#<- doesnt really know much about python T^T

[slime-exe]

hey...... slime.exe.................. the function print("reply") would print the word reply. because putting it in quotes makes it a string. thumbs up

-a python nerd

>>> print ("reply")

oh hello! i see i see thank you for the info!! (⁠人⁠ ⁠•͈⁠ᴗ⁠•͈⁠)

[imustbenuts]

personal thoughts about playing JP games in JP vs EN, a lot of weird thoughts that probably won't make sense to many

not a dig at localization or translation or anything, just a word vomit on how im perceiving things.

theres 2 main categories in my head when i play games made by japanese devs. Western Themed, and Eastern Themed.

for Western Theme, games like final fantasy (all of it), some/few entries of fire emblems, no more heroes, and elden ring all fall into this category.

for Eastern Theme, it's games like persona, shin megami tensei, sekiro, sengoku basara, tales of series and RGG games

in my head, games in the Western Themed box are games i find far more enjoyable in english localization or dub, and actually find some of the japanese script to be kind of off putting. the Eastern Theme would be the opposite, games that are far more enjoyable in full JP than EN.

learning japanese has done quite a bit to my brain and the more i learn the more i think, "@_@ oh god im in a weird place where people won't understand me help"

because see, if i try to explain, it becomes weird and very subjective. and one of the main factor is that language is kind of intrinsically tied to culture in my head, which, :v

trying to type it down to explain anyway:

as an example, calling people by titles such as "Lord", "Sir", "Madame", "Knight", works far better for a Western themed game than an Eastern one. like, yes, that makes sense if i think about it, historically and even right now, those terms instantly spring up the images of a medieval knight and societal system in stone castles. cool beans.

but we don't use the word knight for Samurais. this is a whole other thing referring to the Japanese class of people wandering around with swords serving their feudal lords.

and in JP, it works the same. Kishi is used for Knights rather than the word samurai. for Lords, 卿(kyou) is used for English lords, and 殿(tono) is used for JP lords. but the japanese pronouns are still there, with some of the roots just reminding me of how a stereotype in JP media would speak. the -sama suffix is the same, and other words like -chan or anime/japanese rooted verbal tics can totally get in there, pulling me out of the immersion.

its like running face first into "Tis but a flesh wound" in the script - you know that specific root is in monty python, a fully ENGLISH bit. a good example of JP would be running into a cat who says "wagahai wa neko de aru", refering to nastume soseki's book I Am A Cat.

especially in the case of Final Fantasy. with very few exceptions like 7, a lot of them fit better wtih an EN script bc of how much western themed theatrics and setting is packed in there.

as an example, i think i prefer seifer in ff8 for example going "One of these days, I'm gonna tell ya 'bout my ROMANTIC dream!" like a dumbass jock over "itsuka kikasete yarusa! ore no ro~~~~~mantikku na yume wo na!" like a dumbass JP highscooler (which he kind of is, but still not a dipshit jock)

so its really the little things like that. subs not dubs doesnt work for me anymore, im in a very strange place, kupo.

another thing is really, just... the tropes. the deep disconnect between how people behave irl and how anime thinks people behave irl. kind of like how Hayao Miyazaki puts it in 2014,

so, learning Japanese has actually done a weird bit where it's caused me to actually fully understand the JP, meaning when i pick up on the script getting off putting, it gets off-putting.

when people usually go "subs not dubs", its voiced from a sense that the JP voice is better than EN. but as the years go by this isn't really true anymore, some dubs can have serious quality that's unthinkable back in 2010 ffs. i think this is largely bc anglo-speaking audience do not understand JP, and so builds an imagination between the sub and the tone of the voice acting to carry the work.

but just like old ps1 horror games, that imagination is doing a good bulk of elbow greasing.

to explain:

there are times when JP writers puts in an objectively anime trope or thing. especially in the case of FE, where sometimes that it becomes 'ew' to people who aren't hardcore anime nerds. im talking things like the whole big booba onee-chan Camilla and the kawaii imouto/otouto Sakura and Takumi tropes thats kinda there in FE Fates. and the JP version of Anna's S support in Engage and the weird undertones thats going there.

masking it with subs can cause the audience to kind of brush it off as "aaah those silly japanese" or "ok this is just an anime trope". i mean, hell, check some discourse from people who yell about how this is censorship essentially defending it from what is effectively lolicon tropes and it's just. :v

and thats the thing. once that localization or sub barrier is removed, once im hearing actual JP and past any subconscious filter, i fully see the scene in its original form. i would then have a reaction exactly like hayao miyazaki.

having that ignorance kind of protects an audience from just how deep the writers ouroborous'd themselves into the nerd sphere. i kind of wish i had that sometimes. the creep vibes in some original JP scripts makes me want to crawl out of my skin, and there is no way i can explain this to an audience without first sounding like im disparaging the original work, shitting on the writers, and bringing in my personal bias into the conversation.

which, yeah i guess it kind of is. but man. if elden ring can commit to their bit with anime tropes used in a good/interesting/subtle way, then so can every one else.

when i started learning JP to play JP games never to see the light of localization, this was not the experience i expected, tbh.

so in summary, im totally disillusioned to the idea of Original = Best, Localization = Censorship at this point. that rose colored glasses are hanging on by a thread now. kind of wondering what other stuff i'll run into but it's been a real interesting journey that i totally get if people wont understand.

loneliness and language learning goes hand in hand lol

[perseusjackson-jasongrace]

Snowy Favours

i wrote this for one of my favourite humans in the entire world! @queen-of-demons-and-hell i just kind of forgot to post it on here oops

masterlist; my links

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She smells coffee. And then pancakes, and then freshly squeezed orange juice. And suddenly she's three days into a Indonesian island holiday and there's sun streaming through her windows and the sheets draped over her bared skin are cool and if she opens her eyes she'll be met with ruffling lace curtains and the sight of the ocean just over the deck.

Annabeth Chase wakes up to silence. To darkness. To New York plunged into winter as if Khione had taken her rage out on the city over night. Snow covers the concrete buildings, already turning sloppy and muddied with the trek of never ending people. She is nowhere near Indonesia, nor in a villa overlooking blue waters. She is in her grungy apartment in her more-mattress-than-bed bed and the single window in her bedroom looks out onto the brick of the building next to her. In short its just another Monday morning.

The disappointment that floods through her is breathtaking. She feels her life swallow her up, wrapping around her lungs and squeezing as if it had taken lessons from a python. Her fingers curl around the duvet pulled over her as she stares at the wall, at the pictures littering it. She takes a deep breath, another, another. Slowly the python loosens, her heart returns to it's normal rhythm.

Glancing at the small pink clock on her bedside table she almost groans as she sees the time. Three minutes till her alarm rings. Not enough to dive back into bed but enough to consider it anyway. She forces herself to get up, feeling the cool of the wood under her feet and traipses to the bathroom where she is met with tile, the sudden cold pulls a hiss from her.

With a zombied look in her eyes she goes about her morning routine: pee, teeth, shower, change, scrounge around in empty cupboards for something at least half edible, scarf another energy bar when nothing better makes itself known, and then finally pack her bag and make her way out. She can do it with her eyes closed by now, sometimes she even does.

Still as she steps into the biting air that comes with snow her body wakes up considerably. With a curse that middles Greek and English, she twists her scarf tighter around her neck and pulls her beanie over her ears. She decides she can spare a moment to go to her favourite coffee shop this morning just to throw down a hot drink that hopefully scorches her insides.

With a determined step she sets off to the subway, earbuds shoved into her ears blaring "do re mi" by blackbear. A violent song for this early in the morning but one she mumbles along to all the same.

The coffee shop, as she so lovingly calls it, is more like a caravan sized hole wedged between two skyscrapers. It fits maybe five people comfortably, ten if you're looking to be smothered. But the coffee is beyond magical and they have the most decadent blueberry muffins she's ever had the pleasure to eat. Besides her best friend works here and really if anyone can turn her from bruised-eyed zombie to semi-human it's Percy Jackson.

The door creaks as she steps through, announcing her presence. She's too busy basking in the warmth of the little hovel to worry about the greeting thrown her way.

"Gods it's cold out there." She sucks in a breath, feeling her lungs defrost.

"Yes," Percy grins, "I suppose someone pissed off Khione again."

She rolls her eyes, as her body collapses against the black marble counter. "Khione gets pissed off about everything that's hardly an excuse to give us all frostbite."

"I suggest you take that up with her, because I cannot see any of us coming out alive after that conversation."

"Just give me a coffee you menace," She scrunches her nose in distaste, but cannot keep the playfulness out of her voice.

"Want a blueb?" He shakes a paper bag, something thumping inside. "On the house." The accompanying wink sets her cold skin on fire.

Her eyes narrow as she surveys him. His unruly black curls are kept back by three butterfly shaped clips, bright pink and probably Estelle's, and his skin browner— like dark roast coffee— from the weekend his family had taken in Spain three weeks before glows softly under the warm yellow light hanging above then. The black polo neck he wears under his "Holed Up" company t-shirt, makes his eyes look darker than normal. His jeans, faded blue, stand stark against the rest of his outfit. Even like this, in work appropriate clothes, he looks beautiful. Looks like the beginning of spring, and the happily ever after of stories, and the change of tides.

"What are you planning?" His look of incredulity almost makes her laugh.

"Why would you think I'm up to anything?"

"I've known you since we were twelve Jackson," She scoffs, as if his question is ridiculous in itself. "I know every face, every expression, every movement of your body. I know when you're up to something." She finishes off with a glare for good measure.

His green eyes are bright as he studies her, emotions warring across his face. To spill or not to spill. He pushes her coffee across the counter and she looks at him expectantly as she grabs the cup with both hands. Her numb fingers instantly start to sting with the sudden change in temperature.

"Fine." He sighs, looking at her through his lashes as if maybe be could get away with not telling her. She raises a brow. He curses under his breath and flops down on a chair hidden behind the counter.

"I need your help with something—"

Yes, of course, is on the tip of her tongue. She would do it. No hesitation. There's not much, not anything, she wouldn't do for him.

"But before you say no or worse get mad you have to hear me out." He finishes quickly. And then his eyes are big and pleading and she doesn't know if she wants to turn away or lean in closer, study that captivating green like it's the newest find in her paleontology class.

Instead she clears her throat, "What is it Percy?"

"I need you to be my fake girlfriend." He says it in one breath.

She almost asks him to repeat in case she hadn't heard right. But she knows she did. She knows she couldn't have heard anything else

He swallows. She blinks. He drops his head to his hands, a sigh already on his lips. She opens her mouth, snaps it shut.

"Okay I know it's...odd," He starts, "But I kind of got roped into going to a mixer with some people from my class and this one guy asked if we could go together but I don't really like him so I said no." Percy was rambling but she was too speechless to stop him. "But then he looked really hurt and I felt really bad so I kind of said I already had a partner which made him look less hurt but then Piper, the girl hosting the mixer, over heard me and said I should bring my partner along, since a few of them were bringing their partners, and you know I couldn't exactly back out of the lie after that so I said I would and well..." He gestures between them. "Then this happened."

Annabeth takes a sip of her coffee. And another, she downs almost half the cup before she has the ability to talk. "Why don't you just say your partner is sick on the day?"

It's her first question and instantly she wants to take it back. Because the flinch Percy tries to hide is enough to have her scrambling for a way to take back the words. Because it's not that she won't be Percy's (fake) partner, or even that she doesn't want to.

It's more that she doesnt know if she'll be able to draw the line between fake gestures and her very real feelings. Having a crush on someone for the better part of eight years tends to tug at her emotional side in a way that overules her logical one. Yes she can be Percy's fake girlfriend. No her heart won't believe the lopsided grin he gives her when he makes a bad joke will be 'just for show'. Yes she can hold hands with him and meet his friends. No she can't help the jump in her stomach as she sees the interlaced fingers.

"You don't have to." He says quietly. "I'll think of something." He waves it off, a small smile already finding its way onto his face. She knows, even without careful study, that it doesn't quite reach his eyes. She has to fix this.

"No." It comes out in a snap of rushed regret. "I will, I want to."

He looks at her, gaze wide, hesitant. "You do?"

She nods and then, as if the gesture isn't good enough stumbles through her words. "Yes, I want to." Her smile is shy, but the beam she's rewarded with nearly knocks her off her feet. "I think it'll be fun."

He scoffs at her, waving a hand. "Everything we do is fun. We're Percy and Annabeth."

And he says it's like there's no other way their names could be said. Like if someone says his hers must follow. Like if someone says hers his cannot possibly be far behind. He says it like they belong.

Her heart does a giddy sort of flip that spreads warmth through her chest and in her stomach, better than the coffee ever could.

"Okay Percy Jackson." She holds out her hand, to shake on. "Let's pretend to be madly in love."

With a wink, that causes her brain to explode, he takes her hand in his and turns it over before placing a delicate kiss on her knuckles.

She becomes the air itself. And as she floats to lectures she decides maybe it's not just another Monday. Maybe she did wake up in a paradise of sorts. Maybe life isn't so dull. She laughs to herself.

It can never be dull if Percy is there. It never has.

[ofdemetcrs]

✧･ﾟ(   demeter + ana de armas + cis female   ) 𝒎𝒂𝒎𝒎𝒂 𝒎𝒊𝒂 !!  have you seen (   julietta “juliet / jj” montesino  ) around ? (   she  ) has been in kaos for (   six years   ). the (   twenty six year old   ) is a/an (   gardener / owner of the local farmers marker   ) from (   new york, USA   ). people say they can be (   overbearing   ) but maybe that’s not too bad ‘cause they can also be (   nurturing   ). whenever i think of them, i can’t help but think of (   the smell of ozone after rainfall, the way the sunlight trickles between the trees, the feeling of dewy grass beneath bare feet   ).  ･ﾟ✧  (  penned by lou, 20, est, she/her  ).

pinterest !

holy hades ... me, finally doing my intro ??? how sexy is that man ....

ANYWAYS hello!! my name is louise, or lou, whichever u prefer. i’m twenty years old and i live in florida ( and yes, florida men are real. i saw one walking a raccoon on a leash a few months ago ) and i live and breathe all things greek mythology. it’s actually what i specialize in at school !!! it’s my favorite subject EVERRRRR.

the character i am playing is named julietta montesino, but she mainly goes by juliet or jay or jj. she’s twenty six years old, grew up in the upper east side of new york, and is the demeter skeleton !!! now i know what you’re thinking -- demeter, coming from a city ?? how does that make sense ??? honestly, it really doesnt !! but my whole idea was that she was a source of life in the midst of urbanization. cheesy, i know, but in my head it kinda worked, y’feel me ???

below are some bullet points about her childhood !! i’ll explain a bit more below them but for now ~

originally born in madrid, spain to two teen parents that simply weren’t ready to have a child. she was only in the system for a little less than a year before grace and dean montesino, older upper east side socialites ( think gossip girl ) brought the girl home.

they brought her back to their main home in east hampton, new york, and that is where she grew up.

she was given just about everything she could have ever asked for, and still she had yet to grow a spoiled bone in her body.

went to a private school in the upper east side and was universally liked by both students and teachers

by the age of 20, both grace and dean montesino had passed away of old age ( as they were both well into their 70s when they had initially taken her in ) and from that she inherited their fortune, alongside their vacation home that was on kaos.

she’s lived there for six years now, and since moving to the island, she has started up a cute little farmers market that runs during the week and for a few hours on the weekends. she sells fresh produce there and allows people to set up stands and vendor stalls and such.

so !!! she was adopted by an elderly couple that hadn’t been able to have children of their own. they truly wanted someone to be able to carry on their family name and their legacy, and so, they decided to adopt a child into their home, despite having been well into their late 60s and early 70s. juliet blossomed in their household, and despite everything that she inherited, she never once let it get to her head. she’s very humble, and very generous and nurturing and truly just the most Mom friend you could ever have.

but be warned. she has a temper. big demeter temper. very much “hey i’ll fucking stop shit from growing until my daughter is returned” level temper. i think i mention that again in her headcanon section, but it’s a very big part of her personality. she’s usually a pretty patient and kind person, but if you push and push and push and end up crossing that line, it’ll be hard to once again earn your spot in her life. she has a petty streak, and is often times very overbearing and overprotective and, well, smothering. but know that she always has the best intentions, even if sometimes the best intentions lead to the worst scenarios.

and now, my favorite part. headcanons.

she has 5 reptiles. a ball python named Ellie ( bc demeters sacred animal is a serpent hehe ), two leopard geckos - castor & pollux, a bearded dragon named eragon, and a panther chameleon named pascal !

she has vacation homes all over the world that she inherited from grace and dean. one in Monaco, one in Italy, one in Bali, and one in London.

went to collage and studied botany!!!

has such a green thumb

SHE ALSO HAS CHICKENS !!!!! their names are Dennis and Jerry and Brad and Kenny, and they provide eggs that she sells at her little farmers market that she runs on the island

her favorite color is midnight blue

she has a few tattoos but they’re small and easily hidden

she also has a septum piercing but keeps it flipped up most of the time

is an absolute mom friend

literally like always has snacks in her bag for the friends she knows that get hangry, always has tissues and a shoulder available to cry on, is more than willing to always step away from what she’s doing in order to be there for someone

but she’s also very overbearing with a lot of her friends and she doesn’t mean to be but ,,,, she can be a little smothering sometimes

and by sometimes I mean all the time

as in she’s the type to grab a tissue and start wiping someone’s nose for them like “ugh you look so sick here let me–” cue the invasion of personal space

but she does it out of love I swear

people just need to remind her of boundaries sometimes

she also has a wicked temper. very “I’ll stop the growth of everything until you return my daughter hades” level temper. it’s a mama’s temper. u kno…scary shit my dudes

loves to wear sundresses. she’s got so many different kinds

also a big Stan of leggings and big t-shirts. she definitely does not dress as if she has millions in the bank

she spends most of her time in her backyard bc its …. really pretty

if you would like to plot, please please please like this and i’ll be happy to come to you for any plots at all !!! thank you for reading this mess ERIKBJFND.

[anjevalart]

i... i have never felt more motivated to work on something ever

most of my followers might not know this but it’s my goal to work as a game designer, i havent had any fancy “game creation” classes so most of what i’ve learned is from online tutorials and trial and error, last year i made a simple 6-minute platformer game in unity for my senior project, it was hell tbh it took six months and i had never used unity to that extent before. recently i realized i’ve got little to show for all the years i’ve been at school, i do have a couple incomplete games but nothing really usable for potential AAA job applications lol

that’s where this personal project comes in, i’ll get right to it and say that i really want to work with Toby Fox to finish the remaining chapters of Deltarune, i’m dead gd serious it’s all i’ve thought about since it was released, i even payed 10 bucks for the ost so i can listen to it on repeat, i’m obsessed, i dont want to work on it just to get my name in the credits, i just strongly believe in the potential of Deltarune and can’t imagine seeing it incomplete, i want to help in any way possible, this story must be finished!!

of course a million other people and their grandmas are gonna be begging to work with him too, maybe he’ll never notice my work (senpai notice me) but i’m determined to learn GameMaker as fast as possible and show him what i’m can do, i already know java, python, and a bit of c# so writing code is ez, in the three days since i’ve downloaded the trial version, i’ve gotten to where i can move around, face different directions and animate when walking/idle, i added a dash (with a cool trail effect), lots of basic stuff that i.. cant show bc apparently the GM window is a vampire and doesnt record in OBS :T honestly i’d probably be much farther along if i didnt have midterms/classes to worry about..

tl;dr you’ll be seeing more progress as i work to finish this and learn using GameMaker so i can hopefully make a short game as a resume to send to Toby, also Toby i’m a fast learner and i really want to help pls hire me

also here’s links to summaries about the games i made [Dog Petting Simulator / Hemlock] : petting some dogs and typing some words [Rooms] : 13-screen puzzle game [CATS!!!] : just a room full of gummy cats

@fwugradiation if you read this please contact me!! i’ll buy you milkbones a sandwich!

[thothonegan]

Coding Conventions

I've had a few people ask how I layout my code. So here's a quick overview. Of course coding conventions is a very touchy topic for a lot of programmers, so don't take this as the 'best' approach or anything. It's just what works for me. A lot of it has been inspired by various other guides such as the Google C++ Style Guide so look at those too.

Files

Naming Conventions

Rule: .cpp for C++ source files, .hpp for C++ header files.

Justification: Mostly makes it obvious what a file is written in. If you've ever included a C file without extern C and it didnt support c++ correctly, you know why this is useful.

General Indentation

Rule: Tabs for indentation, spaces for alignment.

Justification: This is probably the number one things programmers argue about. Personally, I find the benefit of having a specific alignment character nicer then not. And I hate typing lots of spaces in code (python) that requires it (or YAML : even if my editor is setup for tab=spaces, it always puts the cursor in the wrong place). Or even this stupid markdown editor because Tumblr doesnt understand triple grave code blocks properly *kicks*.

Header Guards

Rule: Use old style C #define header guards, generally named from the project down (like WOLFCORE_THREAD_HPP ).

Justification: I know some people prefer #pragma once and it's supported practically everywhere, but it's still non-standard. This is mostly a 'I'm used to it' type thing, and theirs a few cases where its useful. Like for example, you want to guarantee a certain file was included before you (like the hell that is Windows.h).

Forward declarations

Rule: Prefer forward declarations for classes to using includes.

Justification: This is something I never cared about till my compile times increased due to how big my projects have gotten. C++ also has a lot of constructs (templates, inlines) which require headers to be included so its best to give it as much of a help as possible. When modules becomes standardized, hopefully it'll help with this.

Documentation

Rule: Everything in headers should be documented. In source files, just readable comments are needed.

Justfication: For me, header files are like the index of a book. The main reason I'm looking through them is for an API I need, or need to learn how to use a class. Having everything documented and neatly sectioned makes this easy (especially when combined with doxygen). I definitely document more than most people do, but its come in handy too many times to count when coming back to a class I wrote years before and completely forgot the quirks a class has.

The one other related big rule is if something happens such as a crash due to using an API wrong, the documentation for that function must have pointed that out. If it did, I as a user of the function was wrong : if it doesn't, that's a bug in the function (either it should point it out, or the function needs to be fixed). This rule alone has improved stability of my programs, because just making it not crash anymore doesn't mean its actually fixed. And if its possible for the function to detect that condition (in debug mode) and abort, it is required to. If you can get every crash down to where the app detects it before the system does, that is huge. Its much nicer to get a 'Abort: Tried to access a null pointer here [backtrace]' instead of 'SIGSEGV'.

Naming Conventions

Macros

Rule: Macros will be named in all capitals. WOLF_APPLICATION() for example.

Justification: This keeps the preprocessor neatly seperated from the rest of the language. Anything in all caps or with #stuff you know happens before the compiler runs.

Constants

Rule: Constants will be CapitalCamelCase. Note this generally only applies to full constants, and not just variables marked 'const'.

Justifcation: With variables being different, this makes it easy to tell if something's designed to be assignable or not.

Variables

Rule: Variables will be lowerCamelCase (with the exceptions of prefixes). Variable names can have a prefix of '[letters]_[name]' if they fall into specific categories. Namely:

m : A member variable

s : A static variable (usually file scope)

A variable might also have postfix names too, though thats mostly up to the module. Common ones are S for seconds (durationS), str for string (durationStr) and so on.

Justfication: The lowerCamelCase is basically to counter with constants, so at a glance you can tell the basics of a type. With the prefixes, you also know the scope of a variable and cannot easily get confused between local variables and long living variables like members. The final part about prefixes is a form of Application Hungarian Notation (not to be confused with Systems Hungarian (ala lpCmdLine) which is what Windows uses and is annoying to work with).

Namespaces/Classes/Structs/Enums/Unions

Rule: Containers will use CapitalCamelCase, very much like constants. Add 'Private' somewhere to the name if its for internal use.

Justfication: Mostly distinctiveness again. The mixing between constants and containers also generally isnt a problem, and the compiler will point it out if you accidently use one at the other.

Functions/Methods

Rule: Functions/Methods will use lowerCamelCase with one of the prefixes below if required. Generally functions if they return a value should have the return as part of the name (aka do not do val = calculate(), instead val = calculateLength()). Setters start with set while get just name the value. Prefixes used include:

p : Protected/Private function - not callable outside the class and/or decendents.

i : Internal function - might be public, but isn't part of the common/normal interface. Be careful!

s : Static function - limited to the file. Note that this ISNT used for class static functions (since they are public interface).

v : Virtual function. See Private Virtuals below for more details. Not public generally.

r : CRTP function. Called by one of the classes we inherit from. Not public.

Justification: The difference from other constants makes it easier to deal names. You can tell instantly that WolfCore::Module is some form of container, while WolfCore::Module::v_init is a virtual function. The mixing with variables isn't an issue since they are never valid in the same contexts.

The setter/getter thing is mostly a question of style. The goal is to make public usage as straightforward as possible, and allow information hiding as easily as possible (since it costs 0 due to inlining). With the member variable rule above, this then means you have something like:

m_value : The member variable 'value' which stores the value.

value() : A function to retreieve the member variable 'value'.

setValue(Type&) : A function to set the member variable 'value'.

And now probably the most distinct thing in my style: the function prefixes. Anything off the normal public path has a prefix, which allows devs to know the category of a function without affecting users of the class. I'll explain each rule individually, and justify them seperately.

p_function() : Protected/Private functions. These are functions the normal user shouldnt ever care about, so theirs no reason it should come up in code-completion/etc. When using certain APIs, I've tried to call a function only to realize it was private, and was just part of the code because of how classes work. While IDEs try to show them differently, a little icon change isn't easily noticable. This makes it a lot more obvious. There is no distinction between protected/private because I default everything to private, and the few cases you use protected, you know what you're doing (since you're working on the backend of the class).

i_function() : 'Internal' public functions. There is a few cases where you need a function to be public that really shouldn't be - but for some reason friend wont solve it, or makes an even bigger mess. Internal functions allow you to public something, yet its still not a 'normal' function. If you ever see a call to one of these, its a big warning sign that its doing something odd. An example in Wolf is Matrix::i_fromEigenMatrix() : nothing in Wolf publically should depend on my matrix implementation being eigen, yet its needed for some of the helper classes to be able to easily pass things around.

s_function() : Static per file functions. This is mostly used for private helper functions for classes which arent part of the public interface. Mostly they'll end up in an anonymous namespace. Things like s_initKeyboardTable() in various window drivers that just setup a global table for looking up keyboard keys. Note this is not used for static class functions. Those use normal naming conventions (like Manager::manager()).

v_function() : This is Private Virtuals. More details at the end, but it is a way to seperate virtual implementations from the actual calling interface. You almost never call a v_function() directly, but it marks the interface a parent class might call you with.

r_function() : CRTP. If you don't need the runtime calling abilities that virtuals provide, CRTP allows you to require a specific interface thats completely resolved at compile time (mostly at 0 cost due to inling). From a code writer perspective, its the same as a virtual v_function(). Might write a blog post about CRTP someday, cause it's a handy technique that a lot of people don't know about.

All of these are cases where you're either limited where you can call it, or you need to be careful when you're calling it. Having these special function prefixes have helped me a lot.

Indentation/Spacing Rules

This is more of the 'feel good' type rules. Can't really justify most of them other then its just how I do things.

Tabs (Literal tab character, editor view set to 4 spaces)

Mostly Allman style in formatting. I've experimented a bit with others such as 1TBS, but while Allman loses a bit in density its pretty nice to read.

Spaces arround operators, keywords, etc

I do allow single statement constructs such as if, but been trying to get away with a condensed Allman for those cases.

Example:

if (condition) { break; }

instead of

if (condition) break;

Spaces after function names.

Namespaces use Allman, but if multiple namespace are grouped together, I use one line. I don't need this as much as I used to, but this probably the number one thing that editors despise me doing (they keep trying to fix it). This is mostly to prevent indentation explosion.

Example:

namespace Wolf { namespace Core { class A; } }

C++17 will add namespace Wolf::Core which will help.

Decorations on variables go with the types: aka const Type* t. Yes I know if you're abusing C this looks weird (the char* a, b example) but the answer is to stop abusing C. Yes its technically part of the variable not the value, yes its 'how you use it' and 'not part of its type' but it acts like part of the type, thus its part of the type. Ducks quack and all. Speaking of...

One declaration per line. End of story. No char* a, b crap. If you have a ton of variables to generate, use preprocessor macros or a supporting tool.

Dont use void in the parameter list. I used to, and a lot of code of mine still does, but blank is just fine. Unless you're in C of course, cause C defaults to int for some reason.

Prefer using to typedef. C++11 made it way more powerful, and its more readable too.

A quick example of everything put together, WolfThread::Thread's header! (some parts removed for space).

namespace WolfThread { // /// \brief A class that represents a thread of execution /// /// Subclass Constructor must have the format: /// explicit Thread (ThreadFunctionPointer f); // class Thread { public: /// \name Types /// \{ // /// \brief Function prototype for threads // using FunctionPointer = WolfType::Function<void (WolfThread::Thread* thread)>; /// \} /// \name Construction/Destruction /// \{ // /// \brief Destroy the thread - will join if joinable // virtual ~Thread () {} /// \} /// \name Joining/Detaching /// \{ // /// \brief Join the thread - waits for it to finish its execution // void join () { v_join(); } // /// \brief Detach the thread - the thread is now independent of this handle // void detach () { v_detach(); } /// \} WOLF_DEFAULT_MOVE(Thread); WOLF_DEFAULT_ASSIGN_MOVE(Thread); WOLF_DISABLE_COPY (Thread); WOLF_DISABLE_ASSIGN (Thread); protected /*child interface */: // /// \brief The thread is starting. Should be called by children when the thread started. // void p_threadStarted (); // /// \brief The thread is exiting. Cleans up runloop/etc : should be called by children classes when the thread is about to return. // void p_threadExiting (); private: /* child interface*/ // /// \brief Join the thread - waits for it to finish its execution // virtual void v_join () = 0; // /// \brief Detach the thread - the thread is now independent of this handle // virtual void v_detach () = 0; }; }

Private Virtuals

So a quick aside about virtuals. Virtual functions are pretty amazing, but theirs a few issues with using them:

Interface and Implementation are mixed. The caller of the function is tied directly to the implementation.

Not able to easily insert your own code. Want code to run before and after every call? Can't really do it, without assuming that your child classes will call back to you. Speaking of..

Can't guarantee what child classes will do. Will they call you before they do things? After?

What if later on you want the interface to change? All the callers and the callees have to change. Even if its mostly compatible.

If you have behavior in your parent class, you can't guarantee you're overridden. Modern C++ added support for having default behavior yet being pure, but its still odd.

So the C++ STL (among other places) has an interesting way to fix these. Instead of having one function (say init() that is both called and overridden) you instead have two:

public: void init () { v_init(); } // calls the virtual - public interface private: virtual void v_init () = 0; // child HAS to override [or not if you dont make it pure]

Even though its private, you can override it from a child class. They just cant call the base version (since its private). So what does this gain us?

Interface and Implementation are seperate. The implementation only messes with the v_init() one, and doesnt know/care if init() is the only caller of it.

Since the interface is seperate, we can easily add any code we want before/after the v_init() all. None of the callers have to change, because its all filtering through init.

We still can't guarantee what child classes will do, but thats fine because they cant call the parent function anyways! So we can guarantee we can do things before/after them regardless of what they do.

If you want to change the interface or the implementation, go right ahead. Only the callers or callees will need to change as long as you keep them compatible. You can even have multiple virtual interfaces and the public API choose whichever it wants.

You can have behavior in your parent class, yet your function is still pure virtual and must be overriden (since its not part of the implementation function).

And yes, at least for simple cases like this it's 0 cost - C++ will inline it all anyways.

The one downside you get is that you have to duplicate your functions - for every virtual, you need the public interface function too. Not a huge deal while you're building things. And if you document all interfaces like I do, it costs a bit more time there too.

This takes some time to get used to, but it comes in handy.

Ending

Wow, that turned out to be a lot more than I expected - and I bet I missed a lot of things. Anyways, thats a basic look in my code formatting - I still tweak things here and there, and theirs definitely places in my codebase with older styles. The most important thing though is having a style - because even if its different (unreal and its 'everything is capitalized' for example), as long as its consistent its fine working with.

[stuprosu]

march 17th, 2020 1:50 AM

yeah

listen

it’s pretty well established that i am absolutely atrocious at keeping this updated. and i always say that i am going to keep it updated. but i never fucking do, do i? so i’ll say it again. and maybe i’ll mean it it this time. but i really do want to keep this up. there’s so much that i am forgetting lately. things i shouldn’t be forgetting. things i want to remember. this is another situation where i am going to have to outline each thing by each month. hold on to your butts. 

[october 2018] see i don’t remember even what’s going on. this is almost two years ago. i saw the national this month. i also went on a date with sam. it went fine but i just wanted to be friends... so he ghosted me. yahoo. it’s coming back to me now. i go to worlds of fun with kady, marissa, ashleigh, amanda, and conner... love these goons so much. 

[november 2018] my other friend - an online friend, one that lived close. we talked all the time and we played a lot of overwatch and shit together. and i’m intelligent. i’m smart. i know when i’m being taken advantage, or know when people try to do this. he asks me out on a date. we meet up in leavenworth. we spend the whole day together and we drink alcohol. i found out later i have a pretty severe alcohol intolerance. i don’t remember much of that night. maybe everything that falls down eventually rises. that whole experience was that stupid fucking bright eyes song. i can’t remember much - that pretty much makes it nonconsensual, right? i have no memory. but it’s been too long. the next day he texts me and tells me he only wants to be friends. i only remember him kissing me and his house and brooklyn 99. my aunt said i was pretty incoherent when he dropped me back off there at 2am. 

i don’t really know what to make of that whole situation. best to not think about it. we have a friendsgiving. but we don’t relaspe. i actually took up smoking, lmao. i cut him completely out of my life. i am talking to people again. i start dating a boy named drew. we were both pretty lonely people.

[december 2018] yooo drew gets in a fucking wreck after leaving my house at 2am lmao i forgot about that. he was trying to avoid a snowstorm and like broke his femur in half. he was hospitalized for 2 weeks. i visited him. he couldn’t walk for about two months. i felt really bad but i didn’t really want to keep dating him. the whole thing was my fault and i don’t know how to feel about it even now. nothing else much happened during this month. someone wrecked into my parked car. i got zaba this month, my ball python. 

[january 2019] kady asked me to be a bridesmaid in her wedding. i break up with drew. it’s cold as fuck. i am sure there are other details. oh, ashleigh tells kady and i she will not be renewing the lease as she is going to move in with her boyfriend. ashleigh, in the past, like august 2018? was dating this homophobe so i didn’t talk to her. when he dumped her (after taking the old v card, which she told me about, which i responded to with indifference, which upset her) i was there to pick up the pieces but i told her she made a really dumb decision and i don’t know what else she expected and that it hurt that she knew my feelings about something and still dating someone so gross. ANYWAYS. new boyfriend. ashleigh wants to move in with the new boyfriend even though they havent even been dating a month... okay. we tell her not to. she doesn’t listen. ashleigh just starts being shady as fuck. jake , her bf, dumps after 2 weeks after she decides to not renew the lease. dumbass. 

ashleigh is still set to move out in may, when the lease is up. so, that’s not my problem. 

[february 2019] i really love my classes. i took ornithology that semester and i really loved it. i also cut my hair then and i came out publicly as bisexaul cause i realized how problematic being pansexual is. i also think i came out publicly as a nonbinary person, too. for so long i had issues with my gender, but i always pushed it aside and literally told myself don’t think about it, don’t worry about it, just stop. cringily, steven universe helped me figure out a label for what i was experiencing through rebecca sugar. pretty awesome stuff. 

[march 2019] a lot of shit went down this month. ashleigh started dating a guy named zane, who she first originally described to me as a creepy guy in her history class. they went on one date and fucked in her CAR in a museum PARKING LOT. lmao  and then proceeds to never sleep with him at our apartment, but will book hotels and shit. like how self conscious can you be?? anyways. i am fed up with it and i vent to some discord server and forgot ashleigh was in it. i delete it just in case but turns out she got screenshots and never told me. ash wanted to come to nakakon the weekend of march 16. march 15, ashleigh brings over zayn and theyre in her room. kady and conner are watching the office and marissa is there too. 

i come home at like 1am and they tell me ZAYN is there and has a fucking GUN on his hip and i’m?? what the fuck. so we start playing that episode of the office with gun safety dwight really really loudly. and then marissa messages ash and asks zayn to put the gun in his car. the gun is a REVOLVER and doesn’t have a fucking safety. she also doesnt have a gun safe? everyone is just super uncomfortable. zayn comes out and makes a huge deal. he tells us we’re being immature and that it isn’t a big deal. i said something along the lines that we live here, he didn’t ask, we’re uncomfortable, respect it or perish, smth like that. he leaves to go put it in his car. comes back in and starts it back up. says that “the big scary gun is put away” shut up cuck. 

anyways we get into and conner steps in because zayn is yelling at me and i am ready to brawl. zayn mentions something abuot how i treat ash like shit. i can only assume she showed him the screenshots of my discord message lmaoooo . anyways the day after that incident ! i cannot resolve it because ash is coming with me and staying at my dad’s apartment with marissa and i for nakakon. ashleigh is really obnoxious some of the time but mostly quiet. but since we were in such close quarters, i couldn’t bring up the whole shit with zayn. so. 

i am fed up and amanda, kady, marissa, ash, and i go to ihop to try and hash this out. we have a talking straw. we talk about alllll of our issues. i thought it went good. i was not aware that ash was aware of the screenshots. we told ash we were uncomfortable with zayn and would appreciate if he would apologize for disrespecting kady and i in our home and how he talked to me especially. this wasn’t unreasonable, considering three other people were witness to how zayn was talking to me. 

zayn said to ashleigh he wouldn;t apologize because he’d done nothing wrong. i told ashleigh i didn’t want him in the apartment. she moved out at this point and we got into it pretty heavily over messenger. ashleigh blocked all of us on facebook. i miss her but she’s a really toxic person who is in a relationship with a really toxic trump supporter who hates antifa and is really cringe. 

[april 2019] nothing much happened. college is good. i still have a massive crush on carter. marissa moved in. she has found out i am a giant recluse by nature and i think that has had an impact on our relationship even today. my past journal articles have illustrated i can only take people in doses, but we’ve found how to get along. 

[may - july 2019] nothing too crazy happened here either. it was an incredible summer, though. i worked, but i went to the lake so much and got close to toby! i hung out with marissa and kady so much and i really love those two girls. dad and amy are together all the time but they’re not “dating”. i know they are, just amy’s kids are young and wouldn’t understand. i know they’ll tell me when they’re ready. i also watched all of hunter x hunter and loved it. rewatched neon genesis evangelion, too, and loved it. i can’t remember when, but danielle handed marissa a letter for me to read. it was really intense and kind of perception-shattering. i texted her and we agreed to become at least non-hostile and chill with each other. i have really been meaning to see danielle irl and talk to her... but i keep forgetting and don’t have much time during the semester. i feel bad but... i don’t know what else to say. i reached out to her in december but was left on read. that was my fault, as i hadn’t responded to her in months. it’s better than what it was, to say the least. 

[august 2019] golden year baby ! just kidding my golden year was whenever i turned nineteen. anyways august is pretty chill. i started my senior year and took entomology. i loved that class so much and had it with carter. i really love the people in my field and i am going to miss them so much. love the biology goons. i also found out from my doctor i am allergic to most alcohols after i had an allergic reaction on my 21st and went to the doctors. i have a pretty severe intolerance. also started playing dragon age again. i don’t really talk to mom at all. my maternal grandfather, cliff, who i have never met/spoken to, has a relationship with my sister ashlee and was at my nephew’s first birthday party. cliff met my brothers and i and was very kind to us. however, i love my aunt shanna with my whole heart and she doesn’t like him at all. there was a very clear and obvious divide of my mom’s sisters and family, like jordan, kenadee, brettney, nana, and my grandfather’s family, like his other children and their spouses. it was all very difficult. i know my grandfather doesn’t have much time left in this world, but he still was rude and treated the family who HAS been there like shit. i know my mom cut my grandfather out, but i am inclined to side with my aunt because she knows best. however, she didn’t pull me aside at the birthday party and tell me not to believe a thing cliff says. cliff, however, did that. told me to believe what nana says and that it was all in the past. that rubbed me the wrong way. i still don’t know what to think about that situation. 

[september 2019] just school and work still, nothing crazy. mammalogy trips, entomology trips, school is really really fun and a lot of work but i love it so much! oh, and carter got me a bernie2020 magnet for my birthday. 

[october 2019] i saw the band cigarettes after sex. they were really awesome. i broke my glasses. i went to ren fest. nathan was creepy. i saw my mom and my aunt brenna at toby’s marching band game. dad, ash, and bentley were there. it was awkward and i didn’t try talking to my mom. a few months prior i kind of ripped into her on messenger and tried to tell her that i wanted a relationship but she had to acknowledge that what she did in the past was wrong (and i told her exactly what she did wrong, and i had talked about this with my siblings and dad, who agreed) and how she could fix it and how i still wanted her in my life. and she refused to acknowledge this. i kind of broke down over it because i realized my mom was never ever ever going to change and it broke me. anyways, i saw her at the game and i didn’t talk to her and answered her questions with as much grace as i could manage. that’s all. she lives in olathe now. that guy and her broke up. toby lives with dad full time now. dad has a good job and bartends part time at top golf. 

[november 2019] there was a praying mantis on my aloe plant! she laid an ootheca. it should hatch any day now :)i went to a deer aging check station. i slept in a bath tub. had some good conservations with my sister. we also had kady’s bridal shower. kaycee’s house is amazing and so is kaycee! i wish she lived closer. 

[december 2019] kady got married! it was a really beautiful reception. i finished my semester with all As and Bs! entomology was really hard, but i got a B in there! most people in ento got Cs or Ds so i did really well :) we started playing left for dead again 

[january 2020] kady is on her honeymoon. marissa and i watched midsommar on new years eve. i started my new classes. i am taking herpetology and paleontology and local flora. i also TA for plant phys and am doing research with dr. barta! life was pretty good. oh, i tried getting glass animals tickets, but they sold out, so i was really bummed :///

[february 2020] chiefs won the superbowl, played dragon age, went to class. i spend a lot of time with amanda and love her so much. i also got my resume together! waiting to hear back so i can start applying for jobs.

[march 2020] it’s the current month. it’s been a wild month because of the virus. i was supposed to find a place to live by may and a job this month but the virus has made that pretty much impossible. my dad has been reassuring but also not at the same time. it will all work out. i voted for bernie in the primaries. i have become extremely socialist in my views. right now, i am really into NGE and jojo’s bizarre adventure and i am listening to a lot of the kinks. jyro turned 11 this month. 11! he’s getting so old. i hope i can find a place to live but i need to find a job first. it’s a stressful time. hopefully i won’t get the virus but... we will see. also, i’ll try to keep this updated. maybe monthly! 

see ya xox

lex

[cold-iron-burns]

We've come to a consensus.

Everyone present at the time of this writing will do their best to inform the ones who need the support of a gentle delivery of current events.

The ayes have it.

YOU WOULD HAVE A PARLIAMENT AS YOUR COMMUNICATION SPACE

what's wrong with that? if we all actually do our jobs, so many more of us will be represented

THATS A LOGICAL ARGUEMENT, BUT WHO IS REALLY GETTING REPRESENTED

-wait WhAt?! HoW mAnY oF yOu ArE tHeRe

Oh honey, more than you will ever know. It's gonna be okay. We found each other and that's what's important. We're gonna start introducing ourselves,

*or at least, becoming more clear*

I love all of you so much, thank you so much for letting me in, for being patient with me. I think I'm the host? what iss. @ -o{oo#t?

started dissociating, it felt physically painful. the documenter.

And the enchanting lady is? *turns to tip his hat and wink at the camera* A -name-? Do you honestly think I could have settled on any name? Any singular--yes, Zed is going to sleep. I'm very fond of him. Attracted to him? He is my Adonis. Every inch of his body is particularly unique to his position in spacetime. There will never again be a Zed in which he appears, feels, smells and tastes exactly the same as he does at this exact moment, continued, forever and so on, as far as you know, infinitely. The Philosopher.

Wait, no, the Philanthropist

Wait wait NO, I stand by The Philosopher (for now)

[hold up, are y'all tellin me -- you c'n cawl me your White Trash Sweetheart, get rid of that bracket there, that's for the Host now

she doesnt know if she's the host or not, wibblywoooooo~ teen punk brat? aww man, fuck you you stupid piece of shit

hiiii yeah hi, I'm post-apocalypse punk Mayor (yes, you can call me that, but its aspirational) wow very humble -- golf commentater (now based on ugh this is important remember the actress' name, you look stupid, don't just stand there staring off into space, GET BACK TO WORK

OH YEAH, hi BiTcH --oh he's gone, that's -too- bad. well, as I'm here anyway, we should get to know one another. I'm "sassy black woman" because you're ashamed people will think you're using me just for drama and that's pretty fuckin racist--

I'm Final Form Chie. I started as so many of our seeds do, a poor slave girl, who loses her virginity yeah it's okay to make shortcuts

FOCUS

she gains skills, proves useful to the master, destroys the master (sometimes with kindness sometimes literally depending on what we need at the time)

[I didn't know it was that specific]

I'm mixed, actually, but I'm inspired SO MUCH by Claws. FUCKING REPRESENTATION FINAL--

>nope nope nope, shut it down<

John Cleese?

not exactly. A bit like the entire cast of monty python rolled into one. I'm from the countryside, but I can't say for sure where

woooooo we almost lost her there. she was panicking about losing this productive high, but she pulled through and FOUND THAT RUBI. Small Town Beauty Queen. I don't find it insulting if it helps you remember me. I started as Fern of Charlotte's Web. I keep that mournful lullaby for you. It really changed your path, dear heart. I don't become Miss America or anything, I'm too old by that time. But I love my family so much. You have so much anger

Yes, that's right, Dearie. Maiden, Mother, Crone. We don't think it was intentional but we like the power we have when we cooperate. Yes, we guide ... oh honey, don't cry, it's gonna be okay. no, n-n-no, no, you don't h-h-have to oh no, I really don't want to be here, I wasn't sure what to wear before, oh, I've gotten comfortable and I'm stuttering less. No, I don't think people who stutter in real life have this drastic of

oh, oh my. oh no, I'm still Achates.

Does it really surprise you? Chie and Amaury loved me so much that they couldn't bear to part entirely. They feel loyal to answer when you call on them when recalled in memories; they consider it their duty to fight in sharing our stories! With Pictures!

I don't need pictures

Don't you? you need to sleep, you're exhausted and you have an appointment tomorrow. Please go the fuck to bed. Slightly Extra (okay kinda actually just really ~(EXTRA)~

okay how do I... Ah, I got it. I'm the lucky early gen x mom you both wish you had -- no, we are not combined, sugar tits.

I'm the hardass 70s-80s mom you would have had if you're life was a movie. Well, technically I can mask as any kind of 70s-80s media mom (one of y'all--us! oh, yes, i hear you. I want you to know I would protect you, Kevin. MOM UGH

keep going - the sprites (soot or rainbow, we shift to suit your needs. we might steal your shoes. we are only some of the fae court. crossover unknown cannot compute - PLEASE HURRY. GOOD. I AM THE ROBOT OF THE 80s and --scratch that record

I'm that part of you who knew she couldn't look like Zach Morris and wanted so badly just to be a little boy. You were SO CONNECTED with the host when I was there?

wait, I'm the host

no, you--you are now because writing takes concentrating which you are losing quickly. Hello! I'm Sassy Progressive Upper Class CONCENTRATE, DAMMIT. GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER. I don't care if I sound like -your-mom. Someone has to be the mom around here!

Someone has to be the mom around here.

Who wrote it?

you are high af.

keep letting your eyes go out of focus, yes you're getting sleepy, think how nice the bed will feel on that aching body. She deserves some rest, the old girl.

My body is a cow? wait, there's more. she shifts to being omniscient for scenes, if a cowsona (oh, yes, Buana and Gaushala and Pirwa ... Gaushala still has an arrow in the heart.

Yes, WoW Chie (Chiela will do.). I was here while you built your confidence to try... yes, dear, you really should sleep. TO TRY GETTING CATRIN AND RIAIN A HOME AFTER being abandoned when some of you lost the "spark" or whatever with Michael. I orchestrated some of the setup. you don't need to know my name. I'm both Italian immigrant/WHOA DO NOT EVEN CONNECT THE JEWISH COMMUNITY TO--NO, We Dont...*clears throat, drinks water*. No, you're not wealthy like Ms. Maisel, -we-, sorry, sometimes I have to pretend. Speaking of pretending, no, kid, I'm not as funny or talented as all the wonderful Jewish actresses (yeah yeah, Italian-American you, whatever his+her names are, we'll get to you later)

oh nooooo they're not sure if they'll fit the stereotype if they get loud but they wanna

yeah, sure kid, we sound a lot alike. we exist in a liminal space in which America (and new york city) (and every big american metropolis)... we can all celebrate our differences

It's alright, you just need to focus. I'm 90s Successful Well Paying Professional (I can be in the late 80s WA>T)

you're just stating tropes you stupid bitch

whale!

MISS PIGGY

LOOK AT HER FAT FINGERS

remember when you -hold on- hold on for me, my love lovely?

~do you wanna be my lover, gotta get wit my friends, make it last forever cause that's the way it is"

some of us havent learned to swype yet, fuuuuuck. you're popular--but not top tier popular 4th grade 4H champion with all the ribbons. you'll grow up (yes it's hard, i want to be a teacher one day. I'm based on Angie. I'm the imaginary life you might have led if your family wasn't so difficult. We should give them credit, everyone's trying their best. Oh, I can take on mom duties when I need, we also have kids in our future. We live in Lagrange (my husband and I, at this point in the line) but we don't make as much as our parents yet, though. Yet. Yes, I know what it feels like to feel content but maybe have some (or a lot of) wanderlust in life. I'm ten or so years older than you, so while our dedication to staying in Lorain County is important to the values we wish to impart on our children (yes we are Christian. We love Sharon with all our heart and we're so glad (there's a small congregation of us, maybe enough to fill a quiet one room cottage on Sunday, God willing. I'm inspired by the Amish women I see selling their wares and replicate "Amish" methods when making food for my family (I'm good friends with The Baker. We watch Steven Universe with you! We're so excited for the movie and hope we get to talk to you about it! I showed it to Chip and Carol, well I keep talking with them about it and they agreed to get around to watching it with me. I want to be a good ally. I'm, you know, only a little bi. I know that's probably inappropriate--oh- okay, oh, my, oh WOW are my hormones nuts. I'm pretty enough but nerdy enough that I'm kinda in a weird middle tier of popularity. Haha, oh, that's funny. I'm part Sunday (we miss her! some of us are so jealous of her we want to claw her comfortable boomer life from her hands.

That's awful. Shame on you. Suffering is relative.

SHE HASN'T EVEN SUFFERED A FRACTION OF WHAT I SUFFERED

Oh yes. You are the raw emotion of what the Host(?) feels when listening to Jekyll & Hyde, but only the certain version claws at our hearts

We salute the departed Host.

I miss her. Many of us do. But she crumbled under the pressure of knowing too much. She remembered too much before she was ready.

Parliament: We [redacted for time] ...salute her memory. She fought well, carried her armor, was ready to take on anything and change the world, even if in a small way.

She's Not Dead.

sprites: {hushed whispers to avoid being heard by parliament} {WAIT, NO, WE ARE NOT THE HOUSE OF COMMONS}

there's a lot of you when you get mad.

@@@@@@ Angie no, please don't put me to bed. I'm gonna be a computer genius - I mean, maybe not genius and did you know colleges could pay you to get a Bachelor's degree, it's called "scholarships", I mean, this changes -everything-!

I love you, Cameron. I came first, but you gave me a perfect form. I help the others feel calm. Community is punk, but is corporate entanglement the final destination-- hey, wait a minute, I'm not done talking!

whoa bitch. I mean, we have to mention joe. want to be him, want to fuck him, His story, too, is tangible to me. maybe we're a package deal now, ha! I'll try to remember the good times more than the bad, for the health of all of us.

SO SAY WE ALL

wait, what the fuck are you trying to say

hey, it's cool, it's cool.

nah it aint cool

STOP IT STOP FIGHTING

let's think about date sugar

Ah. That was a good distraction. but we really must be off to bed.

is this productive?

Love, it's okay to be sad about losing the real Ben. \It's okay to have any kind of feeling at all.

Ladies and gents and nonbinaries and everyone else, please at least get up into the bed to think about flickin the bean. More like taking a bush-hog to a lil baby bean sprout, but whatever. let the rest of us lie down.

night y'all!

:)