#<- is it even disability pride month anymore???? idk!!! @-@

[jatlokgwo]

qiqi genshin impact mean SO much to me zomg shes just like me!!! SHES JUST LIKE ME!!!!!!!!!!

i have memory problems to!!!! i have to stretch every day to move kinda normally to!!!! (i make so many jokes that ny bodies cut out the dying middleman to rigor mortis XD) im a kid to!!!!! i can barely taste anything either!!!!!! i wont get buried but i have to hide and downplay my disabilities from my family or ill get made fun of and left out of things bwcuz i "cant do anything"!!! i have never seen so much of myself in a character before AND THEN THE OTHER CHARACTERS RESPECT HER (exept for hu tao and even then jts just "i bury dead people and you are dead people!! :3)

PEOPLE LET HER TALK IN THIRD PERSON AND NOONE MAKES FUN OF HER FOR NOT BEING FLEXABLE OR FOR FORGGETING SOMETHING IN THE MIDDLE OF A SENTECE OR SAYS TO JUST GET OVER IT SHE DOESNT MAGICLY BECOME ABLED BEFORE SHE CAN DO ANYTHING OR AS A REWARD FOR BEING GOOD SHES A PLAYABLE CHARACTER WITH HER OWN STORY AND FRIENDS AND HAS FUN AND A SPECIAL DISH IM GOING TO CRY

idk its really late and i DEFINITELY some stuff about her wrong but tad might let me get genshin the next time that i see him!!! i hope that i pull qiqi!!! ^▽^

[siphonophorespiral]

This is gonna be kinda rambling, but.

Each year our disability progresses more and more, and our need for aid increases with it. As this happens, and every time pride month rolls around, we're viscerally reminded that most queer spaces- mostly pride events tbh- just aren't accessible.

We can't go to parades anymore for many reasons. Sensory needs, we can't walk long distances, we can't be out in the summer heat for long without fainting, etc. And that's not even getting into our agoraphobia, and the general fear of being openly disabled in any public space.

Idk. It just hurts, because we're missing so much community.

Make pride accessible.

[kiyomibunny]

TW: Slight mention of SA// i don't normally post due to being socially shy (even online,ik,pretty wild ig-) but since it's pride month I felt safe to atleast share some of my story on how it evolved, and how recently I learned: I'm a Demisexual! I didn't grow up being allowed near guys and what not and or people in general so I was quite awkward. Aswell given with the fact I have a learning disability I literally cannot pickup cues. I remember being 14 and being kissed by someone for the first time, a girl,she used to be my best friend at the time and I remember how scared I was truthfully. I'd always be the person who didn't have any crushes romantically,but when I looked at her it's like she's all I cared for. Ofc we broke up but I realized, I was lesbian at the time. Never kissed a dude ,nothing. Eventually I did develop crushes on guys but they would always be..feminine or in someway androgynous and I guess I had a type. I had my first kiss stolen from a dude who I thought was my friend and he stopped talking to me since (he got suspended for SA later on.) I don't wanna drag this on but I did end up having several ex bfs throughout highschool and realized..well I must be bi or something idk- Eventually at 19 I said I think I'm pan and accepted it as is. Learned I was polyamorous too but with the heartbreaks, I couldn't afford losing people. The reason why I identify as a demisexual is because I cannot and will not function properly around people who just want to do a quick thing or fling. I love with everything I have,I do everything I can to show you you are my world.i take a long time just trying to get into a romantic headspace to the point I thought there was something wrong with me, I literally need to feel at home with you. I feel like I just always needed a bond with someone due to how lonely my upbringing was but how it made me realize I really cherish people that stop to learn someone's story or tell you their own. I am a hopless romantic who believes in soul mates and what not, I just want to be loved for me in the end and not fear that I have to shut off again. I thought I was ace for years until the girl kiss thing. I remember I had to hide the fact I was with a girl at the time due to religious stuff and people bullied me heavily growing up. I'm glad I don't have to hide myself as a person anymore. And I guess I will keep learning things about me more and more but ,I am proud to be demisexual,I love everyone and anyone with an open unconditional heart! Even if I'm very shy and have been snubbed and shoved away alot by people,atleast I can be real to myself and value myself,happy pride lovelies!🩷🩷

[generalchelseamayhem]

Liberalism

*chorus of boos, some pelted fruit*

Yeah yeah, okay. I see a lot of hatred from both the hard left and the hard right for liberals. Taking the absolute worst examples of both sets of discourses, the right would seem to consider liberals agents of the communist agenda, where the left would consider liberals fascists-in-waiting.

I expect that from the right, but I've been baffled to see it coming through so strongly on the left.

I'm sure I've said this before, but it bears repeating. Political alignment isn't just measured by which positions you take on issues, but also by how principled you are on those issues.I was similarly baffled in Pride Month this year by posts which were like "Actually corporate pride celebrations are good because even if they're just in it for the money, we finally have their support to be out and proud in public!" And I just think of what happened around that exact same time when it came out that Disney was backing homophobic laws in Florida, the backlash from the creator of The Owl House who had to basically distance herself from her own brand- it's not principled support of LGBT people! They don't have your back, they don't care about LGBT people even within their own organisation. You were the ones who provided your own protection. You were the ones who made it easier for yourselves to be out and proud in public. Now you're too large a demographic for corporations to ignore, and they want your money, so they pretend to care even when they don't. If they can get more money at the same time in other areas from homophobes, so much the better.

There are so many times I see people, whose political motivations are clearly that they're just selfish and unprincipled, get called "liberals" by the hard left as if it's written into liberalism as a belief system to stop short of enacting any meaningful change and start, idk, worshipping the military-industrial complex. It's kinda exactly like how "centrist" became a catch-all term for disagreement which roughly translated to "we need to compromise with these genocidal maniacs to achieve consensus on equal rights, which, duh, means we only have to do a little bit of genocide!"

Listen, I can't account for the folly of human selfishness, but on the left, actual liberals are your allies. You gain nothing from making enemies out of them just because some people on Twitter misrepresent their position because it makes them seem friendlier! That's not liberalism, that's just lying! If I had to define liberalism - and I do - I'd have to go to Wikipedia, which talks about things like "the rights of the individual", "consent of the governed", "equality before the law" "freedom of speech/press/religion". And if you asked me to apply that concept to some guy on Twitter who said Racism is Bad, Defund The Police, Equal Treatment Under The Law, but now can only say "At least it's not Trump" as Biden's administration massively increases the police budget... well, I just wouldn't be able to do it.

If we don't get better at making friends soon, liberalism will collapse under the weight of the unprincipled selfishness pressing in from all sides, that says "Freedom of Speech for me, but not for anyone else" or "equal treatment under the law unless you're poor or disabled" or "the governed aren't allowed to protest anymore because it upsets people".

I propose that we start by agreeing to work together, with the caveat that the whole "rule of law" thing needs a shake up, because some laws are inherently unjust and law enforcement has too much power. And the caveat that revolutionary communist utopia is off the table, since one of the conventional wisdoms that informs many of liberalism's core beliefs is that other people have to live in this society, too.

[dachi-chan25]

January 2020 Wrap Up

I got back on track this month. Sadly this was not a good reading month, I didn't like or was pretty meh about a lot of this books so I did a massive unhaul this month to ensure I'll read books I am intrested in and want to read.

1.- Shadow Scale (Seraphina #2) - Rachel Hartman

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I was so disappointed! I loved the 1st book so much, it had an amazing intresting world and politics but that got thrown out of the window in this one, the characters seem to even forget their relationships with each other and the villian is just badly constructed, the ending feels rushed and unsatisfactory, I just gave it 3 stars cuz i couldn't bear to give less stars to a world and characters I actually like.

2.- Heroes -Stephen Fry

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I always love to re-read greek myths, and Stephen Fry makes really funny commentary and narrative decisions when it comes to his adaptations. It was a very enjoyable read.

3.- Love from A to Z - S.K Ali

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I don't read much romance cuz a LOT of romance authors construct relationships I am not intrested in, but THIS. It was amazing, the way both characters saw the world was beautiful, all that pride for Muslim culture and the fight against islamophobia felt actual and relevant, I really liked both characters, and the way their relationship develops felt fitting to their personalities and ages and that is something that is so rare to find. I really recc this one.

4.- Once Upon a Burning Throne - Ashok K. Banker

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So I really liked the beginning of the book, it had a super intresting premise and intresting characters along with high political stakes, but the conflict you get presented at the beginning never get a pay off, and it goes around many characters and plots that made me a bit confused so idk the ending was strong and I know it's a series but I don't think I am intrested in reading the rest cuz this one was pretty confusing for me.

5.- All the Crooked Saints - Maggie Stiefvater

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Sadly I think Maggie Stiefvater is not the author for me, I tried to get into Raven Boys but didn't liked it. I find her writing and characters to be a bit superficial, very aesthetic and quirky but ultimately completley one dimensional, the metaphors she uses make no sense, I do like when an author spices things up with the flow of their sentences and the words the use but Maggie Stiefvater's prose it's just too much for me.

6.- The Girl who Played with Fire (Millenium #2) - Stieg Larsson

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This is my first re-read of this book. I really liked this series when I 1st read them, but I found some stupid stuff that made me roll my eyes so hard cuz male authors writing woman sometimes lead to cringey stuff. Lisbeth Salander has always been one of my favorite characters, but she is very different in this book, I love the fact we get to see more of her past, that she has vulnerability but also she is so heavily coded as masculine that it exasperates me also LOL about every woman wanting to fuck Mikael, I have some amazing memories of this series (the 1st one is superior in every aspect imho) and I still love them but yeah I was a much different person and I like to critizise even the things that I like.

7.- North and South - Elizabeth Gaskell

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I just love this book so much, the intricacies of industry and of the fair treatment of the workers, the differences of a life in a City vs life on the countryside in the middle of the Industrial Revolution. This book is so intelligent and layered. The characters are well defined and they develop so well. The romance!!! I just love it.

8.- Paper Tigers - Damien Angelica Walters

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I was loving this book at the beginning, such an intresting concept, to have a possesed photo álbum, and to have a disabled protagonist dealing with her appereance and going out again it was hard hitting, I know this is horror but the ending broke my heart, it made me feel hopless and sad especially when the protagonist had already developed SO much it didn't felt like a victory even when the book tries to present it in that way.

9.- Morning Star (Red Rising #3) - Pierce Brown

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Favorite read of the month!!! This book was a rollercoaster, it had me at the edge of my seat all the time, I love the Red Rising series and this book its a perfect conclusion for this amazing story (I know there are still 2 books but idk if Darrow is the main character on those cuz his story and arc could very well end in this book) it was so satisfying and hopeful. This is what an ending should be.

10.- Black House (The Talisman #2) -Stephen King/ Peter Straub

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I was so excited about reading this one because I loved the Talisman so much, but this book was HARD to get through. It needed some serious editing. Like it didn't feel like a sequel for the first 100 pages or so cuz we don't get to see Jake up until that point, and there is waaaaay to much unnecesary exposition that took away from the suspenseful stuff, also it was kinda repetitive and that annoyed me. Gosh I know lots of people say this particular era on SK writing career was bad, and they not lying, I just can't connect like I did before (though I know it gets better cuz his recent books are good)

11.- China's Rich Girlfriend (Crazy Rich Asians #2) - Kevin Kwan

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I mean it was ok, like some things get resolved, so plot wise we do get a development and I dare say some characters do develop. Tbh I don't take these too seriously they are just outrageous and dramatic, I have fun reading them and I am wondering how some of the plots will translate into the movie .

12.- The Revisioners - Margaret Wilkerson Sexton

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Magical Realism is my jam, I really enjoyed this one, though the ending was kinda meh and I feel the magical aspect could have been given more significance. The story was beautiful and impactful.

13.- Scarlett (Lunar Chronicles #2) Marissa Meyer

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I did find this book more enjoyable than Cinder, and the concept of fairytales in space seems wonderful to me, but I just think they are too juvenile for me, like i know if I had read them when I was younger I would have loved them but now I just go my my through the book hoping for more complexity and so I decided not to read them anymore cuz it's not fair for me to judge books that are definitely not directed towards me.

14.- Dark Reunion (Vampire Diaries #4) - L.J Smith

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I am reading these cuz I wanted to know just how different they were from the TV series (the answer is VERY) and they are really enjoyable, they have this dark atmospheric tone but are still super campy and cliché but not so much that it's unbearable, idk I just really like to read them and they are so short it's super motivating knowing I can just relax reading one of these.

15- Vengeful (Villians #2) - V. E Schwab

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I just love the characters and the world so much!!!!! I need more books of this universe cuz it really gives for so much more.

16.- Puddin' (Dumplin' #2) - Julie Murphy

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These books are so cute. Honestly no shade to Willowdean but I liked this book much more than the 1st and I loved that we had Millie and Callie as protagonists, their friendship was great and I just really liked this book so much I hope it gets a movie too.

17.- Suspicious Minds - Gwenda Bond

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I liked some stuff but honestly I couldn't help but think of a book that have a similar concept but it's way better (Firestarter) and I guess that's what happens when you rely on a concept that has already been succesful. Like it's pretty clear this was written to get money out of Stranger Things fans and that doesn't sit to well with me,