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despairforme · 9 months ago

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Ive noticed something about canon nnoitra, so hes the only hollow with a hole in his head, right? Ive suspected that this symbolized a sort of mental illness when he was human

But then i noticed in his resurrection, he can summon spare scythes from inside his wrists...

❝ Nah, havin' yer hollow hole go through yer head ain't uncommon. ❞ He wasn't the only one. There were PLENTY of others. Like Loly or Lilynette. Or Shawlong. He didn't know what the hole in his head symbolized. He didn't like the thought of it having something to do with a "mental illness", but of course --- He did think it had something to do with the eternal amount of negative thoughts he had. The reason for him becoming a Hollow had to be because of DESPAIR. Why else would that be his aspect of death? The source of his powers? And the worst type of despair was the kind your mind could bring forth. Because there was no escape from that. Nothing you could do to battle it. So yeah - maybe his hollow hole had something to do with that. He wondered if that meant that all the other Hollow with holes through their heads had similar struggles to him. Nah. No way.

❝ 'N Where ELSE would I pull 'em from? 'S 'da most convenient joint on my exo-skeleton. ❞ The outer skeleton that Nnoitra received in his Resurrection, giving him that insect motif that his Zanpakuto carried. He didn't understand what summoning scythes from his wrists had to do with anything.

Unless - maybe - they thought it had something to do with suicide. Nnoitra had tried to kill himself in the past, thanks to Nelliel. But he'd never - Ever - thought about doing it like that. To slit his wrists like a coward and bleed out. He was not a coward. He was going to die standing on his own two feet. In battle. Drawing his final breath and knowing he'd been strong to the very end. If he killed himself like a coward, that would ruin everything.

He didn't often think about how he'd died as a human. It was so long ago - 1000 years, give or take - and his human life was as alien to him as anything. He sometimes didn't feel like he'd ever even been human. Since it was so distant, it didn't much matter to him how he'd died. He knew there hadn't been a Shinigami there to lead him to Soul Society. And that SOMETHING about his death had made his soul turn hollow. Maybe he'd died from suicide. It wasn't impossible.

#[ thank you for the ask anon! ]#[ there are so many theories about what the location of a hollow hole represents 8) ]#[ i mean the hole itself is supposed to represent the “missing heart” of a hollow ]#[ - not the actual physical heart but yeah - ]#[ BUT YEAH nnoitra definitely has depression ]#[ and he's always had it ]#[ so probably as a human as well ]#[ but for me it's too modern for him to slit his wrists ]#[ don't know how much history there is about suicide way back in the days ]#[ but i just don't imagine a brave man like nnoitra killing himself like that ]#[ so for me that's a pass ]#[ i think if him summoning weapons from his wrists means anything ]#[ it's more that he draws strength from despair - ]#[ so everyone ELSE'S suicides give him power ]#[ when a human dies of despair that is given as power to nnoitra - since his aspect of death is despair ]#[ it could also symbolize him battling his deathwish ]#[ HMM IDK but i just don't see him ending his life like that ]#[ but yeah thank you for sending!! it was interesting! ]#despair for me. ╱ in character.#talking shit. ╱ answers.#the praying mantis. ╱ canon verse.#suicide mention //

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