#[So you'll hear alot about her no doubt]

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[Art is done by my wife @hlkproductions, who's asked me/given permission to put it here!]

Selene Amatori, Dominant of Greagor (Seraph) the Eikon of 'Mind'. The unknowing twin to Dion Lesage, she held the markers of a Bearer at birth and was separated from him for a lifetime. It was only on her Eikon's awakening from the death/rebirth of the Phoenix that she awoke as a Dominant. Swarmed by cardinals and priests alike, the ten year old Branded held no words of her own, all those in power speaking to the public on her behalf - to parade 'the goddess' in their needs for sating display, her brand painted ivory whites each day. Her only true companions were her Light and Shadow; Dion her trusted friend and Aramis her eternal guardian. For the purpose of her own needs, the newly-made royal Anabella falsified the excommunication of Aramis, compelled the duty for Bahamut along the front lines, leaving Selene alone to the kindness of a poisoned apple; sending the young woman to her death in a lockbox within the water. It was only using her Eikon's power - at the cost of her own health and fortitude - that Selene saved herself, fighting to live despite all the ingrained teachings that told the once-Branded otherwise. Now considered dead to the world and mourned by that suffocating religion, she found her first taste of freedom alongside another ghost; Joshua Rosfield. His status as a Dominant serving to hear the Mind's Call for help from that stormy river; bringing her to learn the world with his travels.

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ok but hear me out: y/n found a lipstick in his car and thinks he’s cheating on her but it turns out it’s his sister’s or something like that…angst with fluffy ending? maybe logan or oscar? but honestly i would read it with almost any driver lol x i really like ur work btw

lippies and lies (op81)

✦ pairing - oscar piastri x female!reader

✦ genre - misunderstanding, a little angst, alot of fluff

Oscar Piastri and his girlfriend Y/N had been dating for over a year, and their relationship was going strong. Today, they decided to spend the afternoon driving around, enjoying each other’s company. As Oscar navigated the roads, Y/N rummaged through the glove compartment, looking for a charger. Suddenly, her fingers brushed against a small tube. She pulled it out and realized it was a lipstick – a shade she never used.

A sinking feeling settled in her stomach as she examined the unfamiliar lipstick. Keeping her emotions in check, she put it back and closed the compartment. Throughout the rest of the drive, she remained quiet, her mind racing with doubts and suspicions.

Oscar noticed the change in her demeanor. "Hey, you okay?" he asked, glancing over at her with concern.

"Yeah, I'm fine," Y/N replied, forcing a smile that didn't reach her eyes.

Oscar frowned but decided not to press further, thinking she might just need some space.

When they finally arrived home, Y/N could no longer hold back her tears. She rushed inside, her eyes brimming with pain and confusion. Oscar quickly followed her, his worry intensifying.

"Y/N, what's wrong?" he asked, his voice filled with genuine concern.

She turned to face him, tears streaming down her cheeks. "I found a lipstick in your car, Oscar. It's not mine. Whose is it?"

Oscar's eyes widened in shock and realization. "Wait, what? A lipstick? Let me see."

Y/N retrieved the lipstick from her bag and handed it to him. Oscar examined it closely, furrowing his brows. "Isn't this yours?" he asked innocently.

Y/N's heart sank even further, her hands trembling. "No, Oscar, it's not mine. How could you not know that?"

Oscar's confusion deepened. "But I thought you used this shade. I've seen you with similar colors before."

Y/N shook her head, her voice breaking. "I don't wear this brand or this shade, Oscar. I can't believe you don't even know that."

Realization slowly dawned on Oscar's face, and he felt a pang of guilt. "Y/N, I'm sorry. I really thought it was yours."

Her eyes filled with even more tears, and she took a step back. "So, whose is it then? Did you have someone else in your car?"

Oscar's heart ached seeing her so upset. "No, Y/N, I swear. There's no one else. It has to be my sister's. She borrowed my car last week because hers was in the shop. She must have left it behind."

Y/N looked at him, her tears slowing as hope and relief started to creep in. "Really? You're not lying to me?"

Oscar shook his head and immediately pulled out his phone. "Here, I'll call her right now."

He dialed his sister's number, and after a few rings, she answered. "Hey, Oscar! What's up?"

"Hey, Sophie. Quick question – did you leave a lipstick in my car last week?" Oscar asked, putting the call on speaker.

"Oh my god, yes! I've been looking for it everywhere," Sophie exclaimed. "Why? Did you find it?"

"Yeah, Y/N found it and got worried," Oscar said, glancing at Y/N with a reassuring smile.

"Y/N, I'm so sorry! That’s totally mine. I didn't mean to cause any trouble," Sophie added.

Y/N sighed in relief, wiping away her remaining tears. "It's okay, Sophie. I just… I panicked. I'm sorry, Oscar."

Oscar pulled her into a tight embrace. "It's okay, love. I understand. I should have told you about Sophie borrowing the car."

Y/N clung to him, feeling the warmth and security of his arms around her. "I was so scared, Oscar. I thought I was going to lose you."

"You'll never lose me," Oscar whispered, kissing the top of her head. "I love you, and I'm always going to be here for you."

Y/N looked up at him, her eyes filled with love and gratitude. "I love you too, Oscar."

They shared a tender kiss, both feeling the weight of the misunderstanding lift off their shoulders. The rest of the evening was spent cuddling on the couch, watching their favorite movie, and reassuring each other of their love and trust. The lipstick incident became a funny story they would laugh about in the future, a testament to their strong bond and the love that kept them together.

time skip

Later that evening, Y/N and Oscar were snuggled up on the couch, a comforting movie playing in the background. Despite the reassurance and the happy resolution, Y/N still felt a tinge of guilt for doubting Oscar. She shifted closer to him, burrowing herself into his side, seeking his warmth and comfort.

Oscar noticed her subtle movements and wrapped his arm around her, pulling her even closer. He gently played with her hair, his fingers moving in soothing circles against her scalp. "You okay, love?" he asked softly.

Y/N nodded, but her voice was small and hesitant. "I still feel bad for not trusting you, Oscar. I'm really sorry. I just saw it and I guess I jumped to the worst case scenario."

Oscar kissed the top of her head. "It's alright, Y/N. I understand why you felt that way. I would feel the same if I found a random male deodorant. I'm just glad we talked it out."

She looked up at him with sheepish eyes. "Umm, also Osc do you think we can go shopping sometime? I… I really did like that shade of lipstick. Maybe I could get one for myself."

Oscar chuckled, his eyes filled with love and amusement. "Anything for you, my love," he said, giving her a playful squeeze. "We'll go tomorrow, and you can pick out as many lipsticks as you want."

Y/N giggled, her spirits lifting at his response. "Thank you, Osc. You're the best."

"No, you're the best," he replied, pressing a gentle kiss to her lips. "Now, let's enjoy the rest of our evening, okay my love?"

She nodded, cuddling even closer to him, her heart feeling light and happy. They spent the rest of the night wrapped up in each other, the earlier misunderstanding forgotten as they basked in the love and trust that bound them together. The promise of a fun shopping trip tomorrow was just another reminder of how deeply they cared for each other.

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Toji proposing to you

Toji proposing to you

It's been years since you and Toji had been in a relationship, You've made bonds with Megumi and Tsumiki and your relationship has gotten stronger over the years. Thanks to you they were able to live a happy life with a complete family.

But years pass, Megumi and Tsumiki are wondering when you'll marry Toji.

Kids their age ask why your parents aren't married. And they don't know how to answer them because it is very complicated.

Ever since, Megumi and Tsumiki kept bringing the Idea to Toji

"DAD, WHEN WILL YOU MARRY MOM?" Tsumiki yelled at her father, thankfully you were out to buy groceries so they can confront him about.

"Why, what's the matter? Me and her are together. That's what what matters." Toji said as Tsumiki hits her with a punch.

"IF YOU DON'T MARRY MOM ANOTHER MAN WILL SEE IT AS A SIGN THAT SHE'S AVAILABLE TO TAKE!!!" Tsumiki angrily yells at the man infront of her.

"Alot of guys kept asking mom for her number and thought I was her brother." Megumi said to stir his mind up.

"SEE?!? IF YOU DON'T ACT NOW, SHE'LL VANISH! HEAR ME??!?? VANISH!!!!"

"I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT SHE SEES IN YOU DAD YOU'RE OLD AND CRANKY!!!" She huffs at him.

"I doubt anyone other than mom can handle you, SO SEAL THE DEAL!!!" Tsumiki yells again

"Tsumiki why are you yelling at your Dad again?" You spoke as you just got home.

"BECAUSE DADS STUPID! I WANT ICE CREAM!!!" She yells as she runs to you with a hug as Megumi comes in to hug you as well.

You didn't hear what happened but you thought it was just the kids nagging Toji about junk foods again.

"Okay okay, a little bit of ice cream isn't bad." You said as you pulled out some ice cream from your groceries.

"YAYYYY!!! WE LOVE YOU MOMMY!!!" Tsumiki squeals in glee

"Thank you, Mommy I love you." Megumi says as he kisses your cheek.

"I LOVE YOU MOMMMEEHHH!!" Tsumiki yells as she kisses you too.

As they both got the Ice cream, they sat on the couch to watch some movies with you.

After that talk with Tsumiki and Megumi, Toji got to thinking.

He did wanted to marry you but he's worried if he afford a grand wedding for you. He heard that girls like big weddings.

So he's been secretly saving money up, but Tsumiki was right.

You were younger than him, beautiful, smart, energetic. Who wouldn't want you?

He thought should speed up on his plan as he took more missions.

While you on the other hand, were getting worried about Toji, as he kept coming home very very late.

He kept using work as an excuse, and you trust him.

You sighed as you were stressed about your relationship with him.

Ever since you knew he was an assassin you get VERY worried, you had accepted Toji for who he is and accepted it.

But of course you wanted some things to change to have a healthy happy life with him, hopefully one day he'll quit gambling and assassination overall.

*After a few days*

"Tsumiki, Megumi let's go out." Toji said as he was walking to the front door.

"Why?" Megumi asked.

"We're picking a ring for mama" Toji said as Tsumiki butted in.

"Mom should be the one who chooses the wedding ring Dad! It's the new hype these days." Tsumiki said

As Toji just stood there, "I don't get what that means."

"It means what if mom doesn't like the ring? These days I've heard the guys will propose with a ring but later on they'll let the girl choose the ring-" Tsumiki

"Gosh, how hard is it to marry these days." Toji sighed.

"Hard enough that half of the population is still unmarried." Tsumiki crosses her hands.

"Aight, You do it then plan the proposal." Toji said as he hands Tsumiki the money.

"OKAY I KNOW THE BEST PLACE." Tsumiki said as she drags her father and brother out.

At the Mall, Toji was shocked at the ring prices.

"This can feed us for an entire fucking month" He said

"Language Dad, I'll tell on you." Tsumiki said

"let's get over with, mom is going to be home any time soon." Megumi complains as Tsumiki was taking so long to choose.

"It's done." Tsumiki said as she raised the ring up in the air.

Toji and Megumi looked at the ring.

"It looks kinda plain" Megumi says.

"Mom likes plain and elegant jewelry didn't you notice? Of course not you're both boys." She said as she walks to the counter to have it wrapped up and paid.

Tsumiki and Megumi helps alot with the preparations on the engagement.

They were going to surpise you.

Meanwhile you, were getting suspicious as your family is clearly hiding something from you, so after coming home from work.

You decided to confront them, you opened the door to hear balloons popping, Two kids fighting and a lot of groaning from an adult man who's trying to hang designs.

"IT LOOKS HORRIBLE DAD!" Tsumiki yells

"Mom's coming home we better-" Megumi spoke as he got interrupted when he saw you.

"Too late." He said as Toji turned to see you as he lost balance on the chair he was standing on as he fell down.

"TOJI!! Are you okay? That must've hurt." You rush to him concerned.

"I've fought stronger enemies, something like this won't do anything." said still sitting on the floor.

"Still, But what were you guys doing." You asked as you shifted your eyes around.

As you saw a banner that isn't being covered by Toji's body anymore.

-> //Will you marry me?

You gasped and yelled "YES!!!" you immediately hugged and kissed him.

"Ewwww" Tsumiki and Megumi said both at the same time.

"UGHHH THIS ISN'T ROMANTICCCCC"

"Congratulations though mama and papa!" She said as she smiles.

"Congratulations" Megumi said as Tsumiki takes her phone out to take a picture.

"Say cheese!!!"

"Cheese!!!"

[oingo233]

You Are Beautiful (1)

Summary: Sirius Black was entranced since the moment he saw you. He had to have you but you are convinced his feelings are fleeting, and will only hurt you. People inside and outside of your relationship meddle in the makings of something that could be beautiful... or disastrous. Will love and confidence win? Or will doubt and uncertainty tear you both down?

Young Sirius Black x Pus SizedFemReader

Warning: one inappropriate joke lol, fluff I suppose and nothing else really. All the real stuff comes later :0

Authors note: I mostly write my xreader fics as neutral but as this is a request, I wrote this as fem. But if anyone would like a male version or neutral version let me know and I will copy this but obviously change readers gender (and it's no burden to me I'd love to make more readers feel included and represented). Also reader is plus sized and she is confident and strong throughout the fic -because plus sized characters aren't represented like that in film/books alot (but if looking for amazing and empowering plus sized female characters Nina Zenik from Six of Crows owns my entire heart and changed how I saw myself personally and I would recommend that book for anyone really)- but as any human she has her insecurities because beauty standards are unattainable and have a way excluding so many people and making us feel less than beautiful. As a plus sized/overweight person myself, I understand how we have to fight to feel beautiful and fight this internalized bias we have when we look in the mirror. But WE ARE BEAUTIFUL. WE ARE WORTHY OF MAGAZINGE COVERS AND COMPLIMENTS AND ABOVE ALL SELF LOVE!! The self insert character in this has fought for her confidence, but it will shake and stumble throughout the series and Sirius and friends are there for her to help her realize for herself how beautiful she truly is, once again. So I hope I didn't stray too far from the request :) Enjoy....

Word Count: 1.8

Authors Note: About halfway through I decided to make it a series oops-

****Blabbering Idiot****

Sirius Black is a man of many, many words. In fact, I'm sure if he was writing this he could quickly turn it into one of the most entertaining novels ever written. He'd describe the laughter of his friends for a whole page. Tell a hilarious joke on the next. Then he'd describe the wind blowing through the open halls and courtyard and the spring sun. He could write about a great many things in great detail. (But he wouldn't because he doesn't quite enjoy writing as much as he does anything else, but that's above the point.)

As I said, Sirius Black is a man of many words. So it was such a curious thing when he first saw you. It was an astounding thing really, because for the first time he found something that rendered him completely speechless.

The sun was peeking through the open corridor and pooled onto you, caressing your skin and hair in an ethereal glow. Highlighting curves that brought both sinful and sweet thoughts running through him. It was as if the universe was telling him, look at what we've created, look at this beautiful creature. But he could hardly believe that this world could create something so lovely and kind. You threw your head back in laughter at something your friend said and suddenly the world is back to normal and all he can hear is your laughter and the sound of his friends curiosity at what could have possibly kept him from the conversation about muggle rock compared to Wizard bands. In fact, James was so passionate about it half the hall turned to listen to his rendition of The Chain by Fleetwood Mac.

But he didn't care, he took a feeble step towards you and suddenly felt so nervous his hands began to sweat. He stuttered and coughed up his words just for a simple "hello" in your direction only for the wind blowing through the halls to carry it away. And his friends laughed at him as he watched you walk too far from where he wanted you. Because, oh did he want you.

Sirus POV:

"I'm telling you, I won't be able to sleep tonight unless I know who she is," Sirius says for not the first time that evening. James started to laugh.

"Why? Because you'll be too busy thinking of her?" James said, laughing as he made a very suggestive hand motion. Peter cackled and Remus rolled his eyes, trying to find the cleaner side of his humor but instead he couldn't help but snort. Sirius pushed James's shoulder.

"Yeah, I'm sure Lily would love to know how familiar with that feeling you are," Sirius says and James stopped laughing immediately, his eyes narrowed.

"Please, you wouldn't dare. And I will deny all accusations, you'll be made out to be a liar. Then the mystery girl will never love you. Is that what you want, Pads?" James joked with a single arch of his brow. Sirius just rolled his eyes. He was only half paying attention, he has been scouring the hallways since he first saw that girl. He wanted to speak to her again, or maybe just stare for a bit. If things went well, he'd be able to do both those things on a date. But he hasn't seen her since that morning and his heart felt oddly shallow. He wanted those butterflies he had when looking at her to come back and overwhelm him again.

"What'll it matter if I don't even know who she is? Or- or if I can't talk to her? No one falls in love with a blabbering idiot," Sirius says. Remus shrugs.

"Lily fell in love with James," he says, Peter laughed again.

"Yeah, regardless of what he does at night," Peter added and now both James and Sirius were rolling their eyes. James and Lily just recently stopped denying their feelings for one another and gave into the sexual tension and mutual pining. Their relationship was still fairly new but they act as if they've been together for years. Sirius supposed that in a way, they have been.

Sirius would watch them giggling, hand and hand in the hall. He'd see them cuddling in the common room, or coming back after dates with rosy cheeks and beaming smiles. Sirius would never admit it out loud, but his heart cried out when he saw them like that. He rarely ever felt lonely. He could have any girl or boy he wanted if he really tried, but for what? One fun night? Only for one more morning where he wakes up alone? He wanted more than that whenever he saw Lily and James, their happiness was palpable. Their love was suffocating.

Sirius always thought he'd find the one after Hogwarts, if at all. But when he saw her... well that changed everything. In a flash he saw himself with her, their hands intertwined and her head thrown back in laughter. Rosy cheeks and bruised lips. Warm beds and making love... being in love. He nearly felt silly after and yet, he knew that even if he did sleep tonight, it would be her he'd dream of.

"Ello' guys!" Lily said, bouncing up to James who kissed her cheek. They walked with their arms looped and Sirius glared at the easy sign of affection. He thought of his parents, how they would be stiff with one another except for in quiet moments, when he'd pass through a hall and glance into their room. He'd spot a quick kiss on the cheek, and soft squeeze of the hand. It were those odd moments for him, that struck him so strongly with a sharp bitterness. They don't deserve softness and love, he'd think, how can such cruel creatures even feel such things? But even then, he'd walk away seeing them as still awful creatures born from the depths of hell, but more human.

"That's her," Sirius whispered so quietly Remus almost didn't hear it. In fact, Sirius didn’t think Remus heard it at all, but it was rather his look of longing towards the Great Hall entrance that gave him away. Because standing right there, was you.

Your hair was a little wind blown, messy around your face, bits of iit shaped your round cheeks and soft eyes. Sirius eyed you up and down and cursed clothes and cursed shyness and cursed his own head for thinking he could even talk to you. But most of all, he cursed a group of boys who walked past you.

Sirius was a confident boy, he knew how to spot someone who held their head up just as high as he did, and you were very much one of those people. You were giggling as you stole a biscuit from a friend and popped it into your mouth, you covered your mouth as you laughed when they complained with a little smile of their own.

"It's just so yummy, and I haven't eaten since breakfast." He heard you say, your friend just shook his head and handed you a plate as you sat down next to him. But right before you could get comfortable a sneering group of boys stole a piece of food from your hand and said something rather rude.

Sirius didn't even realize he had been walking towards you, this girl he has never even spoken too, yet thought of so endearingly, until he was standing right before the boys and had the pack leaders wrist firmly in his grip.

"Drop it boy, c'mon, drop it," he teased. It was humiliating for the boy and he knew it by the laughing and sneering others directed towards the group of boys, but Sirius did not care. The boy dropped the biscuit and looked as if his tail was tucked into his legs. "Good boy," he said, ruffling his hair until it was a knotted mess, the boy winced at just how hard Sirius dug his knuckles into his scalp, Sirius relented with a satisfied smirk.

Sirius’s voice took on a much harsher tone, "Now scram." The boys were out of their seats and in new ones within seconds.

Sirius felt his mood shift completely once they left, because now all eyes were on him, yours included. He looked up at you rather shyly, his hair falling in strands over his forehead. He tucked it behind his ear and found some confidence in the way your eyes followed the movement and how you blushed. He gave you his best smile, hoping his charm wasn't as weak as his legs felt at that moment.

"Hello, I'm Sirius... Sirius Black." Then, like an idiot he put his hand out for you to shake, what charmer just shakes the ladies hand? He stopped belittling himself the moment you softly placed your hand in his.

"It's nice to meet you, Sirius, and thanks for helping me. I know how to handle those filthy 'dogs'" you said, smiling as you remembered the way he spoke to them, he chuckled. "But I suppose it's nice not always having to," you finished with a bright smile on your face. He felt his own cheeks heat up and he nodded but could not think of anything better to say.

"Name," he said, you raised your brows. He cleared his throat, "your name?"

"Oh, how rude of me," you said and then you laughed, that same laugh that caught his attention and has yet to let go. "I'm (y/n) (y/l/n)."

"Nice to meet you," he said, it was as if he couldn't feel the appalled stares of your friends because all he could see was the blush on your cheeks and your head thrown back in laughter. He swallowed thickly before making his way back to his friends. They all wore raised brows and smirks, and he knew they were about to bite into him.

"Treating them like dogs, really? A bit ironic don't you think," Lily said, James shrugged

"That's why it was so good," he said, high fiving Sirius.

"But it admittedly went downhill from there," Peter was sure to add, just like Sirius knew one of them would. Sirius just laughed, too elated to finally know who you were.

"Don't start," he said, but it was too late.

All in union they sputtered out the lame word that will plague Sirius' memory of that moment forever, "Name?"

They cackled at him and ruffled his hair all the way to their seats, but Sirius knew they were pleased for him. And Sirius didn't mind, he could feel the pretty eyes of a pretty girl following him across the room. If only someone told him how important she would become to him, maybe he would have looked back at her and never looked away.

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I want to see your WIP's!

Youre the best writer, I want to see what you're working on! Please and thankyou 😘

Hey Anon! Thank you so much! It means so much hearing that! :) I have quite alot. I don't know if you want just titles or summaries of all of them so I'll just post some screenshots and explain them, this might be a long post haha They will also be in no offical order, this is just how they are laid out on my google docs lol

This one is called My Shooting Star. It's about how Victor and my OC Cassandra had confessed to one another and became a couple! This is a fluffy WIP

This is a recent one, it's called Cooking for 3. (The title of this might change, as its still in the works!) This in particular is a collab with a certain friend of mine! We were discussing the details of it earlier from an idea she suggested for our shared universes. It will be about Victor, Cassandra and Victor's sister; Nicolette cooking on a meal on a rainy Sunday afternoon, bonding, laughing and talking with one another. This is another fluffy WIP

This one in particular is called The Calm Before A Storm. (might change this title as well.) Its a gift for a certain someone! She had this discussion with me about an idea she had but couldn't seem to write herself. I volunteered to write it. This takes place in her universe with her character Nicolette and Victor. It's basically about a storm in the middle of the night. Nicolette is wide awake, drinking a cup of tea, wrapped up in a warm blanket unable to sleep so she is just peacefully watching the storm from the window. Victor ends up waking up and comes to join her! Another fluffy WIP

The first one on the left is called Old Consquences with Bitter Memories. This one is takes place when Cassandra and Victor first started dating (the first couple months into their relationship) they are at a charity event that Victor had to attend to. Cassie went with him as his plus one. However when they get there and start mingling with a bunch of business associates, Cassie manages to spot out her abusive ex boyfriend amongst the big crowd which has her spiral into flashbacks and causes her to go into a panic attack and she ends up dissociating really badly. Of course, Victor takes notice of this and tries to bring her back to him. An angst hurt/comfort WIP (This may or may not have a happy ending)

The second one on the right is called Victor's Doubts. As the title might give away, Victor is experiencing some doubts. This would take place the first year Cassandra and Victor are married. Cassandra has a severe case of separation anxiety. And because she has this type of anxiety, she has a hard time separating herself from those she loves, especially Victor. It becomes rather difficult whenever Victor has to leave on business trips that last longer or just in general when he has to go to work. Because of this problem, Victor fears and doubts that he isn't good enough for Cassandra and thinks she deserves to be with someone who can always be there by her side and not leave her all alone. However when bringing this to Cassandra's attention she quickly shuts it down and tells and shows him how much he means to her and that she would never want to be with anyone else. This is another angst hurt/comfort WIP. (This one will have a happy ending)

Similar to the second one listed above, this one is called Separation. This would also take place in the first year of Cassandra's and Victor's marriage and basically is going to be about what separation anxiety is like for Cassandra whenever Victor has to leave for a business trip. This is an angst hurt/comfort WIP

This one may be familiar if you've already read parts 1 and 2 on my blog but this one is "You'll Be Happier..." Part 3! If you dont know, this is the story in which Cassandra becomes matchmaker for Victor to help him get with Mia. However she has her own feelings for Victor but she sets them aside to help him achieve his happiness. This is an angst WIP

Following the previous one this is called "I Messed Up..." Basically an alternative universe to "You'll Be Happier..." and the official story of how Cassandra and Victor get together in the third universe I have listed on Cassandra's profile! Which means it involves Victor's sister; Nicolette. She plays a huge part in this story specifically. It's basically about how Victor realizes he went after the wrong girl and realizes his own feelings for Cassandra. Mia also ends up rejecting Victor on their date leaving him heartbroken, he tries to go to Cassandra however when she isnt there, the realization hits him. Thinking its too late, his sister, Nicolette comes over and talks to him about it and he asks her to help him make things right with Cassandra. In the process of doing so something ends up happening to Nicolette after she leaves, ending up in the hospital which ends up bringing Cassandra and Victor together as a couple. This is an angst hurt/comfort WIP! (Just like "You'll Be Happier..." This story has 3 parts. I finished writing out the first part because of how eagar I was to write it and am currently working on the second one!)

And last but not least, this one is called Letters to Victor & Nicolette. This is another gift for a certain someone and it takes place in her universe where Cassandra is Victor's sister. Cassandra writes these letters to her brother and sister-in-law as her gift for their wedding day. This is a fluffy WIP!

I have a bunch more WIP but these are my current ones that I have been trying to clear out. As you can probably tell I come up with ideas before actually finishing the stuff I've already started which is really bad lol but I am working my best when I am inspired so I guess thats the plus side of that. Eventually I'll be able to get through all of them when I actually can get the time out of my busy schedules lol

Thanks for asking this! It was definitely a lot to explain but I had fun. Hope this clears up everything. I hope you have a good day/afternoon/night! <3

~Cassie

[karasunology]

⸙ ˚₊ ➷ KUROO TETSUROU & KOZUME KENMA BEING A DAD HEADCANONS ! ❞

��� . . . all those dad headcanons are making me so SOFT 🥺✨🥺 do you think you could make some for kuroo, akaashi and atsumu as dads if u haven’t done them already??

❝ ― submitted by @ nonnie <3 ❞

✎ . . . i'm happy that your requests are open ! and for dad headcanons?? i am right here to serve my braincells for you ma'am. what about dad! sugawara & kenma? thank you in advance 🤓😘

❝ ― submitted by @ nonnie <3 ❞

-ˏˋ ➶ character(s) ━ kuroo tetsurou & kozume kenma <3

[ trigger warnings ━ slight manga spoilers !! ]

✎ . . . DAD HEADCANONS.

[ SUGAWARA KOUSHI & OIKAWA VERSION. ] [ BOKUTO KOUTARO VERSION. ] [ MIYA ATSUMU VERSION. ] [ IWAIZUMI HAJIME. ]

-ˏˋ playing soleil's tape ˊˎ-

[ 📼 ] . . . someone send me cute dad suggestions because i am running🏃out of ideas💡 i'm also finaly done with dad! akaashi hcs in my notes, so feel free to request ( even non-dad related ones ) because i lowkey have no life👉👈🗿

KOZUME KENMA.

➜ it would come as a shock to him honestly ─ you guys used protection and he was atleast careful despite having lazy smex half of the time

➜ but what shocks YOU the most was that he didn't want to get rid of the baby ─ he just couldn't, it was a child he co-reated with the love of his life, how could he ?

➜ you were quick to come with an agreement with him, his soft smile tugging on his lips to form, the smile 80% of the time would come out only for you ( shoyou & kuroo )

➜ he was also lowkey excited, he texted shoyou and kuroo about it as they both congratulated him and were already trying to do dibs on who'll be god father

➜ and you've noticed that he was bit more affectionate with you when you were in your pregnancy, his head on your lap as you play with his hair ─ which he usually doesn't like people doing?? and would every now and then kiss your tummy while playing his games

➜ i want to h*ld his hand

➜ and k*th him

➜ he's like a mother cat on pregnancy, but with you ─ never lets you do work, saying that he already has it under all on control, very protective of you and literally hisses at other people coming near you LMAO WTF MAN

➜ tries to be as knowledgable for your pregnancy as much as possible ─ just like the other dads in my hcs, they want YOU to feel comfortable with EVERYTHING and want YOU to feel supported

➜ has already bought EVERYTHING you needed, even extra ones and has booked appointments left and right

➜ like mans hasn't done this much effort after volleyball ngl

➜ but just like everyone else ─ he's terrified, he doesn't know alot of these things and of course you're the only woman he has ever gotten pregnant and he doesn't have any experiences in these type of thing whatsoever

➜ doubts were not uncommon ─ if he ever was going to be a good father to his child, if he was even a good fiancé to you, was he even worth to have a child with ?

➜ this bb boy CRIED when he heard you guys were having twins, TWINS; like as in a girl and a boy

➜ when kaori and kazu were born, kenma wasn't aware that he could fall in love all over again

➜ is this even worth mentioning because everyone probably knows this?? he s p o i l s  them big time

➜ whenever he's working late at night, he'll always be the one telling YOU to go back to sleep and he'll be the one to take care of the kid for the night

➜ and by kid, i meant kazu because somehow??he??got??his??father's??sleeping??schedule??

➜ and it's how he sleeps by

➜ sometimes whenever you wake up, you find yourself alone in the bedroom and whenever you look at either the game room or your childrens' room, you would always find kenma lying with his children on couch-bed ─ kozu and kaori on each side of his head, kaori having her small little fingers holding and sometimes tugging onto her dad's hair

➜ and sometimes you would also join them

➜ but most of the time, you would head to the kitchen and make some breakfast

➜ and usually kenma would wake up and put his kids back to their crib and he'd go look for you, finding you cooking as he would wrap his arms around your waist as he hugs you from the back

➜ i just wanna get myself a gamer boi kenma

➜ since he gets a lot more clingey whenever he wakes up

➜ whenever he's streaming USUALLY, kozu would sleep on his lap like a cat while kaori is sleeping in his head?? Idk how??

➜ while his fans literally PAY him to show his adorable kids, some even commented how they're all so cat-like and alike with their father

➜ one time while streaming, he was probably ranting tf out of a game he wasted his money on and warning his fans not to buy it because it's basically a scam

➜ and while he was in the middle of ranting, his daughter comes in while holding a blanket on her as she rubbed her eyes looking so much like a small kitten, he literally STOPS DEAD ON HIS SWEAR WORD AS HIS EYES WIDDENED while the people in the chats are either fangirling how CUTE his daughter was or DYING because mans was almst about to swear and interrupted himself

➜ before he could react a bundle of energy comes into the gaming room, you hot tailing on his tracks as you came into the room while trying to retrieve kozu

“ kozu!! don't come in there ahH ─ ” you blushed as you looked at both your boyfriend that has an amused eyebrow cocked up, and onto the camera before laughing and smiling at it since his fans ADORE YOU

➜ when you finally got your hands on your son, you smiled at your daughter as you signaled her to come over to you

➜ but before she could come to you she was already lifted at her father's lap

“ it's fine, i'll have her with me ” he said as he nodded at you, placing her gently in the middle of his lap as his arms encaged her while he played his games

➜ before leaving with a pouting kozu on your arms you threw a peace sign at the camera for his fans, closing the door on the way out

➜ let's just say that it lowkey went viral because it's literally so cute

➜ sorry i just HAD to reference that interview that got viral before

➜ one time where you fell asleep with both of your children curled up to you in the bed, kenma just finished a long stream as he walked to the bedroom hoping to fall asleep ontop of you yet finds two cute cat looking children cuddling you

➜ he quickly took a photo or two and made it both his home and lockscreen before sending it to shoyou

➜ and then sliding himself onto the covers as he, himself, nuzzled himself onto your warmth

➜ the relatable dad, idk why but i really see him getting along with children especially when they're teenagers ─ i just, i COULD SEE IT

➜ especially kaori😭 since she inherited his introverted and somehow shy side??

➜ kaori : *slids down the chair after coming home from school* i wanna die

➜ kenma : same

➜ he would introduce video games to his children AHH

➜ would even play violent games with them because why not?

➜ you'd prolly have to scold him after though

➜ the biggest achievement was when both of his children listing game consoles on their christmas lists

➜ and it was on the top of the list

➜ but kenma, being the kanbe(kambe??) daisuke he is, he bought all the things on that list

➜ he knows his kids are supposed to be studying at school ─ he knows it, he really does, that's why he made them go to school

➜ but he couldn't help but play along with his children on the imessage games when he DEFINITELY knows that they were in the middle of history class

➜ and you'll just find out it through the family gc seeing them spam the chat with games and screenshots of their scores while comparing them😭

➜ he always knew how to communicate with his children ─ perhaps it was because of the reason that they are his children

➜ but whenever his daughter comes to him complaining about human interactions and wanting to stay home while his son complains about school being in the way of gaming ─ he's just like : WE SEE EACH OTHER

➜ baby boy is a lazy bum, but he will never hesitate to participate and contribute to his children's life ─ not only through things, but also with just his guidance and presence

➜ your pregnancy may have come across as an accident, but it was never a mistake to kenma.

KUROO TETSUROU.

➜ after getting married for two years now, you couldn't help but want to start building a family with kuroo

➜ LIKE WHO WOULDN'T?? this is kuroo tetsurou we are talking about

➜ unlike oikawa and bokuto ─ YOU were the one having the baby fever

➜ your friends and colleagues already having or talking with their partners to start or adopt

➜ but of course you were lowkey insecure, why wasn't he even mentioning that he wanted a family with you? does he think that it was a waste of time? or maybe he doesn't want to start it with you ─ maybe you were the problem?

➜ but unbeknownst to you, tetsurou also wanted to start a family with you ─ he wanted a lot of children, actually. but he doesn't want you to feel pressured ─ since you guys are still youthful, there's still a lot of time to think about it

➜ and most of all, he doesn't want to start a family with anyone else BUT YOU

➜ whatthefucksanaol sir eye ─

➜ and he's already talking to bokuto behind your back about wanting to start a family with you ( and of course kenma )

➜ but BOKUTO IS JUST SCARILY GOOD AT ADVICES

➜ it's quite eerie honestly

➜ you, thinking it was only just a slight baby fever with all your friends wanting them as well, tried dismissing your thoughts

➜ but your mind said nO❌🚫 RIGHTS✅💢

➜ and kuroo could notice the slight change in behaviour with you, it was subtle but he was quite perceptive

➜ with his cat eyes intently watching you as you tried avoiding his gazes because all you could think is HAVING A BABY WITH THE SAME EYES AS HIM FIIFJJCJC

➜ HELP ME

➜ it was fine until he confronted you about it

➜ kuroo ─ for me, is someone to face a problem head-on, it's just his personality, so it wasn't a surprise that he seriously yet carefully and nonchalantly confronted you while you guys were about to sleep as you layed your head on his lap, taking in his warmth

➜ and that's where mans dropped the b*mb💣

“dollface? is everything alright with you?”

➜ just imagine kuroo's concerned voice is all that you could hear along with the palpitations of your heart as he caressed your cheeks, brushing off the hair covering your face as he puts down science pun book he had on his hands on the nightstand

➜ now i can't help but imagine that scene from the special/bonus chapter from bj alex with chanwoo and MD on the bed, that scene where he tries to confront chanwoo about that bruise on his face? ughshshsj

➜ all he heard was that you wanted to start a family with him👉👈 and now he's seconds to going FERAL and push you down the matress

➜ 😳🔞

➜ SIR CALM DOWN PLEATHES

➜ I CAN'T TAKE IT

➜ but mans was quick to get himself back to reality, a bashful smile tugged on his lips as he nodded at you, kinda disappointed that you had to be the braver person in the relationship to bring out the topic and it wasn't him

➜ mans is competitive okay

“ . . . why don't we start now? ” he slyly grinned, y'know, that cheshire cat grin

➜ let's just see you guys didn't sleep at all that night

➜ kuroo was, though not surprisingly, good and knowledgable with pregnancy, not like he secretly researched about it that one time when you guys got a pregnancy scare that started all his wild thoughts about you carrying his child um ─

➜ and this is kuroo we are talking about lmao

➜ i think he has his insecurities but was never doubtful of himself being a father, LIKE MANS HAS TAKEN CARE OF A WHOLE ASS VOLLEYBALL TEAM ─ but he knows there is a difference between being a father to his child and being a good one

➜ i wanna m*rry him too😡

➜ you gifted him a daughter, his first born. the first time he saw her, GOD WAS THIS THE BEST ACHIEVEMENT IN HIS LIFE

➜ like who knew you guys could create someone so beautifully mashed of both him and you ─ but you disagree, as even by the youngest age of four months or three, you could see the literal resemblance of your husband on her

➜ and it was uncanny, her eyes were the ones you dreamed of your children having ─ molten golden ones of tetsurou's, her cat-like grin and sly personality

➜ she was always quick to lean on her father's warmth, and that made kuroo CRY and you kinda jealous

➜ but nevertheless, you knew that there were plenty of times to make one that loves you just as much taiga loves tetsurou

➜ and you did get it, second born after only half a year, was tamaki, which has taken both your personality and tetsurou's, while having your appearance.

➜ but you were quick to notice to comment that tamaki has gotten kuroo's shy personality while he was young, he would always shy away from his sister that kept clinging onto him since she has never had a playmate other than her uncles from nekoma's old volleyball club

➜ kuroo was to say the least, really happy when he sees your two children getting along with each other since he, himself, has grown up alone with no sibling and without a mother

➜ and as he looked at you playing tamaki and taiga as tamaki got you all wrapped around his finger while taiga was looking for her father, he couldn't help but smile

➜ believe it or not, taiga first said your name ─ not tetsurou's

➜ in your face kuroo

“ come on, say dada !! ” your husband patted his thighs to make a sound as he sat on the bed while your daughter just ─ once again, leaned on his touch, nuzzling her face onto his warm thighs while giggling

➜ he dropped his phone to the bed whining, “ mama! look at her ─ ”

“ ─ mama!! ” your daughter imitated his words, both leaving you guys stunned and wide-eyed as you laugh in shock while tamaki was jealous you gave his sister more attention and now tugging softly at your hair,

“ . . . mama? ”

➜ KUROO WAS SO DONE, HIS COMPETITIVE LOWKEY PETTY ASS WAS DONE

➜ also belive it or not, tamaki was the one who got his father's sleeping habits of having two pillows on both sides of his head

➜ HE'S THE TYPE OF DAD THAT USES A VACCUM CLEANER TO STYLE YOUR DAUGHTERS HAIR LIKE THE ONES ON THOSE VIDEOS ON YT SNSJJSNZZ

➜ and it actually??comes??off??nice??and neat??

➜ at the age of 7, your daughter was already picked to represent her class on a science fair AND YOU BET TETSUROU IS SO PROUD OF HIS DAUGHTER

➜ would be such a supportive dad

➜ visits tamaki and taiga's volleyball games ─ like atleast all over them, and would bring along his old teammates to it maybe just to relive old memories because you BET that they're attending nekoma

 ➜ would always have these little traditions and inside jokes with them and you

➜ especially science ones

➜ what do we expect? HE'S LITERALLY A DORK

➜ AND SO ARE HIS KIDS

➜ they just vibe with each other ngl, like kuroo is just a down-to-earth guy and could get along with BOTH your extroverted daughter and introverted son, since he was both of them in a moment from his life

➜ uncle kenma would always bring in gifts for them because they're literally now his cats because they are now cats

➜ sorry i don't make the rules

➜ my husband, kenma, does😋

➜ your kids LOVE HIM though, especially tamaki being a bit like kenma ─ both, growing a soft spots for each other

➜ whenever some of his old teammates would visit, taiga is always on uncle lev's back while yaku scolds him to put her tf down or else she'll fall

➜ tamaki on the other hand, is just safely sitting beside his uncle kenma while he watched him play games ─ which he has also grown to love

➜ doesn't let your kids forget to eat and makes them eat even if taiga's in the phase of wanting to be sexy gorl tingz ─ DADDY KUROO SAYS NO RIGHTS🚫

➜ overall, kuroo couldn't ask for more, he was so proud of his children no matter what they do through and through and of course you too ─ for carrying his children, bringing them into the world and being patient with them

[saltynsassy31]

Wassup, it's me again. I hope you are having a good day!

You said you write about Swatchon as well? I hope i remember correctly.

If so, then why not have him listen to Spamton's crazy sales idea? Just something wholesome. He somehow had to become Spamtons role model after all?

Ah hi welcome back! It's a delight to hear from you again ^^ especially after I just woken up gjskvja love seeing you come back here (sorry I took a while to respond btw, got home late and slept alot lol)

That is a lovely idea and yes! I do qrite swatchon stuff

Also I wasn't sure what point in time I should put the fic, before, during or after he started talking to the phone guy so I had to think HARD on it so this took me longer then I'd like to admit 😅

But I have decided to make it after the phone guy shit, it is also inspired by a drawing I saw where spamton was kinda like swatch's little assistant? You'll see I guess gksjgja

(This completely went off the rails but I had fun writing it so I hope you enjoy it as much as I did ^^)

Ok enough rambling let's get to the fanfiction bkdkgka

If you asked him, Swatch would never admit it but he really did like listening to Spamton ramble on about his sales pitches

Sure, it was annoying sometimes when he kept following them around while he did his errands and wouldn't stop talking but at the same time it was quite charming of him in a weird way

"SWATCH! [buddy]] I THINK I DID IT, I HAVE THE PERFECT [[deal of a life time!]]"

Spamton said entering through the backdoor of the color café during swatch's break

Swatch put his mug down on the table and looked down at Spamton "really? And what might that be"

Spamton climbed up the table and started to tell his idea to them. Swatch carefully listened to him talk excitedtly with a small smile

"You know, out of all you've told me so far I think this is the best one yet, truly. If I could I might even hire you to do sales for me" he said with a chuckle as he took a sip from his mug

That stunned Spamton for a moment "WAIT, REALLY?"

Swatch, realising what he had just said, stopped mid drinking and blushed slightly. He put the mug down and quickly composed themselves

"Ahem, well, yes. During your stay here you were really good at what you did, I would be lying if I said I wasn't shocked from your departure" he quickly said

Spamton took a moment to let the information process through his mind "SO YOY WOULD MAKE [[A sweet deal!]] WITH ME?" He said honestly a bit excited

"Mmm, well yes, if there wasn't the fact the Queen banished you from her palace. You only come around when she isn't around"

Swatch was right, even if they'd want to make a deal it's not like he could. Spamton looked down a bit, honestly kind of disappointed in himself

Oh how he wished he hadn't made that deal with *him* but if he hadn't would he have really been this close to swatch?

Noticing how his friend seemed a bit to quiet for comfort they added "but I could arrange something with her, she's crazy but she isn't mean" Soamton gave them a doubtful look, and if they were being completely honest with himself they doubted themselves

Wich is why he adds "well, she can be nice at times if we do the right thing is what I'm trying to say, she means well"

"I'll figure some thing out"

With that, a small light of hope formed in Spamton's eyes and whatever doubt Swatch had with this idea was swept away and it made it all worth it

"ARE YOU SURE YOU WONT GET TIRED OF [[a little worm]] LIKE ME? CONSTANTLY MAKING [[the best deals in town!]] -UGH" Spamton groaned, annoyed by this advertisement tics interrupting his speech

"Spamton, look at me" he did as so "I let you ramble on about your newest pitch almost everyday and hear you talk everytime you decide it's a good time to do so"

"Do you honestly think I'll get annoyed by something I'm already used to? And if I am being completely honest, I find it quite charming, I missed your energy around here ever since you got kicked out"

Spamton smiled, this what the kindest thing Swatch had ever said to him, the nicest thing ANYONE ever told him

"Right, I need to get back to my shift though. I'll go talk to the Queen and see how it goes"

With that, they parted ways. Spamton went back to his littlentrashcan behind the shop

Could it really be that easy though? Whenever something he thought would be good never worked out for him, it was to good to be true

But he had to try, right?

So he waited, and waited. He knew it wouldn't just be done in the next hour or next day, but anxiety ate him up like a fine dish as he could not sleep

He kept looking and retouching his pitch to make it perfect, it had to be! What if he needed to impress the Queen too! He couldn't mess this up, he couldn't fail like he did Mike

He didn't want to loose the only friend he had, but he always messed up, it would only be a matter of time he would loose it all over again and-

"SPAMTON!" A voice called out wich promptly made him look up from the trash can, it was Swatch

"Gosh, I've been trying to call your attention for the past 10 minutes, are you ok? You were shaking and mumbling to yourself"

"I AM FEELING [[Like a shooting start!]] BETTER THAN EVER, MAY I SAY" Spamton said standing up to climb out the trash can "WHAT IS A [[pretty bird]] LIKE YOU DOING HERE?"

Soemtin mentally cursed himself at his tic saying things he didn't want to say but kept his usual smiling face as Swatch did not seem to mind

"I hope you haven't forgotten of my proposition" Swatch said chuckling "I talk to the Queen yesterday-" yesterday? It's already been a day already? He hasn't noticed "-and she came to me with an answer today saying she'd let you stay"

Spamton was surprised by the news, eyes so made it looked like they would pop "in one condition though"

Right, this was a deal he was making, that ment something out of him aswell

"AND WHAT THAT [[Special condition]] MIGHT BE?"

"Well, I had proposed that you worked under my wing as a, well, intern of sorts. She gave me a week to work with you and by the end of that she would come check how things are going"

Spamton gleamed at that, he felt his heart explode out of joy. He wasn't just getting a job but a job WITH Swatch, the one he most admired, that inspired him so much that he tried to commit identity theft.... Well that wasn't his brightest moment but the point still stands

The person he loved the most, but he wasn't about to admit that

"Of course, if you try to go to the basement again and try to take the disc this deal is complete nullified"

Spamton gulped at that, right, he had still been trying to get that disk for *him* even though it had already ended the deal with him, the reason he was living in the dumpster

He thought he could still prove to him he could be worthy enough for freedom! But if this works out, he won't be needing it to help him anymore, right?

"NO WORRIES [[my fiend]] I WILL NOT ENTER THE BASEMENT TO GET THE [[sweet, sweet deal!]] NOT WITH THIS [[deal of a life time!]]"

Swatch chuckled "Good, now let's get you inside and clean, your work starts today"

Spamton blinked a few times shocked "right, yeah, Queen wants you to start right away. You know how impatient she can be at times"

"NO NO, COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND" he cringed a bit at his bad grammar but ignored it as Swatch took him inside

Maybe things wouldn't be so bad after all

Ah this went a bit off the rails with the prompt but i couldn't help myself

But yeah, hope you liked it and remember you can still ask for more fic prompts, anyone who sees this

I want to keep writing, this has been really fun ^^

[kileyrose-2003]

Snakebite Andi x Fem! Reader: Part 1

A/N: Hello lovelies! This request was made by @wendyfuckintorrance I'm sorry if it's a little long of a write but I love writing Andi so I can't resist. Lol. Next on my to do list is Part 2 of this which will be up tonight or tomorrow. I used all the blocks allowed for one post trying to make it all in one. Request are open if anyone does want to submit anyway, I hope you all enjoy!

Warnings: This one has alot. Violence against children, domestic violence, implied child abuse, implied sexual harassment/abuse,(Andi's father will be mentioned but not seen in this fic), mentions of child death, implied sexual content, alcoholism.

Key: Y/F/N- Your father's name

Y/b/n- Your brother's name

Y/m/n- Your mother's name

Y/f/c- Your favorite color

Arizona, 2001:

"Aww look at you! My little girl! All dressed up on her first day of kindergarten!" Your mother doted. "Y/F/N, doesn't she look pretty?"

"Like a princess!" He yelled out from the other room. "See?" Your mom smiled and caressed your cheek. "Yeah.." You held your tiny hands together and looked down at the hardwood floor in your doorway.

Your mother's smile faded and she held your hand gently. "What's the matter?" You refused to meet her eyes and stared off into space.

"I'm scared," You whispered softly and your mom cooed softly. "Aww sweetie. It's going to be okay! You'll be there until lunch time then-"

"It's not that," You interrupted. "Then what is?" You pouted and sighed. "The other kids, they're not going to like me. They're going to think I'm a freak."

"Hey, hey." She forced you to look at her. "Don't say that. You're not a freak."

"Yes, I am." You insisted. "Y/b/n said so. He said normal kids can't talk to others in their hea-"

"And if Y/b/n told you to jump of the bridge, would you follow?" You furrowed your little eyebrows. "No, that would be silly."

"So wouldn't it be silly to believe everything he says?" You thought about it for a minute and smiled. "Yeah."

"Yeah?" You nodded and your mom pulled you close. "I don't want to ever hear you say those things about yourself again, alright? You're not a freak. What you have is a gift. How many other kids do you know that can tell good from bad and talk in their head?"

"I don't know anyone else who can." You shrugged. "See? It's a gift. You're so special, Y/n." You smiled and nuzzled closely to your mom. "Thanks mama."

"Of course." She pulled away from you and kissed the top of her head. "Do I hide it from the other kids or-"

"You do whatever you feel comfortable with, okay?" She smiled softly. "Okay mama." The school bus pulled up infront of your house and you gulped nervously.

"I'll see you later, okay?" She kissed the top of your head. "Okay mama." You skipped out the front door. "Bye sweetie! Make good choices!"

"I will!" You promised and hesitantly got on the school bus. Your mom waved to you and blew you a kiss before stepping back inside.

The first few hours of kindergarten were pretty uneventful. It was the basic find your name on the desk thing and coloring sheet which you didn't mind but most of the kids seemed mean.

When you'd look at them they'd narrow their eyes at you or not bother to speak to you unless they have to.

When it came time for recess you sat by yourself for a little while on the swings, enjoying your own head space. You began to question what your mom told you and had doubts on just how 'good' this Kindergarten thing was going to be.

"Stupid." You kicked the ground and just as you were about to take off on the swing, you felt someone tapping your shoulder.

"Excuse me." You turned to look behind you and found one of the other girls in your class standing behind you. She had short, curly blonde hair and bright blue eyes. Her clothes were a little tomboyish but you didn't mind or judge. "Do you mind if I take the swing next to you?"

"No, go ahead." The girl grinned and say down next to you. "Thanks."

"I'm Y/n. What's your name?" You greeted. "Andrea, but I don't like it. You can call me Andi. That's what most people call me anyways."

"I like your name. I think it's pretty." The other girl blushed and giggled. "Thanks. It's nice to not have someone say my name is a boys name."

"Why would they say that?"

"The boy from Toy Story is named Andy."

You shrugged and smiled. "Still though, I think it's pretty. Who says it can't be for a boy or girl?"

"True." Andi smiled and swung back and forth. "I like you, Y/n. You're nice." You giggled and smiled. "Thanks! So are you! You're the only one here who will really talk to me."

"They won't talk to me either." Andi met your eyes. "Why won't they talk to you?"

"I-i shouldn't really say. You might get scared."

(Is it because you can do this?)

You heard her voice clearly in your head and your face went blank.

(I always thought it was-)

(Just you? Me too.)

(How did you know I can..? You know..)

(I don't know. I got the feeling you could when I looked at you. You're the first person I've ever met besides me that can do this.)

You smiled gratefully as if to say 'thank you for not letting me think I was crazy,' and Andi returned the gesture.

"Friends?" Andi held her tiny pinky out towards you. "Best friends." You grinned and pinky swore with her.

When it came time for you both to go home you gave each other a quick hug before going your seperate ways.

You were so excited. You finally had a friend. A real friend, and they were exactly like you. When you got off the bus at your house you immediately ran inside.

"Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!" You screamed excitedly and looked around in the kitchen for her. "Mommy had to run out to the store, Y/n. She'll be home in a little bit."

You could hear your dad walking downstairs. He had a beer in his hand and set it down on one of the higher steps that way you couldn't knock it over. He held his arms out to you and you eagerly ran into them.

"How was your day?" He asked softly and kissed the top of your head. "It was amazing! Daddy, I made a friend!" You beamed.

"See? We told you the other kids would love you. What's their name?" He asked. "Andi! She's so pretty! And she's like me, daddy!"

Your father felt his mouth go dry and he desperately wanted to take a sip of his beer. "L-like you?" He asked softly.

"Mhm!"

(She can talk to me like this.)

Your father looked boggled at hearing your voice in his head. "Well..that's uhm..that's very nice, sweetheart. I'm glad you have a friend with such similar gifts."

"Isn't it cool?" He grinned and kissed the top of your head. "Oh look, I think mommy's home." He patted your back.

"Ooo! Mommy! Mommy! Mommy!.."

It didn't take long for you and Andi to become inseparable. Every day you'd sit next to each other in class and instead of passing notes you'd talk in your heads and it seemed like every weekend you'd be having a sleepover at the other one's house.

Andi's mother was always very nice to you but there was just something off about the family dynamic, her father in particular. At first when you met the man he seemed pretty decent, smiling and putting on the whole happy family act but he began to change slowly over time.

When you'd come over to see Andi he wouldn't seem as happy and that pit you had in you for good or bad would drop at the very sight of him.

Why, you didn't know but you knew something was wrong. You mentioned something about it to Andi the one time she was staying your at your house over night, the summer before 3rd grade.

"I'm worried about you," You whispered softly and reached your little hand out to her equally tiny ones. "Why?" She asked, turning over in her sleeping bag that way she could hold your hand.

"You seem quieter lately and your dad seems..off." Andi overted eye contact. "Do you want to tell me something?" You asked gently.

"I-" Andi had tears brimming in her eyes. "I don't want to talk about it. I'm not allowed to talk about it. My mom will get mad."

"You don't have to tell her you told me." You sat up crossed legs and squeezed her hand as reassuringly as any near 8 year old could.

"I-i can't." Andi started crying and you pulled her into a hug. "Okay, I'm sorry."

"No, it's not your fault. I just wish I could say but I can't." She held onto you tightly and cried into you. You noticed a little bruise on her neck but said nothing, not wanting to upset her more.

"I-it's okay, Andi. I get it." The other girl tried to wipe her tears away and pulled out of the hug. "Y/n?"

"Yeah, Andi?" She smiled appreciatively at you. "Thanks for being my friend," She sniffled. "Best friends forever right?" You held your pinky out to her's. "Yeah," She giggled and pinky swore. "Best friends forever."

The next morning when Andi left, you mentioned something to your mother about the bruise. "..she was crying when you asked?"

"Alot, and I felt really bad because I want to help her but she won't tell me what's wrong." Your mother sighed. "Yeah well, people are different behind closed door sometimes, you know?"

"Yeah..like you and daddy?" Your mother tensed and looked at the clock on the stove. 11:30 and still not back from the bar.

"Y/n, if I tell you something will you promise to keep it a secret? Because you're special and I don't know if you already kn-"

"I won't tell," You promised. Your mother sighed and gripped the counter. "Y/n, mommy and daddy aren't going to be living together anymore."

"W-what? Why?" Your mom turned to look at you. "You know how daddy likes to drink beer?" You nodded. "Yes, but what does that have to do-"

"He pays more attention to beer than he does our family. When's the last time he tucked you into bed at night and read you a story?"

You had to think about it. "I don't know. Maybe a few months ago." Your smiled sadly. "That's too long. We all know your father loves us but he's sick and he's got to get help, okay?"

"Okay," You hummed softly, trying to suppress your sadness. "Will he come back home when he's feeling better?"

Your mother bit her lip. "I don't know, honey. Maybe. Either way though, it's going to be okay. Uncle Jeff that you like, is going to come stay with us while daddy's gone. It's all going to be as normal as I can make it, okay?"

"Okay, mama." She pulled you into a tight embrace and kissed your hair. "You're a good girl, Y/n. Stay as sweet as you are, promise me that?"

"I promise." You hugged her tightly, trying to brush off that feeling of bad.

Once your dad left for rehab in Colorado, you didn't have to beg and plead with Andi anymore to find out what was wrong at home. You knew what was wrong at home because you were also living it, except with your uncle.

The second you would get off the bus from school you'd go straight up to your room and only come out to eat dinner, hoping you'd avoid Uncle Jeff's wrath.

As things began to worsen at your house, Andi's house was near its all time low. Her mother, who you originally adored, you slowly began to despise.

"I don't want that girl in our house, anymore!" Andi's mother screamed while you were over the one night. "Why? Because you know she knows the truth as to what going on here?"

The sound of a slap radiated through the house to where you could hear it from upstairs. You didn't have to see it, to know what happened to Andi.

"There is no truth to your words! That poor girl actually has issues in her home. You lie! Your father has never done a thing to her. You polluted her mind with lies!"

"It's not lies, it's the truth!" Andi defended. ".."

The next morning when your mother came to pick you up Andi's mother stood at the door, arms crosses defiantly and Andi stood next to you. Anger ridden all over her face.

"..so you see, it's not your daughter that's the issue. It's mine," Her mother explained. "I see," Your mother said. You didn't have to be in her head to know she thought the woman talking to her was out of her mind.

"So if they want to continue seeing each other on the weekends, it'll have to be at your house since my child can't be trusted." Andi's mom wrapped an arm around her shoulder but Andi shoved it away.

"That's fine. I'll keep her every weekend. Y/n, say by to Andi. I've got to go home and make lunch."

"Okay." You turned and hugged Andi. "Bye," You hummed softly. "Bye, Y/n." As you grabbed your bag you could hear Andi's voice in your mind.

(You're going to be okay? Going home?)

(I don't really have a choice, do I? If you can make it, so can I.)

Her eyes widened as if she had something she left unsaid but she made no attempt to voice them. "Love you, Y/n/n."

"Love you too." You waved by to her and walked out to the car with her mom. "How's Jeff?" Your mom laughed and opened the driver door. "How do you think?"

It was hard growing up in the situation you did, but you and Andi managed. Your father, after months and months of rehab finally began to rekindle your once close bond.

You'd tell him everything but never about your Uncle. You knew if you did, he wouldn't hesitate to kill the man.

Around your freshman year of high school, the things with your uncle got worse and you tried to find other outlets besides venting to Andi.

You met what you thought was a 'nice boy' at your high school but after your first date the unthinkable happened and there you were, sitting in the bathroom at your house with your mom wiping the tears from your face.

"I can't believe it," You whispered in disbelief, looking down at the little white stick in your hand. "Y/n-" Your mom rubbed your back. "Two days. Two fucking days in your menstrual cycle is the window for a girl to get pregnant and he-"

"I know, I know." Your mom wiped your tears away. "Mama, what am I going to do?" You sobbed. "I don't know baby, but I'll think of something. Don't cry."

She wrapped her arms around you and you sobbed into her. "I'm scared.." You whimpered. "I know but it'll be okay. I'm going to talk to your father, see what he says to do. Because I don't want you have around Jeff longer than I have to."

She kissed the top of your head and patted your hair. "Andi coming over today?" You nodded and wiped your eyes. "Yeah, she's staying over the night."

"Good. How about I give you girls some money and you go see a movie while I figure out everything with your father?"

"Okay mama." You nodded. She grabbed the pregnancy test off the bathroom sink. "I'll put this in the dumpster that way Jeff doesn't see it." She stood up and squeezed your shoulder. "Hang in there honey, okay?"

"Okay." She kissed the top of your head. "Start getting ready for when she comes over." She shut the bathroom door, locking it behind her that way you could have some privacy.

You looked at yourself in the mirror for a few seconds and rubbed your face. "God, I'm a fucking mess." You stripped yourself of your clothes and got in the shower, trying to take your mind off stuff. When you got out of the shower you had a text notification on your phone from your dad.

'I talked to your mom. Don't cry. It's not your fault. What you went through is traumatic. Are you going to be okay to even have this baby?' You thought about it before answering. 'I mean, I think I should be. It's not like I have much of a choice.' You threw your bathroom on and walked over to your room to go get dressed.

You got changed into a cute pair of jeans and y/f/c blouse. You heard your phone vibrating on the dresser and turned to check it.

'Okay. I just wanted to check. Because you know if you weren't your mother and I wouldn't judge you, right?'

'I know.'

'Good. Love you, Y/n. I'll text you and let you know what's going on when you're out later.'

You swiped the message off the screen and flipped your hair other direction, lathering some moose into your hands and scrunching your hair. There was a knock on your door and you didn't look up. "Hey."

"Hey, Andi." You finished styling your hair and looked up at her, hoping she didn't notice the puffiness in your eyes from all your crying did earlier. "You look cute." She grinned and gave you a gently hug. "Thanks, so do you." You hug her back.

There another knock followed by the opening of the door. "Hi, Andi." Your mom smiled. "Hi, Y/m/n." She greeted. Your hand you her credit card. "Eat whatever you want, watch whatever you want, spend whatever you want. I don't care as long as you both don't get arrested."

You giggled. "Thanks mom." She kissed your cheek. "You're welcome, sweetie. You got the text about-"

"Yes." You nodded. "Good. You girls have fun and I'll see you when you get home, okay?" You smiled. "Okay mom. Love you."

"Love you too." Your mom shut the door behind her and Andi turned to look at you confused. "What was that about?" She asked. "It's nothing. Anyways, ready to go?"

"Yeah, lemme just plug my phone in." You raised a brow. "You're not going to bring it with you in case your mom calls?" Andi narrowed her eyes. "You think I really care what my mom has to say to me?"

"You're right. Dumb of me to say." Andi laughed and held your hand. "Come on, let's go." She dragged you down the stairs and the two of you walked to the movies together, hands intertwined together.

"This is nice," She hummed. "Just you and me. I know we see each other every week but I feel like it's hardly ever just you and I."

"Yeah.." You nodded, staring ahead ahead. "What's the matter?" Andi looked you up and down. "Nothing..just feeling a little off."

"Well everyone at school has had the sniffles and stuff lately so it's to be expected." You nodded absently. "Just need a good movie and thing of popcorn to lighten you up."

You laughed and shook your head. "Yeah..maybe I do." The two of you ended up seeing 'Gone with the Wind together.' You liked it but Andi couldn't be interested in the slightest. She laid her head on your shoulder and fell asleep about half way through.

Near the end credits you seen your notifications flicker blue on your phone out of the corner of your eyes and you swiped open.

'Talked to your mom. We're going to have you take a train to Colorado around Christmas and you're going to stay with me and I'll help you take care of the baby.'

'What about Uncle Jeff?'

'She's just going to tell him you refused to come home that way he doesn't suspect anything.' You sent a quick 'K,' and looked down at Andi. How were you even going to tell her? You shook her awake and Andi jumped. "What did I miss?"

"The entire second half," You laughed and Andi shrugged. "Eh, wasn't that interested anyways." She sat up. "Well, I went to Ulta Beauty the other day and I have facial and makeup stuff for you to try if you find that more interesting."

"Anything is more interesting then this." She wiped her eyes and you stood up holding your hand out to help her up. Andi took it without hesitation and took her back to your house.

One box of pizza and two face mask from Ulta Beauty later, you sat on the floor with Andi. Playing with blonde your hair you adored so much, talking about school stuff.

"..I just think it's stupid you know, shutting down the bathrooms for smoking of all things." She sighed frustratedly. "Yeah well, doesn't matter to me I guess. Won't be around that much longer anyways." You shrugged and went back to brushing her hair, not even realizing you slipped up at first.

"Wait, what?!" You mentally cursed yourself and Andi spun around to look at you. "What do you mean you're not going to be around much longer? Are you sick or something?" Her eyes went wide and she kneeled so that she was facing you.

(I'm pregnant, Andi.)

"The fuck did you just say to me?" She whispered.

(You heard me.)

(W-what? How? Why, I mean-)

(You know how.)

(Don't be a wiseass..Is it, you know..)

(Yeah.)

Andi's face softened and she wrapped her arms around your waist. "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry."

(Don't be. It's not your fault.)

(I know but he hurt you.)

(If it wasn't him. It would of been my Uncle.)

"I was going to wait to tell you but my mom's too afraid of how my uncle will react so she's sending me to Colorado to give live with my dad."

Andi's already fair face went pale. "B-but that's not fair! How am I supposed to be able to see you then?"

"Andi, I-"

"It's not fair." She held your hands tightly in her's.

"I know." You squeezed her hands gently. "I need you, Y/n. I really do." She buried her head in your lap. "You're the only thing that really keeps me grounded at this point."

"I know but you have to be strong for me. Once this baby comes, I will find you and we can be together. You, me, and the baby." You kissed the top of her head.

"I don't know if I'll make it that long without you." She started crying and held onto you tightly as you rocked her. "I love you! I love you more than a best friend. I love you like you're my everything."

"I-i know. I love you too..I'm sorry Andi. I really am but I have to protect this baby."

"You have nothing to be sorry about. It's not your fault that motherfucker is a pig and forced himself on you. Just like I can't blame this kid because it's not the kid's fault either. I just-i'm scared for me and you." She took one of her hands away from you and gently rest it on your stomach.

"What will we do if the baby is a boy?" You asked with slight fear in your tone. "I don't know..just teach him right, I guess. To respect women and how to treat them. I don't think it's a boy though. I feel like it's a girl."

You nodded and wrapped your arms around her. "You're not mad?"

"No. How can I be? It's not your fault. I'm just mad they're taking you from me." Tears welled up in your eyes and you held onto Andi tight.

"I'm scared," You whispered softly and she held you close. "I know but once you have this kid and everything is more normal, I'll find you and don't worry about all that for right now. Just focus on today."

"It's so hard though when I have so many unanswered questions I don't know what will happen in the future." Andi held your hand tightly in hers. "Well either way, you have me and your family for support."

"Thanks Andi." You wrapped your arms around her and hugged her tightly. "This doesn't change our friendship?"

"Bitch, you know it doesn't." She grinned and held onto you tightly. "When do you leave?"

"A little before Christmas," You answered. "I'll help you pack and get ready to go or if you need your space, I'll give that too."

"Thanks Andi." She rubbed your back. "Of course."

(Andi?)

(Yeah, Y/n?)

(I love you.)

"Love you too, Y/n. I love you too."

Over the next few weeks Andi you spent the most time with Andi you had in a while, either going out to eat or just hanging out. She became your unofficial girlfriend in a way and you loved her more than ever.

The day it came for you to leave she snuck through your bedroom window late at night in an attempt to see you. Your mom said she wanted to spend the day with just you around but you knew you had to at least give her a proper goodbye.

She ran her fingers through your hair as she took in your features for the last time. "I'm going to miss you," You whispered so quietly you didn't know if Andi even heard you. "I-i'm gonna miss you too." She wrapped her arms around you and you both cried into each other. "I'll find you. I promise, Y/n."

You hicupped and buried your head in her chest. "I know. I'm just afraid of how long it'll take. Because what if you're too late-"

"No."

"And then something bad happens to one of us with our luck and by the time I see you-"

"None of that is going to happen. Alright? Our lives are going to get better. It has to. Because I don't think it can get much worse than this." Andi lifted your face up and wiped away some of your tears.

"But it always gets worse, before it gets better." Andi said nothing and pressed a kiss to your cheek and held your hand tightly in her's as she pulled away from you. "You're a badass bitch. You take good care of that kid, okay?"

"O-okay," You rasped and squeezed her hand for reassurance. "Maybe try not to make the kid as fucked up as us? Though if we're not trying to make them a fuck up, it'd still be cute to dress them up in little leather jackets."

You cracked a small and giggled even though your heart still ached inside. "I'll try my best."

"Y/n?! Are you coming? We have to leave for the train station soon," Your mother called out from downstairs.

"I'm coming!" You turned your gaze back to Andi. "I guess this is really goodbye then."

"Yeah.." In an unexpected gesture of affection, Andi leaned forward and kissed you on the lips. It took you by shock at first but once you felt how relaxed she felt and how nice her lips felt on yours, you relaxed and melted into the kiss.

What felt like an eternity later, Andi pulled back and ran a hand through your hair. "I love you," She hummed softly and took in all your features one last time.

"I love you too." You picked up your bag and walked towards the top step. "Goodbye for now, Andi."

The look she gave you sent a pang of sadness through you like no other. "Bye Y/n." She snuck out through your window and you both went your seperate ways....

[anikaindon]

Happiness

Days before, I posted something about Sadness.

It's true.

It really affected me to the point I just wanted to die.

But something happened. It left me astounded. God really knows how to make us feel valued and worthy.

I am not worthy of His love yet He still made me live until today and the days after today and to the coming days He would allow me. He gave His Son, Jesus to save me and that is more than one happy thought for me to be happy. I AM SAVED.

I thought nothing but of disappointments with regards to my career, relationship, friends and my family. I thought that what if one day I'd just disappear, will it matter?

See? Fear and Doubt. Why did I ever think of those things? Lack of trust.

Then my former Cell Group leader in her own words said that "....the world will lose a rising inspirational strong woman" if I disappeared. I thought that I didn't matter then our Pastor's wife said... "Jesus loves you."

Three words.

Those three loving words.

That was all I ever needed to hear.

Again.

Maricris, my friend who is a woman of God, I can say, she's close to God in more ways that I know I am because I felt so away that time, chatted me out of nowhere if she can do something to help me.

I told her, "I don't know. I just feel so blah blah blah..." Yeah, I told her alot of things.

So with our conversation, I know what she's telling me are all truth, that I am not alone. If only she could use all the words she can to describe of how loved I am, I think she would just to comfort me. Well she said in three simple words: PUT GOD FIRST.

She assured me that if I will just put God first, everything will be in order. She told me that I should take a huge step out of the darkness.

I know all of that already, I just needed an extra push at that time, and I really thank God for Maricris' life.

So I have been saying a lot of things already, so why HAPINESS??

WHY did I entitled this blog happiness?

Because I found my true happiness, my joy, and that is in Jesus.

I started to read my bible again (in the app tho) and downloaded some reading plans, (I just finished the Heart of a Worshipper) and I learned a lot of things. Not just in the Bible App but in the past few days.

Here are they:

1. If Abraham took 25 years to wait for the promised child, we too can wait in His time. I am actually praying for my career and I know that God will provide what is it that I deserve. I just need to wait for Him expectantly and to trust His timing.

2. Let Go and let God. Pastor Patrick Mercado told us that not every open door is an opportunity, so I asked God that whatever He wants for me, it will all fall into place smoothly and according to His Word.

3. I am Loved. I just need to empty my cup and let God's love overflow in that because only He can fill up my cup with His greatness and grace and salvation.

4. I have a bright future (Jeremiah 29:11) and that God will always provide in times of testing.

5. I am made for something greater. And if He has used me to do wonderful things before, He can use me again today for better things ahead.

6. His promises are true and He will stay true to His promises because He is a promise-keeping God.

7. Trust God and always keep the faith.

I have been away for so long and as I told my friend, I am like crawling my way back to Jesus but then I found myself in His arms assisting me to stand up and told me, "I love you, and you are more than what other people are thinking about you, why? Because you are a Daughter of a King and He loves you more than you can ever imagine. So stand up and rejoice in the name of the Lord, again I say, rejoice."

Happiness is not a choice, it's a way of life. Find your real source of joy in Jesus. He won't disappoint.

PS, if you are asking about my worries? I already lifted them up to Jesus. 😉

PPS, I am not perfect, so is everyone else, but just the thought of Jesus in everything you'll do will make your every decisions different. Trust me.

God bless!