#?????????? maybe pero igual

[dickggansey]

se quemó la casa de mi abuela el otro día (están todos bien) y la esposa de mi tio está organizando un sorteo solidario y qsy y en el folleto le mandó el apellido de ella. onda. "a beneficio de la familia [el apellido de soltera de la esposa de mi tio]". no el apellido de mi tio (el mismo que el mio), ni siquiera el apellido de soltera de mi abuela. onda. no es ??? la familia [redacted] doña usted quien es. QUIEN ES. tipo. esta mina no perdió nada suyo, ni la colecta ni la plata son para ella. ?????????? ya no se que pensar. is this even my business at all.

[screwoffdotnet]

ya que se muera dross porfav0r como que lleva demasiado tiempo en esta tierra

[achoo---uu]

Vamo a perrear bailando reguetón

[sweet1hxney]

˖ ࣪ ⊹ ( 🍓 )The idea stays in my mind, thinking a little and drawing MR!Mychael, I thought about his role as a yandere.

I have the idea that by already having affection for MC, just like Mychael, he will develop attachment to MC, but with the difference that he could be a little more possessive.

He is somewhat reluctant to even think of another way other than defense, but MC makes him feel warm, too much... Maybe he doesn't want you to go away from him, he is very suspicious of this new feeling, to the point that he becomes a little more violent in keeping you by his side, after all, he can no longer manipulate you, he must opt for other methods, perhaps not as effective.

Traducción:

˖ ࣪ ⊹ ( 🍓 ) La idea se queda en mi mente, un poco pensando y dibujando a MR!Mychael, pensé en su rol como yandere.

Tengo la idea que al ya tener cariño a MC, igual a Mychael, desarrollará apego a MC, pero con la diferencia de que podría ser un poco más posesivo.

Es algo reacio ya en siquiera pensar en otra manera que no sea en defensa, pero MC lo hace sentir cálido, demasiado... Quizás no quiera que se aleje de él, sospecha mucho de ese nuevo sentimiento, al punto de que se vuelva un poco más violento en mantenerte a su lado, después de todo, ya no puede manipularte, debe optar por otros métodos, quizás no tan eficaces

[quitealotofsodapop]

¿Entonces Destined one es el nuevo hijo de Sun Wukong? (Talvez no lo sea como MK pero ya esbes igual lo considerean su hijo) Aparentemente es mudo o es como Frisk de undertale que los demas pesonajes llevan la conversacion.

Ahora necesito ver como se llevara con MK y Mei y el resto de los jovenes hdsavfbjsa es un gran contraste con ellos, siendo el calladito c:

Este tipo me da cosita... (Me estoy viendo las cinematicas c: )

translated via google;

"So Destined One is Sun Wukong's new son? (Maybe he isn't like MK but they still consider him their son) Apparently he is mute or he is like Frisk from Undertale where the other characters carry the conversation. Now I need to see how he will get along with MK and Mei and the rest of the youngsters hdsavfbjsa is a great contrast with them, being the quiet one c: (*image of the Headles Monk*) This guy gives me the creeps… (I'm watching the cinematics c: )"

I have seen many on twitter joke/headcanon that the Destined One is very much Wukong's "son" in that he was created from part of him. If Sun Wukong were to be revived fully, I feel he would see the Destined One as his child.

I think the Destined One is non-verbal and can only speak "monkey" - he understands "human" but hasn't been able to speak it. I could see Zhu Bajie introducing him as "silent" - only for the Destined One to excitedly chirp and chitter with the other monkeys. XD

MK and Mei would happily accept the Destined One as a "fellow monkey kid" and include him in their activities. Destined One would be very confused, but delighted to be doing anything other than fighting.

I am not sure if we ever see the Destined One as a child, but it would be adorable if we had. :3

And Lingji can help being headless! XD

[flan-tasma]

Boyfriend!Gaming x Reader HC

💖~ What the people think is done

Yo estoy dispuesta a saltar ✨

El banner para esto no salió mal, estoy feliz por ello <3333333

Warning: Nope now💖, GN!Reader | English is not my native language, so if I have made any mistakes in the translation, I am open to corrections | Content in spanish and english!

Spanish:

Gaming es el mejor amigo que puedas tener, y si como amigo es fantástico, imagínate de novio.

Es un novio que resuelve, no importa si crees que la situación es insalvable, él encuentra la manera de hacer que funcione. ¿Tu ropa se manchó y no se quita? Él te da su chaqueta para que te cubras. ¿Te incomodan tus zapatos? Te dará los suyos. ¿Estás tan cansada como para hacer algo? Él te atenderá hasta que te recuperes. Él es un amor.

Puede ponerse muy amenazante cuando hay alguien que puede hacerte daño cerca. Puede poner esta cara de perro rabioso mientras mira feo (y tal vez saque algo de veneno) a la persona que representa una amenaza para ti.

Puede ser un perrito que te sigue y te muerde para que juegues con él, y puede ser un perro guardián que muerda y probablemente haga sangrar a alguien que te trata mal.

Es tu novio y al mismo tiempo es tu comadre con quien chismean cada que pueden. El inicio de sus citas empieza con uno de los dos tomando aire para contar el chisme mientras toman té y pasteles de té y luna.

Te pide que le ayudes a peinarse y comparten productos para el cuidado del cabello que pueden servirles.

Tienen mínimo uno o dos conjuntos que combinan, y probablemente te haya regalado una chaqueta igual a la suya.

Siento que haría chistes de sus desgracias y se reiría, pero jamás se burlaría de tus traumas a menos que tú hagas el chiste primero.

Si en algún momento se cansa de ti (siempre en broma, claro) te pone su chaqueta, sube la capucha y le habla al suanni acerca de cómo alguien está hablando mucho y cuánto quiere cerrarle la boca a besos.

Siempre coquetea contigo, no le importa si ya son pareja. Va a seguir acercándose diciendo que luces preciosa y te pregunta si ya tienes novio y por qué debería ser él.

No soporta coqueteos frente a su familia, va a explotar de la vergüenza y te meterá un puñado de arroz en la boca para que te calles.

Puntos extras si resulta que vives en la Aldea Chiaoying, no tiene pereza de viajar desde la ciudad de Liyue para ir a visitarte los fines de semana. También le gusta llevarte a la ciudad para presentarte a sus amigos y que respires un aire nuevo.

El chico es un hombre fiel, es tu novio y puede imaginar un futuro contigo, suele hacer bromas acerca de que ambos se harán viejos juntos y saldrán a pasear por el lago.

A partir de que soluciona sus problemas con su padre, tiene la costumbre de alejarte de su familia, a pesar de que cada que te encuentras con ellos te dan de comer o te tratan muy dulcemente.

English:

Gaming is the best friend you can have, and if he is fantastic as a friend, imagine him as a boyfriend.

He is a boyfriend who will help you, it doesn't matter if you think the situation is insurmountable, he finds a way to make it work. Did your clothes get stained and won't come off? He gives you his jacket to cover yourself. Do your shoes make you uncomfortable? He will give you his. Are you tired enough to do anything? He will take care of you until you recover. He is a sweetheart.

He can become very threatening when there is someone who can harm you nearby. May make this mad dog face while he glares (and maybe draws some venom) at the person who poses a threat to you.

It can be a little dog that follows you and bites you to make you play with it, and he can be a guard dog that bites and probably makes bleed who treats you badly.

He is your boyfriend and at the same time he is your best friend with whom you gossip whenever you can. The beginning of your dates is with one of you taking a breath to tell the gossip with tea and Fine Tea, Full Moon.

He asks you to help him comb his hair and share hair care products that can help you.

You have at least one or two outfits that match, and he probably gave you a jacket just like his.

I feel like he would make jokes about his misfortunes and laugh, but he would never make fun of your traumas unless you make the joke first.

If at some point he gets tired of you (always joking, of course) he puts his jacket on you, pulls up the hood and talks to the suanni about how someone is talking too much and how much he wants to kiss their mouth shut.

He always flirts with you, he doesn't care if you are already a couple. He will keep approaching you saying that you look beautiful and asking if you already have a boyfriend and why it should be him.

He can't stand flirting in front of his family, he's going to explode with embarrassment and shove a handful of rice into your mouth to make you shut up.

Bonus points if you live in Chiaoying Village, he's not lazy to travel from Liyue to visit you on the weekends. He also likes to take you to the city to introduce you to his friends and let you breathe a fresh air.

The boy is a faithful man, he is your boyfriend and he can imagine a future with you, he often makes jokes about the two of you getting old together and going for a walk by the lake.

After he solves his problems with his father, he has the habit of distancing you from his family, even though every time you meet them they feed you or treat you very sweetly.

[replacementcodeau]

datito chistoso el capitulo 1 estaba hecho para salir mucho antes , pero pasaron cosas ¯\_( ❛ ͜ʖ ❛ )_/¯ (me dio flojera avanzarlo, luego se me malogro el laptop y lo tuvieron que resetear) realmente me gustaria recuperarla para evitar hacerlo de nuevo, pero weno, toco hacerlo todo de nuevo (igual ni estaba muy avanzado) (no tengan mucha fe de que salga pronto va a ser un proceso bastante lento en especial teniéndome a mi como animador) te extraño adobe animate --------------------------------

funny little fact Chapter 1 was meant to come out much earlier, but things happened ¯\_( ❛ ͜ʖ ❛ )_/¯ (I was too lazy to advance it, then my laptop broke and they had to reset it) I would really like to get it back to avoid doing it again new, but wow, I have to do it all over again (maybe I wasn't even very advanced) (don't have much faith that it will come out soon, it will be a fairly slow process, especially with me as the animator) I miss you adobe animate

[mooniminididi]

Hannibal knew Will so intimately that it was painful to some extent to be close to him, just as Will knew him, without all that shit on the skin of a person. But, Molly, oh my God, she knew the other side of the coin of intimacy: She knew what her side of the bed was; the way you sleep or snore; maybe your favorite color or the food you preferred to eat next to you; the enthusiasm of showing and teaching Wally about fishing; the routine he had in the day, whether it was to take a bath or something more complicated like when winter began and Will looked for wooden supplies for the fireplace; the way in which he kissed or touched her. All that intimacy that was so mundane but that Hannibal was never involved in. As much as Molly and Hannibal had a piece of Will's intimacy, but never complete, or at least not until the end.

Original:

Hannibal conocía a Will tan íntimamente que era doloroso hasta cierto punto su cercanía, al igual que Will lo conocía, sin toda esa mierda de la piel de persona. Pero, Molly, oh Dios mío, ella conocía el otro lado de la moneda de la intimidad: Conocía cual era su lado de la cama; su manera de dormir o roncar; tal vez su color favorito o la comida que prefería comer a su lado; el entusiasmo de mostrarle y enseñarle a Wally sobre pesca; la rutina que tenía en el día, ya fuera para bañarse o algo más complicado como cuando el invierno comenzaba y Will buscaba suministros de madera para la chimenea; la menera en que la besaba o tocaba. Toda esa intimidad que era tan mundana pero en la que Hannibal jamás se vio envuelto. Tanto como Molly y Hannibal tuvieron una parte de la intimidad de Will, pero nunca completa, o por lo menos no hasta al final.

[idon-twannabeperceived]

Onda bien x vos neurotypical icon pero si no vas a tener empatía x lo menos hacé el favor de cerrar el orto

Hay gente q habla como q nunca planeó su suicidio girl c'mon

[cajon-desastre]

Hola Carmen, me encantan tus citas y los GIFs que las acompañan, suelen ir a la par del tema del día pero me gustaría conocer tu opinión acerca de todo este lío si no te importa comentarlo. Asumo que igual no te sientes cómoda con mi petición así que si consideras oportuno no contestarme lo entenderé.

Siempre me has parecido muy sincera y equilibrada en tus comentarios, un beso guapa.

Hello Carmen, I love your quotes and the GIFs that accompany them, they usually go along with the topic of the day but I would like to know your opinion about this whole mess if you don't mind commenting on it. I assume that you may not feel comfortable with my request, so if you consider it appropriate not to answer me, I will understand. You have always seemed very sincere and balanced in your comments, a kiss pretty.

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Hi Anon, thank you for your kind words 🥰

I don't mind commenting, what happens is that I don't usually give much air to these things because what is sought, precisely, is to give them visibility and increase the drama, something that I don't usually lend myself to, only just enough when there are things that are too obvious which you can see here and here.

But you asked me for an opinion and this is what I can give you:

Disappointment and frustration would be the first words.

Ridiculous and hasty the second.

Disaster and control damage the third.

As a fan, it is not the way I would like for people I like to follow and support, but it is something that is not going to affect my life any more than the time I can dedicate to creating content or reading other bloggers. I understand that people may be very upset by the latest events and I see that, above all, they are recent fans, or those who have been there for a short time, for the most part.

I don't know, maybe I've been here for many years and I've seen everything. I am vaccinated against this nonsense that becomes cyclical and that is always a consequence of some previous event that is usually related to the shipper side and the image that is wanted to be transmitted to the general public, not to the fandom that is attentive to any movement or fact.

I have always wanted my attitude to be Zen, trying to take what happens on this side of the fence with resignation and humor. It's also because I try to compartmentalize what the fandom is and what the series and the books are. Enjoying the only thing that is stable within this madness despite Starz's mismanagement.

I could summarize that the situation is more of the same and I do not rule out that, when this situation passes, we will encounter new shenanigans. They seem to be one-tricks, and as long as it works, that's what we'll continue to see.

I also recommend that you read @outlanderskin in this post. Her thoughts are very similar to mine right now.

Thanks for the appreciation and I hope that Google translation makes this understandable 😘

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Hola Anon, gracias por tus amables palabras 🥰 No me importa comentar, lo que pasa es que no suelo darle mucho aire a estas cosas porque lo que se busca, precisamente, es darles visibilidad y aumentar el dramatismo, algo a lo que no suelo prestarme. Sólo lo suficiente cuando hay cosas demasiado obvias que puedes ver aquí y aquí. Pero me pediste opinión y esto es lo que puedo darte: Decepción y frustración serían las primeras palabras. Ridículo y precipitado el segundo. Desastre y control de daños el tercero. Como fan, no es la forma en que me gustaría que las personas a las que me gusta seguir y apoyar, pero es algo que no va a afectar mi vida más que el tiempo que puedo dedicar a crear contenido o leer a otros bloggers. Entiendo que la gente pueda estar muy molesta por los últimos acontecimientos y veo que, sobre todo, son fans recientes, o que llevan poco tiempo, en su mayoría. No lo sé, tal vez llevo muchos años aquí y lo he visto todo. Estoy vacunado contra este despropósito que se vuelve cíclico y que siempre es consecuencia de algún evento previo que suele estar relacionado con el lado shipper y la imagen que se quiere transmitir al público en general, no al fandom que está atento a cualquier movimiento o hecho. Siempre he querido que mi actitud sea zen, intentando tomarme lo que pasa de este lado de la valla con resignación y humor. También es porque trato de compartimentar qué es el fandom y qué son las series y los libros. Disfrutando de lo único que hay estable dentro de esta locura a pesar de la mala gestión de Starz. Podría resumir que la situación es más de lo mismo y no descarto que, cuando esta situación pase, nos encontremos con nuevas travesuras. Parecen ser de un solo truco, y mientras funcionen, eso es lo que seguiremos viendo. También te recomiendo que leas a @outlanderskin en este post. Sus pensamientos son muy similares a los míos en este momento.

Gracias por el aprecio y espero que la traducción de Google haga esto comprensible 😘

[gadriezmannsgirl]

Hiii i had a request maybe you go with gavi to sevilla to spend time with his family and like go swimming in his pool 🫶🏼

Thanks to me going to the pool yesterday (Even tho I didn't went inside the water😭), here's a small blurb (This was supposed to come out earlier since I spent my whole night awake because I couldn't sleep, but boo, miss @gavisuntiedboot published a chapter of her majestic Just Pretend series so I kinda left everything I was doing at the moment and have been re-reading the chapter over and over again because it's a masterpiece, add into the mix Uni homework and finally catching up on the sleeping hours😭)

Pool Day with the Fam -P.G

Summary: A pool day is always welcomed

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"Y/N, hija, don't you worry please. Go and enjoy" Belén had said once more but you shook your head

"I will do, Belén. In a few, just let me help you dry these dishes, you already cooked and on top, washed them" You smiled "It won't kill me helping you helping you around a bit"

"You're the best, cariño. Even my own kids forgot I'm stuck here" She pulled a face as you laughed together.

Talking about the Rey of Roma and he's here

"¿Preciosa?" You heard Pablo's voice getting close as you and Belén stood there not doing nothing "¿Bonita, estás aquí?" He came on your view as Belén was waiting for him to smack him with the drying towel for leaving her to do everything "¡Auch, mamá!"

"Aurora will get one too, eventually. How is it possible my baby Y/N, is doing everything you are supposed to?"

"You told us to enjoy today!"

"After helping me clean up!"

"Sorry, mom" He hugged her "Is there anything I can help you with?"

"Y/N already did it" You giggled seeing your boyfriend look at you narrowing his eyes

"Pero, ¿Y tú de que te ríes?" He asked getting closer to you as you were going backwards "Wanna have a real good laugh?"

"No" You shook your head already knowing his intentions

"Too bad, I do want to" He said before launching himself at you as you tried and ran away from him, Belén's laughter echoing the house.

As much as you tried it, he was a goddamn football player and he ran for a living meanwhile you... You studied to get your degree.

"Don't you dare do anything bad to my baby, Pablo Martín!" She had yelled when you yelled as he grabbed you in his arms and carried you towards the pool

"Nonono!" You yelled "No, amorcito! Please, don't throw me just now into the water, I swear I won't get mad at you anymore for you to leave the toothpaste open and squish it in the middle instead of doing it from below!"

"Too late, princesa"

"No! No! NO!" You grabbed onto him but it was failure.

The splashing sound was heard all over the Páez Gavira's backyard. Pablo, Aurora, Javi and Gavi were laughing. Until you didn't went up to scream at him.

"Amor, come on now" He said but several seconds passed and nothing "¿Amor?"

"Why isn't she coming up?" Aurora asked starting to worry

"Get her out, now" Pablo, Gavi's dad, said trying to remain calm as Gavi got closer to the pool when you jumped out of it, scaring him.

Now, you were the one laughing. Aurora, Javi and Pablo were also relieved and with light smiles on

"Puta madre, Y/N" Gavi said deeply breathing "I got so scared" You shook your head

"That's karma" You said "And this" You got closer to him grabbing his face to kiss his plump lips for a few seconds, your hands going down to his hands intertwining them "is revenge" You pulled him by his hands making him get head into the pool

You all were laughing by the time he came out to grab some air, Belén had come out with some drinks for all of you and was looking at the scene surprised and confused.

"Señorita" He said smiling

"Lo que es igual no es trampa" You said softly as he threw some water at you

"Chica, you scared us!" Aurora said sitting on the pool edge

"Your brother is mean to me, I had to do the same and get back" You smiled feeling Gavi lift your legs up and make them go around his waist, he tickled you as you squealed a little "Stop!"

"You stop saying that, everyone will believe it and it isn't true" You roll your eyes, wrapping your arms around his shoulders, pushing yourself against him and kissing his neck.

"No, hermanito. Everyone can see how whipped you are for-AH!!" She yelled also being thrown at the pool by her boyfriend, Javi. We all laughed as she discretly showed her middle finger to her boyfriend

"¿Qué son esas cosas, nena? Those gestures aren't nice at a-AH!" Now, it was Belén who had pushed Javi as you all laughed histerically

"Don't mess up with my daughters, kid" She said smiling as Aurora and you cheered as she defended you both

"Go, ma!" You yell making everyone laugh.

Pablo was sneekily getting behind Belén but it seemed as if she noticed it because she turned around and the poor man quickly made it seem as if nothing

"Don't you even dare" Belén said as Pablo kissed her lovingly and threw himself into the water

You laughed as Belén smiled proudly "At least, we know who has the power in the relationship" Aurora said

"You always gotta have it" Belén

"And you always gotta let her win" Pablo said to the two youngmen with that life lesson tone, you laughed looking over to your Pablito who was laughing so carefree

"I already do that" He whispered against your lips, smiling

You started chatting and fooling around for the evening and eventually when the night hit got out of the cold water, all of you, now, in your pijamas, on the couch having a good time together.

"We should come to Sevilla more often, Pabs" You whispered distancing yourselves for a bit from the conversation his parents, Aurora and her boyfriend had going on

"You like it here?"

"I love it here" Pablo smiled widely kissing you once more

"Anytime you want us to, amor"

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Taglist: @gaviypedrisbride @stuckinaf4nfiction @elijahslover @azzpenswrld

[moonlight-1108]

Dibujo de Ballora,pertenezco al fandom pero no dibujo muchas cosas en digital de Fnaf,igual quise hacer un dibujo de un personaje. Tal vez dibuje más personajes ;)).

Ballora drawing, I belong to the fandom but I don't draw many Fnaf things digitally, I still wanted to make a drawing of a character. Maybe I'll draw more characters ;)).

[lilcsh]

"ah, entonces debes tener un par de oraciones bajo la manga." tras interrogante inicial y nueva pieza de información, es lo primero que se le ocurre agregar. cuando piensa en la religión, lila imagina personas tan excéntricas y estrictas como las que dirigen el refugio. quizá porque coincide con la imagen de las películas que giran en torno a la temática. cassandra le parece bastante simpática, un polo opuesto al aura de madre serena, piensa deben existir más devotos igual de interesantes que la otra veterinaria. "entiendo que están buscando consuelo ¿no? guía o algo así, no me va el misticismo, pero quizá piensan que si más personas rezan más rápido nos escucha el de arriba ¿es así como funciona?" pregunta un tanto perdida, los engranajes en su cabeza se mueven lentamente, pero intenta encontrar explicación tras tanta insistencia. da lo mismo si es acertada o errónea. "a mi tampoco me agrada que quieran obligarnos, pero quizá mejore con el pasar de los días."

"¿Sabes rezar?" | con @vetcass

"nada, no vengo de un entorno religioso." un suave movimiento de cabeza acompaña sus palabras. tiene noción del concepto básico, pero no es algo que haya puesto en práctica, tampoco va a empezar ahora. se siente perdida, pero duda que las respuestas y el camino a seguir sea señalado tan milagrosamente con la anciana predica. "¿tú eres devota?"

[elizabeth-mitchells]

Hii!! Firts of all, how are you? Second, if Yellowjackets were from south america, depending on the country you're from, how would they be?

Tmb, no he visto mucho fandom q hablé español de Yellowjackets 😭😭

hiii i think this wasn't the exact question but i'll take the chance to share this that i saw on twitter a while ago but i think it's perfect lol

am i biased because i'm glad they made laura lee venezuelan? maybe. but in my heart these are on point ghjdfhgjfh

now how would the yj girls be if they were all latinas? simultaneously gayer and also more repressed somehow hgsjdfhjg they would call it futbol instead of soccer first of all. about lottie's wilderness religion... maybe they would've been called it brujeria and leave her be or maybe they would've been way less tolerant about it. you know there wouldn't have been a debate, laura lee would've been catholic, crossing herself every five seconds, and obsessed with one virgin mary. also i don't know how but i'm sure they would've eaten better <3

y sobre el fandom creo que como la mayoria habla en inglés pues todos igual hablamos en ingles pero estoy segura que hay muchos que también hablan español!! por ahí estamos <33

[chismeando-con-el-barrio]

[🩰🌿🌸] ;; AU DISCORD SERVER!! WUUUUU!!!

Ya hay server del Barrio!! Es pequeño, y le faltan MUCHOS arreglos que no he sabido resolver, pero me encantaría tener un lugar para poder charlar más sobre el AU y detalles por ese estilo, al igual que también convivir con ustedes y en general tal vez tener un ambiente más amigable!! Se les quiere! 💕💕💕

ENG VERSION_________ 🌸🖥️💽

There is already a neighborhood server!! It's small, and it's missing MANY fixes that I haven't been able to solve, but I would love to have a place to chat more about the AU and details like that, as well as chitchat(?) with you and in general maybe have a friendlier atmosphere! Love yaaaa! 💕💕💕

[sourbinnie]

title -> tu me dejaste de querer genre -> angst with a happy ending pair -> felix x gn!reader plot -> a messy breakup never led felix to lose hope over you or your relationship. warnings -> mentioned panic attack + cursing words -> 2180 lowercase intended

yo me creía que era el más cabrón

pero me estoy notando el corazón

estás apretando mucho, mami, déjalo

si quieres te doy la razón

yo lo único que quiero es largarme de aquí

me da igual dónde puedas elegir

algún día, dentro de poco me vo' a arrepentir

de haberte confesa'o lo que me hace sufrir

❥ ✉

i wasn't used to settling down before i met them. i liked the free life, the no strings attached kinda vibe and i thought having  a relationship would cut off the way i was handling things but you proved me wrong. when you asked me out, doubt consumed me but i gave in because those eyes are to die for. too bad now we're a thousand miles apart and i still see those eyes everywhere, that look you gave me when i complimented you, priceless and wouldn't see it anywhere else in the world. at the end of the day the eyes never lie and neither do i when asking you if long distance would work.

i know you didn't want this (y/n), neither did i. you had to go back to your home country and i had to stay in korea, following my career like it was the only thing that mattered, like i didn't let the love of my life go. i was hoping we could meet again in the future but the more i look at the chances, the blurrier they get and i don't think it's possible for me to even get a ticket to see you. 

"hey (y/n), it's felix again. please answer me whenever you get the chance." i said to my voicemail. not gonna lie the only reason i do this is because i get to hear your voice before it cuts off to leave a message. it's getting lonely here and i just want you back. even if it's just a videocall.

i was on tour right now, looking at the window in a foreign country while all my bandmates were out. i couldn't feel more empty than i did right now and i knew you wanted to come this time. you wanted to be there for me through every show, every city, everything and we had to split apart before that happened. you really wanted to meet my bandmates and i did not let you, why didn't i? you were the light of my life. no one made me happy like you did and i was told that i had a different kind of glow the days that i spent with you. 

you said i was too much while i said you were giving too little, you weren't letting me see what you truly felt. maybe i pressured you too much into it, maybe i just didn't know how to let go of the overwhelming emotion that it is loving you. it consumes my whole body the way that i just need you right now. physically, emotionally, verbally, anything i would do to get this feeling to stop as the hurricane consumed me. the worst part would be the fact that nobody knows that i'm feeling this way, i have to keep it all to myself and pretend that i never had a significant other in the first place.

that was really bad on my part wasn't it? keeping you a fucking secret and for what? you were the best thing that happened to me. i know a few years ago i would've said the band but right now i felt like i lost absolutely everything. the pain was unbearable, i haven't felt heartbreak since high school and this certainly felt worse than anything. it was like they had my heart in their hands and they were squeezing it, holding on to me, to a part that i thought i would never show anyone. i also knew that i was gonna regret leaving voicemails like a loser, hoping for them to come back to me like nothing happened in the middle.

i remember all too clearly what i said, what we went through and just how much we hurt each other. in this moment i did not care though, i felt like i was gonna have a panic attack all alone in my room. i felt like i  was suffocating and yet no tears were streaming down my face. i could not show any more pain because there was nothing else to show, the misery that i felt i was stuck in was too much. felt like i wasted all my tears, feeling like i can't do anything anymore to fix this was scary and there's nothing more scary than the unknown. what would the future hold for us? 90% of me is saying nothing but there's that 10% that keeps me holding on to a wave of feelings. that 10% insists that i call them again, again & again until they pick up.

so i did it one more time.

and they picked up.

❥ ✉

de punta en blanco para tu fiesta

he pasa'o tre' día' con la misma ropa puesta

loco por ti, perdiendo apuesta'

dime en quién piensa' cuando te acuestas

porque yo pienso en ti (son ilusione')

yo pienso en ti (son ilusione')

porque yo pienso en ti (son ilusione')

yo pienso en ti, son ilusione'

going out on the old familiar streets didn't feel like home anymore. even if i tried going from party to party, doing the most insane things to create a distraction in my mind and hoping that in the morning i don't regret anything, was nothing like i used to be. i was closed off, emotionally and physically, never the biggest fan of pda or affection in the form of words either. but then felix happened and i changed that, i suddenly wanted too much from him, wanting to be in his arms all the time. i got so scared of that feeling, of overwhelming him with my love that i decided to do the opposite. so no more kissing, hugs, cuddles, etc. and i thought i was doing the right thing by not being an overbearing significant other. 

god thinking about the reason why we broke up made me so mad. we both crossed limits we shouldn't have and yet now we were so far away from each other that when i arrived home, like i said before it just didn't feel right. i had to get used to not having him around, to his scent not being in the house, to the smell of his baking, to the clothes scattered around our bedroom, to the early morning kisses and to the late goodnight ones. it's not like i would have that right now when he's on tour. that's how i remembered once again that i was supposed to keep him company during this one and that made me so upset, i almost started crying again. 

he's in a completely different timezone than i am, he's having the best time of his life with his friends and i'm thinking that maybe all i did was so stupid. i put so much on the line when i told him that i was gonna break up with him and leave. i also said it in a moment of pure anger and hoping he would calm down (he didn't). that was the last time i saw him, i hoped that he was feeling better now.

even if i didn't feel like things ended right between us, i would never wish on his downfall. he did everything he could with the little time that he had to spend it with me. he told me his bandmates were watching him and suspecting things but that only got me excited to finally meet them. too bad i couldn't ever do that, show that i was worth of felix's love and let them know that he was receiving all of mine.

checking on my phone, i noticed all the missed calls and one coming in. as tired as i was and as unhappy as i felt, i needed one last chance to speak to him even if it was too late. i pressed the green button and put the phone up to my ear, hoping to hear his voice again after so long.

"(y/n), hi..." he said and god did i miss him. his deep voice told me that it was still pretty early for him while it was night time for me. "i hope you don't hang up." he said and i just shook my head even if he couldn't see it.

"lix, no i won't." i said firmly as i felt the tears build up. it was such an overwhelming feeling talking to him again. i did not even know where to start.

"i miss you. i'm sorry that i start the conversation like this but it's just what i've been feeling." knowing that he was missing me too as he said it, didn't make sense to me. i was hoping for him to be moving on and feeling better but i guess that it also explains why he's calling right now. "you always told me to say what i was feeling so here i am, i know there's a bigger chance for me to lose this battle but i miss you so fucking much."

"i miss you too." i said honestly and i could hear him take a deep breath and let go. he was always nervous when it came to these types of conversations. i laid down on my mattress as i still heard him breathing and processing what i just said, thinking of the right words to follow up with.

"we're so far apart right now that i see you in every city and not gonna lie, it hurts." he said laughing as i heard him sniff. that's what made my tears finally fall, hearing him so broken and on the verge of tears was gonna be the death of me. "god why did we do that? we weren't perfect but at least we tried to be. it's like i gave up the best part of me and now it seems impossible for us to come back. all of my friends feel that i'm different, hell even my family thinks i'm acting odd and yet i can't even explain what happened because i'm not sure myself." 

"people have been asking me what happened with me, the old me. i'm not sure what to say myself either and i don't think i can explain our whole relationship. even if it was short, i feel like i could write a whole story about it." i said through the pain and the tears. what i said was true, my family noticed my odd behavior but i didn't bother telling them what i truly felt and what happened in reality. i just put on a fake smile and lied through my teeth. "i feel so empty without you lix. feels like there's a hole in my heart that i'm never gonna be able to cover."

it got quiet suddenly and his words were still going through my head as i tried to understand him like he tried to understand me before. 

"can we at least try again? even if it's long distance. i know it's insane for me to ask this, i know it won't be the same and that you might not come back to korea but i wanna be able to at least call you mine." he said firmly like he didn't sound totally broken like me. 

"i don't know lix. i got so attached to you that it scares me and i really wanna say yes. but do you think this truly would work? 'cause i feel so weird even thinking about having a long distance relationship." i said honestly and hoping he would understand. "it's like the more i think about it, the less chances i see of it working out."

"i feel the same way unfortunately but i can't give up on us." it's like those words easily touched my heart when he said them. he wasn't always the best at expressing his feelings but tonight he was showing how he had grown and how much he cared about us, about me. "please let's try again and if it doesn't work out, i'll let you go."

i thought about it. thought about the unconditional love i had for him, thought about his eyes when we first met and how they eventually looked at me the most loving way possible. how he seemed to trust me with his feelings and i eventually learned that i didn't trust anyone else with mine. i thought about our late night talks, our secret dates, our baking together and finally i thought about the fights, the hiding around and the heartless things we could say. the break up was the last thing on my mind, packing my things and going nowhere 'cause that's what i felt i was doing at that moment. if i was going somewhere it would always be with him by my side.

"one more chance, please don't make me regret it." i said. i didn't have anything to lose at the end of the day.

"i won't." he simply said.

this could either be the best decision of my life or the wrong path taken.

"i love you (y/n)." he then said as he switched to video call and i looked at his face again, remembering every feature and reminding me how much i loved him. i was really hoping and praying this would be the right decision but as we looked at each other, i couldn't even think there was a wrong one.