#// oh i've gotta finish some stuff i'm drawing too lol

[deoidesign]

"I'm the dog they put with cheetahs to keep them from going crazy in captivity" x "I'm the cheetah that is threatening to go crazy" 4 ever

(I make a webcomic about them)

[keeps-ache]

the urge to talk my head off vs. the calm of quiet vs. the Thoughts

[miru667]

How do you manage to stay in a fandom for so long? I'm always mario jumping from fandom to fandom every 3-6 months

Oh, so many reasons. I think I've answered this before but in a much more concise way so idk what happened here when I tried to answer again from scratch but uhhh I wrote a lot lol?? Long ramble time. 😂

I found this fandom at a point in my life when I really emotionally needed it, so I got really attached to it. I stayed because of the friends I've made in it and because of the OCs I got invested in, both mine and other people's, and every so often something invigorated my interest like a new roleplay I got to join or new concept art that got discovered.

I'm also just a really dedicated person (for better or worse) and I still have ideas that I want to get out there creatively. I don't get a lot of free time, and I rarely have energy for hobbies after work so my time passes slowly in the sense that I may still be in the middle of appreciating a thing, meanwhile everyone else has already sped through and processed it and moved on.

So I've gotta be really careful about choosing what to spend my limited time and energy on. It sometimes takes me a whole month to draw a piece of art that I'm proud of. It would be a huge waste of my time to spend so much energy on a fandom that after 3 months I think I might not care about anymore.

And like, if it's going to take me a month to draw 1 thing, what am I going to choose? Fanart of a character from a show that I just finished that I might possibly move on from in 3 months? Or art of my darling Audrey OC that I've been developing for years and whom I know will always bring me joy for the rest of my life? It's not a hard choice! Like I'm sure it's obvious by now but I really love my oc. It's gotten to the point that I look for her in every media I consume. I like characters because they remind me of her, and I like plots because they remind me of her. When I watch a movie and end up loving it, I'm not going to be drawing fanart for that movie, I'm more likely going to be drawing Audrey Grace in some way that's consciously or subconsciously inspired by that movie. I'm sure other people with beloved ocs can relate to that, too.

Back to media consumption: I'm constantly watching new things, shows, movies, letsplays, and I'm able to love them just fine, but I never participate in their fandoms (unless you count reblogging fanart as participation. I personally don't). I just don't feel motivated to and I feel like it's unnecessary. I shouldn't need to prove anything. You can appreciate media without engaging in fandom. In fact, I encourage it, because a lot of what I see in fandoms these days is just stressful, at least to me. And I don't want that stress. I'm much happier as a person when I don't have to read other people's opinions, discourse and drama over some show's themes or ships or whatever. I can just quietly revel in my own enjoyment of the show without being tainted by anything else, and my love for it is not any less valid than the person who's livetweeting their loud emotions while watching the same show and putting out fanart 1 hour after every episode. Bless them, though.

And I guess that's mostly what I do these days with the Onceler fandom, too. Appreciating it more quietly these days, I mean. It's just that...I have a fandom related oc so I draw her. And I have friends here so we do stuff together and we reference fandom inside jokes no matter what activity we're doing. If I encounter art that deeply moves me personally, I reblog it, just like I reblog art for other media on my sideblog. When anyone has a fandom history related question, I'm eager to answer because I don't want the past to be misrepresented or misunderstood. And also, since it's been over a decade, this fandom has long ago become my daily normal. I can do whatever I like but I can't really "leave" this fandom unless I delete all my social media and cut off all my online friends. And delete my memories of the past 12 years of my life as well. Just become a completely different person.

So I guess I can reverse the sentiment: I can't relate to people who hop fandoms every 3 to 6 months. 😭 All the power to you, but that's just not the way I happen to live my life, nor the way I engage with the media I consume! The Once-ler fandom was the one exception. It was special.

But who knows, anything can happen in the future. I'm not so proud that I'm purposely blocking myself from looking at other fandoms or anything. I just go with the flow! Right now I'm slowly making my way through jjba, an omori playthrough, a Plague Tale playthrough, and urusei yatsura season 2 (the new anime). Probably nothing will come out of any it except for a bunch of Audrey inspos, but again, who knows. XD I'm also going to an idkhow concert soon, and I've bought merch from their store already. Does that count as participating in a fandom? Maybe not. But now that I think of it, even if I "join" another fandom, it doesn't necessarily mean I'd leave the onceler fandom either, so maybe it wouldn't matter haha.

Thank you for the ask and thank you to anyone who's read my entire answer!

[rogueshadeaux]

Slllliiiiiides over here. Hi hello. I don't think I'll do a bad karma run (IM SORRY. IM SORRY!!) cause a) I'm a wimp and b) I need to get off videogames as soon as I'm done cause I've spent too much time playing lately lmao BUT I will be watching playthrougs cause I gotta know how fucked up he gets.... I gotta know...

To clarify i have a pre existing oc from a story that could be very easily flung into a vat of "au juice" because she's already halfway there in her own cannon LMAO we shall see, for now I have a huge list of things I want to draw for this game so I gotta finish 2 before I explode then I can unleash myself on art again. Gotta feed the discord now. I'm cooking for a crowd.

hi i've been dead for 8 days and recuperating for two lol I understand life stuff (and saw some references to it on your timeline, like the warhammer stuff and the tarot card thing??? bro that shit looks so good!!) as someone that literally shared your stuff and then got ripped away for my own life happenings lmfao. But if you get the chance in the future? Seriously, try an evil karma inF2 run. There's something about how they balanced the story that puts its predecessor AND sequel to shame. They're the same story, but different tales. They have the same goal, but different goalposts. SPP gives you a well-thought-out storyline that both is cohesive, but feels like your choices actually matter. It has none of the "I can help this old lady...or kick her fucking dog lol" of inFAMOUS 1, or the "I will fight for the tribe but literally do everything wrong. everywhere. because I'm a Bad Boy™" of inFAMOUS: Second Son. The choices feel real. They feel sound. They feel like the choices a man wronged by the world would make, if he decided to turn to his harbored resentment instead of his morality. And let's be honest, Cole also feels more morally gray in inF2 than 1 anyways, so seeing the path he takes is great because it genuinely feels like he's done with the accumulation of every shitty situation that has happened to him. And I'm sure you know how the story ends now, so...don't you wanna see what happens if he chose the other option? (pls tell me you haven't watched the playthrough yet lmfao)

Anyways yeah no I totally get life shit, it loves to pull you away from stuff, and also as someone only just now trying to do the bad options in Detroit: Become Human despite getting the game at launch because I need 6 years of preparation to be the bad guy, I understand the wimp bit too. It's hard to be mean sometimes. But with Cole's inF2 story, it doesn't feel mean. It feels like a desperate man, trying to fight for a future he's not convinced cares about him.

And yes oh my god please keep creating lmfao we all love your art so goddamn much. Don't leave this fandom you're now a very important asset. And it's always a good thing, throwing old friends into new situations! I love an OC in a wardrobe change. That's usually the best translation. Think a bit harder about forcing that OC into a new role. Shove her ass onto the stage. We'd all love her.

[cirrus-grey]

I have now finished watching Good Omens Season 2

If you haven't already, please block the tag "good omens spoilers" - I won't post anything else until Friday night at the earliest, but after that all bets are off.

@albertinesimonet, I did not manage a full liveblog but I did jot down my reactions after watching each episode, and those are compiled under the cut :)

(SPOILERS!)

Episode 1:

Holy flipping fuck are they actually making the ineffable husbands canon???

Okay.

Look.

I saw that it was trending alongside Supernatural and OFMD. I suspected it was going this way, and the season had ended with some sort of confession/immediate separation.

That did not prepare me for the season to open with Crowley saying "hello gorgeous" to a nebula and Aziraphale being disappointed that Crowley wasn't talking to him. Or for Good Old Fashioned Lover Boy to be playing while Crowley rushed to Aziraphale's aid, like-

This is a fanfic. This is a motherfucking fanfic, and I am pleased to say that my brain is processing it as such, a well-written but ultimately non-canon fanfic (*puts on my "I still have book!omens brainrot" shirt*) that just so happens to have been written by one of the original authors.

Anyway, outside of my snorting disbelief that the first ship that I ever shipped is apparently going canon in one 'verse, I do actually have some legitimate theories, which run as follows:

A. I know this season is the plot-bridge between the original novel and what would have been the sequel, and B. I know the sequel was going to involve the second coming of Christ, therefore C. I suspect this Resurrectionist group that kept getting hinted at in the promos is trying to bring Jesus back, Gabriel found out and tried to stop it, and that's why he lost his memories. I'm a tad bit surprised Heaven as a whole doesn't seem to be involved in the return of their special boy, but I guess we'll see how that plays out as the season goes along.

Episode 2:

Oh hey, I've read this one before! "It's ancient Biblical times and Crowley and Aziraphale are angsting about their orders and finding solace in each other's company" may have never gotten its own tag, but there are certainly enough fics about it that it could.

"Can I be a blue one?" Weird kids are the best.

So the Resurrectionist is a pub, not a group. Still think they have something to do with the second coming, but I'm open to being proven wrong.

Gotta say, I didn't expect Every Day to be plot-relevant. I knew they had it for the soundtrack, but I'm really liking this sort of spooky-mystery-music-mixup they've got going with it - love the way its incorporated into the end credits, too.

Totally down for master-thief Jane Austen, btw.

How many people are writing fics about Crowley and Aziraphale getting caught in a rainstorm and hiding under an awning even as I type...

Episode 3:

How to run a bookshop, a guide by A.J. Crowley: Carry large stacks of books around aimlessly and then toss them on the floor when you get bored.

I'm honestly surprised his awning plan nearly worked. Curses be upon weak awnings, I suppose.

I do like that the Bentley recognizes that it has to play nice with whichever one of its dads is in the driver's seat lol

Okay so they keep drawing attention to the fact that there's flies in the bookshop, and now Beelzebub is acting off. Are the flies like... telepathically communicating Gabriel's worldviews to them? Is that how they figured out he was there?

That bit he said when Crowley mentioned tempests is definitely from the Revelations. I unfortunately don't know enough about the Revelations to draw any new conclusions from this. I know they deal with the apocalypse and the antichrist, but that was S1 stuff so there must be something else...

(That bit definitely sounded like Rapture stuff though, just saying)

Lotta talk about people coming back from the dead, here. It's doing little to dissuade me from my idea that this is all related to the second coming. Their "little" miracle was strong enough to bring 25 people back? Okay. How did Gabriel add his own power to it... and who did he bring back? (Does 1 Jesus = 25 normal people?)

...Okay yeah I just googled it and the second coming (and the rapture) is definitely in Revelations. Apparently the appearance of the antichrist is its herald. *insert 'oh yeah it's all coming together' gif here*

...

Several-hours later addition: When they were talking about gravity Gabriel seemed upset that the book didn't stay where it was put, "it goes down." And that flies go up.

...did he "go down," turning into a human, and is Beelzebub "going up," and that's why they're so worried about finding Gabriel? Figure out what happened to him, so it doesn't happen to them as well? Hmm...

Episode 4:

"The rumors that you two are an item..." Yeah holy fuck they're actually doing this. I don't know why it keeps catching me by surprise??? I guess it's not like, the forefront of the plot, so every time it comes to the front it feels a bit like a new thing, but still.

Aziraphale's smug fucking little eyebrow raise at that "I didn't think you were his type." He's like yeah, and what do you know, hm?

Did not expect the entire episode to be backstory, but that was very cute, especially given how much people fixated on the church scene in S1. That little showcase of their trust, both of them worried it'll go wrong but still willing to try because they feel safe with each other. I like that they managed to keep the tension of the setting, that "I'm pointing a gun at my best friend and this could go horribly wrong" feeling, even when it's well-established that the worst that could happen is paperwork.

Also, Crowley trying really, really hard to give Aziraphale positive feedback on his magic tricks even when he knows they suck. That's true love, right there.

Another showcase of people coming back from the dead. We've had the kids getting "brought back" from shape-shifting, the "resurrectionists" digging up dead bodies, and now actual honest-to-god zombies. I am Sensing A Theme.

...are the zombies still around? What's-is-face the demon did say eternal undeath...

Aaaaaand there's going to be an army of demons dropping in on the local business association meeting. I hope Aziraphale has enough tea cakes for everyone.

Episode 5:

SEAMSTRESSES SHOUTOUT ITS A FUCKING DISCWORLD REFERENCE

I know most people are probably going wild over the Dr. Who references but. It's the seamstresses guild...

I'm sure Mrs. Sandwich and Rosie Palm would get along famously.

In other news wow they're just being blatant about the ineffableness of these husbands now, aren't they? The great thing about that is I'm watching it with my parents and I don't think either of them have clicked that it's going canon - like, they're just interpreting it as a running bit, 'haha isn't it funny that everyone keeps mistaking them as a couple' kind of thing. The same thing happened when I showed them OFMD, neither of them realized Ed and Stede were actually going to be a real canon thing until the kiss. I mean, maybe they've worked out that this is going somewhere by now? But I don't want to ask in case they haven't, because I'd love to see their reaction if it blindsides them.

I am Not Normal about the dancing. Aziraphale's giddy little grin when he drags Crowley to the floor? The fucking. Hand presses. I've probably read too much Jane Austen if I'm going this insane about them just pressing their palms together.

And just... that whole fucking scene. The amount of queer people - either queercoded or just flat-out obviously queer - is making my heart feel full. When Aziraphale referred to the magic shop owner's partner using 'they' before we met them I thought it was just, you know, being polite, he'd never met them and didn't want to assume, but then they showed up in person and folks were still using they and they were so obviously giving a huge middle finger to gender norms I just-

Man I need to watch more queer shows I love this feeling.

And the army of demons is more of a large crowd but, well, still threatening. I like the use of masks to hide demonic traits, clever costuming detail there.

But. My dudes. Don't split up, what the fuck are you doing? You've been here for all of human history, you know how stories go, surely you know things always go wrong when you split the party??? I love protective!crowley, I do, but my dude taking off to bring this mess to heaven's attention is not the way to go about saving your angel. And Aziraphale, buddy, I don't know what you're planning to summon there but I really don't think it's going to go well.

...Maybe he's planning to teleport himself, Gabriel, and the humans up to heaven, too, to get them away from the demon crowd. It would be funny if Crowley and what's their name, Muriel, step out of the elevator and Aziraphale is just. There already.

(I don't think that's gonna happen though. I think everything is just gonna get Worse)

Anyway sidenote Lottie if you've read this far, when Gabriel started talking about feeling like a house I immediately thought of you, I know that's a theme you like ♡

Episode 6:

Jesus Christ!

(Called it!)

So I got a lot of the details wrong, but I was spot on with my two big predictions from the beginning. (Hey that ending reminded me of OFMD and Supernatural, I've got a great idea, why don't we all blog about the three of them and get them trending together-)

Gotta say, I'd only given a passing thought to Gabriel and Beelzebub being a Thing, their shippers must be going wild.

I knew there was a reason they kept drawing attention to that fly.

*Spots fire extinguishers* "Hey is that a Magnus Archives ref-" *Is brutally murdered with a lead pipe before I can finish*

I actually kind of love that Nina and Maggie didn't get together at the end of it all? I had felt like it was all going a bit too fast for them and I'm so glad they acknowledged that. They've got time, now, to work things out, and I love that they left it with the certainty that they'd be there for each other in the future... but not quite yet.

Oh! Oh! Oh! And they fit in the halos-used-as-lethal-frisbees-sequence! That was fabulous, I want to see more exploding headgear.

...anyway I think that's all the little bits I wanted to mention before getting to the Main Event.

I'm actually... not all that devastated about that ending? Like, okay, my heart was breaking watching it, the miscommunication and assumptions leading to a dramatic separation, it's tragic and angsty and oh my god my ship kissed my first ever ship kissed they did it they did the thing-

But. Two seconds after the credits started rolling my mind was already flying to, "oh thank goodness, they've got a Source On The Inside now and they might actually have a shot at stopping the end of the world instead of, you know, being blindsided by it because no one in heaven or hell is talking to them"

Like, sure, major breakup here, Crowley's gonna be pissed and Aziraphale might have to do their silly little "I'm sorry" dance three or four times before they can actually get down to business, but I don't think there's a question that both of them still trust each other immensely and know they can rely on each other to help out in a pinch. They'll be walking on eggshells for a bit, but it's pretty obvious that Aziraphale wouldn't have taken the promotion if he'd known Crowley wasn't going to come with him and as soon as he manages to properly communicate that fact they'll be fine.

(Sidenote, this, right here, exemplifies the difference between Book!Aziraphale and TV!Aziraphale. Book!Aziraphale is way more cynical about the whole heaven-and-hell system, he'd never say "heaven's still the good guys," and he'd be very, very suspicious of a sudden promotion landing in his lap after such a tumultuous sequence of events. TV!Aziraphale might not be the sweet little innocent bean fandom makes him out to be, but damn is he naive compared to his book counterpart. Makes me wonder how much of the hypothetical sequel has to change to work with this plotline - I'd bet my ass he wasn’t an archangel in that one.)

Can Crowley... hear the soundtrack? "No nightingales" like how does he know that's significant? Sir you are breaking the fourth wall-

(And how powerful is he? He's a nobody in hell but he keeps stopping time and could access classified documents up in heaven, something made his and Aziraphale's miracle blow up and apparently it wasn't Gabriel, and he also just brought a whole ass dude back from the dead??? Maybe those "Crowley is Raphael" theorists from S1 had a point)

Anyway, to cap it all off: my current predictions for S3 are the aforementioned ineffable husbands makeup and subsequent spy shenanigans as they scramble to try to stop Apocalypse 2: Jesus Boogaloo; they fail and Jesus comes back, but instead of following the Great Plan he instead chooses to side with "all of humanity against all of heaven and hell" (maybe Adam shows up too to help out?); and Crowley, despite his repeated protests, actually does end up running a bookshop because he doesn't trust Muriel to do it properly.

I summation, yes I am still alive, and very excited for the next season, whenever it happens. Also I need gifsets of the dance scene and that kiss ASAP please and thank you.

[yobotica]

Fandom Homework

Idea by @razielim, I like the idea of sitting down and talking about the stuff I want to be working on! Mostly pretty rambly here, so I'll put it all beneath a cut:

It's all gonna be about the WIPs, baby! I think the thing that comes to mind most on 'boy I wish I could finish this' is actually the fallout AU I have for Assassin's Creed. ShaunDes, of course, but I think the ultimate plan was to try for OT3 with Clay on this one. I've never done it, but I get a lot of comments for that on my other fics and I think it would be interesting in this setting if I can make it work. I think the current plan for this one is more a sort of main 'how the group got together' vibe (all the moderns) and then snippets/side stories for some of their adventures. I do have an overall plot involving everyone figuring out who they are, secrets coming to light, etc. I just gotta get it all written is all.

Second is obviously to finish my in progress titanfall fic, which I usually just refer to as Weary, lol. While I've never once really felt pressured that updates are few and far between by comments on AO3, I sometimes regret posting it before it was finished. I never post WIPs as they're worked on because I am the slowest writer - once I get going, I can write pretty fast, it's just the getting started that trips me up. That, and i end up writing a lot of stuff that it turns out, it's not time for, or it's just not right for the story. I think I'm at like, over 15k words discarded for this fic overall, some of which has been repurposed/used already (just later than when it was originally written), but most of which has not. (Yet; I know at least two bits are just too early).

Third is a fic that is almost 10 years old and unfinished. It's only been posted up to chapter 10 on the assassin's creed kinkmeme, the last chapter of which was posted in 2016. It's almost complete, actually, sitting at just under 55.5k words, but I can't quite pin down the ending. Then it needs to be edited. Insert sad-cowboy emoji.

I'd really like to revisit my old DS9 stuff. I never published any of it on AO3 - in fact, I can't even remember if I've published any of it anywhere. It's some of the earliest stuff I've written, and it's pretty rough by my standards, but it's still something I'd like to get some time into and whip up into something readable at some point.

I want to learn how to draw transformers! I've wanted to for a while, but I recently watched Transformers One and it was gorgeous. There's a lot of different styles for the whole franchise, but I like that one a lot. That and Transformers Prime, which I haven't seen yet, lol. I'm a pretty recent fan, to be honest, but me and a friend have spent a lot of time making transformers OCs that I'd love to be able to draw just for fun. (It's the only reason I play Forza Horizon 5 at all, is to make the car forms for those that can be made in that game.)

I'd love to get works written for a few fandoms I've been into for a while, but never written for. Stuff like Dishonored, Legacy of Kain/Soul Reaver, Inception or even Dragon Age. Mostly based on vibes rather than concrete ideas (except for dishonored, which I have exactly one (1) idea that could be used for fic), but still. It's something I'd like to do.

Oh! I need to finish and edit the FFXV fic I have in progress! It could be considered complete enough, to be honest, but it feels incomplete to me for some reason. I wrote up to a certain point, then lost all steam. It's set post Episode Ignis alternate ending, a really, really cute and sweet fic.

I think one thing I'd like to do is maybe just post a collection on AO3 of my WIPs. I don't think of anything I've written as abandoned, even if it's been years since I looked at them, but I also do think some of it was pretty good! I don't know how readers feel about this, though.

I'd like to get more Deus Ex fic written, too. I had a few things perk my interested for kinktober but October was mostly a really shit month for me, so I got no writing done at all. I definitely don't mind using those prompts late or anything, but I still haven't got any creative juice for writing right now, so they're just sitting there, waiting for their time.

I've also had a few ideas that I think I might never write but maybe folks might be interested in hearing about or adopting themselves? Like prompts, maybe. Adoptable fic ideas. Mostly it's stuff I'd love to read but not research to write myself, but that feels a little selfish, lol. But I also just think they're fun to talk about and gush over even if they never actually get written.

I think this was nice to sit down and write out. I don't post very much about myself or my work, but I've enjoyed seeing people talk about things they'd like to get done or things they have in progress and thought I'd share. I'm wishing you all well and hoping you all have something creative you'd like to look forward to doing as well! <3

[softlittleheartsandsparkles]

how do you start a hobby like the one you do? I'm scared to try something like that and mess it all up...

If this is more like psychological fear, I'd say just take it slow... Like my first one I've ever done was really rough. (It was a seahorse who's body portions weren't right... He was huge compared to the piece of aida I was working on. I was suppose to have room for 3. >.> he was a big boy. There wasn't room for three. lol) I think when you try something new, and your learning a new skill, it's better to just do the activity as a journey/experience rather than trying to focus on it looking "perfect". Like think about a MMO or something were your doing a quest, your new to the game. The experience is finding the item the npc requested, it doesn't matter how you go to it or how long it took you to find the item, you return the quest & You had the experience that makes you wanna keep playing. Crafts to me are similar, only you have no npc on the other end waiting. It's easy to criticize what your doing, or even become paralyzed with fear and not try it because your worried about it not looking right. But I think sometimes reframing the thought as rather then this is a artsy- craftsy, I gotta be good at this sorta thought. Just think of it as this is just an experience, and I wanna see where it goes. My first project as I mentioned was pretty rough, but I really liked cross stitch. (I love looking at peoples finished works) and cause I have some experience doing other crafts (drawing, painting) I do try to use the thing I mentioned before which is try to recognize when I'm new to something, I'm *new*, so I try to remind myself I'm not going to be as good as someone who's been doing cross stitch for 10 years, or someone who was taught as a wee one & there now a fully grown adult in whatever stage of life. Its not fair to compare myself or hold myself to those standards. I'm also not actually comparing myself properly cause I can't see there original (first) works. Why compare myself to someone who's mastered something - and me someone whos a novice. Thats not fair to either party & it also puts unnecessary stress no one else is applying to me. What I do instead is pick out aspects I like about cross stitch & try to notice when I feel confident/happy. I also find noticing how cross stitch makes me feel (the activity) really makes it more benfictional compared to just being 'oh i'm sorta better at it now". & what I mean by feel is I mean like, for me cross stitch helps me tap into that mindful/relaxed feeling. I find it enjoyable, even the ripping up stitches aspect. (meaning I don't view this as a 'ugh. *hates this aspect of the craft so much I'll abandon it*' aspect.) I also like that its a hobby I can pick up a lot and keep adding too it, compared to like drawing where there's a point when you feel like you gotta stop, or in water color, a point to where the paper is like 'no more water please!' 'Oi! I don't think you heard me, anymore water and i'm about to no longer be paper!' xD Sorry I started rambling. I'd say if your nervous, just try it, you can find really easy (small) freebies online, DMC, kofi, there's designers who will offer out freebies for different holidays. (Shannon Christines does really nice easy looking freebies for holidays. Just the pattern, you have to get the supplies yourself.) Viewing stuff as an experience or journey has helped me a lot more, rather then tips like: trying to ignore my feelings/attempt to push thru them. Cause it can affirm your fears or hesitant if you do "mess" up or you are unhappy with how you finished. If I can pick and pull apart aspects I like even if my first project wasn't the "best", and that leaves me feeling satisfied or even better it helps me create a goal, or drives my interest to keep trying. I like that a lot more. :3

[chocodaffodil]

woo I finished it, I was too tired to say much last night lol

anyways I was in an art slump until I came across Epic the Odyssey musical by Jorge Rivera-Herrans and my favorite songs involved Athena

made me think a bit about Riddle and Ace

while drawing this, i was listening to "My Goodbye" on loop

so I'm just gonna ramble about the lyrics and stuff (and talk about a potential AU) because I love this song so much

I think it'd be cool if there was an AU but it wouldn't really make sense for Ace to be Odysseus when he doesn't have a wife or a kid? They could replaced with smth else ig? but also if I'm thinking that Riddle is in Athena's role, I'd gotta assign other people (house wardens most likely) to greek god roles and no way would I ever give anyone Zeus' role

his song is urghhh. it talks about Odysseus' pride and that's pretty meaningful but compares that pride to a woman and... it's a bit icky to me bc it's Zeus

hmm so instead of the house wardens being assigned to the greek gods and goddesses, ig it could just be the Great Seven (ok so most of the house wardens + Jamil lol)

I wouldn't know what Ace would be doing though

what could he possibly want?

anyways, here are the lyrics to "My Goodbye" and I'm just gonna talk about my thoughts on how that'd apply to Riddle and Ace

That's just like you, why should I be surprised? Selfish and prideful and vain

I actually misheard it as "I'm just like you" and that would've been so interesting like that could have suggested that Ace and Riddle are actually quite similar

er like the pride part?? af;fakj how to explain? oh well...

You're not looking for a mentor. I'm not looking for a friend

it's sung by Odysseus and yeah, Ace would totally point out Riddle's flaws to him.

hmm Ace isn't exactly the most selfless person and I think he's got some pride. I don't wanna call Riddle selfish but he's certainly got pride as he tries to be like the Queen of Hearts, imposing and powerful. plus he doesn't like it when people mention his height.

sung by Athena. So Riddle's goal (in this AU??) would be to pass his teachings to a successor and he thought Ace was promising. I think it'd be interesting if Riddle, as part of the Great Seven, had conditional immortality. So the Great Seven could be like renowned gods in this world. I remember a snippet from Percy Jackson and the Olympians where it's said that gods are immortal but they'd technically die if no one remembered or worshipped them

and that'd be so interesting if applied to the Great Seven. So Riddle's trying to pass on his knowledge to Ace and be remembered that way ig but Ace doesn't care for Riddle's strict rules and lessons.

hmm for the friend part. Well, I'm not sure if Ace would be looking for a friend but Riddle definitely doesn't have that as one of his goals. he's too focused on trying to forge the world the way he wants

At least I know what I'm fighting for While you're fighting to be known Since you claim you're so much wiser Why's your life spent all alone? You're alone

ahhh Odysseus really knows how to use his words omg

just like Ace always speaks the hard facts when he calls people out whoaaa

so I've already talked about the "fighting to be known" part for Riddle bc he's gotta stay renowned by people to keep his immortality but here I'll focus on the "alone" part. Ace is really revealing Riddle's insecurities

talking about the twst canon story, Riddle really wanted friends as a kid and he really enjoyed playing with Trey and Che'nya so he must have been so dejected when his mom banned him from even getting near them. when Riddle saw Trey again at NRC, he even wondered if he and Trey could still be friends

so Ace is really jabbing at where it hurts mwhahahaah

hey what if Riddle, since he's immortal, had to watch Trey and Che'nya from afar, knowing that they'd die and he'd outlive them?

ohohoho so many possible ideas

This day, you sever your own head This day, you cut the line This day, you lost it all Consider this as my goodbye

I really like the line "you sever your own head"

I suppose it's quite obvious but with Riddle's unique magic being "Off with your head!", that's what reminded me of Riddle naturally

except here, Riddle would be telling Ace that he's the one who cut off his own head; his actions led him to this

I love this song so much wahaha

if only I could think of fitting outfits for this supposed AU urghh

but yeah ig that's it

can you tell I spent more time drawing Riddle than Ace? I think Ace should've been in the Heartslabyul uniform but I didn't feel like drawing that again and Ace also should've been more dynamic like pointing at Riddle but again, I didn't wanna draw that haha

and wow, I just figured out to insert links and make them look nice and also italicize stuff and change the color

thanks for my friend for telling me :D

Haha :D

Will go to sleep now

[staghunters]

12 and 15? For the ask game :)

Damn Kaz you're fast!!

12. Easiest part of body to draw

Okay, so funny thing is I did this little study of ears once and then I think did some high contrast portrait stuff at some point after and know I'm pretty good at getting ears down! Or at least I can do em quick and they're fun to do as well

Maybe I gotta do the same thing with hands someday to see if that tackles them :')

15. *Where* do you draw (don’t drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)

Just at my desk lol. I do have (several, unfilled) small sketchbooks that I've been meaning to take with me when I go outside to just draw stuff out but never got into that tbh. But the desk is nice too! Just an ikea one but on my right is the window that looks out on the canal my flat is next to and the usually busy road behind it. And on the wall is the Lauren Bacall painting that I maaaay finish or may not. (for now it's a fun thing to go "Oh Betty, we're really in it now" at haha)

[sunlight-never-dies]

1: Winter, she's like Elsa but I made her sooooooooo many years ago

2: uh well I put my OCs in different generations and there's always a big three in each gen but in this gen Chase is the top of the big three, but in the future gen, Abby is the top of the big three

3: Nope! Though I have made OCs with others

4: Hm... Reagan, he's a leader of a gang lol

5: uhhhhh Abby I guess

6: hmm.. Alec and Sarah look alike

7: Yup! I've started some stories but I've only finished like 1 and I gotta redo it it's old and it sucks

8: Yup! I roleplay as all of them, but recently I mostly RP as Chase and Abby

9: Probably not, but I guess there are a couple that I could let someone else adopt

10: Well, Avery had blue eyes and bright pink hair lol, and Dylan has long curly blue hair, idk

11: Hmm... Chase or Stella

12: My friends OCs Ace and Zara I guess

13: Yes! Alec! And a couple others but Alec! Yes!

14: Uh well Chase probably yeah he has the most tragic backstory I guess

15: YES YES

16: Hmm.. maybe Jay

17: Yes of course, Chase and Zara. Chara.

18: what does crackship mean

19: Hmm.. Chase, Jay and Abby all mean a lot to me

20: Dylan likes to sing

21: Hmmmmmm idk

22: um idk

23: Chase. He was originally a bad boy. Now he's a blonde idiot with 2 friends and a cat obsession.

24: Ah frick I can't choose

25: Uh well my friend said that Stella is a lot like me but I have stuff in common with all my OCs

26: Against my will? Idk, I have changed some designs but I don't think any of them were against my will

27: Welllllll, Abby was slightly inspired by Bad Reputation

28: Hmm. Jonah, Cora, and Alec I guess, they all have weapons with them and Jonah and Cora aren't afraid to kill

29: Uhh Alec

30: Chase. No question.

31: Chase would have a bunch of cat junk

32: Uh well Xander can get scared pretty easily I guess but if it's like who would be the one scaring people, probably Cora

33: Robin

34: Yes! Ace and Xander are twins, though Ace is my friends OC, and there's also Stella and Stephen, who are either twins or genderbent versions of the same character, depends on how I'm feeling

35: Yup! The ones above and Chase and Jonah, Jay and Robin, Abby and Mason, Alec and Selena, and one time I made Chase and Sarah siblings but yeah that was a one time thing, oh and Winter kinda has an adoptive sister?

36: Yes! Chase and Zara, Zara is my friends OC and their future kids, Ace and Xander, Ace is her OC and Xander is mine, and there's a thing with Abby, Ace and Dylan, Ace used to flirt with Dylan but he's moved go flirting with her cousin, Abby

37: Hmm... Chase is a vampire, so are Jonah, Amber, Alec and Selena, Jay can shapeshift into a wolf, so can Dylan and Mason but they both have wings too, Dylan has bird wings and Mason has butterfly wings, Abby has butterfly wings and she's half fairy, and there's others too lol

38: Abby, she likes to dance and she's super flexible

39: Uh uh okay um who do I choose let's go with Alec, Jonah and Amber are his parents and he has a younger sister named Selena, he's 24 I think I need to do the math and he has brown hair and blue eyes and pale skin(he's a vampire lol) and he's a troublemaker and his dad was kinda abusive but his mom took most of the hits until his dad died when he was killed by Chase and Zara but he was evil so it's chill, he is verrrrrry protective of Selena and yeah if you need with her you're probably gonna die but he only kills when he has to

40: um well I made Winter when I used to do live action RP with my friends and oh gosh we had so much fun back then in my friends backyard but now all the stuff back there is gone but it'll be in my memories forever

41: Well my friend made like 2 drawings of Chase and Zara but I don't have them saved on my phone, I think they're on my tablet

42: Probably Xander, maybe Stella

43: Nope! I like to make my OCs all different

44: I like how diverse they are and all the backstories I've created for them

45: Well I don't use most of my OCs from the old gen, like Asher, Avery, Reagan, oh yeah and my old Warriors OCs, I'll probably never do another Warriors RP or finish my book

46: Nope

47: Yup, my friend V(I'm not allowed to talk to her anymore though woops) really loved Jay and she (yes friendly) called him her child

48: Xander for sure

49: Dylan probably

50: woo okay yes um so, Chase and Jay have been best friends ever since they were like 15 or 16 since like Chase wasn't born in Nykith(the kingdom they live in) because woops tragic backstory but after like a year Jay is like "Okay you can't keep living off me you need a job you hobo" and Chase fails, like, all of them, and Jay is like "frick there's one last open job at the castle but you're an idiot you're gonna mess up but it's our last chance and you're not working at the library with me, let's give this a try" and Chase's backstory comes in handy and he gets the job and he becomes a spy for the kingdom and his room is right next to the queen's room and they become pretty close and one day they're like having a bit of a moment until Jay busts in holding two kids and then tries to kill Chase because one of those kids is his fault because one time Chase got him drunk and hey did you know Jay isn't a virgin, oh and the other kid is because his sister who lives with his dad on the other side of the kingdom got a boyfriend and they're dad is a bad parent

ANYWAYYYY so Jay has to take care of his daughter, Dylan, and his sisters son, Mason, because she's in high school and he doesn't trust his dad with another kid, and then he takes cars of them and a year later Chase and Zara get married so Chase becomes king and then another year later Chase and Zara have twins and Chase is like "frick." And Jay is like "HA! FEEL THE PAIN OF CHILDREN" and Dylan and Mason are like two and then a few months later Jay is like "ROBIN OH MY GOD WHY DID YOU HAVE ANOTHER KID" and Robin's like "woops" so now Jay has to take care of 2 two year olds and 1 infant and over the years the first two kids turn out to be nice, good people, but Abby, the third, did not. She ended up like Jay. Except a bit more rude and she hates everyone. Well, to be fair, as she grew up everyone but her family called her a demon since she had red eyes, but she's an albino, but her skin is dark because the magic in her bloodstream messed with her genetics oh but hey at least she didn't get her dad's life span, since he has a fairy and fairies usually live to be about 30

Oh and one day when Dylan and Mason are 20, Ace and Xander are 18, and Abby is 17, Jay is murdered. Jay is literally best friends with the king so Chase is like "omg okay uh his whole family will stay in the castle until we find who killed him what no I'm not crying you're crying" oh hey btw the killer is Zara's brother lol oh and Zara is also the goddess of demons and death and she is also first in line for the throne of the Place of Darkness and her younfer brother wants the throne, anyway, Jay never let Abby visit the castle because oh he knows she's gonna insult the royal family somehow but Dylan and Mason went before and Ace, the oldest twin, a flirty lil boi, has always flirted with Dylan but this time he doesn't and Dylan is like "um what excuse me" because instead he's flirting with Abby, but she turns him down every time and I gotta get ready for this thing so that's enough typing but WOO that was fun, hey no one's gonna be interested but if anyone is I can go into more detail about any of my other OCs if you ask

Some OC questions

1. Your first OC ever?

2. Do you have a personal favourite among your OCs?

3. Have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else?

4. A character you rarely talk about?

5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be?

6. Two OCs of yours that look alike despite not being related?

7. Are your OCs part of any story or stories?

8. Do you RP as any of your OCs? If you do, introduce one of your RP OCs here!

9. Would you ever be willing to give any of your OCs to someone else?

10. Introduce an OC with a complicated design?

11. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a "sunshine"?

12. Name an OC that isn't yours but who you like a lot

13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs?

14. Introduce an OC with a tragic backstory

15. Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people?

16. Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)?

17. Any OC OTPs?

18. Any OC crackships?

19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)

20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)?

21. Your most artistic OC

22. Is there any OC of yours people tend to mischaracterize? If yes, how?

23. Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like?

24. If you could meet one OC of yours, who would it be and why?

25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?)

26. Have you ever had to change your OC's design or something else about them against your will?

27. Any OCs that were inspired by a certain song?

28. Your most dangerous OC?

29. Which one of your OCs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone they're going?

30. Which one of your OCs would most likely have a secret stuffed animal collection?

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

32. Which one of your OCs would be the most suitable horror game protagonist and why?

33. Your shyest OC?

34. Do you have any twin characters?

35. Any sibling characters?

36. Do you have OC pairs where the other part belongs to someone else (siblings, lovers, friends etc)?

37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human

38. Which one of your OCs would be the best dancer?

39. Introduce any character you want

40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!

41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)

42. Which one of your OCs would be the most interested in Greek gods?

43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It's time to confess

44. Something you like about your OCs in general

45. A character you no longer use?

46. Has anyone ever told you that you treat your OCs badly?

47. Has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your OCs as their child?

48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure

49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes

50. Give me the good ol' OC talk here. Talk about anything you want

If you want, you can tag your ask answers with #yetanotherOCmeme so I can check them out too `v´9