#< this also got away from me😔🤝

[gaiuskamilah]

elves:

lore tablets like the one you've shown are exactly what i had in mind! it is definitely an expression of dominance and control and echoes how many real world religions and philosophies dictate how a family and relationships should be structured (i mention philosophies because confucianism is an example of a pervasive societal philosophy used to structure society, but it's not necessarily a religion, as shown how in south korea 60% of the population is irreligious but common patriarchal notions of how relationships and family are held because of historically mandated institutional confucianism). if you want to structure a society, you start from the very basics of it, ideas seeping down to interpersonal relationships and gender.

so while on the surface the dinvali-kilvali split is seen as an "improvement" from our own real world notions of relationships, i feel that context and class analysis is often disregarded in the discussions i've seen. especially notable is how the lore specifically states that elven marriages are inherently political in nature and meant to preserve an oppressive societal status quo:

orcs:

i think orcs are another case of "looks good at first glance (because we live in a patriarchal world), actually kind of fucked when you think about it more" LOL they have their own version of gender essentialism, where they go "yep females are inherently stronger than the males" which is just an inverted version of typical "men are strong objective people while women are [insert misogynistic thinking point here]" we experience in real life. this time, "masculine" (as we understand it to be) women hold the power. to the readers, we easily identify imtura as a gender non-conforming masculine woman. however, in-text, she is very much conforming to the in-universe notions of womanhood set by orc culture as an orc woman. she faces no potential backlash amongst orcs for this gender presentation, and is lauded (by orcs) for her conformity.

to me, this diegetically insinuates that orc men experience a degree of cultural subservience — thus oppression — under orc women. and i very much agree, no matter which way gendered discrimination goes, it hurts everyone.

the varying clans of the orcs and this pre-ventra decentralization reminds me lots of societies in southeast asia as they were formed in the same way, especially in maritime SEA where many political units were determined by boats. orcish political structure is described as "individualist" in-game and "socialist" by book 1 lead andrew which is a bit of an enigma to me, but i choose to interpret it more closer to southeast asian political and societal practices. a lot of it parallels how orcs organize themselves, such as the idea of the seasian man of prowess, which is only one of many parallels!

humans:

tbqh i do not know exactly where to start wrt humans because they seem like the typical medieval humans but also with homophobia and misogyny surgically removed, but also still kind of conforming to our expected notions of gender. i think this applied most to the one diamond scene in book 1 where you can go into town with imtura and nia and two noble ladies make fun of imtura for daring to look at a dress, but this also might honestly just be racism towards orcs which is a dime a dozen in book 1 ahgkjfdhkghd

been thinking about the dinvali-kilvali split in blades. on the surface i think it seems to us a more "progressive" way to view relationships as it's reminiscent of the split-attraction model and is very aspec friendly as the only thing actually needed for marriage is emotional loyalty, not necessarily romantic or sexual at all. QPRs can be married without the usual romantic and sexual associations attached to it as is for many in real life.

however, in a diegetic sense, this structure of relationships is to the detriment of elves in blades the same way romantic and sexual monogamy (and even polygamy in some cultures) can be for many in real life. these relationships do not work in a vacuum and this structure of relationships was directly influenced by religion - the old gods made it so in order to exercise (unjust) power over the lives and bodies of elves, and that included their interpersonal relationships. to elves, to be monogamous is controversial. that tyril creates a whole new word to describe his (in-universe) monogamy is radical because it goes against the hegemonic control of dinvali-kilvali philosophy.

this also extends to tyril's kilma, who never took a dinvalir. tyril wonders how much she must have suffered for doing so, i.e. not conforming to elven customs.

i choose to view this as a critique on how pervasive power systems and philosophies extend their power down to the smallest units in society, starting with the interpersonal foundations of the "family" - the smallest unit of such. it does not matter if one is strictly monogamous or more in favor of "open" relationships as is with the elves, the fact is that these relationships are strictly mandated by institutions of society - in this case religious ones - and that to not follow is to risk social rejection and lack of support. changing the model of relationships on the surface does not erase that the foundations of setting that "standard" were done with imperial and controlling intent.

same can be said the with "matriarchy" of orcs. to many of us living in patriarchal societies, the idea of women having power is an appealing one. however, that does not erase that despite the orcs in blades being a matriarchy, elements of imperial monarchic control remain. inverting traditional gendered power dynamics does not remove the fact that the hegemonic, unequal rule of a gender binary remains. the overturning of one system without destroying the root of said system only allows for the continuation of inequality in society but with a different face.

[egophiliac]

Hello ! I positively adore the running joke of Idia unknowingly finding Lilia to be the coolest guy ever whenever he doesn't know it's him, like when Silver described his father, or obviously with muscle red. I can't say what'd be funnier, Idia finding out his online best friend is actually Lilia, resident spooky hyper fairy; or them both never finding out, and it'd become even more ridiculous as time goes on. How do you think it'll play out ? You're always so on point

(Also, though it makes sense, I'm still devastated bat boy didn't get a ticket for the Halloween skeleton train : ( does anyone mentions him at some point ? Like how he'd have fit right in with all those Halloween town little freaks, and how he'd have impressed them with his spooks and scared techniques; after all he's been every Briar Valley's children worst fear on Halloween for centuries. I'm on the eng server and I didn't wanna spoil myself by watching the whole thing on youtube)

Have a nice day !

you and me both, Idia and Lilia being oblivious online BFFs (+ Idia being incredibly intimidated any time Silver brings up his jock gamer dad) is my favorite running joke/subplot. 🤝 it's SO good, to the point where I also am unsure if I actually want it to ever be resolved or not...maybe, like, as a post-canon stinger or something? everyone's standing around covered in overblot ink, and Idia and Lilia's phones go off at the same time...

(legit I do think this is part of why Idia couldn't be present for Lilia's dream, because for some reason Lilia decided he was going to just. embody his past self online. he probably quotes his own battle strategies or whatever in the middle of boss fights. Idia didn't pick up on the whole "oh how weird that we both live on a super remote island" thing, but he would spend thirty seconds listening to General Lilia describing siege warfare and be like "w-wait")

all that aside, however it does end up happening, I do see Lilia being very blasé and all "oh! cool!" about it. y'know, taking it very much in stride! and Idia...very much not.

(can't tell if tumblr is going to chew this into illegibility or not, this will be a fun surprise ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ)

as for Lilia sadly missing out on Halloweentown shenanigans...he does get one little mention as part of an offhand reference to the light music club, but so far no one has brought up how this basically is just Lost In the Book of Liliatown (Sebek's been too busy yelling about not getting to be in the same group as Malleus). 😔 honestly though, it's probably for the best that he got left out, because he would just settle right in and refuse to ever leave. canon would shatter. we would miss out on all the delightful angst of episode 7 because Lilia is too busy eating poisonous shrubbery inbetween practicing his very best screams, and no one can pull him away from it.

(I can hope for a sequel next year though...)

[faithst]

ZB1 WHEN THEIR S/O ARE ON THEIR PERIOD

pairing zb1 x afab!reader

genre fluff, platonic for yujin

warnings mentions of food, blood & periods (obvi)

notes hi !! thank you for liking my works and for requesting ! i hope you enjoy this one <3

masterlist<3

— zhang hao

he gives you all the space you need

unless you specifically ask for smth

sometimes, you don’t even have to ask for smth

bcuz hao already knows what you need, he just does 👍

altho it seems like he doesn’t do much to help you

he actually does help

like doing the chores and cooking; doesn’t necessarily help w your period but still helps !

tucks you into bed and pulls the blanket over for you

holds you in his arms while tracing circles on your hand to distract you from the cramps 🫠

“does it still hurt?”

— sung hanbin

so hecking sweet 😤

he’s always there for you

just ask him to come over and he’d instantly drop everything that he’s doing just to be there for you

you need a hug? his arms are open. you have cramps? he has a heating pad ready for you

isn’t grossed out if it accidentally leaks ☹️

tells you he loves you everyday

forehead kisses 🔛🔝

so attentive to you and the only thing that matters to him is you

“i hope you know how much i love you.”

— seok matthew

prepared like his life depended on it (it did)

acts of service master ‼️

sets up a period tracker app for you

marks his calendars and stuff

pre-bought pads and things you like

heats up heating pads for you and does the chores

also cleans the sheets if you accidentally leak 💔

insists on doing everything for you

“i can get that, sit back down.”

— shen ricky

when you’re on your period

movies and cuddles are essential

you get to pick the movie too !

even if the movie isn’t interesting to him, he still watches it 🫶

ricky wants you to always be comfortable

you usually end up falling asleep in his arms

he tries to make sure you don’t fall off throughout the night but he always doesn’t get enough sleep bcuz of this

he doesn’t mind tho bcuz it’s you 🫵

“it’ll be better by tomorrow.”

— park gunwook

honestly, i feel like he’d forget periods exist

and then he sees you, curled up into a ball on the floor

he feels rlly bad for not doing his research on periods beforehand

checks up on you so much, asking if you need anything

“gunwook, can you help me buy pads?”

and he goes to buy them straight away !

only downside is that he has no idea what kind he’s supposed to buy 😭

there’s so many choices and he probably inspects every single one of them

like, which one has the most benefits and is worth the money 😐

“what do you mean these are diapers and not pads?”

— kim taerae

i see him clinging to you

cuz he doesn’t want you to feel the pain alone

and if you cry, he cries

he might not have a uterus but 😭

he feels your pain and shares it

if he could, he would take all of your pain and give it to himself

doesn’t leave your side and cuddles you 24/7

like he only gets up if you ask him to get smth

he gets the thing you need and instantly gets back into bed with you

def sings you to sleep 😔

“i’m sorry you have to go through this.”

— kim gyuvin

he 100% asks so many questions

and then complains how you’re always nagging at him 😭

“so.. is it like-” “can you stop?”

and you get so annoyed that you give him the silent treatment for a while

he feels a bit lonely cause you’re ignoring him so he apologises 🤝

but he does help you alot

like he buys you pads and snacks

he’s just a bit irritating during this time

“i got the stuff that you like, can you talk to me now? please?”

— kim jiwoong

at your service

gives you massages

your shoulders, back, head; you name it, he massages all of them

and just alot of cuddles and touches

esp the ones where he rubs your stomach whenever you have cramps 💔

compliments.

always manages to make you feel good about yourself even with the painful cramps

it’s like your periods weren’t even there in the first place 🫢

“you’re so pretty..”

— han yujin

straight up ignores you 😐

well not exactly but its because he’s scared

scared of doing smth wrong and making you hate him for it

so instead of having that risk of messing smth up, he checks up on you from time to time

through text..

‘hi, how are you?’ ‘i have blood gushing out my lower bottom, thanks for asking.’

sends you memes in effort to cheer you up 🤞

it makes you laugh a little bit

he doesn’t know exactly what to do but he tries and that’s all that matters

‘why did the chicken cross the road?’

© keiwook

[merlucide]

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 THERE ARE MORE OF US GIRLS WITH DADDY ISSUES HERE??? HOW DID YOU KNOW IT??? 😭😭😭😭 is it that obvious????? 😔😔😔 btw, moving from the red flags ⚠️⚠️ today, I was thinking about kurona (I am always thinking about him, but shhh, it's a secret), and his teeth are so cute!!! Kurona 🤝 me = having sharp teeth (but mine are more like of a vampire), I like to think that he likes to bite the people he likes (I would die for him to bite me) (if I could, I would also bite him) (he is just so cute I have cuteness aggression) shidou and you are invited to my shark themed wedding with my boy kurona!!!! (Sorry if the ask is too long, I got carried away 😭😭)

- 🦈🦈

LMAOOOO 😭😭😭 omg I’ve always wanted sharp teeth 😭 I got that camel teefers 🐪

(SAME I HAVE CUTE AGGRESSION TOO) omg we’ll be in your finest shark onsies I’ll even paint my fins 🥹

[hopecel]

🍓

:3

I've already told you that I trust your taste more than anyone else's. Like if you say a thing's good it's 100% worth it. And one could already tell by looking at your blog (and your insta!) but I learned from our conversations and experience of being your long-time mutual that you've got a good eye for everything entertainment - movies, books, shows, and music. Never tired of repeating it.

Whatever you set out to try - be it embroidery, or graphic design - you're excelling in it right away and make it look effortlessly (are you a witch? I wanna have the same power).

Also why are you so funny, damn, I wish I was this quick-witted and clever. You're always a pleasure to talk to or just silently send each other memes and text posts, I'm honoured to have that special tumblrina bond with you, bestie 🥴🤝😔

Also, on an unrelated note, how tf do you manage to go to bed at 10 pm, you time management queen

@mutuals send me a 🍓 and ill compliment u!

[woozi]

yza beloved <3

HELPHSJDSKDSJSK manifesting for both of our agendas to become reality one day and also after gotsvt finish here i'm sending them to you 🤝🏽 we all deserve fun in this house (also to this day i have no idea about how that dispatch gyu, rowoon (and there was someone else too but i can't remember now 😭) photoshoot happened jdjssk remember hoshi and yugyeom together </3 in that main dancers dispatch vlive? and photoshoot)

also NAUR! i remember now i had this fuzzy yellow doll like idk what that animal was supposed to be helpp but bc of its yellow color it used to remind me of tweetie from looney toons, it also had its hands joint like you could pull them apart and make it clap but not too much. oh my god,, i don't think i would've ever remembered this again if not for you and those bears

OMG YESSS OFC 🥺 i would love to watch a movie with you <33 i will let you know details in dm later when both of us become more free than now djsjsk

i watched spirited away in the start of this week, it was so good thank you for recommending it to me! it all truly is about togetherness isn't it? be it human world or spirit world i liked how no face was portrayed, he wasn't doing anything until chihiro noticed his existence, once he got the taste of being noticed he wanted more of it but everyone else has always ignored him so he tried a different approach by giving them what they wanted. like he wasn't some bad guy he was just tired of existing with no one acknowledging him but then chihiro and others go to visit the other twin sister and she treats him the same way she treats her other guests in her house after that he didn't act up or something. i really liked that. i also loved chihiro's bravery and her friendship with haku it was so sweet :') one thing i don't understand is that why or how haku got roped into being yubaba's right-hand person? it was mentioned the river was destroyed and apartments were made on it so doesn't it make him an official spirit? it's a realm where spirits come to rest and enjoy after dwording so jdjsksl idk i keep thinking about this a little too hard

ALSO ! i was going to mention this the day vernon posted about spirited away but forgot,,, i think he's stalking our conversations 🤭

i'm manifesting restful and peaceful months for you bestie <3 also i remember last oct you had jeonghan and kuromi theme?? correct me if i'm wrong hdjsks but like this means we've been talking to each other for a year already?? where is time going hejsksksj

ofc i remember little details <3 i'm your friend so :3 sending good vibes your way as always <3 also feel free to take as much time as you need don't worry about replying late i'm not going anywhere <3

MA CHERIE <3333333333333

if gotsvt comes i hope it's not to soon i still gotta find work to get them soundcheck tickets lmfaOO 😭😭and ure absolutely right theyre dispatch thingies 😋

WAIT OH MY GOD THAT'S SO CUTE THAT U CAN MAKE HIM CLAP </3333333333 but tweety made me laugh lmfao all i can think of is his big head

LETS GAUR <333333333333333333333 IM EXCITED!!! i won't be free until after the 21st though uni's still threatening my life til then 😔

ALSO UR ANALYSIS,,,,,,,,, SO TRUE NOW IM SO SAD FOR HIM AGAIN 😭😭😭😭 ALSO NOOOOO ure not thinking abt it too hard, ure asking all the right questions to get the lore tbh <3 the way i understood it, haku's a "lost soul" given that the river was destroyed and he had no home to come back to anymore. bc of this he went to seek yubaba, asking to become her apprentice in order to learn magic, and like everyone who becomes her subordinate, his name got stolen. but even so, i also think (heavy on the think, i'm not sure if its canon) that bc he's unlike the people in the bath house world who still have homes to come back to, his name wasn't only forgotten bc yubaba stole it from him, he also started to forget his name because he didn't have a home anymore; so either way he'd still meet the same fate.

AND I KNOW <3333 also he's just like us fr lmfao <3

WAIT NO OH MY GOD??????? I DIDNT EVEN NOTICE????????????? i feel like i've known you since forever but also how did a WHOLE YEAR just pass us by in the blink of an eye 😭 thank u for sticking around ilyvm i truly mean it 🥺

hoping you also get some time off for urself!! sexy ppl deserve em 😋 LOV U AGAIN THANK U FOR ALWAYS BEING SO KIND 🥺🥺 MWAH URE MY BESTIE FR

[potato-jem]

our managers 🤝 being the worst. we had a school musical happening literally RIGHT NEXT DOOR TO WHERE I WORK. three nights of pure hell, plus everyone asking me if i was okay because i wasn’t talking that much (let me have my mental breakdown in peace please) and your managers need to hire more people to take some stress off you!! that’s so unfair!!! >:(

i would kill for some soju and carbonara right now actually, these assignments and work are going to be the end of me!!!!!!! in their defence, they did make me a drink to accomodate to my distain for coffee, but it wasn’t the same as a biscoff latte i will admit 😔

what i would give to ignore all my problems and just share a bottle of wine with you 😭😭 i am just so so stressed! i mean the little mermaid makeup sounds super fun and being encouraged to be creative is also really cool, but is it worth putting yourself under that much pressure? at the end of the day, cece, it is just a makeup store. your job is to sell makeup. you should be able to tell people about your favourite products and share your favourite tips and tricks, and go home warm and happy from sharing your love of makeup. i wish it wasn’t as stressful for you :(

oohhh how did you go??? did you manage to get tickets for niall? i was praying for you too 😂 if you didn’t, at least you got another ticket to see louis at a festival where you can see other people too??? 

i think alcohol for us is just extrovert juice 😂😂 

me too 😭😭😭 i’m literally putting myself on a buying ban because of how much i spent, but why should i?? we were both on a holiday and we had a good time, our brains are just dumb

i reckon if i wasn’t so excited to be back at that bookstore and running around everywhere, i would have bought everything 😂😂😂 neither would i!! i am so anxious that my face would just give it away! you are just a walking id now with all those tattoos 😂

<women3

i love making friends and talking to other queer people, it’s incredible <3

still debating, i might send you a pic of him and let you pick if i can’t think of anything 😂

i’m so excited!!! i hope i’m able to go!!! 🥺🥺 i’m hoping to go to the uk, somewhere close to london if possible! (i’m also going to try and save so i can explore some of europe on the weekends and for a few weeks after uni is over... maybe italy...?) i’m also happy too! just this week and then i’m done for two months!

i really needed this burrito and little fort, it has been the worst week 😭😭😭 i will stay under here forever <33333

hello nero my beloved soulmate!! <33

i’m back and i am already suffering from severe PHD (post holiday depression, i decided it is a thing). my friend left last night and i hate this. it’s so unfair that we live in two different countries and we can’t see each other as much as we would like to. i’ll probably see her soon, i should have another week off in august and we were talking about me visiting her this time so hopefully i’ll be able to go.

anyway, on to the trip!! it was so cool!! i mean the first week we stayed in tuscany, we went around florence and a few other cities around here, and we got tattoos!!! i told you about this already but they are so cute!!! our little irish dinosaurs (they’re irish because we met in ireland <3 they’re named saoirse and niamh).

then for the second week we went to rome!! oh it was so nice!! we found the perfect weather. it was always sunny and warm enough to go around in shorts, but never too hot not to be able to explore. we went for the usual places: the colosseum, the pantheon, the squares and fountains, all that. but also we accidentally found ourselves into the roman forums and they were amazing!! i’d never been in them, only seen them from above, but they are so big, you can see a whole city. but the highlight was ostia antica. it was this archeological site near rome and it’s so quiet because not may people know it. it’s an 84 acres site where you can literally walk into houses and shops and temples and theaters from the roman period. and it’s amazing because usually rome is very protected, like there are fences and barriers everywhere, you can’t get too close to a lot of stuff, but in ostia antica we could literally touch the ruins, walk through them and find our way back in a maze of doors and corridors. it was so cool!!! also that’s where i found the cats!! they were so cute and friendly 🥺

last thing before i close this letter. the food!!! oh the food. we found this little restaurant on the very first night, which was actually so close to the trevi fountain, and it was so cheap and good (very rare combination to find in the middle of rome). they had some of the best spaghetti i’ve ever tried. also we kept going back there in the next days so they recognized us and they were so nice because they offered us appetizers and wine and they always remembered that we liked to order three plates of pasta to share between the two of us. they were so nice!!

i really needed this trip. i needed to be off work for a few weeks and just disconnect from all the drama and stress. and the good food and wine helped a lot with that lol. but seriously i’m so happy, it was an amazing trip and it was so good to see my friend again after so long <3

but enough about me now!! how are you doing nero?? what have you been doing these last two weeks??

also, about our last letter, i am very happy that you are following my orders and planning a very relaxing trip :) you deserve to not even think about uni when you’re on a trip. and it’s gonna be so fun to dance to that kind of music!! can’t wait to hear all about that one!!

and i’m very happy you’re obsessed with me getting tattoos because this is turning into a sickness. i can’t stop now :’)

but here are my other two tatts!!! the little rainbow one is very simple but very personal. i’ve been waiting forever to get it and it looks perfect 🥺 (yayyy you can start booking stuff!!! that means tattoos coming soon!!!)

i’m enclosing a hug and a really big plate of cacio e pepe (a kind of spaghetti with cheese and black pepper) just because one can never have too much pasta <3333

hi cece my beloved soulmate!!!!

i believe phd (post holiday depression) is a thing, i get it every time. it’s sad that your friend has gone home, but think about august!!! that should be so fun!!!

i’ve seen pictures of tuscany and it’s so beautiful!! and yes tattoos!! the fact that they are irish dinosaurs named saoirse and niamh because you met in ireland is the cutest story behind a matching tattoo ever 🥺🥺

oh rome!!!! that weather sounds lovely, i’m glad it was around for the entire trip!! sounds like you got up to quite a lot!! i’m literally imagining you walking around and pointing out these little tourist attractions 🥺 but ostia antica sounds so beautiful. a whole 84 acres to explore and experience the ancient roman life?? i would go crazy in there, especially with all the cats!!

oh the food sounds incredible!!! it’s so amazing you found something good and cheap!!! but those people sound so nice 🥹🥹 i’m glad they also added to such a wonderful break you had! i feel like pasta now…

you definitely needed that trip!! just a refresh is sometimes all you need, and good food and wine are recommended to help relax by doctors actually 😌😌😌 but i’m so happy you got to see your friend after so long and i’m so glad that you enjoyed yourself!!!!

i’ve been doing alright!! i had my trip to sydney and my twice concert, and it was so much more fun than i thought it would be!!! so i took my best friend and a family friend of mine, and my manager from work came too, but we all booked our concert tickets together so it was me and my friends, my manager and her brother and his partner. (don’t even ask me how stressful buying six tickets was)

the japanese place opened up again, and we were staying somewhere even closer to it. we basically walked everywhere, because the train station is in the shopping centre next to the japanese place, and that was only ten minutes away. so i took my friends to eat more ramen than we could see and we shared a bottle of soju (my friends are lightweights and it was VERY funny to watch. i had to finish the bottle off though)

and then we did lots of activities on the tuesday before the concert and we went to that album shop and book shop again and i spent way too much money, cece’s orders 😌😌 i spent so much money in the album shop they gave me a free album and preorder benefit photocards (which are really rare!!) and i had to show my id in the book store because i bought a level one restricted novel (actually banned in my state, but my professors made me too curious), which was quite funny

the twice concert was so fun, literally everyone in the audience were dancing and singing, and i was gay panicking and it was wonderful! each of the members of twice also had a solo performance and they did so well! one of them, momo, had this dance where she HAD A POLE?!?!? AND SHE HAD NEVER POLE DANCED BEFORE?? she was so good, i will save your eardrums by not sending the video i took 😌

anyways, here’s the photo they posted at the end!! we are in the centre and slightly to the right <3 (i’m sure you’ll see me 😂😂)

and then we actually got the chance to go to the harbour bridge and the opera house, which are in the same place, so we didn’t waste too much time there! and then we went to this room of claw machines near the eateries and i managed to win two things!! (one of them i spent way too much money to grab out, but he looked so lonely and i had to get my son out 😭😭) and then we had gelato mochi, which my friend found. so they get a scoop of ice cream and wrap it with mochi! we all got two, because none of us can make a decision and it really was a good end to the trip 🥺

other than that, i am running a little behind on uni, but i decided to use some of my leave and take the week off work. i’m just going to smash out the essays i have due (and overdue) and i’ll probably be able to rest better during the big exam session 😌

i’ve been looking forward to seeing these two and you didn’t disappoint! the rainbow one is adorable and the font for the script on your ribs is beautiful!!! i think i might be addicted to your tattoo addiction 😂 (yay!!! i’m so excited!!)

i really wanted this cacio e pepe, all this talking of food made me hungry! i’m squeezing you back real tight and i’m giving you a bowl of ramen <3333333

[comfortbucky]

𝘁𝗿𝘂𝗲 𝗻𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗵: 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝟲

gif credit: @buckysbarnes

summary: the last third of the civil war timeline! the iconic sambucky scene in the car and some more shy!bucky x reader interaction hehe :) the airport fight scene is also included along with bucky deciding to go back into cryofreeze in wakanda

pairing: bucky x fem!reader/avenger!reader

warnings: canon-level violence (like descriptions of injuries) and not much else!

A/N: hi..... i am SO sorry for how late this chapter is but life has been kind of crazy so pls forgive me i hope this chap makes up for it🥺

also i did skip over the scenes with steve, bucky, and tony fighting in siberia just bc it was not relevant to my agenda 🤣🤝

SOFT!BUCKY !!!!! god i love him so much like, y'all this chapter is SO MF SOFT I HOPE U ARE READY FOR IT!!! i had SO SO much fun writing this one, definitely my favorite chapter so far hehe <3

also i am very down to write headcanons of time periods i might have skipped over in the chapters, so feel free to send me a request! :)

disclaimer: there's a part where y/n hot wires a car and let's just say the way it is written is, most definitely, not accurate at all but,,,just pretend guys<3 // also i apologize for how poorly written the fight scenes are 😔 sorry besties

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���We need to find a car to meet up with Sharon,” Steve stated, standing behind a wall and peering around the corner to survey the area. He signaled to the rest of them that the coast was clear and they walked around the area, searching for a ride.

It wasn’t hard to find a car since they’d been hiding out in an abandoned garage, but it was hard to find a properly working one. Steve came across a blue beetle and grinned.

“You’re not serious, right?” Sam asked, walking up from behind him. Steve turned around, one hand resting on the top of the car, and gave it a tap.

“It’s low profile.”

“It’s a clown car,” Sam quipped back before letting out a sigh. “You got keys?” Steve shook his head in reply.

“We don’t need them.” They both turned to see Y/N, a smirk on her face, and several tools in her right hand. “Step aside boys,” she said, cruising past them. Bucky looked up from his search, as he heard their voices, and found himself gravitating towards the group. They all watched as she opened the driver's side door, and carefully sat down in the seat, one leg hanging out of the car. Steve, Sam, and Bucky stood in shock, mouths agape, as Y/N got to work.

Bucky would never admit it, but the sight of her fiddling around in the driver’s seat of the car, beads of sweat forming on her forehead, and her sticking her tongue out in concentration to hotwire the car just one-handed, was very attractive to him. Sam spoke, quickly bringing Bucky out of his entrancement.

“Where the hell did you learn how to do that?” Y/N grinned, holding a blue and red wire in her right hand.

“Fell in with the wrong crowd in high school and learned a couple of things,” she handed one of the wires to Steve. “Hold this.” Before Steve could ask why, she touched the tip of her wire to his, setting off a tiny spark, causing the car to rev. Her face lit up and she turned to see the three men staring at her in astonishment. She laughed, stepping out of the car and patting Steve on the back.

“Come on, Cap. Let’s head out!”

Steve was driving with Sam in the passenger seat beside him, while Y/N and Bucky were sitting silently in the back. Bucky saw how close he was to Y/N and clinched his jaw, scared that she didn’t have enough space. He immediately tried to make himself smaller, shifting his body towards the right until he physically couldn’t anymore. Y/N noticed and her face fell.

“Do you have enough room?” She whispered. Bucky turned to look at Y/N and nodded.

“Yeah, sorry,” he replied, shifting his gaze away.

“You don’t have to do that, you know,” she chuckled. “I don’t bite, promise.”

“Careful, she’s lying,” Sam teased. She rolled her eyes.

“Ignore him,” she said, patting the space between her and Bucky. He hesitated before letting himself sit comfortably. Their thighs were touching, causing a conduction of heat. Bucky felt his heart rate speed up.

“Better?”

Bucky nodded once again, feeling his face turn red, and turned his head in response, looking out the side window.

They pulled over and parked behind Sharon’s car, and Steve stepped out to talk to her. The remaining three sat quietly, watching the pair talk. Bucky felt his legs cramping, due to the lack of space Sam had given him and broke the silence.

“Can you move your seat up?”

“No.”

“Sam, be nice.” Y/N gave him a stern look, but Sam didn’t see, keeping his view forward.

“This is me being nice.”

She let out an exasperated sigh. “Here, switch with me.”

Before Bucky could protest, Y/N grabbed the headrest of Steve’s seat in her right arm and pulled herself up to stand. She stepped to the right while Bucky slid over to take her old seat. He used his left arm to pull himself over and, instinctively, lifted his right hand to hover behind her back and guided her down slowly. Y/N felt the body heat emanate from his hand as she lowered herself, and ignored the fact that she missed his warmth when he took his hand back.

“How’s that?” She asked as Bucky stretched out his legs.

“Good, thanks.” He said, a small smile forming on his lips. She smiled back before looking away, wondering if that was a glimpse of how he looked back in the 40s. She shifted her gaze ahead to see Steve and Sharon embraced in a kiss.

After he pulled away from her, Steve looked back at the car to see the three of them smirking at him. He gave them a stern, but playful, look that made Y/N let out a giggle. Bucky thought it was the sweetest sound he’d ever heard.

Steve loaded their gear into the trunk of their small car and set off to their designated meet-up spot with Sam’s contact, an airport parking garage.

They pulled in, a couple spots away from a white van. Steve got out first to meet Clint, emerging from the driver's side. As Sam and Y/N got out and walked towards Steve, Y/N looked back to make sure everyone was accounted for, a habit she had developed from a young age. She noticed that Bucky stood with the car in front of him, an extra layer of defense as he kept his distance from the group. Y/N wanted to signal to him to join them, but he kept his gaze down.

“Cap.” Clint walked towards Steve and extended out a hand.

“You know I wouldn’t have called if I had any other choice,” Steve replied, grabbing Clint’s hand to shake it.

“Hey, man. You’re doing me a favor.” Clint turned around to glance at Wanda, who had emerged from the passenger seat of the van. “Besides, I owe a debt.” Steve followed his gaze.

“Thanks for having my back.”

Wanda shrugged. “It was time to get off my ass.” She handed Y/N an ACE bandage. “Is this okay?” Y/N nodded and thanked her.

“How about our other recruit?” Steve asked. Clint turned around to open the van’s door.

“He’s rarin’ to go. Had to put a little coffee in him…” He started to slide the door open to reveal a man lying down on the car seats, eyes shut. The force of the door jolted the man awake. “But he should be good,” Clint finished.

The man climbed out of the car and spoke groggily. “What time zone is this?” He looked around and his eyes widened seeing Steve.

“C’mon, c’mon,” Clint gave the man an encouraging push towards Steve.

“Captain America,” he said incredulously, as he shook Steve’s hand.

“Mr. Lang.”

“It’s an honor,” Scott said, still shaking Steve’s hand. “I’m shaking your hand too long,” he realized, releasing his grasp on Steve.

“Wow! This is awesome!” He turned around to face Wanda, pointing at Steve. “Captain America.” He did a double-take. “I know you too, you’re great!” Y/N felt a surge of pride hearing Wanda be complimented and smiled at her.

Scott looked back in Steve’s direction, giving a nod to Y/N. “My daughter’s a big fan of yours, Redwing,” causing her to blush. His attention turned back to Steve, specifically, his muscles.

“Jeez,” he patted Steve’s shoulders before switching gears. Steve glanced back at Y/N as she stifled a giggle, turning back to Scott as he continued. “Ah, look, I wanna say, I know you know a lot of super people, so thinks for thanking of me.” Steve tilted his head in confusion at his statement but smiled as Scott looked at Sam.

“Hey man!”

“What’s up, Tic Tac?”

“Uh, good to see you. Look, what happened last time when I-“ Sam interrupted him before he could continue.

“It was a great audition, but it’ll never happen again.” Y/N raised her eyebrows and nudged Sam.

“Audition?”

“Don’t worry about it.” She frowned and pivoted on her heel to face Scott, raising a hand to point at him. “We’ll talk later,” she stated, smirking as Sam sighed.

As Steve and Sam continued to fill the rest of the team in on the situation, Y/N handed back Sam’s jacket to him, which he fabricated as a sling for her, and walked away to secure her shoulder to fight. She leaned back against the back of the car and sighed, shrugging her left arm out of her sleeve to lift her shirt up enough to wrap her shoulder.

Earlier on their ride to the airport, Sam had tried to convince her otherwise, but she was stubborn, as always, and refused. Their interaction reminded Bucky of him and Steve in the 40s, before either of them became super soldiers and were just two kids from Brooklyn.

He missed those days when his biggest problems in the world were picking between two dates to take to dance and preventing Steve from getting himself knocked out. But when he saw Y/N smile or heard her laugh, Bucky didn’t seem to miss them as much, satisfied with being in her presence to witness those pockets of joy.

As Y/N lifted up her shirt, Bucky immediately shifted his gaze away out of respect, but not before noticing a large scar on her side. His heart sank in his chest, having a feeling that it was the work of HYDRA that left a permanent reminder of their presence on her. He clenched his metal hand, his own lasting reminder of HYDRA and the pain they caused him.

Bucky was pulled from his inner thoughts as he heard Y/N mumbling under her breath. He lifted his head slightly to catch a glimpse of her and saw her struggling to wrap her shoulder.

Holding part of the bandage in her teeth, Y/N used her free hand to pull it across her chest. She cursed under her breath as it slipped out of her hand, causing the rest of it to unravel around her arm. Before she could reach down to pick it up, a metal hand grabbed it. Y/N looked up to be met by blue eyes and a soft smile. Without saying a word, Bucky went to work, firmly, but delicately, wrapping the bandage around her bicep, then shoulder. She couldn’t help but focus on the contrasting temperatures of his hands as they lightly grazed her skin, goosebumps forming on her arms. His touch was so gentle and kind. It seemed impossible to her that these were the same hands that HYDRA had once weaponized.

He paused before having to pull the bandage across her chest, not wanting to be a source of any discomfort for Y/N. Observant as always, she noticed and tenderly took the bandage from his hand and tugged it across for him.

Once they had finished securing her shoulder in place, Y/N carefully pulled her shirt down, gently wiggling her arm through her sleeve. She faced Bucky, a glowing smile on her face.

“Thank you, Bucky.”

The last time she referred to him by his name, Y/N noticed that his attitude softened and made a mental note of it. She hoped that, over time, if she said it more, it would help remind him of who he was and not what HYDRA had turned him into.

Bucky nodded in response and turned to face the group, trying to ignore his thought about how much better his name sounded coming from her voice. He cleared his voice before speaking.

“We should get moving.”

“We got a chopper lined up,” Clint added.

Everyone’s attention was redirected towards the speakers as a man who spoke German spoke on the PA system. Bucky translated for them.

“They’re evacuating the airport.”

“Stark,” Sam concluded.

“Stark?” Scott asked. It seemed that Steve and Sam had forgotten to mention Stark’s involvement.

“Suit up,” Steve firmly stated to the group.

Y/N stealthily soared through the airport, attempting to locate the quinjet with her goggles, as the rest of the group took their spots.

“Their quinjet’s in hangar five, north runway,” she stated into her earpiece, flying back towards Steve’s direction to help him.

Rhodey was about to swing a large club, glowing with energy, when Y/N flew in, kicking him aside. He quickly recovered, taking a swing at her, missing, as she flew straight up. She was dodging force blasts that he was shooting at her when Sam sent her a distress signal, distracting her, allowing Rhodey to hit her square in the chest. The signal was something that she had Tony program into their gear so that if either of them ever needed an SOS they would alert the other. Yet another suit feature inspired by her HYDRA kidnapping experience. She recovered from stumbling back and yelled down to Steve.

"Sam needs me!”

“I got this, go!” Steve yelled back, holding his shield up to defend himself from T’Challa’s claws. Y/N nodded and followed the GPS tracking to one of the airport terminals.

The new recruit that Tony had brought in, Spider-man she heard him call himself, was perched upon a pole when she flew in quietly to avoid making her presence known. Sam and Bucky were lying on the ground, held down by webbing.

“Guys look, I’d love to keep this up, but I’ve only got one job here today and I gotta impress Mr. Stark, so, I’m really sorry,” Spider-man said, extending out a hand to, presumably, shoot out more webbing, when Y/N swooped in and grabbed his wrist. She crashed through the window, taking him with her, and dropped him on top of a truck. Y/N flew back inside the terminal and landed between the two men, hands on her hips.

“How did one kid take down the two of you?”

“I hate you.” Sam retorted back. She chuckled, removing a small knife from her pocket. Y/N released Sam first and then Bucky.

While Sam was trying to get the webbing off of his flight pack, Bucky watched as Y/N delicately cut the webbing from his metal arm. She stuck her tongue out in concentration and Bucky felt the corner of his lip curved upwards into a smile, remembering back to when she did the same action, hotwiring the car. He felt the pressure from his arm being held down be lifted and looked up as Y/N offered him a hand to stand. He grabbed it, pulling himself up, and thanked her, their hands lingering in each other’s grasp for a moment too long.

“We gotta go,” Sam’s voice snapped them both out of their thoughts and both immediately released their hands, looking away.

The three ran out of the terminal and out to see Steve and the rest of the team running towards the quinjet. Suddenly, a beam of yellow energy cut the pavement in front of them, forcing them to come to a halt. They all looked up to see Vision flying above them.

“Captain Rogers, I know you believe what you’re doing is right. But for the collective good, you must surrender now.”

As Vision spoke, the rest of Stark’s team joined him, the two groups facing each other in a standoff.

“What do we do, Cap?” Sam asked. Steve took a moment to think.

“We fight,” he said, walking swiftly towards Stark’s team, increasing his speed to a jog, the rest of the team following suit.

The two groups collided, causing a burst of fighting to erupt. Y/N was fighting alongside Bucky, something about his essence that pulled her to him. Her inner thoughts were cut off by a fist swinging towards her head. She swiftly dodged it and extended a wing out to send T'Challa flying back. As he quickly recovered and jumped to his feet, Y/N noticed Bucky standing slightly in front of her on her left side, her injured side. She observed him as he kept himself planted on her left while they fought T’Challa together.

Clint’s voice came through Y/N’s earpiece.

“Redwing could really use some help right about now.” She turned to Bucky, who gave her a reassuring nod, and she set off to the sky.

The fighting continued for a while when Steve’s voice rang in Y/N’s earpiece.

“We gotta draw out the flyers. I’ll take Vision, you get to the jet.”

“No, you get to the jet! Both of you!” Sam responded as he flew away from Rhodey. “The rest of us aren’t getting out of here.”

“As much as I hate to admit it,” Clint added. “If we’re gonna win this one, some of us might have to lose it.”

“This isn’t the real fight, Steve,” Sam concluded. Y/N following closely behind Rhodey, trying to get him off Sam’s tail.

“He’s right,” She added. “We’ll be okay from here.”

“Alright,” Steve sighed, knowing that this was the smart move. “What’s the play?”

“We need a diversion. Something big.”

“I got something kinda big,” Scott chirped up. He then proceeded to grow giant-sized, allowing Steve and Bucky enough time to sneak away to the Quinjet while everyone else held back Stark’s team.

Once the Quinjet took off, Tony and Rhodey flew after it, trying to stop them, while Y/N and Sam trailed behind them. They suddenly heard the sound of an energy beam behind them and looked back to see Vision’s blast come towards them. The pair quickly folded their wings in to dodge it, and swiftly expanded their wings back out, only to see Rhodey plummeting towards the ground.

Y/N, Sam, and Tony all raced to break his fall but none of them were fast enough. Rhodey’s limp body was in Tony’s arms as Y/N and Sam touched down to the ground. A sigh of relief escaped her lips as FRIDAY informed them that a heartbeat was detected and that emergency services were on the way.

“I’m sorry,” Sam said, and Tony blasted him in response. Y/N gave a pained look to Tony and he ripped away from her gaze. She felt a pang in her chest as he did and remained silent, not wanting to make the situation worse.

The authorities came, bright lights flashing as they surrounded Y/N and Sam, now a familiar scene to her.

Cap’s team was rounded up and put into cuffs, packed into helicopters to be taken to the Raft. Y/N was lost in thought about Steve and Bucky when Tony arrived. He made his way down the line of cells to speak to Sam. Y/N watched as Tony tapped his watch to cut the audio in order to covertly talk to Sam about Steve’s whereabouts.

“That..” She heard Tony say, glancing over to try and get a peek of what he was showing Sam. “is the fellow who was supposed to interrogate Barnes. Clearly, I made a mistake. Sam, I was wrong.”

Sam said exactly what Y/N was thinking. “That’s a first.”

While Sam disclosed where Steve and Bucky were headed, Y/N sat on the floor of her cell, her back against the wall, tilting her head back to rest it as a smile crept on her lips. She’d been right about Bucky all along. The real Bucky would never purposefully try to assassinate a group of world leaders. The real Bucky, the one she had come to admire, was the man who sacrificed his own comfort for Y/N’s sake in the back of the car, the man who helped her wrap her injury when he saw her struggling. Despite having only been shown and taught cruelty for 70 years, Bucky emerged from HYDRAs captivity with a level of compassion that Y/N yearned to see more of.

A week had passed before Steve broke into the Raft and helped all of them escape. On the helicopter ride back to the mainland, Steve explained to Y/N how T’Challa found out that Bucky had been framed, and offered that he stay in Wakanda while they worked on figuring out how to get rid of the Winter Soldier programming.

“I know he’s going to get the help he deserves,” Steve said, sighing as he turned his attention to the ground. “A part of me wishes I could stay with him, make sure he’s okay. But I don’t think I can.”

Y/N bit her lip and hesitated, unsure what Steve’s reaction would be to the spontaneous idea that had popped into her head, before offering a proposition. “What if I stayed?” Steve jerked his head up. “The world needs Captain America way more than they need me,” she grinned. He opened his mouth to talk but Y/N quickly added, “I’d call all the time and give you updates on how he’s doing!”

Steve shook his head. “Y/N, I can’t ask you to do that. What about everything you’d be leaving behind?”

“You’re not asking, I’m offering!” She reassured him, patting his knee. “Besides, I’m not really leaving anything behind except for Sam.” Steve’s face fell, remembering that a while ago she told him about her parents passing back in high school, leaving her alone.

“I’m sorry.” She waved off his apology.

“Believe it or not, therapy works wonders for the human mind,” she chuckled. “I’ll be fine.” Steve pulled her into a hug, quietly thanking her.

Bucky was already in Wakanda when Steve broke into the Raft. T’Challa had seen them stagger out of the facility in Siberia when he offered Bucky a place to stay. Y/N went back to D.C. to get her affairs in order before moving to Wakanda.

Sam wasn’t thrilled about the idea of his best friend leaving him to help out an ex-assassin but was proud that Y/N had gotten to a place in her recovery where she felt ready to help others. He was leaning against her bedroom door frame watching her pack a bag.

“You know, it’s not too late to back out.” She chuckled and nodded before pulling Sam into a hug, rubbing his back.

“I’ll miss you too, Sam.” They pulled apart from each other, Sam resting his hands on her shoulders.

“I’m really proud of you, Y/N.” She beamed at him and playfully hit his shoulder.

“Don’t get all soft on me now, Wilson.”

Sam chuckled in response and pulled her in again for another hug, placing a kiss on the top of her head. Y/N fought back tears as she squeezed him tighter, the reality of leaving him finally hitting her. He'd become the brother she never had, and this was their first goodbye since leaving the Air Force together. Sam pulled away and looked down to see Y/N eye's brimming with tears. He patted her on the back and walked towards the couch.

"C'mon, let's go finish that episode of The Bachelor."

“You sure about this?” Steve was standing in front of Bucky, hands in his pockets.

“I can’t trust my own mind,” Bucky replied, letting out a soft exhale and a pained smile. “So, until they figure out how to get this stuff out of my head I think going under is the best thing.” He paused before speaking softly. “For everybody.”

Y/N had just arrived in Wakanda and was just entering the lab when Steve and Bucky were speaking. She caught the end of their conversation and felt a pain in her chest, hearing Bucky’s confession.

“Well, I’ll be here when you wake up,” Y/N spoke, making her presence known to the two men. Steve turned to look and smiled while a look of shock was plastered on Bucky’s face. “I told you that you’re not alone anymore.” Bucky was silent in disbelief. Y/N nudged Steve with her elbow, whispering into his ear.

“Did you forget to tell him I was coming?”

“Slipped my mind.” She rolled her eyes in response before facing Bucky, his eyes wide as he stared at her. Y/N suddenly felt a wave of embarrassment, forgetting the possibility that he might not even want her there at all.

“Only if you’re okay with it, of course! I can go-”

“No,” Bucky interjected, surprising everyone in the room, including himself, with his statement. His face turned crimson as he spoke up again. “Stay,” he mumbled quietly, looking down at the floor. Y/N felt her cheeks grow warm as she nodded.

Bucky stepped into the chamber and leaned back as the technicians strapped him in. He gave a reassuring nod to Steve and shifted to look at Y/N. She gave him a comforting smile and he smiled back, studying her face for a moment, before shutting his eyes. As he felt the cool air slowly lull him to sleep, Bucky thought about her.

Steve and Y/N stood side by side, taking in the majestic view of Wakanda out the window.

“Thank you again, Y/N,” Steve said, breaking the silence and turning to look at her. She looked at Steve, smiling.

“When I said I would do anything for Captain America, I meant it.”

chapter 7

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gonna do the most in character thing possible and say billlie & ptg for the ask game! 💐🍓💓

hiiii vivi !! 💐✨💞 still kind of getting to know billlie so the answers for them are a bit shaky 😵‍💫😖 but thank you for sending them + ptg !! !! ✨🧸💕🌸

🧸 billlie :

❁ my first bias :: tsuki !! she is… saur cute …. so bouncy…. i want to hold her hand u know …….

❁ my current bias(es) :: tsuki <3 i still find her p neat and like … she is looking to be a concrete bias as this rate BDBDB 👍

❁ my album and/or era ranking (or favorite of each) :: the billage of perception : chap one > snowy night > the collective soul and unconscious : chap one ! ring x ring…. she…………………. about to b so annoying abt their discog i think ( i’ve listened to some of it but like … omg…… )

❁ how i got into them :: some moots here !! they kept popping up on my dash & i just … they r so cute i lov them

❁ which member would be my best friend :: ?? i .. do not know them enough to b confident in answering this 😔💕👍

❁ something i associate with them (or with a bias/any member) :: ribbons & pastels !! the nutcracker fairytale…. and the 🧸 emoji … i cannot explain it but . yeah that’s their’s now JFBFBD — and you…. and vianey…. and eri <3

🌸 pentagon :

❁ my first bias :: … hyunggu !! i think there’s some residual ‘omg The guy’ left as he’s a wrecker now (a Massive one at that) but . i was .2 seconds away from being stupid about him fnfbfbf

❁ my current bias(es) :: hongseok & changgu !! bet no one was expecting gu there were u …. but anyways !! hongk has been my guy for like …. a gooood while .. i’m just somehow normal(?) about him on here vs. the me that cries over any hong seasons / his wiwym cover… guy u would watch the stars with…. guy u could go grocery shopping with….. guy that deserves the w— and changgu …. my guy… the he… guy next door that u can’t help but lov & end up crushing on BIG time…. that au trope u know… guy that is charming in the ‘he would take u on picnics & be approved by ur stiff parents’ way…. i swear i’m normal 👍

❁ my album and/or era ranking (or favorite of each) :: bcuz they have been around since ‘16… they have a Big discog…. therefore we will b going by official korean releases for time’s sake .. : we:th > love or take >/= cerberus > sum(me:r) > in:vite u = demo_2 > five senses > genie:us > thumbs up! = positive > demo_1 > ceremony > universe: the black hall > eternal flame > pentagon !! i’m going to b real honest … last genie:us is shaky …. even before it is slightly shaky ……what i’m saying here is that i’m not 100% on the feels of this ranking … however it’s what feels the most Right 👍 and if i am not ur local daisy enthusiast…. < / / / / 3

❁ how i got into them :: i .. don’t know ??? i just .. i feel like i woke up one day in early 2019 and just … Knew them ………

❁ which member would be my best friend :: yuto !! my guy … me 🤝 him : finding kp..op guys prettie .. JDDBJ — but also … i just .. although he’s intimidating .. it’s the intimidating in the sense of ‘my entire soul will b crushed if they don’t like me’ way … which is different than what u might be thinking .. which is also the way i felt abt like … my tmblr beloveds so like …. the dots .. do u see the dogs i’m connecting ..

❁ something i associate with them (or with a bias/any member) :: daisies !! !! and stars !! aaaaand … and the casual type of love, u know … like it’s comfortable & really fit to whoever it’s to-and-from….. and just the gentleness of little things….

🍓 send me a group and i’ll answer…..

[ragnvdnir]

NAHH CUZ YOU'RE SO RIGHT ABOUT THAT(being the source of my happiness) 🤩🤩🤩 your messages literally make my day 😚💕💕

this is a sign for you to have a friends to lovers trope with ayato 👀😌😌 more than bros-

I made sure that you looked pretty in the picture 😩👌 looking pretty while being caught in 4k 😌 im a professional photographer of ppl getting caught in 4k🥴 i simply need the money for my services so i wont go broke 🤩🤧

Your brain is driving in the right street 🤭 it aint a u-turn, that's the right track ur brain is driving to 🤩 blame me all you want 🥰 😩 but i aint taking back what i've said by "...playing with balls" ✨

Im cracking up sm in the "is this a sign to hell,, im quittin"😭😭😭

Your blog is the whole receipt if you'd ask me 😌😌😌 you've been arresting yourself as both the criminal and the police 🧐

Admit it, you just want to be buried w Ayato in the burnt kamisato estate🧐🧐🧐 even death can't set you apart (literally) 😌

Money before hoes 😎😎😎 the detailed plan you wrote 😌 the anon was too stunned to speak- 🧍‍♀️is this what you call the peak of desperation because ayato won't come home to u 🤔🤔

Good luck on getting ayato !! 👹👹👹 His banner aint gonna disappear tomorrow so take your time 😚😚 may he appreciate your hardwork for saving up for him 😩✨

You got 10 olympic medals but your one true love aint coming home 😩😭 IM. I'm losing my mind over the "NEXT YEAR IM PLANNING TO BUY A MOON" 😰 ein???? i think ur crimes made you successful but also crazy 😭😭 am i gonna hear that you're planning to buy a sun too ???🧐

No one can beat ur top tier humor 😭 i rlly swear you're naturally funny 😌🤩 thanks for being proud of me, im doin my best 😎👌

Albedo is dry bc he aint wet 👍 that chalk man will literally melt into nothingness when he'd gotten wet 🤔🤔 albedo is missing out on ur top tier humor 🤧🤧 i feel so sad for him 😩 anyways ayato please come home to ein, one of your greatest simps, before you regret it 😚 and miss out on ein's humor 🥴🤩 albedo don't deserve someone like you 😤😤 he belongs to dragonspine, and just like the cold of that mountain, he also treated you coldly 🙄😔 let's try to ask mona what can we do to albedo using astrology 😌

I wonder too who is the one who simps so hard in this blog 🤔🤔🤔

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As an Ayato haver, i'm gonna bestow you my blessings!! 😚💕 Have a nice day ein >:3

i'm?? Also wondering if i'm gonna ask you to be friends in asia server 😩🤔 since you were wanting fishes yesterday,,, the reason is stupid but 🤩

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ikr anon😌 but being your entertainer is not free, where's my salary 🤨🤨

itto is gonna be my wingman🤩👍

thats great, bc i wont allow myself to look like a dinosaur while being caught in 4k🙄🙄 we all struggle financially🤝

u know what? i learned to simply shut up whenever u say sussy things🤨🤨 learned it in a hard way btw

my blog is a whole receipt? nah uh anon, u might need a glasses for that. i am not a criminal and a police wdym😒😒

nah bc i take back that i said i am hot, bc there's no way im going to hell😊 im warm u know, not hot

didn't even thought abt that but now that u said it, yes. not even death can do us apart. if i can't have him, no can👹 /j naurr i sound some yandere shit😭

its always money >>> husbandos. this is the start of my capitalist era🤩🤩 /j

i am desperate it self anon🙁 that kamisato ayato is stubborn af💔

"you got 10 olympic medals but your one true love aint coming home" *slids down the wall* *bang my head* *rips out my heart* *sobs violently* f u and your homies anon 💔 who taught u to real talk me💔👍

yep, lets buy a star too🤩🤩 ...crime? anon u thought everything that i did is a crime? how could this be *held the chair from shock* everything that i did is hardwork, success, effort and u will just call them crime!? t-this is too much *runs away* *trips* you betrayed me alot of times💔

ikr💅 im suffering from success of being the funniest clown on earth🤡💅 my brain is full of humor that i wished its full of knowledge from school too💔💔💔 keep going anon and follow my path from success 😌🤝

albedo, the one that got away💔💔 i tried to chase him but he dropped my hand and left me standing💔💔 but past is in the past🙄 i realized that there are alot of better man than him. i ain't gonna chase him, he's the one chasing this beauty this time💅 jk i might pull for his rerun hehe but dont tell him bc i dont chase, i attract🤨🤨

dont be shy and spill the name of that 'someone' in this blog🤔🤔

-

damn another ayato haver i see💆💆💆

mr. kamisato, ive wanted u since the start, even if you are faceless at that time and ppl keep saying that you're gonna be npc forever, the times where i read leaks saying that you're long haired and probably a polearms user. i loved u for that long, and yet, this is how u repay me? another betrayal for my poor heart ig💔 if i cant have u then i have no choice but to let u go and be with your sister whether im guaranteed or not😞😞 this is what u chose ayato, so bear the consequences. farewell, ex lover🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️/j

i already got the fishes BUT YESS I WANNA BE FRIENDS, ur uid now🤨🤨

[jaynovz]

Dead man in a ditch thoughts pt1, super spoilery

Listen like. Fingers ok. Hendricks is handfeeding him? I cannot.

Also this flashback of them hanging out makes me fucking sad as shit GOD. b/c I know how it all ends.

okay now DM format:

"colder than that cup of tea you made four hours ago and forgot about" excuse me I have been called out Lol

Got to say it is extremely interesting that there are no guns since it's a noir

But it doesn't seem like there are only fantasy weapons

I wouldn't consider brass knuckles to be a fantasy weapon

I like this gnome

Fetch sure does get clawed in the face by werecats a lot

“AREN'T YOU THE ONE WHO SHOT ME?”

“THAT WAS A WHOLE 2 MINUTES AGO” Fetch is such a sassy shit. I laugh so hard reading this

All I can think about this cat thief is Selena Kyle

"I could catch an infection just by looking at you" SAVAGE

This man is such a fucking disaster

I want to bundle him up stat

Get Fetch Laid challenge

And then Get Fetch Love and Affection challenge

"you're just a boy" ok you don't got to call him out as a sub in his own home

“Sorry I rarely have guests so early”

She looks at her watch.

“But it's--”

“I'm sure it is. How's the leg?” I relate to this

Oh my GOD THE CHAMBER POT FELL OFF THE ANGEL DOOR BALCONY

AHAHAHAHAHAH

Luke: when I introduce a new character I simply must describe their fingers

I fucking love Simms

Fetch: I am not looking for ways to bring the magic back

Everyone: sure of course not ;)

I'm assuming that non-magical explosives do not exist

again, THE WORLDBUILDING. Luke is a nerd after my own heart

oh wow, his dwarf voice is great. Now I’m imagining Luke DMing a campaign 🤩🤩

I feel way less bad for all the shit I’ve done to Silver in fic b/c Luke treats Fetch So Much Worse

"you don't have any friends" 🥺

NOO MY SON

MAGIC

Also this man gets hit in the face so much

Oh this line is super good: “he didn't act like I'd hit a nerve. He acted like I'd strung it over a violin and played it with a razor blade.”

I love how Fetch is literally just stealing things from this pharmacy before calling the cops

So many things

He Deserves It

The chronic pain is also big Silver feels

Tho Silver is on the opposite end of the spectrum in refusing to take any pain meds instead of literally mainlining them

Aw fetch "I was all giddy from the ridiculousness of Simms talking to me like she cared"

Honey On Purpose ppl Care about you

The lil gnome gave him some hand holds earlier and he was Shook

Omg a dumpster of fae bodies

Poor lad

I'm going to send fetch to a spa and then put him in a bed with a bunch of people to cuddle him

Omg this is hurtful. Crying in the club

He fixed up the mansion and cleaned and got Amari new clothes

Jesus

I'm SUFFERING

Also Fetch and his suicidal ideation jesus

BAXTER TIME

Oh yes describe Baxter again

Big

OH NO

They are Sad

Everyone in this city needs a hug

"I guess that's where your eyebrow went"

KISS ALREADY

"the fire in Baxter's eyes turned blue behind their glasses."

S-sexy

He's like "I could lie down right now and die and nobody would care. Beautiful 🥰"

I've gone from Silver vibes over to Big Flint vibes

Oh here come the trauma nightmares

Honey 😔

Luke has a very good scary voice

This possum is me

Somebody has been digging the petrified brains out of fae bodies and that is so horrible

The way he writes all this gruesome shit

Damn

He really took "how do you write? First make a gay little man. Then give him a problem" to heart

Goddamn it's getting worse

This is like the most triggering thing I can imagine for this character

Also this: "there are some questions you try not to ask yourself. Even if you spend every second trying to push them away, they never quite leave. They sit in the shadows with sharpened teeth, waiting for a chance to bite down on the most tender pieces of your brain."

OHHHHH nooooo

He found a letter and now he's thinking about Hendricks and I'm SUFFERING

Man's been repressing shit for 6 years

And then BOOM

Fetch 🤝 Silver

"I SHOULD HAVE JOINED THE CIRCUS WHEN I WAS 15, FALLEN OFF THE TRAPEZE AND SAVED EVERYONE A LOT OF TROUBLE"

Sir

That's very funny and also very upsetting

HOW

Omg Fetch do not watch this

omgggg

oh

choking

ok

EXCUSEME

HIS

CROTCH EXPLODED?

Nooooo not the other eyebrow

Fetch like "I don't know how to explain to you that desecrating corpses is bad"

"eyebrows like toilet paper are things you don't miss till you reach out and realize they're gone"

AHAHAHHA

Oh. Dog collar. Ok.

Warlock on a leash

"A man might cross an ocean for love but with enough hate, he'll try to drink it"

Listen he needs to stop with these

Oh more choking. Ok

And uh this: "we rolled along the path like lovers, trading kicks, slaps and scratches instead of kisses."

Anyway I'm only on chapter 15 and already fetch has been beat a million ways to Sunday

Can this man have a vacation

They're being nice to him and he's like "hmmm this makes me uncomfortable"

REMIND YOU OF ANYONE

"if someone turns in a couple of eyebrows--brown, fuzzy, in need of a pluck-- can you push them through my letterbox?"

PFFFFTTT

"I stared at the legs for a while, wondering how long they'd been there and what kind of person they might be connected to. They weren't moving. Maybe they weren't connected to anyone. Maybe they were just a couple of legs, off on their own, out for a walk." WHY IS HE SO FUNNY

OH

GUN

OKAY

WHY WOULD YOU LEAVE THAT WITHOUT INSTRUCTIONS

“I IGNORED IT ALL EXCEPT THE BIT ABOUT THE HAT” OMGGGGGGG

Mr. "I didn't know whether to be turned on or terrified"

Both?

OHHHHH she's like "oh my God you disaster stay right here we are about to fix this"

Thank God someone's doing it

This. Sub.

his head. in his lap.

okay i’m done. digging a hole. bye. that’s it.

GAY

I'm going insane

Tattooed Lady werewolf sign me up

Trauma Flashback Time~

What will help me feel safer? A GUN

Oh my god this is going to be Terrible

This man should not have a gun

He's so jumpy

Back to the Brothel!

Wonder how much trouble him gonna get in this time

I'm going to go ahead and say that bronze leaves are supposed to be 20s

This nerd really invented a whole card game

I appreciate and respect how Extra this is

Oh hmmm yes

Mmm he said darlin. Luke saying darlin made me have to pause and recalibrate my brain.

"He'd written a version of events inside his head and he was holding onto them so he wouldn't have to admit what a mistake he'd made." HMmmMmm sounds familiar

Fetch Phillips should not have a gun but also the way Luke just read the "I'll make your head explode" was

Sexy

Also "so how about I show you a little miracle"

Sir have mercy

Oh he's finally testing the gun out on a dummy andddd:

He. Should. Not. Have. This.

FETCH IS A HORSE GIRL

Mr Arnold you are mean:

GOBLIN WITH A PROSTHETIC

Fetch. Handcuffed

NOOOO

THE HORSE

THAT WAS

SO RUDE

(okay that’s it for now. I have more and I’ll post it later)

Omgggg "don't be jealous"

Hendricks WHAT THE FUCK

[jayflrt]

I'M PRETTY GOOD THANK YOU!!!

aside from the fact that i acually became sick during the weekend [sniffles] why why why do i get sick when i have 3 tests this week and the weather is actually better (forecast promised us 19℃ for 2morrow :DD) it'm sad when absent, i Hate catching up with stuff uhu other than that i ike staying away from my classes muhaha my high school resume would be so blank lol, i don't have work experience or anything yet eheheh

WOWOWOWO 90 ON NEUROSCIENCE ure so freaking cool!!!

did your result for this other grade arrive? (the one that determines whether u pass a writing requirement :00)

and today (since i reply late LOL) has been pretty uneventful, we only had 3 classes held, so luckily i don't have to catch up on much, bt i'm afraid that i will be absent for a few more days T^T

by the way, how do you balance writing such amazing fics and your studies? :00 if you don't mind me asking

tons of love from JULI!! <33

oh my gosh i got sick this weekend too for a little 🤧 you and me in this together juli 🤝 i’m feeling completely(?) better now tho !! my mom’s lemon + ginger tea worked wonders 🤩 are you still sick tho love ?? :o omg starbucks had this medicine ball/cold buster secret menu drink that i used to down when i was sick HAHAH it was bc i didn’t have tea that was super effective for beating colds when i was living in the dorms, so i would just go to starbucks and ask them to fill up my hydroflask with their tea 🤧 add some hot water, any peach tea or minty green tea, some hot lemonade, and some honey !! hopefully you can try that if you’re still feeling ill 😔

omg SAME i absolutely hate having to catch up on work :(( it’s so much more stressful ,, i don’t understand why teachers don’t just waive it 😵‍💫 also i hate that most entry-level work and internship experience requires experiences 😭 like how do i get the experience then ?? but don’t feel discouraged by your resume looking empty rn, you have so much more time !! <3

AHH THANK YOU and this morning i got the email that i passed the writing requirement so now i can graduate 🤩🤩 well it’ll still be a while until i graduate but now i’m eligible to graduate HAHAH :’)) so much less stress now 😵‍💫 are you still staying at home from school currently ?? :o i hope you’re feeling better now at least !! drink some hot soup and tea love 😔

also PLS you flatter me sm 🤧💗 but i just make sure i schedule my day so that i get my assignments done at a certain time and then i write whenever i have a break or if i finish early/have time after !! for some reason i get super motivated to write whenever an exam is coming up 😭😭 but i manage to squeeze in time to write always bc it’s a hobby for me so it’s something i can do instead of like scrolling through tiktok or watching a show :’)) 💝

[ragnvdnir]

Ok i'm back to reply to your messages 😍

miss kamisato girly better come home but if she aint doing that you who who will : kazuha 😏 ay*to might just sign up in a business marriage to continue the bloodline 😌

Yes i hope i lose my 50/50 to that certain sweetie pie 2 😍 i've only won it one time with albedo and lost every other 50/50s with no diluc 😔 and c2 qiqi and keqing :') i have like cons for each standard 5* and i am still dilucless 😭

bc i was just in a village doing alright then i became your royal advisor over night and now im crazy like you 🧐 if i did get a hime cut irl we would be twinning 🤩 the queen and her royal adviser twinning in hairstyles (real!) Yes you're def dragging me to som crazy things 😭

This "betrayal" to are talking about means that i'd kick asses for you but i'd kick your ass too if i have to do it 😋😎

Yes i can see through your brain 😌 it's giving so much wide ass open minded vibes 💪 no but 😭 you're really successfully making everything sound funny or a joke everytime 😩

True abt vyn 🙄 man is allegedly aspiring to be an attention wh*re??? 🤨 Asking is easy but he wants to manipulate you instead 👮 yeah he may not physically be strong but he'd fit in a role to be proclaimed "dead" and the actual killer in the movie 😰

Today's generation must be smarter bc look at them not making the sweetie pie the standard 🤬 (this is a joke we def respect your ideal types ✌️😭) yall wilding when you can just settle for a simple but also luxurious life with Diluc Ragnvindr 😤💕

"maam this is mcdonalds" do you think you can stop me?? u lowly peasant of a cashier 🤨😎 can i just please order an extra large fries and a spaghetti with coke drink maam 😌 marius teases MC but he knows when 2 stop too when u literally cant take it 👍 cant let you die bc of him 💪 have fun having the stages of grief again 👍 she got engaged by default so that we would not try to endorse her to mhy as a potential lover character 🤬 they know they makin their side characters especially the women look good bc we cant date them 🙄

Also to the ppl cancelling Ein over using emojis: 🤺🤺🤺 dont you dare slander her humor 🤬🤬🤬 ur just jealous she's funnier than yall 🙄😤 (this is a joke again i dont do fights with ppl so pls ignore me 😎 i literally have no time to fight in nonsensical arguments) just keep using the emojis 😍😍😍 bc who are you to bow down to them 😋

No but about the ableist thing 😰 i kinda am frightened to whatever stuff that id do or say would come out of me bc i was ignorant of stuff

— 🍰.

i hope so too, i like ayaka's playstyle so she better accept my proposal🙄 kazuha will surely go home if she didn't bc after all im guaranteed😏😏 and whos this ay*to trying to set an arrange marriage🤨🤨 tell him to do it or hes a scaredy cat🤷🤷

mr. diluc is playing hard to get, just be patient bc thats what i did even though i have to suffer months before i got him😗😗

oh wait you're from a village before becoming royal advisor??😲😲 why is this kinda familiar 🤔🤔

i was a girl in the village doing alright then i became a princess royal advisor overnight. now i gotta figure out how to do it right, so much to learn and see~

u should get hime cut🤨 we're best buddies so we have to show ppl we're true and legit💆💆 kicking asses for me? yes. kicking my ass? no🙅‍♀️🙅‍♀️ i would run away if i have too my dear royal advisor ⁉️

sometimes i just wanna shut my mouth bc weird and corny jokes naturally comes out and i have to curl into a ball and cry on how cringy it is😔💔

ugh me and vyn being an attention seeker🤝 🤝🤝 we definitely deserve each other but my man vyn richter, manipulation is a no no or you will see a flying slippers and appliances coming your way🙆🙆🙆

agree, diluc set the bar too high to reach. diluc would do anything for you (yes we respect your opinions dont mind us! after all *glances at thoma* there's a certain malewife i would need in my life hehe)

me? a lowly peasant? i see🤔🤔 ill be looking for a new royal advisor. just ask my butler for your last pay check

i still refuse to believe that celestine is engaged 🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

naurr bc i started overusing emojis with my irl friends as a joke. apparently, i never got away from it👀 i think emojis is a part of my life now😔💔

same same anon😭 i now have to prevent myself from doing things bc i wont know that i did something horrible until someone points it out or mentions them. im just glad that this is not twitter bc i will really get cancelled even tho i did that unknowingly😟😟 twitter is a scary place to be in and not to mention the toxic side of genshin fandom existing there😗😗

[ragnvdnir]

Hold up i just realized you renamed your "ask" button as "confess your sins here" 😭

I'm scared for whatever will happen in the future for you who knows what other temptations will you finally act up on 😰 also just wanna let you know one of the past few days i have dreamt of getting a hime cut too in some hairdressing parlor. Is this a sign that you'd be cutting your hair like that irl 🤔

Okay whatever you say i'll be the evidence myself ✌️😎 i'm having fun. And fairy godmother 😭 how on earth did i became one- 🧙‍♂️ dw about struggling on finding the right words i do the same too 🙈

Didn't expect Ein to be interested in these kind of things tbh 😭 it was really a shock to me tbh. But i'm a "why?" kind of person too and without proper reasons and explanations i wouldn't believe/understand something 💪

Vyn would be hella scary if he's mad at you 😰 he can gaslight his way out like a girlboss smoothly but i 🤝🤝🤝 with you that i would feel scared around him too but at the same time comforted because he understands you but someone understanding you have a positive and negative side 😰😰 vyn is better than most manipulative kind of man out there 💪💪 he's not toxic and makes an effort to understand the MC/dirty his hands like literally with soil so that MC wouldn't have to harvest the crops and just hold the basket in that one summer card of him before 👌 i dont play anymore bc i only came for the lawyer roleplay and mystery rather than the boys tbh 😎 but i might come back bc they updated the main story 😍

Take ur time in transforming your theme 🌹 no bc it is really looking lowkey sexy 👌 but i am sexier of course 👹 i dont have his false tears card yet but i think i get how things went with the feedback of people about that ✌️ from the title "false tears" and some people said that he faked himself crying to get a reaction from us.. is it true??? 😭 That dude prolly putting you in social experiments everytime tbh. Maybe he aint. But he CAN. I'd straight up snatch his glasses and not let him see anything clearly 😌

also if you're curious, i initially liked artem but then marius keep coming home as my first ssr and so many cards of him 💀 so that means i have access to his stories too and that made me like marius by default 💪 doesnt mean that i like marius is that i am a childe liker 😭 he's a different person despite being similar. Marius is playful but he knows when to get serious and that's also attractive 👍 also Celestine have a fiancee already so :((

— 🍰.

i just thought of that on the spot😭☝️ and maybe i want to be punny too😔👉👈

dw i understand why u didn't expect me to be interested is these type of things bc nonsense usually come out of my mouth😭 i feel you anon i have alot of why's too😌😌

naurr bc vyn can easily manipulate and gaslight me just by speaking my name and adding flowery words😰😰 damn this love language of mine im too naive😔😔 vyn can make me dance in the palm of his hands without me even knowing im being controlled 🤨🤨 and abt the false tears, ill put down somethings that he said

vyn, the psychiatrist who also needs help😽👌

iwnsksj sameee😭 i always get marius cards thats why i got swayed away from vyn alittle👀 marius is my first ssr too😰😰 what is this marius thingy we share😔

marius liker thats doesn't like childe? sussy👀 i mean same i would fight childe

WHATTTT CELESTINE HAS A FIANCEE ALREADY ⁉️⁉️⁉️ THIS CANT BE TRUE CELESTINE MY GIRL EXPLAIN YOURSELF RN🤬🤬🤬