s first​ love?̴ No. Well... I MIGHT be Sara's? I honestly don't know. Who’s the last person you called a bitch? *shrug* Do you still talk to the person who hurt you the most? No. Have you ever had an out-of-body experience? No. Do you have more than one personality? No. Have you ever considered acupuncture? No. Do you prefer gory horror films or the psychological ones? Psychological, for sure. Who do you text the most, or do you like to text at all? I basically only text my mom. Do you have a favorite obsession? Oh jesus right now it is VERY strongly Rammstein lmao. My mom recently pointed out that she'd noticed I'd been playing almost solely them in the car lately and I was like........ girl you should be in my head when I'm NOT in the car lmfao they're like all I listen to now. How do you feel about Hot Topic? Love the place. Wish we had one in my local mall. What color was the last fish you had? I have zero memory of the last time we had fish as pets. Is there a garbage can in your room? What color is it? No. Does your animal sleep with you? Roman usually does, yes. Have you ever had to wear a hairnet? Yes, for the <2 hours I worked in a deli. Do you have any baby pictures of yourself on your computer? No. Do you eat onion rings? No. What is your favorite song to play on Guitar Hero or Rock Band? Absolute top of the list is probably "Hotel California" by The Eagles, like the ending solo especially is a blast on Expert, and "King Nothing" by Metallica is also a load of fun on that difficulty too. Who was the last person outside of family that told you they loved you? My boyfriend. Do you take any prescription meds? A disgusting amount for someone my age. Is your mum the type to pressure you to have grandchildren? Not at all; she expects no grandkids from me. What was the last video you added to your favorites on YouTube? I just checked and it's this fucking video of Rammstein's rhythm guitarist Paul fake crying in Till's arms because his pyrotechnic arm wasn't working lmfao he is so precious, protect this bean Who were the last four people to text you? Mom, my big sister, dad, then little sister. Do you have any morbid interests? Quite a few, probably most notably that I like to photograph roadkill. Been a long time since I've done it, though... I really should take my camera out again when I ride with Mom. Those shots were very well-received in the vulture culture community. Do you like potato salad? No. Do you enjoy being a tease? Haha not as much as when I was a teenager, but sometimes it happens. Who was the last person you caught lying to you? Sara in her lovely note she sent me awhile back. How old were you when you were first pulled over by the police? I never have been before, but granted, I never drove much. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money? Nope, not my jam. Have you ever regretted having sex with someone? Can't regret having it when I've never done it in the first place, so. I don't regret people I've been sexual with, though. Kissed someone of the same sex? Yep. Had sex with someone and called them the wrong name? I would NOT be alive if I ever did bc I woulda died on the spot lmfao Have you ever been in an adult toy store? No, that would be insanely uncomfortable to me. Ever had unprotected sex? No, I am not fucking with my bad luck and winding up pregnant. I would NOT carry it to term and an abortion would traumatize me so yeah I'm staying safe. Ever had sex with someone in the room? I would never, that'd be so fucking awkward. That's private business to me. Where do you wish you were right now? With Girt. I miss him a whole lot; he still isn't feeling too great. Have you picked out flower petals, saying, "He loves me, he loves me not?" No. Are you a small town girl, or from the big city? Small town girl, livin' in a LOOOOONELY WOOO-OOOORLD. Do you ever look in the mirror and are surprised by how good you look? Hell fuckin' no, I wish. Is anybody in your family schizophrenic? If so, what is their life like? My dad's I think oldest daughter that I don't know is. Her schizophrenia and name are all I really know about her. Why do girls like six-packs? What’s wrong with a soft pillowy tummy? This is a very presumptuous question; not all girls care about what someone's stomach looks like. I personally don't care if someone's ripped or has a prominent stomach. Are you feminine, masculine, or quite androgynous? I guess feminine in appearance, but I'd say my interests and such are more androgynous if we're following stereotypical guidelines. Have you ever read any self-help books? No, they're not something I have fun reading. Do you thank the bus driver? I don't take a bus anywhere, but if I did, I absolutely would. Not doing so is a pretty garbage thing to do. Show some appreciation for people doing jobs that must be done and yet don't pay enough. How did you and your first best-friend meet? Our older sisters were best friends, actually. Do you like short hair on girls? UGGGGHHHHHHH YES. Pixie cuts especially are fucking cocaine. How about long hair on guys? mmmmmmmmmmmm that's some GOOD SHIT Are you scared of needles? ... Confession time, I've been getting weird about getting my blood drawn and especially getting shots lately, eheh. And yet a piercing or tattoo needle brings me comfort and happiness. Idk how the hell to explain the logic, I just don't like the idea of something really sharp digging deep through layers of my skin. The last time I had to get blood tests done, my vein even hid because my anxiety was up. They had to resort to my other arm. It's so weird and even embarrassing to admit when you're totally cool with needles for cosmetic purposes. What is currently the most tan spot on your body right now? Nowhere.

[notafraidofredyellowandblue]

Rammstein radio interview Paul Landers 1997 - English translation

Gave the english translation a shot, as good and bad as I could make it out (if someone has corrections, please let me know). Paul is really on a roll in this interview and basically keeps on talking, sometimes rambling so far he has to backtrack to finish his story. I decided to keep the rambling part in, because it's actually part of the fun of hearing him talking 😊 (at the end are some footnotes with the translation).

Edited to add a couple of additions (outfit at first concert, what music he listens to incl footnote 4) thanks to @dinchenrockt 😘

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Voiceover: Rammstein, at the latest since this year not an insidertip anymore. Stefan Rieger has portrayed the group and interviewed one of the two guitarists, Paul.

Paul: Calling ourselves Rammstein was nonsense really, it was a bit like a nickname, like when  someone is nicknamed 'Dummy' *1) and no one knows why he is called 'Dummy' but everybody calls him 'Dummy', you know *2) someone will ask "Why are you called 'Dummy'?" It just got stuck like that, 'Rammstein'. And then we considered what to call ourselves: 'Milk' or 'Weir', 'Forest' but it all didn't sound quite right. 'Rammstein' just stuck. It had to do with a. that, b. with the force of the disaster itself, then with the force of the double 'm', then it had to do with the sound and also we think it describes the music really well.

VO: The Rammstein bandmembers are no novices in the musicbusiness. Most of them have been involved in various projects for years. Paul and Flake played for 12 years with east-berlin cult-group 'Feeling B'

P: We all had a band, every man for himself, a couple of guys played with 'Feeling B' and the bassplayer played with 'The Inchtabokatables' etcetera etcetera and parallel to these bands we fooled around in the basement and called that 'Rammstein'. That was like a sideproject. And after a while..eh..the individual bands broke up and we just did this sideproject which then wasn't a sideproject anymore and that was Rammstein. That's how it started and the first concert we ever played was at the NaTo to 15 people *3), and Till wore two sunglasses, no fireworks was set off, so it was quite peaceful, we wore black turtleneck sweaters.

VO: To 'The Inchtabokatables' singer B.Breuler Rammstein's succes is no coincidence.

B. Breuler: Good music, which uses german language and an interesting way of using their stuff with elements that weren't covered in the previous bands. Who else did those sampled guitars in german music, that is relatively new..

VO: Musical influences on Rammstein

P: I like no *4) music at all, Till likes dark, Flake listens to, he only has one cassettetape which has Johnny Cash on it, Schneider listens to Techno, Oliver listens to Industrial, the bassplayer, and Sven listens to whatever is new, that's all of us. Well all of us don't really have rolemodels, we just have rolemodels like 'Pantera', well not really rolemodels, we like them. I like music, no matter from which direction, it has to be individual. Last ones that were individual were 'Metallica', 'Pantera' and 'Prodigy' and such, the individual bands I know personally, apart from that there is some more stuff that's hot but not as groundbreaking. We are not really groundbreaking either, but there is some... I like it when music is individual, no matter where it's from. All of it influences us technically, or none of it.

VO: The Rammstein boom has reached unexpected dimensions. The in september 1995 published CD 'Herzeleid' is19th in the german salescharts. The single 'Engel' is 4th in the singlecharts and concerts are usually sold out.

P: Well no one believes us, and you don't believe it yourself, that it wasn't planned, that is, we did have a concept, but we didn't expect..we didn't want fame and we didn't want to be rich and we also didn't want in 'Bravo' *5), that is, we just wanted, or I wanted just to annoy, that was our main concern, fun at annoying people and nothing more. With 'Feeling B' everything always had to be fun, we just wanted to be wellbehaved and stuff, now we didn't want to behave, wanted to cause a little trouble, basically we did the opposite of what you should do to be succesful. We have really disgusting evil guitars, distorted, and played really slow, and did really disgusting lyrics which get to you, and then suddenly everyone think it is good. It's like you spit in a corner or Joseph Beuys *6) shits in a corner and everyone thinks it is good, that is, he probably also thought "Are these people crap?" that is, not that the people are shit, well maybe they are, but not because of this...ehm... I like that something that is really totally extreme...in the beginning we wanted to be just extreme, and now we have a nice succes with it, not that we mind that now or something...what I think is funny, was something I read today in a newspaper "The most hyped german band", well basically we are the exact opposite, that is, we are the most blocked german band, unfortunately nobody hyped us, MTV cancelled us immediately after we made a little stink there, Viva one time said "You shit band won't come to us", the magazine called 'Musik Expresse' didn't want to publish us, so unfortunately nobody hyped us. Just by simply blunt, dull being there we have achieved succes, but with succes comes pressure, when I think in hindsight where that comes from..from other directions, from directions you can't plan, that you can't... eh.. decide on yourself, that is, when you say "I want a pretty woman, who is clever, has a car and a spotted dog and so on".. you can't decide on that, you just have to wait who comes along.. A tip I can give to someone who wants to be famous, just choose music that is totally 'Out' and then persevere for 7 years...so totally..like 'Easy listening' or such, when you play 'Schlager' for 15 years, it will be modern again..

VO: Impossible to imagine Rammstein without the german lyrics, with extreme-sounding content that has led to excitement in some media that have only now discovered the group. That however has hardly damaged Rammstein. Another effect of the german lyrics is that fans can sing along with the songs in concerts. The seaman-song *7), for instance, the singer leaves to the audience almost completely, to that the keyboarder sways in a dinghy over the heads of the crowd, carried by many hands.

P: 'Seeman', for instance, was a joke, we were fooling around in the rehearsalroom and the bassplayer used this grip 'die-die-die die-die' and so on, and then Till in a pitiful way 'Come in my boat..' *8) and we all kneeled in the rehearsalroom, it was a gag, and then we played it three times and all thought it was good and then we thought "my god, the effect is so shit, let's just do it", so we are funny enough to just do it. With 'Feeling B', for instance, we weren't allowed to do funny stuff like that, that is, stuff that is actually embarassing, we weren't allowed to. The embarassing thing to go through the crowd with the dinghy is actually something people like, a bit like a circusact, 'Rock circus Rammstein invites', we did it one time, all yelled, we didn't know that.

VO: In the american movie 'Lost Highway' by David Lynch two Rammstein songs are used at key points. In connection to the movie, the mystical atmosphere of the songs particularly come to fruition.

P: At the time we wanted to shoot our first songs we sent a CD to all directors we liked for the musicvideo, and not video-directors but movie-directors, at which no one replied, and then, 3/4 year later a call came "Hello, this is.." in english that is "this is the productioncompany of David Lynch, for our next movie 'Lost highway' *9) we want to use 2 of your songs". Well, we thought "Nah, we don't want that, no, nope" then we said well why not and now it's like, how can I explain, it's like when you have a painting that no one knows, you think someone just made a little doodle on it and then people say "Ah no, that's a Picasso..", "Oh, so that's a *Picasso*, that's really great", you know? The same thing happens with us, which we think is funny, that Rammstein now means something because David Lynch likes it. And the importance that is created because of that, I think..well I don't understand it...to me it's like this...whoever makes somewhat interesting music that is individual, yes...eh..then something happens because of it, you know, that is, if I were an american I would like Rammstein too, because..at last something non-american, you know? They are happy because usually when someone comes over from Europe, it's always a band of which they have a better original at home, you know? In Europe you see few bands, well few individual bands, that is, when I go to Poland I would like to have a polish refrain in my metal song, and when I go to Russia, I want a distorted Balalaika or something, you know, I want to hear individual music and almost no one does that, and when someone does it.. *10)

VO: Current Rammstein single 'Engel' is the first extract from the CD 'Sehnsucht' which is due to be published in August. The part of the angel is performed by Bobo who came to fame with her band 'Bobo in White Wooden Houses'. Bobo's voice comes to fruition in the spherical and slightly melancholical content of the song.

P: Bobo is quite simply a friend of ours and ehm.. she was actually only intended to sing along to a few refrains, softly in the background and when she was warbling around in the studio we got the idea, let's, and before Till sang that part, do "Only when the clouds go to sleep, one can see them in the sky, they are afraid and are alone, God knows I don't want to be an angel" *11) we said "Bobo, why don't you sing 'Only when the clouds go to sleep, one can see *us* in the sky'" and so on, and she did, and she thought it was shit, said "No, I can't sing as sweet as that", because normally she sings..she sings more artistic and not that 'schlager'-like, you know, "Come on, sing really 'schlager' like a little angel" and she didn't want that either, that is, she didn't and most of the band didn't want it either, nobody wanted it, you know, nobody really liked it, we thought, because it sounded really silly *12) and then we thought "crap, let's leave it out" and then we put the part on mute, and then we thought "hmm", it was a bit like a cloud in front of the sun, it isn't as nice anymore, so we put the cloud away again and then it was nice again and then we simply kept it that way.

Translation notes:

*1) Paul uses the word 'Borstel' which can have more meanings, but in this case he is making a comparison with someone having a silly fictional nickname, so I went with 'Dummy'

*2) one of his often used Berliner expressions is 'Weeste', in official german this would be 'Weist du'; I translated it with 'you know'.

*3) more info on this first gig https://rammwiki.net/wiki/24.03.1994_(concert)

*4) I couldn't figure it out, but what he says is in Berlinisch 'jar keene', in german 'gar keine', meaning he doesn't like any music (somehow I think this is a very 'Paul' reply 😊)

*5) 'Bravo' is the largest teen magazine in Germany

*6) Paul mispronounces the name at first and corrects himself

*7) 'Seeman'

*8) 'Komm in mein Boot'

*9) Paul actually uses the german name 'Verlorene Landstrasse', took me a while to realise what he meant

*10) Here his sentence is cut off in the broadcast, I feel he said something after it..

*11) "Erst wenn die Wolken schlafen gehen, kann man sie am Himmel sehen, sie haben Angst und sind allein, Gott weiß ich will kein engel sein"

*12) Paul giggles at that 😊

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #335

“on my forehead, a birthmark  /  remove it with the kiss of a knife  /  even if it causes me to die”

Do you recover well from surgery? Judging by the two surgeries I've had, oh yeah. I was hyper as hell when I came home from getting tubes put in my ears as a little kid, even though the doctor said I'd be very sleepy. Then, after my cyst removal, I was put on very strong painkillers but was still warned it was going to be a painful recovery, when it totally wasn't. I literally only took painkillers the first day. What addictions have you had? Caffeine, technology. Would you change your name if you became famous? Nah. If Cupid were real, would you hire him to make someone love you? No. I don't want somebody forced to love me. Ever been to an auction? No. Which word(s) do you generally use to describe someone attractive? (e.g. “fit”, “sexy”) It kinda varies with gender. Women I tend to call "beautiful" or "gorgeous," sometimes "hot" or "cute," while men I usually refer to as "handsome" or "hot"/"sexy." The last person you kissed - are they older or younger than you? She's a bit younger. When was the last time someone wanted you to do something, and you refused? Hm. I dunno. I have a hard time saying "no," so. When was the last time you had Pop Tarts? What flavour were they? Many months ago; I kinda stopped eating them because they're truly not filling and just a load of sugar that veils itself as an actual breakfast choice. But anyway, I liked the chocolate sundae ones. Have you ever felt a temperature below 0? No. Did you ever play Spyro? I LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!! SPYRO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Those games were my CHILDHOOD, and it's half the reason I'm dying for a PS4 to play the remastered trilogy. Speaking of which, it'd be awesome if they remade the The Legend of Spyro trilogy as well. I might just like those games more than the originals, but that's a bold statement I'm unsure about. Have you ever dated someone who was of a foreign origin? I dated a Hispanic guy for less than a day. Have you ever read any of your idols’ books/autobiographies? Ozzy Osbourne's, yes. I'm just fucking waiting for Mark to write one, but he's always said he has so little interest in writing about his life. DO IT, YOU FUCK. Do you own any succulents? No. I think they're pretty, though. Do you have a drone? No. What’s your favorite Netflix series? *shrug* What is something a lot of people like but you don’t? Summertime. The heat, the humidity (at least here), the sunburn from just standing outside for ten minutes... I hate all of it. The ONLY two things I enjoy about summer is swimming and then flowers, though spring is the more floral season here anyway. Do you have revenge fantasies that you never actually play out? They've... happened. Did your first real significant other change you at all? Pretty sure forever. Are you waiting to have sex until you’re married? Once upon a time, that was the plan. Now, nah. I'd just want to be in a healthy, stable, and long-term relationship. What do you think about divorce? It's sad, but necessary for some people in order to be happy, which everyone has the right to be. I used to be very firmly against divorce except in extreme cases like abuse, etc., and I'm still definitely no fan of it and think couples should do their best to work things out, but it's incredibly unfair to believe that someone should be stuck for the rest of their life with a person they just don't love anymore. Getting married can be a mistake; don't damn people forever to be chained to their bad decisions. Do you remember the first time your heart broke? What was the reason? It was probably when Dad just abandoned us. What's the worst prank someone has ever done to you? I don't think anyone's ever pulled a sick joke on me. Have you ever seen someone sleepwalk? Yes; my little sister deadass tried to walk outside late at night. Thank God I was on the computer in the living room and stopped her. What song are you listening to right now? I just turned "Mutter" by Rammstein on. When is the last time you cursed? I'm not re-reading, but I have probably cursed fifty times in this survey already. It's so deeply ingrained into my vocabulary. Are there any words on your shirt? No; it's just a plain gray tank top. Why do you forward forwards? I never do because they annoy the fuck out of me. How many people are you interested in at the moment? Just one in a healthy and logical way. I can't be truly interested in Jason because like come on I haven't spoken to him in four whole years. My PTSD just ensures I never forget the memory of who he was, who probably no longer even exists. I mean, look how much I'VE changed in four years. Do you know any mechanical stuff about cars? Nnnnope. Who was the last person (apart from family) that you spent time with? What did you get up to? Apart from family, I have no idea. If you have pets, when was the last time one of them got on your nerves? Venus never does, but Roman can get on my nerves sometimes when I don't let him lay on me when I'm on the laptop in bed. He's a large cat (not overweight, just a big male cat) and blocks the screen big time unless he lies down properly, which he doesn't always do. He still tends to win when he tries to come over, but sometimes I'll block him with my arm, and this spoiled brat will actually slap it a few times before walking away lmao. Would you rather live in a house with a swimming pool or an indoor cinema? Absolutely a pool. I want one badly. Do you own a credit card? If so, do you currently owe any money on it? Could you afford to pay it off tomorrow if necessary? No. How many hours of sleep do you typically get each night? Is that enough to function or would you rather have more? Especially lately, I don't get nearly enough. Like at the time I'm answering this question, it's 4 AM, and I've been up for almost a couple hours. I struggle with falling asleep, I will ALWAYS wake up at least once in the night, and I jerk awake from nightmares regularly still. It's a big reason why I pretty much require naps. Does your house have a loft/basement? Are they functional or do you just use them for storage? We only have an attic. Do you suffer from road rage? What kind of thing tends to set you off or wind you up while driving? No. I'm way too timid of a driver to get that outwardly pissy about stupid people. I'd just judge them in silence, haha. What kind of animal did you last see in the wild? Is that a common sight where you live? Because of just how common they are, I'm going to assume this excludes birds, in which case it was probably a squirrel? Yeah, the normal brown ones are common. Do you post a lot on social media? If so, what kind of thing do you tend to post on there? Since I was fucking stupid enough to post a suicide note on Facebook (I don't want to hear a goddamn thing about "attention seeking," I genuinely wanted to say goodbye), I almost never, ever, share things about my personal life. Even before, it was rare for me to actually share what's going on with me. All I really do now is share relatable, wholesome, or funny shit I find, as well as political things I'm in firm agreement with. What are some habits you have in common with your parents? I pace like my dad, and it drives people crazy because it apparently makes them anxious? I can't think of an obvious one I have with Mom, but I'm sure one exists. Where's your favourite place to swim - the ocean, a pool, river, lake etc? I feel safest and most clean in a pool, but c'mon, swimming in the ocean is so much fun. When you're saving your place in a book, do you use a bookmark or fold your pages down? Or something else? It depends on the book, it seems. Especially if someone else owns it, like in school or something. Is any part of your body hurting at the moment? Is there a specific incident that caused the pain? My legs always hurt. I've shared enough as to why; it wasn't an actual, singular "incident." What was the last thing to make you laugh out loud? OH MY FUCKING GOD. So in group therapy the other day, one of the girls had her bearded dragon out, and he was being aggressive. I think he tried to bite her aND SHE SAID WITHOUT REALIZING HER MIC WAS ON, "fucking dickhead," and everyone d i e d. She's a really cool chick, I'll miss her when I'm finished with PHP. Who was the last person you heard sing? Myself, surprisingly enough. I barely ever sing. Do you bite your lips a lot? Yes, especially when they're dry. .-. What part of your body would you never get pierced? Anyone who gets a piercing "down there" has a greater pain tolerance than this bitch right here. Have you ever dated someone with tattoos? Juan had quite a few. I don't remember if Tyler did... but I think maybe a The Legend of Zelda-related one? Have you ever failed gym in school? No. Are you scared of dogs? No; I love dogs. What is the saddest movie you’ve ever seen? Man, idk, I'm a little bitch when it comes to emotional movies. The Boy in the Striped Pajamas is high up there, as is of course Johnny Got His Gun. Old Yeller, too. Which one of your friends is most likely to be famous one day? Why? Sara's gonna write a fuckin book series ok you can't convince me otherwise. What is the worst present you have ever gotten? Damn dude, what an ungrateful question. I'm just appreciative someone even thought TO give me something. Do you shave your arms? My armpits, yes, but not my arms themselves. How many people have you dated? I only count three as even remotely serious: Jason, Sara, and Girt. Have you ever performed in a play? I remember back in Sunday school as a tiny kid I played Mother Mary in one we did in class. Do you chew gum? I have been more lately since my doc upped the dosage of one of my mood stabilizers (which I think is actually helping); I mention that because apparently a side effect is dry mouth, and it's the fucking Sahara in there. He advises those who deal with it to always carry around hard candy or something like that for the sake of forcing salivation, so gum works for me. How old were you when you first started dating? I was in the 7th grade when I had my first "boyfriend," but it was total puppydog love. I started dating my first "real" bf when I was just shy of 16. Are/were your parents strict? Dad, no. Mom, only to a degree that I feel was pretty reasonable. She only ever wanted to prepare us to be functional, independent adults. Didn't work so well on me though, ha... Do you wear glasses? Yes. God, I need new ones. I'm blind as hell. What do you miss most about your childhood? Being so outgoing and happy to just be weird lil me. Do you write “To-Do” lists? Not really, no, but I do have notes on my phone about a couple things, like a bulleted list of planned monetary investments by importance, as well as a list of drawing ideas. Do you have a favorite quote? What is it? I don't, really. There's loads I like, but no one favorite. Could you survive as a vegetarian? I pretty desperately want to, but I don't know if it's realistic. I am so, SO picky, and without meat, it's very questionable as to where I'd get an adequate source of protein. I still want to try again though once I'm at my goal weight. Has anyone ever asked you for your autograph? Lol no. Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you that you were sexy? Yeah, but that was a looong time ago when I was actually some semblance of pretty. Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning? I used to be someone who firmly stood by nighttime showers, but now I'm all about them in the morning. It's a nice way to wake up and start the day with productivity. Could you handle living with a male roommate? I mean, I lived with my then-boyfriend once, but I'm going to assume you'd consider him more than a "roommate." We lived with our two other friends, though, also a couple, and I was totally fine with living with them. Has anyone taken their shirt off in front of you? Yes. Do you like Freddy Krueger? His concept is very scary, but all the movies I've seen bits of have always been super cheesy. Which do you prefer, Naruto or One Piece? I haven't seen either and really aren't interested. What do you think of Rob Zombie? I've never really watched his movies, but I'm a fan of his music. What’s you fetish? I don't have one. Have you ever been in the “friend zone?" Well, what I'd call a "fake" one with Jason after the breakup until I was blocked on Facebook. I know now he absolutely did not want to be friends; he was trying to appease me. Is the area you live in more liberal or conservative? Definitely conservative. Do you know anyone who had to have tubes put in their ears as a baby? Yeah, me. Were either of your parents baptized? I'm certain Mom was, but idk about Dad. I think so. The last concert that you were at, was there a mosh pit? No. What was the last computer game that you played? World of Warcraft. Does your bathroom have a theme to it? No. Are any rooms in your house themed? No. What was the last thing that you recorded? I think Mom and I singing "happy birthday" to my late dog Teddy; we knew it would be his last. Do you like the show Futurama? Not really. Have you ever been in a choir class? I was in the elementary school chorus, as well as the choir at my childhood church. Are you ashamed of any of your family members? No, only myself. Were you a chubby child? No. Did you ever have senior photos done? No, even though I wanted them. Who is the person you dislike the most? God, this is so petty... but it's the girl Jason dated after me. I know it's childish as hell to feel like she "took" him from me, and I just feel this horrible hatred towards her that is entirely uncalled for. I just can't get myself to move past it. Do you take part in paying the bills for your household? No, as I'm unemployed and also don't have disability, so I literally can't. How do you usually celebrate New Years? I really don't do much. Sometimes Mom will grab a pack of daiquiris, but that's pretty much the extent of it. Does the place you work have music playing? What sort? N/A What was the last job interview you went to? At a local grocery store to work in the deli. Got the job, lasted there for not even two hours. :^) Do you know anyone with autism, mood disorders or learning disabilities? Autism and mood disorders, yes. I myself may have high-functioning Asperger's (yes, I know that term doesn't technically exist anymore, it's just the umbrella term of "autism," but w/e). Have you ever had an immediate relative pass away of cancer? My grandmother died of pancreatic cancer, and it's pretty much guaranteed that, unless there's some sudden accident, my mom will die of cancer, too. Hers got too bad to entirely eliminate every trace of cancer cells, so it will inevitably re-emerge at some point, just obviously some place else given that she had a total hysterectomy. Would you rather work in an office, warehouse or on a retail shop floor? Office. Are you a fan of sweet, sour, salty, or savory snacks? I enjoy all of those, but sour I think tops the list.

[digitalbounce-digitalsound]

My in-depth analysis of why I left the Kpop fandom.

Please be aware, this may touch on sensitive topics.

As most of my  followers may know, I have been in the Kpop fandom for many years (Since 2006 to be exact) which means I have seen a lot, A LOT, of shit. I have had nearly my entire life controlled by Kpop and by about 2010 I completely moved away from more normal music.

Since I started secondary school I was bullied for my taste in music, I never thought anything of it because as I still believe, music is music and nothing is wrong with safe creative influence and inspiration. But the thing was, this music, this fandom had me so deluded and so removed from myself that I didn't see it was destroying me, inside and out.

After I was in the fandom for around 4 years, I was getting more and more obsessed with kpop, keeping track of the idols, watching their MV's obsessively, hoarding albums and putting up high defences for when someone made fun of them. Up until 2019 when I dropped the fandom completely, I managed to spend over £4000 on Kpop merch, be it albums, clothing, food, concerts. It was bad and a huge waste of money.

The Kpop fandom is a toxic place to be with people constantly pushing you to like certain groups, with battles around which fandom is better, which group is better between fans. Fans will discriminate against you for the way you look, the way you dress. If you don’t meet their standards they will find a way to push you away. They are all entitled and many think that stalking and giving idols zero personal space is perfectly acceptable.

Kpop music has no real meaning to it and is completely lacking when it comes down to personal messages (Bar the ones that have been self-written by the idols themselves) Kpop is just as bland and emotionless as the people that listen to it as the fans attach meanings to the songs where there are none. They don’t see that all of the music is extremely generic about money, women, men, being in a relationship and looking perfect. It is extremely sexist, concreted in gender binaries that make quite literally no sense and don’t have any soul behind them.

I guarantee that many if not all the idols that don’t write their own material, hate their songs with a passion but have to put up a plastic perfect mask to hide it. There have been so many horrible things that happen inside the genre that fans just ignore. Pretend don’t happen and it is horrible.

Because of Kpop I ended up becoming disgusted with myself, Kpop made me see flaws that weren't there, it made me want to look "Just like my idols". The impossibly thin, obviously unhealthy idols, and I did, gaining body dysmorphia and an eating disorder to boot. It led to me becoming extremely unhealthy, I would barely eat and listen too much at the insults thrown my way which did nothing but make me more self-conscious.

The constant struggle between wanting to look pretty and not wanting to kill myself was extremely difficult to deal with. Kpop made me shy, it made me reserved and not want to talk. It made me aim for dreams in the wrong way. I wanted to become a translator since I was very small so that I could help governments converse with each other and maybe help countries understand each other. That dream was changed with a want to become a translator to "Translate for my oppas" and become a concert translator or a TV show translator. I want to do seamstress work on the side, originally I wanted to do it to make costumes for Broadway productions, maybe cosplay for characters as well. That dream too, was ruined by Kpop. Making me want to do seamstress work to make stage outfits for my "Oppas and Eonnies." 

All of my dreams have been ruined by Kpop, my body too. To this day I still get confused about why I am doing certain things or why I am eating this or that because it will make me fat.

Because of the constant barrage of hate coming from my own brain, my own friends (Who consequently ended up liking Kpop), from my own family and people who I thought was close to me. I ended up thinking that the only way to escape from all of the hate was to kill myself. I became suicidal, I hated myself, I have scarred my leg so badly that I am scared to wear shorts. I constantly wore long sleeves to cover the marks on my arms, I turned in on myself and became scared to talk to people incase they bullied me or shouted at me. I grew more dependant on Kpop and I'm not proud to admit it but I ended up fetishizing Asian people, it was not a good time in my life, I felt like I could change my life, marry someone who could give me child on the inside of Kpop, it was disgusting but at the time, I didn't see it.

I had no one to openly talk to about what I was going through, nowhere to go but down at the time. I ended up doing performing arts at college, hoping that I could be recruited by an agency and meet my idols, be my idols, I thought I could get somewhere with performance. It helped, but not in the way I would have expected. I became more confident and even though I was still being bullied for my likes, bullied for things that happened in school, I continued. I kept at performance. started liking more Japanese Pop/Rock, I listened to my struggling brain instead of my aching obsessed heart and it led me to become friends with C.

She is into Kpop like me, she understood what I wanted, she understood the Asian fever, we became close friends, close friends very quickly. She lived near to me at the time and would invite me over for Kpop sessions, to have fun making Korean food, singing along to Kpop songs, to learn Korean together. At the time, I thought it was brilliant to have someone like me around but low and behold, I didn't see what she was doing to me in the meantime. I didn't know that she was controlling me.

She kept me interested with stories of becoming a teacher, this would have been the perfect way into Korea. It made so much sense, if I became a teacher I could get into Korea and live in the same place as them. Now and then I would get a small spark of realisation that C was not listening, that she didn't care about anyone but herself but I still ignored it. After I finished my Dance BTEC I decided to work for a while, gain money before looking more into becoming a teacher.

Something that you should know about me is that I am a very dependant person. Due to years of being bullied and shouted at, being constantly told I'm wrong and stupid, I rely on other people to know when I have done good, to know when I can celebrate without it coming off as me getting excited over something insignificant. I rely a lot on other people for my happiness. Emotion isn't my strong-suit so I have to surround myself with happy people who can help me see that I am a good person, who can help me with how to display emotion in a normal way.

C did not seem to realise this throughout our whole friendship and would never try to help when my emotional state started dropping, she wouldn't help me understand what the correct amount of emotion is, what grade is good and what isn't. We started a higher education course together, C basically clinging to me but my dependant ass didn't notice and clung back since she was the only other person who liked Kpop that I knew. During the course I had time to think about what I actually wanted to do. Being part of the English literature course made me remember my dream of translation, in the psychology course I learned more about myself, about how my anxiety works, how my manic depression effects my state of mind. I learned about so many different and interesting things that my brain started to click, I started to realise that I didn't like Kpop, I was obsessed with it.

I was obsessed and infatuated, Kpop was my unhealthy coping method which I didn't see. Kpop was the thing that was hurting me the most. At this time, I was still unable to let go. I still couldn't stop myself. When we applied to Universities somewhere in the back of my head my brain was telling me to apply for another course, and I did. whilst C applied for teaching courses and Korean I applied for nearly entirely teaching and Korean courses but snuck in an application for Japanese and International Business.

I felt like I had to sneak at that point because of her becoming overbearing and controlling, making me feel like the only place I could be was right behind her, following her the whole time.

In some fucked twist of fate me and her got into the same university, her on a Korean and tesol course and me on Japanese and Int Business. The small light in the back of my head was still telling me that it was still twisted, that I should not be how I am. That obsessing over Kpop isn't right but I still didn't listen, thinking that Kpop was the right place to be.

I should have seen what she was doing to me when she came to my Bass Practice at one point and heard me play only to weeks later suggest I don’t bring my Bass to Uni as it would “Distract me” yet she brought her PlayStation. She also tried to deter me away from normal music both at the time and during my time around her at University.

Now, I would never try to fully get rid of that time in my life, I would much rather just ignore it as I made many great friends through Kpop (C not being one of them) and I had a lot of fun at the concerts I went to.

Funnily enough, it was religion that actually jogged me out of this freakstorm called Kpop. I always understood the idea of a higher power, of something more than chemicals but less than a "god" It ended up with me finding Satanism (Laveyan) I realised that Religion is only as powerful as you make it. Obsessions, whilst good, are bad in large quantities, you must indulge yourself but too much indulgence leads to greed which is exactly what happened to me. I got too greedy and neglected the rest of my life.

It started small, I would listen to more heavy metal (thinks like Rammstein and Slipknot) and would practice bass more, listen to Kpop less and work on my course and my grades. Of course this slightly strained my friendship with C, I still listened to Kpop, went to the events at the uni, had a fun time at most of them. It wasn't until mid-year that I started seeing the error of my ways.

We went to another Kpop club night that was part of the uni. Because I was getting more used to normal music I could see people staring more, glancing at us with disgust because we knew older songs, because I wouldn't dance for certain groups. It was a small wakeup call, the feeling of being judged and bullied yet again by people nearing on 3 years younger than me was just a pain.

C had pointed a guy out to us during first year, his name is David, he is Korean and was a little bit of an ass (which was understandable due to the amount of Koreaboos he has had to deal with) I did think he was cute, he was a nice guy, liked music I liked but I was not attracted to him (Like I would have been when I was under that disgusting influence) so I just wanted to be his friend.

It started kicking off one night when C got upset over a what David thought was a joke, they both argued and shouted, I ended up as a go between, figuring out what happened, defending C and stopping David from hurting anyone. C took this as me taking David's side, proceeded to not listen to me, make me upset and with my horrible control over emotions, I started having a panic attack whilst shouting at her. She hugged me during my panic attack (A big no no because she was restraining me and giving me physical contact which I hate. Which she should have known being friends with me for 6 years) that made me pass-out, hit my head and get sent to the hospital with a concussion.

I had to pretend it wasn't her fault even though it killed me to do so. During my night in the hospital she managed to make it about her which really upset me. I ended up hanging around with my classmate/friend M after that. M was nice, she listened to me, her and E helped me realise that Kpop isn't all it's set up to be.

After that it went down hill with argues popping up a lot and for me, no escape since we lived together. I started getting disgusted by the Kpop nights with how obsessive and OTT the Kpop fans were, how horrible they were too. It all snapped one day when I just got my results back for an essay which I got a 1st in, I was over the moon but yet again, didn't know if it was good or not. When I showed people for confirmation that I could be happy I was met with jealous but very happy responses apart from C. The one person who was basically my jailer, who told me when it was okay to be happy or not, she responded with "Oh that's alright then I guess." and brushed it off like it was nothing.

It was then that it hit me she has been manipulating me for years, not giving me any real emotions to show. We were friends for 6 years and at that moment, all of the times she brushed me off or never let me talk, talked over me to speak about herself, it all came back. I was so disgusted and upset that I just stopped talking to her, I was too angry to talk to her and was worried that I may hurt her if I do talk.

She took offence to my silence and called me names, tried to force me to talk to her (Which is also bad because I do not react well to forced confrontation and most of the time lash out both physically and verbally) so I kept ignoring her to the point I felt too threatened to leave my room. It was horrible. I wasn't until she sent me a message telling me to act like an adult that I flipped.

No one, and I mean no one, calls me childish and gets away with it. That is the number 1 way to piss me off and get me to immediately cut ties.

I put in an application to move with the Uni due to being under threat and feeling unsafe. They moved me the next day. Whilst She was still in the flat, she didn't even notice me moving out. I was so disgusted with that.

After that, I met my new flatmates, none of them liked Kpop, they introduced me to nice music, better music which actually made me feel good, not infatuated. Happy. I could talk to them more about normal things. because of the lack of the obsession, my grades went up, I started making friends easier, my confidence went up.

After getting back into normal music, i started to realise how low-quality Kpop actually is. How disgustingly gendered it is and how sexist it is. Kpop ruined me but normal music made me realise who I am and how to become that person I always wished I was.

The only music I strictly don't listen to now is Rap, Kpop and Top-Chart Pop music.

Currently, I am a university student working towards my dream of becoming a government translator. I have prospects to work in Japan after I graduate and I am absolutely ecstatic about that. I cut out so many bad friends and managed to make myself feel more human again just by getting rid of a single music taste from my life.

 -Killian.

(If you’re going to spam me with hate and try to whine about how “Not all Kpop fans are like that” or “Kpop isn’t bad, you’re just stupid” and shit like that then you are just proving my point. If you come at me with a valid argument and actual valid points, I will explain my opinions and my side of the argument.)

BASICALLY, TREAT ME HOW YOU WANT TO BE TREATED.

Don’t be an asshole because I will just be an asshole back.

[herrlindemann]

LEGACY - October 2005, Interview with Oliver

'Rosenrot' is the name of RAMMSTEIN's latest work, which will be released exactly four days after this issue of Legacy on October 28th. A top placement in the charts shouldn't be taken away from this album. Everything the band has touched has turned to proverbial gold. Where is it going, the motor ship RAMMSTEIN, in 2005? The predecessor 'Reise, Reise' was just under a year ago and questions were allowed to be asked.

After the music journalists present were allowed to listen to the album twice in the morning, everyone later turned up for their interview. I met bassist Oliver Riedel for an intimate meeting in private. I hope I do not disturb you? “No, everything is fine.” Already a year ago I heard - at least that's what I think - one or the other song here, which didn't make it on 'Reise, Reise' at the time. The most urgent question first: How much of 'Rosenrot' was there at the time 'Reise, Reise'? “For 'Reise, Reise' we recorded 18 songs. A total of seven songs remained, and we quickly came up with the idea of ​​making another album next year. But seven songs is a little bit for an album! In any case, the tour plan was already in place at that time and so the idea came up that we could write four more songs in the intervening, counter-free time. It ended up being quite difficult. Really new are 'Benzin', 'Mann gegen Mann', 'Spring' and 'Te Quiero Puta'.” Oh, the Spanish song is new? I thought this one in particular was left over from the last recordings in Spain. “No, that has to do with Till's interest in Latin America. He's in Costa Rica a lot and always annoys us backstage before the concerts with his Mariachi songs. Of course, it made sense that we would also write a Spanish song at some point.” Especially in this song I find the female singing successful. This is how witches should sound! “We said to the record company: We need a deep and smoky female voice. A bit 'slutty'. Suddenly a lady from South America was sitting in our producer's studio, singing her part and then she was gone again.”

All of the songs on 'Rosenrot' seem to take a step back compared to those on the predecessor. “Most of the songs that we don't release on 'Reise, Reise' are definitely quieter ones. ‘Reise, Reise’ had to be powerful for us! The idea then was to make the new album quieter overall.” Is it the calm before the storm? Is the MS RAMMSTEIN stranded, as one might assume from the new cover, or is she on her way to new shores under full steam? “Actually, the album should be called 'Reise, Reise Vol. 2'. We quickly forgot about that title. Since we see the new album as an independent one, we needed a new title. That was a bit unfortunate, since the cover was already finished. So the ship on the cover picture is now called 'Rosenrot' and everyone can think about what it stands for. Opposites? The cold world? Where has the love gone? No idea. But the ship does not symbolize the now and us as a band.” So on the one hand both albums belong together, on the other hand they don't? "Exactly. At the moment we are not planning an actual tour with our own stage design for 'Rosenrot' or anything like that. That will certainly change again in the distant future.”

Already with the last album I noticed that everyone can now show what a good musician they are. In addition, the band itself seems more relaxed to me. “In the end we were bored at times by the old and traditional Rammstein sound. Sequencer is running, drums play 'uff uff uff', guitar and bass play the same thing too. We didn't want to do that kind of groove anymore. It is also clear that the drums are looking for new rhythms. Our real strength is certainly the 'march', but you should always do what you feel like doing. Then you are authentic.” But you obviously have more fun together than when you were doing 'Mutter’, right? “Absolutely! 'Mutter’ was our darkest chapter. After a long time of touring we were at our limits, there was a real imbalance in the band. For example, it's nice now that Richard can make his solo record. There he can express himself musically in a way that he would never be able to within the band.” Was the band ever near the end? “No, it was only briefly put on hold. However, we quickly became aware of what we had already achieved and how the band can be missed.” Like in a marriage? "Somehow. But in a marriage, it's rare to just take a break. The positions are probably a bit harder.” How often do you bother? “If the points of contact allow it. Paul and I have children of the same age - that's where you meet. During rehearsals we see each other every day, on tour sometimes only in the evening and Richard is in New York right now — that's why you don't see him at the moment.” So more like a meeting in the living room. You come and go and if someone is there, then you are happy. "Exactly.”

'Benzin', the first single with a brutal video, fits like a glove to the current oil crisis. But it could also be a biker song. What does ‘benzin’ stand for exactly? “This is certainly a multiple topic. But fire is actually a part of our band history. It has been with us the whole time. Paul just went to Till and said 'petrol' would be a cool word. Can't you write a text about it? And that's exactly what Till came up with when he heard this word.”

'Mann Gegen Mann’ apparently has a same-sex background. It should be great when thousands of metalheads sing this song together at concerts. Because actually, in the metal scene in particular, prejudices are extensively cultivated. So why this topic? Is it just about the taboo or breaking it? “We don't want to discriminate against gays. The song is more for gays. We simply wanted to take the weight off the topic and make it more natural.” What should the fan take away from this song? “A normal understanding of the other.”

For example, the lyrics to 'Ein Lied' would force me to write a proper rock number. Then this piece turned out to be extremely quiet, with a nasty kid melody. How did music and lyrics come together here? “The lyrics are always hanging on the wall in the rehearsal room or studio and 'Ein Lied' was created in just 10 minutes. There was the riff, Till took the lyrics and sang. We recorded the piece and it was done. The text of 'Mann gegen Mann', on the other hand, already existed in the ‘Mutter’ times, for example.”

I could already read it in advance: the Brothers Grimm and Goethe connect in 'Rosenrot'. For me actually - as far as RAMMSTEIN is concerned - it is somehow obvious. “The news naturally wants to give us a level or a depth that we don't actually flirt with. Till has always used this old and romantic form of verse. That's why he doesn't just deal with the Brothers Grimm or Goethe all the time.” Are Till's texts untouchable? “Nothing is untouchable. If someone in our company spends a long time grappling with an issue, they are of course anxious to push it through. But it can also lead to tunnel vision and we only try to correct that a little. A lot of people had to listen to that.”

'Spring' not only has a wall of guitars, but also lyrics dealing with the topic ‘boss’ or 'the mean mob'. Is there a connection to the band? Is the song a criticism of the mob who are on the prowl and treating others unfairly? That's how RAMMSTEIN went before. "Clearly. The mob creates its own creature. He wants to push you in a direction. Therefore you are right.” Looking back, let's take the discussion about your first cover. “We hadn't dealt with this topic before. We were naive. Of course, that was good for us in the end. Otherwise our own aesthetics might not have come about at all. The discussions about Rammstein have never hit the core, but only aimed at the surface.”

'Rosenrot' masterfully knows how to damage surfaces and perhaps also penetrate deeper to the core. The ice has broken and the MS RAMMSTEIN is picking up speed again. Let's wait and see what kind of waters the men will sail into in the future. Perhaps sails will be set, perhaps there will be kerosene propulsion. You can be curious, because this band always causes discussions between love and hate. Where would the (music) world be today without RAMMSTEIN?

[hanramm156]

Rammstein Family Game: Get to know me! (Warning: a long ramble)

I’m honored to be tagged by @cherrisplace​ and @momoredcrow​. ^^ It’s been a pleasure to read other people’s Rammstein memories and opinions, so here comes mine as well. Writing is one of those rare things that keep me sane during this crazy season, so I apologize this being super long. More rambling is probably coming when everything’s cancelled and I have nothing else to do.

Rules: There are no rules. Tag whoever you want. Don’t tag yourself. Tag yourself. You don’t have to answer all the questions. Do what you please. Have fun.

Created by: @vapor-stein

1. I’m curious: when did you discover Rammstein?

2004 properly, but I might have heard Du hast or other popular songs even earlier.

2. Tell me your story. How did you discover them?

As said, it was 2004 and I was watching some random Finnish music show. Back in the days, I watched a lot of music videos from the tv and recorded my favorite ones to VHS. One evening Rammstein’s Amerika came from the show and I was like “??? What on earth is this??? Sounds interesting…”. I wasn’t into metal music back then (I mostly listened to indiepop and alternative rock), but for whatever reason, I got hooked instantly to this German band’s dark, eerie sound. It was refreshing to hear something else than English and the video was also thrilling.

Rammstein had intruded my mind already, but the final straw was when I saw the Mein Teil video. I liked both the song and the video A LOT - so much that I even felt kinda “dirty” for liking something this dark. A 14-year-old me was constantly asking from myself that: “am I even allowed to like this kind of stuff this much?”. The backstory for the song was creepy, but so mesmerizing – like I had been introduced to the darkest corners of human mind: yes, this kind of stuff happens, and we shouldn’t close our eyes from it. So next, the only thing I could do was to buy Reise, reise album, listen to it on loop and sketch my German notebook full of Rammstein lyrics. Here’s a proof:

I have so many stories about my relationship to Rammstein that I might have to write them all down now when there’s a lot of time.

3. Favourite song?

This topic would be worth a novel itself, but here are some of my favorites:

Asche zu Asche – So badass, gives me such an energy every time – plus, not to forget the burning microphones and SILVER REESH!

Bück dich – Yes, it’s a horrible story once again in this song, but I can’t help but to admit that the song is freaking catchy and in a weird way, hot. Also, there’s a funny backstory when I was in 9th grade and we almost performed this song in our official graduation party with my boyfriend and a bunch of our friends (maybe good that the idea was abandoned in the end…). We had a vague clue what the song was about, but we just thought it was funny – also, our German teacher dressed always in leather and loved Rammstein (she played us Bestrafe mich during one class and I’ll always remember the awkward atmosphere) so we were thinking to dedicate the song to her for as our goodbye. XDD Seriously, why I have been so weird for all my life…

Sehnsucht – In most of the pop songs, longing is described by tender words and soft lyrics, but not in Rammstein’s case. I’ve had this weird feeling of “longing” all my life that I can’t describe properly. It’s kind of an inner emptiness, only arts and music can help to deal with it when it hits. I think Sehnsucht describes so realistically what is longing about in reality: it’s this angry pressure in your heart which you want to get out of your chest but can’t. In the end, you just want to scream your lungs out.

Mein Herz brennt – Powerful song that always gives me goosebumps. I can’t even explain why. Maybe the fact that “tough” men being emotional is my soft spot and Rammstein hits that spot hard.

Links 2-3-4 – I have always been kind of a rebel and I feel like when everyone else is going to the “right” I have to go to the left, to the unknown. My heart is longing for adventure, for the paths the others are not going. I dunno, but this is such a powerful song for me. When I hear it, I always just want to jump around. In Tampere concert I went totally nuts when Links started as the second song, lol. From that moment I felt like I was back home with my boys.

Mein Teil – No need for further explanations anymore.

Los – The harmonica solo!!! The dropped c tuning and the acoustic sounds!! I love it.

Amour – My favorite R+ ballad. I confess that I listen to this and think about the lyrics when I’m in the mood for writing something painfully romantic.

Weit weg – There’s this painful longing once again that always resonates to me. I listened this to a lot after the “after blues” of Ratina concert.

Tattoo – A song that I didn’t care about so much at first, but for whatever reason, it’s almost my favorite from the new album nowadays. It’s catchy as hell and I like the “rattling” guitar riffs.

4. Least favourite song? Come on. I know you have one.

Feuer frei – Too much Vin Diesel vibes. I also get a picture of drunken, middle-aged Finnish guys on a R+ gig who don’t care about to band, but just want to have a party of their life and get drunk, far away from their wives. (No offense to anyone, but as music is almost like a religion to me, I can’t help but to have a bit of disrespect for kind of people who just “consume” music.)

Pussy – Both musically and lyrically, so bad, but I get the point the guys tried to give with this nonsense.

5. Favourite album? & 6. Least favourite album? aka. I ramble about all the albums.

Tough one… as the rules were vague, I decided to have a short opinion about each of the albums.

Herzeleid – Summary: a bunch of guys, born and raised in DDR, are tired of everything so they get together and play aggressive songs - you can almost smell the testosterone miles away while you are listening to this album. I have to admit that I love this album even though it’s not musically super creative. It’s just raw men with raw feelings – and I have to say, it works for me.

Sehnsucht – I was creeped out of the album art as a teenager, lol. But yeah, musically improved from the former one and there are some classic songs that make Rammstein as they are nowadays. I listen to this often when I’m driving.

Mutter – The album that they had the most struggles with if I have understood correctly. The pain can be heard through the songs and it’s so honest and raw. I lost my friend in 2004 tragically and this album was one of the things that kept me sane back then. Especially the beginning of the album (MHB, Links, Sonne) hits me hard in the guts.

Reise, reise – The album that started all this hype in me, so it has a special place in my heart. I also liked how they tried something different to their usual sounds in this one, like orchestral and acoustic songs.

Rosenrot – To be honest, this album has always left me a bit “cold”, so I cannot even make a real opinion of it. There are some good moments though, like Mann gegen Mann that really speaks to me.

Untitled: This has been on the loop since last August and I was honestly surprised how good the album was. I hadn’t listened to Rammstein for a while, but when I got this album to my hands after the concert, holy shit it hit me. I like hearing the path the guys have gone: their new music is much more mature than the first angry albums. Also, I love Till’s poetry in this one, like Was ich liebe and Weit weg.

I think I answered the question #7 already, so I’ll skip to #8.

8. Unpopular opinion about a member? A scandal? Anything?

Even though I appreciate Till as an artist and a poet, I don’t find his appearance attractive. You can throw rotten tomatoes at me now, but this is just my opinion, no means to offend anyone. Maybe the reason is that my taste for men tends to go for androgynous side, so I am not drawn towards very masculine men.

I’m not interested in Lindemann project and I don’t like their music so much, but the tour looked entertaining though. I bet all the people who attended had a lot of fun.

How Richard pronounces English is extremely sexy to my ear, even though it clearly sounds like a German guy trying to sound American - still, it’s like honey to my ears. Stupid man who makes my knees weak with everything he does.

I hate to admit that I don’t like Ohne dich so much. I don’t know why. :(

9. Have you ever seen them live? Tell me what you felt.

Three times this far! Oh man, I could talk about for hours how the concerts have made me feel, but I try to be reasonable now.

Ruisrock, Turku, 2005 – My first time seeing them live – and going to a festival without any adult supervision, so it was a special experience overall – and they blew my mind. It was raining and thundering and we were completely soaked with my friends, but it was worth it!

Bonus for everyone who managed to read this far: teenage me waiting for Rammstein to start playing, looking so badass with my denim jacket and R+ logo drawn with eyeliner. :D

Hartwall Arena, Helsinki, 2012: We went to the show together with my boyfriend to celebrate Valentine’s day and holy shiiiiit it was awesome. Hands down one of the best evenings of my life. I was so hooked to Rammstein afterward that when we were at my bf’s family’s cottage, his brother had to tell me to stop blasting Herzeleid all the time in the kitchen. :’D

Ratina Stadium, Tampere, 2019: Aka. byebye my life, say hello to fics, listening to the band all over again, stupid memes and all the content this fandom creates. I fell in love again with Rammstein during this concert.

I have tickets for Düsseldorf and Tallinn, but now I can only wait and stress that will Corona ruin everything. In that case, I’ll weep alone and write fics about the tour 2020 that ended up never happening.

10. Do you play any instruments? If you do can you play any song by them?

Yeah, I play guitar and piano but nowadays I mostly sing. Rammstein songs are super easy to play with guitar and I recently learnt to play Tattoo and Sex. Have been practicing Engle on piano as well. Some songs I like to sing are Deutschland, Tattoo and Engel. The “speaking” parts are difficult though. ^^;

I’m not sure who I could tag to this who hasn’t done it already, but I’ll try my luck: @ah-its-too-much​ @soronya​ @einemelodie​ @xiaolianhuax​ @so-darya-darya​ @maximaembra​ @kvidasjuklingur​

[prismabird]

I’ve been tagged by @ofmemesandbands And oh no, I wrote an essay.

5 things I love about each of the Rammstein members:

Till: (‘m gush on my favorite boy, y’all)

How much anxiety he has overcome to do what he does. I just recently got Gert Hof’s Rammstein book, and according to Richard, Till was so nervous the first time he was recorded singing, he couldn’t make a sound. After some prompting, they finally got him to sing only two words: “Ja” and “Nein.” Think about going from that to performing in front of tens of thousands regularly. Till is my fucking anxiety warrior.

His love of nature and animals. How he seems to take to the woods like they’re a second home, and will wander through them with abandon, like when he went on his impromptu canoe trip in the Yukon. Or how he would wander the woods around his childhood home with a kitten in his coat.

I’m told he has a relatively modest home for a man of his wealth, but he bought a zoo to keep the animals from being stressfully moved and split up, and he financed a bird sanctuary. I respect a man who uses his money for good.

His amazing lyrics. The way he writes about the darkest, nastiest parts of humanity, does not shy away from playing the monster, and does so all through poetry and word play, drawing the listener into the shadows. Somehow are his words both ugly and beautiful at once.

The way he protects people – Flake from his bar fights, and standing by Richard during the Mutter fights, and throwing down with assholes who insult his dates/friends. I wish sometimes he would expand that protective energy to himself, but I also think the pain in his life that took that away from him also gave him great empathy.

Richard:

How he seems perpetually interested in being a good man and never gives up. He can be a bit like a rudderless speedboat at times, because I’m not always sure he’s headed in the right direction, as he wasn’t dealt all the best cards, but I love that he recognizes when he’s wrong and takes steps to improve.

His work ethic. Lord what I could accomplish if I had half his motivation.

His brains. I think he might be the most intelligent member of the band, as well as being a natural leader. I love that he works with his tech and his robots and how proud his is of them. I love that, when he identifies a problem or shortcoming with recording, his response is to build equipment to fix it.

His open mind and connection with the spiritual realm. I love that he believes in past lives and just casually drops that information in an interview without an iota of self-consciousness. I love that he thinks his new York apartment was haunted.

I genuinely get the feeling that he is a good father and very proud/protective of his children.

Paul:

I love that he’s Sonnenschein. Paul always seems to have a big smile for everyone, and likes to make everyone laugh. I love what a goof he is onstage.

He seems to care a lot about the fans. I’ve heard two stories from fans who were standing on Paul’s side during a concert and started having trouble (one was crying, I’m trying to recall the other story) and he noticed and gestured for security to check on them.

How physically affectionate he is with all the band. Most recently, he seemed to be very invested in comforting/reassuring Richard onstage all through the tour, and while they’re all physically affectionate, I’ve noticed it especially with Paul.

How, when he’s asked a stupid question in an interview, he gives a stupid answer. My favorite:

 Interviewer: And how did they do the woman’s head on the inside of the cover?

Paul Landers: It was cut off and put on the table

Interviewer: I thought there was a hole in the table and she was sitting underneath?

Paul Landers: By God no, we wouldn’t cut a hole in the table

 How excited he seem be a part of Rammstein, and how he mentions in so many interviews how close they are, and how much they are family to him. He’s mentioned before that he has his demons, and though he’s not open about them, he seems genuinely happy with where he is, and where they are as a band.

Flake

I relate to Flake’s humor more than anyone else in the band. I love that because he was born in November, he’s an amphibian, and I love that he wanted to name their third album “Herzeleid” except that there is already an album by that name and unfortunately it is also by them. I love that his favorite thing about America are the urinals. I love his humor.

I also get the impression that Flake uses his dry humor and “don’t care this is boring” attitude as a cover for the fact that he’s somewhat uncomfortable with himself. In that regard, I think he’s quite brave to do what he does.

Speaking of brave, I love how game he is to be so vulnerable on stage. I know he trusts Till deeply, but this year he agreed to take a direct hit from a flamethrower. And I know he suffers sometimes, from burns and injuries, yet doesn’t get half the credit Till does for it.

I love that he’s a communist and has a distaste for the product/consumer worshiping capitalism of the west. I’m not trying to get into a political debate here (lets just say that the issue is complicated and leave it there), but as his friends are all more capitalist, I appreciate a variety of opinion.

He is a man who does his own thing. I have no doubt that the idea for him to be on a treadmill on stage came from him. I don’t know why, but I’m sure it did. Also, his dance moves.

Oli

I respect a quiet soul. Oli has that ‘still waters run deep’ thing happening, and I love it.

He has said before that he doesn’t care what happens to him on stage, but he would never forgive himself if the fans ever got hurt at a concert.

I love that he sometimes perches up on scaffolding and equipment while playing, or will suddenly start crawling around on the stage.

I love that he does yoga and seems to be a calming presence.

I love that he needed time away from everyone while recording Reise Reise, so while they all stayed in a house, he lived in a treehouse out back. I relate to that deeply.

Schneider

I’m about to get shallow here – he’s the most attractive member of the band, and I want him in the worst way. Those eyes. Those cheekbones. *swoons*

I love that he makes THE stupidest faces while playing. Like, sometimes he’ll stick his tongue out and try to make what I can only assume is a scary demon face. It is not scary, it is weird and adorable.

I like that he considers himself to be a bit of a hippy.

I love that he has such a lovely relationship with Ulrike, and beautiful kids and seems like a wonderful dad. And he has the dad dance moves to prove it.

I love that he – and this might just be me, don’t @ me about this – I love that he seems like he kind of doesn’t get Till or his lyrics, but is just so goddamn down to play the drums and spend his life with his second family. There’s something so gorgeous about that to me. I don’t get you. But I love you.

Tagged, if they want to: @atomic-fraulein @ghostlovesc0re @visited-by-the-moon @kruspesdoll

[kaeda-the-wolf]

MUSIC GAME

Rules: You can tell a lot about someone by the type of music they listen to Hit shuffle on your media player and write down the first 20 songs, then tag 10 people. No skipping.

I'm not tagging ten people but I love this idea. I'm also adding my commentary, because why not?

1.) I'm Not Okay - My Chemical Romance

(And old throwback I'll forever love!)

2.) Rocky Road To Dublin - The Dubliners

(The opening scene of my book is a bar fight set to this song.)

3.) Dark Times - The Weeknd Ft. Ed Sheeran

(Sooo bluesy.)

4.) 1755 - Moonspell

(This is the title track from the album of the same name. One of my top favorite albums of all time.)

5.) Ramble On - Led Zeppelin

(I've loved Led Zeppe for years, but this particular song is particularly special to me, because it was one of the songs played right before I got to watch Rick Springfield live. The best concert I have been to. It was free. I got to give him a hug when he came down into the crowd. Good times.)

6.) Iron - Woodkid.

(From the Assassin's Creed: Revelations trailer. This was the first AC game I played, and it's tied for being my favorite with Black Flag.)

7.) Life Finds a Way - Helion Prime

(A metal band inspired by the Riddick movies? Hell yeah. Also, this song inspired an idea for a short story/short film concept that spawned one of my favorite original characters that I have: a silver eyed, navy blue haired alien royal who flees her home planet after a bloody coup in which pretty much all of her family are killed. She crash lands on earth and befriends the disgruntled veteran who saves her.)

8.) Nymphetamine Fix - Cradle of Filth

(This is still one of the most magnificent examples of genuinely poetic, gothic music I've ever heard. It's been a fav for years.)

9.) Stay - Poets of the Fall.

(Pretty sure these guys have taken the spot of being my favorite band and if they're not my favorite, they're 100% in the top 10. Do yourself a favor and go listen to their whole discography. I have ALL of their songs on my phone. Fans of the game Alan Wake will recognize them as Old Gods of Asgard.)

10.) Long Way Down - The Evil Within Sountrack

(ONE OF THE BEST GAME INTROS EVER!)

11.) So Sorry To Say - Celldweller

(I have listened to Celldweller for well over a decade. The self-titled debut album is another one of my all time favorites. Celldweller is also the first band/artist I really discovered on my own so the music is particularly special to me.)

12.) Broken Wings - Evergrey

"From loss into your embrace/ I fled the fear and the dark of days/ Like an angel of fallen grace/ My broken wings can't hold my weight, no/ I came so close that I felt the flames/ I came so close that I'll never be safe again/ I'd give anything to find a way/ To leave the fear and evacuate.

You wanna talk about songs that have gotten me through some SHIT? This is one.)

13.) Cumberland Gap - Jason Isbell.

(I live in Kentucky. Right on Lake Cumberland. I was not born here, didnt grow here, never wanted to move here; I hated living here for YEARS. Still do some days. If there was a song to describe my feelings about this place, its this one. Also, Jason Isbell is an incredible songwriter. Cover Me Up, If We Were Vampires, Yvette, Elephant. Such great song writing.)

14.) Lili Twil - Myrath.

(Tunisian Power Metal with heavy middle eastern oriental influences. Good shit. This is one of my top favorites from them.)

15.) Weaker Girl - Banks

(This is hella relatable for me, and a lot of women, I think. Need a song that'll make you feel like a bad bitch? This is one of my favorites for that. "Im'ma need a bad motherfucker like me"? You bet your ass I do.)

16.) Don't Talk To Strangers - Rick Springfield

(See #5. I got to see this man alive and hearing the whole audience sing this word for word was amazing. Had it stuck in my head for a month afterwards. Even at 70 something Rick Springfield puts on one hell of a show.)

17.) Hozier - Dinner and Diatribes

(I grew up on blues. Hozier is that perfect bluesy, folksy goodness that gives me life.)

18.) Matisyahu - Jerusalem

(Hands down, one of my favorite artists. I'm not a religious person; I guess spiritual would be a more apt word, and this man's music is just so, so special. I had a teacher in 7th grade show me this song, and I've been listening ever since. This is a song I listen to when I really need a pick me up.

19.) 'Til It's Gone - Yelawolf

(This song kicks me right in the soul every time I hear it. It's so relatable to me. Know it word for word. I have a lot of heavy metal on this list, but hip-hop has a special place in my heart, too.)

20.) Fiddler On the Green - Demons and Wizards

(This song has a very distinct story... its one of the most unique songs I've heard in a long time. There's so much sadness and power to it. It's really something else.)

Bonus round because I wanted to see what else would come up:

1.) Get Down - Emigrate

(I fucking love Rammstein. I fucking love Richard Kruspe. This song is part of what inspire me to pick up bass. It's such a jam.)

2.) Seeman - Rammstein

(SPEAKING OF RAMMSTEIN. One of my absolute favorites of theirs. Till Lindemann is one of my all time favorite vocalists. Also, again on that bass... Oliver Riedel really knocked that intro out of the park.)

3.) Enola Gay - Sugizo

(Most people know Sugizo from either Luna Sea or X Japan. He's got a lot of really unique and beautiful solo work. This song is one. In my 11th grade English class, at one point in the semester we had to choose a book to read and then take a test over it. I chose Hiroshima by John Hersey -I was the only one to do so, as it was the most difficult read out of the books we could choose from- and I listened to this song on repeat through the whole process of reading it. I really feel like it captures the anguish Japanese people went through in the weeks after the bombs dropped. It definitely gave me a new perspective on the whole ordeal. What they went through was horrible, and I think the U.S. really opened up a can of worms by bringing nuclear weapons to the table when it comes to conflicts and war.)

4.) Romance - Buck Tick

(Another amazing Japanese group. Freaking love this song.)

5.) Bitter Pill - Billy Idol

(This song is so fucking good and it reminds me of my best friend. It's like he took my love and soul deep appreciation for her and put it into words. I really love it.)

[akabrookiej04-blog]

K-Pop unpopular opinions

So this is my first post on Tumblr. Cool. 

ME AND THE K-POP GENRE

First thing first, why I like K-pop.

K-pop is not my favorite genre in today’s scene, my favorite genres are Rock, Metal and Alternative. As y’all can see, I’m emo and a hard-die fan of MCR and in general, I love emo groups as P!ATD, Fall out Boy, etc. I also do like a lot of metal and alternative bands, as Rammstein, Metallica, Alice In Chains, Ghost (ik a lot of people don’t like them, but idc I f*ckin love them), Coldplay, Foals, Glass Animals, Alt-J and I can say a lot more, but I don’t think I need to. So as you can see, my favorites genres have nothing to do with K-pop, so let me tell you how I entered this world.

So all of this happened in the summer of 2018 when I just came from Dublin, you know, the moment school has ended and you go traveling with your friends and all that stuff. Still remember it as one of the best experiences in my life tho.

So there I was, again in my country, with nothing to do, bored af, listening to the same music again and again. And I was so tired of listening to the same songs again and again. 

I was listening to “No Drama” by Tinashe and Offset on Youtube when “Fake Love” by BTS appeared in my recommended. I was really bored and wanting to die, so I told myself, “why not”.

And yeah... I spent 4 hours listening to BTS music. It was amusing tho.

By the end of the summer, I was an Army, I knew a lot of K-pop groups, I was into that sh*t. I started with BTS, then Blackpink, Twice, NCT, Red Velvet, Exo... I started with the same as people my age and k-popers in 2019.

At first in k-pop, I was so amused that I liked everything I was seeing, but, you get more experienced and you start to like other things and to dislike some you did love at first.

Now that I’m a little more experienced, I can tell my favorite groups are 2NE1, 4minute, f(x), Big Bang, Dreamcatcher and well, BTS (even tho lately I had been having encountered ideas about them).

But still, I like being honest to myself and I have my opinions. I moved on to other genres like metal and grunge etc. and I left k-pop to the side tbh. Some of the groups that I did like at first now they’re not my sh*t, I find some things kinda annoying now and as consequence I dislike some songs that I used to love.

Now that the introduction is done, and I don’t have anything else to say, let’s start.

These are my opinions, and if you have others I still respect them bro, so respect mines. Let’s get it.

MY K-POP UNPOPULAR OPINIONS

1. Aegyo and cute concepts are cringey.

Dude, 20-year-olds acting like babies is just annoying. These kinda 12-years-old voices that some idols have to fake is just... For example, Rosé from Blackpink. Man, let her sing with her real voice. Being brutally honest, cute concept choreos are all the same, they just don’t tell me anything. The thing I hate the most is that for these concepts some idols are forced to wear clothes that ain’t their style... So annoying, dude. (Groups that follow these concepts and I just don’t like as much as I used to, are Twice and Loona)

2. I think that interviews in English are boring if only one member knows how to speak English. They are idols, they should know at least the basics to communicate. Having to watch and listen to just one idol trying their best to communicate while the others are just doing the m*therfucker ain’t that funny.

3. Dating bans are stupid, they are used as a way to keep fans following their idol. Because if a fan knows their idol is dating it makes them seem unavailable. To childish fans (or most k-popers) being able to dream of dating and marrying their idol it’s more appealing to bias someone and continue dreaming a non-existent future. Real fans don’t care about the dating life of an idol, so they should be able to do whatever the f*ck they want.

4. Sexy concepts and badass ones are the best, fight me.

From what I heard from Korea, the racism and how conservative and close-minded some koreans are, I think these concepts break a Lil’ the rules. Idols like CL, songs as Hate (4minute), Jessi, Hyuna, etc. break korean schemes and rules, and they make me reset my faith in humanity like, come on bro, we all can be open-minded, live and let other people live. 

Also, I think that these concepts have the best choreos, aggresive choreos are just so cool, and as well as they have the best instrumentals, noisy ones are just f*cking awesome, change my mind. The fact that they show 20-years-old as mature, strong people is just high-quality stuff. (Groups that blow my mind with this concepts are for example Ateez and Dreamcatcher)

5. Loona stans are so annoying with their “stan Loona”. B*tches, stop being so annoying. If we don’t want to stand your group we’re not gonna, stop that bullsh*t. Anyway, I’m not hating on Loona or her non-psycho fans.

6. Red Velvet lasts songs, Zimzalabim and Umpah Umpah are just messy. Their recent concepts are messy, they look uncomfortable in their clothes and the choreos ain’t that good neither. Hope their next comeback is better tho, they have the potential to do it.

7. Mamamoo are the real queens of k-pop, people should stop sleeping on them, they’re are amazing and their personalities are brilliant. On stage they are one of the best groups so far, their voices are just so stable and powerful. They have the potential to be as big as Blackpink or BTS, so y’all should stop sleeping on them, homies.

8. There are so many Twice songs that sound the same. Feel Special is not that much of a bop tho, and they have a lot of songs that are just simply a miss. Sorry, my dudes. I think a more mature concept would fit them so well, with a more powerful instrumental, with that, they would conquer the k-pop world.

9. Chung Ha’s songs ain’t that good. Snappin’ aesthetic is gorgeous, the concept is so attractive, but the song itself it’s boring. She’s pretty, she knows how to dance, her aesthetic is f*ckin’ awesome, but I feel like her songs need smth to spice them up. They need that smth that they don’t have to turn them to bops. (Also I hate Chica with all my life, that song just gets me on my nerves).

10. Y’all are gonna hate me with this one, but I think BAAM and BBoom BBoom ain’t the same. Like man, it’s true they sound alike, but to me, they have such different vibes. BBoom BBoom it’s amusing and cheerful, has this kinda vibes that make you wanna dance, and BAAM has this kinda nostalgic, melancholic vibe in the sound of the song that sets your heart on fire. That’s the way I find them, it’s my opinion.

11. I know y’all have been waiting for this moment. Let’s talk about BTS. Armys, say whatever the f*ck you want, but as a real one, I’m gonna spill the tea. Their music now is worse, too commercial and doesn’t transmit any feeling. Come on, let’s admit it dudes, is the reality.

Boy With Luv ain’t good. Halsey is a good singer with so much potential, Nightmare and Without Me are pretty good examples of this, and they did her so dirty. Also, the lyrics are just cringey. I don’t know about you, but Come be my teacher and your one, your two, don’t say anything to me. In general, I feel like Map Of The Soul: Persona ain’t that good of an album. They could’ve used the concept of Dionysus in all the album, I don’t know, something like greek gods flexin’ their money in all the album, and it could’ve be such a bomb. Make it Right, Home and Dionysus are the only remarkable songs of the album, the rest are just meh, I could listen to them 200 times and they won’t stick to me, they’re just basic and boring. They have changed, my dudes. I feel like they’re not who they were once anymore. It’s a fact that they slay on stage and their voices are stable (not all of their voices tho). Their concerts are bomb, the choreos are amazing and that’s something we cannot deny. (But the inflatable castle for Anpanman was a no for me). In conclusion, their music now is just commercial basic pop, they should try to mix their old sounds with smth new.

Well, my dudes, I have more opinions on k-pop but you know, I think this is long enough, in the future I will make a second part of this, but for now, this is all.

Tell me your opinions if you want, and if not it’s also okay.

That’s all folks, bye.

- Brooke.

[redrocx]

Er, there were just too many options.. Ask game: 3, 4, 8, 10, 14, 16, 21, 46, 47, 50, 55, 59, 63 (No pressure though, if you don't want to answer any of those, that's fine :o )

aawww not at all!! thank you so much ♥

3. The person you would never want to meet?

Starting off with a tough one, I see. I’m honestly not sure... I mean there’s lots of assholes I’d never wanna met but I guess everyone’s that way so... let’s just say there’s certain ex crushes I wouldn’t wanna meet again. And maniacs like Hitler and Trump can’t believe I really just named those two in one sentence wow

4. What is your favorite word?

Schadenfreude. It just carries a meaning which you can’t express with one English word, and a feeling which is honestly quite nice (even if no one would ever admit as much). It basically means you’re laughing at someone else’s misfortune.

8. What do you label yourself as?

female bisexual (if that’s what is meant by ‘label’)

I’ve been questioning whether there’s a possibility that I’m pan, but I’m not 100% sure yet tbh.

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

Sleeping. I’ve been asleep before midnight for most nights lately, mainly because I’ve started to take some sleeping meds and they knock me out before long. Also yesterday, work just completely trashed me so I didn’t make it past 10:30pm.

14. What is your current desktop picture?

the boys, ofc ♥

16. The last song you listened to?

Roter Sand by Rammstein it might’ve given me even more angstier ideas for my abuse au fic lololol

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do? 

Idk what I would look like, would I even get to choose? But I’d like to know how it’s possible for Aoi to be this pretty so... y’know. Not sure what I’d do tho lol... maybe be a perfect gentleman all day and also teach other men the way. They’re not perfect but they don’t deserve all the hate they get either so *shrugs*

46. Are you reliable?

Oh hell yeah. Probably because I can’t say no and put my own needs before others, thanks @ helper syndrome. I couldn’t even tell my boss no when she asked whether I could possibly substitute for a sick colleague today for another 7h shift even though I was literally dead yesterday and would’ve not survived today. Luckily, I didn’t have to work after all but yeah... you can count on me to put everyone else before myself lol others would probably call that reliable.

But I also make an effort to always be there for friends. If they’re having a hard time, I let them know I’m there to listen and to maybe even give them advice if needed. Sometimes I think I may be overbearing but I can’t help it, I can’t stand to watch people I care about suffer.

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

Generic af but whether she’s happy with the job choice she’s made bc that’s like my biggest question & decision ahead rn. I don’t really strive to have a fulfilling job, the one above all else, just one I enjoy and that I can handle, and that’s what I’m wondering about... if I can handle things in the long run.

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

I’m honestly not sure... or well I am but I better not tell bc it’s embarrassing af.

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

I’m not too good with accents lol (plus I prefer standard German, and also English), though I can do a decent enough Berlin dialect, I’d say. I can’t even speak ‘proper’ Saxon though lol (not that I’d want to, it sounds terrible af, but then again, I think all German dialects sound terrible).

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

I don’t think so lol. I mean, I usually never take showers without listening to music, but that’s it, I think. Nothing interesting going on here to explain. Was OP hoping to hear all the fap stories from other users or what is this question about?

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

Aww man that’s not fair. They’re both really fucking cool. I gotta go with dragons, though, sorry T-Rex. But yeah, dragons above every other creature, sorry, I don’t make the rules.

again, thank you so so much dear! this was so much fun!!! and it definitely killed my boredom!