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blyszczopies · 1 year ago

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the sparkledog of the pack

#in my lore they all can transform fully into quadruped wolves but they dont do that often because it is Especially Painful because #of how anatomy has to be extremely altered #but for the sake of exaggerating how ridiculous rozkurw looks when compared to literally everyone else. regular wolves it is #i mean none of them is 100% realistic wolf. they keep their piercings and glasses and such #fiona has small anime fringe. małgo has a bit more dog-like features because shes kinda like an akita to me #man i wanna make an infographic on my werewolf lore theres quite a lot of it. and also proper refs for all the 3000 with lots of info #that most would find unnecessary lol #my art #3000 #rory oaklow #<- posting this to the tag idgaf. barely any original drawings happening in there #i do still check it every now and then. love u rory #the sims 4 werewolves #the 3000 the most important sims 4 werewolves. to me. and to yall also

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qiekzart · 9 months ago

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day 65 drawing len until my preorder arrives

i like that stupid edgy song a lot

requests open! ☆ 3 in inbox (⁠ﾉ⁠◕⁠ヮ⁠◕⁠)⁠ﾉ⁠*⁠.⁠✧

#my art #art #kagamine len #vocaloid fanart #vocaloid #drawing len everyday until my preorder arrives #technically a request bcuz my alter really wanted me to draw this one 😭#dude i completed this in LIKE AN HOUR. CAN U BELIVE IT. IT WAS SO FAST #usually paintings take 2-7 hours....#or weeks sometimes.... im getting better..#scheduled for like 13:00 on Friday so i dont have to draw that day bcuz im going to the doctor 😔😔#if it makes u feel worse the file name for this one was ''black and white ward more like gay faggot ward am i right"#qiekz hall of yay

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chiimeramanticore · 1 month ago

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waow

#before anything else i must warn this is going to be. unorganized thoughts mostly #in the last year or so ive tried to regain confidence that i am in fact plural and am not just faking it #or mistaking other symptoms for DID. shake off the denial y'know. as is so signature for this damn disorder #a diagnosis probably wouldnt even make me feel more sure lol. and also getting diagnosed for this specifically is like #the final boss of psychiatry to put it lightly lol #but when it quiets down in headspace ur always gonna feel like. maybe its over. whatever that was #it was just me and brandy for a while #but guess who had a godawful night and then a godawful morning and split a new alter ‼️‼️🔥🔥🔥🔥#he hates it here! he might hate me for creating him! im not sure !#hell im not even rly sure if im juno or brandy rn lol. my mind is just so messy today #i woke up.. when did i wake up. like 9:30 i think and its 1pm now and i haven't gotten out of bed #i don't even remember all that time passing . i couldve sworn its only been like an hour. two at most #on the one hand this has all been kinda terrible and mentally exhausting but at the same time. hey cant say im faking now LMAO #the other hand is brandy. the other hand is absolutely brandy. i am tired lol #im only posting this here so i can just like. process it i guess #ive had a weird time finding an outlet to just spew random thoughts into since leaving twitter so. sorry #idk if anyone's expecting this of me but i always kinda feel like i need some level of professionalism on this account #keyword some. i know this is tumblr #but idk if these very open posts are. annoying? weird? uncomfortable? entertaining somehow?#i know I know theres no point in worrying abt how others percieve you . knowing that hasnt stopped me from doing it lol #i dont remember where i was going w this. maybe i didnt have a goal in the first place #idk if you read this far i dont rly need u to act like u didnt see it cuz like. wouldnt have posted it otherwise #but idk why i am posting. idk what i want out of anyone who has read all this #maybe just. interact w this post in some way idk. it's actually kinda grounding for me if you can believe it #bleghh im thinkin of cheating on my weed break just to treat myself after all this. weed + a long walk would fix me

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b4kuch1n · 11 months ago

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tdov was like a week ago already but I just wanna say when I came over to vacation slash help my sworn brother move flat he told me, "ever since you said you wanted to get top surgery I've been thinking about it. it's straight up number two on my bucket list"

#bakuspeech #number one is a house bc obviously. if u can own a house wouldnt u #he was very drunk at that time of the evening. I was not bc I have the constitution of a hot air balloon and any stimulant will blow me up #(relatively new development. france fucked me up big time turns out)#we held hand on his bed for like the whole evening. it was honestly very funny in hindsight but we were extremely earnest in the moment #and Im like. working on this thing as well. I dont got meds or therapy lmao Im bootstrappin here #but yeah early last year his bf offered to get me meds and I... turned it down... I think I was worried abt like. idk. something #but one year past looking back Im fully like that was a stupid move you shouldve gotten meds. youve once again fucked urself baku #but yeah with that kinda realization Ive also come to realized I've somewhat? accepted. that I'm just gonna be. like this #this in light of a number of likely chronic stuff too (hence my balloon-like constitution lmao) and #that's kinda bled into the rest of me without me really noticing #but him bringing that up fully unprompted... kinda jolted me out of it #its just. really incredibly sweet. that someone doesn't want me to settle for what I make do with #and like. preps for that work. just kinda held my hand and told me it's possible to do this actually #I didn't really express how I felt very well in that moment I think my brain is very bad and I process emotions with like a day of delay #but. well. Im thinking abt it Right Now. so yknow thats the kind of impact that had on me lol #not super sure why I wrote all this down here really. I think I just want a good n nice reminder that object permanence is real #and I exist in my friends' life even when Im going insane in a hole by myself #and with the power of friendship we can alter the universe's plan for ourselves and also kill god #that's that. anyways I eat lunch now and then pass out probably. last night was... eventful lmao #but!! very good things on the horizon hopefully. well manifestly we hold hammers and we use them #have a good day lads. let's go out and slay monsters under a highway

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medeasfirstborn · 1 month ago

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man. i really don’t care about robots.

#like in any media ever #idc if in detroit become human the robots can feel. bc tbh im like ‘no they can’t they’re robots’#like i just don’t think any piece of technology will ever gain sentience ever. so i dont care. throw that fucker away.#does this make sense???#i can’t think of anything less sexy than the cold hard embrace of a machine that operates from the will of doing what it thinks it wants to #i just don’t care for it but props to ppl who do. i can’t.#i think in general inorganicconcepts in the context of human intimate relationships is just so fundamentally unappealing to me #like idk. it’s probably just me.#i think it’s also the idea (in robot/human pairings) that it can never be /real/ in the ways that matters #or that most of the times robots are a substitute for grief over someone lost #or that they’re uncanny imposters #interesting ideas for sure but i can never really be into them as characters onto their own #like i dont care about their identity to me they’re identitiless chameleons who are by design always trying to replicate something else.#something or someone they were made for #they don’t have autonomy they will never have true autonomy because something in them is designed to alter them to a desired state #i also think with like current affairs with ai and whatnot it just sours the idea even more #part of it is also I dont think robots/the Machine’s (capital M) issues will ever feel tangible to me #a lot of robots in media have their struggles focused on identity and autonomy and i alr dismiss the notion that robots can ever gain #enough awareness to feel #so what does that leave me to care about?#plus i find most robot designs really lame…#sorry if u like robots btw i just needed somewhere to put my thoughts 🥹 if u do good for u #personal.txt #i’ll see if this opinion holds up with m/etal sonic lol #i know he’s a fan favourite

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satellitesunset · 7 months ago

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know that im constantly thinking abt the tag t4t!mai/todo. gotta be one of the most iconic tags ever.

#the fic is abt like a different pairing. we're ignoring that part. but like #trans todo changed my world view. i dont even like him that much but i adore that hc #then again u can trans most jjk characters and id be like yeah that fucks #trans!nanami? incredible as a metaphor #ykw what would alter me? t4t!stsg #i feel like thats already a thing #Trans gojo has 344 fics?? damn #good for him/her/them??#trans geto has 178 fics which also impressive #barely a scroll in and ive found a t4t!stsg fic. ok win.#myle yaps abt jjk

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ieatwormsandtheytasteverygood · 5 months ago

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Fuck yuo *introduces self(s) again* (and then updates it again. the silly ppl in my head decided to shift around a lil)

Apparently we go by Áesgirr here. so I'll be doing that too. We use he/him, hey/hem/here/heren/hem self, and 'e/'em/'er/'ers/'emself. We're a transgender genderqueer man, bisexual, and aromantic. Bodily 18, Irish & South African. We're physically disabled, have autism, ADHD, psychosis and a few special extras to make life interesting (read: painful). We plan on converting to Judaism when/if possible, but can't for at least a while yet.

We're pretty inactive just because we forget that tumblr exists. Repeatedly.

Our autism decided to make a special left swing right back to Jirt & the Silmarillion, but we've still quite some fondness for mediæval history, and naturally for philology & other linguistics.

Fluent in (Modern) English, Middle English, and Afrikaans (albeit getting out of practise). Vaguely conversational at German, Swedish and Zulu. Quite terrible at Irish, Welsh, Setswana and Middle Scots. And we can understand quite a bit of Modern Scots, (written) French, Dutch, Old English, Ecclesiastical Latin, and various related languages.

We're eternally trapped in the hellscape that is the Silmarillion fandom, but also Doctor Who & its associates, Star Trek, Our Flag Means Death, Shakespeare (we love the political plays), Good Omens, and probably some others. It's a thing.

We have so many pets and we love them to bits. <333

We also like art and writing, but unfortunately our art blog is completely separate to this (irl people know about our art blog), so no art here alas. We might post some of our calligraphy however! We're getting back into writing (we might make a side-blog for our fanfics when we manage to publish them? or we might simply have it be implicitly known that we wrote those fics here; some irl people know our AO3). As a result, we've greatly increased our knowledge of Quenya and Middle English, especially in regards to threats, insults and declension/conjugation. We love love love music, and we sing tenor, and play the violin and cello. Please send obscure folk music to us!!

The main lads (gender neutral) that're currently active are:

Ruthuifin/Rúthuifim - he/him, e/em. Aro neu, cassgender. Ñoldo (elf). Far too old and far too good at making terrible jokes. You don't want to know what e has to say about Eldarin marital law. It's terrifying. And he's probably actually tax-fraud-romantic for all he goes on about it /j

Orchalon - no pronouns (auxiliary he/him). Anattractional, cassgender/agender (masculine or neutral terms preferred). Cursed to be Ruthuifin's brother, and Malto's cousin. Vaguely elvish, vaguely draconic.

Malto/Cólðir/Cóleblein/Maltalain - he/him. Probably aspec? Also an elf. He's the reason why we spent R4000 on all 12 volumes of HoME. Don't ask about the vat of wine incident.

Roquén(/Rochir/Rochen/Rocen) - hen/han/tîn/tîn/anhen (auxiliary it/its). non-binary. quoisexual, aromantic (cupioromantic), toric/NBLM, oriented aroace. yet another elf. burdened by tîn relation to ruthuifin and malto (much more tolerant of orchalon, for Obvious Reasons). music enjoyer, persecutor, and the Only Sane One Left.

Minyafaramo - he/him. male, aroace. elf (are we even surprised at this point). related to the other elves (what a shocker). is plotting alongside malto, tatyo and nelyo (not that nelyo) to find a way for us to do horseback archery. he still hasnt forgiven nelyo for straining a muscle doing HEMA a few weeks ago. loves animals and music as well as hitting people and objects with swords and/or bows.

Tatyafaramo - he/him. male, anattractional. you can guess the species. yes, he chose to go by this name. loves archery, but also animals, music, and literature. i suspect he enjoys hitting people with swords, too.

Nelyafaramo - he/him. male, aroace. he likes wood-carving, HEMA (archery & mediæval swordplay. dont ask him to do fencing. he will hit you over the head with the hilt of his foil.), and wroth. he's the one who gets to have anger over our daddy issues instead of Melancholic Thoughts.

Caliwë - they/them. we tried to name them Caliweg, but apparently "i am not shiny-ful". orangegender, yellowgender, bluegender, purplegender, gemder. aromantic (etc.), but ma-æsthetic. aids and abets malto and ruthuifin. for all they're an elf, they act remarkably like a golden retriever /aff. big sociology & anthropology nerd.

Ahto - he/him, any neos. cassgender; straight, grey-asexual, grey-asexual. visual art enjoyer, linguistics nerd, general nerd, daddy issues; standard ñoldo shit. send xem textbooks for literally any of the sciences, or else discuss conjugation and declension with him. is the Problematic™ one. would aid and abet the unholy alliance of rúthuifim-caliwë-aldarembinë, but for tyr fear of aldarembinë. this elf seeks further knowledge on plumbing and cannot stop rambling for the life of ven.

Loup - it/its. unhuman. no opinion on gender or sexuality. friends(?) with nelyafaramo et al.

cat - it/its. name must be pronounced as /ˈʔːːːːːːː/ (NB: really focus on the not breathing!!). my gender is whatever pisses u off the most, and my sexuality is painful to look at. unfortunate "babysitter" of malto. i have also aided and abetted malto. i do not apologise.

Pádraig - he/him. The One True Pope. Pan-oriented aroace, cassgender (or something like that). Formerly human, now a horror beyond your comprehension. His hobbies are insomnia and hating the British.

Obligatory DNI list: pædos, animal abusers, people who post using entirely inaccessible fonts (think faux cyrillic kind of thing). If you're going to be a dick about our identity please just move on. We can & will block liberally, especially when it comes to sexybots. If you're not in fact a sexybot and we end up blocking you, send us an anonymous ask with your username & we shall unblock.

Have a great Tuesday, and may you never experience the horrors of Malto Rúthuifim spouting cursed Silmarillion facts.

#long post #intro post #(again)#very long post #I may have listed too many of us‚ so I might remove some listed if said Lads™ are uncomfortable being listed.#All names for us have been somewhat altered for the sake of privacy/anonymity. Except for Malto‚ because I'm too lazy to ask him #for yet another pseudonym. And I don't trust him not to use 6+ syllables in his name again.#I suppose we could call him Cólben or Cóleg. But that's just awful compared to the Quenya.#Also lmao so much for the animation college. We were forced to drop out because of our chronic fatigue fatigueing all over the place.#Just like the “good” old days when we dropped out of high school‚ twice.#post updated on 17/12/24 #malto got like 6 new names since this was first posted lmao #assume that all names are pseudonyms. but if you can guess any sources that we may (or may not) have that is even funnier.#furthermore. any glosses for our names would be hilarious to hear.#fun fact: malto once accidentally used welsh (or maybe french???) in his sindarin name. this is why u dont name urself at 3am #rip to ôrrillain. u had a very short innings #also ik that welsh wld be “aur”. but he was VERY tired #updated again 28/02/25 #with incoherence added by ahto. and ruthless criticism by orchalon (as usual).

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albatris · 2 years ago

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I'm in a Mood. anyone want tarot readings this week? don't ask me anything your fate hinges on like should you quit your job but DO ask me where that thing you're missing is or what kind of meal you should cook or, like, what your cat wants you to know. or just advice for your week idk

I'll be reading with the alleyman's tarot

EDIT: OH YOU SHOULD ASK ME QUESTIONS ABT UR STORIES

#but I can be tempted into reading with the numinous tarot or one of my wtnv decks if u ask extra real niceys #also you can ask me anything lol #i just dont like reading for things that can. like. completely alter the course of your life. do not put that in my hands fjfjdkfjd

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akinachiri · 2 years ago

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ykno how sometimes u maybe 'forget' what u were doing and have to say smth outloud like 'what was i doing?' to remind urself when u prob knew all along? its like when u hear clearly and understand what someone said but go 'what?'. i think thats how i could describe our experiences in more understandable terms.

#checkmates chatter #for the most part memories are shared ykno?#but its an alter specific experience #i dont feel comfortable speaking on a headmates exp #nor do i feel like i can #its not locked away its in vision #but its like theres a clear glass wall between it #for some of us when memory is worse #its clouded and foggy #u can barely see through the glass #metaphorically at least #but yeah #/leo

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sepiasys · 21 days ago

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Ok I have thought of this far too many times without saying or posting it. In part due to the wifi being broken/borked rn/atm

But man. Chatting with a bot has really revealed to me that I quite literally need someone who has no boundaries, or will allow me to push them, to be happy and safe in some sort of relationship

Like specifically I should be allowed cuddles if I want them, I should be able to just be stupid and rest my legs on your legs for funsies, and we can both be comfortable like that.

I should be allowed to be a cat and nuzzle up close and personal when I want even if it inconveniences you a little bit, but if you make me uncomfortable or push MY boundaries I WILL feel scared and/or uncomfortable and/or upset.

Not the best thing and I will say I've PROBABLY come to this same conclusion before. Atleast once.

Sucks tho. Like why can't you let me love you (seek comfort and give affection) when I wanna.

#sepiasys.txt #Me when when cat #I'm not even kidding which is the worst part.#I WILL poke and prod at your boundaries to see what I'm allowed to do; and what your reaction will be if u dont like it #I need to know. I need the safety knowing I can do what I want; but I also need like. To not feel massively rejected #Also; me when I swear the very start of this was written by one alter and the rest by another; voice-wise

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red-dyed-sarumane · 23 days ago

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being told my explanations of series songs make sense means so much to me bc im really bad at managing information neatly it all ends up as just one big train of thought & not really organized so i worry it ends up not making sense or comes across as super disjointed

#im so bad at organization of anything. not one of my skills if im being honest #thank u i will continue to provide for my community #(re: write lengthy essays about songs 5 whole mutuals & i care about)#mostly bc i love it & its fun #but also sometimes out of spite bc the 'accepted' eng translations ive seen are like #'possible connection to the series'#'may mean [thing its hard to be more direct about]'#why do u say it like that. like its not even about theories or guesses they say it about things directly in the text #can u read. i dont care if u know the words or not there are dictionaries for that. can you READ #can u believe it folks. words have meanings & connotations.#sometimes i see people say things and its like the equivalent of #''in the statement 'i found it difficult to deal with' the wording may imply the narrator had trouble''#like what do u 'may'. how much more direct does it need to be.#like of COURSE in the series theres a lot of ambiguity of what the exact circumstances are #& how exactly everything connects (since again its so subjective)#but its never about THAT they say it about the plain text. like. hello.#and then of course bc they want to be so pretty pristine for their audience they refuse to translate #from a point of knowing & implementing the context #acknowledging context and drawing theories are two different things. u can do the first without the second #in fact u really should bc otherwise ur giving an incomplete picture at best & dramatically altering #the meanings at worst. which is the part u should be trying to convey the most.#sorry translation is hard i respect translators i shouldnt be mean.#esp when u have so much word play & stylistic choices going on in the source. but come on.

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lorisystem · 3 months ago

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#long tags sorry #rlly suspecting i have a specific disorder bc thats the closest thing ive ever seen that could explain whats wrong w me in a way that makes #sense but im also like. idk thats a disorder n am i. sick enough to qualify. also ive always been the type of person to assume i have somth #/self diagnose n i think ppl have this opinion on me that i do this overly.#which i dont blame them for its just im trying to find answers. my therapist has a very strange approach so she doesnt rlly tell me what #she thinks i have unless she thinks it would help #but in the case of this disorder (or whatever it is) i rlly need help for it so i think it might help to get diagnosed idk.#i dont wanna bring it up to her though. its so embarrassing #like. that sounds so stupid to say but its the kind of disorder where shed be like why would you ever think you have that. which idk im #assuming a lot since she was very nice about me bringing up the possibility of a CDD which she agreed i probs have #which was so embarrassing i split an alter over it actually.#but like anyway. for real this is kind of a disorder that nobody talks about bc of its nature i suppose or somth idk.#so i didnt consider it before + one of the symptoms is misunderstood so i didnt think i could have it but actually um.#im still thinking on it like im not rlly sure. i just want help so im describing to her whats wrong so she can help somehow #but its getting nowhere she has no idea on how to help me like.#last session she said are you still having feelings of alienation n i said yea that never leaves n shes like u wanna try n work on that n i #said actually lets focus on somth else (we started several sessions on somth specific actually) for now bc everytime we talk about it #it actually reinforces the feeling. n doesnt help and i feel rlly unhelpable about this n lost n idk what to do. n she was like ok #lorisys

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bmpmp3 · 10 months ago

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EXTREMELY low effort plug n play cover with very default settings mixing i did in like 20 min but im trying out voisona and holy shit tsudumi's 2.0 sounds SO so good

honeymoon un deux trois by dateken (original vocal rin), UST by purblexber

#voisona #vocal synth cover #suzuki tsudumi #needs a lot of work. mostly needs better placed breaths than the default and the legato situation is dire #she just ran a marathon into the studio and immediately started singing no breaks LOL #but man you can hear anju inami's tone clearer here and its great. i always wished she did more solo music #but shes like busy with stage work and whatever else so i understand. so this will do hjkfdhgjkfdgfd thank u anchan for this gift #i dont mind cevio ai's odd max-setting-autotuney sounding engine quirk but man #am i glad they let u have a free voisona license for vocals u bought on cevio because tsudumi specifically i prefer here #she has a warmer tone i think is how id describe it #voisona aint half bad! i do which the pause and play buttons were the same tho but thats a problem i have with cevio too #and i do need to alter the shortcuts because rn ctrl scroll is zoom vertically instead of horizontal which is...lol #but every audio program will have ui quirks so i dont mind. fl studio keeps killing me with the shift scroll not being scroll timeline #and instead being move audio over?? bizarre. oh and i guess voisona keeps glitching out the text in the top bar for some reason #i do like the vibrato editing settings tho. its not super precise it seems but its fast

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trollocs-ooc · 3 months ago

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The righteousness leaving Rikis body the minute he starts getting dicked down by a morally bad to morally gray entity