#[[ Have this pain of a certified borderline girlie moment ]]

[cosmicdreamt]

[ orlain - madman's executioner verse ] 28. a kiss in parting

"I'm sorry, luv... don't take it personally. I truly did care."

Pick a Kiss Any Kiss ( Accepting ) || @stellarhistoria feat. Orlain

"....you're leaving me?"

Her voice is so small, a pained whisper in the wind. How? How did he expect her to believe those words? He cared? Bullshit. If he did this wouldn't be happening right now.

It's the worst case scenario she feared the most.

She was being left behind. Again. Abandoned. Again. Will she be forgotten, too? Will she never end up seeing him again because she wasn't worth enough to stick around? Did she not do enough for him?

Would she ever be enough for anything? For anyone?

There's a familiar ache that swells in her chest. Anger. Disappointment. Despair. The rawness of her throat as the searing hot tears begin to form in her eyes.

Please don't leave. Don't go. Don't leave me here. I'll miss you. What will I do without you? How am I supposed to just let you go like this?

The kiss didn't make her feel any better. She wanted to cling to him, to find some way, any way, to get him to stay. Was it her desperation or her heart that leaned into him in that moment? Maybe it was both. But it didn't really matter, did it? If anything the pain doubled - if only because she couldn't find it within her to hate him. As much as muscle memory wanted to take over - to scream, to point fingers, to say things she didn't truly mean...she cared about him far too much.

His decision was already made. You can't push away someone that's already gone.