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[isolatednights]

she finds herself having to bite down on her lip to keep the chuckle from escaping her ⸻ flattery, it seems, is a trait within their industry ( whether natural or taught is debatable, but aiyla is smart enough to know if she compliments him in return, they're certain to go around and around endlessly ). so instead, she flashes him a smile with her silent thanks. "however long they need me here, i suppose. i landed hours ago and figured they'd have shuffled me away on assignment already but apparently not. at this rate, i'll likely have to hunt someone down to get some answers as to why they brought me to new york and where they plan on putting me up." there were hours yet until she needed to worry over such things, but it doesn't stop blue hues from flickering away from him once more to glance at the door.

"oh ⸻ i couldn't possibly ask you to do that. i'm sure you have more important things to do than show me around the city." she excuses, attention returning to him. "besides, i'm afraid i would be horrible company. i'm only ever here for business and i fear i'd fall into a tourist mentality too easily. statue of liberty, time square." a hand waves almost dismissively, her nose crinkling at the judgement she affords herself for such a thing. "but maybe a suggestion for lunch? i know they'll bring something in eventually ⸻ but i doubt it will be the best local cuisine so... what would you recommend?"

He flashes that sweet smile of his, fangs showing. "What a beautiful name for a beautiful lady." He holds her hand gently but instead of giving a shake, he bends a little over it, bringing it close to his lips but not kissing "How long you'll stay in our lovely city, Aiyla? I can show you some.. more interesting parts of it!" He chuckles a little and that voice in his head taunts him for making it look 'awkward' again.

Just look at her! She won't be yours, you're making it look crass. Look at yourself, a failure, trying so hard to flirt normally but you're never good at it, right? What Maeve said-

He bites inside his cheek hard to distract himself from hearing those words again. Still maintaining his polite smile "or you can tell me where you stay and I'll come pick you up this afternoon!"

[szopenhauer]

have you ever gotten to the point where you’ve said “i’m done trying”? I’m done trying... do you hate it when people talk about you? yeah

do you have any candles in your room? no, what for?  does anyone know every little detail about you? it’s impossible but there are few people who know a lot did you kiss or hug anyone in the last 100 hours? sure has anyone told you a secret lately that you aren’t allowed to tell anyone? I’m not good at keeping secrets who was the last person you saw besides family? some strangers on the street?... whose bed other than yours did you last lay on? Gosia’s  do you think you would lose a lot of friends if you gained 100 pounds? who said I have friends? but I would lose my gf  when was the last time you talked to the first person you kissed? today but not face to face who was the last person you got into an argument with? family member what were you doing at 4am? sleeping has anyone ever called you a bitch? yup do you have alcohol in your house? nooo

is there someone in your life you know you’d be better without? yup have you ever witnessed abuse in your friend’s family? ex friends’ when was the last time you jumped on a trampoline? never

how much money is in your wallet? not sure but not much like 20 PLN or smth how far have you gotten with the book you are reading? didn’t start it yet lol who did you last tell to shut up? not sure who was last who were you with tonight? parents what did you last draw? doodles?

who’s the last person you talked to about sex? partner are you stubborn? can be at times do you tend to hold a grudge? often

has anyone called you perfect before? perfect to them where is the biggest scar on your body? I don’t really have any big ones would you date someone who was addicted to drugs? doubt it if you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? maybe do you get along with girls? I don’t get along with anyone think of the last person who said i love you, do you think they meant it? sigh... have you ever kissed anyone with a tattoo? I haven’t do you know anyone who drinks a lot? plenty of people is there anyone holding a grudge against you? probably would you ever get plastic surgery? meh what were you afraid of the most when you were a kid? dentists, I’m not scared anymore do you ever miss your past? very how have you felt today? ugh... are you nice to the people you dislike? if I have to, I prefer to avoid/ignore them  you kissed someone today, didn’t you? not today do you know how it feels to be cheated on? could say so someone tells you that your beautiful, you say? bullshit are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone? no way do you like to make the first move? depends when was the last time you completely broke down? this day do you swear often? sadly would you go out in public looking the way you do? besides the fact that I have wet hair is your hair long enough to put in a ponytail? too short what are you thinking about right now? shitload of stuff do you get irritated easily? omg yasss do you like taking walks? I enjoy walks

approximately how much is everything you’re wearing now worth? not counting slippers that costed 10 or 15 PLN - about 20 PLN (store bought socks and undies, then crop top, pajama pants and hoodie from second hand) did you set up a real or fake tree for christmas? fake, I’m against real ones do you tend to read the book only after watching the movie adaptation? I tried to read books after watching a movie, not before, and only Five feet apart was good when’s the last time you played a board game? recently

have you ever had anything stolen by a monkey (or any other animal) at the zoo? nope would you rather bungee-jump or dive with sharks? neither do you know anyone who’s like regina george from mean girls? used to do you know anyone in a fashion school? same, I wanted to go myself  have you ever been to a country where you didn’t speak their language at all? I didn’t leave my country and don’t plan to if you have a sister, does she wear makeup? on special occasions do family reunions excite you or just simply freak you out? freak me out! do you pop your pimples or just wait for them to go away? pop has anyone ever coughed or sneezed directly on you before? that was gross how often do you say you’re sorry? I don’t know anymore... how many relationships have you been in? no idea how I should count them last hickey was from? I’ve never had a hickey and don’t wanna have you ever put a kick me sign on the back of someone? don’t do that  is there any inappropriate pictures of you anywhere? what do you mean? what do you hate more, getting up, or going to bed? getting up is worse how many times do you tend to sneeze in a row? 1 why are dogs better than cats? don’t climb on furniture, can’t escape from the garden, don’t bite and scratch like cats, you can keep them outside, you walk them (I know you can walk a cat too but it’s considered weird), you can pick a size and dog breeds have more differences than cat ones do karma; believe or don’t? world isn’t fair to believe in karma

what woke you up this morning? mom, scared the fuck outta me 

did you kiss or hug anyone today? hug

what was your first thought this morning? had to help my mother

do long distance relationships work? they’re cool

what do you want to be when you grow up? I grew up and am a nobody

who do you wish you were with right now? I’m ok being on my own

do you own more than one cell phone? not working

do you use ebay to buy or sell? I wish

have you ever sang in public? karaoke and school theatre

what do you like to listen to before you go to bed? spotify, random songs from my playlist, I skip those I’m not in the mood for

do you have a job? unemployed

have you ever loved someone and were too scared to tell them? had a crush and wasn’t scared, just knew it’s pointless as they liked boys

next concert? no plans, meh

have you ever been awake for more than 2 nights straight?: it seems

anything you’re giving up on?: ... where will you be in 2 hours?: in my bed will you be sleeping alone tonight?: yep did you say “fuck” today?: I suppose

when was the last time you took a pet to the vet?: last year did you ever play any computer games when you were little?: I was a teenager do you enjoy going to the dentist?: I don’t mind does your mom crochet blankets?: not blankets

if you don’t recognize the number of who’s calling, do you answer anyway? this year I started to because I am waiting for important calls

do you ever suspect that people who make your food are going to poison it? when I worry they have a reason for that, paranoia

if you don’t like something, do you make sure everyone knows? hmm...

do you have any notes saved on your phone? had plenty on my blackberry but as I use smartphone now I just save notes in drafts on tumblr instead

when was the last time you went to the skating rink? high school, first and last time

when’s the last time you played barbies? I kept them but I didn’t play them in ages

do you hear more airplanes or trains go by your house? both, also helicopters

what’s the last thing you looked at under a microscope? something in biology class, I don’t recall

have you ever had sex while drunk? never been drunk what is the most disgusting song you’ve ever heard? smth about a guy who killed a woman, raped the body and then ate it

do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed? partially are you waiting for someone to call you right now? not at night

who can make you laugh no matter what? Gosia, dad

when is the last time you saw your boyfriend/​​girlfriend?​​ yesterday 

do you like roller coasters? hate them last time you felt bad about something? when I don’t feel bad about smth?... are you a type of person who cares what people say about you? only if they can hurt me physically do you think you’ve changed over the past year? I know plans for today? the day is over ever go camping? been, pilgrimage current cell phone ringer? vibration or Gravitonas - People are lonely

How many blue-eyed people have you kissed? 0

Are you wearing anything that has any kind of pattern on it? my pants have SW (Vader) pattern on it 

Who was the last curly-haired person you talked to? Gosia

Does frequent use of swearwords offend or upset you? I do it frequently but there’s limit anyway

Who was the last person you talked to, whose name started with ‘S’? family member

When was the last time you turned down an invitation to go somewhere? Why? was supposed to go shopping tomorrow but I have no time nor energy/mood and money to do that

Is there anyone on your “friends” list that you dislike? *nervous laughter*

Has either of your parents ever borrowed your computer? it doesn’t belong to me but to my dad but he hardly ever uses it

Are you living with anyone that isn’t related to you? I live with my parents

Do you prefer drinks in bottles or cans? bottles

Which one of your relatives are you most likely to argue/disagree with? those that I still talk to? my sister

Have your parents met the person you’re currently interested in? last week

When you’re interested in someone, do you let them know? usually

Do you know a Robert?  neighbor Who was your first major crush? Ż. B. I believe

Do you still talk to that person? nope

Were you well-behaved as a child? I was

Is there anything happening tomorrow, that you’re looking forward to? sort of

Is there anything you need to do, that you’re trying to avoid doing? could say so

Did you have a good day yesterday? it wasn’t bad

What about today? How has your day been so far? lets not talk about it

Do you think tomorrow will be enjoyable for you? wish me luck

What do you like the most about your own appearance? my veins, I know it’s strange

What are the chances that you will kiss someone tonight? no chance

Does the last person you text messaged have any tattoos or piercings? they don’t

Do you know what the person you have feelings for is doing at this moment? sleep

When was the last time you had an alcoholic drink? years ago I tried absynth 

When was the last time you had a difficult decision to make? sigh...