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Danny, the Young Justice member snippet nr 2
these snippets aren't connected in anyway but just some little scenes I came up with, everyone is welcome to build up on them if they want to
Trigger warning: death mentioned, self-harm mentioned, idk, Danny gets flashback to portal incident
unrelated snippet nr 1, unrelated snippet nr 3 (?)
Out, out, out.
He tripped over his own legs and almost fell and it didn’t matter because he needed to get out.
Away, away, away.
He wasn’t sure if he ran or flew or dragged himself on the rough floor but he had to get away. His back hit a wall and he couldn’t get past it, intangibility just out of his grasp.
He logically knew that Zeta Tube wasn't the same as the portal but it was similar. So deadly similar.
He wasn’t sure when his own, corps-like, trembling with rigor mortis cold hands started rubbing his arms. He also wasn’t sure whether it was to comfort himself in this lonely self-hug or to try to rub hard enough that the hazmat and skin underneath would be torn, allowing him to see his own, red blood running in his veins. It was still red, right? It was still red, right? Of course it was still running, why wouldn’t it?
His knees gave up. He fell to the ground with quiet reverbatting thump, his eyes fixated on danger at the other side of the large room. He had to get further away but he couldn’t.
Because he was dying again.
Eyes full of tears and terror were jumping around, unable to see the room around him. Why couldn’t he see anything? Why were there only splashes of various colors, all contrasting with a light gray background. Were these people? Colors were moving, that seemed likely. Ghosts?! He had to get ready if these were ghosts he needed to fight them. People could be in danger and he couldn’t even stand without support. He started it, he had to take care of it, no matter how he felt right now.
His normally overly, unnaturally sensitive ears were filled with constant electric buzz from still active Zeta Tubes.
He was quite sure someone was yelling something but no matter what, Danny couldn’t understand what was being said. He tried looking around again but his teary eyes still failed him. There were no red stains though. Not in the right shade at least. No one was bleeding. It was okay for now.
Was it really? He hadn’t bled when he was dying had his accident though. It was all inside him, the crushing hollowness inside him and infinite outside pressure making his body implode. Ectoplasm bubbling in his mouth, throat, stomach and fingers, silencing his scream of agony and destroying his muscles. His limbs were limp and tense, twitching like a broken light bulb, out of his control but not out of his senses. It was so cold that it bit his bones and so hot that his skin was melting. There were screams so loud that it could shatter glass, as if every inhabitant of the Ghost Zone wanted to be heard and absolute suffocating silence. He was alone like nobody ever was and stuck in a stifling crowd that could stomp him to death any second. It was all contrasting, impossible but happening, existing together. He lived died it.
It was impossible, just like him.
There were others, they could help while Danny got himself together.
They couldn’t help if it was a ghost. He had to calm down and get ready to fight.
He couldn’t.
It was all happening again.
He was dying again.
It hurt to even think about.
Would it at least kill him for good?
Air he hadn’t needed before, not since his first death he always needed, like all functioning, alive human beings, got stuck in his lungs. He was gasping for it, choking on it. There was something stuck in his throat. SOme part of his brain that wasn’t screaming in agony and panic and loneliness had considered tearing his neck open just to get whatever was stuck swallowing but it didn’t help.
He rubbed his arms harder. His eyes were locked on a blurred, still active portal. One of the color blobs moved, growing larger but he couldn’t think about what it meant. His arms hurt. It was good. Pain was grounding. In a gray room with few portals. Not the basement. Ghosts still could be there but it wasn't a basement. He still needed to get ready to fight
If he could feel pain, it meant he was alive, right? Ghosts never showed that they felt pain right? His parents always said they couldn’t.
He knew it was a lie but he felt like it was his last hope.
He realized that growing group of colors actually looked like a person but he had no way to tell whether they were alive or not. His ghost sense was quiet but he didn’t trust himself to not miss it. His throat was still shut tightly. His body kept twitching like a glitching character. No matter what, he couldn’t fight right then. He had to get himself together.
He scratched his arms almost violently.
Warm, soft, gentle hands pried his palms away from his arms. It wasn't a ghost. Ghosts weren't this gentle, this calmingly warm. Someone, someone who was alive, was crouching in front of him, face at the same level as his, hiding portals from his sight. Danny nearly sunk into their gentle touch.
“-om." their voice also was so gentle, filled with concern but firm enough to get to him over the buzz of portals. He tried to concentrate on this voice. He didn't want to hear portals.
"-ntom." It sounded like they were calling someone. He had to focus more to understand. Gentle grip on his wrists got more firm. There he was. He wouldn't feel it if he was dying again.
"Phantom." They called quietly, like little windbells Sam gave him as a birthday present. It was his name, they were asking him something he couldn't understand, something he couldn't do.
"I'm sorry."
He wasn't sure if any sound came out of his mouth.
Grip on his hands loosened a little, not enough for him to do anything about it, but enough to return to the pure feeling of safety and reassurance it gave him before.
“It's okay Phantom." they murmured. Danny nearly cried at their kindness and calmness. Air slowly started to fill his lungs again. It truly was okay, he wasn't dying again."Can you focus on five things you can see for me?"
He could do it. It wasn't much to repay the gentle person kneeling in front of him.
He blinked tears away and started the list in his head.
Black Canary in front of him.
Superboy in the middle of the room. He looked like he didn't know what to do.
Kid Flash next to him, ready to come to where Danny was shaking on the floor.
Robin and Artemis both made sure that Kid stayed where he was.
Miss Martian for sure feeling his panic and having trouble coping with this. He should calm down as soon as he can, he didn't want to cause any of his teammates too much stress.
Danny nodded, looking once again at the only adult hero in the room.
Molecules in his body were rearranging again. It all hurt.
"Thank you Phantom. Can you focus on four things you can hear?"
Five racing heartbeats.
One heartbeat that sounded more like buzz because of its speed. KF's heart was always weird.
Tapping of someone's feet.
Zeta Tubes.
He had been in the portal again, it had turned on with him inside again. He was dying again.
Next cautious nod.
"Alright. Now three things you can touch." Black Canary still sounded so calm, so sure she had it all under control. So contrary to her panicked heart. Danny wanted to believe her voice.
Canary's hands still on his wrists. In fact she was touching him more than he was her, but it still counted. There was some physics rule about it.
Cold stone he was sitting on. Weird, he was sure this cave was heated.
Hard wall pressing on his spine.
"Excellent. Two things you can smell?"
Jazz had done same exercise with him before.
Cookies made by Megan before she went on a mission.
Ectoplasm. Somewhere there was ectoplasm that wasn't inside him. He couldn't smell his own ecto. But there was no ghost in the cave. His sense was silent. It was there somehow else. It was concerning but not enough to make him panic again. They could handle it.
His lungs were still aching but air started filling them nearly as much as it did normally. His limbs stopped shaking so much too. He knew he wasn't dying this time. He was calming down.
"You're doing great Phantom. Now think, what's one thing you can taste?"
Aftertaste of ectoplasm he spat between the rough fight and the moment when Kid Flash rushed him to the nearest Zeta Tube, talking about medical attention. Danny tried to tell him, he didn't need that but he was inside before his explanation left his mouth.
"Do you feel better now?"
"Yeah," It was all he was able to say at the moment. He truly felt better but that didn't mean good. It was only a little less bad than shitty, one step from fully dead.
I considered writing continuation with Danny explaining a bit what happened and how he even ended up in Zeta Tube but a) lost spark to rewrite it b) hated what already had But if you want, I can probably rub my remaining two braincels together and continue. Or someone else can. Do it if you want to. Do it. Do it
#dp x yj#dpxyj#dp x dc#dpxdc#dcxdp#dc x dp#once again Danny didn't even consider telling his team that he is halfa#but it doesn't matter this as much I think#once again I have no idea about the timeline#I think Danny would hate Zetas because it reminds him too much of the portal incident#and before anyone comes at me saying that Danny used portal later in the show and had no problems with it#*yeah* but after first time portal worked like overglorified door/corridor hybrid and not tear him apart and build up again#Judging by the way Zeta travel is animated#i assume they work on the “destroy your current body remake it where you won't to go” basis or something similar#you can see how Danny would be uneasy with it#btw this is one of my main headcanons I can and will always use unless story demands something eles#but even then I'm not above looking into every other way to achieve plot without use of Zeta or make at least mention that he is shaken aft#anyway#have a nice day dear stranger who got to this part
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So I finished watching Ultraman Rising a few hours ago and....
Waaaaaaaah- WHY IS KENJI AND EMI SO FUCKING CUTE?!
Emi photo comes from a post by @mintaikcorpse
Man, I'm a sucker for babies... and baby Kaijus? Oh man...
@magic-thing BloodFox would be definitely be besties with this little cutie...
#Kaiju#Ultraman Rising#Emi Sato#I never really seen any Ultraman content before out of the TikTok and Youtube clips#And this movie was a REALLLY GOOD First experience#*I'm currently mentally hugging this bean in tears of cuteness*#GIGATRON WAS FUCKING STUNNING GAAH *MWAH* YESS QUEENNNN#Kenji though... He's hot... ngl... I can see it.#BloodFox would definitely love to annoy the hell of Kenji as Ultraman
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new corrupt zelda model sheet yahoo
#back on my corrupt zelda bullshit#it's been a year but fuck it i'm getting back on that horse#it's all thanks to my sideblog but that's not what we're talking about rn#i'll post a sneak peek of something else im working on currently *eye emoji*#zelda#loz#corrupt zelda#legend of zelda#botw#totk#my art#breath of the wild#tears of the kingdom#illustration#character design#art on tumblr#artists on tumblr#all those good tags#damn it's been so long i've forgotten all of them ToT#i just realised the more i draw her like this the sharper her ears get LMAO
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I don't make the rules but - if you don't get excited at the thought of going back and re-reading the story you wrote then you're writing the wrong story.
You are your first and most important reader.
#the way I got into my bed one night and was awake and anxious at 2 AM and decided to open my story on my phone and read it from ch 1#I was having a blast and didn't want to tear myself away to go to sleep#also been daydreaming about the scenes in this chapter I'm currently writing that may or may not make its way into the actual story#but every day or so I begrudgingly write a few hundred words to get it on paper#and I go back and reread it voraciously until I get to the point where I left off and am like WHERE IS THE REST#so yeah#what is the point of putting words to paper if not to finally indulge in the pleasure of reading and enjoying the scenes we daydream about?
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I keep seeing people bring up the whole "I really loved you" and "I really did like you" parallel, and yes, I guess, there are some similarities...but at the heart of it, Martin gave himself up because he loved Jon more than he loved himself, and the idea of probably dying even comforted him if it meant that the one he loved was safe.
Celia manipulates Sam in order to sacrifice him. I'm not saying she doesn't hold affection for him, but the affection is not worth as much as her ultimate goal. The only thing she remembers of her original world is eternal, all encompassing fear and terror, to be stripped of your humanity, to exist only to feed the Eldritch forces that torture her. That's where she thinks she's sending Sam. She's (to her knowledge) condemning him to a sentence worse than death.
Now, I'm not a parent and I don't want to invalidate any parental feelings or instincts or heavy decisions parents make to protect their child. That's not something I can judge nor am I willing to do so. In fact, I love that Celia did what she did the way I love that Gwen did what she did. I love flawed characters and I love ruthless characters. Ultimately, Celia is sure that her choice is the right one. And if she is willing to sacrifice Sam for her and Jack's safety, then she can't have "liked" him all that much.
One more thing before I stop ranting about it, but I think Celia used Sam the way Elias used Jon. He was easy to manipulate. Because we all know Sasha was more qualified for the job. But it's hard to manipulate someone who knows what they want and who is actively working towards that goal. Elias manipulates Jon so easily because that man has never had someone validate him and what he does and feels. Celia manipulates him easily because he wants someone to believe him about his childhood traumatic experience. He wants a kindred spirit, someone to take him seriously, and Celia seems to be that for him.
So yeah. Slay, Celia, but also big reg flag, luv (for anyone who wants to date her. If you're her kid, congrats, your mom is ruthless and cold as ice when it comes to not leaving you alone...we still don't know the story behind Jack, do we?)
#tmagp#tmagp spoilers#tmagp 30#sam khalid#celia ripley#jmart#lol I just remembered that I went “ripley like the fictional manipulative criminal?”#guess I was right#gnu rambles#this is not a fully fledged analysis btw I don't have time for that currently#but maybe I will have one day who knows#After all I'm studying two languages including their literature for a reason#and the reason is to dissect literature that tears my heart out and stomps it
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based off of @penofwildfire's idea of nya cutting her hair after kai got sacrificed, this is pretty much a pt.2 of this piece!
#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#ninjago nya#dragons rising spoilers#ninjago spoilers#nya smith#ninjago fanart#levi's art#my art#pen tag#kai and nya's expressions in both pieces are the same#even the tears are placed the same too#if you place both drawings side by side nya is looking down at kai and kai is looking up at her#which was actually completely unintentional LMAO I didn't even notice 😭#also can you tell I'm currently lazy af to render anything hdhdhsjs#I used only one brush for this 😭
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swings!
Ai has many layers to her... she seems carefree and jolly but she's really thoughtful with some insecurities. I personally feel her greatest characteristic is determination and perseverance and that wraps everything she has together as a person I really wish I could depict that part of her well when I portray her..
#hikaai#hikaru kamiki#ai hoshino#oshi no ko#oshi no ko spoilers#yeah;; really hope I could still draw them even after how the finale turns out to be o<-< my HEAD HURTS thinking about them#doodle#spoilers#they better wrap this whole thing well#I'm crying.. I have like 5 ideas.. I wish I can draw faster...my hands won't move and;#my current artstyle is built upon my tears to convey things in the way I want as fast as I can before the ideas leave me
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“Because I am no prince! My name is Princess Amira... And I have a grappling hook.”
― Katie O'Neill, Princess Princess Ever After
#Princess Princess Ever After#Katie O'Neill#books#comics#current reading#book photography#Not out of void but out of chaos#I'm so close to finishing Harrow the Ninth and I'm distracting myself from current tears with a hopefully lighthearted comic
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I am filled with HATE and SORROW y'all know how like Nurm is my favourite character my number 1 guy out of any piexe of media ever I love him dearly which sucks cause he's pretty unpopular but whatever whatever. N I'm like "man I really want to see some new Nurm content but everything I find I've either seen before or I created ☹️" and then I. I go on tiktok and I KEEP seeing edits that start with a clip with Nurm in them and then haha surprise it's actually a Petra edit!! Cause it's ALWAYS PETRA GOD DAMN IT and I love her. I love Petra so much. She is a fabulous character but ohm y god I am tweaking. I genuinely started crying y'all I am not sane nor normal. I'm so normal about him. Oh my good god I am going insane I am 💥💥💥💥
#I envy people who's favourite characters are like. Lukas or Petra or Jesse. Y'all don't know how good you have it#At least I can confidently say I'm one of Nurm's biggest fans. You guys can't say that without a fight breaking out aha ha#HRGAHSBSJSJSNNSN#Actually losing it#Scampering about#Ignore this I'm just#ARG 💥💥💥💥#No cause I saw a post that was super funny but the screenshot used had like. Nurm's left leg in the foregriund and I started tearing up#My period is coming I can sense it there's no other explanation for this madness#Is somebody gonna match my freak? (Going genuinely feral for a guy with like 2 fans)#I don't know the term for this attachment. Cause it's not a normal person thing I'm 90% sure it's the autism#But I don't know enough about villagers to consider this a special interest and it's too long to be a hyper fixation#(even though I am very fixated and it is tearing me up inside)#This is why I tweak so bad in the tags of Nurm art sometimes I genuinely start crying g and scratching my phone like a rabbit animal#Rabid not rabbit.#minecraft story mode#mcsm#mcsm nurm#nurm mcsm#There are no emojis nor words that accurately depict my current state#I'm normal I'm normal I swear please I'm normal
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Comes out of the technical difficulties covered in blood. Look At Them.
#fire emblem#feh#i'm gonna burst into tears. they are SO CUTES SO DARLING SO EVERYTHING. TO ME‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️#man seeing them side by side really does make me appreciate their designs though like....#it's about the contrast. the way they're complimentary colors. the way alfonse still has a little blonde#and the touch of pink!!!! on sharena!! really compliments alfonse's primary dark blue.#i esp like it when the official artists draw sharena's bangs swept to the opposite side as alfonse's...#sharena's bangs do go back and forth i've noticed but i think it's soooo good. when they're mirrored like that#i just wanna squish both of their cheeks........ i just wanna squeeze them......#they are both SO. SO DEAR TO ME.#oough also that second alfonse could be an adorable icon.... but i am soooo emotionally attached to my current icon LMFAOO#maybe i'll think about it....#fe alfonse#sharena#day in the life
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✨Surprise! ✨
I'm launching a new story for my dark cream ship kids and co ^^
I usually don't warn before the first part is done but I thought Mimosa's birthday was a good day to announce it!
A Tear's Soul!
I already showed that drawing (hehe it's the cover) but now I can talk about it ;3
The project is gonna a mix of comics and writings (because I'd burn myself out trying to do full comic when I'm not very experienced in those... They're hard, ok?)
Sooo it's gonna take me a while........................
Even if I try to shorten it as much as possible (10 parts unless problems)
I think the ones who'd be interested all know how my projects usually go, it's not gonna be a cute, fluffy story uwu. It'll have some fluff tho promise, but angst is part of the journey here! I'll give warnings each time I feel it's necessary :P
So!
If it interests you and you wish to be tagged on it, tell me now and you'll be tagged in each update :D
[I had to compress that gif, it was too big XD]
#me doing artz#minz gif#that gif took me so long honestly#A Tear's Soul#Mimosa#for once I'll write that story in the present timeline#dark cream ship kid#me yelling surprise as if I didn't know it's gonna interest only max a handful of persons#still for them#I hope I won't take too long to finish it tho#currently drawing the first comic: I want to set the whole background concept on fire#oh also I'm not full coloring#just a solid color with some stuff colored if important#and I'm not trying to get something perfect out#otherwise I would not succeed#so don't expect something beautiful?
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Mario watching his and Luigi's commercial in Punch-Out Pizzeria
#mario movie#mario movie spoilers#mario and luigi#super mario bros#super mario bros movie#super mario bros movie spoilers#cherrysip edits#if you got notifications about gifs from this set yesterday shhhhhhh i was having PROBLEMS#anyway i'm currently working on a gifset for the whole scene of mario getting back up in the pizzeria but then I HAD THIS IDEA#and i was like 'wow that sounds like a comparison that's going to cause me emotional pain' and i was right it absolutely did :) :) :)#[gesturing wildly to gifs while tears stream down my face] U DON'T UNDERSTAND MARIO IS IN THE EXACT SAME PLACE BOTH TIMES#the first time he's nervous but also SO excited and happy about what the future is gonna bring and seeing this commercial is#the culmination of everything he and luigi have been striving for and they're holding each other tight and the world feels wide open#and the second time everything is different. mario has been beaten down. he is terrified and aching and exhausted and convinced#that everyone has been right about him. he's a joke. he's a failure. the only thing he's ever done for his brother is drag him down.#but then he sees the commercial and everything comes back. the joy and the excitement and him and luigi against the world#the only difference is that he doesn't have his brother next to him and that's everything. mario doesn't feel whole otherwise#mario always does his best but when he and luigi are together working in sync he truly feels like anything is possible#and now his brother is out there somewhere in the chaos and bowser isn't gonna stop. he's gotta get up again. he does get up again.#IT'S A LOT BASICALLY. IT'S A WHOLE LOT AND I LOVE THEM DEARLY
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last week someone accused me of being "a dog with a high prey drive," which i think was meant as a playful no-barbs-meant criticism of how i can be uhhh a little unrelenting when it comes to certain topics i am passionate about, but mostly i can't stop thinking about hot i found that. troubling, perhaps.
#specifically we were talking a mix of how i'm bullying my workplace into spending $28k on hvac repairs and also#about how little tolerance i have for a very specific type of right-leaning modern parents#and how things are going in my current relationship#and how i am going to tear into these things with my fucking teeth#jj stuff#adding it to my insult collection <3
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This edit
THIS MF EDIT
I am currently screaming, crying hysterically!
How can you do something like this like GOD HELP ME
#bethyl#beth and daryl#daryl dixon#beth greene#the walking dead#currently tearing my hair out#i'm so done with my feelings#no but like seriously how can someone let something like this go#it's making me crazy#i can't explain how my heart is feeling
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hello everyone PLEASE think about the concept art for fabby's workshop with me please
#ieytd#the fabricator#i expect you to die#sorry i'm still losing my mind about this i've been thinking about this for several days straight thsi is tearing me UPP#its SO CUTE??#yarns and threads with the little tomato needle holder#her little experiments with PRESUMABLY live (and poisoned) animals(?) inside#her grenegg chandelier#THE ZEECEE MUSIC BOX 💕💕💕 that- considering the key up above her desk- you were supposed to open yourself at one point#the fact that the zorb was going to be THE thing to shut off her security systems. do you feel safe having them protect you sweetheart? mm?#you should really check out the link it's so much fun it's really interesting#+ them talking about 'building the personality of the (currently unreleased) character THROUGH the decal of the room'. god. they SO knew.#i'm striving for a job i can love as much as she loves her's dude
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I'm sorry, but I just...
I think these are, unironically, the best fucking things I have ever drawn. I can't stop fucking laughing XD
#sally face#sally face fanart#sal fisher#ashley campbell#larry johnson#I am in fucking TEARS#genuinely#this is the best thing I have ever worked on holy shit#tag yourself#I'm Ash#also#that sal would make such a good fucking pfp#but i'm too attached to my current one to change it#my art
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