#[ because modern vivian and older modern vivian are honestly kinda different ]

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Does Vivian have any triggers?

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Provided we're talking about her vanilla modern verse, I wouldn't say she has any triggers, per say, but I do think Vivian has seen enough cursed shit on rule63 to be uncomfortable by a lot of things. The main things that would make her grimace, though, is definitely eye/dental gore and she tends to avoid true crime stories if only because she's sensitive to injustice, to the point where she would end up more so angry than entertained.

But if we're talking specifically about her private verse, where the effects of her androphobia still linger, I do headcanon Vivian can no longer mentally handle being hugged by someone she is romantically interested in, especially if they happen to be masc-aligned due to Hayate pretty much traumatizing her. Like, this girl would automatically tear up and tremble in their arms without really knowing why.

When it comes to her older verse, though, Vivian has now grown so disillusioned by love thanks to her ex-girlfriend, being confessed to or even realizing someone catches feelings for her would immediately activate her panic and fear, regardless if the feeling happens to be mutual because she does not want to be in a relationship anymore. Honestly, she's more so content, onesidedly loving someone, due to the 'Oh, what if they end up hitting me too?' rationale and reasons I ended up delving more into here.

Since Esmé used to push her down them, she also is uncomfortable descending stairs and would beg someone to walk behind her or try to take an alternative route. Considering she also associates pastel goths with her, I also don't imagine she'll have the best first impression of someone who dresses like Esmé and would actively try to avoid them.

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{ have there been other meaningful people of the same or similar identities in your muse’s life that they’ve looked for support or understanding from? how did that go, and was the impact positive or negative in the end? }

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11. have there been other meaningful people of the same or similar identities in your muse’s life that they’ve looked for support or understanding from? how did that go, and was the impact positive or negative in the end?

Honestly enough, outside her modern verse or verses where she’s not friends with @illdivine‘s Judith, Vivian wouldn’t ever know someone is LGBT aside from her older sister, let alone be the first one to bring it up in a conversation all willy nilly. Then again, it’s different, provided she feels comfortable enough around a person to ask them which way they swing, like the way she does towards Therion who’s the only one she has questioned thus far. Of course, this isn’t because she’s scared but more so because she doesn’t find it too important to divulge, unless someone asks, and oftentimes, they don’t, so she just lets others assume she’s either straight or 2D-sexual. That doesn’t stop her from being curious, though, when it comes to people whose sexuality is ambiguous.

Either way, Vivian has never really encountered someone who is Demiromantic Pansexual, but Judith is possibly the closest thing to that, considering she’s Aromantic Bisexual, meaning they do fall under some kind of ace spectrum. Whatever the case, Judith is the only one she had explained her sexuality that in depth to, but it was something along the lines of her saying she was ‘mostly straight yet no longer capable of catching feelings for anyone’ unless their ‘bond reaches level 80’.

Additionally enough, Vivian did mention she once developed a crush on a female and a nonbinary person during her senior year of highschool, causing her to conclude gender doesn’t really matter as long as they’re hot; at the same time, though, she only settles for a proper identity once Judith suggests she might either be bisexual or pansexual with a male lean. In other words, her best friend is kinda responsible of giving her a better understanding when it came to her sexuality and it was a positive experience, due to how Judith doesn’t shame her for feeling the way she does.

Besides her, though, Vivian doesn’t have anyone she opened up to about her sexual identity. While yes, there’s her sister, she’s also a sex repulsed asexual; therefore, she could never relate to her, especially since Crystal never liked talking about anything perverse in the first place. Coupled with how sex has always been such a taboo topic for them in the household, Vivian grew up having a limited support group or lack thereof when it came to being LGBT.

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