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youredreamingofroo · 5 months ago

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living in this household is such a train wreck ❤️

like wdym it's not normal for your guardians to be perfectly fine, then have an off day, which leads to my guardians arguing and having my grandma threaten to k word my grandpa and my grandpa just ask to be k worded, and then have me get so stressed out I just start crying, and in some cases (like today) have a panic attack that almost k/o's me 🫶🫠 only for everything to go back to normal 5 minutes later. Damn that's not normal??????? Welp.

#delete later #tw : kill mention #< idk if i should say this or death skdneksjs #post:vent #literally having been living in this hell for the last 4 or 5 years.#< have**#i blame those two for 90% of my emotional regulation methods.#genuinely unable to steady my breathing. rubbing my face so aggressively to the point of wanting my skin off. bawling. throwing things arnd.#all that just for me to agree with myself to not worry about that near knockout experience 2 min later lmfao 🧍‍♂️#as nice as it is to be able to just be able to switch from bawling my eyes out to being some form of happy/not crying in a few seconds-#-it just does not feel healthy at all.- possibly unrelated but ive noticed my breakdowns getting progressively worse and worse-#-and harder on my breathing + head sjdhsjd like a couple months ago my breakdowns would just be crying. now i just full on-#-deconstruct and shatter like glass on pavement :L #ugh sorry for this. i alr ranted to my friend abt this so this is unnecessary and i kinda planned to js not post this but whatever idc-#-ill js delete later (if i even remember that this post exists😐)

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