#//crying in the club rm

[mistralxsoul]

follow up askie!

When Flynn finally came to bed, it was with a heavy thud. Not only must he have been completely exhausted, but he was almost definitely emotionally drained. Since it was knight business Yuri didn't try to pry much, but he knew the basics and that was enough to tell him Flynn wouldn't be over this for a few weeks at least. Not that he blamed him, but he would have to distract him quite a bit to get his mind off the pain of all of it.

As much as he was proud to say Flynn was the highest ranking knight, it came with a lot of concern. Just knowing how hard Flynn could take a single loss of life must have put a pressure on him that Yuri couldn't even imagine as Commandant. As any honest human being should, he treated every life as important and valuable. That meant in a situation like this, with far more than one loss of life, that the hurt in his heart was extremely amplified.

The way he thought of each person as an individual he would never see again. The way he considered the families and friends of every single one of them. Someone could go insane if they thought too much about it. At this age though? Could Flynn really handle this? Sure, he could handle duties like paperwork and meetings. Sure, he could handle passing laws and arguing good or bad ideas. The warring part, even if it was against monsters? If Yuri wasn't here with him to share a bed with him through all of this, he was honestly unsure Flynn's sanity could take it.

When Yuri looked over, Flynn's back was to him. Probably not out of being upset with Yuri specifically and that was probably simply how he was comfortable right now. Yuri scooted over and wrapped his arms around Flynn's waist, both hands finding one of Flynn's and resting on it with a gentle but strong grip. His fingers curled to hold onto the hand. "I'll go with you if you need someone to be there when you deliver them. If not, I'll come right back when you get back. Just don't punish yourself, okay?"

Flynn was strong, but he was... so soft. So easily shattered from things like this. Maybe with time it would get better - at least how he handled it, because Yuri doubted it would ever get easier for him to get through. Watching him go through this was difficult, and whether Yuri liked it or not, he couldn't do a thing to prevent it in the future. This would happen again at any scale.

Yuri moved closer again until his chest was against Flynn's back so he could lower his face into Flynn's neck. It was hard to see him suffering like this, but... he knew this was harder for Flynn than it was for him. Flynn might not even sleep tonight, but... Yuri could at least stay close. As close as he could. "Goodnight, Flynn. I love you."

Flynn knew that Yuri was awake the moment his body hit the sheets. He barely had the strength in him to even climb underneath the blankets but he somehow managed though he couldn’t really do much beyond that. Normally, when in bed with Yuri, he would roll over and pull the man into his arms, not caring if he was asleep or not (hopefully not but there was something amusing and adorable about hearing the drowsy whines of protest from the other when his sleep was disturbed). He would nuzzle his face into the man’s hair, kiss his temple and then together they would fall asleep in the comfort of each other’s presence.

Tonight… Flynn couldn’t even bring himself to turn over to face Yuri. Part of him felt like he didn’t deserve such a luxury tonight. So many people would never get the luxury of falling asleep next to their partners ever again. It felt as if it were mocking the lives lost by cuddling up to his own sweetheart knowing that they would never get to feel the touch of their own loves ever again. It just wouldn’t be fair.

Still, he should’ve known that Yuri wouldn’t let him get away with that so easily. Within minutes, he could feel arms slip around his waist and familiar hands wrapping around one of his own. Flynn didn’t have the energy to fight it but even if he did, he wasn’t sure he wanted to. Feeling Yuri’s warmth pressed against his back was a comfort. A warm and familiar feeling that made Flynn feel… safer. Then Yuri presses his face against Flynn’s neck and it’s almost as if the dam breaks.

Flynn could feel his eyes begin to water as he let out a wet little laugh. “You might… see a bunch of people get angry with me… If you come with me, you have to promise not to get defensive… Okay…? They won’t be able to help it.” But he knew that Yuri understood that. But the reminder was still put out for not just Yuri, but for Flynn himself.

Finally, Flynn decided that even though he didn’t deserve to feel the comforting warmth of Yuri’s arms, just for tonight only, he was going to be selfish. Slowly, he turns in Yuri’s arms and returns the embrace, arms wrapping around Yuri tightly as he buries his wet face into his partner's shoulder. Letting their legs tangle underneath the sheets, Flynn scoots as close as he possibly could to Yuri and the comfort he offered.

For tonight, he decided, he would let his defenses drop before having to build the walls back up in order to face the trials that would begin starting tomorrow. For tonight, he would at least allow himself to enjoy Yuri’s comfort, no matter how much he felt he didn’t deserve it. He’d let the man take care of him this time around. As his shoulders shook, he decided to let it all out tonight, to try and empty everything out just so he could bottle it up again during the trip without fear over everything spilling over. And then once he returned home, he hoped Yuri would allow him to be selfish once again like this. Hoped that he would allow yet another moment of weakness, just between the two of them.

“...love you too…”

[redplusblueequals875]

Me for the next year and a half. Damn this day sucks.

[leclercloml]

Blaugrana Girl | PG8

pairing: pedri gonzalez x modric!reader

summary: barcelona's golden boy and La Liga's starboy, who've been single for a while and have finally started dating someone, and that someone turns out to be none other than the daughter of the famous midfielder of their biggest rival and the 2018 Ballon d'Or winner, Luka Modric.

genre: SMAU

warnings: google translated spanish and croatian, grammar mistakes i guess, incorrect match dates (to match the storyline)

author's note: I can't believe this is my first time doing a footballer fic even though football is my favourite sport alongside f1, anyways hope you guys like it

ynmodric

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ynmodric 🕶️🤍

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lukamodric10 moja prekrasna kćer 🤍 (my gorgeous daughter)

⤷ynmodric Hvala ti dad 🫶🏻 (thank you dad)

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toni.kr8s hermosa chica 😊🤍 (beautiful girl)

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username wifey.

ynmodric

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yourinstagram no I still haven't forgave him for 2 goals against us but I guess he's kinda cool.

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judebellingham I have apologised 10 times already.

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pedri

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pedri força barça ye FUERZA TENERIFE!! 💪🏻💔🏝️

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pablogavi vamos hermano!! (Let's go brother!!)

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adidas magician 🪄

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ynmodric incredible performance! praying for tenerife 🇮🇨❤️

⤷pedri muchas gracias y/n, realmente lo aprecio ❤️ (thank you so much y/n, i really appreciate it)

⤷username ajssvakdbsnkshdksdj yes yes yes

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username vamos pedri!!! Visca barca!

ynmodric

tenerife, canary islands, spain

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ynmodric no fire could ever burn the beauty of this place 🏝️

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username she's so beautiful wtf

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vinijr hope you're enjoying your vacation 🏝️

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⤷username excuse me? What's that emoji supposed to mean?

username canary islands?? TENERIFE??!!

⤷username what's wrong with canary islands?

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⤷username you're joking right? You do know who's from tenerife?

⤷username who?

⤷username pedri, the barca midfielder.

⤷username excuse me???!! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK??

judebellingham spending summer alone? Might be boring af.

⤷ynmodric who said I was alone?

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⤷username see I'm not trying to be delusional and all shit but whenever someone mention canaries or tenerife the only person i could think of is Pedri 😭

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⤷username me too 😭😭

username imagine pedri posting himself in canary islands after this

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pedri

tenerife, canary islands, spain

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pedri summer break 🏝️

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⤷username predicted what?

⤷username go check y/n modric's post, her and pedri are spending summer vacation together !!!

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pablogavi I wonder when was the last time I saw that location on a post 🤔.

⤷pedri keep wondering.

⤷username under y/n's post!!!

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⤷username he liked!!!

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⤷username Jude punching the air rn

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username SO WE CAN SEE Y/N WEARING A BARCA JERSEY???

⤷username never

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ynmodric

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ynmodric it was supposed to be a surprise or soft launch or whatever but y'all are literal Sherlock Holmes, so here it is, the love of my life, the most precious thing to me, MY beautiful boyfriend, te amo bebe ❤️ (AND don't worry y'all dad approves)

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pedri was the last pic really necessary???

⤷ynmodric what? you look cute!!!

⤷vinijr you really do 😹

⤷username lmao 😭

⤷username divided by rivalry united by y/n

⤷username el clasico gonna be more fun now

pedri te amo mucho ❤️

⤷ynmodric te amo mucho también❤️

_ferminlopez we're not sherlock holmes, you both are just stupid.

⤷ynmodric OK rude.

⤷pablogavi he's right tho, you both made it so obvious 💀

⤷pedri go away, both of you.

⤷username I'M DYING 😭

⤷username i mean they're not wrong, they both made it so obvious

lukamodric10 where did you get that picture from???

⤷ynmodric I have my ways don't worry.

⤷username I'm speechless.

pedri mi mujer 🫶🏻 (my woman)

⤷ynmodric yours only 🤍

⤷rodrygogoes gross 🤢

⤷ynmodric go away hater.

fedevalverde hermoso 😍 (beautiful)

⤷ynmodric thank you fed, but why tf do you comment like a 30 year old aunt.

⤷fedvalverde I do not??

⤷username you do 😭

⤷username I'm sorry valverde but you do 😭😭

username LUKA'S PIC I'M DYING, SHE'S SO ICONIC 😭

⤷ynmodric I mean you guys were so worried about his reaction and all stuff so

⤷username AHHHHHH!!!! SHE REPLIED

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username Y/N IS WEARING A BARCA JERSEY, IN A MATCH!!?? WHY DIDN'T ANY OF US SAW THIS BEFORE

⤷ynmodric I'm surprised you sherlock people didn't found out earlier, guess i outsmarted you all.

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username they're the IT couple

username pedri you better treat my woman right or else 🤺

⤷username stop you're embarrassing.

⤷username 💀💀💀

lukamodric10 sviđa mi se, dobar je dečko 🤍(I like him, he's a good guy)

⤷ynmodric zaista je vrlo simpatičan (he indeed is very likeable)

⤷judebellingham @/pedri you have the approval from big man

⤷pedri appreciate it 🤍

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⤷username me too girl me too

pedri te amo ❤️

⤷ynmodric Yo también te amo ❤️

pedri

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pedri my no. 1 fan aka the love of my life, te amo mucho ❤️

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ynmodric proud to be the no.1 of the most perfect boy known to mankind

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⤷ynmodric help what 😭😭

⤷pedri not true!!!

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⤷ynmodric he do look very pretty with those pink tint on his cheeks

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⤷username pedri is whipped 😭

pablogavi i had to watch you both make out infront of me to get that picture and in return i get no pic credits????

⤷pedri it's not about you.

⤷pablogavi it should be.

⤷ynmodric 📸; angry bird

⤷pablogavi I am not???!!!

⤷pedri you are

⤷ferrantorres you are

⤷_ferminlopez you are

⤷judebellingham you are

⤷vinijr you are

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⤷username divide by rivalry united by yn and pedri

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ynmodric mi amorrrrr ❤️

⤷pedri ❤️❤️❤️

⤷username cutiesss 😭😭

ynmodric fuck it, imma pull a frenkie, 👵🏻❤️👴🏻

⤷pedri lmfao😭

⤷mikkykiemeny stop 😭😭

⤷frenkiedejong what's wrong with that emoji??!

⤷ynmodric absolutely NOTHING 🫶🏻!

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username they're literally the cutest and the best couple ever

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username do you want real love or do you just want what they have.... what's the difference actually??

username bro scoring on and off pitch

ynmodric Te amo mucho mi amor ❤️ (i love you so much my love)

⤷pedri Yo también te amo mucho mi amor❤️🫶🏻!!(I love you so much too mi amor)

⤷username GOD IT'S ME AGAIN

username they're the best fr

username i love them your honour.

[woso-dreamzzz]

When I read about Bambi (AV) and her children with RM player, I just thought of that scene where Alexia is taking a crying girl as mascot who was saying all the time she's Madrid fan and holding the clubs badge with one hand and with other Alexia.

Imagine now Alexia is doing some charity game and wants to go out with one of her grandchildren but they are crying and saying that they are Madrid fan and can't wear Barca shirt.

Alexia actually being a little bit pouty and is like 'Barcelona is in your blood!' and Bambi's kids are like 'but I don't like Barcelona! I'm Madrid!'

[mochminnie]

Lovin U Right

Based off Jungkook’s Single ‘Seven’. BTS and many more Kpop idols will appear in this series. This will have no usage of your name or (y/n). The Main Character/Reader will be Plus Sized and her name is Elizabeth ‘Lizzie’. Jungkook who is life of a party, a total himbo that tries for 7 days to show you how much he loves you. Who doesn’t just want to get in your pants, wanting more than that. Himbo clingy JK wants to be loved, who wants your attention. 

Setting: College Au

Tropes: Polar Opposites

Warning: Sexual Themes, Fat shaming, College Partying, This isn’t going to be based off of Korean College more like Americanize based through Pop Culture references, Himbo like behavior of BTS.

Check out the mood board https://www.tumblr.com/mochminnie/723830921903620096/what-if-jeon-jungkook-fall-in-love-with-a-plus?source=share&ref=mochminnie

Author’s Note: This is a fictional portrayal of Jungkook and other idols. I tend to see comments about Kai and Jennie when I wrote my Rose x reader story on wattpad. I know I am writing about celebrities and this is all honesty for fun. I will be writing about Taehyung and Jennie. This book don’t match the idol’s personality. I face claimed casted these people to create a story for fun and possibly for people to enjoy. Please check out my other JK Series ‘The Warlock and The Witch.

Playlist

'Seven' - Jungkook

‘I Got It’ - Thuy

'Supershy' - New Jeans

'Baby One More Time' - Britney Spears

'Fantasize' - Ariana Grande

'Euphoria' Jungkook

'Something New' - Zendaya and Chris Brown

'Left Right' - XG

'Wild Side' - Normani ft Cardi B

'34+35' - Ariana Grande

'Me & U' - Cassie

'Like Crazy' - Jimin

'New Dance' - XG

'Dance The Night Away' - Dua Lipa

'Cuff It Wetter remix' - Beyoncé

'No Problem' - Nayeon ft. Felix

‘Girls Like Me Don’t Cry’ - Thuy ft. Min

'Cool for the Summer' - Demi Lovato

'Something Real' - Summer Walker, Chris Brown, London On a Track

'Take You Down' - Chris Brown

'Hype boy' - New Jeans

'Wet The Bed' - Chris Brown

'Snooze' - SZA

'3D' - Jungkook ft. Jack Harlow

'Heart Attack' - Demi Lovato

'Check' - Girls Generation

'It's You' - MAX ft. Keshi

'Cherry' - Rina Sawayama

'You & I' - JRE

'If you Stay ' Joseph Vincent

'Somebody' - Kyungsoo (D.O.)

"Dear No One" - Tori Kelly

‘I Don’t Care’ - Jeremy Passion

‘Agora Hills’ - Doja Cat

‘Sweetest Pie’ - Dua Lipa

‘Kiss Me More’ - Doja Cat ft. SZA

‘I Know’ - RM & JK

‘Ditto’ - NEWJEANS

‘Partition’ - Beyoncé

‘Too Much’ - JK, the kid laroi, central fee

‘Perfect Night’ - Le Sserafim

‘Somebody’ - Jungkook

‘Yes Or No’ - Jungkook

'The Party & After Party' - The Weeknd

Chapter 1 

Maru lit up her cigarette up the balcony. The rest of the girls drinking soju and ordered take out tteokbokki, Korean hot dogs, and fried chicken, corn cheese. To celebrate, Their one year anniversary living together. Maru encourages Lizzie to go to the hottest parties and clubs in town. Not only that, their other roommates Jisoo, Jennie, Lisa, and Rose. Will try their best to get her out of the house. 

“Lizzie put down your iPad and stop reading WEBTOON.” Maru grabbed the iPad from her with one hand and the other with her cigarette smoking. 

Lizzie scoffed and yelled at Maru. “Hey, I was just starting a new story!” 

Lisa, “Maru just give her ipad back. Don’t get close to her because she has asthma.” 

Maru scoffs, “Please, It’s not like she hasn't smoked weed before.” 

Jennie, “That’s much better than cigarettes.” 

Jisoo heard the doorbell ring. “The food here!” Jisoo smiled and yelled out. Rose immediately got up with Jisoo to get the food. They prepare the food on the balcony. While the rest of the girls grabbed the plates, utensils, napkins and beverages. Maru Hiding the Ipad from Lizzie. Lizzie just gives up; she's now helping with the food. When it’s finally prepared. 

Jennie was the first to dig in. “You Know Maru can give your Ipad back if you go to the party with us.” 

Liz, “I’ll live in a moment! Maybe I’ll go. But can you give it back?” Maru gives it back then Lizzie puts it away in her room. So her and the girls play a game.  

Rosie wants to play the clueless party game then everyone else gets excited. Except Lisa doesn’t want to play. When Lisa thought that Rosie didn’t see her face scrunched up and mouthed no to the rest of the girls. “Think that I didn’t see you? I'll kill you.” Lisa got scared. Jisoo and Jennie laugh. 

Lizzie, “We will all play the clueless party game even if Lisa doesn’t want to join.” Rosie was excited again. Lisa rolls her eyes then Rosie pinches Lisa’s ears. Jennie and Jiso are trying to break them up. Lisa starts screaming. “Ow, that you bitch!” Lisa slaps Rosie. 

Rosie, “Ugh you slut!” Pushes her. 

Jennie stopped breaking the girls up and got the notification text on her phone from Taehyung. “We have all been invited to a party tonight!!! Oh would you look at that, You’re going Liz.” Jennie yelled.

Lizzie shakes her head no. “No, Just no. You girls know I don’t want to party.” All of the girls give her a look. “I mean I do party in small groups. My cousins, and family.”

Rosie, “Well this is different we’re all in our 20’s we should all go out, make out, sleep with anyone we want, we're all hot.” 

Jisoo then dances to, Girls Generation Party. “P-A-R-T-Y!!! Party time. It’s Party time!!!” 

“Come on Liz You gotta come!” Rosie

Lisa got excited. “You’re going to look hot tomorrow night! I don’t have to play the game!” Rosie glares at her. Lisa got scared a bit. 

“Let’s pick an outfit for her. She’s going to look hot hot” jisoo

Maru, blowing the cigarette in her direction.“She needs to get laid tomorrow night.” Saying calmly with a straight face.

Lizzie gives her a look. “How many gummies did you take again?” 

Maru, “2, 5. I don’t know.” Still smoking her cigarette. ‘How is this girl still going?’ Lizzie thought. After all the drinks, smoking and gummies???

“Come on Tae’s party can’t be that bad! Think about it, come on Liz. Tae is a nice guy. He’s making sure you will go.” Jennie says. 

Liz, “It’s not Tae and his friends I’m worried about.”

The girls wait for her answer. Jisoo asks, “Well? What do you say Lizzie?” But then Jisoo see the look in her eyes that somethings the matter. She didn’t ask her friend what was the matter. It seems she wasn’t too comfortable to share with the girls yet. 

Liz it’s not she’s feeling pressured. She was just worried about one of the boys that broke her heart. The worst way possible will be there… 

Cha Eun-woo.

Not only that Minnie might be there and her friends… Lizzie knows her friends will be there for her. 

Lizzie, “Okay I’ll go tonight and I have to go to this party. To face my fears. To live. You know YOLO!!!” She says the last sentence much awkwardly. 

Lisa raised her brow. “Liz Yolo?” Cringes. 

Jisoo, “YOLO!!!” She started dancing to Party again. Lizzie joins her then all of the girls join except for Maru because she was so high off of the gummies. “We can’t stop stop! It’s a party time!”  Jisoo sings. 

Rosie, “P-A-R-T-Y!!!” 

Liz, “It’s a party, We go rock rock! P-A-R-T-Y”

Jennie and Lisa joins. “Lemon soju, tequila for me, mojito for you

Let's go to Jeju, California!”

Rosie, “We got a party to head too! Come on, let's go get ready!” 

~ ~ ~

Jisoo Suggests a makeover! 

Lisa, “Lizzie already has a great sense of style and knows how to apply makeup. Don’t you think it’s problematic? She’s already gorgeous, young, and a hot mama.” 

Jennie, “It can be but it’s fun!!!” Jumping up and down and she grabs Lizzie’s to the bathroom first.

Lizzie, “Makeovers can be fun.” agreeing and smiling. 

Boy she didn’t know that the five girls are going to bathe her. Lizzie insists. “No, I got this, I can bathe myself. NO! MARU! JENNIE! LISA HELP!!!!” Calling out all of the girls names she got this. 

Lisa yelling at the girls, “SHE DOESN’T HELP WITH THE BATHING WHAT KIND OF MAKEOVER IS THIS???” She pushes the four girls away. 

 The girls make sure she gets her cooter cat, bussy clean and every nook and cranny is clean and that everything is moisturized. 

Lizzie wears contacts tonight. And prep her face before Maru works on her makeup. 

Rosie and Jennie going through her closet. Breaking down which outfit she is going to wear. 

Jisoo, “You should go for the siren seductive look!” Maru does her makeup. And Jisoo does her hair she decided to do voluminous curls. 

Lisa sprayed on some lux honey vanilla perfume. And the rest of the girls made sure one last time that everything was moisturized. 

Then Jennie presents Lizzie a black Prada bag. “Me and the girls got you a bag!” Jennie smiling showing off her gummy smile.

She puts Lizzie's phone and glasses and travel sized stuff for her contacts like case and solution and Maru puts condoms inside. Lizzie, "Jennie!" Groans, Giving her a really look. Looking at the couple of condoms that were given in her bag. "Thanks Jennie I'll be using all of these gladly." Sarcastically scoffs. “URGGGHH.” Rolling her eyes.

The final looks that Lizzie got a brown smokey eye with a cat eye liner and a burgundy lip. Her hair is down with curls. For her outfit. A black lace v neck with cutouts cami, black mini skirt with a slit, and black knee high boots. It’s not that she wasn’t comfortable wearing this, she usually wears these clothes. It’s just that she felt off if Eunwoo and Minnie and their friends saw her. Lizzie loves what the girls have done for her. Since she takes forever to get ready she takes about 2 hours and with the girls help it took about 45 mins to an hour. 

The rest of the girls also decided to wear black tonight for the party. That each of them go with their styles and personalities. The girls take selfies. 

~ ~ ~

Jungkook is getting ready with Jimin for Tae’s party. 

Jungkook sighs. Jimin asks him what’s the matter. Jungkook finishes off with his leather jacket while looking at the mirror. Wearing all black. “I’m just hoping that one girl will stay the next morning. Who just doesn’t leave me”  Then, applying some cologne. 

Jimin questions, “If she stays the next morning you’d think she’ll be the one you’re looking for.” 

Jungkook is still a little sad.  “I’m not sure, all I want is to find a girl that I can continue to date. Someone I can get to know. Who just doesn’t see me as a pretty face, more than my talents and more than a one night stand.” 

Tae then walks in the room. “Hey buddy, why so glump.” Giving Jungkook a side hug. Still being happy go lucky. 

Jimin says, “He wants to find a girl in a committed relationship.” 

Tae then messes up his hair. “You’ll find a lucky girl tonight I just know it.” Gets a notification from Jennie. 

Tae smiles from Jennie’s Text.

Me and all of the girls are going to the party tonight! Including Lizzie!

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no. 17: I’ll pretend being with you doesn’t feel like drowning

predebut/debut!yoongi x female idol

summary: kanako is an established idol with a growing career and a secret relationship with a producer from her label, haneul. when she’s asked to work with yoongi and rm to create a track for her, she gains unexpected feelings for a certain upcoming rapper. with her increasing fame, her controlling boyfriend, a set of six boys who seem to have grown an attachment to her, and a new boy who’d give her the world, how will she figure out a way to balance it all?

(definitely inspired by boygenius)

word count: 4.9k

genre: ANGST, friends(?) to lovers, slow burn, fluff

chapter warnings: toxic relationship (not w/myg), mentions of mental health

inspo song: cool about it by boygenius

MARCH 30TH, 2012, 3:09AM

It’s been too long. We’ve been here too long. The night is coming to an end, so why is everything starting? What happened? I can’t get out. All I feel is my life coming to an unfortunate halt. I can’t go back to square one, I have too many times. I’d rather just- 

“Well this is something.” Haneul says. The woman next to him has her arms crossed like she’s annoyed or upset. I don’t care, though. I don’t care about anything right now. I just want to leave. I look at Yoongi who’s looking at me, as if he knows that I’m falling apart. 

I can never be happy. I can never enjoy life here. 

“Just let us go, yeah?” Yoongi spits, attempting to push past the taller man. Haneul doesn’t let him, noticing the hickey that I placed on Yoongi’s neck just moments prior. I feel myself tense up, my breath reaching its end. My mouth curls slightly upside down like a child. Because that’s what he makes of me. I feel so small compared to him. What should I say? How can I disappear from his towering presence that is so familiar to me? How can I clean myself of the grime he left? 

Haneul shakes his head, “So this is what you’re up to, huh? Then why are all the tabloids saying you’re so broken you can’t even leave your dorm? Do you think they know you’ve been whoring ar-” He’s blown to the side, bumping into the girl with the black dress as he keeps his body propped up. Namjoon stands next to him, breathing heavily and breathing fast. I scan his body to meet with his fist, shaking. 

Yoongi holds my hand but I jerk back, completely thrown off by this whole situation. My body feels too sensitive to be touched. I feel too dissociative to be brought back down to reality. 

Haneul stands back up, leaning his arm to throw a punch right back at Namjoon. I place my hand over my mouth, unbelieving that this is actually happening. And this is how it chooses to unfold. Not even a text, a random call from him, this. Is this what I deserve? Is this what some power, whatever it is, thinks I deserve? Soon enough they’re tackling each other relentlessly, tossing and turning. It’s so hard to look away but I know I can’t leave, but I don’t know what to do. 

I see Yoongi trying to reach for Namjoon to break him away but has no luck, Namjoon is obviously determined to finish whatever he has planned out in his head. And I’m scared to figure out what it is. They’re both doing damage to each other until Namjoon gets his way on top of Haneul. He grabs Haneul’s head and bangs it down on the club floor only once, his chest moving up and down quickly as Haneul lies there breathlessly. 

“Namjoon…” I whisper. He looks up to me and gulps, seeing the tears that are falling down my face. Once I cry I don’t stop, not ever. This time they’re uncontrollable and loud and they don’t wait for anyone. Seeing Namjoon’s reddened cheeks and Haneul’s stricken-face is enough for me to leave. I don’t bother stopping for Yoongi or Namjoon who yell my name out continuously. 

I don’t look back, I keep running. I forget that the end of the hallway is met with the crowd of people that block the passageway to the exit. I push and shove through the crowd, being extra careless about who I hurt in the process. All I can think is to get out. Running away, never coming back. There’s snot dribbling down my upper lip and I’m sure my makeup is ruined. 

When I’ve come to the end of the dance floor I see the glowing bar that has my jacket hanging off a stool. I grab it as I run to the door, not knowing who could be outside. Who could see me like this, again. Again, again, again. 

Seeing Haneul and hearing him speak was the breaking point. I wish it could’ve stayed a bad memory. Something I could surely heal from and was in the process of doing so. But I wasn’t meant to heal. I’m not meant to stay here. I know that now. With every chance I truly gave myself came something bad in return. I’m the curse. 

The cold March air hits the tip of my nose as I run up the stairs, goosebumps trailing all over my body. I throw my jacket on with haste, smelling Yoongi’s familiar scent. If only this, he, was enough to make me forget Haneul. But he isn’t. God, he isn’t. No one or nothing can ever fix me. I’m so sure of it now. 

I’m a few steps away from the club until I freeze in my tracks. All I can think about is Jungkook, about where he was. Why am I thinking about him? Why is he the only thing I can focus on? I turn on my heels to run back to the club until someone else jumps out of the club doors. But it’s not Jungkook, it’s another boy. The person that I cannot be talking to right now. 

“Yoongi, please. I really can’t-”

“Let me come with you. I can walk you home and make sure you’re safe, I’m sor-”

“Please just leave me alone, please.”

“Kanako hear me out-”

“STOP!” I shout at him. His head tilts back in shock. But still, he inches closer. He’s still trying. 

Stop trying. 

I give myself a moment to tranquilize. I don’t feel calm whatsoever, but I can’t speak like that to him or anyone. But I don’t want to open up, I don’t want to let him in ever again. The ticking time bomb I always thought I portrayed had finally exploded. My cup has been tipped over the brim. Whatever metaphor it is, I know I’ve finally given up.

“I n-need time alone. To think.” I say, now quietly. There’s tears pricking his eyes as he stops trying to move towards me, making my heart break. His hands look like they’re shaking for my touch. His feet look like they want to walk me home. His lips look like they want to kiss me goodnight. But I can’t have that. Not anymore. This is what is good for me, this is what I need.

“No, Kanako. You need someone to help you. And I can do that. I’m here for you.” He pleads. 

The cars passing by are muted in my ears, his words isolated in the vicinity of us. Seoul seems so quiet tonight, but I think I’m just having a hard time comprehending life outside of this. My forehead pounds with how hard I’m crying, the sensation feeling almost unbearable. 

I choke out a sob, “N-No, Yoongi. Stay away from me. I can’t be here anymore.”

“What do you mean by that? D-Do you want to break up with me?”

His words sound so small compared to my thoughts. Compared to what I’m thinking. Don’t say it Kanako, don’t say-

“I’m leaving Korea.” I blurt out. It’s something my brain wants, to push him away further. To forget about me. I want him to hate me. Feel anything but sympathy, it’ll make this easier. 

He shakes his head, “What- What do you mean by that, Kanako? What are you saying?”

My bottom lip quivers and I look away from him, staring at the sky. “I signed up for an abroad program in America. I’m leaving.” I admit. I can’t bear to look at him at this moment. But a voice makes me have to, a small one. One that belongs to someone who was one of the reasons I stayed. 

“You’re leaving?” A muggy Jungkook asks. His face is still red from dancing in the club and his shirt clings to his body with sweat. He looks struck, lost. All I want to do is hug him but I can’t. Not as long as I’m the one doing the hurting. He doesn’t deserve that. 

My eyes soften, more tears. “I-I…”

Yoongi is aggrieved now. He laughs just like I have times before, manically. 

“Tell him, Kanako.” He speaks bitterly. It cuts through me just like this sharp, cold night. I feel it like a piece of sheet metal on my throat as the words roll off my tongue with hesitation.  “I’m so sorry, Jungkook. I’m so sorry, I have to.” I cry out, almost begging for his forgiveness. He looks just like the small boy he is at this moment. Like he’s crawling into a safe, confined space to be protected. Every part of me wants to reach for both of them, to tell them it was all a lie. But I can’t take it back. The words have been said, and I’m now the worst person alive. It’s okay, this is how it was always supposed to happen. Morbid and cruel, just like me.

Jungkook is too distraught to say anything and he steps away little by little. Like I’m hurting him, like he’s afraid of me. Those doe-eyes, they’re now fearful. 

Yoongi walks towards him and gives him a tight embrace, leaving me to my own accord. All I can think to do is to walk away. I turn my back and wrap my jacket around myself, knowing I’ll never be able to forgive myself for not going back. 

I’ll never forgive myself. 

MARCH 30TH, 2012, 7:12AM

I slept for one hour. It wasn’t until I heard the rest of the boys open and close their dorm doors that I awoke, hoping to hear a knock or two on my door. But it never came. Not one. I waited for an hour, hoping they’d have a change of heart. 

But I’ve been awake ever since and staring at my ceiling. No noise whatsoever, just succumbing to my self-destructive thoughts. Imagining this night repeatedly. The drinking, the dancing, Yoongi’s lips on me, Haneul’s cologne, Namjoon’s shaky fist, Jungkook’s heartbroken expression. It goes in that order. Sometimes I remember certain details and it makes my body tense up and I start crying all over again with no one to hold me this time. 

Then I think about this past year. I replay those memories to dig the metaphorical knife deeper. Haneul, Yoongi, the boys, Jeju, back to Seoul. That order isn’t very specific though. I get flashes of Yoongi’s smile or Seokjin’s bickering once in a while and curl my body into a fetal position, hoping the self-soothing would work better this time. It never does. 

There’s so much loss. So much pain. 

I decided to finally open my phone during the night, after all these months. Just to make myself feel worse, honestly. Loads of texts and missed calls from people I haven’t heard from in years. Texts from Haneul, calling me all the names I bet he wishes he said aloud tonight. The news coverage doesn’t hurt me as much anymore but it does validate the thoughts I have about myself. I spent another ten minutes crying while looking through everything everyone has been saying until I reached a text message from a name I haven’t heard in years. 

Keiko. An old grade-school friend I had in Japan. She knew me before my mother passed, she knew who I was before any of this happened. 

Keiko: Koko, so nice to not see your face on the TV for once. I know that sounds so weird but I had a feeling I needed to tell you that. How are you doing? How’s life? I’m in New York now, interning at a publishing place. So cool, right? Not as cool as being an idol though. Let’s talk sometime! 

She used to call me Koko. Something my mom said once that Keiko heard and loved ever since. My heart aches to talk like a child with her again. I want to sit on the floor with crayons and laugh about how funny each other’s drawings were. I want to make mud pies in her backyard and have her mother scold both of us for getting so dirty. I want to have a princess-themed birthday party and invite all my friends over. I want to go back. 

I’ve been staring at the text for an hour now, wondering if I should call her. It’s much too early, and she’s probably working. I don’t want to bother her. Isn’t it mid-day for her? I’ll seem so weird calling her at this hour, my time. But why is my thumb hovering over the call button? And why do I click it? I don’t expect her to answer. She has better things to do, like not calling me. I press my phone against my ear and tear-stained cheek, feeling the vibration of the call ringing against my skin. 

“Ah, Koko?” I hear her as she picks up. Hearing her call me that gives me a sense of relief for some reason.

I sniffle, attempting to sound fine. “Keiko, you picked up.”

“Yes of course. Jeez, how are you?” I hear her smiling. I can see her face now. I used to stalk her instagram so I know she had cut her hair short a bit ago. She always had long hair which made people say we looked alike often. But she cut it. She let go. 

“I-I’m good. I’m good. How are you?” I ask, hearing the quietness on the other line. It doesn’t sound like she’s busy. That makes me feel less of a burden. 

“I’m good. I’ve been wondering about you.”

“Oh. Have you?”

“Yes, of course.” She says again, “I was just thinking about that time my mom got so mad at us for making mud-pies in my backyard. You remember that?” 

She says that as if it isn’t breaking me into a million pieces more. I hold my chest tightly as I begin crying again. Again. 

“Yes…I do. That was so-” I let out a choke. 

“Oh, Koko. What’s wrong? You don’t sound okay.”

I shake my head as if she’s here, looking at me. “N-No don’t worry about me. I’m alright.��

“You sure?”

It takes everything in me to say the next seven words, “Actually, I don’t think I’m okay, Keiko.”

I want to apologize. I don’t feel deserving of comfort right now, but I need it. I need to be reminded there was a time before all of this. 

“What’s happening?”

I sob into the phone, “I-I really miss my mom. I miss not being here. I wish you could know what’s going on because I don’t know if I’m strong enough to recount everything that’s happened right now.” 

She lets out a small breath. “I know…that it must be…hard. Without her. I know how close you guys were. I’m so sorry Kanako.” She’s being sincere. Like she’s stopped what she’s doing to tell me that. 

“I think I’m going to leave Korea.”

“Really?”

“Yeah…I signed up for an abroad program. It’s actually in New York too, but it’s at a community college. It sounds great, I just don’t know if I should leave.”

“Why is that?”

I wipe the tears from my face and stare at the pink ribbon that lays on my side table. The one he wanted me to put in my hair. I look at the scar on my hand, faint but there. When he rushed to aid me. I feel his kiss on my skin. When he loved me hard, hard, hard. 

“There’s someone. Multiple people. I met them all here. I love them, but I love this one person especially much.” I say through my croaky voice. My throat has been abused by my sobs and shouts and screaming. Also, I’m still in the same clothes. I’ve been rotting in my bed ever since I left the club. 

“Oh, I see. But Koko, this isn’t about him right?” 

“What do you mean?”

She hums, “Well it’s about what you need. Do you need to leave but want him?”

I turn over on my back, my phone still against my ear with my hand. “I think I need him.”

She’s silent for a moment. “You have time to come back to him.”

She confuses me once again, “Come back to him? I can’t ask him to wait for me.”

“Well I’m not saying that. But if it’s really meant to be, then you can go off on your own to figure out your life and you’ll run into each other again, like fate.. I saw it in a movie once.”

Her logic is a tiny bit flawed but I understand her nonetheless. It makes it easier, the thought of leaving, But it doesn’t take away the guilt. And it’s tremendous, the guilt. 

“Yeah. Maybe.”

A beat. 

“Hey Koko.”

“Yeah?”

She pauses, “Thanks for calling. I’ve been having a stressful time and it was great to talk to you again.”

I’m caught a bit by surprise, thinking it was only one-sided. But we both needed each other in the end, I suppose. Maybe it was kismet, fate. Maybe. 

“You too Keiko.”

“And hey, if you ever end up in the big apple, call me. I’d love to have another tea party.”

I grip the phone tighter, 

“Me too, Keiko.”

MARCH 30TH, 2012, 12:00PM

I’m living off of minimal sleep but loads of adrenaline as I sit at the same table with the boys. A conference table. Bang-PD called us in for an emergency meeting, and I assume it’s when he saw Namjoon’s bruises. I’m sure everything came up after that. 

PD-nim sits at the end of the table looking more stressed than usual. I look at Namjoon next, who has an almost unreal black-eye forming. It’s not quite at its peak but there’s already bits of purple that’s formed within the last few hours. The rest of his face looks swollen, especially his left cheek. He turns his eyes to me which makes me look away quickly. I’m sure none of them want to talk to me. They’ve made that clear with the painful silence that’s been happening for the past ten minutes. 

Or maybe it’s the anxiety about what Bang is going to speak about. 

“Kanako…I-I. I’m at a loss, truly.” PD sighs, rubbing his eyes. 

I nod slowly, like a dog who’s been caught. An untrained puppy. I’m guilty. 

“I’m sorry I kno-”

“We’ve been here to help you throughout this whole process-”

“I know and I’m so gratef-”

“But starting a relationship in the midst of this chaos has proven to me that you’re not serious about your commitment to this company.”

Oh. Ouch. 

I can’t help but glance at Yoongi who stares down at his hands. He doesn’t look guilty, he looks like he knows what will happen next. Like they all know what’s going to happen. They’ve been asked here to watch my demise. 

“I understand that.” I whisper. 

Bang-PD shuffles through his papers and pulls out a small stapled set of paperwork. He’s hesitant at first but hands it over to me eventually. “We can’t allow you to continue here. I’ve been informed that you have plans to leave a-and so I think that makes your current status at this company nonexistent. I’m sorry.” He mutters. 

I look down at the papers that are clearly for discharging from this company. One where I won’t be renewing my contract, I’ll be leaving. Once I sign this, it’s final. Everything is dissipating before me. 

All these months, these therapy sessions, just for me to leave. This ending is unsatisfying and heartbreaking. It’s so odd how one night can change anything. I’m not even sure if the part of me that wants to leave is the most dominating, but it feels like that’s what everyone else wants me to do. I wonder if there could’ve ever been an alternate ending, one where we all lived happily ever after. 

But those never exist, not as long as I’m the protagonist. 

And now that Bang knows about me and Yoongi, clearly, means someone had to tell him. And I’m sure it was Yoongi himself. Maybe out of spite, sadness, whatever it was. But I’m not welcome here anymore. I guess my career as an idol ended when it started. I’ve been doomed since the beginning. How unfair is that?

I grab the pen and click the bottom, hovering over where my first signature needs to be placed. Before signing, I look at everyone who sits before me. They’re all watching me at this moment, waiting to see if I’d actually do it. But I will be going down without a fight.

I’m tired of fighting.

I sign the first line, then the second, and third, and so forth. It’s a good five minutes of flipping through all the pages until I’m met with an NDA. I can’t speak about my time here, at least not to anyone important. These months will be a secret. Yoongi, a secret. 

“From now on we won’t speak about your time here at BigHit. After we publicly announce your resignation, the boys cannot mention you at any time if asked. And in regards to you, you are not allowed to talk to anyone about your time here.” Bang says.

It’s just like the last time I was in here, when he swore to protect me. But it’s not just about what Haneul did anymore, it’s about what I did to this company. It’d be unrealistic to think that there would ever be a time that they would be proud to know that they were under my success. It’s embarrassing, shameful. I’ve almost ruined their name. 

As for Yoongi, I love him so much it physically hurts me to think of the fact that I won’t be able to speak about him. Morning, day, and night I think about him. There’s a tickling in my throat to mention him anytime to anyone at all, a burning desire to express how I feel about him. He was never mine, though. If this is how it was going to end this whole time, there was never an us. 

And he’ll be debuting. He can’t have that controversy. He’ll have to act like I never existed either. All of them have to pretend that these past months never happened. 

I sign it. 

That’s the end of the signatures for now, so I hand Bang the papers back. I click the pen once more and set it on the table, placing my palms face down as an attempt to quiet the shakiness. This can’t be real. I was in this room just three years ago, signing a dotted line to agree to be a part of this company. We celebrated with dinner and laughter that same day. It was so exciting to be signed as their first artist. I guess things change in a way we’d never expect. 

“S-So we’ll figure out more of the details later, but for now you have one week to move out of the dorms.” Bang-PD says as he adjusts his glasses.

I shake my head, “My flight is tomorrow morning, so. I’ll be gone. Don’t worry.”

Before breathing in the rest of the energy in the room, I slide myself out of the chair to head for the door. If they won’t speak to me I’d rather cut this off as quickly as I can. Maybe it’ll make it hurt less, that’s where my logic is right now. But I’m grasping at straws, anything that might make me not want to throw myself into incoming traffic. 

A part of me hesitates to open the door, hoping, wishing I would hear any of them speak. To

stop me. But that’s selfish and unrealistic, and they all go back to talking about the rest of the meeting. Like I was never here. I wish Yoongi would run over to me and kiss me one last time. But I hurt him, I’m leaving him. I’d rather him hate me than mourn whatever we were. 

It’s probably better that way. 

MARCH 31ST, 2012, 4:10AM

I wake up early enough to finish cleaning the rest of my room. What was left was just small posters and sticky notes I had planted around my mirror and above my bed. I didn’t want to sleep in a totally barren room so I chose to leave those out for the night. But I’m supposed to be leaving soon, leaving forever. 

Now that I’m officially not a part of this company anymore, there’s nothing here for me anymore. 

I zip up my hoodie and don’t bother putting my hair up. I’m not even sure if most of the clothes I threw on are clean but I don’t really care. I don’t feel like taking care of myself right now. 

Since I’m leaving much earlier than expected, I reached out to Keiko who said I could room with her in her studio apartment. Her parents have always been well-off and since I’ve been living off of a trust-fund type deal, I know I can contribute to payments for a few months. Until I can get back on my feet, despite having zero experience from a proper job. So I’m not sure how that’s going to turn out. 

But Keiko is immensely generous. Although her mother was very hesitant with the idea of me staying with her. She heard the news of what happened and wasn’t necessarily on my side. It’s obviously leaked back to Japan but Keiko says my idol status in the states is practically non-existent and I take that as a good thing. K-pop isn’t huge there, I know that. I’ll use that to my advantage for as long as I can. 

I grab my suitcases and open my dorm door, the hallway quiet and dark. I still remember the day I moved in here, the day I put all those posters up and folded my clothes in the drawers. When the boys were assigned to the dorm across from me, when I was underneath that bed with Yoongi. He was so close to me that day. I still remember feeling his breath on me. 

I delay moving down the hall and let go of my suitcases, reaching for the hyung-lines dorm handle. I feel the coldness of the familiar metal I’ve touched so many times before. Never with hesitation like this, risk. It was always so worth it. Every time I snuck in here to sleep with them, every time I came in to have dinner with them like it was an obvious given. 

I turn the handle, finding it unlocked. Just like it always would be, for me. I open it slowly. 

I peak my head into the dorm and see all of them sleeping soundly. And to my surprise they’re all here, even the young ones. They’re scattered around the beds and some on the floor. I look to my left to see Yoongi’s bed with another boy next to him. There’s an empty space I used to sleep between them and it’s calling my name for one last hold from the both of them. 

I tip-toe to the bed and approach Jungkook who is lying on his side, snoring softly. My hands shake as I touch his shoulder, moving it softly. What am I doing? They don’t want me here. But Jesus, I want to hug them all goodbye. It’s so selfish of me to come in here unwanted but I think a part of me will die on that plane if I leave without a proper goodbye.

This is so selfish, it’s so selfish, it’s so-

“Kanako?” His quiet voice speaks. A flashback of the other night hits me, hard. 

“Yes, yes. It’s me.” I try to smile. 

And suddenly, he leaps to wrap his arms around me. I let my hands float in the air, unsure if I should reciprocate. But eventually I bring them down to feel the lines of his body, the bare skin because he always sleeps with his shirt off. He says it gets too hot at night. 

“I love you, Kanako. Come back soon.” He trembles into my neck,  “Please come back soon.” He whispers again. I bite my lip to hold in my cries, smelling his scent one last time. My nose touches the muscle of his shoulder and I hold him tightly. Remember this. Remember how this feels.

“I will, I will.” I reassure him. I see Yoongi toss around in his bed but he doesn’t turn around. Jungkook holds me for a while longer before parting, wiping the tears from his eyes. He looks at Yoongi and then back to me, “He just needs time. We all do. But you'll call me everyday. A-And maybe when I’m older I’ll visit you. And you’ll visit me, right?” He smiles sheepishly. 

I bring my thumb to his cheek, drying off the last tear of his. 

“I’ll visit you.”

I won’t. I’m not sure if I'll bring myself to pick up his calls. But I’ll keep him close. I’ll keep all of them close to me, even Yoongi who I know can’t look at me. Maybe a small part of me will wait for him forever. Wait for him to turn around and look at me one last time. But for now it’s just his back. I never see his face. 

I’ll wait for him, even if he doesn’t wait for me. 

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an: ^^ get ready for cool about it: eleven years later

[idkanymoretbf]

Vinicius is immature and unprofessional for laughing at Fermin but Ferran saying he’ll hurt Vinicius the next he’ll face him is acceptable and praised

Did you know your clown president supported Tebes’ decision not to have goal line technology lol Laporta also voted in favor of Tebes for reelection

But please continue crying & playing the victims in a league “favored to Real Madrid” it’s hilarious and not pathetic at all

oh please, vini is not unprofessional just for that.. he's so damn disgusting towards everyone, he's a provocator, protected like a polar bear, the only player that can yell at referees' face without facing consequences. remember last season anon? lewa only rubbed his nose and the ref gave him A THREE GAMES SUSPENSION??? do you know when will something like that happen to vinicius? never! vini started his beef with ferran first when he told him that he's a shit player, you're telling me that's a right thing to say to someone lmfao? I don't give a damn about laporta and what he did, honestly. i'm not like madridistas that are protecting and praising their papa perez for whatever he does. we have every right to whine about the refs because this shit is happening the whole season (getafe, granada, psg and now rm), like, we are tired of your ugly club winning everything with the help of refs, we really are. now, if you're a madridista, get off of my blog and piss off please, i don't need you guys on my page!

[kanmom51]

BTS Masterlist

FESTAS

It’s been 9 years

BTS message to Army

BTS selfie collection 21/22

BTS dance record day 1

BTS dance record day 2

BTS dance record day 3

BTS dance record day 4

BTS dance record day 4 (2)

BTS dance record day 5

Festa dinner 14 June 2022

Festa dinner - what now?

PHOTOSHOOTS

2022 BTS 달마중 [DALMAJUNG] Preview

10 Star photoshoot making

Us ourselves and BTS ‘We”

Merry Christmas from BTS over the years

Photos

EVENTS

BTS honorary ambassadors for Busan Expo 2030

BTB BTS Visited the White House to Discuss Anti-Asian Hate Crimes

BTS Oscars 2022

BTS Grammy’s 2019, 2020, 2022

OMG OMG OMG OMG

Yus

BTS on Twitter

18 April 2023 Hobi enlistment

Today we said goodbye to Hobi

PROOF MASTERLIST

A born singer

Yet to come + For youth

Still with you acapella

BTS Yet to come - the cinematic parallels

Proof ot7 Vlive - RM & V and their spoilers

Proof 2 new songs on CD 3

Proof live

BTS Yet To Come (The Most Beautiful Moment) MV Photo Sketch

Mnet comeback 16 June 2022

Yet to come - M countdown

For youth - M countdown

BTS Inkigayo 19 June 2022

Final ending fairies

Members reactions to JM’s ending fairy

BTS Proof live photo sketch

TMA 2021 BTS full performance

Wait, there was a grand prize

Run BTS dance practice

More from Run BTS dance practice

JIN

Jin birthday surprise 10 Dec 2015 - Tae eureka moment

Jin being adorable

when Jin knows he’s cute

Jin concert day 4 - happy birthday

A WTF Jin moment

Oh Jin baby

JM and JK starring in Jin’s IG post 12 July 2022

1 April 2023

Jin Weverse 17 April 2023

JHOPE

Why is Hobi ignored

Happy birthday Hobi - our ray of sunshine

Jhope ‘MORE’ MV Shoot Sketch BTB

Jhope W Korea

W Korea Hobi B-side

Jhope W Korea more photos

Equal signs - Jack in the box

W Korea missing pics from Hobi’s party

Hobi Jack in the box party W Korea photos

I just love Hobi

Me Myself & I J-Hope "All New Hope" silhouette photos

Me Myself & J-Hope “All New Hope” clip

Me Myself & J-Hope “All New Hope” photos 1

Me Myself & J-Hope “All New Hope” photos 2

Hobi’s birthday 18 Feb 2023

Hobi birthday live

Jhope live 26 Feb 2023

Jhope On the street photo sketch

Jihope, Sope and Vhope

Jhope live 26 Feb 2023

Jhope Weverse 10 April 2023

Hobi IG & Weverse 17 April 2023

Hobi's message - 7 May 2023

Jhope 24 May 2023

Jhope 16 August 2023

Hobi

Taehyung

Taenni soft going public

Tae looks happy

More about Paris

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PolyC IG story 13 November 2022

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Poly C’s autograph wall

FUNNY

That that - Run BTS version

BTS members fathering styles, lol

Bangtan Bomb 29 Aug 2021 - SBS 2020 performance Link 2;

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OTHER

BTS’s Dynamite makes it’s way into Rolling Stones list of top 500 songs of all times.

The Truth Untold - Fukuoka Dome Japan

Late late show announcement

Leaving for LV

Bangtan bomb Feb 2015

I'm crying

D-day final

Happy birthday RM 2023

[ikram1909]

I actually don’t have anything against Musiala because he never actually said anything about Gavi, it was 22 year old Davies throwing shade at an 18 year old and I get that liking the post just fuelled the fire but I understand he was only 19/20 and was feeling sad about losing out on a prestigious award he clearly valued (and I also don’t think he was aware of just how much people were already hating on Gavi because up until then it was mainly just madrid fans). Shitty of him but I don’t think he had anything against Gavi personally. That doesn’t take away from the fact that people used it to throw all kinds of horrible comments at him and you can’t just sweep that under the rug because he said it doesn’t affect him. What else is he supposed to say? Any other thing and people would call him a cry baby or “niñato” like they like to say in spain which is basically like a brat.

I think people, including cules, see him on the field with all his fire and fearlessness taking on guys twice his size and age and because he is tough mentally then it doesn’t matter how much hate he gets because he can take, he is strong, he lives for football so who cares what happens outside the pitch. But like the other anon said, if it didn’t affect him he wouldn’t haven been so fast in defending Cuba when that guy made those comments. Because he knows what it’s like to have the media against you since he was 17 and I don’t care what anyone says, the kind of comments they have made about him would affect anyone let alone a literal kid 🙄

(And I also will never forget how no one made anything when the Nations League celebration thing happened, the only one who tried to calm the crowd was fucking Carvajal)

Musiala didn't "only" like the post he also quoted it on twitter agreeing with what was said and I really don't buy the whole he didn't know about the hate train thing because players spend a lot more time on social media than you'd think. And even if he didn't know, he's still a bitter bitch for acting the way he did and his age is not an excuse. Gavi was even younger but could you see him doing the same if he was in musiala's shoes? No. Obviously Davies is even worse but let's not act like he's blameless. Their little tantrum resulted in too much abuse thrown at Gavi for me to care about any excuse they might come up with so it's going to be fuck Davies, fuck musiala and fuck Nagglesmann forever! I also think it's ironic that it was Bayern related people who had the most to say about Gavi winning his Copa only for them to be one of the first clubs to try to steal him from us the second the information about his contract being unregistered was made public 🥴 we're all Gavi fans at the end of the day.

And yeah the fact that he was the youngest present at the day of the nations league celebration and he was literally forced to speak to the crowd when he didn't even want to yet no one but Carvajal kinda tried to get people to stop. Will never forgive Jordi for that but again we all know he's a weakling and can't be relied on 😒😒 I also think it's very ironic (and sad) that the two times Gavi was defended publicly was by RM players 💀 Carvajal that day and Tchouaméni when he defended him after Spanish media tried to run the story that Gavi injured him... Life is so funny sometimes

[limoncats]

hey, remember the tag on this post?

you know what? i'm gonna explain.

quick apology if the post sounds weird, it is currently 1 minute away from 11 pm as i'm typing this sentence.

ig this is a vent? anyway long post up ahead so !!

also apologies if this sounds stupid.

btw this post is not a self-diagnosis post

TWs for: mentions of self-h@rm, discussion of trauma

if these trigger you, don't read this! or do, but just be warned.

okay, so,

am i disabled?

alright, so am i physically disabled? no, not to my knowledge.

am i mentally disabled? i have no official diagnosis, but i am speculating. the speculation in question? this whole post

i have speculations that i have Asperger's Syndrome and possible selective mutism

Asperger's Syndrome

okay so. let me show you the symptoms and i'll explain

according to nationwidechildrens.org, the symptoms for Asperger's are:

i'll go over each one and tell you my experiences with each

now uh. i don't actually know what this means ;; but if this counts, i'll put it here: whenever i'm supposed to say basic things like "good morning," or "thank you," i can't seem to verbally? like the words don't seem to be able to come out of my mouth. it actually is more like that i don't even think to say them, so i don't. i remember this whole thing resulted in a fucking argument i had with my mother and her friend JUST because i didn't say good morning to him. as you can imagine, it was pretty traumatic. i think this may actually be more of "struggling to understand social cues," but eh.

i– yeah i can understand emotions usually (if i can clearly see it/tell based off of a person's facial expression what emotion they're feeling.) and i think my expressiveness is fine? idfk however kill me.

i can understand gestures just fine, unless i don't clearly understand what the person means? it's like if my mum points to something but i don't know where she's pointing to because i can't tell (and then she gets mad at me ;;). it might just be a thing on my mum's part but honestly i don't fucking know.

yes! irl the only thing i talk about with my school friends is CoAD since they like it too, and it's usually super awkward when i try to talk to an irl friend who doesn't know/enjoy CoAD so ;; and if they don't, sometimes i tell them about it and keep rambling on and on about it. now regarding the "convos revolving around them," part, i'm also pretty sure that's a yeah too? like yk when i ask a question like "guys what (insert thing here) am i"? i feel that i do that pretty frequent and i think it counts so ?

nah i think my speech is fine

mfw CoAD

auhhh???? i don't know i don't have memory of it so i think no

uh. if getting mad at my mum for making me do chores while i'm having fun either watching a video, talking to friends or drawing counts then uh. yeah

oh ofc. like i memorised how tall Wadanohara's familiars (Memoca, Dolphi, Fukami and Samekichi) are and when Yonaka's birthday is instead of memorising what the word "verbatim" means (it took me some time to memorise)

i don't think i'm that clumsy + my handwriting is fine and it's easy to write so

ohhhh Hm. so i can hold emotions pretty fine (it does sorta hurt to hold in so much anger) but sometimes they do come out a little and i end up like punching my thighs or something. it's happened at school before (yes, i've actually punched my thighs out of anger before)

uhhhhhhh??????? i feel like i'd have to get reeeeally specific for this one and i'm not feeling it right now

now to lights and touch i'm fine, but sound? lemme explain. so i can listen to like a video at (somewhat) loud volume while at home, but if i overhear like loud music coming from a club i get uncomfortable and i sometimes cry

so that's that for the Asperger's part, now let's move on to:

Selective mutism

i'll format it basically the same as the previous section so.

according to NHS, symptoms of selective mutism are:

"characterised by a sudden stillness and frozen facial expression when they're expected to talk to someone outside of their comfort zone" is so real ngl

anyway

yeah i do get nervous. i assume i look so too

my mum tells me i come off as rude, she says like, "hey you can't just stay silent! that's really rude!" wow mum i feel so much better! (<- lie) also i'm pretty sure i come off as sulky because whenever i frown around my mum's friends, once we're separated for something, my mum always says "suratına asma," which basically means "stop frowning." you have no idea how angry i get when i hear that my god.

nah i'm like. 99.9% sure that i come off as the opposite of clingy

yeah i sometimes describe myself as shy (sometimes is emphasised because i usually don't like calling myself "shy" because it makes me feel cringe.)

i. don't know lol. i guess so yeah? yeah i think so actually

i'm not aggressive (at least not physically or verbally), but i do get pissed when my mum asks me. ofc i don't let it out because i don't want to fucking assault mother

now i didn't include this because i don't think it's a disorder, but whenever i go through something traumatic (or the aftermath of something traumatic), i question if i'm real? like i think i sorta put myself in this sort of delusion that i'm living in a nightmare i can't wake up from whenever i go through something traumatic

also i hate looking in a mirror due to questioning who i'm looking at

i still question who i was looking at in the mirror that one day to this day.

i'm not sure if this is dissociation because i don't understand the definition of dissociation, or if it's part of a disorder. i did suspect DPDR, but i don't know i don't think so ? i'm also not sure if this is just puberty with the whole "questioning who you are" thing (though i think that's in terms of identity, not fucking questioning your REALITY 💀)

have i tried getting a diagnosis?

yes, i have, actually, so let me explain:

i wrote a text document to my dad about my speculations on having Asperger's, but he just laughed it off and said "i've met people with autism and you're NOTHING like them haha!!!" which was just. okay dad.

he suggested i tell my mother and i agreed

now this is when things go downhill 😭😭

so i told my mum when i went back to hers and she also basically had a similar response but she agreed to get it diagnosed one day.

then some time later she tells me that i might have to wait 2 years to get my diagnosis so 💀💀💀

and then one day i start telling her that one of my school classmates recommend talking therapy and all of a sudden she gets all hostile like "why do you need to label yourself? what difference does it make? it's unnecessary" which is VERY funny considering this woman is a FUCKING SOCIOLOGY LECTURER WITH A PHD.

we've had a couple arguments about it and it still pisses me off. she even practically made fun of me to her friend's husband when i went to The Netherlands last week and she was like, "yeah i think her generation has a weird obsession with needing to label themselves?" mum do you hear yourself. oh i'm sorry i want to improve my mental health by knowing what's up with me and attempting to get support.

SPEAKING of trying to get support once diagnosed, during one of our arguments over if diagnosis really does anything at all, in response to her saying, "what do you do with it?", i said, "i can well. try and get support ??" and then HER ASS responds with, "THERE IS NO SUPPORT."

FUCK YOU MEAN THERE IS NO SUPPORT???? YOU'RE A SOCIOLOGIST YOU KNOW DAMN WELL THERE IS.

i haven't told either of my parents of my speculations for having selective mutism, though i feel it'll just go the same as what happened with the Asperger's shit so

i think my parents just have stereotypes of autism that i don't fall into so thErEfoRE YoU'Re noT aUtistiC!!!!11!1!!

anyway so that's practically it. thanks for reading what absolute insanity i've gotten myself into, and also what state my mental health is in!!! (ofc this isn't the entirety of my mental health lol.)

have a good day/afternoon/evening/night ♡

— limoncats

[epuiseeparmedia]

Idiots: Cristiano shouldn’t have left RM! He left for ego and look what happened!

Me: The Las Vegas accusation was creeping up in 2017-2018 and literally exploded in September 2018. If you think Perez who didn’t back him for something as simple as tax evasion, and was eyeing Neymar, would have backed Ronaldo for a SA allegation, you’re an idiot. He’d have his contract broken up and 1984ed CR7 out of RM history. Besides Marcelo not one of the people who played with him, or Perez, and known him for years went out and stood by him. Playing friendly years later is a cop out.

How people wilfully ignore context is how we have morons mocking Sancho for losing a UCL final over Ten Hag who got United dead last of the group. “Muh FA Cup” you’re idiots with limited attention span and limited critical thinking skills.

Lots of people, even Ronaldo fans, are leaving vicariously through stars or clubs. Woulda, shoulda, coulda. Them crying about “legacy” and “records” is funny: dude keeps telling you records follow him and not the other (he would have signed city like Henry signed for Barca but shhhh Henry is a “legend” 😂) but they think getting a ucl while being benched half the season, or whole season like Bale or Haazard, to check a box is what Cristiano Ronaldo is about. Ronaldo keeps telling you the moment he quit, we will never hear from him again, and people think he’s joking.

I am not pretending to know what Ronaldo is thinking, but every decisions he took made sense to me and I respected him and Neymar a hell more for leaving their comfort zone and try and compete with other clubs than cowards who won’t leave successful clubs because they know they’ll lose withouT it.

[skipper1331]

I have a request for Niamh Charles if you write for her and feel inspired to write something!! All good if not, it’s up to you, love!!

Reader signed to Chelsea from Real Madrid because the culture at RM was really toxic and when her teammates found out she was looking to leave instead of renew they started excluding her and being really mean. So reader is really shy at Chelsea and struggles with the cultural/language differences but everyone is super welcoming and kind, especially Niamh who develops a crush on reader. Her crush is super obvious to everyone but Reader. 

Anyway fast forward to this season’s Chelsea vs Real Madrid match that ended in 2-2. During the match despite readers nerves about seeing her old club she is playing incredibly well, even though all the RM players are being super rough on her. Which clearly irritates her new teammates, especially Niamh. To make it worse the ref is siding with RM but the worst part is Niamh gets two yellows ending in a red card and being sent off. 

Niamh was being taunted by the RM players around her because they saw her and reader before the game and could see how in love Niamh is with reader, so they used reader to get in Niamh’s head. After the game reader is quick to find Niamh because she’s never seen her so effected by the other teams attempts to get in her head, normally seeing Niamh as a level-headed player, not one that pulls shirts and does sloppy tackles. When reader finds Niamh it’s clear the older girl has been crying so reader hugs her and asks what happened out on the pitch. Niamh is embarrassed to tell her its because the other team were taunting Niamh about Reader because that would give away her feelings. But reader is getting upset seeing Niamh so worked up so she insists on the truth. Niamh ends up blurting out she has feelings for her, then they kiss and share a bed back at the hotel together and a happy ending. Thank you if you choose to write this xoxo

I like that idea! Will work on it:)

[chlodoll]

my top albums (and songs) of 2022 (with some links to my fav performances 😆)

1. le sserafim - antifragile | the live performances are so damn good! | antifragile, impurities, good parts

2. sabrina carpenter - emails i can’t send | i love when i can just depend on an artist to always put out good albums | nonsense, tornado warnings, bad for business, already over, emails i can’t send, because I liked a boy 

3. 4*town - turning red ost | this boy group is everything | nobody like u 

4. red velvet -  birthday | a hit after some misses | bye bye, on a ride

5. sza - sos | it just came out but idc | nobody gets me, f2f, conceited, shirt, gone girl, kill bill, smoking on my ex pack, good days, blind

6. beyoncé - renaissance | hey, look at us! who would’ve thought? not me! now if only we could get the visuals... | church girl, america has a problem, alien superstar, cozy, plastic off the sofa, virgo’s groove, energy 

7. taylor swift - midnights | here i am again riding for one of blondies albums | lavender haze, paris, sweet nothing, glitch, bigger than the whole sky

8. rm - indigo | it feels like the last archive of my 20s too... damn | closer, wildflower, yun, still life, change pt.2, lonely

9. flo - the lead | i have loved seeing their rise this year | cardboard box, immature, summertime

10. nayeon - im nayeon | my girl! | love countdown, candyfloss, no problem, pop!, sunset

11. summer walker - still over it | it came out in 2021, i know, but i really wasn’t vibing until 2022 | circus, bitter, insane, no love, 4th baby mama, 

12. new jeans - new jeans | i got my braids and i’ve been flipping my hair like they do in attention all the time haha | hype boy, hurt, attention

13. jhope - jack in the box | this is so him... and i saw it performed live?! | arson, safety zone, more, what if 

14. encanto ost | i was so scared this would get on my spotify wrapped lolll | what else can i do?, we don’t talk about bruno, surface pressure

15. harry styles - harry’s house | no one is more disappointed than me, but he did something here | satellite, daydreaming, keep driving, late night talking, daylight 

16. euphoria ost | shut up i know... and when s3 comes out i will be back playing the songs everyday | all for us, still don’t know my name, formula, nate growing up, forever, i’m tired, elliot’s song 

-

other songs i was obsessed with: 

black panther: wakanda forever - con la brisa (foudequesh), alone (burna boy) interlude (stormzy), no woman no cry (tems) | bts - run bts, yet to come, left and right (jungkook and charlie puth), stay alive (jungkook), the astronaut (jin), bad decisions, dreamers (jungkook) | chlöe - treat me, surprise | fka twigs - jealousy (feat. rema), oh my love, tears in the club (feat. the weeknd), papi bones (feat. shygirl)  | glorilla - tomorrow (with cardi b) | gracie abrams - block me out, better  | ice spice - bikini bottom | ive - love dive, after like | jessie ware - free yourself | latto - it’s givin, sunshine, big energy, wheelie (feat. 21 savage), like a thug (feat. lil durk) | loona - pale blue dot | kelsea ballerini - heartfirst | marren morris - circles around this town, background music | megan thee stallion - budget (feat. latto), not nice, her, plan b, sweetest pie (with dua lipa) | muni long - hrs & hrs | omar apollo - want u around (feat. ruel), hijo de su madre, tamagotchi, archetype, hey boy (feat. kali uchis) | paramore - this is why | red velvet - bamboleo, beg for me | stayc - run2u, same same | suki waterhouse - moves, good looking | taeyeon - some nights, sirens, invu, weekend, timeless | twice - talk that talk, brave

[idkversace]

I can be a big bitch thinking how much it hurt me to see jude entering the rm, seeing him make a point of saying that the final with Liverpool was an important factor for him to choose the club, I'll take it to myself that he said that because the RM's media team asked, if not I'll cry one more time

[singeratlarge]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Rick Bordia (Mink DeVille), Richard Dreyfuss (interesting to have met you), Arnell Carmichael (Raydio), Kevin DuBrow (Quiet Riot), actress/strongwoman Hope Emerson, Ben Foster, singer-songwriter & Grateful Dead affiliate David Gans (good to have gigged with you), guitarist/songwriter Julio Garcia, the late, great Peter Green, the musical HAIR (1967), Neil Hefti, Randy Jackson, my former bandmate and guitarist/vocalist Kenny Jenkins (Harold Melvin & The Blue Notes), Denny Laine, Robbie van Leeuwen (Shocking Blue), Monty E. Lindsay, Tove Lo, Nancy C. Miles, Melba Moore, Roger O’Donnell (The Cure), Raymond Robinson (“He only came out at night for a reason”), Winona Ryder, Rufus Sewell, Zoot Sims, Peter Stampfel (Holy Modal Rounders), my friend Todd Warren, James Williamson (The Stooges), and award-winning trombonist/composer/inventor Richard Marriott. When he’s not directing The Club Foot Orchestra he’s creating concertos, operas, film soundtracks, and fusing everything from world music to rock’n’roll. His credits include the film RISING SUN and the CBS cartoon series THE TWISTED TALES OF FELIX THE CAT. He also added trombone to my Americana instrumental “Steinbeck Found the Valley” https://johnnyjblairsingeratlarge.bandcamp.com/track/steinbeck-found-the-valley  One day in 2011 I was playing at the 7 Mile House in Brisbane CA, doing Bob Marley’s “No Woman No Cry” with a live off-the-cuff jam band. Suddenly, a hot trombone solo burst out of nowhere. I turned around to find Richard, surprising me after I hadn’t set eyes on him in years. Check out Richard’s music http://www.richardmarriott.com ...and HB RM—thank you for your years of bringing joy and bringing the ‘bone.

#richardmarriott #trombone #composer #clubfootorchestra #risingsun #felixthecat #steinbeck #birthday #johnnyjblair

[alexbkrieger13]

So yesterday I went to see Barça because I was in Barcelona and eventually we will play them so...

Entertaining game if you like goals, that Granada (former Barça player) golazo was amazing and what to say about Pajor and CGH's connection.

Nice environment, nice prize, nice seat and visibility, nice everything minus the transportation to come back home which came 30' late. It's in a small city near Barcelona but trains, buses and trams on Saturdays at that time have you waiting for hours.

Only thing to highlight: the refs are so bad. So is the lineswoman. Literally called more than 3 wrong offsides, disallowed a rightful goal, missed 1/2 pens and almost NEVER called a foul against Granada.

Claudia Pina came out crying because they battered her. Alexia, CGH, Pajor received less kicking than her and it was rough to see honestly because apparently she has been taking beating after beating since the league started.

Btw, many people on twitter will love that 10-1 result for their farmer's league theory. IMO France is even worse than them due to the null competition and open market between both top competitors (Chawinga, Karchoui, Mbock...). What people don't see is that yes Barça were dominant but:

1. Granada's GK was the back up one because of injury of the starter

2. Barça had lots of starters there while Granada maybe didn't as much

3. They only got promoted last season

Liga F doesn't invest, RFEF doesn't care about looking for sponsors, camera work pitch installations and refs are shit because of no money, lots of people are close minded (I got called a "dyke bitch" by some drunk men and moroccan teenagers)

Basically that league is alive thanks to Barça's investment which has lead them to winning that small ass money prize that is UWCL, the president doesn't care and neither does RFEF. RM invested and bought Tacón to match Barça and other clubs started from the bottom, one can only wish a miracle happens and competent people are put in important places to FUCKING DO SOMETHING.

The league of the World Champions. The league of the Nations League champions. The league with the most Ballon d'Or. The league with the current UWCL champions. None of this matters to people and it's really fucking sad, next week I'm going to Tottenham-Liverpool (go reds!) and it will probably fill me and fuck me up the difference on caring for something.

Sorry for the rant but I really recommend going to matches on other places or countries to learn more about their culture, woso culture and appreciate what we have while fighting for more.

(P.D. There were people yesterday who had more than 3h in public transportation to get there, people from the UK, France, Poland, Portugal, lots of Norwegians...)

Peace out!

think this might go down as the longest ask I've ever had. Interesting read thanks for the insight