#<- kind of? Happy vent :3 I'm just surprised

[wrestlingwreck]

LivDom's Problems

This is probably more of a vent post than anything else, but I said I would make a post about this at some point, so here it is. If you're a LivDom fan you're gonna wanna scroll past this.

Right off the bat I'm going to disclose that I am a RheaDom and L4B truther, but this post isn't about them. I'm going to do my best to view LivDom in a vacuum, without comparing them to other ships, except where it would be unavoidably relevant.

I also want to say that I have no issue with Liv or Dom as characters. I actually love both of them as SEPARATE ENTITIES. My problems begin and end with them as a couple. Also, this is in no way meant to hate on LivDom fans. I'm not going to tag this as LivDom because anyone scrolling through that tag probably doesn't want to see posts against them. This is purely an opinion.

Also, I know it's all kayfabe, but I'm treating it like it's real, because it's more fun that way.

With that said, I'm going to start with my most biased point, as it's based mainly on personal preference.

1. PDA

The amount of PDA shown by this couple is something I find to be uncomfortable, but more than that, it feels too showy, like they're overcompensating for the cameras. They're constantly hanging off each other, rubbing noses, making suggestive comments, and using pet names. It's Like they have to PROVE that they're a real, happy couple.

Additionally, Liv's insistence on calling Dom 'Daddy' is just... gross. I'm not against Mommy/Daddy kinks- some could even say I understand the appeal- but it crosses the line when someone calls their partner that in public in what is clearly supposed to be a sexual manner. I don't want to be forced to hear a woman call a man Daddy, and I don't know many people that do.

Also- and this is again more down to preference- you will never show me this man and convince me that he is 'Daddy.'

2. How They Started

Dominik and Liv literally got together because Dominik CHEATED ON RHEA WITH LIV IN FRONT OF HER AFTER SABOTAGING HER TITLE MATCH. Regardless of your feelings on RheaDom, that is deeply wrong. It also establishes a pattern of behavior.

We always knew that Dominik is a slimy little weasel- it's one of the funniest things about him. He betrayed his family for the Judgment Day, then betrayed Rhea for Liv. It isn't out of the question that he will eventually betray Liv for someone else.

Namely, another champion.

I'm not saying that this would ever actually happen, but it goes to further my point. When Tiffany essentially hit on Dom when talking about cashing in her briefcase, he didn't look uncomfortable or annoyed.

He looked... intrigued.

Until, that is, Liv looked back at him and he realized that his girlfriend might be upset.

It wasn't exactly the reaction of someone who is unquestionably loyal to Liv, is all I'm saying

3. His Reasoning

To start, I'm just going to quote Dominik verbatim as to why he chose Liv over her.

"Now, I got a girl that calls me Daddy. She gives me tendies whenever I want, she lets me play video games whenever I want, she lets me be me. And, she did something you could never do- finally helping me beat my deadbeat dad."

Does this sound like someone who chose Liv because he just loves her so, so much? Or does this sound like a spoiled child talking about why he wants his babysitter to be his real mom?

He only talks about what Liv does/did for him. He doesn't say that she's kind/smart/courageous. He focuses on her physical appeal and how she indulges him.

He also claims that he was embarrassed to call Rhea 'Mami,' but the first time he does it is of his own volition, and Rhea seemed visibly surprised when it happened.

4. Finally, Communication

Dominik isn't the sharpest knife in the drawer- this is nothing new- and he's not particularly skilled at reading the room. He doesn't pick up on tone or subtext. He doesn't read between the lines. He takes words at face value and doesn't question them. He requires clear communication, especially if someone is upset with him.

Liv is not someone adept at clear communication. She's passive-agressive and doesn't always say what she thinks. It's played for laughs, but it's still true.

After Rhea wins the title back from Liv, Dominik asks if Liv is mad at him for trying to hug Rhea (which he explained away as him trying to steal the title, even though he would know damn well that's not how it works), and Liv says that she isn't mad in a tone that makes it very, very clear that she is, indeed, mad.

Dominik, however, doesn't question this. He takes her words at face value, despite Finn, JD, and even Carlito being able to tell that Liv is at least a little upset with him. Eventually, we're led to believe that Liv just got over it, but the core issue of communication was not solved.

In Conclusion

Without taking other relationships like RheaDom and L4B into consideration, I propose the claim that Liv and Dominik are, in my opinion, the WORST kind of straight couple. Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

[pleasestayawayidonotlikeyou]

if it's ok can you do a bad sanses x scp child reader. where nightmare find them in her negative universe all alone trying to survive (since she lost her father and friends) cause something bad happened and takes them in as their healer (cause the child doesn't want to kill). nightmare found her when she was 7/8 years old, nightmare would see a bit of his passive self in her, and the child would be neutral with the whole situation given they have seen crazier things from where their from (and just wanted to escape their situation from their world). but is a good kid and despite not wanting to hurt anyone she would rather get themselves hurt to protect those she cares for (would literally take a hit from anyone who tries to hurt dadmare, killer, horror and dust because of their past trauma and defend them with her telekinesis). their drawbacks of their abilities is if she gets extremely hurt or looses a limb when having zero energy she can't regenerate until her stamina is helped (energy like full sleep and have food or beverage basically having good stamina) but still can't die. (this is based off an oc of mine so here is more info with a pic to help) she sometime would have her breakdowns like the others from past trauma (also her soul would be perseverance) I'm sorry for the long read i hope your ok with this and if you have any questions I'm happy to answer :3

Holy shit this took too long to write-

Featuring: Nightmare, Killer, Dust and Ted.

Masterlist

Nightmare

Ah yes. Another dumb kid for him to add to the collection.

Since you were quite useful with your healing powers and all, he took you in. Big mistake.

Nightmare now finds himself caring for another kid (the other kids are the Killer Dust and Ted), oh well.

Is very impressed with your ability to regenerate limbs.. it's... Fascinating..

His grumpy self turns into one a bit more content.

You're like a memory of himself in the past, the voice that always keeps ticking in his mind, except you are real. "I am too.."

Didn't find out about Killer bringing you into missions until Ted came furiously to him demanding to know why would his boss let a child go to mass murderer missions.

Spoiler alert, he didn't know and quickly became enraged, that's his kid, how dare Killer bring you to missions without his knowledge!?

Nightmare finds it adorable when you try to protect him, he's already a god silly, he can't die!

Dust

Stay still, he wants to study you.

He may or may not like SCPs...

Holds a notebook and pen, writing down any information he can get out of you.

Impressed with your powers, but not surprised, he knows Nightmare wouldn't take in a healer who can't defend themselves.

Watches in the shadows, if you need him just call his name.

Finds Killer's idea of bringing you to missions dumb, but there's nothing he can do can he?

You two may have time alone, and he uses that time to gossip about Killer's dumbass.

On really really rare occasions, he'll vent about his past, about the guilt he feels about his actions.

Killer

Another one to be influenced by him.

Nightmare doesn't let you near killer without supervision, that's a big no no.

He doesn't want to wake up hearing laughter with his face painted with permanent marker again.

Killer likes having someone around, especially because you can

He finds it cute when you try to protect him, you're not even to his waist! How are you going to fight a fucking god like dream?

Well, his jaw is on the ground now. "HOLY SHIT NIGHTMARE WHAT KIND OF POWERS DOES THIS KID HAVE???"

Yep, he's bringing you in missions now.

Also Killer named a cat after you.

Ted

The fact that you need to be healthy to be able to regenerate is the perfect excuse for him to cook more food.

He repays you when you heal him he makes your favorite dessert.

Ted thinks you're too naive and innocent for battle, and gets pretty annoyed every time you go in missions with them.

Even knowing you can regenerate and defend yourself it still keeps him worried, what if you run out of energy?

Also blames Killer for any scratch you get, he's the one who made you go with them so he's the one to blame.

He's the one who's with you almost 24/7, acts like an actual big brother, may even apresent you to his Papyrus.

When you defend him in an argument, he feels so fucking special, no he doesn't have tears on his eyes you're just hallucinating.

[write-something-new-again]

ROMANTIC Kotosaku headcannons!!! <3

There's like 4 Kotosaku shippers on the internet and I am one of them. So here are some headcannons because they are so sweet together:

They are each other's #1 therapist. For a long while, way before they were together, it was Sakura who'd come in after a rough day and just complain for however long he wanted. Kotoha is more than happy to lend an ear, nod in agreement, and drop tidbits of advice where she feels necessary. She knows Sakura's never had people to rely on and talk with before, so if his version of opening up is venting about the gum he stepped on that day, she will listen to every damn word.

Then one day, to Kotoha's surprise, Sakura quietly tells her, "You know... you can tell me when stuff is bothering you, too..." Safe to say she was pretty shocked. But also, yeah, there is something bothering her. All the other kids keep taking her hair ties, and now she has none. And this type of bonding just kind of stuck around, where they'll crash into Sakura's apartment and just complain back and forth about all the bullshit they dealt with that day until it feels a weight has been lifted off both of their shoulders.

Sakura is obviously still super sensitive about affection and touch, but Kotoha has the patience of ten thousand saints for him. Their biggest thing is just walking super close to each other, basically shoulder-to-shoulder. He's a big hand-holder,,, especially when they're by themselves. Every now and then Sakura will feel brave enough to do it in public. Kotoha loves running her hands through his hair.

Heteronormativity? Kotosaku don't know her. Sakura's the one relaxedly resting his head on her shoulder. Kotoha pays for meals and spoils him with gifts and treats. They plan dates together.

Quality time is their love language. The main thing that starting tipping people off that they might be getting closer than just friends is how often they were being seen together. Sakura comes back to Pothos in the afternoons. Then people see them walking around town together. Kotoha frequently disappearing into and walking out of his apartment. More than a couple they are literally best friends, they just love being around each other. Doesn't matter if they're chatting, shopping, or are just in the same room as each other, they just like having the other in their vicinity, knowing that they're close by.

Neither are the jealous type!! Sakura's pretty oblivious when people are flirting with him, but if he ever does recognize it, he doesn't even blush that bad. He just gives them a casual "oh, sorry, I'm seeing someone." The only reason he'd be embarrassed is too much attention on him, which he will go and of course complain to Kotoha about.

Kotoha understands why people would be flirting with him, her boyfriend is pretty stunning after all, but she feels incredibly confident Sakura isn't looking at anyone other than her, so it doesn't affect her much. When people start pressing him is when Kotoha will come up and be like "Hey, soooo I'm his girlfriend :)) could you stop flirting with him please"

In the same way, Sakura doesn't freak when people come onto Kotoha. She's a great person, of course she'd attract people, but Sakura knows she likes him. And that she wouldn't drop him for someone else. When someone is pressing her for her number, Sakura will simply come up and wrap an arm around her. The Bofurin jacket usually scares them off.

HOLY CRAP THIS POST GOT WAY TOO LONG I'M SO SORRY!! I will end it here for now with: Kotoha loves sending pictures of accessories in the morning so he can help choose what to wear. Even if it clashes absolutely horribly with her outfit, she will wear whatever he picks.

They are best friends your honor. Makochi's cutest low-key couple. Umemiya's worst nightmare and also dream come true. Kotosaku ftw.

[cricky-butspicy]

Me again! (surprise surprise) continuing the thought from the chats here: https://www.tumblr.com/cricky-butspicy/784907028098367488/nother-thought-say-reader-is-watching-some-sort?source=share (with no pressure to respond anytime soon or at all really!) but my brain is dead set on writing up another drabble for this one (after I finish Atlas's) cause some good ol' break up comfort sounds so nice; so I'm gonna pick your brain a bit more for a more accurate representation for the two XD reader continues to pull them along, mindless ranting since they're upset and basically 'forcing' the boys into a sleepover cause they don't want to be alone right now (they didn't ask if it'd be okay to stay at their place, just assumed Soleil or Atlas wouldn't kick them out), so they pick up some snacks and drinks and take out, set up a blanket fort in their living room (assuming that would be allowed) putting on more romcoms that go mostly unwatched as they continue to just rant and vent their feelings. "you don't need them, they didn't deserver you anyway!" "yeah, fuck 'em!" in passing though the term makes reader huff and squeeze at a pillow. "Thank god I didn't actually fuck them... though that was a whole different argument we had. I wasn't sure I wanted to, especially since I didn't really enjoy just kissing them, and then it'd escalate to how I always compared them to one of you two... which maybe I did compare them too much. Oh god maybe everything was all my fault? I was the problem. What's wrong with me?" Insert Soleil and Atlas comforting them, assuring them that your partner shouldn't be trying to force you into anything, and while you might have been comparing your partner too much, that maybe that was just a sign that they weren't what you were looking for anyway, and it's good it ended without more regrets. That it's fine if you don't enjoy kissing, or more than kissing.

Reader admits while hiding their face in the pillow that they do like kissing and want to try more than that, that they really enjoy kissing, at least they did when it was with Atlas or Soleil. "Well I guess it's a good thing we're dating now so we can keep practicing all you'd like~" Atlas would tease, which I think Soleil would scold him for; unsure if reader had really meant what they said or if like most of the other things tonight spoken, was just a rush of feelings in the moment. Reader would apologize, embarrassed that they said that in the first place without even checking with either of them trying to further hide themselves away. aaaand I'm not sure how they'd react from there though depending on how far the two would be comfortable going right away I'd want it to lead to naughty fun time XD in my mind it'd be a 'let's explore and find out, stop us if it's too much' - Readers perspective though would be a 'I do love these two but they def only see me as a friend, we kiss and more in my dreams, kind of thing' XD

I'm more than happy to answer you on this because I love to indulge you and see what comes next <3

First thing is first:

Reader is right. Atlas nor Soleil will kick them out. They would actually insist on buying the snacks, drinks, and food. You are their Starlight/Sunshine. They can't make you buy them. So they are paying (By which I mean Atlas is paying, because Soleil is still confused and isn't picking up on hints,) and Atlas already knows the game you are playing with not wanting to be alone and spending the night. He'll give up his couch for you or get you to snuggle with Soleil in his tiny twin XL-size bed if anything (is what he thinks going into this.)(Fun Fact. Atlas won't let reader into his room until it's either *confirmed* dating with you that's more than just talking all the time and holding hands or if you're getting hot and bothered together, which he is about to FIND OUT.)

Next,

Sol does not want a blanket fort in the living room. It MAY LOOK VERY COMFY but it's a lot of clean up and laundry, he'd rather not. It's just cuddle on the couch time or move the coffee table to sit on the floor in front of the couch to all talk together. He prefers stuff like that done in Attie's room, but NO ONE BUT ME KNOWS WHAT IT REALLY LOOKS LIKE YET AND THAT KILLS ME BECUSAE I CAN'T ELABORATE. Spoilers 😔 But he'll allow a few pillows out to cuddle with and an extra big blanket to share between the three of you.

Another thing,

Soleil and Atlas DO NOT like romcoms. They only watch them because you want to and you like them. Romcoms make them uncomfortable because ew kisses and bad jokes? Ew kisses and bad jokes. (Not all romcoms are kisses and bad jokes, that's just how they see them.) So, yes they are definitely not paying attention to them.

"You don't need them, they didn't deserve you anyway!" is definitely Soleil vibes while "Yeah, fuck 'em!" is very Atlas.

Which brings me to our next point, you bring up fucking, and those boys go quiet. They are furious inside that this person even brought up fucking you. Like, your relationship was not that intense, (In their eyes at least, they've heard you complain about it before) and that person has NO RIGHT to put their dirty claws on you. But they do come back once you start getting upset with yourself. Atlas is definitely first to place the very definite boundary of "No one should force you into doing anything you don't want to do, even if you are dating them. That's shitty and disgusting." But Soleil will definitely add, "Maybe you did compare them a little too much to me and Attie, but who can blame you! They weren't your taste, and that's ok! Leave them in the dust! They never deserved you in the first place! Some others, or uh, someone else can treat you much better! But at least you left before more could happen!" "Yeah, before you created any bigger regrets. The damage control is small, Starlight. It's easy clean up." "Just what Attie said! You just learned that maybe you don't like kissing or more than kissing, and that's more than ok! You don't have to like that kind of thing and it doesn't need to be in any of your relationships!"

And then reader can admit and these boys are a bit speechless for a second with Soleil going a bit red and Atlas gaining shit-eating grin to tease with that "Well I guess it's a good thing we're dating now so we can keep practicing all you'd like~" only for Soleil to smack his arm and scold him along the lines of "Be quiet! It was a heat of the moment answer! Don't tease them for it!" before whispering very quiet to Atlas "you'll scare them away! This is sensitive timing; we have to be careful!"

And que reader apologizing and being embarrassed about it and hiding, and both Soleil and Atlas getting a bit quiet and looking at them before Atlas gets Soleil away from him to reach out and try to comfort the reader while trying to pull the pillow away while saying something close to:

"Hey, if it's how you really felt, is it that bad to say? I mean, sure, it was heat of the moment, but you meant it, didn't you? You'd rather date us, wouldn't you?"

"Attie!" Soleil would try to interrupt, but would be sadly ignored by his boyfriend.

"I think we'd both be thrilled to date you, and I'm sure we could show you a lot more than kissing that you might like better from us. Only if you'd want it though. Don't let us try to swindle you like that poor excuse of an ex, though. We go as far as you go, or at least as far as Soleil's poor little heart will allow him until he's horny enough if you decide far enough."

Lucky for you, it is a "let's explore and find out, stop us if it's too much" scenario that Atlas will snatch up in a second with the proper ok. They've wanted this with the reader for MUCH too long now. They don't like wasting time, especially Atlas. And Soleil will about explode with all of the kissing teasing that is bound to happen without any release somehow. And with you pretty much spending the night, he's not getting it unless him and Attie sneak off to the bathroom once you fall asleep if you don't want to go that far, which is fine! It works! But he'll be extra sensitive and maybe a little snippy until he gets a little release from being overwhelmed and overstimulated by horny.

I think this is so fun because some of these aspects WILL be explored in the fic, it's simply later on when things get a little more serious between reader and the boys! There is still much to happen! We gotta get through the PI Christopher arc!

[nopekaat]

✨The Witcher 4 Trailer Spoilers ! ✨

First of all : OH MY GOOODD IM SO HAPPY IT WAS THE BEST WAY TO WOKE UP ???? I was sleeping when my partner just whispered in my ears "the witcher 4's trailer is out." ??? Loved it :'))) But now let's talk about what happens in it ?

(books spoilers included !!) Ciri being the main character is awesome and I'm impatient to play as her and more importantly, having her BACK as the main character she ALWAYS have been. Despite loving Geralt with my whole heart, the witcher saga always have been about ciri AND her parents (Geralt + Yennefer). I always felt like it was logical to start the story with the parents and then the child ? it is an easy way to write a story but also the more logical (in my mind at least). So having CDprojekt do the same as the books is not surprising. If you loo closely, the games ALWAYS follow a similar storyline of the book saga... and that's why the games work so well ! Some people in the Youtube comments section where talking about the lore accuracy and how some stuff is not possible. Well, it is lie 25 to 30 % book accurate when it comes to magic spell and the "ability to drink potions" stuff has already been suggested or shown in the Witcher 3.

Magic spell : Yennefer did teach her all the basic spells in the books when they both live at Melitele Temple. We read about ciri using them (or trying too, let the girl learn) + she uses magic again to save Ihuarraqua + at the end of the saga, she was supposed to enter the Lodge, only powerful sorcereress can enter (as far as I know) ! The thing is : we do not see her use it (except the elder blood one) in the witcher 3 so i get that most of the time we forget that ciri is a witcher AND a sorceress. In the game, it is only adressed one time and it's in a punch Avallac'h make to Yennefer at Kaer Morhen about how little her teaching about magic was... We also know without actually seeing it that Avallac'h teach her magic the whole time they were together.... so seeing her using it in the trailer is NO SURPRISE but more like FINALLY hhhhh

"Ciri drining potions ?" : It is very small but (!) at the end of the Blood&Wine DLC, if Geralt doesn't end up with Yen or Triss, Ciri comes to see him at Corvo Bianco. They then talk about stuff and she happened to explain she succeeded in killing a vampire by drinking a black blood potion (I played in french and its Sang Noir for me so I don't know if it's the right name for the potion in english)... So at the end END of the 3rd game it is suggested that ciri can indeed consume witcher's potions. And I feel like we will finally get our answers in the next game :'))) and that's fantastic.

To conclude : I feel like this trailer is no surprise AT ALL, for having read the books and played the 3rdgame (3 times at 100%... I have no social life) , the next game just feels like the normal following of everything. Even if Ciri getting the trials of glass and having the cat eyes seems more like "the gamer wishes" than book accuracy (???) well who cares, the games definitely aren't 100% Book lore accurate to start with so.... but it didn't forbid us to have fun and experienced one of the best games ever, so who cares in the end hehe CDPR just kind of suggested all of it before in my eyes hhh I just hope the next one is going to be as wonderful as the others :) CDprojekt writing and world building are crazy, very humanness and deeps, i'm so impatient omg Sorry for my english by the way. I just wanted to vent somewhere so don't take my words as craved ones in the stones tho hhh 😭

[azaharinflames]

re: https://www.tumblr.com/azaharinflames/778644117685239808/idk-i-think-we-are-lying-a-bit-to-ourselves-when?source=share

I think this was an all of the above kind of situation.

To the original anon's point (correct me if I misrepresent), the show wouldn't have even gone this route if it weren't for all the BoBs pushing the narrative. Also, Tim's post episode interview did leave a door slightly open purely for baiting purposes.

To your first point, Aisha, who clearly knows what he really intends, slammed the door shut, locked the door, tied the key to rock, through the rock down the well, filled the well with concrete, sold the house and moved to a different state. B*ddie ain't happening, it was never happening, and this ONLY put this slightly on the radar of the GA to let them know it's not happening.

To your other point, and this is what is getting to me, Tim went this route because it was the easiest choice. Tim wanted a break up so he latched on to the laziest solution with the Abby debacle and now he wants to draw out the reconciliation a little bit more so he switched to this other lazy choice. Is it the biphobic special that Buck is just going to leave him for a woman or the other biphobic special that Buck wants to bang his best friend? All of this could have been solved if Tim treated his characters as complicated and having actual backstories and motivations that made rather than tools for where he wants his plot to go. Honestly, pick a friggin lane, Tim.

Hi, Nonnie!

I do agree with you. I think the show decided to go down this route because the situation with Bobs is starting to become untenable. And I wouldn't be surprised if it was the network to decide the situation has reached that point. Their behavior since last year has been a lot, and too much. Also, agree that the tiniest door was kept ajar by Tim for only baiting purposes. In other interviews and what he told Aisha tells us he also wants to close the door on it. Also, thank you Queen Aisha for coming clean with that and expose Tim, lmao. We are forever thankful.

Yes, that's the thing, isn't it? I agree with everyone who has said Tim is a sort of lazy writer, and this only proves it. Yeah, it can seem grandiose because 911 is good at making the big emergencies and having high stakes, but if we get down to the basics? He goes for the quickest and easiest option. I think you sum it up perfectly with this:

"All of this could have been solved if Tim treated his characters as complicated and having actual backstories and motivations that made rather than tools for where he wants his plot to go"

You are on point. And this goes for nearly every character, btw. That's why, even with after a really good episode (811) we are still hesitant to trust Tim, or the show, or the resolution we'll get from this. I am more hopeful than I was a week ago, but I also know to be cautious.

My inbox is open for ranting, venting, giving your opinion (unpopular or popular, I'm happy to receive and discuss both), and even confessions! Though if you don't want yours posted, please make sure to say :)

Take care <3

[icycoldninja]

Thank you so much for doing my first request!! I love your writing, alot!! if your requests are still open, can i have another request?

Basically the sparda boys + v with therapist!reader because they need therapy! Also reader is secretly a billionaireso reader pays the bills in the devil may cry office, spoils them with the sutff they like and always checks on them, telling them that they can let their feelings out, like a therapist !!

if your requests are closed, you can delete this <3

Thanks so much!! Don't worry, requests are still open. Enjoy!

Sparda boys + V x Therapist!Reader headcannons

¤ Dante ¤

-Dante's the definition of "but I'm fine" after talking for 2 hours.

-Expect him to be very moody and sulky during therapy cause he's not used to venting on such a personal level before.

-His jokes get progressively lamer as each layer of trauma is shed, eventually revealing himself as the sad, broken man he really is.

-Is very surprised when all his bills magically get paid by an anonymous person who keeps sending him money and pizza to Devil May Cry every week.

-Never realizes you are his mysterious benefactor but he appreciates what is being done for him and doesn't hesitate to tell you all about his secret caregiver. It makes your day to hear how happy you make him.

-He slowly becomes more comfortable with talking his feelings out, and once that happens, he becomes an unstoppable chatterbox.

■ Vergil ■

-Vergil hates the very idea of therapy because he believes he is a MOTIVATED individual who is independent enough to handle his inner issues on his own.

-However, you're very persistent and manage to get him to sit down for a session, much to his reluctance.

-You're oddly kind to him and listen to all his troubles with an open mind--something he's not used to. Though at first he is very cagey about everything, Vergil gladly warms up to you and confesses his deeper secrets.

-He finds it very odd that a secret benefactor has just started sending him presents and money only a few days after he began seeing you as his therapist. It could be a coincidence, but then...maybe not.

-Although he wants to know who is sending him gifts, he decides to just let his mysterious benefactor run their course and not spoil their intentions. Who knows, they might reveal themselves someday.

-Starts writing thank-you notes and leaves them out on the doorstep for you to find.

□ Nero □

-Nero is against therapy for personal reasons. He thinks he alone should know all his secrets and issues, and that he alone should deal with them. He doesn't need outsiders meddling in his affairs.

-He demonstrates his dislike for therapy by being the most rebellious, recalcitrant jerk to have ever walked into your office.

-He talks back to you almost all the time, is extremely rude, and once stole a set of ballpoint pens from your desk because he didn't like how you were jotting down everything he said.

-When he finds random gifts and things being sent to him, as well as his bills being mysteriously paid, Nero gets very suspicious. We're you giving away his address to stalkers?

-Slowly, Nero realizes that his mysterious benefactor is only looking out for him and supporting him, though for what reasons, he has no idea.

-He's grateful for all this help, but still a little wary. He doesn't trust you yet, but maybe with time, he will someday.

● V ●

-V is probably the only one here who actually agrees with the idea of therapy.

-He was a little nervous at first, but seeing how warm and welcoming you are to him relaxes him a lot.

-He's shy and doesn't say all that much at first, but over time, you manage to coax him into speaking to you more.

-He is pleasantly surprised when gifts and bits of money start appearing at his doorstep nearly every day, because last he checked, he didn't have a steady job.

-He can't figure out who's doing this, but he's grateful all the same. He'd love to meet whoever's behind this and thank them for their generosity.

-V's taken up baking treats and leaving them on the doorstep in cute boxes as a way to thank his unseen gift giver.

[sillyromance]

Good day Ma'am,

First of all I LOVE THE NEW STORY SO MUCH, I really love of it turned out. Second of all do you have some funny/interesting moments of Vincent and Marcella in mind? Like we're someone maid a funny mistake or something? Or do you have some loveble (I hope it's written like this) moments of the two of them? Thank you if you answer and like always have a good day Ma'am!

- Anon L.

Good day dear Anon L.!

Thank you very much for your kind words! I'm happy you like the story❤️❤️❤️

Speaking of funny moments, I can think of only one for now – it’s partially shown on my Marcella’s page. She was quite surprised to learn that Vincent could purr. If you have ever heard how panthers purr (* I've learned that tigers don't purr, but chuff which isn't really what I need), you can imagine what it sounds like. When he revealed his ability for the first time, the girl, confused, asked if there was a cat in the house; yet, once realization struck her, Marcella’s face was priceless! She was questioning her entire existence at that point…

Plus, furniture in Vincent’s house has been made specifically for its gigantic owner; when Marcella needs to take something off the shelves, it becomes impossible without a ladder or her husband’s help. Vincent may turn a bit playful and tease her about her short height; then she makes an adorable pouty face which is practically too hilarious not to laugh at!

🌸 As for fluff and lovable moments – here are a few ideas I can give!

1) Vincent is a very tough and cautious man. He doesn’t like being touched by strangers, and even his best friend Georgy giggles at Nor’s grumpy face every time pulling him into a hug. Yet, Vincent lets his guard down when Marcella is around; she is allowed to do whatever she pleases with him since he feels safe only with his wife of all people, and she is definitely the only person allowed to touch his throat and stomach (from the outside) for those are his spots of extra vulnerability. Also, Marcella loves “hunting” Nor, sneaking behind his back and embracing him when Vincent is sitting at his desk. They both laugh afterwards, but god save you from doing the same! Vincent is a predator, he will instantly feel threatened if approached from behind his back without him noticing!

2) You can imagine, one meter height difference between husband and wife can be a difficulty when things come to communication. Yet, not for these two! Vincent is very attentive towards his precious little princess – when she speaks to him, Nor always bends forward to show he is listening; if she gets overwhelmed in public, it’s enough for Marcella to give his sleeve a little tug, and soon they are already home drinking tea. On the other hand, the girl knows her husband’s stress indicators just as well: Vincent rubs his temples or makes a vague gesture with his hand as if he is searching for something (in fact, he instinctively tries to find his wife’s hand). At home, Marcella makes him sit down and crawls onto his lap to give her man a hug; in public, she skillfully pulls him away from the crowd and leads him somewhere private so he can calm down and vent if he needs to. By the way, at some rare moment Vincent can feel “small” and defenseless despite his great strength and size. The best cure for him then is to lay his head down on Marcella’s stomach and feel his hair brushed by her tiny fingers. In some way, her body sounds give him an illusion of “switching roles” with his wife, allowing him to overcome anxiety and have rest during periods of insomnia.

3) As I mentioned before, Marcella is fascinated by her husband’s musical talent. Once she mentioned it while talking to him and expressed her sadness about not being able to accompany him when he is playing. So, he suggested educating her! She is an eager student while Vincent is a patient, yet demanding teacher; they're already able to perform some simple duets together! She tries to improvise as well, and Nor encourages her on her way for freedom from musical sheets, yet Marcella's experiments have been too shy so far.

4) From her side, Marcella tried to teach Vincent drawing. Let’s say, it wasn’t an easy task😅. Yet, now her husband often makes sketches in his diary when feelings are too hard to bare. The vast majority of his doodles are faces of people he knows, and the ways he portrays them in depend on his emotions. Nor often draws his nightmares, trying to get them out of his mind (Vincent won't admit it, but he gets anxious and suspicious after bad dreams). On top of that, addressing a letter to his wife, Vincent always draws a small lark on the bottom right corner of the paper. No one except the two knows about this habit of his, and that's why the sign serves two purposes: 1) a symbol of his love; 2) protection from fake letters which could lead his wife into a trap. The lark is composed of a calculated number of lines and special items drawn around the bird itself which makes the sign almost impossible to copy.

Thank you for asking and reading! Stay healthy and happy forever ❤️!

[todomitoukei]

Villain stan, I was already expecting an ending like Naruto's anime. Complete trash just for people that experience the story through fanon more than canon. Still, I feel robbed.

This is an anime about SUPERHEROES! What was the idea of finishing with the complete LoV dead or in jail? It would have costed nothing to put Toga, Spinner and Mr. Compress running amok, ready to avenge Twice, Magne, Shigaraki and Dabi. Marvel and DC never had a problem with having villains running free and getting ready for a next battle. An open ending that re-starts the circle as the hores need their villains.

Because Toga's death was bs, not only for being avoidable, but because the fans basically took the moment Ochake opened up about her grief towards Toga to make a DekuChako moment (Neji's death all over again >:v, the only difference is that this time it wasn't the Mangaka's intention to move a ship, but the fans decided to spit in Toga's death none the less).

And honestly, while every villain stan was "Dabi will live" I was "Gods, I hope he dies, because enything else will be a trash ending" and I WAS RIGHT! AT LEAST GIVE HIM THAT LAST SATISFACTION!

Also, Spinner just staying in jail like WHAT? Spinner was the villain who most respected and was the most loyal to Shigaraki, don't make him just write a book, MAKE HIM LEAD THE NEXT LEAGUE OF VILLAINS!

And of course, Endeavor and Hawks have no consecuences for their actions, everything just forgiven, even by the victims. Honestly, I was always in the posture of LoV as family >>>> Todofam, so I wasn't expecting Dabi's end to be more than a "We did it, we stopped Dabi. Now we are free of the past and move on, even if Dabi honestly can't" and this is one of the few times I hate to be right.

(Sorry for the venting, thank you for putting this space to talk about it.)

No need to apologize <3

You're so right about Toga's death immediately being used for different characters having a moment instead of, you know, focusing on her. I'm not sure if this manga could pass the Bechdel test.

That really is why the ending is so bad - the villains seem to not have left as much of a mark as they should've, the fact that the hero ranking system continues being in place is proof of that. You would think that society at the very least realized that treating heroes like celebrities was problematic, and yet nothing about that part of the system changed.

To be honest, I'm surprised they even let Spinner write and publish his book rather than seeing this as some kind of propaganda or safety risk. Remember how early on in the story when those Stain videos came out? It's surprising then that they let Spinner do this.

An ending that suggests the cycle starts again would've been interesting, but remember, Hori went for a "happy" ending

Hori was clearly in over his head writing a story that he ultimately was incapable of writing. The story had so much potential, yet here we are with a story that eventually decided to have nothing change.

I think the Todofam would be great, but I've always been of the opinion that it could never work with Endvr around, which is clear when you look at the Todofam finale where they are all supposedly eager to talk to Touya, only for none of them to say anything beyond that except for Endvr, who also ultimately says nothing other than how much of a victim he is. Boohoo.

Yeah, we were right. But at what cost...

[rubykgrant]

Omg I totally wanna see more random rvb ships. Gonna make a spinner for this. *spins spinner with tons of rvb names* ok we got some weird ones here, we got Biff and Doc for 1, Sheila and Volleyball for 2, 479er and Donur for 3, and Grey and Maine for 4.

PFFF if Biff came back and just did NOT want anything to do with Temple, that would kick-off a whole other murder-spree. Sheila deserves to have some dating fun too~

Honestly other potential relationship stuff that I'm not exactly "invested in", but still find interesting, are-

-Church and Locus; a guy with a short fuse and a BIG mouth... except Church doesn't get all stabby about it. That might be setting the bar VERY low, but Locus has some self-esteem issues, and this is actually a HUGE improvement. Also, the thing with Church is... he acts very mean to deflect and deny how much he cares, but once he's comfortable with showing it, he's capable of being very soft. Also, when Church is complaining about this-or-that, Locus will occasionally make a comment, maybe even that casually mocks Church (Locus only makes jokes on rare occasions, so each one is treated like a big deal). Church will stop ranting, walk over, sit in Locus' lap and just say- "Hey. That was funny"

-somehow, all the Orange-Reds (Turf, Drag, Morgan, Sue, Peake, Santos) survived that explosion (maybe they actually DID get thrown into the future), and after getting used to Reds and Blues not hating each other, they all get a different kind of crush on Donut. At first Donut is oblivious, then he finally figures it out, and he's VERY surprised and flustered. Oh, but also intrigued? This doesn't necessarily need to turn into any steady relationships, but perhaps they can still enjoy themselves. Donut mentions to his own Red Team "I think I could take them all"/"You mean in a fight? Or in bed?"/"YES". Also, Cherry is here; happy polyam relationship with her, Sheila, and Lopez~

-speaking of people not dying; Sharkface and Carolina would be SUCH an interesting dynamic. I've played around with a few scenarios in which he survives, but they all usually turn into him getting on Red Team, and being part of the merry band of goobers... as for him and Carolina finally getting together, it would take a while to even be on friendly terms, because they're both so INTENSE. I think to add an extra layer of humor to this, for some reason nobody understands, Sharkface just decides to hang out with Simmons a lot (he likes how Simmons actually has a little mean-streak, and Simmons now has a cool scary punk guy in his corner, so the power goes to his head). Grif is giving Carolina "chill lessons", and Simmons is sharing ideas on how to VENT FRUSTRATION that don't involve murder with Sharkface. Him and Carolina still clash, but now it is more of a friendly-rivalry kind of thing. It would take a while to get on more friendly terms, but once they do, things would get passionate pretty easily~

[shadymissionary]

Hi, I feel like rambling here for a bit. I have a kinda life-changing conversation coming up tonight that I'm both extremely excited and extremely anxious about.

My partner and I have more or less been in a polyamorous relationship with our two close friends for...idk, 3 years? We've been getting very close with them over the years, and now that we all live in the same city and see each other frequently, it's almost always on my mind. And polyamory can be scary and confusing!! There is almost no framework for it that we learn about growing up, like with monogamous relationships, and so it feels a lot harder to navigate all of the questions and uncertainties.

Circumstances could not have lined up more perfectly to have this conversation though, so I'm feeling good about things. And it's just going to be an enormous relief to be open and honest with my friends about things that I've been holding in for years.

These two are so important to me, I love them so much they're like family, and I've felt so insecure about speaking up about certain things due to the fear of their reactions and potentially damaging our relationship. But I know they love me too and will be completely understanding.

I'm so happy to have an amazing partner that has listened to me vent about this stuff for years now, and his support feels like the one thing that has kept me sane. And I'm glad that I finally have the confidence and motivation to move through all of this uncertainty into a healthier relationship for all of us.

I've been doing a lot of work on myself lately, starting HRT, journaling, going back to therapy, reading mental health books, and listening to mental health podcasts. Last week I was listening to a lecture on Individuation, from Jungian psychology, and the concept of synchronicity was introduced to me. Basically, finding a connection between your own thoughts/desires and the things happening around you in the world. And to recognize when the universe is slapping you in the face telling you to do something.

I had an amazing therapy session yesterday and discussed the feelings I'm having, and how I finally feel ready to address them so I can move on from all this stress. But not knowing how best to find a time to talk about these things and get the conversation started has been the obstacle. I left the session knowing I had to reach out to the two I need to talk to and see if there's a time we could meet and chat. I even had a time limit on myself of getting this done before they host a Halloween party next weekend.

Lo and behold, just a few hours after yesterday's therapy session, I get a text from them asking us to come hang out tonight. Normally I would think up some reason not to, just wanting to chill at home on a Tuesday night, but it was so clear that the opportunity to talk was literally being handed to me. It makes me feel like the world is telling me to do this, and that it's gonna be okay.

I am going to cry so, so hard. But it's going to feel good to get it all off my chest. It's kinda scary, I've never cried in front of either of them that I can recall. So I know it's going to be a surprise that I've been holding all of these feelings in for years. More than anything, I just want the four of us to all be on the same page.

What's also kind of funny to me is like... in most respects, this should be a very easy step for me, but I've had to do so much to build my confidence in order to have this conversation. Earlier this month I came out as non-binary to my parents, and then soon after to my whole extended family. Like, that stuff should have been the hard part! And it was, don't get me wrong, but it didn't take nearly as much effort and crying as it has to prepare myself for tonight's conversation. The impossible task in my mind has been "open up about your feelings to your closest friends." And I'm certain now that I can do it, and that it will work out. ♥

This final dungeon music has been playing in my head all day as this conversation looms in the near future. Fitting that I just got to this point in Baten Kaitos last night hehe. I am gonna survive from that mf force!!

[emmy-and-the-tieflings]

Heart of the Weave: Part 3

(psssst - please check out part 1 and 2 on AO3! Any views and kudos are appreciated! -> Heart of the Weave)

Chapter 7

“Alright, my love. I'll see you this evening. Is Aelric’s bag packed?” Gale inquires as he has his hands on my shoulders, his eye contact fierce. I'm hoping I'll be back by tonight, which I'm almost positive I will. It'll be nice to see Halsin again and catch up – well, other than Neeve’s wedding. My brothers are waiting in the living room, and they arrived just as early as I expected: right as dawn hit. Does no one sleep anymore?! Honestly. 

  “Bag is packed with all the necessities. I made sure Jenevelle has extra milk stashed up just in case. If for whatever reason we run out or you spill any–”

  “Goat’s milk, you got it. I'll see you tonight.” He leans in to kiss me, his hefty floral scent awakening my senses as his tongue greets mine. “Gods…you're perfect every time.” I smile up at him, and then peer down at our daughter who is comfortably  lying on her tummy, then proceeds to roll over onto her back. 

 “I love you, baby Jenevelle. Mommy will be back soon.” I step into the living room where my brothers sit, and immediately they stand up. “Shall we depart?”

 “Only if you're ready,” Therran responds with a smile. I wrap Aelric in the baby wrap, then pick up the diaper bag from the couch as I head out the front door with the twins. Nothing more refreshing than a brush to the face with early morning air! We step into the carriage, where I sit across from my brothers. And off we go…

“So, Therran. You mentioned something yesterday… You would tell me today. What was it?” I question, eagerly waiting for his response. I believe the topic was on babies if I remember correctly. 

“So, about that…” He sighs, his orange eyes dissociating into the clouds. “Obviously, Lae’zel and I can't have children. Neither of us want any, plus she spent so many years raising her son. Luckily, that topic was never an issue for us. However, she is getting older and I'm staying…well, thirty-five. While we swore to one another that we would be with each other through any sickness or peril, well…” I study his face, realizing he's about to reveal some not-so-great news, and I notice his heart breaking inside.  

“What…what is it? You're not divorcing, are you?”

“Unfortunately, yes. It was a mutual agreement. It goes much farther than ‘she’s becoming much too old for me.’ Though, I'll admit, the thought bothers us both… Picturing her on a death bed when she's nearly eighty, while I'm a much  younger man. Sort of like…a grandson with his grandmother. Does that make sense?” Fuck. I feel so bad for him. The fact Zariel placed this immortality curse on my entire bloodline outside of children that were born afterwards makes me heated and I've never been more livid I got involved with a damn devil.

 “I'm so sorry… Therran, I am so damn sorry. I know she made you so happy.” Fanden and Therran glance at one another for a brief moment, then turn their gaze back to me. “What?”

“We haven't been doing well for a while anyway. Ever since she returned from the astral planes, our marriage has been rocky. It's alright, sis. I just wanted to get that out there. Thank you for letting me vent about it. I told Fanden, of course, but having an extra ear helps too.” 

“Can I give you a hug?”

“You don't need to ask, you know.” I stand up and we embrace for a moment, though the carriage hit a rock and we both fell to the ground. Luckily, I held on tight to the baby. “Maybe being on the carriage and hugging wasn't the best idea?”

Ah, Waterdeep. After several moments of banter and chit-chat, we finally arrived back to the beautiful city. Halsin lives somewhere past the city, just on the outskirts in the forests. Surprising, right? 

We walk amongst the trail trying to locate the correct location of Halsin’s comforting abode. I'm in the middle of the two boys as we quietly journey along the path. 

“What kind of herbs are you needing anyway, Fanden?” Therran and Fanden clear their throats at the same time, and I become slightly suspicious. 

“Okay… Anxiety herbs. Stuff to help you sleep and keep you calm. I know it's been bothering you…you know…thinking I'm going to be sucked back into the path of evil again,” Fanden responds, his tone a little shaky from nervousness as he reveals the truth. I'm at a loss for words as I try to figure out what to say back to him; I'm a little irritated, actually. 

 “Are you serious? All for anxiety herbs? Fanden, I'm fine. And Gale knew about this?” 

 “Please, Emmy. It's for the best. Besides, don't you want to get rid of the nightmares?”

 “You knew about… Damn it, Gale. It was just one bad dream!” 

 “And who is to say you won't have more?”  I hate that he’s correct, but I also really could use something to prevent any more bad dreams. Visiting Halsin isn't the worst idea actually. I decide to stay quiet for a moment, slightly flustered that I'll be gone an entire day just for this. I love spending time with my family, but I don't want Gale getting worried about me if we are gone too long.  “Emmy, please say something. My adorable sister. Little cutie baby. The most precious elf.” I growl as I try to fight laughter, but it manages to slip out unfortunately. How can I be mad at that? 

“Fine. I guess I can't be angry.” As we approach Halsin’s, I notice the clouds in the sky shifting close to one another, and the colors change from white to an ominous black. In the distance, I hear the angry roar of thunder that causes Aelric to jolt awake from a nap. 

“Oh…oh dear…”

“Hurry, inside!” Halsin calls out as he opens the door. “The storms are about to come in.” All of us rush inside his forest cottage, and the moment Therran shuts the door behind him, rain pounds against the forest floor, and the thunder gets more aggressive. 

“I…did not expect storms. Oh heavens,” I mutter under my breath as I place my whimpering baby on his quilt in front of me. “Thank you Halsin.”

 “It's my pleasure to have all three of you here. And the baby, of course!  Now… The storms won't fade until morning, so I need you all to stay overnight please. I can't risk that baby getting hurt in any way. Plus, the company is nice.” He flashes a very flirtatious smile at Fanden, who begins to blush just a little as he turns his head away. OH?!  “I made you all a hearty meal, some delicious tea, and I have those herbs. Chamomile, lemon balm, and valerian root should do the trick, miss Emmy.”  I get Aelric changed and put into a comfortable dry onesie, playing with his feet for a moment while Halsin prepares my cup of tea. Once ready, I kiss the baby’s forehead and let him rest comfortably on the quilt while we gather at the table. 

“This means a lot. Thank you.”

“Can you tell me what's causing your anxiety? If you're comfortable, that is.” My brothers are looking at me as they take a bite of their delicious dinner. I want to eat, but I'm also a little hesitant as I try to explain what the problem is. 

“I just…don't want to lose my brother. We met Minthara who tried luring him back into his old ways. Power, control, murder…” Fanden looks down, embarrassed and also angry at himself. “He was cursed with an affliction by the devils that caused him to know nothing but hate. If he was never cursed, if he grew up with a mother that loved him, it never would've come to that. I lost him once. I saw him die right in front of me. Now that I have him again… I don't want to lose him. Or Therran.” I take a deep breath, and both brothers smile at me with a sincere expression after I speak the words out loud. I can feel a huge weight off my chest, which faded even more after consuming my hot tea. 

“Emmy, I promise you, that affliction cursed upon him is gone. You've probably heard that a thousand times by now. You need to rest well tonight, and I promise you'll feel much better tomorrow.”

“Thank you Halsin. I hope Gale doesn't think anything bad will happen to me. As long as we leave first thing in the morning…” 

  While I'm grateful for Halsin’s help and providing us a place to stay while the weather is vicious, I worry that Gale will think something happened to the baby and I. Gods, I hope he's still home tomorrow when I get back. 

[simplymiles]

Randoms Thoughts at 5:30AM

I just realized (and I just realized this right now, while I was drafting my calendar, totally random, I don't even know why I thought of this)

that I am not someone's "favorite" friend.

I am the person that you call 24/7, if I am your friend, I am available anytime you need me to listen, or to talk to.

If I am your friend, I am all in 100%

If I am your friend, I would always make the simplest and sweetest gestures that would always make you special.

If I am your friend, I would be always thinking of your well-being.

If I am your friend, I am your friend for life .. ride or die (as long as you don't betray me or my family)

If I am your friend, I would always tell your the truth.

If I am your friend, I would always honor you.

I am always this 100% kinda person ... but sometimes it gets tiring, because the effort doesn't get reciprocated.

I mean, I know for a fact, people do love me and care for me, but I am not sure if they are willing to go the extra mile for me; cause I always do for them. I would always be the one to adjust, the one to do everything first, the one to apologize, the one to reach out, the one to do the grand gestures, the one who always remembers, the one who never forgets ... I am the girl-next-door; the shock-absorber; but I don't feel like everyone else will do that for me.

Example 1: People always come to me when they are at their weakest, their loneliest, at their darkest moments; but once they get better and they find their happiness (most) of them don't even bother to say hi anymore or check in on me, or at least ask me how I am.

Example 2: People could go for months or years without talking to me, without even a hi, hello, or how are you; but once they need me, they come to me like a lightning, and I don't even put them on hold. I promised them that I would always be available, and I am, always am. They tell me a summary of how their lives have been in the past months or years, tell me how they are, vent, rant, ask for advice, say thank you ... then never message me again.

Example 3: I always surprise people with small gestures. Gestures that would always remind them that they are appreciated, or that I always remember them or I'm thinking about them, or sometimes I'd give them stuff that is totally random, to let them know that I remember what they told me months or years ago when we talked, just to make them feel better, or loved. They say thank you, but I never really felt like they appreciate what I did. Some people get a thank you in a form of a facebook post, or story, to let everyone know how proud they are that they are friends with this kind of person; but I never really got that ... from all the people that I helped over the years, I never really felt appreciated.

To tell you the truth, I am not one for social media posting or making gushy comments about me .. I am not complaining, it's just ... sometimes, it's nice to feel appreciated.

Example 4: I would always be the one to reach out. I would always be the one to keep my mouth shut. I would always be the one who humbles down. I will let you take all the credit, even if it was my idea to begin with .. I wouldn't care .. you're the hero. Sometimes I would wait for some humility to return the credit to me .. but no .. some people just like taking it all ... but it's okay .. I really don't mind .. it's just .. it's nice to be appreciated and credited sometimes.

I have more examples, but it feels like I'm complaining .. truth is, I'm not .. it's just that ... I feel like an empty water bottle. Your thirsty, I want to give you more drink, but I'm empty.

I feel like people around me take me for granted, just because I don't complain. I feel like they think that I don't mind, because even if I get appreciation or not, I would still give my 100% ... nothing will change. I keep my word, cause I don't want to let anyone down, I want to be the reliable person; always available, always ready to help.

My tank is empty ... but I can't stop giving.

I do this because I don't want anybody to feel that they are alone. I don't want them to feel that nobody is around to listen. I don't want them to feel sadness, I don't want them to feel emptiness ...

Sometimes, I hate being an empath. Cause even if you're mad at someone, or sometimes you feel like you're being treated unfairly, you choose to understand that person rather than judge them or get angry at them.

Sometimes I envy those people who have strong personalities. Why can't I storm out? Why can't I get mad? Why do I always have to be the bigger person? Why do I always need to understand? Why can't they? Why can't they? Why?

These feelings are a blessing and a curse at the same time.

I read somewhere that "caring is different from carrying."

But how can I not care without me also carrying the burden with them?

I am not even sure why I am sharing this ..

sheeeshhh .. ngayon na nga lang nagblog ganito p!

Hahahaha ..

'til my next blog

[hymns-across-the-stars]

★ + Rodger for Glisten!

(Kindly picture Vee with the smuggest fucking grin in the background <3 she is not responsible for this ask but she's going to bully him (affectionately) from afar anyway)

Send ★ + a name of another muse / character in my muse's canon and they'll talk about their relationship with them

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"Asking me? About Rodger? Goodness, it sounds like someone's trying to dig up some gossip~!"

And a little bit of gossip's fun. Maybe it'd even spark a rumor that'd finally beat the idea that Glisten actually likes Rodger into the detective's head.

He snaps his compact mirror shut and smiles.

"Well... we're awfully close. We've spent so much time together recently talking the nights away. Though I can hardly blame him! I'm just such perfect company."

There. Nothing technically incorrect with what he's said, but there's room to extrapolate.

"...but I do wish he'd pay a little more attention to me outside of our rooms. Of course I understand the importance of focusing on your work, but... well, just look at me! I'm brilliant as ever, eye-catching to anyone else! You'd think he'd at least spare more of a glance when I pass by, even when he's on the job. But I suppose his priorities aren't mine to fix, and if he's happy with his case files, I can hardly be mad..."

It's just saddening, is all. He may be willing to open up to Rodger. Rodger may offer him comfort and kindness. But for such a brilliant detective, Rodger certainly doesn't seem the best at picking up hints. It'd be unfair to him anyway, if Glisten distracted him from his investigation. Besides, it's not as if either of them are entirely lonely people; even when he's absorbed in work, Rodger has his hands full with Toodles, and Glisten does have Vee, but...

...

...wait, Vee. If any sort of rumor about him and Rodger reaches her, she's going to be insufferable.

Augh.

...maybe this was a mistake.

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// so obviously rodger is one of the toons glisten is close to. toodles talks about how glisten sometimes cries to rodger, meaning he's willing to be vulnerable around rodger. rodger's also pretty astute and notices when things are off about glisten, such when he's dizzy or overworking himself despite glisten no doubt doing his best not to show it. glisten fusses over how rodger looks as well, which would imply a pretty strong familiarity. and that's all just canon information!

why he's close like that in the first place is hard to say, given that neither of them are especially in each other's circles i think. i kind of want to think that this page was written pretty early into them getting to know each other, so the reason they started getting close is because glisten came to offer help and the gratitude made glisten want to seek him out more because... it was nice. like with any other toon, though—maybe even moreso than most—he doesn't really want rodger to see twisted glisten. glisten might be able to convince the others that the twisted isn't at all reflective of him or his mental state, and vee might be willing to accept that excuse despite knowing him better than anyone else because it's him, but rodger? rodger would probably see right through that and realize just how deep those insecurities run. sure, rodger already knows glisten has problems and that he's putting on an act. but he doesn't need to know that even when glisten is venting or crying or whatever he does in rodger's company there's still more problems underneath.

but anyway, due to their apparent closeness, it's not really a surprise that i (like plenty others) think glisten likes rodger. he probably thinks rodger's general demeanor is kinda hot and also that suit of his... ough. however, having not interacted with any rodger(s) YET... a part of me kinda thinks that rodger might not entirely realize that glisten has a crush? glisten might confide in rodger in private and wipe the smudges off rodger's glass and bat his eyes at him all cutesy-like, but... that's just kind of how glisten is. rodger probably even knows that glisten more or less acts the same way to vee, who he's decidedly not romantically affiliated with at all.

besides, rodger's really preoccupied with investigating what's going on and doesn't seem to care a whole lot about activities that detract from research. he's not cold, of course; i think his relationship with toodles is plenty evidence that he's not emotionally unavailable. but i do think that means he just gets a little too tunnel-visioned at times. so glisten might flirt with rodger and rodger will likely chalk it up to "oh yes our good friendship" but generally be a little too fixated on whatever he's doing. and of course glisten would quite like to have all attention on him but interrupting something that important to rodger is probably Not Really a Good Look so he just kinda... waits to try again later. rinse and repeat. he should spend more time with him outside of apparent research time.

but rodger is also nosy about personal stuff at times, as seen with sprout (who effectively tells him to fuck off and not bug cosmo about him either) and astro (who seems very uncomfortable about the idea of being asked anything). so chances are good that he eventually puts everything together. based on what you and i have specifically, i can imagine that might involve rodger asking to interview vee, who probably willing to oblige, and glisten gets brought up sometime during that. then vee's occasional lack of tact might just be a bit of a benefit for her bestie, because it's a bit of a faux pas to talk about your friend's crush to the crush but it may have been what the two of them needed to address anything. alternatively glisten slips up around toodles and god knows toodles will yap and that's how rodger finds out. either way a little silly and embarrassing for glisten but the result's good.

but i don't think them dating would change all that much about any of his other dynamics, which i think is? how relationships are supposed to work?? i don't really know why sometimes the partner becomes the other's entire life, but i don't also think they're the kind of people to do that. yes maybe glisten is more overtly flirty because it's just fun to be like that. maybe there's a little more teasing and concern between them. but like vee stays a huge part of his life, glisten's no less social than he was before, rodger's still on his investigation stuff...

but anyway yeah that's a lot of theoretical haha. glisten confides a lot in rodger and flirts with him because he has a crush. whether or not that's to any success is to be seen.

[a-complex-joke]

Manifestation and Rebounding

Chapter 4

MASTERLIST

Emily POV

We had started to walk back to the park, and there was now a nice banter between us pushing away any feelings of embarrassment or shame I might have had.

“Ok, what's up with your family? I told you my drama now you share. Why didn't you do Christmas with them? ” I asked, honestly I wonder what kind of people raised Brian, and if he is this hot how attractive are his siblings?

“Mmm, not much to say, I love my family. Sure I've had disagreements with them and none of them live in town but I'm not estranged or anything. And as for your second question, I was already supposed to go with Clara to her family's Christmas. My family is pretty wealthy and Clara’s family was also quite well off so it was no issue that we needed to travel to see them. But then I found her naked and cuddled up to one of my coworkers.” Brian said bitterly.

“That's terrible, why would she do that to you?”

“Well, she said that I was taking too long to propose. Part of me thinks she's right. Should I have done it right out of high school?” I don't think he was truly looking for an answer, just venting.

“To me, it seems more likely that this wasn't her first time cheating. Not to put that thought into your head. Say you hadn't found out and proposed later, do you really think she would stopped cheating” I was out of line, 8 mean I've only known this guy 3 days, and here I am giving him relationship advice.

“I know your right, I was gonna do it at Christmas. Pop the question. I mean how crazy is that? To think if I hadn't gone home early, this right here wouldn't be happening” he laughed sourly.

“How did you react when it happened?”

“At first I felt betrayed, then mad at them both, and then just mad at her. The guy had no clue she was in a relationship, let alone with me. I yelled and so did she. said she didn't need me to be happy, but I needed her. I almost thought about kicking her out but I just left. She texted and said she would get her stuff out of there” his eyes seemed glossed over as he spoke.

I hugged his arm, making him look down at me.

“You didn't deserve that. Just because she made a bad choice doesn't mean you're the cause. If she really wanted to be with you forever, she should have had a conversation with you and certainly wouldn't go and cheat. Sometimes we just love people who suck”

He had stopped walking just staring at each other's faces.

Taking in my words, I was surprised myself.

“Eh sorry shouldn't have grabbed onto you like that,” I said unlacing my arms from around his.

“Oh it's fine, warming me up in the chilly weather,” she said looking away to hide his blush.

I seemed the hear on my face grow hotter as well.

“Oh looks like we're also back at the park,” I said trying to change the subject.

“Yeah… I guess we are” he said seeming a bit sad.

“Sorry for bringing that up seems I spoiled the mood” I admitted.

“You didn't, it actually felt great to get it off my chest. I'm just bummed we can't hang out longer” he laughed.

His words made my heart skip. Sure we had said we would see where this relationship goes but in the back of my mind, I wanted dearly to grab his face and kiss him till one of us passes out.

“... Who says we can't” I turned away from him. “The day is young, we could drive over to the movie theater and see something” I offered.

This seemed to relight a spark of joy in him. 

“Ok let's do it! Do you want to drive separately and meet back up or drive together?”

“Let go together, though you might be annoyed with me by the end of the day” I laughed wrapping. 

Myself around his arm again. “Your driving through”

He seemed to have no problems with that.

“Holy moley, THIS is your car?” It was in utter shock, at the old school blue Mustang sat before me.

“Yeah? What you scared of it or something” he joked.

“No this is my like dream car right here” I jumped out of my boots.

“Well it's much cooler on the inside, so hope on in Suga,” Brian said putting on a funny voice.

I rushed to quickly get in the car hoping to hide my blushing face.

Was a pretty good driver, maybe it was the fact the car was older so he was more careful.

The radio played softly, just enough to make out that a song was playing at all.

I tried to focus on anything other than Brian.

I had noticed pretty soon after we left the way his bulge was pronounced as he sat in the car.

Lord imagine giving him road-head in this car, him waving at some rando on the street them unaware that im sucking his soul out of him.

“You quiet, something on your mind” my fantasy interrupted by the man in question.

“Oh n-no just spaced out sorry d-did you say something” I tried to play it cool.

“Just was asking, if there's any movies you wanted to see.”

“Oh I think that movie Bounty Drag seemed interesting” Brian raised an eyebrow not taking his eyes off the road. “It’s about this drag racer who’s down on his luck but after helping to catch a bank robber he realizes he wants to be a bounty hunter, combining his love for racing and justice” I explained.

“That could be fun, that's what we're gonna see?”

“I mean if you want im not picky” I am actually but not with movies.

Brian just smiled to himself.

[aghadbeenhere]

A Positive note!

AGHADBEENHERE'S UNNAMED BLOG: 6#

Heeey, everyone, sorry about last time, I think it was one of those late-time sad thoughts whenever you get tired and all, I don't think i plan on deleting it though, I think it's nice to keep it up there for everyone to see because it's just kinda.. You know, Humanizing.

I've seen a lotta things on the internet, and a lot of disregard for others, I think people really don't get that there is actual people behind the screen at times.

And it honestly surprises me with how much the internet has grown, it's sad that we've somehow de-evolutioned to a more chaotic state now that we can communicate with anybody anywhere in the world, and I honestly don't get it.

Maybe we're not responsible enough, maybe we're too dumb for this sort of power.

Maybe one day the entirety of the internet will go down, maybe it'll go down with this planet whenever we somehow fuck it up past redemption, hell if I know.

I'm not PRAYING for the downfall of the internet, nobody wants that, we have the entirety of human knowledge at our fingertips, just a few clicks away, and here we are totally disregarding it, I think that's kinda sad but it's just the way of life, and I shouldn't be SAD about what other people do or believe, you know?

But eh, whatever, back to the other point I was making.

I think seeing posts like that really can humanize people, sometimes we're feeling bad, we post those feelings out to get them out of our heads and it really brings to light the fact that we're not just the silly little guys behind the screen, we're actual people clicking on our keyboards to type these messages out, and I really like that, we shouldn't feel ashamed about venting on the internet, after all, there's enough space for everything and everyone here.

A part of me really wanted to clear that post and just keep going with the whole 'chill happy guy expressing thoughts' thing I had going, but I'm not even sure if I had it going to begin with, and I don't think I could put up a persona like that.

Sometimes I want to make a new account, an account where i'm all wholesome and sweet, kind to the world and spreading positivity.

But honestly I don't think I could do that, I feel too rash, too irresponsible, erratic, all those sortsa things, and those that know me, know that i could never really shape up to be a soft and kind person.

And I'm okay with that! Be who you want to be! But at times I really do feel like being a fuzzy little spot of joy on the internet at times could be great and all.. But it'd be fake, wouldn't really be me.

Maybe I'll grow softer, kinder, warmer, who the hell knows.

Life comes at you fast with moments like that, hopefully I'll get one to define me as a person.

I kinda feel like a genderless blob of black mass, I mean it's cool at times, but I can't really identify with anyone or anything, feeling more like a drifter through the fields where everyone else has taken a shape.

Here I am, a blob of black mass, forever changing.

But hey, if that's what I am, then I'm okay with it.

As always, happy to be here.

Your silly ol' pal, ag.

:3 <3 | 3: </3

-aghadbeenhere, 2024