#//Either they Really gotta offer him some incentive to agree; or he’s gotta Trust them lots

[dutybcrne]

Both Beidou and Kaeya have a breeding kink but not in the way you think.

[borrovved]

dream state of mind

Summary: bulleted scenario, in which you drunkenly end up kissing hyunjin at a party, and everything makes you feel like you're on a high

A/N: non idol!hyunjin, non idol!au, and underage drinking (plz listen to “tkm” by boy pablo when u get to the kissing part!!! it makes the reading experience really lovely uwu)

warnings: oral (female receiving)

ur both invited to this party by a mutual friend, jaemin

at frst u were all like “u gotta give me some sort of incentive to leave my bed, i’m not just going bc ur telling me to”

“there’s free alcohol”

“but i don’t even drink.”

“hyunjin is coming”

“..........go on”

“that’s the incentive pal, so go gussy up and look hot for your mans”

“ok first of all if i rolled up sporting salsa stained sweatpants all of these hoes would fall for me, so i don’t need to gussy up...but fine...i’ll do it for him”

“sick” 

you already take a long time getting ready but this time it takes a little while longer

you want to look flawless as humanly possible, but not so much so that intimidates him and makes him run off. your rbf already does that for you.

you arrive and hear the heavy bass and see the swarm of warm bodies up against each other, half of the ppl have drinks in their hands already. it’s not quite 10 yet, only 9:32 pm.

might as well grab a drink to loosen the nerves, you think

you go to the source of the drinks, and enter the semi crowded kitchen. right away, you see hyunjin.

you must’ve been eyeing him too long bc his eyes seem to shift to your figure. it’s probably the atmosphere of the place that gives you a little bit of some extroverted power, bc you wave at him.

..........he waves back, and smiles that grin u swear u fall for all over again each time you see it

r u smitten? mayhaps.

r u down to talk to him tonight and at least score his number? ye

but first, refreshments.

you’re not the best bartender in the whole world, but you try to eyeball the whole drink mixing to create your own understated cocktail.

a whooole lotta pepsi (or coke...or dr pepper... whatevr it’s brown and it’s good) and an ounce of what you assume, vodka, gets poured in your red cup

the whole thing burns the living shit outta ur throat but it’s definitely making you blitzed in the best way possible.

you casually look over your shoulder to hopefully meet hyunjin’s eyes once again, but is bombarded by a smiley jaemin

“jaem! hi :)”

“:D Y/N! welcome to the jamboree! did you uhhhhh talk to him yet?”

“not quite. but i waved and he waved back so i totally got it in the bag”

“what bag?”

“it’s a metaphor, jaem”

“oh”

“r u drunk”

“hehe mabes.”

“anyway, i need to casually sneak over and strike up a conversation with him but he looks busy and i have no idea what to say to him.”

“leave it to me chum”

“yeah don’t ever call me chum ever again or i’m hitting you”

“well ok party pooper” jaemin then grabs your hand and strides to hyunjin’s direction.

panic finally begins to set in the pit of your stomach and you stop in your tracks.

“wait! jaem, idk if i can do this.”

“:o”

“:/ i want to make a good first impression, but i don’t have a clue as to what to say. i wanna look cool..and hot..but also be an amazing conversationalist.”

“ur actually in good hands. i spoke to him earlier and he asked if you were coming.”

“:o”

“yeah i know! let’s go”

he finally lets go of your hand, and you stroke the fabric of your midnight blue crushed velvet mini dress, the one where chenle blushes at the sight when you wear it

aaaaand here is chenle blushing and stopping mid-sentence and looking at you, jaw practically dropped.

hyunjin turns around to see as to what he’s looking at and he understands completely why.

you look ravishing, to say the least

lowkey gulps a little bc erm ur hot bb

and you feel really hot

“hyunjin, hi” your voice sounds a little sultry, not that you were trying

“hey” he says really cooly. you shiver at the sound of his voice, so melodic even through the loudness of the party

“HEY chenle can you help me move the ping pong table in the basement?”

“but me and jisung already-”

“welp we gotta move it again” and then chenle picks up as to whats going on a lil and is all like aight imma head out

hyunjin takes a sip of his drink and almost chokes a lttle bit when you suggest going somewhere more secluded to hang out

“like where?” he asks

“i’m not quite sure actually”

“how about a spare bedroom upstairs.” your eyes widen at his words and you short circuit a teensy bit.

he realizes this then stammers out a response “u-unless you don’t want to then-”

“that’s actually perfect”

internally sweet bb boy hyunjin is just “:o” bc he doesn’t know what will happen

he has heard some stories about you where you’re incredibly wild but at the other hand he has also heard that you’re just as much as a homebody as you are a party goer

“ok cool”

you lead the way and have to pull down your dress to prevent it from riding up so damn high and hyunjin can’t help but stare at your thighs

like, yeah it would be dope to be in between them but do you know what’s even cooler? resting his head in your lap

he’s a pure boy for the most part

both of you enter the spare bedroom and he shuts the door while you plop down on the bed. both of you are still holding cups, both pretty full

you’ve only spoken to him a few times, but enough to get a general idea of him

he’s soft spoken, a bit dramatic, is a lovely dancer and you noticed he has nice ass hands that could choke I MEAN hold your more petite hand

you blush at the idea

he finally sits on the bed beside you and opts to put his drink near the bedside table, you would rather hold yours, gives you something to do with your hands

“hi” he starts off

“hi” you say back

at first it’s a normal conversation

he asks how ur doing, you ask him the same

he says parties are kinda obnoxious

you partly agree and say “depends on if you’re with the right people or not really”

he hums in agreement

it’s back and forth conversation for a few minutes

and then you guys start drinking more in between responses

you don’t know when it happened but now the two of you are right beside each other, thighs touching, both tipsy from your drink

at some point you ditched your drink and got curious as to what his drink tasted like, and he offered you to sip. it’s fruity, and quite sweet

“fair warning tho, chenle suggested adding a lot of other alcohol in it so you might feel a buzz” he says

you’re slightly too far gone because you’re a giggly mess,

it’s ok, he’s giggling too

both of you are lightweight drinkers and get blitzed off of one cup sdjfhsdf you really should get better friends to supervise the two of you at all times

at some point you put your hand on his thigh

at some point he puts his hand atop of yours

you have always seen that cute freckle underneath his eye but up close and personal, it seems more cute

 “ur staring” he says

“i know”

it’s okay, he’s staring at your mouth

you finally notice his staring and out loud say “your lips look really kissable”

he smiles, and caresses your hand with his thumb

“i get that a lot. you have really pretty eyes.”

you smile softly, eyes somehow seem prettier in the dim light of the bedside table lamp.

both of you lean in at a slow pace, not wanting to rush

with all of the liquid courage you can muster you finally close the space in between you two

the kiss is so delightfully soft, so delicate

he cups your cheek with his hand as he kisses you

you don’t break apart just yet

you savor the feeling of the sensation of his lips molded into yours

he can taste the mango lip balm as he gently swipes his tongue against your bottom lip

you shamelessly moan and part your lips slightly

he smiles at the sound

he brushes his nose against yours, and then tugs at your bottom lip carefully with his teeth

your heart is beating rapidly, yet time seems to stop around you

hyunjin has been wanting to know what your lips would taste like for a while, and tonight he finally got the chance to know. it’s sweet, it’s soft, it’s dreamy

it all seems like a dream

you suddenly had the urge to bite at his bottom lip, and when you did, he released a guttural moan, and you take the chance to pass your tongue against his

he tastes like a daydream, and you feel tingly all over

you’re snapped out of your trance when he asks if you could straddle him

you nod your head yes, not trusting the sound of your voice

he lays back down on the bed, and you put each leg on either side of his body. you lean down, and once again, press your lips against his

he stops and asks “can i touch you?”

“yes, touch me anywhere you want”

he softly cups your breast in his hand, and begins to kiss you

your dress is definitely riding up, and you can feel wetness pool in the middle of your legs

hyunjin uses his other hand to softly stroke his fingers against your clothed clit

you hum into the kiss in appreciation, and he takes that as a sign to apply a bit more pressure

this time, the feeling takes over you and you hide your face in the crook of his neck, panting

the hand that was on your breast is now resting on your thigh, and gripping it rather harshly

“is it okay if i eat you out?”

“please”

he then grabs at your waist to set you on the bed

he pulls you closer to the edge of the bed and places your legs on each side of his shoulders

you pull up your dress while he pulls down your black lacy underwear

“you look so cute like this baby”

you giggle, and search for his hair to grasp on while he pulls his administrations on you

he kisses the inner part of your thighs, then places the flat of his tongue against your heat

he probes the tip of his tongue in your tight hole while using his thumb to rub agonizingly slow at your clit

moans fill the room, the sound echoing back to his ears, making him more determined for you to cum

he rapidly licks at your clit while inserting two fingers in you

he knows exactly what he’s doing, and because of that, you cum in only minutes

he puts your underwear back on and pulls down the skirt of your dress

he lays back down beside you and licks his fingers clean, looking right at you

your cheeks are flushed and ur a panting mess

“wonderful weather we’re having, hm?” you grab a throw pillow and hit him with it, to which he laughs

he places a hand on your hip and says “I don’t have your number”

you scour around the room to find your purse, which has fallen onto the ground

both of you exchange numbers, cuddle

a few hours pass by and both of you sober up, going your separate ways, but not before leaving a lingering kiss on each other’s lips

everything feels a bit hazy, like it’s a dream. but no, it happened.

he’s your biggest dream to come true

[survivorsolomonislands]

Episode 1 Part 2 “Hit the Ground Walking” - Matt

So I’m just doing the challenges, still struggling to keep my social game up, and I’m getting the feel that everyone is going to be leaning towards Star to be voted out first, assuming we lose, because most people have been mentioning that he is the most quiet, and honestly, I’ve only had a mini conversation with him. I still feel pretty confident with my relationship with Jacob, and then closely behind are Willow, Lily and Luca, and I think I can definitely maintain as many relationships as humanly possible. I get this weird feeling we’re either going to swap at 18 or 16, and hopefully merge at 13 or 12, so I’m going to try to not be too commanding, and let other people take the strategic lead, even though I do think I’m one of the most strategic guys here.

WHICH reminds me, I need to find a time to look for the idol, but it needs to be a time that I don’t think anyone will realize I’m looking for it, especially since Lily gave me that clue to the idol, so I’m just hoping that it can lead me a little closer, but I highly doubt I’m going to find an idol this early, but it’d still be pretty cool to get it, but I doubt it’ll happen this early. I might even not look, but Lily might ask me about it. It’s also crossed my mind that Lily could easily just be giving this clue to countless people, and I’m not the only one, but why the fuck would anyone ask someone else if Lily gave them a clue to the idol, because then people are just going to think that I’m close to Lily, so I can’t do that :X. We’ll see how I can take it from here, but hopefully the attention can be turned onto Star to start this game. I doubt there will be sides or anything, and this first vote should be relatively unanimous ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

If we’re being honest here, I genuinely don’t care if we go to tribal council…. Obviously you can’t throw a challenge like this, but the more you go to tribal, the more comfortable I’m going to be with my relationships, so I think I can make this WORK

Whew! So being on vacation is really fucking me up. I can't really help with the challenge, and I really have never been on a tribe that won this challenge, so I'm really nervous. I think me not helping will put a target on my back when/if we lose. Beyond that, I'll give a rundown of everyone so far. Karen. I love her to the moon and back. I would love to go all the way with her, but she can get scary or become a liability down the road. We'll get there when we get there Lexi/RTP. I'll do these two together because they're p much the same to me. Us three and Karen are in an alliance, but I really don't feel comfortable in that alliance. It's Karen's alliance, not ours. We're all closer to Karen than we are to each other, and that makes me nervous. Right now, I could be helpful, but down the line, I need to cut them before they cut me. Mitchell. Out of everyone in this game, I've talked to Mitchell the most. I really like and trust him I'd love if we become official allies and can work together for a long time, and maybe even stay friends after the season. Dana. See Mitchell but less so. We've talked a lot, and she's really nice and I'd love to work with her. Chrissa. I trust her to an extent. I know she might either be a vote for me or against me, and that'll just come with the votes. Gotta talk and keep her in the loop to make sure she votes with me. Linus. I? Can't? Get? A? Read? On? Him? And? It's? Making? Me? Lowkey? Mad? Matt. Can anyone hold a conversation with him? Because if you can, please tell me your ways. Every message he sends. Just. Stops. The. Conversation. And I. Have. To. Keep. It. Going. It's exhausting. Zak. See Matt, but at least he occasionally offers something I can work off and the topics are generally more interesting.

If we loose this challenge let it be known that Star did nothing. He hasn't even talked in our tribe chat, and he didn't even vote for any of our choices for the challenge. 

oh shit i forgot to give my cast assessment! okay lets see um 

Daisy - I talked to her before a few times, pretty neat gal 

Jacob - Seems nice, havent talked to him nearly as much 

Everyone else on my god damn tribe - Whomst'd've'nt'ly are you people The other tribe - Basically the above except I love Karen and wish I was with her

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RIP TEMOANA and RIP ME

I was just CASUALLY about to enjoy a lit slice of carrot cake and now my life in this game is in shambles.

Honestly I know I just submitted a confessional, but I felt that we were going to lose. I just knew it was coming because so many of our submissions were trash.

Right after we found out about the loss, Matt messaged me and wants to try to pull in Ryan and Chrissa (who I haven't spoken 2) for an alliance and then I want to pull in Mitchell and Linus. Matt immediately wanted to make a chat and I was really standoffish about it because I don't want to be involved in initiating that and moreover idk how these people would all feel about that yet since I barely know them. I also started talking to Matt and Linus the way I talked to people in Kiribati- like "oh i want to do whatever everyone else wants" and lame shit like that so that they won't see any incentive to have me voted out (and hopefully nobody else will either) if I can be manipulated so easily (which I can't, but I want everyone to fully buy into that). Also I told Linus he was my closest ally (which is so tru at this point) so he'll feel close to me and want me to stay.

AND LITERALLY AS I MAKE THIS CONFESSIONAL WE ALL GOT ADDED TO A GROUP CHAT. maybe things are looking up for me in this game? But who can say. 

Basically I don't want anyone to think I'm playing the game at all or being too forward. It's good though- because Matt just reached out to everyone under the sun to make this alliance official as fast as possible and then Ryan created the chat so it really shields from making me look too active or problematic. Ryan also asked what we want to do for the vote and I'm going to stay as quiet as possible.

This leaves out Monty, Zak, Lexi, and Karen- the latter three of whom I haven't spoken to and couldn't care less if they go at this point in the game. I planted the seed with Matt that Karen and Lexi are friends- but truthfully idk anything about them really.

Hopefully things are going to be chill for at least 1 vote. That's all I can hope for at this point. Also let me apologize now for how annoying i am in both content and quantity of these confessionals. This game is too real and I have too much time on my hands. 

God, I have no idea what to talk about for this confessional. We won the first competition which is awesome, I was impressed with how well the tribe worked together, hopefully, it is something we continue to do. My biggest worry coming into this season was my social game, I am not the most outgoing person so I knew that could hurt me in the long run but so far I think I've done okay at talking to people. An alliance was even formed so that's pretty awesome, cause I don't feel like I'm at the bottom of the tribe and I think we'll be solid until merge or swap happens but who knows. 

Well of course we lost the challenge because why not lose. Tribal council got me stressing cause I need more stressors in my life. Luckily I am p sure I'm in a solid majority alliance and we just added Linus and Dana who I can vibe with and Zak seems vibable also and I kinda just threw Lex under the bus because why not? I just wanna be in power tbh.

M SO EXCITED THAT WE BEAT THE VETS HOLY HECK!!! Especially since they're experienced since they've played before and we haven't, I don't know how to explain it, but this victory feels really good!! I think our strategy of voting for the post we thought was best worked really well! Oh also Isaac said we weren't ahead by much until the last judge, so thank you to whoever the last judge was! The vets had some good posts, but some of theirs didn't make sense. I could be wrong but my guess is that they decided to assign a topic to a different person? I don't know, and it doesn't really matter, all that matters is that a newbie isn't going to be the first boot! 

Ok so tea time. This tribal is going off! So I've been talking mostly to Karen and Mitchell about this vote and even though I want to work with both of them, they're playing on opposite sides right now. Karen wants zak out, and Mitchell has been telling me Lexi and Karen have been thrown out as ideas. So initially, Karen said Linus was saying Lexi, so I suggested Linus, but Mitchell really didn't want to do that. Instead, he wants to vote Lexi which is bad for me because I'm in that alliance with her, Karen, and rtp. So I "agree" to vote Lexi and 10 minuets later Mitchell is like "uhhh, Karen's name is being brought up now too" and I'm thinking that if I have to lose one, BYE LEXI! So I'm trying to keep him voting Lexi while trying to get votes NOT for Lexi OR Karen, and preferably for Linus. So Karen and I agree that chrissa is probably a good bet and we make an alliance chat with her. We ask who she wants and she's kinda hesitant with Linus, so we say we've "heard zaks name" (we didn't mention that it was from eachother). So we roll with zak and tell the Lexi/rtp chat about the plan. So that's 5. We need one more for majority. I also have the idea of trying to get someone from the other side throw their vote, so we end up in a 5-4-1 situation, but that seems harder. So 6-?? Is a better bet. Karen and I think Matt is a good option because he seems more old school, which is what our alliance seems to be leaning towards now. (Me? Old school now? This is crazy. I guess it's been two years since kiwayu 🙃) So that's our plan right now is to vote zak with chrissa and Matt. But with Mitchell I have options and if all hell breaks lose tomorrow, I can vote Lexi in a last ditch effort to save Karen. In all this, i just hope my name never comes up 😬

So ! I've had food poisoning and just tried eating for the first time in almost 48 hours - it was terrible and now I feel like I'm gonna die again! Anyways!

I was MIA for the entire challenge due to not being able to stay conscious, but that was no reason to sweat - the pre-merge is where my game shines. I'm able to reel in allies, assume a controlling position without appearing too threatening; not to sound cocky, but I was the instigator for most if not all of the pre-merge votes I went to on both of my prior seasons, so I'd like to think I've got some skill at this game. Hopefully I cant translate that to the post-merge this time around!!

Anyways, I stumbled into a 4-way alliance with Chrissa, Matt, and Ryan - I like it, but Chrissa is hard to talk to and I feel like Ryan is the type of dude who's going to overplay and be paranoid all the time, so eh. Matt is probably my closest ally at this point. I think we're on the same page about a lot of shit. And anyways, that 4-person alliance allowed itself to form a 6-way majority with Dana and Linus. Dana I've got trust and a good relationship in, so yippee; and while Linus worries me, it's better to keep him close than far at this point, since we seemingly do get along with each other.

In terms of target, we settled on Lexi early on. I like Lexi, but it seems like an easy vote and she's made no effort to talk to me so... goodbye!!! But then the target shifted to Karen out of nowhere??? Personally I would've been worried to do so because of Linus' friendship with her, but he seems okay with it, so fuck yeah - Karen's got out-of-game connections so getting rid of her works for me. BUT THEN fuckin Chrissa comes out of nowhere wanting to target Zak and get this... she doesn't want Monty to be mad at her for voting off Karen so she threw Zak's name out there and gave Monty something to run with. Chrissa, that's just dumb for a couple reasons. First - Zak has nobody in this game and can be a number for us. Particularly, I feel very close to Zak and know that his loyalty lies with us, or better phrased, with whoever isn't coming after him. Second - You wanted to target Zak so Monty wouldn't get mad that we're targeting Karen... red flags????? If there's such an obvious, tight pair, you want to separate that, not give it the opportunity to fester and grow. It feels like common sense to me. Third - Without Karen, people like Monty and Linus suddenly become more open to us because someone they're close with is gone. Like... c'mon.

Karen and Lexi haven't talked to me, I've had some chats with Monty and I've been open with him that from what I've seen it looks like it'll be between Karen and Lexi, and I've got complete trust in Zak that I feel is replicated. I don't think I'm in trouble right now, but this vote is being more stressful than it should be just because nobody can fucking sit still.

Idk... maybe people will think I'm tryna play too many sides and boot me first for that??? But I don't see it. Let's keep it simple. Hopefully I don't die. xoxo

So Ryan tells me what Monty made a chat with Karen, Lexi, and the two of them last night to target Zak, which proves to me that my sticking up for Zak has ostracized me. I knew that Karen/Lexi/Monty were tight, and the fact that none of them have brought Zak's name up to me really shows something, in my opinion - I'm on the outs with them, and that's fine, because they're on the outs with me too.

...bUT THEN OUTTA NOWHERE CHRISSA POSTS IN THE TRIBE CHAT THAT SHE WANTS US TO VOTE HER OUT??????????????????????? what the fUCK?????????????????????????????????? is this all some kind of fucking PLOY???? i don't get it but... WOW WEE

So a clusterfuck of a tribal this is. I suspect something fishy to happen bc a group of people are like out to get me for no reason, monty/Karen/Lexi but everyone was telling me I have nothing to worry about and the majority want Lexi or Karen gone because the two of them are really tight with monty and people don't like obvious groups. Then, Chrissa announces she wants to fairplay bc shes so stressed, and that should easily save mine/karens ass (whichever one of the two of us who ended up getting voted out) but I genuinely feel like something is still up. I kinda want to throw my vote at Karen bc she was really gung go about getting me out, but Matt is dead set on voting Chrissa now so idk if its smart to just do it alone. Either way I'm expecting votes tonight but if Linus, Matt, and Mitchell are telling the truth I'm fine. I'm just really idol paranoid. 

Well I guess it's true what they say about Survivor, it's unpredictable af. First we were gonna vote Karen then Lex then Karen then Zak then Karen and now by ride or die has chosen to die, Chrissa and I were so solid I had so much trust in her she had shared with me her idol clue and all the stuff Karen had discussed with her and I was like shit this good, but all of the sudden I come out of class and she is checked out and I have to respect her wishes. I don't know what this means for the future tbh I'll keep you posted. And i wanna snag this fricking idol just so I know nobody else has it. 

Us Rookies won the first immunity! This is such a nice feeling to have, knowing that you're safe whatever happens. Our tribe worked well as a unit and we beat the Veterans by 10 points.

Still, knowing this I think it's super important to underline how useless Star was for us. Why join an ORG if you're not going to talk/participate? I think he'll be the first person to go if we lose.

I'm back bitches! Everyone's least favourite 4th player because probably no one knows who the hell I am! My tribe is honestly a total mixed bag so far. They are god awful at communication for challenges, that first one was a disgrace (I sucked too though so I can't yell at them too much). Losing the first comp isn't terrible though as now I can strategize. I'm making plans within plans. In Myanmar I was always on the outs during the tribal phase, but now I have my alliance with Dana, Ryan, Matt and Mitchell, and Chrissa of course, but she's quitting qq. Within that I basically have a final 2 with Dana, and I'm trying to also become the go to ally for Ryan and Mitchell. Zak isn't actively coming for my head too which is also a plus, and he even came to me when he was worried there was a plan to blindside him. My big target right now is Karen, she keeps saying in the main chat to meet her irl, which is cool since we're in the same city, but if people think I have an irl friend in the game that makes me a huuuuge target. Grr I just wish Chrissa wasn't quitting.

so I wanna make my last confessional for this game if i go which hoping i do I died for queen karen that should be attested that part of this is because karen being first boot? insane, I love my tribe but i am in so many games, and this game is too much side seasons are easier like no one is ever this split in a side season week 1, that scares me and either way i vote i would be pissing someone off i vote zak i piss the majority alliance that was started with me, and if i vote Karen i piss Monty off and i know this is a game but i want to work with Monty it's been a goal to actually have him not stab me in the back, and i don't know why they'd want Karen gone week 1 first who is Karen going after Zak, not any of them, she isn't a danger to them Matt has seemed to never trust Karen and as much i love him i can't agree Karen is pretty loyal if you work with her not against her. I know though they think it's easier to pull zak in but if i betrayed Karen and Monty pulling monty in would not be easy this may seem like i am a coward but this is week 1 lol and i don't want this high of game play week 1 when i am loyal as fuck.

Before I become the official first boot of Soloman Islands, I figured I might as well actually submit a confessional because I need to make Callie proud of my dedication.

So to start off, I might as well say that I have no idea who half my tribemates are and that is really saying a lot because I have no life so I should know everyone but some of these people are so obscure that I haven't even read their wiki pages like what?? I was actually trying the first day to have a social game with some of these people but I literally can not do it.. I hate small talk.. I hate my wifi... I hate everything about the social aspect of Survivor which yeah I know, like why I am here then, but the school year is almost over and I was bored and when I am bored I become a fucking idiot and sign up for games. So above everything else that I hate about everyone else, I hate myself the most because I put myself through this when I clearly should not. Anywho, so yeah I tried to actually respond but sadly my wifi died out because of ****** (happy end of jtia day!! - mark ya calenders) and it was just not loading anything besides like... nothing. I think Monty and Linus (is that his real name? I hate Skype names literally they confuse me so much.... is it even a he... idk) messaged me once it died but its still saying "Updating Conversations" ctfu so who the hell knows. Though Karen was smart and texted my stupid ass instead of dealing with the ugly Skype messages so at least I am aware that I will be the first boot - always be self aware kids... numero uno tip from me btw is to say everything is going to happen so you do not look stupid when the worst happens, has not failed me yet and I look smart at the end so win win? Yeah anyways.

I am in this alliance with Karen, Ryan, and Monty aka the first four boots and I am happy to lead our alliance to victory of that name because if I go down I am deadass bringing my entire tribe down with me... I am that petty. I am even more petty about the fact that this is all happening because someone who isnt in the fucking game is controlling this vote even after the fact that someone ASKED to be voted out... who is that petty? someone who damn well knows who they are and needs to collect themselves but that is all I am going to say on that matter. But yeah thats just how I feel about this entire thing? Yes I am not the most "active" person to ever play this game but it is also a two way street and the ugly ass people who are insisting on voting me out have not tried to message me either so really who is at fault here....?? Certainly its the both of us (again be SELF AWARE emphasis on the self btw).  I told Karen I wasn't a social player and she asked me to explain Palawan but literally I sucked there too ctfu dkgsj BYE I DEAD ASS HATE EVETRYONE GOODNIGHT