#//maybe because i am v lazy so i suffer but hey i love everything but halloween is just fun and happiness without the need for feelsy and
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scarawayfromfallingapart · 4 years ago
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but The (After)life of the Party is one of THOSE songs to me that’s like… to be cliche… a kick drum beating in my chest (again) like idk. This is one of those songs where I think they succeeded in writing it better than I’ve ever felt it but here I go trying to analyze it anyway… I realize I am taking your shtick @petewentzisblack1312 … but this song NEEDS to be analyzed and I am going to try and make you like it :) I have been lurking in ur asks as an anon for a couple weeks and I HAVe to say this off anon… I’m sorry to bother u. My greatest hits include my autotune does not equal bad/talentless rant and my Wilson (Expensive Mistakes) mini-analysis 🤪 but also I learn SO MUCH from ur blog I love it. Anyway!!! Analysis of this song:
Tw : mania, depression, anxiety, substance use
To me this song is about coming down from a manic episode, maybe not even necessarily transitioning right into depression but like. Just coming down from it and kinda seeing the world as it is again, and feeling that kind of mellowed out, where your body allows itself to feel tired again. The title makes it more obvious - he’s no longer the life of the party - it’s over, everyone’s gone home, but he’s still there trying in vain to carry it on.
“I’m a stitch away from making it and a scar away from falling apart” is my FAVORITE line (hence my URL lol)… but the fact that this song opens with that and the narrator is oscillating between feeling 100% and feeling like they’re going to breakdown like THAT is what these transitions feel like to me (ok also I generally feel like this on a daily basis). But this line also gives you a hint of how well it is going… like he’s a stitch away from getting there - the cut hasn’t completely healed so he’s not getting there any time soon : but a scar away from falling apart - like a scar has already healed so it’s old hurt that is threatening to tear him apart —> “my old aches become new again”.
Then we get “blood cells pixelate” which I personally find hilarious since this song has been likened to the sims 3 soundtrack 💀 (I played the sims but I refused to have the music on so I have no idea cannot confirm or deny). Butttt this is obviously like a nod to everything being on film like even everything down to the blood coursing through his veins is made into an image, poster boys for your scene am I right? Also has to do with the scar/stitch - his breakdown is there for everyone to see, immortalized on magazine covers and interviews and E!News segments. But like only the blood cells, like no one gives a damn if he heals from this, thats not newsworthy. Eyes dilate (drugs and/or sex but maybe drugs Bc of the next line - full moon pills got him out on the street at night) butttt mania often comes with insomnia as we well know so. Maybe the pills are metaphorical idk
THEN the narrator becomes an observer - it’s no longer introspective, he’s watching someone else work the room, he’s cutting all ties to them loose, just sitting back and relaxing and watching and I always had this vision of Pete and/or patrick watching some girl flit around the room while he sat there with a lazy smile and drank a beer and leaned back in his chair. BUT on thinking on this more… I think- bear with me - maybe… just maybe… he’s watching himself outside of himself like some kind of dissociative thing (I personally experience that but it’s due to anxiety but it is common among just the general population so who knows) and it’s like you’re feeling that irritable high from the manic phase still and you’re trying to push through and just be part of this party right (or just part of life in general right, like the party is metaphorical IMO) and you separate form yourself in order to get through - your mind and body are not one. You have to watch yourself from the inside out, rely on muscle memory to get you through the party or your job or the tour or whatever it was in his case.
also tying back to I’m a stitch away - right like some part of you is cut in half and I’m a scar away - again, you were cut somewhere, something was severed, mind and body maybe… big brain hours (but also I’m probably reaching for that one)
Anyway then we have the “put love on hold” bc fuck if he’s ready for a relationship - he’s watching this girl desperate for stardom, maybe it’s the girl he’s watching work the room (if it’s not a dissociative thing, or maybe it’s both tbh). Her nose runs ruby red (cocaine is probably the cause I’m thinking, she’s doing lines at this party to be working the room). Death’s in a double bed (orgasms… nice one Pete) but really it’s a classic tale of a girl desperate for roles that she’s willing to sleep around to get there, she’s singing songs that could only catch the ear of other desperate people like her… but… Pete is writing THIS song and Patrick is singing it and they are just as desperate, right, like he’s helplessly watching someone enjoy a party and he’s verging on miserable (or he’s watching himself try to enjoy the party while he’s actually miserable) and they’re trying to catch our ears… we are the desperate… —> “I’m here to collect your hearts/it’s the only reason that I sing”
Then the bridge is where he starts to actually breakdown, the vocals get more intense and strained and chaotic, the sims 3 soundtrack music swells, and he repeats the beginning, reiterating that but adding on “kiss away young thrills and kills on the mouths of all of my friends” - to me he wants to take away all their joy and pain (kills could also = orgasm if u want to be nasty lol and tie it into the death in a double bed) and he wants to feel it for himself because right now he feels NOTHING like he’s right in the goddamn middle of feeling great and feeling like shit and again, to me that exemplifies the transition between mania and depression and we are back to square 1 (to me also thrills = mania and kills= depression but that’s just probably dumb lol).
Also he’s kissing it all away - it’s gentle, it’s loving, like brushing someone’s tears away, he’s not trying to be forceful about it, but he feels like HE should be experiencing all the highs and lows not his friends… or he doesn’t want his friends to suffer… both probably and the chorus is unhinged this time, patrick gives it his all, loses it, signifying hey wait, the narrator DID lose it… but then the song ends with the music coming off that swell, slowing down, relaxing, the narrator resignedly signing off “I’m a stitch away”… giving us maybe an etch of hope, that maybe his stitches healed after all and he did make it through (with hearts and wrists intact I am so corny sorry)
ANYWAY tldr I love this song and it means so much to me and like when I was 15 and found it the first time I was always like “why does this one hurt me so bad, like I don’t get it” but like. Now that I know what bipolar disorder is and that I suffer from it I understand lol. I don’t know if this is how Pete intended this idk I feel like I got some lines right but to ME this is what it feels like. Also it is v fun to play on the violin :)
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convxction · 6 years ago
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//it is august oh yeee *insert that digi/mon gif* i am ready for halloween. tbh i am always ready for halloween shenanigans here. 
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softforday6 · 6 years ago
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좋아합니다 (I like you). You x Young K (feat. DAY6). Chapter V: Jimin! Really?!
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Summary: Younghyun is in love with his best friend and decides to do something about it. It won’t be an easy task, will he be able to overcome his fears and change his reality?. Genre: Romance, smut (in the future). »»————- ♡ ————-«« [Previously] 1. Heart surpassed by Soju (available). 2. I missed you (available). 3. Your Love is Forbidden (available).  4.The Past is the Past (available).
»»————- ♡ ————-«« Thursday, 9 am. Y/N’s office. [Your point of view].
I had this dream last night about Hongseok and I walking together in a field of beautiful red roses. Despite the fact that we looked happy, my heart still felt empty when I saw his gorgeous smile and charming features,  I didn’t feel in love anymore.
I suddenly saw the flowers going from red to pure black and he started to fade away, the ground crooked underneath and I fell into the void out of nowhere. I didn’t get to see where I was going because my noisy alarm woke me up.
Jimin decided to visit me today at work for a little while. She brought coffee for both of us and we had a little chat. Of course, at some point she had to ask about my ex boyfriend. I wasn’t going to talk about it but since she asked, I told her that we broke up and what Younghyun said about this.
-I still feel kind of bad. Hongseok seemed pretty upset about it.
I hope he’s okay; I might not want to be with him anymore but I can’t just erase our cute moments together or want him to suffer. Nobody’s perfect, we fought a lot, he wasn’t there for me when I needed him the most but I’m letting it go, learning that no matter how much attention or love I put in people or situations, things can go wrong... That’s just how life works.
-I think you should listen to Younghyun, Y/N. And you should focus your energy on the last parts of your project, it’s important.
-I know, Jimin. Maybe it’s just this rainy weather that’s keeping me a little blue. Or maybe I’m just, I don’t know... human?
-Hey, I’m not saying be a robot and forget you have feelings or anything...
-I know, I know. Well, I’m done talking about it. Tell me about your party, who is invited?
-Oh! Why?! Looking for some fun?- she said, laughing at me.
I blushed.
-I actually have someone I’d like you to meet, his name is Minseok. He’s tall, blond. He works in the real-estate business and is very handsome. I think you’ll like him.
-Uhm... I’m not looking for anything yet. I think it’s too soon.
-Listen, just meet him and then decide.
-I’ll think about it.
She winked at me and when I was about to speak again, my phone vibrated.
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[9.02] Younghyunnie:
Wanna come over tonight? We can watch a movie or something
[9.02] Y/N:
Yes! I like that you’re keeping your promise.
[9.05] Younghyunnie:
Only cause if i don’t you’ll spam me.
[9.05] Y/N:
u.u
[9.05] Younghyunnie:
lol love u
[9.07] Y/N:
I don’t.
[9.08] Younghyunnie:
HHAHAH
I know you do
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Thursday, 10 pm. Younghyun’s house.
Y/N and Younghyun spent the whole night watching bloopers and they even cooked pizza, making a mess out of the kitchen. They both felt like they were teenagers again, they used to hang out and do these things on lazy days.
Y/N wanted to play monopoly a little bit before she went back home, so he pulled out the game for her.
-Man, it’s been a while-he said, while setting up the board and its other pieces.
-I know, right?! I used to have so much fun with this game!
-Me too, I always won- he said with a little smirk on his face.
-No, you didn’t!- she protested.
-What? Of course I did. You kinda suck at this game, no offense.
-No, I don’t...
-Whatever makes you feel better, sweetie- he said in a mocking tone.
She rolled her eyes and helped him set up everything.
They played for a while; she was trying to beat her best friend, but he was right, she wasn’t that good at Monopoly. Still, she was having a such good time with him.
-I can’t wait for our Jeju trip-she said.
-Yeah, it will be good for you. You’ll be able to get your mind off of work and your ex.
-Sure... But I think when I get there I’m going to work on th...
-What?! What part of va-ca-tions did you not understand?!
-But if I don’t work on it some more, I’ll go crazy.
-Well, if you do... Jae and I will throw your MacBook into the sea in the middle of the night, you won’t even see us coming.
-Don’t you dare!
-Don’t make me! You need to rest.
She laughed and gently poked his cheek.
-Thank you for taking care of me.
Now that he found out that she doesn’t have a boyfriend anymore, he thought he could confess but he decided to back down, once again, when he heard the news.
-Oh, I have something to tell you!!- she said, unexpectedly getting excited.
-Should I bring some popcorn?
-Well... Jimin wants me to date her friend, or at least get to know him.
He instantly froze. Jimin! Really?
-And...you...want to?- he asked, disappointed.
-Yeah, I think so. Well... I don’t really know. I think it’s too soon to date anybody.
-So, what are you going to do? You’ll go out with him?
-Maybe, I guess I’ll give him a chance... but, if I don’t like him, would you help me? I don’t want to reject him and make Jimin look bad.
-Sure... You can say I’m your boyfriend if you want to.
-Young K to the rescue?
He nodded.
-Young K to the rescue.
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Younghyun: Wonpil... Jimin got Y/N a date.
Wonpil: What? so soon?
Younghyun: That’s exactly what she said!
Wonpil: But, did you tell her you like her already?
Younghyun: No... she seemed kind of excited to meet this guy. What do I do know?! Wonpil-aaaaaah :(
Wonpil: Hey, no sad faces here. Don’t give up, you can still do something about it.
Younghyun: :(
Wonpil: -.-
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Chapter 6.
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