#;; WHEN IM DONE WITH MIDTERMS OFC

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[elkieanddoppo]

probably gonna write a full blown kunizai fic inspired by the "lost" chapter of noli me tangere aka the chapter 25: elias and salome. i think kunikida really "fits" salome's role in that novel uhh.

to people who doesnt know what their story is erm (pls correct me if im wrong), elias has to protect his country and go somewhere bc he's one of the main character's allies? so he has to leave salome. so uh when he met up again with her, salome tried her hardest to convince him to stop and just live with her in her hometown. but elias refuses to. and then she cries a bit as he says his farewell. she knows that that will be the last time they will see each other.

OK WELL ANYWAY, i want to write a kunizai fic where it's like in canon lore/story but kunikida is a regular citizen (still has his ability but isnt in the ada). kunikida wants dazai to stop being a "hero" and just come/leave with him to another part of japan far away from yokohama or outside japan where they can live peacefully. dazai ofc refuses. he refuses to see any of his friends die from a being that he could have stopped.

"just forget me, doppo. afterall, this is how i can atone my sins. i will help save this country, i will protect yokohama and the agency members. im afraid i can not leave with you, my beloved."

kunikida sighs, "well then, please at the very least, you should remember me. sleep here where I have slept and dreamed....it would be as if I myself were living with you, as if I were by your side."

"oh, my love. i will remember you until the end of time." dazai said as he turned his back towards kunikida and walked away, never looking back.

kunikida follows him with his eyes as he stood still, listening to his footsteps gradually fading away.

"i will forget you but know that we are bound together by soul. i will wait for you in the afterlife, dear." he smiled.

i will start writing this after my midterms so uh yeah, i'll post it in ao3 after im done

[millionsknives]

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[quillsink]

my troy + abed + annie roommate HCS!! tagging @abednadirsgf (no pressure btw obv)

troy and abed are Obsessed with bubble wrap. they just are. abed sometimes carries a bit with him to fiddle with and one time the two of them go Crazy and tape bubble wrap to the dreamatorium walls, floor, and ceiling and spend a day in there just popping all of it.

yk how in remedial chaos theory we see abed fiddling w a pencil? he does that All The Time and i hc he picked it up frm annie like she does that when she’s nervous and he picked it up. aaaagh i just love shared/influenced mannerisms we are all mosaics of everyone we love!!!

AND!! in relation to my last hc the REASON he picked it up is bc the two of them study together (I Love Them.) like yea it starts out as spanish bc the group never actually studies and they both want good grades but then it jusr becomes them Vibing together. abed will bring his film class stuff and annie’ll have her administration work and they’ll just vibe in annie’s room, abed sitting cross legged on the bed pencil behind his ear whistling doodling cameras and scribbling concepts on a notepad while typing up a script and annie’s lying on her stomach next to him highlighting a textbook!!

at first it’s just them studying in silence or abed asking annie a q ab spanish but one day abed is having a Brain Not WorkTM day and has a midterm tomorrow and is Freaking Out and troy’s at dance class so abed’s like “hey annie. hey annie are you free” in this very calm voice. and she’s like hey sure what’s up. and he’s like oh nothing i’m just going insane what about you. and she’s like What and he starts pacing and ranting and she’s like hooooly shit dude chill. and then they sit on her bed together and annie opens her laptop and opens a folder titled “ADHD” and then flips through a bunch of stuff til she finds the executive dysfunction doc, and she says “ik adhd and autism aren’t exactly the same, but executive dysfunction is a shared symptom so maybe this can help!!” and she walks abed through some techniques she uses and they work and he just gives her one of his little smiles and says “thanks :]”. and he’s mentally like hmm. i want a hug but how do socialise. agh. and she’s like “AWWW ofc abed!!” and hugs him and he does his little :] smile again and hugs her back!!!

all three of them hold hands, this is because they are best friends and they love each other, btw. if u even care. 

annie helps troy realise he has adhd!!! he casually mentions stuff here and there like memory loss and some auditory processing difficulties and shes like “ohh yea that sucks huh!! adhd can be the worst sometimes :/” and he’s like sorry the What. and she explains adhd, and he’s like. tell me more. and then it somehow winds up as a montage with a powerpoint and one of those boards with red yarn because it’s community, it’s annie, of COURSE it does, and soon troy’s like, wow. holy fuck. okay wow this explains a lot. and then has a slight anxiety attack like holy SHIT this changes EVERYTHING im not normal aaaaaaAAAA and starts rocking back and forth so annie freaks a bit bc holy shit what has she done to her best friend and then she just ends up holding him and tells him it’s okay, troy, it’s okay, you’re still who you are, now, you jusr have an explanation, like. and she explains how she felt when she got her diagnosis, like the puzzle pieces fit together, and yes it sucks life can be harder bc of adhd but also learning ab it explains it all. and then she gets out her computer and shows him all the folders and tips and he’s like. holy shit i love u. 

They Are Cuddly. these are some touchstarved motherfuckers. like troy and annie are very physically intimate w friends but abeds a little more hesitant bc he’s scared of reading things wrong. but he learns w troy and annie they’re okay with it. they initiate and enjoy hugs and hand holding and cuddling and they smile at him if he initiates it so he stops being worried about it and soon the three of them are just Like that. avg friday night u look in at apartment 303 u see them all huddled on the couch, abed curled into troy’s side and annie sprawled across the two of them holding abed’s hand with her head on his shoulder. I Love Them So Much It Is Unreal.

btw. friday nights are movie nights for them. they will cancel every other appointment damn it all to hell friday nights are for Them and for Them only!!! they take turns picking the movies and they love it, annie makes microwave popcorn for her and troy and abed makes buttered noodles but still sneaks some of troy’s popcorn and he always puts two forks in the buttered noodles so troy can have some. even after they’ve all graduated and left when troy comes back to america whenever the trio meet up it’s always on a friday night, for old times’s sake.

okay wow this got long!! if u made it this far thank u for reading i love u here have a cookie 🍪 

[draconicdetective]

BARNABY I just finished Girl From Nowhere, so now you've got to tell me when you finish it

WHO IS THIS BUT YES OFC RIGHT AWAY ive had a midterm every week this month so im soo behind on my shows but my alg midterm is wed and im free so im gonna try to binge it when i finish. ummm youll know im done (or watching it) bc ill probably make posts hehe

[amjustagirl]

HI NIKKI JIE omg its been ages since ive dropped in how are you!! eep i read ch 8 of when the sun loves the moon DAYS ago and ive been meaning to drop in to scream about it but got caught up with squid game (i want to scream the ending made my heart pain T^T) then with school :")

i dont even have words to describe how much i loved it aaaaa bokuto fighting to stay on her team, her finally bringing him to meet her mum, everything theyve been through together gdkjfkkdsk it was such a rollercoaster honestly having not one but tWO major angst plot points 😭 but i absolutely loved the ending soso much; their wedding (eAting at a yakiniku place with their teammates and friends pls thats the dream sia🥺) and omg that sneak peak at their life with kousuke kouichi AND kouji fjskdjksjs helpp that was soo freaking adorable and i think this thing with showing where they are many years down the road is not really something youve done before in your prev longfics ? (not including all your outtakes ofc) but you did it here and aaa i was squealing so hard it was so sweet 😭 fjskfjs hELP im so excited to see what outtakes youll have for them next time (kouichi and sachiko mayhaps 👀 HAHA) AND THEM SWITCHING IMAGERIES AT THE END HAD ME SCREAMING PLS 🥺 help not the way you revealed mizuki's name early cuz someone thought she was called tsukki HAHAHAHAH nikki jie you damn funny 🤣

eep i saw you have a prequel kuroo fic and osamu fic coming up 👀👀 CANT WAIT

oHOH and i think you mentioned before that you figured out which uni i go to, just from all my kendo references??? HAHAHAH RLY AH i dont keep up with other schools kendo so i have no idea whats the diff LOL (i thought the reading/midterms week schedule would have been more obvious cuz i think the rest diff from us LMAO) ok la but tbh i think most ppl go to one of the three main unis so i dont think its that hard to figure out HAHAHA

oh also i saw you made mr nikki start watching haikyuu?? hOWS THAT GOING HAHA help ive been rewatching it alot recently and my mum keeps asking me 'isnt that the volleyball one you finished watching already??' HAHAHH

hope you have a good week ahead nikki jie 💓 ~ann :>

Hello Ann meimei!

Squid game truly hurt me to the core (I just get attached to the characters and its just game over for my heart). I hope school isn't too hiong for you haha and I figured it out quickly enough bcos it's my alma mater after all!

And thank you again again again for your love for when the sun loves the moon! Every notif fr you truly makes my day and I'm glad you loved the unadulterated fluff I poured in! They're lovely and sweet tgt, and I guess subconsciously after all the angst I put them through, I really wanted to make sure you guys know that they're both truly happy, with their chaotic trio of little sons and their huge group of friends. They relocate back to Tokyo after bo's retirement (sakusa too), so kuroo, bo and sakusas kids end up playing together a lot! Esp sachiko and kousuke...and aiko and kouichi, if I recall whose kids I'm talking abt!

Pls lor I was horrified at the thought of ppl thinking mizuki shares the same name as tsukki LOL and I feel like tsukki wld flip (like omi) if he ended up related to bo.

And yes! I do intend to write more fics, the kuroo prequel is a monster and no where near done, the osamu one is on the back burner but still there! Have patience with me 😊

Hehe yesssss I'm having such a blast rewatching hq w Mr nikki! He was shocked when I told him he reminds me a little of kuroo (the snarky science nerd bit) but he doesn't know I think he reminds me of osamu either, cos hes still at season 2 only! He's v entertained by tanaka and noya cos he used to be in a team sport in sch, so it reminds him of his friends and their antics (where they just share one brain cell!)

I hope you have a good week too Ann meimei ♥️

[ofniko]

✧ · ˚ . troye sivan? nah, that’s just nicolas “niko” palmer. you know, they’re the twenty-one year-old youtuber-turned-musician from petaluma, california… still doesn’t ring a bell ? come on, dude ! they’re all over ME.MIAMI’S homepage. it’s impossible for them to stay off of it because of the fact that they’re super mercurial & immature. they’re not all bad though, ‘cause they can be ambitious & warm-hearted too ! you can totally tell they’re a gemini… it’s almost scary. look, if you want to remember them, just think of a shiny pink vinyl skirt with pristine nails to match, designer shopping bags weighing down twiggy arms, and margaritas with extra sugar around the rim, and you’ll be golden. ( flexible pronouns, genderfluid. )

hello friends ! im!! so excited to be back 😭but for those of u i don’t know i’m lainie, she/her, cst, and i talk about stephen king too much :/ below u can find a very lazy intro with some summarized points and stuff (if you knew niko before there’s some changes to his bg, most notably his parents not being wildly wealthy), also bc it’d midterm szn i’m dealing w that this week/part of next week lmao but ill be around ! and i’ll def be here for plotting n stuff tonight so come smash a heart and ill slide up in ur dms or come hmu here or on discord (starslut#0877) whichever works best for you MWAH

background/history

niko was born and raised in petaluma, california. his dad was a wannabe entrepreneur whose tendency was to put all his time and investment money into projects that never worked or came to fruition before moving onto the next one, while his mom lazily strove to be an actress (like her sister, winona ryder) but never had the ambition or frankly talent to actually make anything happen. money from niko��s paternal grandparents as well as whatever his dad did manage to make with investments kept them afloat. they were by no means wealthy, but his parents liked to live as if they were. that meant a lot of fake china, fake brand clothing, fake diamonds, and otherwise cheap ostentation

they also didn’t pay a whole lot of attention to him. they were wrapped up in their own fantasy lives and overall, niko got a minimal amount of affection and attention from his parents who were much more impressed with their ability to find fake diamonds that looked real than their child

niko was not totally immune to the effects that kind of upbringing had on him (although it always struck him as a little weird), but the thing that saved him from becoming like his parents was his connection to his aunt, winona, and her family. as a kid niko only saw them at family events (mostly because his mom was always so bitter about her sister’s success that she hated seeing them) but as he began reaching adolescence he started making a habit of secretly going to visit a lot without his parents’ knowledge

he felt more comfortable there, more accepted (especially with his confusion surrounding gender identity and sexual orientation), and most of all, his cousin logan was his favorite person in the whole world and he looked up to her like a big sister

it was when he first started high school, around age 14, that niko finally ran away from home and showed up at the palmers’ house with a suitcase and asked to be adopted. and he was! winona took him into her home, made the adoption legal, and niko even changed his last name to reflect his new, real family

niko was so much happier in this new environment where he wasn’t brushed off as part of the furniture that he really started to flourish around then. he started experimenting with his femininity and non-gender-conforming dress styles, allowed himself room to figure out his sexuality, and even came to terms with his genderfluidity with a lot of love and support from logan and the fam

he also started his youtube channel around junior year in high school! it was mostly fashion and makeup stuff and it steadily gained a following until he had a good enough platform (and with huge help from the connections he had through winona) to jump into music, which had always been something he loved and wanted to do eventually

he released an ep the summer after he graduated high school (which was received pretty well) and finally a debut album with a major label a little more than a year later when he was twenty. the debut album was what threw niko into the real spotlight--it was all over the radio and eventually went platinum, solidifying his presence as a modern pop star with a devoted fan base

personality

gregarious and extraverted sometimes to a fault, niko can easily get on the nerves of people who don’t have the energy to keep up. he’s like a child who never quite grew out of adolescence, and with that boundless energy also comes a selfishness he’s usually unaware of. it can be very difficult for niko to be conscious of the way his actions affect other people and ends up hurting those close to him that way

in that same vein, when he does realize what he’s done, he’s more often than not consumed with guilt over it and will go to great lengths to try and resolve the issue

not that he always does a good job

he sleeps around a lot mostly because he enjoys it, but partly because he doesn’t know how to have a relationship. the lingering adolescence makes it so he doesn’t have the necessary awareness of another person’s needs to be in a stable relationship and he manages to a large degree to convince himself he doesn’t care and prefers being single anyway

besides music, fashion is his favorite thing in the world and though he doesn’t wear a lot of makeup on the daily, he definitely dabbles and has a lot of fun experimenting

catch him exploring the city and taking pictures, partying, clubbing, brunching, and shopping on the regs and if he’s in a Mood, you can usually tell bc he goes on shopping binges and fusses to an extreme degree over his appearance

also he volleys back and forth between dyeing his hair platinum blond and then going back to his natural brown

connection ideas

gal and gay pals :’) for fashion and shopping and instagram photoshoots

also a best friend ride or die pleaSE and thank u

i need enemies and angst and drama so give me everyone who hates niko/thinks he’s a fake bitch/can’t stand him/his music

high school connections are cute so maybe someone he didn’t get along w back then and does now/vice versa where they were rly close and something turned them against each other and now it’s world war 3 (assuming they grew up in cali!)

COLLABS ??!!!!!!! on music ofc but also possibly youtubers etc he worked with back when he was mainly on there before he released his album

umm!!!! someone who like they DONT get along usually and everyone knows they’re weird frenemies but they VIBE SO HARD when theyre drunk and partying

an ex or two who probably lasted maybe like 3-4 months and it didn’t work out either bc they cheated on niko (would love this angst) OR bc niko was too flaky for them and they couldn’t handle the way niko doesn’t rly understand intimacy and broke it off OR!!! they got really clingy and niko broke it off himself

those were probably referenced on his album and also i’d love to plot specific things that inspired some of his songs

someone who can challenge!! that!! and it’s freaking niko out bc he’s starting to catch Feels but doesn’t know what to do w it/doesn’t know if they feel the same way

PR stuff please thanks!!!!!

maybe like gyeurhus someone he’s a big fan of but they have no idea who he is

vice versa where they’re a huge fan of niko and he’s completely unaware of them

someone who produces his music P L E A S E bc i see niko writing the lyrics but someone else actually doing the sound production and helping with the music writing process etc

[free--therapy]

Hi! thank you so much for answering my ask and your reply kinda made me cry from how kind it was. thank you for being so understanding, I'm very grateful

The past two weeks have been very stressful with midterm tests, thesis, assignments all due at the same time and this has taken a huge toll on my mental health because i ended up experiencing a setback in my healing from anxiety. the last time i felt this anxious over things was in july so it feels weird to be there again after a long time of minimal anxiety. It feels really bad...like being sucked into the same dark place again haha

this time around, my guilt and anxiety over that nsfw content i watched came back and while i tried to brush it off by telling myself that I've dealt with these thoughts already....in the end i did end up overthinking a lot again.

this is sort of a long messy ask so please feel free to ignore!

the content im referring to is both the pet related thing and also the weird side of anime/manga (hentai involving underage children). Honestly, i just randomly remembered it and started thinking "wait how do i know it's not illegal or something?" and i ended up searching whether it is or isn't

well after searching for official rules/laws, i didn't find any ban or restrictions on watching that nsfw pet content thing (though it still makes me uncomfortable now and ofc im never even thinking about it again) but surprisingly what i did find was apparently, that animal nsfw content was among most searched for nsfw content in a major big city in my country. it kinda threw me off because i thought i was a weird gross person who watched it without feeling weird until i grew up and left it for good but turns out there are many people who watch it or search for it too.....i mean, that is wrong ofc but knowing im not alone feels kinda less lonely and knowing it's not illegal or something helped me calm down from anxiety related to it tbh

however the anime/manga l*licon content is a whole different story. personally, i didn't care about it because i always thought it was fictional and animated so doesn't really matter if someone watched it or even if i end up conauming it somehow but as you said, even if it's animated, the ideas are still real

and when i searched for any laws related to it...i ended up finding mixed opinions? apparently out of the two laws, one stated that distributing such content in any form of media (including cartoons and such) was not allowed and if you store or download it for personal reasons, it has to be deleted. i've never done any of those since i've only ever come across it online. i never download or store or share any nsfw content except viewing it online if i do and apparently that's allowed so that's not a problem

However the second (older) law ended up triggering quite a bit of anxiety tbh. because it mentions that distributing, sharing downloading or browsing of any explicit nsfw content (in form of real videos, drawings/painting, images and such) that contains children under eighteen is not allowed. its only allowed if its for good reasons for science, literature or art purpose but what does that even mean? and this guideline does not mention anything about animated fictional content so idk if anime/manga is considered here or not.....but ofc my anxiety is at the peak and all i can think about is...what if anime/manga type content is not allowed either? then does that mean i did something illegal? where can i find more information on this? etc. i've only ever browsed anime content that i randomly come across but is that wrong too? or does it not count?

not to mention....it confused me a lot because even when i considered normal anime/manga content...something like a romance shoujo or something with characters around 17 y/o...in those types of series as well there are sometimes scenes that can get explicit but this never striked as wrong to me since the main characters are high schoolers and many mainstream anime/manga series do have this content but if the law really doesn't allow animated fictional content either then does that mean i can't watch any anime? lol i'm so confused and anxious 😭

idk if anime/manga related underage stuff is legal under this law since it isn't directly mentioned and my overthinking is through the roof rn. every time i get free time, my mind keeps going back to those worries and idk what to do?

i mean....a part of me is like "stop, you're overthinking. let this be and move on" but another part is like "yeah but what if it's illegal? what will you do then?" i keep getting intrusive thoughts like "is it really legal?" "what if it isn't?" "If it's illegal then does that make me a offender?" "What do i do now?" And all those kinds of thoughts

so whenever i try to move on from feom this worry and try to find some peace of mind, my thoughts go "but should you be looking for peace of mind if what you watched really turns out to be illegal?" and so....these types of thoughts are making me unable to move on or distance myself from these worries

and i know a big part of me feeling this is my anxiety. since a big part of my anxiety is focused around wanting to be perfect and not making any mistakes or wrong acts. so whenever i find any mistake i recently made, i just keep feeling like i should correct it somehow and i feel the same way for this issue too. i end up searching if there's anything mentioned on what's allowed or what's not

i feel like im thinking too much and taking this too seriously. ofc the law should be follwed but in this case where idk what's true or not....i feel like i should let it go and that im being too focused on this. because i know a lot of people around me who have watched or read similar content regardless of if its wrong or not but they don't think so much about it? so am i supposed to do the same?

idk what the correct response to this situation would be and is it even okay to just forget this and move on? would that even be okay? what do u think?

(Sorry for sending this heavy ask)

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No problem, Anon :) I'm always happy to help and give some advice.

One thing you have to remember when you're on your healing journey is that there will be setbacks. You will have moments where you feel like you've gone one step forward and three steps back. Healing is not linear though, and that's something I had to accept when I was on my journey too (and still face with even though I've gotten so far!)

I understand where your anxiety is coming from and it's a good thing you tried looking that stuff up to try and calm your mind. Of course it didn't have the results you wanted to see, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. It's kind of hard to gauge what's allowed or not when it comes to the internet because it's so easy to come across certain things, even by accident. I think if it's something you do on a continuous basis, then there'd be a problem. We've all broken a law one way or another, whether we're aware they're even laws to begin with. Jaywalking is usually illegal, but sooo many people do it. Sometimes I think that some of these laws are put in place so that when people do get caught doing something bad/illegal, they can tack on all the little offences too as a way to make a fine or sentencing worse. There's honestly just so much grey area with a lot of different laws. I don't think something you've done in the past will get you into serious trouble. Even if you were to say turn yourself into the police right now, they'd probably laugh. I don't think you should stop watching anime though, but just be mindful of the content that you are consuming.

If those things are still weighing heavy on your mind, see if you can contact someone in your local government who knows the law that can maybe help easer your mind. I do think you are overthinking and catastrophizing this situation a little too much, but I'm not dismissing or minimizing how you feel. I just want you to make sure you're recognizing how you're reacting to this situation so that you can focus on the things that you can control right now: how you think about the situation.

Your anxiety is definitely searching yourself with a fine tooth comb to come up with things to be anxious about. What you can do it recognize that this is happening and challenging those thoughts that come up. Remind that voice in your head that you've already made peace with this situation before and no amount of overthinking about it is going to change what happened. All you can control is the here and now and how you get to choose not to let these thoughts try to bring you down. See those thoughts come up to the surface, acknowledge them and how they make you feel, but don't entertain them.

idk what the correct response to this situation would be and is it even okay to just forget this and move on? would that even be okay? what do u think?

Yes, it would be okay to let go of these things from the past and move on. It's not worth wasting your energy and time on overthinking when you have so many other important things to focus on that's happening in your life right NOW. Don't get too hung up on the fact that it could be against a law. What happened happened and you didn't get caught. Now that you know better you can do better and that's where the focus should be. We all do things in our past that we may not be proud of, but it's part of our growth.

[baekhvuns]

From :- 🥀

Yo✌️

Ok dude I'm finally done with exams *a deep sigh of relief*...idrc about the results 😃

Anyways , im currently in my rom-com phase like you would not believe i watched straight 3 movies a day , it's big for me cuz i don't even sometimes hv the courage to watch a youtube video. But hey , 27 dresses , Business proposal and Legally blonde are just some other breeds.

Also , i finished watching modern family and I feel like I have no motive in my life 🕴️. It was legit the best show ever , istg.

And why is it that during my exam month the whole kpop industry had to go feral? ATEEZ member's hair colour changed , blackpink had a comeback after an eternity planned on my exam month (oh how lovely) , Nmixx and twice had a comeback , itzy's Japanese comeback , xiumin decided to come back LIKE WHAT GIVE ME A BREAK-

I have been obsessed over hard to love. Trust me rosé deserves a whole ass solo discography, like puhhleaseeee YG . Her voice legit heals me *runs away to listen to the song for 501736th time*

Your views on "dice" 🎙️

Oh also I've been writing a ff , ofc it's based on hwa 🌝. I usually wrote lots of stories before the whole miss Rona thing as well. But like i used to write on papers which was very tiring so during online school, i got a laptop and it has been pretty much my life. I never really had much interest in ffs until I read yours , that is . Because u fit my style so well , we must be soulmates 😖. (Is it weird to say i simp for the way u write?) One of my friends also started to write one of these ffs on Wattpad related to BTS and i was like wait why not i try and write one as well? It is one of the ideas that has been in my mind forevuhh and i had to be the one to implement it as well.

Id love to share it once it's finished. I mean it's always nice to hear constructive criticism.

Hmmmmmm what elsee??

Oh right , i shuffled through some of your asks cuz i was tryna find something and i realised you probably hv to go to aus. CUZ BESTIE SAME imma continue studies there , I'll go next year after finishing off this semester HOPEFULLY WE CAN MEET!!!

Now let's talk about a certain man called Park Seonghwa ,

He's too hot for this planet , i had no idea my wish of seeing him platinum would be taken seriously by the universe cuz i was on the verge of dying when i heard the news. BUT CAN WE APPRECIATE RED HAIRED WOO PLEASE???

*suddenly wondering why they're changing hair colours*

Wait- is it a comeback??? BUT THEY JUST RELEASED GUERRILLA - maybe a Japanese comeback hmmmmmm

I read this the other day if ily wasn't a word yeosang would say "you're my little happiness" 😭 *don't touch me I'm hypersensitive*

Also , Winona is joongie's crush huh???? Make this a kdrama pls!

Ok I've run out of things , remember to tc of yourselves, you got this bestie and keep on slaying.

Buh-bye 👋

hi!!

Ok dude I'm finally done with exams *a deep sigh of relief*...idrc about the results 😃 ///// Anyways , im currently in my rom-com phase like you would not believe i watched straight 3 movies a day , it's big for me cuz i don't even sometimes hv the courage to watch a youtube video. But hey , 27 dresses , Business proposal and Legally blonde are just some other breeds.

hope u did well!!! OH MY GOD AS U SHOULD PLS WATCH HOW TO LOE A GUY IN 10 DAYS AS WELL AS THE PROPOSAL, SHE'S THE MAN !!! ULT ROMCOM CLASSICS

Also , i finished watching modern family and I feel like I have no motive in my life 🕴️. It was legit the best show ever , istg.

omg that show goes on for forever

And why is it that during my exam month the whole kpop industry had to go feral? ATEEZ member's hair colour changed , blackpink had a comeback after an eternity planned on my exam month (oh how lovely) , Nmixx and twice had a comeback , itzy's Japanese comeback , xiumin decided to come back LIKE WHAT GIVE ME A BREAK-

LMFAOOOO I ASK THE SAME QUESTIONS,, like u idols dont got exams??? midterms to do why u on stage dancing like ur rent due??? ok bu tlike the second half of the comebacks always be slapping

I have been obsessed over hard to love. Trust me rosé deserves a whole ass solo discography, like puhhleaseeee YG . Her voice legit heals me *runs away to listen to the song for 501736th time*

omg i agree, its so nostalgic 2000's taylor type vibes and her voice >>> but yeah yeah yeah is absoulty amazing !!! need rose to drop her album with all the collabs i think u will like this 

Your views on "dice" 🎙️

none, absolutely nothing nice to say <3

Oh also I've been writing a ff , ofc it's based on hwa 🌝. I usually wrote lots of stories before the whole miss Rona thing as well. But like i used to write on papers which was very tiring so during online school, i got a laptop and it has been pretty much my life. I never really had much interest in ffs until I read yours , that is . Because u fit my style so well , we must be soulmates 😖. (Is it weird to say i simp for the way u write?) One of my friends also started to write one of these ffs on Wattpad related to BTS and i was like wait why not i try and write one as well? It is one of the ideas that has been in my mind forevuhh and i had to be the one to implement it as well.

OH?>? HWA FIC??? AYOO,, simp for my writing??i wish u saw my draft for yunho you'd wanna unFOLLOW DELETE BLOCK !!!! but tysm for saying that 😭😭😭😭 just hoping the new one doesn't disappoint <3 AAA U SHOULD DEF WRITE FICS SOMETIMES ITS A THERAPY OF SORTS! i hope we get to see some one day!

Id love to share it once it's finished. I mean it's always nice to hear constructive criticism.

ofc omg pls share new fics always

Oh right , i shuffled through some of your asks cuz i was tryna find something and i realised you probably hv to go to aus. CUZ BESTIE SAME imma continue studies there , I'll go next year after finishing off this semester HOPEFULLY WE CAN MEET!!!

aOH NO WAY UR STUDYING THERE??? as a biased canadian i think u should come here <3 AAA, HOPEFULLY WE DO!!!

Now let's talk about a certain man called Park Seonghwa ,

nO

He's too hot for this planet , i had no idea my wish of seeing him platinum would be taken seriously by the universe cuz i was on the verge of dying when i heard the news. BUT CAN WE APPRECIATE RED HAIRED WOO PLEASE???

i agree everything u said here, infact i ghost wrote this YES RED HAIRED MR WOOYOUNG HES A DIFF BREED ATM AND ID LIKE TO ADOPT

*suddenly wondering why they're changing hair colours* Wait- is it a comeback??? BUT THEY JUST RELEASED GUERRILLA - maybe a Japanese comeback hmmmmmm

apparently?? hongjoong said there is one??? but maybe just for concerts but they are being sus

I read this the other day if ily wasn't a word yeosang would say "you're my little happiness" 😭 *don't touch me I'm hypersensitive* ///// Also , Winona is joongie's crush huh???? Make this a kdrama pls!

90'S FASHION DESIGNER KIM HONGJOONH AU WHENN WHEN WHEN

Ok I've run out of things , remember to tc of yourselves, you got this bestie and keep on slaying.

you tooo!!!!! keep slaying miss slay <3

[crackshoting-arc]

SEMI-HIATUS NOTICE

/ / hey i know this is like super sudden but I’m going to have to place my blogs under a TEMPORARY Semi-Hiatus until April 10th.

Why?

3 reasons:

1, I have midterms and a billion art projects due over the next 2 weeks that i really need to sit down and focus on.

2, April 10th is currently set to be the day my college is holding it’s scholarship review board and I really need to get my ass in gear with my art to get stuff in order. 

3, I’m currently working on a story and NEED to finish the art for it asap. Once I get the character art done, I’ll finally be able to start posting and writing it.

I’ll still be here and active when I can, and ofc i’ll always be available on IM and discord, but don’t expect a lot of really lengthy threads from ANY of my blogs in the meantime.

Love y’all <3

[phdead]

6, 9, 13, 17, 20, 28, 32 😙, 43, 50, 53, 54 🤔, 57, 65, 70, 82 💪🍪, 91 ✨✨

👀 im a tad suspicious (ikid)(thankyouforthespam)(:3)

6. What are you excited for?man nothing recent that i can think of. i mean minus maybe the day midterms finish but even then it’s not like things get easier :/ soooooooo yeahim excited for feb :3

9. Is confidence cute?🤔 hmm i would say it can be 

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?probably my ethics essay :/ or studying for midterms :\ but it’s also Thanksgiving :// i’d rather just be watching smth with my boof :\

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?That’s You(points at capitalized letters)

20. Are you starting to realize anything?It feels like im always realizing dif things about myself

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?*scrolls through our messages* ah yesbatsman

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?things would be hella awks if they didnt 

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?ohman okay so i know i definitely have but now it’s just a question of when and how 🤔 welp i cant think of much (except trusting them with embarrassing stuff)

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?yes and i was terrible

53. Is Christmas stressful?i feel like it’s getting a bit more stressful now that it’s right after e x a m se as on but otherwise i try to get gifts done beforehand. then there’s gatherings you go to or host that you don’t want to show up for. but overall Christmas is the best

54. Ever eat a pierogi?imwhy is this here imcryingofc i have

57. Do you believe in ghosts?welp and here we have yet another example of things I dont think about so i dont actually know. i believe in spirits, but i dont think i believe in ghosts 

65. Nike or Adidas?nikes look p good on a certain someone 

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?I’ve always liked the idea of them having a job that would work different hours than i would. that way there’s always one of us with the kids (nothing specific tho) (maybe smth with children) 

82. Favorite type of cookie?ohman im going to be here for a whilei kinda wanna say super chewy chocolate chip cookies – OH WAIT those pillsbury cookies (i just reblogged them and i di e i love them but cant find them anywhere anymore)

91. Best room for a fireplace?every roomi want a fireplace in every roomthe house is the fireplaceima live among the flames(im kidding) (sorta) (i think fireplace in the bedroom would be Maximum Coze)

ask me to admit stuff

[catheudo]

best feeling in the world is after doing a shit ton of laundry and the entire basket of clothes that need to be washed is near/completely empty!!! but it does fade quickly bc then u see all the clothes that need to folded

i’ve been so motivated and productive lately, mostly bc the thoughts of moving out soon and having to get shit done have been keeping me going, plus my mom got really mad a couple weeks ago and guilt tripped the entire family into actually doing some shit around the house (tbh it was fair bc she’s so mistreated by my dad and bro, and even me sometimes, not gonna minimize my mistakes). ofc when this happens we all do a bunch of work for a while to make her happy and then fall back into our old habits but NOT THIS TIME ! not me at least im out here doin laundry and making tea and cooking and cleaning shit... back on my grind 👊 

anyways makes me feel gud about myself because im starting to think i’m not gonna be a complete failure when im living alone, plus i have some money saved up and im gonna make more next summer so i could probz move straight out right after uni! depends if i wanna get just a bachelors or a masters tho. and im still unsure if i wanna do environmental engineering or microbiology 🤔 guess i gotta see how my marks are during midterms. prrrobably engineering tho bc i think my physics/math/chem marks are gonna get better (i had a math test and chem quiz recently, plus physics quiz today and i think i did p good on all of them). i reaaallllyyyy want to go to waterloo tho so if i don’t get better ill kms (not serious but also...) anyway maybe ill minor in microbiology or smth if they have that

[iamnotaduckyet]

yo ok here i am being lame and making a master list of plots and faces and stuff!!! under the cut is who i wanna play and who i wanna play against and plots and all of that jazz. so! if u see a plot on here u wanna do or an fc u wanna play or that i wanna play that u wanna play against then like this and i will come to u!!

who i want to play 

ariana grande

harry styles

alisha boe

perrie edwards

josh dun

who i want to play against

deadass !! any 5sos boy. would b rad if i could play ariana against one

lauren j

leigh anne pinnock

normani kordei

zayn malik

avan jogia

idk?? anyone?? i am ... not picky on who i play against

plots i want!! none of these are mine .

OKAY UH MUSE A IS A PRINCESS AT DISNEYLAND AND MUSE B TAKES HIS LITTLE SISTER THERE FOR A BROTHER/SISTER DATE AND LIKE HIS LITTLE SISTER IS IN LOVEEEE WITH MUSE A’S PRINCESS CHARACTER SO SHE BEGS HIM TO TAKE HER AND HE’S LIKE YES OFC BECAUSE UR ADORABLE AND THEY GO AND HE SEES MUSE A AND IT’S LIKE SPARKS AND HE’S LIKE GODDAMN???? and his little sister instantly notices sth and like teases them which both of them deny and they leave but muse b and his little sister make a small bet over who’s gonna win the toy story mania game and ofc muse b loses so he has to go ask muse a out to dinner bYE

MUSE A, a single father that lost his wife a year ago, tries to go on several dates to find a new woman to share his life with. He hires MUSE B as a babysitter, a young student who needs money. Every nights when he comes back home, he tells her about how horrible his dates were and, one night, he realizes she’s the only woman he has appreciated since his wife died. (And they eventually ends up in bed, “oops I slept with the babysitter”.)

liSTEN … newly single mom who just moved to a new town after a nasty divorce & gaining custody of their 4 year old kid goes to meet their new kindergarten teacher cause idk thats the kinda shit that schools do & BAM!! she meets this amazingly adventurous, creative & good looking guy who looks too young to be a teacher so shes all “LOL wheres my kids real teach at” & he just smiles & sticks his hand out to shake like “yes hello dat me” … iM?? ? pls someone do this w/ me!! literally just shoot me a mssg ok?? first come first serve!

i just want a plot where muse a has been in this friends with benefits thing with muse b bc they both just wanted to lose their virginity already (they’ve been neighbours and fwb since they were sixteen) and now he became a manwhore. they are completely different at school (i thought of a bad boy/”good” girl kinda thing) BUT when muse a says she wants it to stop bc she wants to try to have a real relationship with someone else, muse b realises he doesn’t want it to end bc he rlly likes her ??? and hes still such a dick but he starts to give her more attention at school to try to manipulate her to stay bc she’s the realest thing he’s ever had and he just doesn’t know how to stop the whole bad boy persona !! GIVE IT TO ME PLS

muse a is a new single father, a teenager at that living in an apartment complex with his newborn. it’s one of those apartment complexes in new york city, where everyone kind of keeps to themselves. muse b lives on his floor and has heard this newborn baby crying at ungodly hours, distracting her from her cramming for midterms. she had complained to the landlord about it and one night, she hears the baby crying again. stepping outside in a fit of rage, muse b is about to yell at whoever is the parent to this bastard child until she spots muse a, pacing the hallway with the child in his arms, his hair disheveled and his eyes giving away the sleep he’s been lacking. she feels sympathy instantly; she had no idea muse a lived on her floor, much less was he the father of this child. so, at 3 in the morning, muse b offers to help muse a get the baby back to sleep. and muse b becomes some sort of baby whisperer to muse a, and he continues to go to her for help and they start to dig each other and this is just so cute please

okay but plot where muse a is in a band that’s making it big with a bunch of sold out tours and muse b is pretty much just their solo opening act and even though they don’t interact much at first once they’re on the road they somehow start hanging out more and they just click and everyone seems to know what’s going on and they flirt on twitter and take cute pictures for instagram and muse a brings muse b out on stage a lot during the show and the rest of the band TOTALLY KNOWS WHAT’S UP and mercilessly teases muse a and muse a denies it so one of the other band members is like “alright well if you don’t want him/her then i’m going for him/her” and basically that starts up a bunch of drama and jealousy and shipping wars between the fans and just give me that first angry make out session that “doesn’t mean anything” that lead to suggestive things onstage and hookups backstage and give me the fluff and angst and smut and yaaaaas please

i want the “hey you’re my best friend’s little sister, but at one point you got really hot” au except he’s the innocent virgin, and she’s the experienced one seducing him.

tbh i just need a long distance relationship plot where they cry on skype bc they miss each other so much and they have passive aggressive texts bc of what’s on each others snapchat stories but then the fluffy moments when they see each other at the airport and all the desperate please don’t leave me again sex and i just need a long distance plot 

ok but a plot where character a and character b dated for a very short amount of time but it was serious and passionate very quickly then one day character a just ghosted him. she stopped calling, stopped texting, her phone number was disconnected. several years go by and he’s pretty much forgotten about him until one day character a shows up at character b’s apartment and tells him she’s gotten into some pretty bad situations since they last saw each other, faked her own death and needs his help hiding 

give me the hollywood ‘it’ couple who’s sex tape was just leaked … she’s a wholesome disney / nickelodeon alumni trying to make a break into grown up media and he’s an oscar / grammy winner known for edgy work.

i kinda wanna do a classic soulmates plot where like when you turn 21 your soulmates name is tattooed on your chest etc. (you know the deal) but like i don’t wanna know your character’s fc, gender, personality until we exchange accounts, i don’t wanna know if our muses would get along, i just want them to meet one day knowing only that they have each other’s names tattooed on their chests and that’s it. who knows if they’ll fall in love or end up hating each other? Cuz I’m fine with both outcomes tbh.

whispers but i would love a cliche poly plot where like two best friends are in love with the same girl but instead of fighting over her they share her but of course there is small competitions in bed seeing who can make her cum faster and !!!! and omg like her settling them both down like ‘boys please you are both my prince charmings’ and ‘i wouldn’t be the same without the other’ BUT maybe also they both the best friends start having sex with her just the two of them and lots of jealousy and fighting and pLS

au where the fuckboy wants to get with the most innocent (and sassy) girl in town but she hates his guts and one day his tricks start to work and they start aggressively making out and she gives in and has sex with him and then wakes up the next morning and he’s not there so she’s mentally scolding herself but then he comes back with breakfast (and he’s never done that for a girl) and he’s actually starting to fall for her idfk but wow that sounds cute

THAT BOY WHO SITS NEXT TO YOU IN ENGLISH CLASS THAT ALWAYS SHOWS UP LATE BUT BRINGS YOU A COFFEE IN EXCHANGE FOR LETTING HIM COPY YOUR NOTES

give me a plot where muse a is dying to have a baby/get pregnant to the point where she is stressing out because she thinks her biological clock is really ticking even though she’s in her 20s. so her friend has been setting her up on blind dates to try and help her find a guy but on the first date the first thing she asks is if they want kids and it scares them away. so muse a’s friend sets her up on a blind date with their brother which is super awkward to think about. and when muse a asks about kids muse b seems neutral about it and doesn’t run away and muse a is taken aback by it. and he sorta just… agrees to help her have a baby. so they wind up sleeping together a bunch of times in hopes of getting pregnant and muse b told muse a they are only in it for the kid they don’t want to complicate things. but then muse a starts getting a baby bump and they start buying little baby shoes together and they go to ultrasound appointments and the more muse b falls in love with his baby he falls in love with its mommy too and ): 

you’re lying to yourself if you don’t want a “i’m your older brother’s best friend” plot

idk . smth with teacher/student,,,, i love it a lot (well? college student and professor ...)

[khiphop-discussions]

Hii just saw your post aboit tech/ kinda online learning

online distance for me wss traumtic because 1. i felt like my teachers didn't put in the same amount of effort. every other week they just stuck on someone retired professional to talk (they always got sidetracked in all) and never said jack shit about assignments no content about that. (so you can imagine how that went) 2. I couldn’t create a working envrionment from home at all no matter what. 3. it fucked with any routine and stability i had (ofc i supposed i helped with that but yh aha) 4. many more things i can't think of atm

I understand where you're coming from, tech isn't all that bad but i think it was the things that inadvertently came with online learning that made it a traumatic experience for people yk?

Not that im arguing or disagreeing with you, just sharing my thoughts/feelingd with you if that's okay!

Oh no, that's fine! I'm glad to read your input!

For me personally, I felt like my professors put in the same effort and kept the same amount of rigor (honestly, that was a bit to my chagrin. Can't lie. One of my teachers threw EVERY assignment she could at us group project, research paper, presentation, AND 2 exams). But I've heard A LOT of people say their teachers weren't on their A game.

Based on the conversations with around 21 teachers I heard today, they thought it was traumatic to have to teach to "boxes" (what you see when students won't turn their cameras on) cause you can't realy connect. But also, they had to hear all of their students' issues (siblings/family and others dying, as well as other things) and there's studies that say Teachers get traumatized from hearing/being around their students who are going through a trauma (teachers were literally CRYING today during the workshop during this conversations). So I'm guessing a lot of them had burnout as well as dealing with depression and their own personal struggles on TOP of dealing with many of their students going through things and them naturally feeling bad because they care about them.

As far as #2 I also had trouble creating a good learning environment. I literally took one of my midterms when my parents were in the middle of an argument about something really stupid (If i can recall, it was about which TILE they were gonna get in the bathroom *facepalm* LOL). Needless to say, I didn't do well on that midterm.

For #3 (routine), I had a MUCH easier time during the Fall 2020. I had a workout schedule and just a school schedule without much else to do. But when 2021 came, it was hard to do that just because of how many classes I had and how many assignments (which were pretty rigourous) were being thrown at me.

For me, I'm just REALLY used to working remotely. I've been doing it since junior year of high school, did it in my first 2 years of college on some occasions, and also I've worked multiple remote jobs. So the transition just wasn't hard for me. But imagine it must've been REALLY hard for people to just have to make the switch literally overnight when they just have no concept of working remotely and have never done it. (again, goes back to "tech as a tool vs tech as toy", yeah many people use it for e-mails, research, and to write papers but I feel like for most people the VAST majority of the time they spend using tech is for entertainment purposes more than as a "true" tool). Then there's the fact that some people's equipment wasn't really up to par for doing EVERYTHING online. I'm sure many people's screentime DOUBLE cause now they have to do EVERYTHING online and couldn't really interact IRL with people due to the quarantine. That much screen time just ISN'T good, period. Nobody should be in front of the screen that much (NOTE: We still have no clue what so much screen time does to people. These concerns were being raised PRE-covid just with regards to social media and smart phones.)

But yeah, anyway, thanks for responding and giving your experience! It was an interesting perspective.