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It should be canon that debit card would come to parties he didn't get invited from because of grenade
Since grenade is likeable UNLIKE DEBIT CARD
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#some of you wouldnt be surprised to know that i am BORING at parties i would dtay behind in arcades with children and talk about VIRUSES.#also anon are you okay for thinking grenade is likable????? how is grenade likable dude I HATE GRENADE I HATE AJDJRJF I HATE THEM -⚡️#/confession#/grenade/pos#< that tag scares me#/debit card/neg#< this one too
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depression levels: wanting to play sdv or house flipper 2. bad, but not "replaying the entire mass effect trilogy" bad at least.
#*dykeposting#negative#delete later#😩✌️#i want hf2 so bad#but literally have zero money esp bc i've been too anxious to actually activate my new debit card after The Incident aifeoja#why are the tasks of life endless#i still can't believe some asshole stole literally the last $80 to my name 😭😭😭 through an ama/zon account i hadn't touched in five years
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God I hate money and banks and digital transactions
#if i use my debit card just TAKE THE MONEY OUT#why does it beed to be pending for a day#and at the wrong amount#i fucked up i thought i had a certain amount of money left#well turns out the gas station i got gas from earlier didnt charge me the amount i paid#but instead has a pending test charge of one dollar#so i have 30 less than what it says because they havent actually charged my card yet#but i just paid all the rest of my money to rent so im gonna have to figure something out so i wont be in the negatives when that goes thru#thankfully it takes a few days but like#i cant fix this until at least saturday morning and its STRESSING ME OUT
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can anyone spare like $5 . so I can pay the grocery delivery people (can’t with foodstamps) thank you so much
I’m a 24 year old trans man with a spinal cord injury, 11 metal vertebrae (soon to be 12) and endometriosis, lymphocytic colitis and bipolar disorder. I’ve been waiting for 2.5 years to get on SSDI and sometimes I need help paying for things like the bus and groceries and medical bills 🖤 I am in a lot of debt from this process even tho I’m on foodstamps and owe my life to my tumblr friends and mutuals for helping me along the way 🥰🤧 thank you so much 🖤 happy new years 🎉
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*SLAMS DEBIT CARD WITH A NEGATIVE BALANCE ON IT* 💥💳💥💳💥💳💥💳💥 MOR COLD LIEUTENANTS PEASE
OKOK SORRY 🙏🙏🙏
this is what they look like to me sorry (Ned is a porcupine)
#sorry probably not what you wanted#but i really needed an excuse to post the erebus boys#James fairholme#and#henry le vesconte#and also jirving with angel wings dont ask why it just writes itself#ignore the tanktop he is wearing i didnt know what to give him#ty#my art#Solomon Tozer#george hodgson#I literally forgot he is there too#please dont ask why tozer is freaky i dont know the answer#he's a dog#also idk what fairholme looks like there is literally like two pictures of him total#the terror#john irving#edward little#angel au
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It is festive season in South Asia, and women are some of the most overworked among all social groups.
Suddenly, it is not just you, your partner/parents/siblings anymore - it is the entire extended clan, khandaan, their nosy relatives even with several degrees of separation.
The bulk of festive burden falls on women. From the cooking, an extensive menu that comprises unhealthy food which will not be fully consumed because everyone is diabetic or dieting, and the heartbroken woman has to finish what she painstakingly prepared or watch it go to the trash, to endless decor needs, shopping and gifting the extended family (a fine art which, god forbid you gift one relative something and another differently, tempers erupt) not to mention your own professional deadlines because your boss wants everything early so he can justify the 3-4-5 fay holidays.
Then comes the dieting because you KNOW you will be judged for your appearance, the clothing choices, the exhaustion of dealing with nasty relatives and the politics.
And if you're queer, in the closet or struggling or even simply wanting to be single or avoid marriage, suddenly your life is everyone's business, and this endless social nightmare, the bullying and the ostracism is the opposite of divine, it is debasing. God forbid if you are part of an inter-caste or inter-faith coupling, the negativity is worse.
Here are a few tips on how you can take care of yourself during this season.
You've gotta put yourself first. You cannot fight multiple battles on multiple fronts if you cannot take care of yourself first. FEED YOURSELF FIRST.
Look in the mirror ' and tell yourself - this festive season I am celebrating ME - I will feed myself first. You cannot fight big battles on an empty tank.
1. Food: eat before everyone else - get in the kitchen, make yourself something healthy in half an hour, cut a salad, a bunch of fruits and eat first. Cut up a few veggies at night, put it in a tiffin box and leave it in the fridge. When everyone is snoozing, have that. They will balance out all the junk that will go into your stomach. Don't start any ridiculous fast that will drain you. Get a doctor's note if you are being pressured and say - sorry maa ji. Health reasons I have to be careful.
2. Get a pre-festival health checkup. Go to the doctor and get your stats checked. Some labs offer full-body general health checkups at discounted rates. Grab a package and finish it. When you know where you are struggling, yiu can avoid making it worse.
3. Protect your money. Festive seasons have a pile of insidious stupid expenses that pile up and guess who pays ? The woman, the wife, the daughter in law. Do you think your Husband or inlaws will shell money out for that cute decor and diya set? No way. If you hold them accountable, they will probably give some money for all the gifts relatives give. Remove your credit cards and debit cards from online shopping sites. Pretend something is wrong with your card and it got blocked. Make your husband or In-laws pay instead.
So get realistic, set up a budget and empty your bank account into an FD. Congratulations, you only have a SMALL amount of money left for decorations - use that to get inventive and clever. Pull out old newspapers, and get into wealth-from-waste mode.
If you are even smarter, you will quietly set up an alternative savings account WITHOUT a debit card or credit card and squirrel away your Dussehra - Diwali bonus into it. If your husband asks, "Sorry yar, iss bar company mein bonus nahi de rahe hain, kaafi projects mein behind hue and they arent doing that well"
If you are still living with your parents make it a point to save every money gift you get. Take the cash, hide it safely and don't touch it. First opportunity - put it in the bank account (your own, not a shared one)
4. Secure your Jewelry. A pot of desi women are given gold and precipus jewelry during their marriage but this is often sneakily taken away by your mother in law in order to "safeguard it". It is usually in the bank or a locker you do not have access to.
So, this festive season, go FULL on TRADITIONAL. Wear that old saree, and ask mom in law for your jewelry because your extended family etc are mentioning seeing those pieces from your wedding, because they got sentimental. And then sneakily after the festivities, hide them in your own little locker (which you bought beforehand) and quietly head to the bank, and deposit it in a safe deposit box in YOUR name.
Remember, GOLD is one of the most secure available financial assets for a desi woman. But the gold you have is often controlled by your in-laws once you marry over. So make sure you take iy back bit by bit. And when they ask - make excuses like - the clasp is broken, need repairs, mom wants to upgrade it a little etc. And never give it back to your inlaws. Your gold is YOUR legal property. It should not go to your inlaws.
5. Mentally prepare for tough conversations.
Festive seasons are hard on women and they socially slaughter your dignity. Prepare snarky, sarcastic answers or don't hesitate to shut down what comes your way. But since many of you are raised to be docile, remember to anticipate all the tough topics someone will raise to criticize you, think of their personaliry and prepare some snarky answers beforehand. If a relative is asking abiut your marriage, ask them when their son is going to move out or if they're still a financial burden. Ask if their husbands have stopped ogling the maid. Don't be scared of going offensive. These guys are not your friends and won't hesitate to pull you down.
6. Prepare Me time. Make a set of activities, like groceries etc, that that can leave you alone and give you breathing space from the khandaan. Take longer to shop alone and take a break in the neighbourhood park. Use this time to meditate, check in with yourself and your goals and give youraelf a spiritual pat kn the back.
7. Prep an easy menu and donate the remaining. Plan a food menu that is not extensive. Order delicacies if possible, instead of Doing it Yourself. There is no BEST BAHU and BEST WIFE contest to win. Get the load of cooking off your back. If there is food leftover, call an orphanage and send it to them. Do not eat excessively out of guilt. Donate it to those who need it. When the burden of cooking is reduced the guilt of forced eating goes doen and you won't be putting junk in your body.
Remember - you are your own best friend. Festivals will take a lot out of you. They will cause families to get into unnecessary pissing contests and you have to bear the laborous brunt. So safeguard your time and energy.
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Skye's DIY HRT survival guide
After making a comment about DIY HRT on another post I've been helping a lot of people with supplying (and if you need help with that, shoot me a message!), while also pointing them in the direction of the DIY HRT Directory for other important info/tips, but I thought it would be nice to have the information readily available on Tumblr. (Especially considering the increased need I expect in the next four years. Stay safe.)
I can only speak from personal experience on transfem dosing, effects, etc., but I've tried my best to make this guide thorough for transmasc and transfem people!
How should I dose? Ultimately, it's up to you, but there are some helpful pointers as to where to start. Starting with testosterone, a low, medium and high dose of gel and injections:
And for estrogen - many girls going the legitimate route get started on an extremely low dose of estrogen (such as 1mg a day), but I can say that I started sublingually on 6mg, haven't had any nasty side effects and after only 4 months am having both visible and psychological/emotional changes. However, there is the rare but real possibility of your body having a negative reaction to your method of application, so going slow even for just a day or two might be worth your while. I got 6mg from the DIY HRT Directory, assuming you're also taking an anti-androgen. (More on those later.) As for injections:
What do I dose with? Again, it's up to you, though there are considerably more estrogen options than testosterone. Testosterone is typically available in injection and gel form, while you can get estrogen in pill, spray, gel, patch, or injection form. The reason injections are often recommended for estrogen is because of their affordability versus other methods, plus the ability to do monotherapy and not need an anti-androgen. (Anti-androgens are pills that block testosterone - extra cost, extra potential side effects. It is theoretical to reach monotherapy with other forms, but you should be aware of what a higher dose of E does to your body before attempting it.)
This does not mean you have to do injections for an effective transition. Thousands of trans people have met the goals you have in your head without injections - it is possible. We have technology! Er...pills, rather.
If you are in an unsafe environment, or even if any little thing makes you doubt your safety - lock up your medicine. Whether you have to hide it inside a sock, stuffed animal, or can afford an actual safe/lockbox, no one else has the right to interfere with your medicine. Life unfortunately doesn't always follow the linear patterns in our heads of wanting to be safe before we can start HRT - sometimes the noise in your brain gets so loud you run out of other options and have to take the risk.
If you think that your safety or shelter could be put at risk by starting HRT, look into resources in your area for queer and unhoused people. Have a go bag ready with your necessities. Set aside some extra money on an "emergency" prepaid debit card, especially if anyone who affects your safety also has access to your money.
Blood tests are ideal, but not required. I would be a hypocrite to encourage them too much, as I'm unable to get any right now without raising suspicion. Unfortunately, a lot of trans people are going to be in this same boat, or similar boats due to cost, inability to purchase in their area, etc. If this is an option for you, Private MD Labs, LabsMD, and Walk-In Lab provide private blood tests in the US without having to go through a doctor.
There are still visible ways to see that your dosage is working - they may not all be immediately recognizable, but within a few months you should have several signs. In my transfem experience, random erections were the first thing to go away, followed by a sudden emotional change (why am I crying at The Lion King for the first time when I've seen it many times?) and the starting of breast development. Transmasc individuals might notice some stubble growing, their voice getting lower, an increase in acne, increased appetite and sex drive, etc.
Where do I want my levels? Generally, you'll want your levels in the expected area for an adult cis male or female.
Transmasc: Total testosterone (T) 300-1000 ng/dL, estradiol (E2) lower than 50 pg/ml
Transfem: Total testosterone (T) below 50 ng/dL, estradiol (E2) above 100pg/mL
Rome wasn't built in a day. Neither are beards and boobs. It's very easy to get impatient with the results of HRT, but much like your first puberty, it's a process that takes several years. DIY does give you the advantage of adjusting your own dosage at your will, but if you don't have blood tests easily available, you're taking a shot in the dark. Here are some charts that give an estimate of the time range you should expect the changes of T and E, but everyone's body is different!
Can HRT make you gay? You may have heard of the phenomenon of people suddenly becoming attracted to men, women, or both when they start their hormone therapy, even if they weren't before. (There's not a real scientific backing for this, but it's documented enough to be listed as a side effect in some places.) And no, the HRT didn't make them gay - but it can change your sexual urges, and as you become more in tune with your true self, you may be more willing to notice or just accept things that you hadn't in the past.
I'm sure I'm missing things so there may be a part 2 later, but for any pressing questions just reply or shoot me a message! (This is how I've decided to try to help others through the upcoming unprecedented hell, for now. And if no one's told you this recently - you're not a burden, thank you for being you, and thank you fur trusting me to help!)
(Of course, don't just listen to me, I'm a dodo. I highly recommend reading through everything on the DIY HRT Directory when you have the chance! It is the main source for the info here, as well as my own personal experience, /r/TransDIY and GenderGP.)
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📝 WITCH TIP 📝
This is something to make when you’re bored/want to do something witchy, and also for whenever you are again in the future.
Make a list on a physical piece of paper (or print it out after). On that list—and feel free to make it LONG, and also know that you can add onto it again whenever—include everything witchy youve ever wanted to do, “chores” that are part of your craft, things you like to do that are even just vaguely related to witchcraft and your practice, types of magic youve never tried out or want to improve on, etc. Big, daunting things and small, minuscule, two-second things. Make a huge list.
Cut out every individual bullet point in that list. Fold them all up, put them in a jar (heres a good use for any of those old candle containers or spell jars), and whenever youre feeling bored or want to do something witchy, pull out one of those pieces of paper. Feel free to re-pull if you don’t like the one you got. Then, do it. You can throw the paper out when you’re done or put it back in the jar whenever you want.
You could also do the same thing online using one of those spin the wheel websites too. Since this is all left up to chance, you may also ask a deity or spirit or the universe or whatever beforehand to make sure you get the most relevant/helpful task.
Under the cut I’ll put some examples of things to put on your list, in case you want help!
Try bibliomancy
Find some nice rocks outside
Do a big cleansing
Make a return-to-sender ward
Water all your plants and have a conversation with them
Enchant your coat for extra warmth, comfort and protection
Paint your nails using color magic
Do a spell and somehow include your ceiling fan
Come up with an emoji spell
Ground yourself
Do a spell on your dishwasher so that everything that is cleaned in it is enchanted to make all the food it touches delicious
Jinx that pen Ronald is always annoyingly clicking
Enchant your pillows for good sleep and pleasant dreams
Leave an offering out for all nearby spirits. Just to be nice
Open a window
Close/ward your mirror
Clean your altar/room/sacred space
Do a giant ritual for someone. A deity, spirit, ancestors, Earth, or even yourself. A ritual about being grateful and happy, not even necessarily to accomplish anything aside from feeling good and/or saying “thanks”
Enchant your phone case for protection, both from breaking your phone and from thieves
Enchant your hairbrush for healthy and good looking hair
Enchant your glasses for clarity
Enchant your debit card for attracting money
Spin around, look up, and the first thing you see? Enchant it
Try cloud divination
Look up different types of knots and practice doing them for future knot magic
Make a decoy poppet for yourself (so unwanted/negative energies attack it instead of you) (remember to do wards so those energies can get in but can’t get out)
Shuffle your playlist and interpret the first song that comes up as a form of divination
Redo one of your wards more powerful than before
Clean out that old spell jar
Set out some water for SUN water
Watch a movie with a witch
Listen to the wind
Haphazardly fold a piece of paper many times, make random cuts into it, unfold it, and interpret the resulting form as a method of divination
Pet your pet
Do a self-confidence spell
Plan an outfit using color magic
Sew a sigil into a blanket
Get out a pendulum and talk to it
#i just did this and its kinda fun just coming up with stuff#makes me feel inspired#witch tips#spoonie witch#this isnt a groundbreaking idea or anything but ive been enjoying doing it now that i have TIME again! so thought id share :)
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What is the most trouble you’ve ever been in?
when i was twelve, i spent one of my father's allotted weekends with him. he was paying for food and i was able to see the keychain on his keys.
for some fucking reason. for some unknowably insane and extremely stupid goddamn reason. he had a keychain of his debit card. it was just a tiny little version of his actual debit card with the numbers on it. i dont know why the credit card company thought this was a good idea.
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anyway i saw my dad's mini card on his keychain and in the span of the 90 seconds it took for him to pay for my Egg Platter kids meal, i memorized the number.
i frequented inuyashaworld.com and at the time they had debuted 'game bots' which were stolen fanart on little bots that could 'learn' from you.
they were $5. i wanted a little sesshoumaru bot. i did not have $5. what i DID have was my dad's card number. in my brain. from six hours ago. i put in his info, and back then all you needed was the name and the card number.
my dad had slow as fuck internet so the page didn't load immediately. i clicked the 'submit' button like 3 to 5 times. it charged my dad 3-5 times. he had roughly 2 dollars in his account. he went negative and was charged an insufficient funds fee of $50. every time. this happened multiple times, until the page finally loaded and i stopped clicking.
when i was caught (almost immediately because his bank called to tell him he was negative by $300) i was told that i had to tell my mom what i did, and he would call her that night to make sure i did.
i was grounded from all computers for 2 months including going to the library, and i was no longer allowed to use the computer at my dads place at all, and i was only able to sneak using the gamecube at night in the dining room while everyone was asleep. my dad's girlfriend had already been treating me like a nuisance and now that i was a full on criminal i was a complete burden to her. i had to sleep on the tile floor in the kitchen because she told my dad i might steal from her house if i was allowed to sleep in a room on a bed. and he agreed with that. my pillow was a throw pillow from the couch and my blanket was the dogs blanket from the couch.
i had to keep the door open when i showered (which was "fine" because the glass was frosted) and when i went to the bathroom, i was timed. and i wasn't allowed to use the bathroom more than once an hour, even if i had been drinking a lot of water. one time i nearly peed myself, got in trouble for breaking the one hour rule, and got a new one hour rule stating i wasn't allowed to have more than one glass of water in an hour. even if it was spilled or otherwise compromised, as her shitheel grandkids often did by sprinkling dog hair and dirt into my cup.
on christmas eve that year i was forced to go to sleep (on the couch--luxury) at 9pm "with the kids", and forced to wake up at 6am. despite the hour, i was not allowed to open my present, singular, until i showered. which was only after the adults showered. then until everyone showered. then because one of the grandkids threw a tantrum it became until after lunch. then until everyone else opened theirs. my gift was a fluffy robe and a pair of socks, in this ugly ashy brown color. the reciept was in the box. it was purchased on december 22nd.
i tried dealing with it for another year before i just couldn't anymore and refused to go to my dads a few months after i turned 13. he didn't even question it, he just immediately accepted it.
the crime was stealing five dollars from my dad at age 12.
the punishment was no longer having a dad.
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neat great okay so. i've been trying to give my mom money towards bills and things (i live with her) on top of covering things like the phone bill and internet, and that's already been hard to give her like anything after i pay those and my own bills, car payment, etc... THEN she had to spend $2,500 on some emergency expenses that i won't share because that's her business, but she had to max out at least 1 credit card (to my knowledge) and dig into her savings much more than she should have to, so now more than ever I want to be able to help her out more, she's helped me so many times in the past, it's the least i can do.
This is further complicated by my debit card that's with the bank that I have a credit card and my car loan with got over drawn by just small things multiple times, and I don't even get why those things were charge to that card (it's not the debit card i primarily use anymore bc this bank has been pissing me off, for reasons you might be able to guess, so I didn't have much money in there) so i got charged the overdraw fee of $30 multiple times so now i'm in the negative by almost $130, which makes it a lot harder for me to pay the credit card bill and car loan to that bank (total due between both bills is about $160). I've also fallen behind on a couple bills in general during the last month-ish, since i really don't want to ask my mom for help when I should be the one giving HER money. I'm kind of in between jobs right now, still doordashing/doing uber eats and stuff when i can, but i've been working on transitioning to a new job, so i'm not making as much right now because i'm not making much money while i work on trainings and things for the new job...
I've been trying really hard to just do shit on my own and not ask for any help from anyone but obviously that hasn't worked well for me lately, so attached are screenshots of the different payment apps that i have.
I also have a doordash referral code that would get me a $900 bonus and you (the person being referred) $600, but that's specifically for the Minneapolis, Minnesota/twin cities and surrounding areas. If you're interested in that, shoot me an ask (off anon!) or message.
Anything helps, whether it's a donation or a reblog. Thank you.
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Hey, seems like this is all I do when I get on here nowadays but I am once again, really broke and need some help 😔.
I’ve been working a temp job since July since my job as a contact tracer let go of most of the staff besides a skeleton crew (which from what I’ve heard has back fired since Covid is not indeed “over” but whatever 😒). Since late September - Early October I received a job offer to work at my old university full time, and I received my actual offer letter Friday (state jobs apparently take a really, really long time in the hiring process). All of that would be great but my temp job was temp to hire on, and they’ve been trying to get me to complete the process since mid October. When I told them I my situation they basically let me go on the spot, meaning that I’m gonna go at least another week or two without any money than I initially thought. Which is extra annoying because my last check is gonna be short because Friday I didn’t go in Friday because they wanted me to do a drug test which is when I received the news of my letter.
TLDR: my shitty temp job let me go the moment I told them I was leaving which means my last check will be short and I really need help. My credit card is maxed out and I’m negative in my debit. Can I please get 25$ from someone to get me out of this situation? I’d really appreciate it
Forgot to add my c@shapp here it is : c@sh app
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Angel (Part One) - Edward Nashton x GN!Reader
Contains: mentions/descriptions of sex work (reader is a sex worker), toxic relationships, and smoking. Also, reader's gender is never mentioned, but they are bisexual (it is a very minor detail).
Note: this is my big series I've had planned out for a long time, and I'm so excited to finally release chapter one! A disclaimer: I do not intend to disrespect sex work with the reader's situation here. They are unhappy with their work and have had negative experiences in the past. This is not the experience of all sex workers, simply just one fictional story. I also want to make it clear: Angel Eddie is based off Paul Dano's 2022 interpretation of The Riddler, but will have minor differences.
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It was the sort of bleak, frosty rain that splashed through your skin and absorbed into your bones, the bitterly icy water leaking drop by drop into your marrow. Your skin was prickled with goosebumps as you shivered through the cloud-soaked night.
He was just another client. God, how you tried to convince yourself Marshall was just another client. It broiled in your brain and screamed in your blood...he was just another client. But what other client had you lived with for five months? What other client held you ever so gently when the dark void of night fell and you felt the festering handprints of the past gripping your hips? There would never be another one like him.
You forgot how long you had been wandering the streets after Marshall kicked you out. There were times before when he would come home drunk and angry, yelling at you to get the fuck out of his sight. He would remember how used you were and want you gone. But there was a feeling burning inside of your gut, the flames licking the flesh of your stomach. The burning feeling this was the final time. He wouldn't have you back. You weren't sure what you expected, exactly...tears? A screaming match? Shattered glass? Tearing through his apartment and your shared memories, eyes scorching red with searing hot acrimony? You weren't sure. What ended up being was the rain-slicked streets of Gotham and the air around you soaked with a thick sheet of silence.
You searched the roads for an awning...any swath of dryness would do. You just wanted a cigarette, that's all. You adjusted your bag's strap on your shoulder and thought about the contents as the frigid rain continued to slice into your skin. Three packs of menthol cigarettes, your ID and debit card, and a couple hundred dollars in twenties. You couldn't remember if the money was yours or Marshall's. You couldn't be asked to give a fuck. You had grabbed it off the kitchen counter as Marshall screamed and tore the place apart. So what, you had seen a different client while staying with him? You didn't know things were so official that he would get so upset. You needed the money. You had to pay half the bills somehow, after all. Who cared now? You were out and on your own. That's all that mattered.
You spotted the car from across the street in the empty parking lot of Josephine's. God, you hadn't been to Josephine's in years. You wondered if she still had a special original pastry of the month. You wondered how disappointed she would be if she saw how far you had fallen away from yourself.
You felt as if you were morphing back into yourself when you had first started as you made your way across the street. Back when you would approach men in cars, girls at clubs, people anywhere, any time. You were hungry for experience, determined to scratch an abundance of notches on your bedpost. Maybe through taking on more and more clients, you could find something resembling self-worth if you held it in a certain light. It never did work, but that wouldn't stop you from trying again.
You knocked on the car window and waited.
It didn't roll down. You tried again.
The man sitting inside was startled by the noise, jumping in his seat and staring at you with wide, bloodshot eyes. His hair reached past his ears and was frazzled at the ends. He stared at you for a few more seconds before a gravelly bark came from him.
"What."
"Roll your window down."
Reluctantly, the man rolled down his window, continuing to peer deep into your eyes as you bent down to his window's height.
"Can I get in?" you tried. You knew you were being stupid, but you were past the point of caring about much of anything anymore.
"I'm not letting you in," the man said curtly.
For God's sake, could you catch any kind of break tonight?
"Please. It's raining hard, and I was just kicked out of my apartment. I have nowhere to go," you begged.
The man rolled his window up, and you felt the stitches of your heart tear apart. You felt as though you had run out of chances. A street cat who had run out of lives. With your heart split into two, your blood running rimy, and your bones shaking in your skin, you knelt down next to the strangers car and cried. You had never felt more lost in the wind than now, with even the sounds of your broken snivels drowned out by the pouring rain.
The sound of the car door opening and slamming shut made you jump. The man from inside the car popped the trunk and rifled through it for a moment before pulling out a clear umbrella. He shut the trunk and walked over to you, opening the umbrella and kneeling beside you.
"Here."
It was small enough to where only one person would fit under it. With a trembling hand, you took it from him. An instantaneous burst of laughter exploded from your chest as you felt the relief from the rain. The man jumped again at the sound of your laugh.
"What?"
You shook your head, coughing and strangling your laughter. "I'm very happy to not get rained on anymore, I guess. I've been out here for awhile."
The man nodded and ran a hand through his hair. You sat in silence for a moment before a wave of newfound warmth and confidence crashed over you.
"My name is Y/N."
The man looked down at his shoes.
"You don't have to tell me your name. But I wanted to say thank you for the umbrella. And for sitting here with me, I guess. Tonight has been...rough. It's nice to have a little bit of company."
"My name is Edward."
You peered at his features: the strong bump of his nose, the freckles dotting his cheeks, the violet bags tugging at the skin underneath his eyes, the pout of his thin lips. He was interesting to view.
"Hi, Edward."
He said nothing.
In the middle of this downcast, hopeless evening, something inside you was whispering that you had found peace. And maybe it was just for tonight. Maybe it was just for as long as Edward would stay with you beside his car in Josephine's parking lot. But it felt warmer than Marshall's touch. It felt safer than having to sit through his drunken outbursts. It was quiet, which you weren't used to in your life, but it was warm. Safe. Good.
You rested your chin on your knees and closed your eyes, letting the last drops of rain fall from your soaked clothes as Edward sat up and opened the car door for you.
"You can get in, if you'd like."
#Eli's writing#Danonation#Paul Dano#Edward Nashton#The Riddler#The Batman#Edward Nashton x reader#The Riddler x reader#Edward Nashton x you#The Riddler x you#Edward Nashton x Y/N#The Riddler x Y/N
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😩 dang it. i go to draw for the first time in forever and my stupid pen is acting up aoeifjaoi i think i might need a new nib or something
#i literally don't have a single penny to spend also bc some asshole hacked my abandoned ama/zon account which got them my pay/pal 😭#and they spent my last $60 from my debit account#thankfully it wasn't a credit card or anything at least oaifjeoaij#but i'm still so salty that that's how my pride month started. RUDE. HOMOPHOBIC. LESBOPHOBIC. uncalled for.#now that i'm thinking about it i feel like $60 literally isn't even enough for a replacement for my nib anyway 😩😩😩#why is existing so expensive 😭#universal income when so i don't have to go through the horrors of flagellating myself in front of state officials to get disability $$ 😭#edit: just to clarify. this is not me asking for money iojefaoi there are people who need it far more than i do! i'm just venting#*dykeposting#negative#delete later
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The '___’ boy games but its Rich boy and the main character is Byakuya Togami, who has to deal with being rich as negative thing. Just think about it though…
When you’re a kid, what the fuck do you need a debit card for? Like there might be things you want that are a bit more expensive but overall… gumball machines and arcade machines don’t take 10’s and 20’s. You’re constantly inconveniencing the cashiers because you only got something for a dollar and your rich ass hands them a 50 because you ran out of smaller bills.
Plus imagine how goofy you look 7 years old with a thick wallet in your pocket.
Byakuya deserves to live that.
#danganronpa#ani speaks#byakuya togami#also Hiro being one of his main friends who just has coins in his pocket#because he’s a child#psycho boy#shy boy#tall boy#lonely boy
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yknow what? i keep seeing my mutuals reblogging from this user and at this point letting people know individually is too much work. and i'm exhausted of having a panic attack every time i see their username.
if you follow the user razzdrgn i feel it's prudent to let you know that i lived with them for several months, during which they sexually assaulted me with a nonconsensual kiss on the forehead while apparently blackout high after jumping around and screaming for about an hour and ranting incomprehensibly about numbers and the nature of the universe.
during my time living with them i was subject to constant negging, especially about my cooking, forced to do almost all housework(the only exceptions being when i asked them to do it, after which they would invariably claim extreme exhaustion and noticeably sour their disposition towards me), clean the toilet almost every single day due to their poor hygiene, handle all of the cooking sans like three occasions, shouldered the cost for all groceries(and whatever luxuries they decided they needed to buy with my money without consulting me; they even memorized my debit card at the time's PIN number without my knowledge), and had to pull them out of a fit of suicidal rage after my plans to move in with my girlfriends was finalized while on vacation with my family several states over so i wouldn't lose access to my car and my legal documents, which they had insisted i didnt need to take with me on that vacation. and that's to say nothing of the physical and mental strain of being expected to wait on them hand and foot for two straight months after returning from that vacation.
even if their abuse was not conducted with intent, my time with them was incredibly traumatic and i am being reminded of it more and more often as my mutuals seem to be discovering their account.
please stop reblogging from them. i do not want you to harass them or anything--if i see or hear of you doing it, i will block you--i just want to stop seeing them on my dashboard. i have been content to act like nothing happened for months now and i'd like to go back to that. i do not want this to turn into a campaign. i just want to stop being hurt.
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I'm so sad that these drives only take credit card. I only have debit and things like PayPal, so it's always a shame to not be able to donate directly (I will check the fund's website directly, but it would be lovely to be able to do it here. Especially when the website takes Crypto as a payment??? But not PayPal and co.??? Hello???)
This is not at all meant to be negative towards the organisers, it's just a bit of a shame :-/
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