#<- what i call long posts now that it's banned ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

[trashcatsstuff]

Thoughts on fnaf/security breach?

HMMMM

this is tricky for me

personally i love what they did with the game. the graphics are spectacular, the songs are absolute BANGERS and i love all of the new animatronics in the game. especially sundrop and moondrop

it's just that, like most people, i think there should've been more polish. some of the glitches really suck, and are almost borderline game-breaking at times, though steelwool is trying to fix that i heard. i feel like there should've been more,, meat? like, it doesn't feel like we have much screentime with anyone to me.

like, i was honestly expecting a huge boss battle with each animatronic. we got that with monty kind of, but for the most part, the executions are really quick to me.

and also like everyone else, i think there should've been more vanny and vanessa screen time. she was built up to be such a huge threat, but we only see here like,,, idk 6 times.

i dont really keep my expectations up for these kind of games, but that doesn't mean i don't like it. there's probably gonna be dlc, and steelwool is most likely gonna polish up the game more

it's not that i hate the game, i just wish there was more oomph to it, you know??

one thing i do hate is the save feature,,, like,,, give me autosaves PLEASE?? 🤨🤨

i have the memory of an ant like imma be done with a section and then forget to save and die minute after 😭😭

although, i will give it credit, there are some SCARY ass segments in there. those endo things had me SHAKING. and the lore is,,, it's something. im interested to see what's to come of of whatever they have next

rating wise?? i'd say uhhh,, 4 and a half out of 10. it's not the best, but it isn't the worst. its just security breach

thanks for the question!! feel free to ask me stuff like this anytime, i love ranting to ppl :))

[thinger-strang]

i was tagged by @cupidsintern (hey bestie) and im a slut for attention so here we are!

1. why did you choose your url?

jdnxks i called stranger things, thinger strangs before i got ✨hyperfixated✨ then i forgot the s jfbcndnfnf

2. any side-blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them.

too many; @trans-siberian-marching-band is my main blog but i just reblog random stuff no theme, @falling-galaxies space/aesthetic im not super active there, @paint-splatters-and-chalk-dust art blog where i reblog art that isnt dedicated to one of my side blog hyperfixations, @bucky-the-babe abandoned marvel blog lol, @deanie-beanie-sassy-cassy previously abandoned spn blog that is waking up, @unexplainableaesthetics (i cant tag myself bc i had previously marked this blog as mature before the porn ban so now its Adulted) outfit and/or gender inspo blog disguised as an aesthetic blog, @gay-star-wars-is star wars blog again not super active, @ezisdrawing art blog where i post the art i make

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

too long

4. do you have a queue tag?

no i dont understand queues

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

harringrove hyperfixation and i hate having my hyperfixations on my main blog bc its hard for me to organize it and it stresses me out when its all messy

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

jdbckdnd i love that interview and joes face right there when he pulls out the leg warmer after dacre made a dick joke about the arm warmer KILLED ME JDBCND

7. why did you choose your header?

i drew that and really liked it!

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

no idea

9. how many mutuals do you have?

how do you even check that?

10. how many followers do you have?

578, what are yall doing here

11. how many people do you follow?

934 but i think a lot of them are dead/inactive? idk i dont filter through that idc

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

yes? who hasnt???

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

im terminally online

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? who won?

kinda but it was more of a personal thing so not really? idk

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts

i hate those things makes me feel AWFUL whether or not i reblog them >:(

16. do you like tag games?

yes! oh my god yeah it does feel like a talk show! so fun

17. do you like ask games?

yes! love to overshare on the internet!

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯ this is harringrove, no one here is "tumblr famous"

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

🤭 (actually idk i dont really get crushes i just get feelings that dont have a name and make no sense)

20. tags?

no pressure at all to do this but @yikesharringrove @smashmouth-hargrove @draculcid @lazybakerart @kingsandsaints and anyone else who feels up to it!

[the-breloominati]

so im scrolling through my subscription feed on youtube right

and I see this

and at first I'm trying to figure out what this actually means bc I have no idea what hes talking about

like for all I know it couldve been some really nasty dogwhistley stuff or hes just like a nazi now, or maybe Activision was making a game with a non-straight-white-cis-guy protagonist or smth?

so apparently activision is removing the "ok" hand gesture from call of duty bc of how its been used by nazis and white supremacists to signal "white power" and dogehistle to each other

and I should get this out of the way, I dont play cod, and I don't really care what Activision does with it as long as its not promoting ideas/values that can cause harm (like racism, homophobia, transphobia, ableism, etc); basically im not invested in this like.. at all

did a quick google search and according to independent.co.uk

The gesture – or “emote” – was a popular way for players to celebrate the end of a successful match on the hit multiplayer shooter, but has now been replaced with an emote called “crush”.

and from kotaku:

While neither Activision nor developers Infinity Ward have yet to comment on the removal, as Eurogamer report it’s been missing for around a week now (since a June 30 update), and was quickly noticed because it had become one of the most popular emotes in the games.

Which is understandable! It was a cool emote, and was very useful for showboating with one hand while you gunned someone down with the other.

so it seems like its removal won't really affect in-game communication all that much, and seeing as how the sign has been used by white supremacists to dogwhistle to each other, I can see why they would remove it (especially considering how toxic gaming communities can be)

so anyway that's basically exposition so you know what's going on so I can talk about the comment section

its sad

its really sad

a lot of people are like "oh but its just a hand sign" or "oh that was just a 4chan meme from back in 2016/2017" or "oh I didnt even know" or "oh, so when I use the 'ok' hand sign in [generally not racist context such as scuba diving] ill be seen a racist now" and I just

ugh

like I kinda want to make a comment and/or reply to people and explain that its context-dependent, and no, using the gesture doesnt automatically make you racist but idk

like on one comment basically saying "oh its just a 4chan troll campaign" someone replied explaining how the gesture has been used by high-profile Nazis and white supremacists, and they think its kinda dumb to ban it but acknowledge that its been used by a lot of people as a dogwhistle, and explaining that the "ok" hand sign being a common symbol is the point bc thats how dogwhisteles work; if someone doesnt get the context or what it means, it'll just fly right past them and they'll think nothing of it

and someone replied (basically) "oh but if its a common symbol everyone uses how can you tell its dogwhistling instead of using it in a normal everyday fashion. it would be hard to tell even if you knew about the dogwhistle" and I just..

and so in repsonse someone points out theres a video of a cop doing the gesture toward a proud boy member and the dude pats the cop on the shoulder

and I kid you not, someone responded, word for word: "proud boys are far from white supremacists. All the real nat sees are in jail or basements"

there's also this other person that said "only dogs hear the whistle ¯\_(ツ)_/¯"

im just..

this isnt even as bad as it could be and I'm already exhausted

also, if anyone wants me to make a tag for stuff like this, please let me know (idk how to phrase this properly but basically I understand if you don't want to see posts like this on your dash/my blog (for any reason, really, it could just be that you use tumblr as a positive escape from real life), and I don't know how to tag stuff like this, so if anyone wants me to make a tag for posts like this (or for any other type of post) please let me know)

[crazyperfectsense]

4/30/20/1

god April was 5 minutes long and I’m going to spend all 5 of them writing this post

this is honestly probably far too personal to put into the public of the internet, and perhaps I’ll take it down before anyone really sees it, but Tumblr is comforting because it is almost a graveyard and the people who remain (who I see in fleeting posts in passing, hi) I trust (or just will not see this because they do not care or the algorithm does not favor long text posts), whereas Facebook is horrifying and Instagram is worse, and this is likely going to be too long to hold anyone’s attention for the whole thing, but I also want to get some notes down for whenever I finally get to talk to my therapist again, so here we go

I woke up at 6:30am naturally (horrifying!), leapt out of bed because I realized how much work I had to do (hate when a nap turns into just...sleep!), and got a text from my dad 15 minutes later that my maternal grandfather was in critical condition, and somehow still managed to do work for the next six hours out of necessity

it briefly brought back flashbacks to 2012, where my dad didn’t tell me for a week that his father died because I had finals my first semester of college, but told me right after he picked me up as we were driving across campus to pick up a friend that we were taking back home, so I had about 3 minutes to compose myself before a 2 hour car ride (horrifying!)

my grandfather died around 1pm, and I had the truly unique (horrifying! ! ! !) experience of finding out via text while I was on a Zoom call as the TA, where I was the only person sharing video other than the professor (my advisor!), and I had to keep my composure while simultaneously finishing creating the homework that I was behind on making while also trying to figure out what to respond to this text notification of mortality, because I don’t know how to say any sort of condolence really in Chinese, but my dad was handling communications and just texting in English anyway — and I don’t know, it’s the kind of thing where I probably could’ve ditched the call and made excuses later, but the effort to preserve even the slightest tinge of normalcy in this moment seemed right, and I did my very best (and succeeded!) to not spontaneously burst into tears on camera, even though I did about 0.03 seconds after I hung up

an aside: thank god that my advisor was sharing screen and people were hopefully focused on him / in speaker mode or something, because my neutral face is....poor! not entirely sure because I avoided making eye contact with my virtual self aside from brief checks to make sure that I was still alive, still functioning as I flickered from screen to screen across my two monitors

I had a meeting scheduled with my advisor afterwards, and he was all ready to move into it, but was so extremely understanding the second he saw my message I had sent 50 min earlier that was effectively “can we push this back a bit because my grandfather died and I need to call my fam lol” and suggested (as any normal person with emotions would) that I take the time to formally postpone and regroup if needed (needed!) rather than just pushing back a half hour or so like I naively thought would work

I had to desperately cry for about 20 minutes (horrifying!) before I felt ready to call my family, even so 

I hate hearing my mom sad! it’s the fucking worst! but it was a relief for 2 seconds to exist over a phone line with someone who also couldn’t talk straight without needing to take a few gasping breaths

another aside: i didn’t write about this in February because, well, everything was on fire in my life already, so briefly: my mom was supposed to be in China through mid-March, having gone there in October. things obviously went to shit, given *gestures at COVID-19 and the world*, and we booked her an early return flight, given that the senior living facility my grandparents were in had already closed to visitors out of precaution. my brother, dad, and I collectively freaked the fuck out (my brother started crying in the middle of class and had to leave, I barely held it together in mine but paid negative attention) when flights back from China started getting cancelled (and for those like, terrifying few hours where Trump was going to ban foreign nationals since my mom’s not a citizen and they didn’t make it clear that immediate family of US citizens were fine), but we somehow made it happen

so, back to the phone call: I just let her talk and she had so many regrets about leaving China when she did, and it just made me feel like the shittiest person for wanting her back home in America when it deprived her of the chance to see her dad one more time. my uncle and mom luckily got to take my grandparents out of the senior home for one night to celebrate Chinese New Year the day before the facility closed to visitors, so they had one last dinner together as a family but thinking about the what ifs makes me want to cry all over again. my mom just kept saying how she wished she could’ve done more, how she wished they had gone to the hospital earlier for a check-up, and the most I could helplessly contribute was “coronavirus concerns were already rampant and it could have been even worse, given airborne contagion,” even if I said as many other things as I could, about how dialysis was painful as hell and my grandfather, the former doctor, said he didn’t even want to be in the ICU at the end years before his passing

I learned what the Chinese words were for “depression” today, when my mom said my grandfather said he had it and they had gotten him some medication for it a few months ago, and I was so stunned that it was “depression” and not some strange disease I was unfamiliar with that I couldn’t say anything for 30 seconds, and I can’t really write more on this point because I will just start crying, but perhaps I should really think about how aging research is largely focused on non-Asian populations and how perhaps, I’m uniquely equipped to contribute a bit to the field here (but, that is true for so many things, and I am tired!)

my grandfather was great. he was quiet, but stubborn as hell. he was a doctor, and he loved routine. he cared so, fucking, much about me and my brother. he always insisted on taking my brother and me on walks to the same few places that he liked to visit — I remember visiting this community center that had a ping pong table — and him going out of his way to find me internet access, since my grandparents’ apartment didn’t have it for most of the years I visited. he loved taking me and my brother to KFC, because he thought it was the height of Americanized cuisine in China, and was so proud of how much better it was than American KFC (which he hadn’t had, but he knew, and he was right. we would eat every single bite of a two-piece meal each. even the ketchup was better). he once cut out a newspaper clipping ranking UT as the #2 college on this huge list of colleges (I think it was referring to research endowments, but anyway) and saved it to show me almost a year later. he told me in 2013 that he would probably live to see me finish college, and he lived to see me two years into grad school, dying when I was halfway through year three. he was 89. I loved him so much, even if we didn’t get to talk much at all.

I’m so mad at all these fucking people who, in the land of the free and the home of the so-called brave, are being idiots in this time and not social distancing. I’m so mad at every single friend who posts a large or small gathering to their story, at everyone who is so thirsty for social connection that they’re willing to put everyone they’re in close contact with at risk to hang out with another person for just a few hours (horrifying!). humans are social creatures who need engagement and connection to live — having written 22 pages about health and social relationships across 12 hours a few weeks ago, I understand this point so saliently that it’s painful. but seeing such....levity when my mom is crying over not being able to even go back to China to properly say goodbye because they won’t admit anyone from the US (and the US has banned travel to China, like that was necessary in this xenophobic environment) makes me want to punch a wall. suck it up! call your friends over Zoom or FaceTime like the goddamn rest of us!

grief is so strange, and grief is encapsulated in every molecule of this new normal — the strangeness of missing the life that once was, even if the past wasn’t something that I thought I’d miss. I remember feeling so, so guilty for traveling twice in February because of the studying for comps that I should’ve been doing, and now I marvel at my foresight. (and have so many regrets for the people who I told “I’ll see you in April when I’m back after comps are done!!”

I’m in this weird spot where I feel like I’m screaming at the people around me to care, and all of them are too busy with different social ties, and I’m watching my connections wilt and fray because everyone thinks I’m so stable and put-together (or boring and shy?)

an example: I was left off of a reunion Zoom call with some people I worked with in college that was widely talked about on social media regarding “love having shared all this time with these strong women” and all, and it felt very, idk, selfish and whiny (horrifying) to be like “how can you call this feminism when I, a real woman, am being left out of this call”! the following exchange, about the above, happened with in a group chat with a very blunt friend:

D: “Also, how does it feel to be left out of that [organization] Women zoom call, Amy?” another aside: (this....was a stupid question. but we’ll allow it, because boys will be boys.) me: “lol it honestly hurt my feelings but it's not like they weren't cliquey from the very beginning ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ to be expected I suppose” D: “Yeah when I saw that I was like “Why didn’t include Amy, she was there at the same time as they were”” me: “LOL thanks for thinking of me 🥺 they clearly did not”

(the other friend staying quiet, because it was tangibly awkward, even if I tried to play it chill, but my feelings remain hurt) perhaps if I cared more, or wanted to try and make people feel bad, I would’ve replied to a story with “tfti”, or laughed, or heart-reacted, or something “casual” that still implicates “where was my invite”, but....is it even worth investing the hurt and care and time when I’m not even sure it would spark embarrassment on their end? because perhaps they intentionally just do not...care about me and my feelings? at all? (horrifying?)

(I already know this to be true, even if the snub was unintentional, but I needed to muse about it anyway)

another aside: I still talk with plenty of people from this organization who I am MUCH closer with, and I shouldn’t feel snubbed to be snubbed by people who I never felt too close with in the first place! (and yet! horrifying!)

sent an extremely passive aggressive message earlier and yet, K tells me that the people in the chat might not even read it as passive aggressive! (horrifying!)

god. I don’t know! I feel so much sadness and anger, and yet still have a few hours of work to do tonight. it’s wild that even today, where my heart just hurts every few seconds if I think too hard, I still have my mind centered in needing to be productive and not lazy because I’ve already spent too much time procrastinating on my work (horrifying!). but the work is about Asian American collective action / media production, and I feel good about it, and I’m working with some badass Asian women, and I really hope it lands in this flagship journal, because that would be a win, and I kind of just need one! 

oh if it’s not clear I finished comps and I don’t know if I passed yet but they’re done so...that’s something

also whoever fucking looked at Chicago style citations and thought “oh hmm, let’s make another type of Chicago style that is DIFFERENT and call it Chicago style documentation” is the literal fucking devil

ok this is enough for now bye. god this was long. (horrifying!!!!!!)

[monsterroute-blog]

Story time, lol. So this meme (not mine and not posted by me) was posted in anime themed Facebook group I have been in for a long time. I met one of my bestfriends there. I made this joke, not my best but just silly and lighthearted but two girls took it the wrong way and even took it as I was being transphobic because they believed I was calling Bowsette* a he. I was not, I assure you. The meme was about Bowsette but my joke was about Bowser, the male counter part. Regardless of trying to explain and even saying I was talking about BOWSER not the newest waifu I was temporarily banned. When the ban ended today I stood up for myself even if it’s just a facebook group and I won’t remember or care a week from now I still wanted to. Sorry I had to snip it since surprise surprise my post was removed the moment it was found by one of the girls who tried to argue with me in the comments on the meme. So I only had this post convo feature Facebook has. The gug was a typo, I mean huh. My post like I said was removed and the same girl pm to tell me I was banned because I was apparently transphobic and because I “argued”. I was just defending myself though and trying to explain that again (sorry) I was talking about Bowser and he is a he. I told her so and that I even have proof so could I hear from someone who wasn’t already triggered and a child. She’s apparently the head admin and went on to block and kick me from the group. Unfortunately, I did not get the chance to screenshot the pms. That’s my only regret. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  Nothing can really be done but I wanted to share/rant. I really don’t get how she doesn’t understand what I was saying but apparently the stereotype for tumblr has taken over a group I used to be fond of so I guess all is good. Kind of crazy someone who is easily offended and can’t read is running a group built on anime memes but I’ll just join another. They’re a dime a dozen and tumblr has better anime tiddy memes plus more anyway. ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) Maybe someone else will get at least a simple nose exhale out of this.

[magicalfantaesies]

Dangerously In Love // Bts/Got7 ff {Ch.1 pt 2}

I did this 10 times before tumblr decided to actually post this. ISTG TUMBLR 😑

--

BamBam POV

“Hey Bam, are you gonna be alright sharing rooms with Jungkook?” Youngjae asked me. Yugeom, Youngjae and I all sat around the dorm pool chatting. Ugh, why’d he have to bring this up. “What do you mean? I’m perfectly fine, we’re friends,” I replied cooly. “Yeah, you guys being friends is the problem. Bam, did you forget? You like him,” Yugeom pointed out. I sighed. “Yeah, okay, you’re right! But if I make a fuss and ask for my room to be changed, everyone will want to know why. And Jungkook will think I’m mad at him. So it’s best to just leave it,” I muttered. “Bam, just tell him how you feel. You guys have been friends for a pretty good while,” he encouraged. But I wasnt sure. Because I know Jungkook. He doesn’t do serious ANYTHING. The only thing Jungkook was serious about was his career. Should I honestly expect it to be different with me? Plus, he didn’t even like guys. I had voiced this to them plenty of times. “Look,” Yugeom said, putting a hand on my shoulder, “I know it’s hard to put yourself out there knowing you could get hurt. But you only have three options: fail after you try, succeed after you try, or just let it go. No matter what, Youngjae and I will still be here for you. Just be careful, I don’t want to have to kick Jungkook’s ass for hurting my best friend,”. He laughed after the last sentence but Youngjae and I both knew he meant what he said. I mean it can’t be THAT bad. I’ll be fine.

—-

*That evening*

‘Jincess added Godofdestruction, Chimney, DaeguBoy, GucciOnTheFloor, and 9 others to “HOUSEMATES” groupchat’

GOTF: yeeeesss a groupchat

Markipooh: ew, a groupchat

DaeguBoy: i may as well mute this shit now, cause i already know this is gonna be annoying

Jayhoe: awww, come on Yoongz, don’t be like that

DaddyJack: yeah Yoongz don’t be a stick in the mud :D

DaeguBoy: call me that again and i’m gonna shove a stick up your ass

Jincess: YOONGI

Markipooh: lmaooooo

DaddyJack: so instead of standing up for me you laugh? WOW. -.-

Markipooh: ㄟ(ツ)ㄏ

Tom: oh God, it’s already started 🤦

GOTF: who the tf is Tom???

Chiminey: Yoongi hyung, you’re muting the chat? :( aw man

DaeguBoy: I CAN STAY

DaeguBoy: i mean, well i guess i could just leave my notifications on..

Jerry: ( ͡ᵔ ͜ʖ ͡ᵔ) hmm

GOTF: nevermind i get it now lol.

Chillappa: sooo, why do we have a groupchat?

Jincess: for when you guys are away and we need to get a hold of each other. and for group bonding.

Kookonut: remember what happened last time we had a groupchat though?

Jincess: it wasn’t THAT bad..

Chiminey: Tae turned the dorm into a petting zoo, you and Dad almost got divorced, and Yoongi hyung choked Hoseok hyung with a garden hose.

Jincess: (；￢_￢)

Godofdestruction: ^^ groupchats have been banned ever since

Sunshinejae: lmaooo, anybody care to explain how all that happened from a groupchat? 👀

Godofdestruction: you don’t wanna know.

Wasabiii: our history with chats sucks ass too though.

DaddyJack: the last one was fun though?

Wasabiii: no because all you hyungs were being shady as hell, our parents ALSO almost got divorced, and YOU made Yugeom run away from home because you told him he was adopted -.-

Jerry: i was so hurt man. (╥_╥)

Markipooh: ah, i remember that chatroom. 'The Shade Room’. good times, good times.

Jincess: as long as we avoid shade we should be fine then

GOTF: says the shadiest person in our group

Jincess: EXCUSE ME

Godofdestruction: Taehyung please apologize to him.

GOTF: no.

Jincess: (◕‿◕) tae, i think we should talk.

*Jincess has logged out*

Kookonut: oh shit, boy he put THE FACE!

DaeguBoy: LOL, R.I.P Taehyung

Kookonut: i call dibs on his manga collection

*GOTF has logged out*

Chiminey: um, dad? I think Jin hyung is gonna kill him.

Godofdestruction: *sigh* I'll go get Jin.

Jayhoe: i'll get Taehyung.

*Godofdestruction has logged out*

*Jayhoe has logged out*

Wasabiii: did Sehun send you guys the invite to EXO's pool party tonight?

Jerry: yeap, it's gonna be lit!

Kookonut: i got it too but i don't think i'm going

Sunshinejae: i heard IU's gonna be there ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

Kookonut: ON SECOND THOUGHT, COME ON BAM LET'S GO BUY SWIM TRUNKS.

*Kookonut has logged out*

Wasabiii: *sigh* -.-

*Wasabiii has logged out*

Jerry: lmaooo, we should go too Youngjae

Sunshinejae: okay

Chiminey: wait for me!

*Jerry, Sunshinejae, and Chiminey have logged out*

Markipooh: i'm gonna drive the kids to the store because apparently they didn't think that far ahead. You coming babe?

DaddyJack: can we eat while we're out?

Markipooh: sure, idc. just hurry up.

DaddyJack: then yes! :)

*Markipooh and DaddyJack have logged out*

Tom: movie night? :)

Chillappa: only if we can cuddle :)

Daeguboy: EW.

*DaeguBoy has logged out*

[elxctriic-blog]

1-100 binch

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?cereal than milk duh

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?lovelovelove it

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?sticky notes, gum wrappers, candy wrappers, string, if it’s a quick bookmark sometimes headphones

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?i like my coffee with creamer and i do something different for each kind of tea i drink so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?uhmmm kind of and kind of not? my teeth? no. my lips when i smile? yes.

6: do you keep plants?i have so many plants and i shall eventually post a picture of them

7: do you name your plants?every single one.

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?pAinTiNGggGg💗💗💗💗

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?i don’t ever stop doing either one, there’s always a song stuck in my head.

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?usually side or stomach, don’t think i’ve ever slept on my back.

11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends?my life.

12: what’s your favorite planet?uhmmmm??? i guess earth probably because it’s so damn beautiful

13: what’s something that made you smile today?my best friend and my dog. lub u dingle

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?aesthetically pleasing. duh. (this is also happening and we have yet to talk about it so glad this brought that up)

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!all of space is completely silent. ew.

16: what’s your favorite pasta dish?uhmmm??? i dunno alfredo? olive garden? not a dish but we’re going with olive garden.

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?well i have a lot but one that i’m actually doing soon is lavender.

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.HA okay so in like first grade this kid who was like my brother told me that his brother was Zac Efron and i believed him. for like two years.

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?yes! i actually keep several, one is a planner, one is just a little painting thing, and the other is my wicca notes and whatnot!

20: what’s your favorite eye color?green. or blue. anything but my own.

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.i don’t have one of those?

22: are you a morning person?helwkrisbd ONE HUNDRED PERCENT I LOVE MORNINGS SO MUCH OKAY.

23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?netflix and eat. 10/10.

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?there is, and it’s not a would trust, it’s a do trust.

25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into?never broken into anywhere!

26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?uhmmmm. adidas (all of them), my vans, and birkenstocks.

27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor?spearmint.

28: sunrise or sunset?sunrise, easy.

29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?uhmmmm actually cares about me? lol

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?i have.

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.okay so. love socks on a cold day, i never ever match my socks. if my socks match i get really upset and i literally cannot wear the same ones (unless they’re longer socks). i hate sleeping with socks. my socks are always cute and multicoloured, hence the not matching.

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.none of my friends are up past three???

33: what’s your fave pastry?uhmmm i dunno. everything?

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?i’ve kept all of my stuffed animals. every. single. one. two that mean a lot to me though are a pink lion and bear. the bear is brenda, and the lion is lily. they’re both from my dad.

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?well i think they look really pretty but i don’t have any.

36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?uhmmmm? hm. arctic monkeys.

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?considering i most likely have OCD, clean.

38: tell us about your pet peeves!when people are overly lazy or just don’t have a goal in life, being rude to people for no reason, sexist people, racist people, homophobic people, etc.

39: what color do you wear the most?easy, black.

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?so i got this piece of jewellery really recently actually. i got a silver necklace with a “C” for my name and in the C are diamonds. i got it from my mom this christmas. when i opened it she said, “i know it wasn’t on your list, but i’ve never gotten you any really nice jewellery, and you’re going away to college soon so i wanted to get you something really special from me. so i got you real diamonds.” to say the least, i cried.

41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving?Walking Disaster by Jamie McGuire!!! amazing and totally would suggest!

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!i do! i have two actually. one is called Kelly’s Mercantile and it’s like a library almost, there’s huge book cases up front with a little cafe too the side, and to the eye it looks small, but once you go up these steps it literally expands into a narnia of books.

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?no one.

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?never? my life is a mess.

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?very much so! a lot of times my gut feelings are correct.

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.i’m no good at puns.

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?uhmmmm. i literally can’t think of anything right now rip.

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?elevators. it still scares me but it’s not my biggest fear.

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?i lOVE buying both. i have only bought one CD though. the last record i bought was a Frank Sinatra one!

50: what’s an odd thing you collect?uhmmm?? i dunno? nothing. i don’t collect anything.

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?My Girl by The Temptations

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?tide pods. tide pod toast. my life.

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?i have not but i’m hoping to very soon! love heathers! love beetlejuice! never seen pulp fiction ):

54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?my dog because he always looks pressed.

55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point?i can’t think lol.

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?uhmmmmm i dunno.

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?i think bohemian rhapsody is a little annoying honestly?

58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?both of us because i only have one friend and we are both.

59: what’s your favorite myth?myth or mythical creature???

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?love poetry, i love R.H.Sin, Rupi Kuar of course, and my english teacher from last year.

61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received?none? i feel like all my gifts are very sentimental and based upon the person and i love all gifts i get!

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?no i do not. i drink coffee.

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?mETICULOUSLY ORGANIZED. music in spotify is ALWAYS listed in order of recently added, and books are alphabetical order. always.

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?no idea, probably dark blue considering it’s dark outside.

65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with?uhmmmm? yes. kind of. i saw him like two months ago but i miss him ):

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?daisies and lots of little flowers, maybe some queen anne’s lace, i dunno! just pretty!

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?i love them as long as it’s not for months and months! i live in washington so!

68: what’s winter like where you live?usually we get a little snow, but it’s mainly cold and desolate.

69: what are your favorite board games?ouija board😩

70: have you ever used a ouija board?HA LOL. actually yeah. last week.

71: what’s your favorite kind of tea?Tazo ™ vanilla caramel chai ♡

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?not really?

73: what are some of your worst habits?organising.

74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.perfect.

75: tell us about your pets!his name is toby and he is the goodest boy ever.

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?homework lmao.

77: pink or yellow lemonade?pink.

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?neither? i’m neutral. but they’re kind of adorable. i’m a child.

79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?given me a valentine’s gift (^: thanks dingle.

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?white. because they were pepto bismal(?) pink and make me wanna die.

81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.this is a lot of effort and i don’t feel like it.

82: are/were you good in school?i am, not in my current classes but ya know.

83: what’s some of your favorite album art?uhmmmm. dunno.

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?lots. i’m hoping to be getting lip ones soon ☻

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?no.

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?don’t even know what those are rip.

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?Stuck In Love, Palo Alto, To The Bone, Perks Of Being A Wallflower, lots more.

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?it’s not so much a movement. well. kind of. i have three. Impressionism, surrealism, and pop art.

89: are you close to your parents?my father is dead, but my mom and i are like sisters.

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.it’s Kaanapali, Hawaii.

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?La Push Beach, dunno.

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?a pinch.

93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most?i rarely do anything to my hair so i just wear it down.

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?my uncle.

95: what are your plans for this weekend?nothing lol.

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?well they’re automatic.

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?enfj (i think rip), aries, ravenclaw.

98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?uhm december. it was pretty!! loved it.

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.Home by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes. i dunno what else. there’s too many honestly.

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?neither. i think things that are in the past are lessons, i tend to try not to look back and focus on my future without looking too deep into it. i’m trying to be spontaneous and adventurous instead of planning everything. so if throw them away.

[lesmotsincompris]

Thoughts on GoT S07E02

This time I avoided reading other people’s opinions on the episode until I could watch it for myself. I wanted to see which flaws I would notice on my own and which would be more of a ‘fridge logic’ type of thing. So sorry if I’m gonna sound repetitive.

I actually tried to watch the episode live last night, but Brazilian HBO Go crashed for the second Sunday in a row. I can’t help but laugh, this is the one time of the year when most people actually care about HBO and they screw it.

So, the episode. I feel it had higher highers and lower lowers? But it still navigates ‘meh’ waters for the most part. My thoughts on it:

Dragonstone

Dany saying Dragonstone doesn’t feel like home is an interesting concept: how much Westeros is Dany’s home? If not Westeros, then where? What will book!Dany feel when she arrives? What is home, anyway? All great questions, so we know the show won’t explore them.

It’s great to see Daenerys calling Varys on his bullshit, but this should have happened two seasons ago when he first arrived in Meereen, not now that he took care of her city while she was gone and they had a fun cruise together. And again show!Dany basically shrugs away the fact that Varys tried to kill her! Why? What is he bringing to #TeamTargaryen anyway?

See, this is what happens when you cut a character or subplot without thinking of the consequences. Varys’ motivations earlier in the show make sense for a Varys that champions his perfect prince Aegon for the Iron Throne. They cut Aegon, but forgot to adjust Varys’ motivations accordingly and now are having to fix it.

But wait, there’s more! While book!Dany has many qualities that I admire and that can make her a great queen, I don’t feel comfortable backing her claim for the Iron Throne just yet. Just like Stannis had to learn to ‘save the kingdom to win the throne’ and not the other way around, Dany still has to deconstruct the ‘usurper’ narrative and understand why people in Westeros didn’t want the Targaryens anymore. Book!Dany hasn’t done this yet, but neither has show!Dany. On the contrary, the show goes out of its way to emphasize the ‘conquest’ aspect of Dany’s coming to Westeros, with her being a little more pyromaniac than I would like. What makes Varys think she’ll be a better ruler than her father? What makes any of her allies think that?

After careful consideration, Dany decides for starvation instead of burning. A true champion of the people! Yaaahhhs queen! Because that won’t get the innocent killed, I’m sure.

Show!Tyrion is a character I can’t stand anymore. All he does is mansplain things to Daenerys like she was some silly child and play the Reasonable Man™ to murder-happy Strong Female Characters™ Yara, Ellaria, and Olenna. Why is he on #TeamTargaryen? What does he add to the group or Daenerys’ cause? And I’m not even gonna comment on the idiocy of storming Casterly Rock by sea, but hey, this comes from the writers that think you can go around Moat Cailin. Someone should paint a map of Westeros in the writer’s room, just saying.

Olenna is another character I’ll be happy to see gone. What’s with ‘they won’t obey you unless they fear you’? Has she attended the Cersei Lannister School of Leadership too? And what is ‘be a dragon’ even supposed to mean?

Hey, at least Yara expressed her own thoughts this time instead of letting Theon do it. Progress, I guess.

Melisandre took a flight from Plot Airlines and arrived in Dragonstone just to deliver exposition on a prophecy. I love when the writers sudden remember they should have seeded certain things ages ago and expect we won’t notice if they shoehorn it now. Also why is Melisandre so convinced that Dany is hot shit? Because she has a fancy hair and dragons? On the plus side, we got Missandei translating things and that’s always welcome.

Speaking of Missandei, the scene between her and Greyworm was really sweet, if a bit too long. I think this scene worked so well because those two are the only characters in this show that I like with no reservations; everybody else is a jerk to some degree and I can’t bring myself to root for them. Great acting from Jacob Anderson, he did in one scene more than Kit Harrignton and Emilia Clarke do in a whole season. My complaints are Missandei’s lack of underwear (in winter? Really?) and the forced accents.

King’s Landing

Cersei has a point: what reasons do the nobles of Westeros have to believe that Dany won’t be like Aerys? On the other hand, you know who’s also like Aerys? Cersei ‘let’s burn the sept with everyone inside’ Lannister! Ugh, this show.

‘She has three fully grown dragons, my grace’ and Gilly still has a tiny baby, so dragons grow extra fast in this show.

‘It’s a long ride back to the reach’, says Randyll. Yeah, but if you leave now you can be there before the episode is over.

Qyburn follows the Essos Daily twitter account, so he knows details of the fight in Meereen. He also just watched The Hobbit and wants to do a Bard-on-Smaug to Dany’s dragons.

Oldtown

I barely care about book!Jorah, but I certainly don’t care about show!Jorah. He outlived whatever purpose he had in the narrative, I hate how his feelings for Dany are framed as romantic and I hate how the show simply forgot the reason why Jorah was banned from Westeros in first place. Yes, he is dead for his family, for the minor misdemeanor of SELLING PEOPLE FFS. Jorah is an unrepentant slaver and a creepy crush won’t suddenly make him a sympathetic character, quite the opposite.

Jorah’s greyscale moved at the speed of plot, but fortunately didn’t affect his face so that Dany can still love Iain Glen’s looks. I’m glad Dany x Jon are an obvious romantic endgame for the show, because otherwise D&D might actually pair Dany and Jorah.

Last week we had poop montage, this week we have an overly long scene of Sam removing Jorah’s skin. This is what makes bold television and mature entertainment, I guess.

By the way, isn’t greyscale supposed to be on your blood or something? It isn’t exactly a skin condition that can be cured by just removing the skin, or I’m sure other people would have tried it before. This treatment makes no sense, but when has that ever stopped the writers?

Winterhell

Sam’s raven arrived in Winterfell ridiculously fast, but it almost seems too slow compared to Dany’s raven. And I’m guessing nobody at the Wall bothered sending a raven saying that Bran is alive and well and coming their way ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Of course Sansa thinks Tyrion is the best. Who doesn’t think Tyrion is the best? He didn’t rape her, isn’t that the nicest thing a man can do for you? Ugh.

Again the writers’ choice to create conflict between the Stark siblings is to skip pre-meeting and make them argue in front of everyone. Again Sansa and Jon disagree because the plot needs them to disagree. Again the crowd cheers whoever is speaking.

Jon didn’t want to be king, he says. He just accepted it, he says. I can’t explain how much I hate this trope. Bad writers everywhere seem to believe that a good leader is the guy that doesn’t want to be a leader, because ambition is evil so a guy that wants to be leader must be evil. This is all levels of stupid and there’s no faster way to make sure somebody will do a lousy job than forcing them to do a job they don’t want to do.

We’ve moved on from trashing Stannis post-death to trashing Catelyn post-death. Ugh.

Somewhere in the Riverlands

Arya’s meeting with Hot Pie was weird. Hot Pie’s presence feels more like an easter egg than two old friends seeing each other after a long time. Maisie Williams is usually a great actor, but she’s been acting quite stiff this season. Maybe it’s D&D’s tradition of thinking that Strong Female Characters™ show no emotions?

Arya ‘heard’ Cersei is queen, but when she left Westeros Cersei was also queen, so...? It seems everybody gets their news super fast except for Arya. Maybe the cell phone signal at the Riverlands isn’t very good? Okay that Arya doesn’t know the Starks rule Winterfell again, but why didn’t she tried to go to the Wall as soon as she arrived in Westeros?

I hate that this is called ‘Battle of the Bastards’ in universe. It’s a stupid name on its own, but makes even less sense from a watsonian perspective. To call it ‘Battle of the Bastards’ is to make this a personal fight between Jon and Ramsay, but that’s not what it was. It was a battle for Winterfell and the North, a battle between Starks and Boltons even. Jon and Ramsay haven’t even met before that.

Nymeria showed up to announce that the show is officially cutting their husky-in-a-direwolf-body CGI budget. That scene felt super contrived and just made me angry at the writers. In the books we know Arya and Nymeria will meet again, and we know their connection is still strong, because Martin had been foreshadowing this for ages. In the show we never heard of Nymeria after season 1 and now she just showed up to say she won’t show up anymore.

Somewhere in the sea

I think the show reached a new level of racism, exotification and hypersexualization of PoC with “foreign invasion”. Good thing D&D won’t be showrunners for an upcoming tv show where the South won the Civil War. Can you imagine?

Yallaria didn’t live to its hype. Yara is bisexual, because of course a character that flirts with everyone is bisexual.

To whoever thought it would be a good idea to have the Sand Snakes as catty and childish murder-happy women: don’t.

The battle was confusing. Not only the lighting was terrible but also for the most part I couldn’t make sense of who was fighting for what side. Euron hired some Destruction mages from Skyrim so he could use Fireballs against the Sand Snakes. Maybe they’ll replace the dragonhorn with Odahviing?

It’s painfully obvious the showrunners want Euron to be scary, a Ramsay 2.0. and Joffrey 3.0. He even has a mustache to twirl! That’s only because they clearly can’t write a story without an obvious and defined human villain, who must be MOAR EVUHL than his predecessors. I won’t be surprised if we see Euron spitting on puppies and peeing on flowers. Sigh… This is just ridiculous.

Book!Euron is scary, but because we have subtle hints of his monstrosity. He’s a human villain, the last great human villain of ASOIAF, but he stitches the magical and the political arcs together. Show!Euron is just the same edginess and sadism we’ve seen before with other overused villains, now with a really silly appearance.

The plot needs Theon’s trauma to exist again, so Theon’s trauma exists again. I’m all for exploring PTSD and traumatic experiences on fiction, but that doesn’t mean you can ignore the trauma until it’s convenient for the plot or scream it away like Yara did last season.

I’m sure no misogyny will come from Euron having Yara and Ellaria captive. 

Extra comments

After months of studying, I think I finally figured the laws of succession in D&D’s Westeros: whoever is the closest named character is automatically the heir. See: Cersei in King’s Landing, Ellaria in Dorne, Edd in the Night’s Watch...

What’s with the funny editing? You know the thing, they show something gross, then show food that looks a lot like the gross thing… Come on, guys, you’re not twelve.

(maybe they are? That would explain A LOT)

Once more they’re not even trying with the costumes and wigs. Sansa’s wig in particular is so bad it’s distracting.

What’s with the forced accents? Why every time a character is supposed to be ~foreign~ they go with a generic broken English accent? If you want a different accent than the main cast, make them use an American accent! Why not?

What happened to Stannis’ men? Was this ever, like, explained?

So that was it, another hour with stuff happening.