#//its moomin in the corner thats getting me lol

[teapotgremlin]

// this was just sitting in my screenshot folder isnfjd

[disorganisedpilot]

captains log 15-6/04/21

woke up mid morning but stayed in bed until 12

im enjoying the clothes im wearing these days they make me feel good. today: pink cords, black david lynch t-shirt, sparkly silver socks, grey cardigan w white spots (2nd hand). aeroplane earrings and moomin charm bracelet. swapped cardigan for denim jacket when i went out and added striped ribbed jumper underneath later on, trainers and big bud press bandana

listened eurythmics + aretha franklin

porridge w honey n cinnamon. glass of water n read some of my book

made coffee and wrote list. tried to do A-DTH work but kept getting distracted

went for a long walk with a pal n we both infodumped which was nice

beans on toast, glass of water, read more

made fresh peppermint tea and wrote a shopping list

read a couple of fics. mostly not my thing. i think these days im more of a fic writer than a fic reader. i read a lot, i just dont read much fic

went shopping. came home n ate 2 donuts and a snickers lol

pasta w yoghurt, mint, watercress and black pepper. another glass of water. read more

smashed two of my 1970s pyrex coffee cups by being clumsy and stupid. was really super upset abt it lol. theyre brightly coloured plastic holders with removable glass inserts and i got 3 of them from a really cool vintage shop and the lady saw me looking at htem and i couldnt afford them so i wasl ike oh ill think abt it :'D and then i had some money later on so a few weeks later i went back and she recognised me and she wasl ike ?? coffee cups?? n i was like yEA!! theyre really evocative warm shades of green, yellow and orange, super 70s. and then when my grandpa died i found a bright yellow one in his kitchen cupboard when we cleared his house so i scavenged that to add to my collection. so anyway they were important to me they really represented my dreams abt the future ig. how i want to be independent and how i want my house to look when i finally get to live in my own space and dont have to move back home every year

so yea i was upset!! but its only the glass inserts that smashed so i looked on ebay and actually a bunch of people are selling boring grey ones so im gona buy a couple and cannibalise the glass parts to repair mine. n then ig ill keep the grey parts just in case idk hfdksf

sat on the floor doing nothing for 2 hours lmao . very functional :)

finally i am ready for bed. im very stressed and it makes me lowkey wanna die lol but thats just average . mood swings are off the fuckin charts and i keep having . stupid little trauma memories and the occasional lil illusion thing in the corners of my vision but its fine im fine hfdjkflhsfhdjlhsfhdjfhls help

derm is fucked UP rn and idk why? i just keep making these massive fuckoff holes in my skin for no reason . like bigger than normal. i have at least 3 that are going to scar and like its not been this bad for years, i dont remember the last time i had a derm mark that scarred properly. wow. really showing off how fuckedu p i am rn fdhkjfhsld

wow . long long log!