#@ppl inviting me to join their boards of management.

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Every organisation (however revolutionary its rhetoric and however well intentioned its goals) which models itself structurally on the very system it seeks to overthrow becomes assimilated and subverted by bourgeois relations. It's seeming effectiveness becomes the source of its greatest failure.

Murray Bookchin “Anarchy and Organisation: A Letter to the Left” (1969)

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What.A.Friday + Jodoh Talk in the end

Hola. This is exactly 23:51 pm, I’m extremely exhausted yet I feel like I want to write so here I am: writing.

And now I’m thinking why DID I get sooo exhausted? Let me recount today’s event:

1. Went early this morning to sign my college register. Met my Exeter rector Prof. Rick Trainor. Check him out, he’s a really cool man, from the leadership side, he’s taken sooo many roles.

2. Went straight ahead to the office. Didn’t get any work done but got to check out some research proposals of some people I’m going to facilitate tomorrow. (Got this invitation to facilitate and give feedback of some PhD-to-be from @indonesiamengglobal – check them out as well, a really cool stuff going on there esp if you’re planning to take master/phd abroad sometime in the future)

3. Read a REALLY sweet gratitude letter from Nabilah (sampai menangis bacanya) and wrote an email response to her as well

4. Did a short briefing with @indonesiamengglobal team

5. Got hungry and got myself a burrito in Christmas fair in Broad st sambil call sama Abi.

6. Had a VERY interesting and fun talk with Abi on the phone. I think we talked for 2 hours(?) because I left the office at 2pm and got back at 4pm

7. Joined quiz at happy hour in the dept

8. Bailed out of happy hour and went to board game café to play board game until 9pm

9. Went straight home after and I didn’t know what I did from 10-12 pm but here we are

Wow kalau dihitung-hitung I really did interact with more than 20 ppl today (in person and virtually) so probably that’s why I got VERY tired (I am an introvert indeed).

Checked my schedule for tomorrow and apparently it will be a very busy day as well: morning session with @indonesiamengglobal from 7-9.30, kelas with DD from 9.30-11, then kelas with SMA16 from 12-14. After 14 sebetulnya agak kosong, but probably I will use that time to watch some tvshow/youtube and then work (mengingat dari Senin belum bekerja banyak and will have to send Tamsin and Joost a revision by Tuesday).

Oh and in between those things I did today, I also somehow managed to book a room for ISME meeting at next Tuesday at Exeter and email SDM FMIPA UI on my published paper on the journal? If any of you interested in my research and what I’m doing: https://geosainsterapan.id/index.php/id/article/view/64/34 Now that I think about it, I was not actually THAT unproductive. I managed to do quite many things today, it’s just that all of them not related to the work I’m supposed to do :__) Terus random tapi tadi pas call sama Abi juga managed to papasan dengan Mas Yusuf dan Mas Felix…

At the board game café today I also got to meet Leon, Mas Indra, Diny, Tom, and Brigita. We played 2 games: Catan and this bee thingy (apparently it’s quite hard to find an easy board game with 6 players). It was fun. I had a lot of fun.

Udah sih. Apa lagi ya. I did talk A LOT with Abi. We just mostly talked about how our life’s been tapi the highlight would be “how lonely we are right now – especially since apparently everyone around us is getting married and how I used to always have a boyfriend/fling/someone I’m close with almost all the time from high school to the end of my undergrad and after my master I’ve just always been solo, so it’s a bit weird?” (well I know the exact answer to this one ofc: my trauma with the last relationship made it really hard for me to lower the wall down, but I’m still denial with this so let’s pretend it’s just weird) and “how I want to raise my kid later, is it in Indonesia, with this very high competition where everything is measured on number and rank (I literally said to Abi “kita tuh di-adu domba tau gaksih at school?! I mean not everyone should be able to do math or physics? What if later anak gw pengennya do sport/music?? Pas dipikir-pikir lagi sakit tau gaksi sistem pendidikan di Indo”), or in the UK where you don’t have to put number/score in everything – setting aside the slim possibility of me getting married and having kids”. The problem with raising a child in the UK of course is on the religion side. It definitely would be very difficult to explain to your kid why they shouldn’t have premarital sex while most of their friends do it. Imagine the peer pressure. Or even to just explain simple thing as drinking alcohol to them. Di Indo mah anak lu dimasukin TPA/pengajian juga beres kan, u don’t have to ngajarin Iqro sendiri ke mereka.

Balik lagi ke jodoh. Tbh, it has never really been a concern for me. I mean it would definitely be great if I have someone to talk to everytime I come home from work. But until now, actually twitter and tumblr do that work really well for me! So, thank you again, social media. Palingan apa ya… lebih ngerasa ke… kurang rich aja sih hidup. Not that I want any more “spice” in my life. I’ve had ENOUGH, thanks. But I believe two brains are better than one? And more brains are definitely better than two. Sometimes, I just need to get more perspective on things and to brainstorm or to talk about a very receh meme on twitter. Well, I do that with Iqbal and Mita already, but it’s different. I don’t know. Pas dipikir-pikir lagi kalau ditanya what I’m looking for in a relationship or in a man, ternyata w gatau jawabannya apa. Mungkin itu yang bikin Allah juga bingung mau ngasi w siapa jodohnya karena gajelas banget ni anak satu, apa maunya aja dia gatau. But anyway, yang penting I will just keep asking, toh ujung-ujungnya ya cuma Allah yang tahu what’s best for hamba-Nya, jadi minta doanya aja ya wankawan. Semoga dipertemukan dengan yang baik hati dan pintar, suka membaca, jago ngerap dan nulis lirik lagu + love exercising (lah Kim Namjoon dong ini mah).

Yaudah makin malem kayanya makin ngelantur ini tulisan. I close the writing here, harus cepat tidur karena besok pagi bangun pagi. So byeeee! Have a great weekend everyone!!!

Best,

Noni 0:40 20/11/2021