#/and i haven't said this here because i.. forgot to put it in my bio and just won't do that now fhvs-

[keeps-ache]

the rest of my attacks!

[Atlas belongs to @/space ace on Artstreet ! Xyleth belongs to @/Kebby on Artstreet ! Demon boy belongs to @/Ev@ on Artstreet ! Ember belongs to @/Ephixa on Artstreet, Mixu belongs to @/Mixu543 on Artstreet !!]

[chekistka]

Improvement Post

My art progress is really really long since 2015 the first time I existed on internet.

Here's my OC Vadim Trifonov, he's a FSB Spetsgruppa Alpha "A" operative with rank of Captain.

He exists since 2016 as a RP OC when I was a wee lil 15 years old kid and really interested in spy movies like TMFU 2015 and James Bond.

He's really special to me because he came to me through a dream. I saw a man looking like how I draw him telling his name was Vadim Trifonov, and he was a really gentle, kind and selfless man.

He also gave me some sort of comfort and coping as well so he's really special to me. One of reason why I just don't end myself, is who will finish writing about him and edit it out.

Here we will see the progress of it!

September 2020 - Digital Art (Latest)

It took me like 4-5 hours to draw this considering I don't use line art and have to fix it by painting over and over.

I also got the hang of painting digitally due to experimenting with acrylics and poster paints and reading tutorials.

Russian friends are also helping with sending me images or Russian handbooks and sites to see so his uniform isn't all that inaccurate. I usually don't draw ranks because it's really small and like how friends said, "Yuri spends 10 hour on the face and shading and then just fuck it on minor details," which was true on this matters ahhahaha.

July 2020 - Pixel Art

One of the stills from How Unfortunate art and it's really nice besides how meme material it is (Vadim's forced smile and lenny face like expressions). It's intentionally shaded only in two colours because I don't like being a fussy wussy animating things and to show dark-light in rather not eye hurting way and I use darker line art compared to usual way I do (use a lighter tone of brown/darker or orangey one) so his expressions would be easily seen.

May 2020 - Watercolour

I'm really invested in FSB and Chekist stuff so his uniform is correct for now and I like how abstract it is.

I also got my watercolour style and I really like lining with brush now.

January 2020 - Pixel Art

First time getting into pixel art thanks to Russian and Ukrainian and Texan friend telling me to do it. I forgot there's a tool to yknow, line the shit outta it and circle tool. So that's why it looks so thicc. It's also blurry because that's the first time I learn to resize pixel art.

2019 - Digital

I got into modern militaria stuff (never a fan of modern tanks and ships tho but I like the planes and soldiers) and here's Vadim with slightly accurate tactical gear.

I haven't done much digital due to how time consuming it is for reasons.

November 2018 - Watercolour

When I didn't get to art club I just actually put him somewhere. I want to retain his secret service stuff and I don't wanna change much of his bio so I just put him as "FSB" even the uniform wasn't really that accurate.

I also recently studied anatomy more and prefer slightly realistic facial feature because I was quite into Shoujo animes and KyoAni styled stuff and it only helps with lining thinly.

2018 - Digital Art

First digital rendition of Vadim? It used Paint Tool Sai which also I just don't like it for some reason (I prefer Clip Studio Paint like what I'm using currently due to basic tools are already good and Photoshop for larger images and edits since brushes there are good too?)

It's blurry because it's for Tapas.io title image so it's small and the first rendition of my current art style (the no line art painting) and look how I attempted my current semi realist stuff hahahha.

2016 - Watercolor

He was listed as RP OC of an Art Club thingy (you know like Daisuki Club). Also yes I was anime artist fight me.

2016 - Concept Sketch of Vadim, (image dated 2017, but it's literally older than the 2016 watercolor)

Below was sketched after I had the dream and I was just thinking about it.

[motleyfuckingcruee]

The Outsider (Nikki Sixx x Reader)

Chapter 5

Summary:

It's your first night on the streets of LA. You have just arrived and you have nowhere to sleep. You meet Nikki at a bar and he offers to let you stay with him. You are the outsider.

Warnings:

Language, fluff, abuse, considering smut

THE SONG THIS IS BASED OFF OF:

The Outsider

REQUESTS ARE OPEN!!!!

YOU CAN READ CHAPTER FOUR HERE

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It's been two months since the band fully formed. Vince has been great! His voice fits what Nikki is going for perfectly. You've grown close with all of them. Even Mick.

It took a bit longer to break Mick's walls down, but you managed to do it. Underneath that scary demeanor, Mick is actually an insanely sweet guy. You think of him as your brother.

Usually when Tommy and Vince would go out drinking or go to strip clubs, You, Mick, and Nikki would stay at the apartment. You would drink and just talk. You love those nights. They're the most calming.

About a month ago they decided on the name Mötley Crüe for the band. It fits them well. Four people from different backgrounds coming together to make something fucking awesome. You couldn't be more proud.

Nikki wants to have elaborate shows in the clubs, almost as if they were playing at a stadium. You're not sure how that's going to work out, but as long as they're happy.

Tonight is their first show. Nikki has been freaking out all day. He's been pacing throughout the apartment all day.

You're sitting on the couch. Your eyes follow Nikki as he paces in the living room.

"Nik." No answer. His eyes are narrowed in thought. "Nikki." Still nothing. He doesn't even glance in your direction. "NIKKI SIXX!" You yell.

His eyes finally snap up to meet yours. He raises his eyebrows, seeming annoyed that you interrupted him.

"Why are you acting like this?" You laugh. "It's not like you've never been on stage before."

He walks over and flops down on the couch. He rests his head in your lap. He stretches out his legs, causing them to hang over the side of the couch. You start running your fingers through his soft black hair.

He sighs. "I just know that this band is going to do great. We've rehearsed a lot and it sounds good, but a band has to sound good together up on stage in front of people that aren't you and Vince's chick. Otherwise, it just won't work out."

You smile reassuringly. "You guys will do great. Quit your worrying and watch a movie with me. There's still like five hours before we have to go."

He smiles. "Or we could do something else."

"Don't make me push you off this couch."

"But we haven't had sex since last night!" Nikki whines.

You laugh. "Then you can wait until after the show."

He frowns, groaning. "Alright. What movie are we watching?"

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Multiple hours later, you sit backstage helping all the boys with their hair and makeup. You stand in front of Tommy, teasing his hair the best you can. He said he wanted it to be big. You're trying the best you can, but Tommy's hair isn't the most cooperative. And neither is Tommy.

"Tommy, sit still or I will duct tape you to the chair," You growl, gettimg more and more frustrated at him.

You move down to do his makeup.

He smirks at you. "Sounds kinky."

"Don't hit on my girlfriend, T-Bone," Nikki nearly yells from next to you.

You don't jump. You're used to his sudden outbursts. If he hadn't have yelled at Tommy you'd think he's sick.

"Nikki calm down. Go put on your fabulous outfit," You giggle, applying Tommy's lipstick.

"How long are you going to tease me about that?" Nikki groans, walking over to his bag. He pulls out a stripped singlet, his leather pants, and these red leather thigh high boots that are absolutely gorgeous.

"You made me go buy those boots for you because you didn't want too. I'm going to tease you about it for a long time," You pause, taking step back to observe your handiwork. You grab the stuff that Nikki gave you to apply the signature marks that Nikki came up with. "And the bad part is you won't let me wear the goddamn boots." You put two lines on Tommy's left cheek. "All done," You say, leaving Tommy and walking over to your overprotective boyfriend. You wrap your arms around his neck. In return he rests his hands on your hips. You kiss him on the cheek, not wanting to smudge his lipstick. "I love you."

This causes his frown to break into a smile. "I love you too."

He leans forward to press his lips against yours. You stop him with a grin on your face. He looks at you with a sad, confused expression.

"You're going to smudge your lipstick," You say. "And I'm not going to fix it."

"Damn it!" Nikki exclaims, turning around so that he can change his clothes.

You giggle at him. Vince walks over to you, grinning deviously.

"Does that mean I can get a kiss? I don't have any makeup on yet," He says.

You only roll your eyes. "In your dreams, Neil. I'll stick to kissing my boyfriend."

"One day," Vince says. "You'll kiss me."

"I highly doubt that, Vinny."

Just then some guy sticks his head through the door. "You guys need to get on the stage now."

They all nod, rushing out the door. Tommy gives you a kiss on the cheek. Nikki glares at him for a few moments, then walks over to kiss you.

"Have fun," You say.

You can still see the nervousness in his eyes. You don't understand why. He's been on stage before. It's nothing new. You know he explained it, but it still didn't make sense.

"I will," He responds, resting his forehead against yours. "Will you be front row?"

You nod, pecking his lips. "Aren't I always? I'm your biggest fan, Sixx. I always will be."

"Is that a promise?"

You nod. You pull away from him, even though you don't want to. You start pushing him out the door.

"Get your ass out on stage."

As he looks at you, you realize that he smudged his lipstick by kissing you. Goddamn it. You totally forgot in the heat of the moment.

You walk out from backstage. You make your way to the front row, smiling when you see that you're directly in front of Nikki. Vince introduces them, looking full of energy. Tommy starts the beat, Mick and Nikki quickly following not a second later. Vince's voice reverberates off of the bar's walls.

They sound fucking epic.

About an hour later they finish up their set. Nikki came off the stage, lifting you up in his arms and spinning you around.

"How'd we do?" He asks, breathless.

"Fucking amazing!" You exclaim, kissing him.

He smiled into the kiss, putting you back down on your feet.

"Man, the girl I remember never cussed," A familiar male voice says from behind you.

You turn, meet with the same blue eyes you've been avoiding. Fucking Jared.

"What do you want?" You nearly growl.

Jared holds his hands up innocently. "I just want to talk."

You bite your lip, looking at Nikki who is on edge. He looks like if Jared even takes another step towards you, he'll rip him to pieces.

"Alright," You sigh. "Nik, you can go ahead and go to our usual table. I'll meet you and the boys in a bit."

"Bu-," He tries, but you cut him off.

"I'll be fine," You say. "Go on."

He leans down and kisses you again. You know his lipstick got on your lips again, but you didn't really care.

You smile as he says, "Yell if you need me."

You nod, watching him give one last glare to Jared, then walking off.

You let Jared lead you outside. He leans against the brick wall of the bar. You pull your cigarettes out of pocket. Jared's eyes widen as you put the stick between your lips and light it. You take a drag, waiting for him to tell you the reason he dragged you out here.

"What do you want?" You repeat.

"I wanted to know why you left," He responds, watching you smoke with an odd expression on his face. It makes you feel uncomfortable.

"I was suffocating in that town. I needed to get out, and I did," You say simply.

Jared sighs. "When did he become apart of your life?"

"The day I got here," You answer, not really wanting to give him the full story. He doesn't deserve it.

You both stand quietly as you finish your cigarette. He watched you the entire time. That suffocating feeling you felt where you were raised comes washing over you once again. Fuck.

You stomp the cigarette out. You turn to back in the bar. "Well if that's it-."

You're cut off by Jared gripping your upper arm hard. So hard you're sure it'll leave bruises.

"What the fu-."

"You're not going anywhere," Jared growls, a familiar menacing glow in his eyes.

It's something you're used to. Something you endured for years. You thought you escaped it. With Jared back, you're prepared to take the beatings once again.

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