#// aka all my ask replies following this post :) hehe :)

[asphuxia]

@ganglotte sent:

She thinks she is dreaming at first.

         Surely the Eir she sees among the crowd is a mirage, an illusion created by whatever is wrong with the village. Ganglöt had not thought it would be so easy to find her; she did not want it to be so easy to find her.

         Did she ever want to find her at all? Why is it that she feels she would have rather not found Eir at all, that she would have been more content with the idea of revenge, of Eir?

         There is no time to think of such things now; Ganglöt pushes through the crowd (which is not a very difficult task, as they part for her), until she is right behind Eir, scythe in hand. Now, I can do it now, I must do it now. Eir will not even know who had struck her.

         Ganglöt tenses, ready to swing; she knows just where to strike the princess. How many times had she watched Hel strike down her own daughter? How many times had she watched Eir fall, studied the slow arc her body made as Death stole over her face?

         It is different, though, to do it with her own hands. It is easier to watch. It is slower when she watches.

         “...Eir.”

         It surprises her, her own decision to speak. A million taunts and threats teeter on the tip of her tongue, but she does not voice them. Instead, a demand spills forth:

         “You will come back from this moon’s fiasco alive. I will not permit you to die by anyone’s hand but my own. …am I clear?"

It had been a moment of sordid naivety for Eir to believe that the dead would not return to life.

The blade makes itself known to her before she needs to witness it, the bold flirt of death with her soul a well-memorised dance. It is a presence none are wont to forget, and the regent least of all; from the distance, she registers its knife-bright edge parting crowd and soul alike. The world itself seemed to quiet around her— the surrounding chatter but a buzz in the air, so remote and isolated, one could have imagined it. Within that brief void of all else, the thin space between nonexistence and reality, it was as though life had begun to kneel in death’s presence.

At the end of the scythe, Eir stills. Within the moments it takes for her to compose herself, flowers wilt and blossom beneath her feet; the sovereign’s affinities at odds with her. Softly, a sigh disguised as an exhale escapes her— drawn out and slow, lest her fear might crawl once more into the hollow of her soul. It takes all of her strength to resist the anger that rolls over her in waves, the threat of viscera so palpable in the air. It is unbecoming of her, she knows; so far removed of all of her true mother’s grace and sensibility, so deeply entrenched in the constant need to survive. At the sound of Ganglöt’s voice, it takes just a little more not to recoil.

Instead, Eir straightens her back, irons out her posture, and breathes.

“… You seem to get ahead of yourself,” she answers, countenance serene— yet her once gentle tone unsheathes naught but a blade’s edge. It is with a strange inflection that she speaks, a veil of apathy drawn over a voice otherwise warm with compassion. When enough of her had been ripped away, stolen from her very fingers; when her identity had been washed away like blood— that was when Eir had discovered true emotion. That was when she began to harden and grow sharp, not at a loss of love for the world, but an important part of her heart— at the loss of a soul. At Ganglöt’s mercy, she had lost all she had ever loved and never known. Now, the handmaiden is at hers, and Eir is all but Hel’s empathetic, merciful death. “You mistake me for someone who will bend to you. You believe I remain the sweet girl you bring to slaughter.”

When she turns to face the other woman, gaze falling first upon the scythe, her visage fixes an expression she has never felt nor worn. Eir wants to gasp for air, to cry out for someone, anyone. She wants to grab her mother’s handmaiden and weep into her arms, to beg for lives past— what they had once shared. Eir wants to plead for her adoration even when it had come in the form of a blade against her neck. But ultimately, she does not, and she discards every intent to surrender herself to her memories. Sapphire eyes are steely, restrained; and when they meet Ganglöt’s, one could almost claim them cold. Then Eir smiles, icily, in a manner that is hardly a smile at all.

“No, Ganglöt. Let me make this clear. I will not die by your hand. I will not lose what little I have left.” Is it for herself that she says these things, that she dares not flinch nor cower? The life of which her mother’s soul sustains tells her everything but. There is a deafening roar in her ears, her heart a rebellious creature within the confines of her chest. Each word is a struggle, barely withheld in its simmering anger; even so, Eir manages. She speaks carefully, deliberately— letting not a single syllable understate her emotion, her rare expense of fury. Well-buried within her voice lies a pain so carnal and thinly contained, it threatens to rip through her throat. It is the truth that spills unbidden from her mouth. “Not to you, not to Hel, not to anyone. Take care that it is not you who dies at mine.”

It registers, mere seconds late, what she has said after she says it— and Eir finds that she means each word in their entirety. At her side, the arcane reaper is an intrusive presence. It aids only to cement the sovereign’s every impression, to justify all measures of her caution. Ganglöt’s eyes betray her approach, speaks for her every intention gone unsaid; Life’s queen knows better than to hope for anything less. It is Hel’s handmaiden, after all— and she knew best those she once loved.

As her voice leaves her, so too does her anger; Eir draws back, quieting her heart. It aches in its wake, praying for reprieve— it is too much, too much. All but a pride born of deaths not rightfully hers begs her not to falter, to finish just as strongly as she had started. It is with that same pride that she rolls back her shoulders, and her eyes do not begin to water. It is with that pride that she ignores the hollow emptiness that pools in her heart. She has never felt so fragile, so vulnerable in dignity. The quiet tremble of her hands come to a decisive halt.

“… and before you manage kill me,“ Eir leans towards Ganglöt, voice low; the words leave her lips barely more than a whisper, a final warning, “you will continue to address me as ‘Lady Eir’.”

Then she leaves Ganglöt as the handmaid has always been left— behind.

[crystalglassjar]

🦋 Butterfly Baby 🦋

-🦋 Butterfly Baby 🦋-

this isn’t exactly a fanfic but not exactly a list of headcanons either. it’s basically an “I suck at writing but I’ve already planned out an entire story”. is there a beginning, climax, and satisfying ending? no lmao

-📋 story description 📋-

xiao and hu tao get together and have a family. hu tao is 19 at the start of this fic if you’re wondering. I just really needed to get this story out my system...hehe...and reply to this post if you can figure out why the story is called Butterfly Baby

-‼️warnings‼️-

mild spoilers, also this was written on 2/7/2021 so some stuff might seem incorrect after more story quests come out. also major character death if you read the alternate ending

-📜 the actual writing 📜-

• hu tao and xiao start hanging out together (aka hu tao comes to bother xiao and eat almond tofu with him whenever he stops by wangsheng inn)

• xiao eventually grows fond for hu tao but makes many attempts to keep her at an arms distance, all of which were in vain

• xiao and hu tao are both in denial about being in love but obviously xiao takes his denial to a whole other level

• xiao doesn’t visit the inn for 2 weeks but eventually caves and goes back because he missed hu tao the silky texture of almond tofu

• ganyu finds out after overhearing verr goldet (desk lady at wangshu inn) reporting back to ningguang about her observations

• ganyu thinks it’s an exaggeration until she goes to wangshu inn for some business affairs sees xiao and hu tao chatting over some almond tofu and tea

• xiao pretends to not notice ganyu peering from behind a wall

• xiao brings it up during ganyu’s adepti training (ganyu story quest) and she just looks away and apologizes

• xiao knows she wouldn’t tell anyone so he doesn’t bother making her feel even worse than she already does

• xiao and hu tao start actually dating (in secret) but it’s hard to keep at least a few people from noticing an adepti and a funeral parlor director walking near the outskirts of town

• xiao once again tries to distance himself because he feels like he’s not worthy of her love after all the people he’s killed and that an adeptus can’t be with a mortal, hu tao shuts that argument down with “but I don’t care”

• hu tao is a bit hurt that he thinks it matters if she’s a mortal

• she laughs at the rumors that she’s dating an adeptus even if it’s true

• zhong li eventually hears about the rumors and is pretty sure it’s true because hu tao comes to his statue everyday and recently brought up questions about love

• fast forward 10 months of hush hush dating and he finally proposes. no ring or anything fancy, just a simple “do you want to get married?” while they stood at the peak of guyun stone forest

• hu tao says yes without even thinking about it and immediately kisses him and starts excitedly talking about wedding plans that she totally hasn’t been thinking about for the past 3 months

• xiao comes to ganyu to ask for help with wedding planning and ganyu nearly looses her head when she hears him say “so I’m engaged now..”

• hu tao somehow convinced zhong li to help her with planning

• zhong li isn’t too shocked about the engagement but hopes that xiao knows what he’s getting himself into

• hu tao, with a lot of effort, convinces xiao to move into the wangsheng funeral parlor with her

• xiao has a tough time adjusting to mundane life (haha get it because- no? not funny? ok I’ll stop)

• it doesn’t take much negotiation with ningguang to secure a venue at yujing terrace

• xiao would’ve preferred a private wedding at jueyun karst but didn’t know how to ask cloud retainer about it

• one month of planning later and they get married at yujing terrace

• basically everyone in Liyue attends the wedding including traveler

• the adepti got their invites delivered from ganyu and watched the wedding from afar

• I know nothing about Chinese weddings so uhhhh that’s for the reader to dream about

• hu tao throws a flower ball made of silk flowers into the crowd (customs of liyue, volume 1)

• may or may not have forgotten about contraception during their wedding night.....

• too embarrassed to go down to bubu pharmacy get morning after medicine

• hu tao prays to rex lapis that she won’t get pregnant

• zhong li, sipping his tea: I pretend I do not hear

• xiao doesn’t know if he should tell hu tao about zhong li being rex lapis so he just hopes he’ll never have to reveal that secret

• xiao nearly breaks his skull on the wall when he realizes what he’s getting himself into

• people of Liyue are still in shock about an adeptus marrying a mortal (since they were never confirmed to be dating beforehand) and nearly explode with buzz when the funeral parlor director starts growing a baby bump

• “have you seen the wangsheng funeral parlor director? last time I saw her, it looked like her belly was growing a bit. do you think she’s pregnant? oh my archons, a half adeptus baby? I can’t believe it!”

• xiao asks zhong li if he can go out an order a crib, rocking chair, baby clothes, etc for him

• zhong li obviously says yes

• fast forward 9 months and hu tao goes into labor just an hour before the funeral parlor was closing for the day

• zhong li rushes hu tao to her room and tells the undertakers to fetch the midwife

• hu tao calls for xiao and of course xiao is there within 10 seconds

• midwife nearly shits herself when she walks into the bedroom and sees an adeptus

•the midwife nervously asks if xiao was the father

• there was a popular (false) rumor going around that hu tao had an affair with zhong li and the baby was his, mostly because people refused to believe that hu tao was pregnant with a half adeptus baby. these rumors were only fueled further when zhong li was overheard asking a shop keeper if he should order multiple sizes of baby onesies just in case.

• zhong li just nods his head and xiao looks away in shame

• midwife gives helps deliver the baby while thinking “if I fuck this up, this adeptus is going to kill me”

• surprise! the baby is completely fine and healthy

• ganyu asked the qixing if she could take a day off (much to the shock of everyone who knew she wouldn’t even take her yearly vacation leave)

• ganyu has never ran so quickly down Liyue’s streets and nearly kicked down the funeral parlor door

• she’s super excited to know that there’s going to be another half adeptus in Liyue but is also incredibly worried about the idea of a half yaksha child

• I can’t come up with a name for the daughter so ill just call her daughter

• zhong li is named the god father and ganyu is the named god mother

• xiao and hu tao take the baby down to jueyun karst

• ganyu and cloud retainer both think the baby is such an adorable and precious little thing

• the rest of the adeptus are just like “xiao wtf...but ok”

• refer to my posts about xiao as a father if you want some more cute details but I don’t wanna just write a copy paste of my past post

• everyone at Liyue harbor is gossiping about it

• hu tao is a very fun and free mom and teaches the kid to become a tiny ball of chaos with the pyromania of klee and the sneakiness of yaoyao. aka the kid is now unstoppable

• pyro vision because of course

• hu tao teaches her daughter how to master pyro, how to write poetry, and most importantly, how to become a funeral parlor director

• the daughter actually prefers swords over poles and gets classes from the guhua clan, and more specifically,

• zhong li was very eager to give the kid a vision and was managed to get the pyro archons permission

• xiao confronts zhong li about the vision it in secret

• xiao: you gave her a pyro vision. do you know how destructive she will be? 

• zhong li, taking another sip of tea: ✨ I pretend I do not hear ✨

• hu tao overhears the conversation and puts two and two together

• hu tao and xiao have their first ever argument ever since they got married

• “why didn’t you tell me before?”

• “because it was a secret!”

• back and forth until they hear the baby waking up and crying

• they agree that there’s no point in arguing now and go off to calm down the baby

• they end up living a happy life as a family of three, and after hu tao’s death, xiao continues to raise the child as much as he can (with the help of zhong li and ganyu)

• their daughter becomes the 78th director of the wangsheng funeral parlor

~the end~

-↪️ alternate ending ↪️-

• osial somehow wakes up during one lantern rite

• xiao was distracted by a different, much smaller, demon

• the guizhong ballista and jade chamber had been repaired by now and were better than before, and they were able to defeat osial without sacrificing the jade chamber again

• however they didn’t get to the jade chamber fast enough and a small part of Liyue was destroyed

• one place in that part of liyue being the wangsheng funeral parlor

• xiao is overcome by grief because he believe it was his fault that he wasn’t able to protect this family

• he finally succumbs to the corruption

• what he didn’t know what was that hu tao did indeed die in the destruction, but his daughter (currently age 12) was still perfectly well and alive

• ganyu takes in the daughter

• zhong li took over the post as director after hu tao’s death and became the 78th director

• zhong li continued to teach the daughter about how to properly run a business and conduct flawless funerals

• the daughter becomes the 79th director of the wangsheng funeral parlor when she’s 18

• she also becomes the new demonslayer of the adepti, following in her father’s footsteps

• even through the trauma of witnessing her mother’s untimely death and being given the news that her father’s had also died, she made it through and raised a happy family of her own, while wearing the hat that her mom passed down.

~the end~

-📝 author’s note 📝-

ok...so that was longer than expected. let me know what you guys think! see any typos or anything off? please mention it! if you guys have a header for hu tao please do share~

[sasarahsunshine]

Hi, same DID research anon from before! I‘m glad I could help :) as for the term host- ‘host’ refers to whichever alter fronts (aka takes control of the body) the most often. The host can be any alter, not just the ‘original’ or oldest alter, and it is possible for another alter to take on the role of host if the previous host goes dormant or can’t be the host anymore for any reason. There can also be multiple hosts or backup hosts- which are called ‘co-hosts’- or even no host at all. It’s a very common and perfectly fine term to use, most systems use it. For referring to the system as a whole- it varies a lot depending on the system. For writing a character/system with DID, you can probably just decide yourself how that system would want to be called in different situations. In real life situations, it’s best to just ask the system how they want to be referred to. Some will prefer to be referred to in a plural way at all or most times, others will instead ask you to refer to them by their individual pronouns/names depending on who is fronting (since alters can be any gender). It also depends on the situation- if you’re saying something that applies to the whole system, you might say ‘they’, but if something only applies or is relevant to one alter, you would go singular instead. (Examples: ‘Our body is female, but I am male.’ ‘I use he/him, but we collectively use she/they.’ ‘He wanted to go outside, but they were all tired.) For us, we change from singular to plural for ourselves depending on what feels comfortable or most accurate in the moment. We also collectively use they/them at just about all times, since we’re very private about who is fronting. I‘m totally fine to answer any other questions you may have, it’s fun to explain :)

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I currently don't have any more questions, but I really love all of your answers! It's SO very helpful to hear from someone who actually experiences DID to be able to explain things to me <3 Thank you again for educating and teaching me (and all of my followers) about DID, and sharing a little bit of your own experience with it!

I love meeting all of you <3 Feel free (if you're comfortable/feel safe enough) to message me anytime again in the future! My DM's are always open too, in case you want to talk about anything!

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[mahounostairs]

The Kaoru Interrogation Saga

Teru drops a bomb at a drinking party, absolute fucking anarchy ensues shortly after.

Rating: M

I couldn't think of a better title for this so it's gonna stay the interrogation saga.

So this started out as a discussion my friend Riley and I had over discord dms talking about episode 11 of sideani about the scene where Teru like, just whips it out at the hot springs (but is conveniently covered by something in the foreground). A good amount of the dialogue was lifted from the og discussion so credit to Riley aka twitter user @haijou_parade go follow her she's amazing ily bestie

Also all the referenced/implied ships throughout this are: HokuMai, YamaHaza, HideShou, TeruKao, SeiMichi

[Originally posted July 8, 2021]

“And that right there is why you gotta choose your whiskey brands wisely.” Jiro said, holding up his glass, “The cheap shit really ain’t worth the time of day, even if it does save your wallet from a beating, and that’s coming from a cheapskate like me!”

Teru nodded absentmindedly, and shakily due to already being quite drunk. “I… getcha!” Flashing a quick thumbs-up and grin, he took another swig of his beer.

These get-togethers would always get like this. Starting off fairly normal but then slowly everyone would get progressively drunker and drunker and drunker except for whichever poor bastard was stuck as the designated driver for that evening. This night was no exception.

Jiro glanced back at the tables near the bar, most of the other adults were seated in this corner of the pub they decided on for this get-together. The table closest to him and him had the unusual grouping of Kaoru, Michio, Shouma, Minori, and Rui. The latter three chatting excitedly and loudly while Kaoru sat quietly, sometimes nodding or giving a short reply in between sips. Even more surprising was the pink tint on his face, Kaoru didn’t typically drink enough for that to happen.

“Hehe… Heeey, Yamashita-saaaaan~” Teru slurred, “Wanna hear ‘bout somethin’ funny?”

“Hm? Sure, Tendou-sensei.”

He giggled like a little kid, “Remember wheen Sakura-hic-ba, Tsubasa and I all wen’ on that hot springs trip?”

“Yes?” Jiro could not begin to comprehend where this conversation would go.

“Well…! When we were at th’ hot springs,” A shit-eating grin spread across Teru’s face, “I showed ‘em my dick!”

Jiro nearly spat out his drink.

“Oh! An’ every now and then… I bring it up again jus’ to see their reactions!” He chuckled, as if this were something completely normal to talk about.

“Tendou-sensei,” Jiro coughed, “I’m sorry but, what??”

“Tendou!” A familiar, very pissed-off voice came from the table closest to them.

Jiro looked over to see Kaoru standing with both hands on the table. His face had gone from an alcohol-induced pink to a fuming red that went up to his ears. Michio, who was sitting to the other side of him, had also gone a bit red (though more likely from the embarrassment of overhearing such a thing) put a hand on Kaoru’s arm in an attempt to keep him from laying waste to the hapless drunk next to Jiro. Minori had a similar look of surprise on his face, and luckily the way they were all seated had him able to keep Kaoru in too. Although, he did exchange some hushed words with Shouma and Rui across the table.

There was murder in Kaoru’s eyes, “Why are you bringing that up now?! And here?!”

“Hey! Mister Sakuraba!” Rui turned his head to the table beside them, “And Mister Kashiwagi, too!”

Tsubasa’s head poked up from the other table. He seemed to have blissfully not overheard their conversation, well for now.

"Did you two look?"

Uh oh.

“Maita-sensei...!” Kaoru’s knuckles turned white as he balled his fists on the table.

A light blush rose on Tsubasa’s face as what Rui was asking finally hit him, “O-oh, that… Um, well...”

“Don’t answer him, Kashiwagi.” Kaoru spat out before Tsubasa could even think of finishing his thoughts.

“Oh, come on, Kaoru! We’re all friends here!” Minori pulled Kaoru back down to his seat, “So, did ya look at it or not?”

Kaoru buried his face in his hands with a heavy sigh, “Please, not you too, Watanabe-san.”

“I’m with Minorun here.” Shouma giggled lightly, “Besides, this is an interesting topic~”

The dark-haired man simply groaned into his hands in response.

Minori lightly swung an arm around his shoulders, “It’s no big deal! Now, just spill it, did you see Teru’s dick or not?”

“D-don’t say it so loud, Watanabe-san!”

“Hmm?” A new voice joined the conversation.

Taking his head out of his hands, Kaoru saw that Amehiko, who was seated at Tsubasa’s table, had (unfortunately) taken notice of the conversation. The older man had a smirk that filled Kaoru with a sense of dread.

Despite that, he was not prepared for the words that left his mouth.

“Of all the things to overhear tonight, I wasn’t expecting to hear that you pleasured Tendou-san like that.”

Kaoru blinked, “...Pleasured? What the Hell do you mean by that?”

Amehiko raised an eyebrow, “Watanabe-san said that you sucked Tendou-san’s dick, didn’t he?”

“...Excuse me?”

Tsubasa nearly choked on his drink as Amehiko spoke. Chris, who was seated beside Amehiko, looked at him with wide eyes, his cheeks tinted by both alcohol and embarrassment. “A-Amehiko!” Chris gently scolded him, then turned his gaze towards the man sitting across from them, “Are you alright, Kashiwagi-san?”

Before Tsubasa could even open his mouth to respond, a loud slam rang from the other table. Numerous pairs of eyes turned to see-

Forcibly shoving Minori off of him, Kaoru stood up, “First of all!” Hell hath no fury like Sakuraba Kaoru right at this very moment, “I would never do such a thing to TENDOU of all people!” He gestured towards the man in question, who had finally seemed to be aware of what he had caused. “Secondly, unlike some of you people, I actually have some fucking self-respect! I would never just fling my mouth onto anyone’s penis! Third of all, I wouldn’t even know how to do such a thing and I would NEVER let my first experience be-”

“Now, wait a moment, Kaoru-chan,” Shouma cut through his words, “your first experience? You’re a virgin?”

Kaoru went quiet at those words. His face goes red yet again, but for a different reason from before. He opened and closed his mouth, unable to get even a squeak out.

“I mean, I had always suspected it but now we have actual confirmation!”

“Wh-what does it matter!?” Kaoru said, trying to regain his composure, “It’s not as if I’m the only one here who's never had such… experiences! It’s perfectly normal, even at this age! Now, if we cou-”

Minori drunkenly giggled, “Fufu, this is making me think of when I first had my v card swiped~”

“Hah?!”

He ignored Kaoru and continued on, “How old was I then? I must’ve been about 16 or 17.” Minori sighed dreamily, “I remember it so fondly~ My, er, s-senpai invited me over after school one day to spend the night. We were supposed to be working on a project together and, well, let’s just say things got a bit heated all of a sudden!” A smirk spread across his face, “Anyway, we had a couple of flings here and there, it was a very on-and-off kind of thing, y’know?”

Kaoru couldn’t even respond to what had just come from Minori’s mouth. He slid back down into his seat, his heart sinking in fear of what he had just sparked.

Shouma nodded when Minori finished recounting his… tale, “Well now, this senpai of yours sounds like he was quite the charmer, wasn’t he?”

“Fu, he certainly was! Some of our friends thought we really were an item too.”

“How did you meet this darling senpai of yours, by the way?”

Minori paused, “Uh, w-we were in the same club, ehehe...”

“Makes me think of my own first~”

“Oh? Do tell, Shouma!”

He put a finger to his chin in thought, “Let’s see, my body count’s so high it took me quite some time to remember, but like Minorun, it was back in high school for me as well! I was in my school’s theatre club and not getting any leading roles so, uh,” Shouma chuckled lightly, “I thought I’d seduce my darling club president! Never intended to actually sleep with him or anything, haha! I just got so caught up in flirting with him, then realized just how hot he was and one thing led to another!”

The sound of someone spitting their drink and then gagging came from the bar side. Hideo spun around on the barstool, still coughing, “Sorry, but WHAT?!?”

“Oh?” Shouma looked over at him, “I thought you already knew, my dear Hero-chan! Didn’t I tell you about it last Sunday over dinner?”

“YOU DIDN’T GO INTO THAT MUCH DETAIL?!?!”

He simply laughed in response, “Well, that’s because of your silly ‘no in-depth discussion about sex at the dinner table’ rule!”

Kaoru held his head in his hands and groaned, “I want to leave.”

“I lost mine when I was in university!” Rui joined in, “It was with a guy in my class during my first year there!”

“M-Michael,” A confused Hokuto had joined the conversation, too, “I wasn’t attending uni during your first year…?”

Rui replied a bit too cheerfully, “I know! You were far from my first, Hokuto! It should’ve been obvious from how much more I knew about sex than you back then!”

Hokuto didn’t even respond as Rui talked. He just sat there, slowly sipping away at his drink. In addition to the pity he was already feeling for Kaoru, Jiro felt sorry for Hokuto as all of... THAT got revealed.

“Koron-chan, Michio-chan, what about you two?” Shouma suddenly asked.

Chris was caught off-guard, “Me? W-well, ah, I lost mine to...” He trailed off.

“Hmm? I couldn’t quite hear you, Koron-chan.”

“It was...”

“Me.” Said Amehiko, snaking an arm around Chris’s waist and pulling him closer, “And he was my first human, too.”

Shouma put a hand to his chin, “Oh, this is certainly interesting!”

“Wait a minute, did you just say Koron was your ‘first human?’”

Completely ignoring Jiro’s very legitimate question, Rui looked across the table, “Your turn, Mister Hazama!”

Michio blinked, then cleared his throat, “Well, it was with-”

Jiro got a bad feeling, “Hazama-san, you don’t need to answer tha-”

“-Yamashita-kun, at his apartment one day when we had a day off together, we-”

“Th-that’s enough, Hazama-san!” Jiro shouted over Michio’s words. He wasn’t expecting him to attempt to go into detail, fucking alcohol.

Rui put a finger to his cheek and said, “Oh! I remember that day!”

Both Michio and Jiro coughed and sputtered at the words that came from their coworker’s mouth. “Rui?!/Maita-kun?!”

“The walls of our apartment complex are super thin! I didn’t put in a noise complaint or anything so don’t worry! Plus, Mister Yamashita has totally heard Hokuto and I going at it at least once or even twice!”

“Michael?!?!”

As the four of them got caught up in their own thing, the main conversation marched forward. Much to the glee of a handful of the adults, and the dissatisfaction of most of the others.

Shouma turned his head towards the other table, “What about you, Wing-chan? Got any stories?”

Tsubasa blinked in surprise, “Eh, m-me?! Well, I don’t have anything nearly as thrilling as your guys' stories...”

“It’s totally fine!” Minori waved it off, “Even just regular relationship stuff is fine!”

“Really?” Relief washed over him, “If that’s the case, while I haven’t done, th-that yet, I did have my first kiss when I was about 14.” Tsubasa went red as he remembered, “I was at a friend’s Christmas party, and there was mistletoe up and a classmate of mine and I were under it…”

“Aww, that’s actually quite cute, Wing-chan~!”

“W-we never ended up dating or anything, though!” Tsubasa waved his hands in a flustered manner, “I didn’t have my first relationship until highschool. A boy in my math class asked me out after school one day. I was so surprised! We didn’t do much more than kiss, and ended up splitting during senior year, but we stayed friends! Oh, and-”

Kaoru breathed an inward sigh of relief as Tsubasa rambled on about his highschool boyfriend. After all the other stories he was tormented with, it was practically a Godsend to hear something so nice, so pure, so-

“Wow, Mister Kashiwagi! Your boyfriend sounds a lot like the guy I lost my virginity to!”

...He thought too fucking soon.

Ignoring the kerfuffle that had just started, Minori switched his gaze over to the bar area, “Oh, Teru!” He called out in an almost sing-song tone, “Surely you have a story or two to share!”

“Huh, me?” Teru’s eyes widened as he was dragged back into the conversation he sparked, looking significantly more sober than earlier, “Uh, I did have a girlfriend back in high school, but I ended up never doin’ anything with her, so she broke up with me...”

Shouma put a hand to his face in disbelief, “Is that so? To think you’d get dumped in such a way...”

“A-anyway!” Teru’s face flushed up at Shouma’s comment, “I didn’t end up seeing anyone else later on, had my first kiss in college, but that’s-”

“Oh~ How did your first kiss go?” Minori said, fully intent on not letting him get away with sparse details.

“Do I really have to?”

“No need to get all embarrassed now, Teru!” Minori sounded almost too cheerful saying that.

Teru sighed, “Alright, alright. During freshman year, I got invited to some party on campus. Pretty much all of us got totally shitfaced at it. Next morning, I wake up with basically no memory, except...”

“Except what?”

He put his face in his hands, “...except, drunkenly making out with some guy I met at the party.” Teru groaned, “Had no fuckin’ clue who he was and I still don’t! Never ran into him ever again.”

“Oh my~” Shouma smirked, “Now that is quite a thrilling first kiss!”

Teru put his face down on the bar counter in defeat.

Minori’s attention went back to his own table, “Come on, Kaoru, don’t have such a look on your face!”

“What the fuck does that mean?”

He simply smiled at Kaoru, “The whole time Teru was talking about his previous experiences, jealousy was written all over your face~”

His cheeks heated up once more, “I-I was NOT jealous!”

“Uh-huh, sure, and I’m a virgin.”

“Ggh!” Kaoru glared at him. He reached for his glass and brought it to his lips, saying anything more would only dig him a deeper grave than what he was already in.

Among the absolute bullshit that had occurred, a voice came from the bar side of the corner, “So, uh, did anyone else see that new drama that premiered the other night?”

Shingen Seiji: the poor bastard stuck as the designated driver for this drinking party.

“Ah, Seiji-chan!” Shouma waved a hand and called out to him, “You wouldn’t happen to have any stories, would you?”

Seiji scratched at his face with a sheepish look, “Well, I’ve never really been in a relationship before, so-”

“Wait, wait, wait, stop.” Minori gave him a strangely serious look, “So you’re telling us that you and Michiru aren’t dating?”

“N-no? We’re just good bros.”

“Oh my fucking God.”

Shouma shook his head with a sigh, “Oh well then, maybe you could tell us about, say, any one night stands that you’ve maybe had before?”

The blond’s words made Kaoru damn near choke on his drink, but he managed to keep it down.

Seiji pondered, “Let’s see, there was this one time where Michiru and I had a fairly intense work-out session together which led to some things happening and...”

Their corner of the bar went dead silent as Seiji spoke. All eyes now on him. Even the group involved in Rui’s side discussion had stopped to pay attention to the former soldier.

He straightened up in his seat, “Oh, it was just a bro thing! Haha...”

“Yeah, sure it was.”

“That’s what my senpai and I were saying to each other at first.”

“Shingen-san, are you really, REALLY, sure you and Enjoji-san aren’t dating?”

Jiro simply watched the new scene unfold before him. He finished off his whiskey, which had long since gone warm.

“Hey, um, guys, just a quick question.” Hideo suddenly piped up, “Who the fuck is the one ordering all these peas?”

[oh-lali-lali-lali-lalipop]

@mysteriousdbzgt: Hi oh-lali-lali-lali-lalipop! Thank you for your ask. First of all, thanks for asking this question here on my personal (and also for the follow over on t&bftw, welcome aboard! :D) I think you can probably tell from here, that I’m a huge supporter of them becoming romantically involved lol I don’t shy about that here, but I like to present a more neutral stance over on my news dedicated blog, to not influence others of my personal opinions. With regards to the new season, as much as I would be supportive of it, I unfortunately highly doubt that they would become “official” in S2 or anything in the future, but will remain extremely dedicated and attentive to one another, regardless of their constant bickering. The creators of the show are more than aware of the popularity of the “couple”, being constantly popular at doujinshi events and the continuous amounts of merchandise that they bring out, which regularly focuses on the main duo rather than all of the Heroes all the time. The fandom is primarily dominated by women, when originally the show was supposed to target men and “salarymen”, but attracted a completely different demographic that they hadn’t anticipated. I can only think that’s mainly because of the appeal of K&B. Also not helped by some of the staff’s, let’s just say, “unfiltered” thoughts when they discuss about K & B in older interviews, centering around “love” and other similar notions. I think they still want to keep this series aimed towards a male demographic, even if the results don’t line up as they expect. But highly ironically, it’s what makes the show successful, so I doubt they would want to change how they portray Kotetsu and Barnaby’s relationship. Personally I would be absolutely over the moon if they did become “official”, because they’re just perfect for one another (hehe) and it could just break so many standard conventions/boundaries on how media portrays same-sex relationships, if done appropriately, and not be labelled with any genre tags like “BL”, “yaoi” or anything similar, and still simply just be a “drama”, “superhero” tale, with the two main males eventually getting together but not make a big song and dance about it. If we want to normalise LGBT relationships within our media and what we consume, then we need to drop these tags and portray them in a healthy manner, which I think the show does well between them both. I believe that the staff have the talent to pull it off, they just need to be cautious on how they do it. Like you said, how FE is presented in the show which such great self confidence about themselves and who they are, really shows that they can write this. Also T&B’s spiritual successor show, Double Decker (who had a lot of the same staff) tackles some LGBT themes pretty well, so they could absolutely do it. But yeah, I don’t think they’ll become “official” unfortunately. But if anything, I anticipate that KxB will most likely be working even closer together in S2, so they’ll be more in tune with one another, and possibly open up even more to each other than they did before. Hopefully they’ll be over the huge feuds and split apart phase, which The Rising focused on (they’ll still bicker all the time, but that’s just how they are), so we can see just how far their relationship has come and changed for the better. Anyway this is probably way too long (sorry), but always interested to hear your thoughts too! :)  

Heya! Before I start I just wanna say thank you so much for taking the time to give me such a thorough reply, it is incredibly well thought out and written! I also want to say I am so freaking sorry you had to type out my monstrosity of a name (seriously didn’t think about that when making the joke lol). Oh, and I’m equally sorry for the formatting of the reply... really had no clue how to go about it, so I just defaulted to going about it the roleplayer way haha. Anyways, for starters, I think I should say that I actually agree with you a lot. You see, logically I think it feels highly unlikely they’d make them “official” in the new season. I’m not sure if I feel like it’s unlikely because I, someone who’s in the LGBTQ community, am a pessimist (aka, I’m negative regardless of proof) who is use to companies not delivering on it/assume companies won’t deliver on it.... or if I’m genuinely, but unconsciously, picking up on Sunrise’s stance of “not gonna happen”. Despite all that I still feel stupidly hopeful about it (y’know, heart louder than the mind and all that jazz)... and I guess for the sake of the discussion I’ll break down why! lol So, I got into the fandom.... around the time of The Rising, I think, so anywhere from 2014 to 2015. I instantly fell in love with it all, but I did end up falling out of the loop for awhile (being a teenager and all that). Recently (recently being that I finished S1 on Friday, watched The Rising on Sunday, and now I’m here lol) I got back into it and.... wow, a lot of it is the same, and.... at the same time it felt like I had so much more to process. It’s still as amazing as ever, if not even more so, and just like with everything else I love with my entire being I started to analyze it and read into it (maybe a little bit too much so lol).  In all honesty, KxB seriously stood out even more so than it did last time for me (I don’t know if it’s because I’m now accepting of my sexuality or what) and while it’s not actually the best part of the series to me (God, Barnaby’s arc means so much to me what with me struggling with cPTSD, but that story is best left on my RP blog) I do have to admit that the pairing is... incredibly meaningful, and beautiful. Moving for me, really.  I guess the following observations, and hopeful thinking that came after it, could be deduced to me just wearing shipper goggles, but considering my habit of over analyzing and breaking things down... I do try to make predictions and opinions logically, and with that in mind it’s why I’m so stuck on the “hopeful thinking”, since a tiny bit of logical thinking is fueling it. Tiger & Bunny is about human relationships, really. For a show focusing on NEXTs... it’s really about humanity, corruption, society, relationships... and KxB all along the first season is written as an undertone, like a slow burn (which is entirely fitting, and seriously makes any relationship better), which fits because the first season is, in actuality, not focused on that (the plot being bigger than we can see and all that). In the end, having rewatched it, I also noticed how, really, the undertone is written in such a way that.... it feels like Barnaby is the one with the “crush” (or is the first one to realize it) which... kinda fits with the old statements from the crew. Kotetsu the forever oblivious one who hasn’t had an epiphany yet (although if I’m being honest, The Rising seems to have this “side-plot” feeling of Kotetsu having the epiphany when he realizes what he’s lost, which is what I meant by the flow of the series somewhat feels like it’s building towards it)...  .... There’s also the whole “leaving it to interpretation thing” they said back then. Which, I have to agree with some other people that it feels like it’s just a way of saying “it’s romantic but we don’t want to take that risk”.... and that was back around 2011. It’ll have been decade since then when S2 is released, and, while a decade is just a decade, a lot has changed on a societal basis since then. Even during this decade long gap Sunrise has become more bold with their representation, whether it be Double Decker! or The Rising.... almost like they’re testing the waters...  and what better way to champion representation than to make two main characters the representation? This franchise is... so human in it’s story, and the meaning doing such a thing would have for so many people... in a way, I think out ways some of the risks. I feel like the build up is there, the want is there (tbh seeing posts on tumblr of people talking about how they hope they’ll get a kiss in S2 or something “official” like that also fueled this)... it just depends on whether they’ll feel afraid or not. Which is, really, why I asked for your opinion. You do such good work at trying to bridge the gap between the Japanese fandom/Sunrise and the English speaking community (which, btw, you are amazing at, I can’t thank you enough for the work you do), and I knew you’d be more informed on Sunrise’s attitude and statements, as well as the general opinions and depositions of the Japanese fans. In the end, I can “read into” things all I want, but it won’t matter if you can’t understand the one who pulls the strings... and because of that I wanted to know your opinion.  I’m so so sorry this got so long!! I’m really horrible at summarizing myself, so this turned into a major ramble.... I’m gonna wrap it up now before this turns into a novel haha. Again, thank you so much for responding to my question and for being open to discussing it, it means so much! I truly respect your opinion, since it helps me clear my own thoughts, as well as gives me a dose of reality so I don’t get my hopes up too much... I guess in the end though, a part of me is going to continue to think that they just might have the heart to do it, irregardless lol. I look forwards to seeing what you have to say about what I’ve written here!

[ladymelissaduthe]

Challenge #0.5

Aka The fic where Missy overthinks and Meets Jackson

a/n: Hello, this was supposed to be posted prior to challenge 1 but I.... didn’t like the opening HAHAHAHAHA so I reworked it and I like this version better. (get’s into Missy’s mindset a little better... I think... and her priorities too HAHAHAHA) 

Anyways, this is set in the first night in the palace. Thank you Bri (@jackson-graham) for this RP (this was the first ever RP I actually did as Missy BSJNDJNJ very illuminating in terms of speech style and mannerisms) , (as always: just saying,,,, Jordan Fisher makes me, ~swoon~ LMAO). Anywhos! enjoy hehe (2704 words)

If you ask me about things that keep me up late at night, I never would have guessed that Arin Schreave would have been somewhere in the top 3. 

Well, meeting Arin Schreave to be more specific.

In the top 2, was what I was going to wear tomorrow. In the top 1 spot was “are people going to like me around here?”

I could have been lying on the most comfortable bed, with a beautiful view of the ocean and it could be the dead of night in one of the most beautiful places I’ve ever had the opportunity to visit, but I couldn’t stop thinking about how I was going to meet the prince and what exactly I’ve gotten myself into.

For the past two weeks, I’ve been waiting to wake up from all of this, half expecting that this was all some strangely long dream. That /I/, of all the girls from Midston, was picked to meet the prince. Oh gosh what was I doing here?

I suppose the greater question was why was I walking to the kitchens in the dead of night in the palace?

I sigh, wrapping my arms around myself as I continued walking down the hallway I knew where the kitchen was. My maids were kind enough to show me where they placed some of the packed meals I brought with me.

Stressing over meeting a prince really did work up an appetite.

Everything’s fine. Everything’s cool. You’ve already picked out your dress, you’ve taken the time to already practice in the shoes you were going to wear tomorrow. You’ve practiced some of your answers for the interview tomorrow! You’re ready. I mean, come on. You’ve talked to boys before. All this stressing about meeting one boy was definitely going to give me stress lines in the morning. Oh shoot, do I make a right or left by the painting of Danielle Schreave?

Right. I had to make a right then go straight. Huh, the palace was even lovelier in the daytime, and a lot easier to navigate too, but just a few steps more… and I finally find myself at the door Campbell showed me earlier.  

Back in Orleans, I was surrounded by a group of people who liked me—but over here? I had to build up my entire image here from the ground up… and well, I hoped the cupcakes daddy made would help me make friends but… wait, was there someone else in the kitchen?

“What the—” I mutter, seeing someone sitting on top of the counter, munching on… were those the friendship cupcakes I brought with me?

He was… young. My age, I suppose? Familiar looking, but I couldn’t really pinpoint why. He blinks a few times at me, swallowing the bite he just took. 

“Oh, uh… hello” I hear the sound of his phone locking before he sets it on the counter.

I reach up to push some of my unbrushed hair back, trying to make myself look presentable before flashing a smile. Smiling always works, right?

“Hi! I’m Missy! I,” my eyes glance over to what else was in his hands, cupcake… yeap, before my eyes go back to him, “I just got here.”

He hops off the counter and I get a better look at him as he holds out his free hand for a shake, “Jackson. Been here for a while.” He flashes a small lopsided smile.

I maintain my smile, shaking his hand lightly. Jackson. Again… it was familiar. “Pleasure to make your acquaintance, Jackson.”

Jackson shakes my hand firmly before letting go, “And yours, Missy.”

He holds up the cupcake in his other hand, “Would you like one?”

I can’t help but laugh, eyeing the fridge and make my way to it, a little ways past him.

“No thank you, I had something else in mind. Anyway. I’m glad you’re enjoying my daddy’s cupcakes.”

I catch him setting the cupcake down then rubbing the back of his neck from the corner of my eye. “I um, I’m sorry, I thought they were left behind from dinner.” A small frown appears on his face.

“Oh there’s no need for apologies,” I laugh, trying to put him at ease.

I open the fridge, looking for one of the couple glass containers I brought with me in this huge fridge. Grammy really did make sure that I wouldn’t go hungry over here. Ah here they are. I take the container out and close the fridge. Oh right, Jackson was still here. Cupcakes. Right.

“My daddy made me bring a couple of dozen of those with me.” My eyes look over to where the rest of the cupcakes were, smiling at the memory of my dad giving me those dozens of cupcakes with smileys drawn on them. “Have another one, if you’d like.” I offer.

Jackson’s lips press together, a finger tapping on his leg. He eyes the remaining cupcakes.

“They’re very good.” Jackson looks back to me. “Is he a baker?”

“Yesiree, one of the best bakers his side of Orleans.” I nod, trying to scan the room for a microwave, tapping my nails against my glass container. “And they’re not just god, they’re vegan.”

His brows raise, I wonder if they were threaded or just naturally nice. Why are guy brows always naturally nice? 

“Really?” He picks up the cupcake he left behind and takes a large bite, looking like he was taking his good time to chew before swallowing. Huh, he seems pleasantly surprised. “They taste every bit as good as non-vegan cupcakes.”

“That’s exactly what everyone’s been telling me too,” I laugh. “I don’t know how he does it.” I shake my head lightly, thinking back to the long and winded discussions daddy and I would have over dinner, asking me to try his new vegan cupcakes, then thinking back to the glass container in my hands.

“Mind pointing me in the direction of a microwave?” I ask.

“Sure.” Jackson walks towards me, he points to somewhere behind me. “That door slides to the right. You’ll find it in there.” He flashes a small smile. “Odd, I know.”

“Much thanks.” I grin back to him, turning and walking to the cabinet he pointed out. Sliding it. Why wasn’t it opening?

“Oh..” I was sliding it to the left. I laugh to myself then look to my hands. Right hand, yes. I nod to myself and slide the door to the right, revealing the microwave. “Sometimes I forget which side is which.”

Jackson chuckles, sticking his hands in his pockets. “It’s a wonder you made it here safely.”

“I know! I can’t quite believe how I didn’t get lost on the way here.” I giggle, turning back to the microwave to open it and put my container inside. Why did he look so familiar? Where have I heard that name before?

“So Mister Jackson, do you have a last name?”

He averts his eyes for a moment, then looks back to me. My brows raise at that. Was it weird to ask him his last name? ((“Waldia. Jackson Waldia.”))

“Graham. Jackson Graham.”

“It has a nice ring to it.” I reply to him. I press a couple of buttons on the microwave. Cook time. Uh… two and half minutes seems alright. The microwave starts to whirr. Jackson Graham did sound like a nice name.

Graham. Jackson Graham. As in… Jackson Graham…. The brother of Felicity Graham…? Ex-Fianceé to Prince Arin…. Oh. Could that be why he averted his eyes? If I met someone who potentially could be the replacement girlfriend to my sister’s ex-fiancé, I probably would have done the same. I wouldn’t know. I’m an only child. “You’re the prince’s friend, right?”

He nods quickly, “Mostly. More with Safiya though. Well, Princess Safiya.” A small smile appears. “Haven’t called her that in a while.”

“Guess someone’s Mister Popular with the royals…” I tease, turning fully to face him, leaning on the cabinet.

“A byproduct of being the younger Graham.” He tilts his head, his eyes moving to somewhere behind me. “A vegan meal I take it?”

“How’d you guess?” I give a quick glance back to the microwave.

“Luckily.” He meets my gaze again. “Did you follow in his footsteps? With the baking?”

I blink, but quickly shake my head. “As a hobby, yes. Professionally? Not quite.” I laugh. “I followed my mama’s footsteps in that department.”

“Weddings. I plan weddings.” I add, feeling a sense of pride saying it.

Jackson seems intrigued, but considers my reply before giving me a crooked smile.

“I think I’ve finally met someone in a business happier than mine.” He replies.

I grin at that remark. “And what business are you in, Jackson?” I put my hands behind me, what exactly are other happy occupations?

“Aspiring veterinarian. Right now I work at an animal shelter.” His smile grows ever so slightly, but I feel myself instinctively smile wider. I gasp, just at the thought of working with animals. That sounds super adorable.

“That sounds absolutely delightful! You must get to work with the cutest little critters.”

A small laugh comes from him, “Critters is definitely one word for them. You’re right though. I couldn’t love another job more.”

“If you ask me, I think your business is happier than mine.” I chuckle, pushing some of my hair back. “I mean, nothing’s more pure than that.” Comparing it to weddings, working with animals does sound more pure for sure.

His arms fold loosely across his chest. “I could argue love in a marriage is just as pure.”

Love in a marriage. I place a hand on my cheek. Oh, you could only hope for that. That feeling when you’re walking down the aisle to the person you know you want to spend the rest of your life with, that security, that love.

“Weddings are definitely filled with pure joy.” Oh I hope I could find that here. Here. Selection. Palace. Prince. I blink for a couple of seconds, pulling myself from my daydream… nightdream?

“You can only hope for that.” I shake myself out of it. I was hoping to find that here, maybe.

“Is that why you got into the business? To take part in the joy?”

“I’ve always loved weddings, even when I was little. Everything… everything about it so magical. The moment you see a bride on her wedding day and when she walks down the aisle.” I squeal unapologetically, feeling the secondhand butterflies in my stomach just thinking of it. I live for those moments. “It just makes me so happy to see everyone happy.”

Jackson points a finger to me and my fangirling over weddings, “Pure. See?”

I grin. “I guess you could say I’m just a die hard for weddings.” I laugh to myself. Was living on secondhand butterflies from weddings really that bad? Not actually. At least I wasn’t bitter over people’s happiness. Not at all. Okay… maybe slightly jealous but that’s beyond my point.

The microwave beeps as I continue to explain. “But maybe animals can make you just as happy. My mama has always told me that happiness can come in any shape or form.”

He hums at that. “Thankfully, so do animals.” He breathes out a chuckle through his nose.

“Oh definitely!” I open the microwave, talking about animals making me think of my own pet. “Huh, makes me already miss Pancake.” I take my container out, damn it was still hot. I quickly set it on the counter.

“Dog? Cat? Bird?” he asks, opening a drawer and handing me a fork.

“More like… a pet pig.” I laugh, taking the fork and waiting for his reaction. I wonder what an aspiring veterinarian would think of a pet pig…

He gapes for a moment, looking quite intrigued, “Do you really?”

“Now why would I lie about having a pet pig?” I lean my side against the counter, giving him my best amused look. “Pancake the sweetest little thing you’ll find.”

Jackson’s brows furrow, “Why a pig? Do you have other livestock?”

“Not really, we don’t have any other animals other than Pancake.” I shake my head, grinning. “Some people choose to have a dog, I just… got a pig”

Pancake was a gift from a client, and he’s been a part of my family ever since I was 15. Been the cutest little thing in the family since me.

“Uncommon.” He smiles. “I appreciate that.”

“Pancake’s the reason why, I kind of went… vegan.” I smirk, “I mean acon wasn’t the same after I got him.”

He chuckles, “I can imagine. I have a feeling I might go down the same path starting next year.”

I raise my brows. “Well if you need a recipe or two to start adjusting, you’ll know where to find me.” Did that sound… too cocky? Oh god. “Not that I’m implying that I might stay here long, I mean—I HOPE I DO!” I set the fork in my vegan pasta.

There were no guarantees that I was actually staying here. Oh I should stop rubbing my wrists, that’s not cute at all. I breathe out a laugh. Oh wow, even when I laugh it’s awkward.

“You know, it’s okay. To be confident about staying.” A small smile forms on his face. I appreciate people who try to smile to cheer others up. “Not everyone is confident in the good kind of context, but it seems like you have the right idea.”

I look to him after considering his words, trying to relax myself.

“Sorry,” I shake my head. “Tomorrow’s just a big day, and well, I guess you can call this first night jitters.”

I think to myself, why was I so worried? Maybe it’s because you saw your competition today, all 34 of them.

I’ve never felt so small before, and I was 5 foot 9! Still, I felt so small, even when having read the backgrounds on everyone in the magazines. They were beautiful, well-educated, and a lot of their names were scattered more than mine was when we got to the airport.

I press my lips together, trying to dismiss those thoughts. I was well-liked back home, everyone loved me back in Orleans. I was going to be my best self and let everything follow.

I straighten my back.

“Thank you.”

“I’m sure you’ll do plenty fine. I know…” he seems to pause ever so slightly, “the situation is precarious. But Arin is kind. Remember that, despite everything else.” He smiles kindly at me.

For the first time in a long time, I felt so small in the scheme of all things, like I didn’t have much control. Kindness was the only thing that could soothe my mind for now, or the guarantee of the presence of kindness. I hope Arin was as kind as Jackson said.

“Kindness is all that I can really as for here.” I feel my smile tilting, “or anywhere really.” I look down on my glass container and try to pick it up, but it was still too hot. Guess I’ll have to improvise. I grab a part of my dress’ skirt to act as a mitt and it surprisingly worked.

“I’ll be having this in my room.” I feel myself smile a little brighter as I walk to Jackson’s direction, and gesture my head to the direction of the cupcakes on the counter.

“Help yourself to more of the cupcakes. See it as an introduction to veganism 101.” I scrunch my face up, teasing him.

He chuckles a bit, “Thanks. I hope you um, enjoy the meal.” He gestures to what I’m holding.

“Thank you for showing me where the microwave is.” I say before starting to make my way back to the door I came in. “Nice meeting you, Mister Jackson Graham!”

“You too, Missy.” I hear him call back, seeing him offer a small wave from the corner of my eye.

Aside from the stylists and my maids, that was the first full conversation I’ve had here. Huh, who knew my conversation here was gonna be with the brother of the Prince’s ex-fiancee.

I wonder if his sister was as nice as he was.

[notreallythegreatestperson]

THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; MUN & MUSE - MEME.

FILL OUT & REPOST ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

TAGGED BY: @the-judge-of-bones (sort of)

TAGGING: Do it

MY MUSE IS:  canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless / complicated

Is your character popular in the fandom? YES / NO. 

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom? YES / NO / IDK (only a few weirdos)

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK

Are they underrated?  YES / NO / IDK (they get a lot of attention for being evil but imo there's more potential depth to them that doesn't get explored enough)

Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO (while you can hc any number of things, you could remove all direct references to them and still have most of the narrative be the same, apart from the very end or the geno route)

Were they relevant for the main character? YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG (especially since I believe in NarraChara)

Are they widely known in their world? YES / NO

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. (varies depending on setting, but generally not great)

HOW STRICTLY DO YOU FOLLOW CANON?  — I tend to stick pretty close to what little is properly established for Chara, and I enjoy finding little details in the game that I can link into their story (e.g. Asriel asking Frisk to let him win in the final fight, or the fire tools in New Home being filed down.) There’s definitely some of my own headcanons in there though, and I’ll often switch up canon a little bit to make a RP setup work.

SELL YOUR MUSE! AKA TRY TO LIST EVERYTHING, WHICH MAKES YOUR MUSE INTERESTING IN YOUR OPINION TO MAKE THEM SPICY FOR YOUR MUTUALS.  —  You know the trope of “the villain has to think they’re doing the right thing”? Chara’s the opposite of that. They’re a kid deliberately playing the villain, who’s just happened to gain the power needed to be actually dangerous. They’ll do almost anything to get to where they want to be. They’ve got the RP potential for anything from soft wholesome interactions with family and friends, to intense fights to the death. They’re very reactive, and will change the way they talk and act to get a particular response out of someone. They’re the kid who thought they were the Chosen One, and died for that mistake.

NOW THE OPPOSITE, LIST EVERYTHING WHY YOUR MUSE COULD NOT BE SO INTERESTING (EVEN IF YOU MAY NOT AGREE, WHAT DOES THE FANDOM PERHAPS THINK?).  —  They’re straight up not a good person. They can be very antagonistic, no matter how friendly your character is. I don’t ship with them at all, romantically or sexually. They’re a bit overplayed as a RP character, and I don’t exactly do much new with them. It’s very hard to get them to open up, or to do any kind of character development - not impossible, but hard. 

WHAT INSPIRED YOU TO RP YOUR MUSE?  —  I’ve always found villain characters interesting, often more than the protagonists themselves. When I first heard of Undertale, I only knew of Chara as the “hehe creepy murder kid villain” character, and played about with RPing them a bit. As I got more into the fandom, I started learning more about them, and how much depth they could have, and it inspired me to keep developing and writing them. 

WHAT KEEPS YOUR INSPIRATION GOING?  —  I tend to be very on and off with blogs like this, I’ll have a period where I’ll have loads of inspiration and then it’ll drop off over time. This time around, I’ve managed to join a really cool discord and made some great friends, so I’m hoping they’ll inspire me to stick around a bit longer :D

SOME MORE PERSONAL QUESTIONS FOR THE MUN.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES / NO / I SINCERELY HOPE I DO? 

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO / SORT OF? (I have a bunch, I just rarely make a headcanon-specific post. Please ask me about headcanons for anything though.) 

Do you sometimes write drabbles? YES / NO 

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day? YES / NO (That’s a special interest baby!)

Are you confident in your portrayal? YES / NO / SORT OF? 

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO. (I know it’s not the best, but I think it works well enough)

Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO. / SORTA.  (Not really, I’m generally pretty thick-skinned, though it’s still always reassuring when someone lets me know they enjoy interacting with me 💛)

DO YOU ACCEPT CRITICISM WELL ABOUT YOUR PORTRAYAL?  —  I try my best to, I want to make this an enjoyable experience for my partner too, and as long as it’s constructive criticism and not just “haha you suck”, I’m happy to listen.  

DO YOU LIKE QUESTIONS, WHICH HELP YOU EXPLORE YOUR CHARACTER?  — YES. ABSOLUTELY. SEND ME RANDOM QUESTIONS FOREVER AND ALWAYS.

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES TO A HEADCANON OF YOURS, DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?  — If they want to discuss it, sure! Chara’s very based on headcanons and how you personally interpret canon, and it’s honestly really interesting how many different views there are on it. 

IF SOMEONE DISAGREES WITH YOUR PORTRAYAL, HOW WOULD YOU TAKE IT?  — it’s not for everyone, and that’s chill! I’m not expecting everyone to like my take on the character. If there’s something specific I’m doing wrong (eg a serious issue I’m misinterpreting), feel free to let me know. 

IF SOMEONE REALLY HATES YOUR CHARACTER, HOW DO YOU TAKE IT?  —  Again, that’s honestly chill. They’re a pretty polarizing character, and the fanon for them can be pretty negative sometimes. I don’t personally agree with some of the reasons why people don’t like them (nochoco’s theory of them abusing Asriel, for example), but I know I’m not gonna be able to change everyone’s mind. 

ARE YOU OKAY WITH PEOPLE POINTING OUT YOUR GRAMMATICAL ERRORS?  — I don’t mind jokey mentions if I make a funny typo, or pointing out mistakes in permanent parts of my blog (a friend pointed out yesterday that my description had been saying Indepent instead of Independent for months lmao). I don’t think that nitpicking every reply is gonna do much good, though.

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE EASY GOING AS A MUN?   —  I hope so!

[strayboys]

thank you for 1.5k!

who's the best fandom? sk tumblr!

honestly i'm just using this "milestone" as an excuse to ramble about my friends

we all know that i don't have actual talent to actually create something for this so...

@arqueritefrost DIAMOND WE'VE BEEN TALKING FOR MONTHS AND LIKE YESSSSS remember when you analyzed that stray kids poem i wrote eEK ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ thank you for killing me with pictures of jisunggggg!

@9equals1 mAYAAAAAAAAAA you're so sweet and amazing and fAMOUS wowza we've come so far together and i will continue to promo your blog 😂 person: "hi i'm new to sk" me: oH MAKE SURE YOU FOLLOW MAYA

@kim-squishmin hey remember when you lEFT for a while and i was devastated?! gxdzgxjcjvhchchchcjv MY FAVORITE PART OF THE DAY WILL ALWAYS BE DAWN

@kimwuujin you'll forever be channieskitchen to me, stevie 😂 even tho i even gave you your url thERE'S NO REPLACING CHANNIE'S KITCHEN- okay but craziness aside you better keep making content, we need to be fed lmao ❤️ i love ya!

@straykidseuu pppppauline hey i think you're my only friend on tumblr that has a p- name like me lol anyway I REMEMBER WHEN YOU JOINED TUMBLR YOU'RE SO SWEET AHHH

@jisungssmile CECE YOU LET ME TAG YOU IN EVERYTHING AND YOU'RE THE DEFINITION OF FRIENDLY WOW xfchbjhcxfh ❤️🌤️

@s0ftminho guys maria is a marshmallow and that's the tea eNOUGH SAID (no but seriously i love you, okay?)

@astraykidsdaydream STAY AMAZING- if anyone tells you that you're not perfect i will kick them in the face with my soccer cleats on *wink* xfchbjjbjbcgchvh thank you for being mutuals with meeeeeeeee!

@presentstraykidsfan roseeeeeeeeeeeeeee omg remind me to show you this gif of hwall biting a rose it's adorable- anyway *hugs you* your excitement is everything, never let that spark fade!

@bundlesandbeanies ELIZAAAAAAABETH you lil blog stalker *wink* your latest url is so cuteeeee- THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE FOR ME, AND FOR ALL OF SK TUMBLR ❤️

@awoojinstan SAIKAAAA haha what would you do if woojin followed you on tumblr? 😂 sunshine can't exist without you!

@strayedtoofar CHOCOLATE 😂 hehe who's charlotte i only know chocolate- ever since you first joined tumblr you've been s w e e t- never change! actually you probably can't change you're inherently sweet just like chocolate!

@mosquitofelix jOCY MY JOY okay throwback when you were my anon and i stupidly couldn't figure out who you were for the longest time eeeek 🌤️ bUT I DID IT after i got 10000 hints 😂 remember that you are the epitome of joy!

@xuhoon YOU DESERVE HAPPINESS NEVER LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE I WILL FIGHT FOR YOUR HAPPINESS

@bangg-chan hehehe you probably weren't expecting this tag bUT FUN FACT i'm always checking up on you ❤️ actually that makes me your stalker, doesn't it? oOPS 🌤️

@bam-feels TAWNY MY DUDE fxvhvhhchcvh who's a cool mutual? it's got to be you! it seems like we've known each other for a long time ahhhhh how quickly time has passed o.o i love you very much eek ❤️

@hey-im-anxiety okay i think you're my #1 blog stalker, like tumblr usually has you in the top three 😂 STAY SAFE AND STAY STRAY- don't forget to sing along to hellevator when you're in an elevator! bahaha

@stk0t9 omg i highkey used to count your likes as stamps of approval- if maddy likes something then it's a successful post (why am i not exaggerating 😂) don't forget to smile!

@jikseu-felix hmmm how did we meet? oH WAIT OKAY SO I FOLLOWED YOU ON JOSHPUP FOR SVT CONTENT BUT THEN YOU MADE AN SK SIDE BLOG- ahhh 😂 anyway- let's keep being mutuals! i appreciate youuuu! 🌤️❤️

@flxmes YOU'RE SO HILARIOUS THAT YOU MAKE ALL THE HILLARYS JEALOUS (no, i can't be stopped 😂)

@realstraykids oh lOOK it's that famous friend i have?! thank you for putting up with meee aH you deserve a medal of valor lmao anyway you're like an ambassador of sk tumblr 👏 ❤️

@hey-hey-chan k is for kute- dzxghvhvgcch what have i done?! 🌤️ kUTE IS A WORD EVERYONE... anyway r is for rainbow, i is for intellectual, & s is for sERIOUSLY AMAZING

@hanchanbin wE LITERALLY JUST MET BUT YOU'RE PRECIOUS ❤️❤️❤️

@etherealstraykids q u e e n. you're going to reply to this and say "i'm no queen" but nope sorry i've decreed that you're a queen 👑

@woojinschicken omg i remember sending you an ask about how great your url is... ITS PERFECTION REMAINS

@straykidsthetype EEEY, E! 😂 i love you, your content, and the love you bring to the fandom! tumblr would be different without you ahhhh the hORROR

@heavenly-freckles first things first your url is perfection bc his freckles are heavenly- I LOVE YOU OKAY SERIOUSLY you have a great future ahead of you according to my phoebe senses ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

@bbyhyunjin *whispers* did you know that you're the definition of compassionate?! not to mention that you have the cutest url ever now that i think about it eeeeeek

@maaatryoshka last but dEFINITELY not least we have erin, aka one of the first stray kids blogs i ever followed- TCXHVHIFUXYVJSRO YOU'RE SO NICE TO ME EVEN THO I CAN BE PRETTY ANNOYING THANK YOU FOR PUTTING UP WITH ME 🌤️

pssst- do not watch titan on netflix it's a waste of your life i regret watching it

(there's some others who i wanted to tag but uhm altho i may know a lot of sk blogs, i am definitely not popular with all the actually popular blogs- like they're old money & i'm new money lol rip phoebe hopefully i don't die like gatsby)

TO EVERYONE: we've grown so close in a small amount of time- here's to a bright future! remember to love you, the people around you, and of course, our silly nine boys.

[actualbird]

hi hi!! glad i could help and no worries omg!! while i do find asks a bit more organized on my end (my notifs get flooded like, every other hour, so i often miss reblogs and replies but my inbox always shows when theres a new thing, so it's easier for things to not get buried as much there) i did manage to see this reblog, so it's no problem

will respond to ur other stuff also under the cut hehe :Dc

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OHHH yea the Stellis Explore feature!! that was added super recently actually jHVSKJHF and yes, having luke follow u around is so fun,,,and they are so tiny and chewable....

that feature is basically going to be for personal story Events (aka what you experienced with luke, a little bit. quests where he follows u around and some story is revealed thru that. so far, luke is the only one who has had his but one by one, each of the others will get their own Time To Follow MC Around HAHA)

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BOTH the Trials of Themis and the Temple of Trials in the Now Event portion are pretty worth it!!!

Trials of Themis are just ur usual debates getting more and more powerful and they reward u with s-chips, our prime resource for pulling for cards (which i'll get to later since i mention it hehe), and other resources. key to note tho that in Trials of Themis, once ur done with a level, thats it. ur done. u cant replay it to get more rewards

Temple of Trials on the other hand resets every week, so you can play it (on auto if u want, thank god HAHA) on a weekly basis and this is super worth it even if u just have it running in the background. cuz u get 3 full runs of Temple of Trials weekly, and this cumulatively gives you a total of 400 s-chips

per week!!!

(sidenote: tot is wayyyy more generous with giving out their version of free primogems HAHAKJHSVFKJSHD)

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hhhh im glad the long luke posts were ok with u even before u had context!! and also jvJHSKDJF im delightfully flattered that my blog may have inadvertently acted as like, a letter of recommendation for luke pearce

me to everybody who follows me: this is luke, he is SO MUCH a good boy. the BEST

ppl who follow me: cant argue with that

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and YEA YEA, same! i also came from genshin to tot last year and having genshin as a bedrock helped me get the hang of a bunch of stuff :D

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jhvJHVAKJHFA omg i forgot how detailed the tutorial of lost gold goes JHVSKJHFSJD forgive DAVIS, he just wants to make sure u Get It but i promise, DAVIS is also Very Much a good boy <3

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and yea, the vision is like wishes in genshin!! but....also different

theres three different kinds of banners, and i'll list them all down

Event Exclusive Banner: if theres an event going on with event limited cards in it, this should be the first banner that shows up in the Visions area. they last for however long the event lasts. and they can either use the regular Tears of Themis OR they can use Special Tears that are only purchasable and usable during the event period. so in general, dont convert ur s-chips into tears until ur absolutely about to pull. cuz u never know if an upcoming banner will use the regular tears or special tears OTL

Rotation Banner: this banner is the first one to show up in the Visions area if theres no event ongoing. this banner includes basically all your regular non-event cards, and every few weeks the rate ups for certain cards changes on a rotation

Permanent Banner: this banner is basically like the Rotation Banner except for 2 key differences. 1) there is never a rate-up on this banner, it's just the wild west of probability for all the regular cards. and 2) this banner has 4 special Sports SR Cards (one for each boy, one where each of them plays a Sport and has a whole story date within of them playing Said Sport with mc) in its roster that are ONLY available on this banner

so my personal summary of these banners is

Event Exclusive: the coolest, what ppl are always saving up for and for good reason cuz like, once theyre gone, theyre Gone. tot does have event card reruns but theyre very far and in between

Rotation: good for if u wanna wait for a regular card u dont have yet to be on rate up so u can drag that boy home

Permanent: nobody pulls on this except if they want one or all of the Sports SR Cards..........ive pulled on this banner literally only cuz i wanted the Sports SR Cards JHVSKJDFHSDJ

key point: pity for all three of these kinds banners does not carry over banners of another type. BUT the pity for certain birthday event banners do carry over to the next birthday event

example: i busted my ass pulling on luke's bday banner last year and he didnt come home after 45 pulls, that ASSHOLE. that banner ended. a few other non-bday event banners happened in between and my pity from luke's bday didnt carry over. but once artem's bday banner hit in april, my pity from luke's Birthday Snubbing carried over to the artem bday banner

key point 2: birthdays aside, all other event banner pitys carry over to whatever the next event banner will be PROVIDED that the banners are NOT using Special Tears

oh my god im so sorry im just realizing that im sounding kinda confusing rn?? so i went to go look this all up and hvkJHVKSJF OK THE TOT WIKI DOES MAYBE A BETTER JOB OF EXPLAINING THE BANNERS, SORRY FOR ALL THE RIDIC WORDS I PUT IN HERE JSHF

that aside ur strat still p much flies like, just pull for who you wanna tbh!!! just wanted to put down all the info so u can decide which banners u wanna try :DDD

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and lastly, yea it's always aight to send a dm to me!! alas, my friend list in tot is full HUHU OTL

and honestly having friends in the tot app is literally just for acquiring friendship badges (which can be exchanged for other resources) theres no other use JHVSJKFHKSDJ i mean....i guess one hilarious use is that u can see how often ur tot friend is logging in

im so sorry to the ppl on my tot friends list who see me log in like every other hour LMAOOO

anyhoo, i hope this helped!! and YEEEE i hope ya have fun OuO

Omg I just started playing tears of themesis and its a lot of fun! I like that you actually have to find the clues, and actually solve the crime I think that's interesting. Any tips for a newbie lol

I'm so excited especially for the fact that I'm going to understand all the Luke posts on my dash because I love him already XD

wAAHH, hello and welcome to tot!! i hope you have a fun time playing :D (and yes, ur taste is Exquisite, luke is SO GOOD,,,I LOVE HIM SM,,,,,)

and i guess off the top of my head, i do have some tips!! feel free to take whichever u need and discard the ones that dont spark joy!

gameplay tips

do the daily and weekly tasks!: these give rewards each day/week that will help you in card leveling, overall player leveling, and collecting s-chips. sometimes events happen which add new tasks to do for certain rewards so like, basically whenever you see an Exclamation Point Icon anywhere, check it out! theres gonna be stuff to do and rewards to get from it

level up your cards!: if im remembering my own experience starting out, i recall that the debate power increase through the main story was a little bit steep in the beginning jHVKSJHDF. i used to get on by just fine with the EXP from debates itself leveling cards, but that quickly didnt give my deck enough juice. level em up with oracles so u can smoothly go thru the main story :D

take ur time exploring not just the story but also just the sheer amount of other stuff going on in the game: i was overwhelmed when i started, and i started on this game's Release. there was Less Stuff. idk how it must be for ppl coming in now, when theres More Stuff omg. but it's chill, take ur time, theres a bunch of neat stuff to discover

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story tips

(idk how intuitive/already obvious these might already be, but when i started out i had no idea how these types of games worked so it took me a while to realize there were MORE STORIES JHSDJFH so i'll mention these tips too, aka tips i wish i knew in august of 2021, HAHA)

read card stories/content: every card you have that is not an R card (so the SSR, SR, and MR), has either a 6 part story in them to read or 2 audio messages for you to listen to and they are Wonderful. dont sweat it tho if u dont have a card and u wanna know its content, by this point, nearly everything is recorded on youtube so u can easily watch what u dont have!

play the boys' personal stories!: aside from the main story (which are the cases and investigations) each nxx boy has personal stories u can find by going to Ur Phone In The Game -> Click On Guy Of Choice -> Lower Right Corner.

if ur interested in nxx team plots outside of the main story, check out past events and their plots on yt!: the event plots are a Treasure Trove of interesting case stories And full ensemble cast interactions. i love this game the best tbh when i see the whole team interacting with each other, so i adore event plots. sadly, nearly all of the events that are done cannot be accessed anymore to newcomers in the game itself, but they can still be watched on yt. buuut thats just nearly all of the events which leads me to my next tip that rlly isnt a tip but simply just my personal recommendation as an intense enjoyer of this game---

download and play through the Mysteries of the Lost Gold event: the Lost Gold event originally ran through september of 2021, but it's been made available permanently as downloadable content in the game no matter when you start playing!! i highly recommend this event. it's by far still my favorite event in this whole game (everything from interesting plot/case to fun gameplay to delicious characterization, I REALLY LOVE LOST GOLD OK!! THIS IS A LOST GOLD STAN ZONE!!)

anyhoo, this event can be accessed by going to X-NOTE Story -> lower and rightmost button Event -> upper and rightmost button Past -> download Mysteries of the Lost Gold

really, i cannot recommend lost gold enough ajhfvjkahfa this is the One Thing i hope all players can experience it's just...I REALLY ADORE IT OKAY!!!

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i hope some of these tips can help!! and i hope you enjoy playing this game :D

if ever uve got more questions, pls dont hesitate to shoot another ask hehe. it takes me a while to respond sometimes but i am Always down to be a tot-enabler thru sharing any info i can OwO

(also: jahsvfkjHVKJH SCREAM, have u been enduring my kilometric length luke posts prior to this with no context?? IM SO SORRY AJHVFKJAHSFASF HES JUST....I LOVE THAT GUY...)

[styleemag]

1000 years by your art

Viola aka @pitypagn aka @faheej is a 16 year old SHINee lover, currently living and studying in Budapest. Being a prolific and extremely talented young artist, she has something  yet to draw and say about her ultimate K-pop favourite - 5HINee.

Tell us, please, about SHINee Fanzine project. How did the idea emerge? Who are the participants? How is the process organized? ^▽^

The fanzine started with a tweet by my friend Gib (Twitter @cat__boy ). He wanted to participate in a SHINee themed zine but there wasn’t any around, so he thought of creating one. (By the way, it would be really nice if more zines and artist collabs were organised in the fandom! We haven’t seen many collaboration zines, mostly individual artists’ artbook and older theme collabs by korean shawols that hasnt happened in a while.) I messaged Gib that i would support the idea and so did his friend Flo (Twitter @omjkt_), and we became an admin team of three. For our theme, we went with something I had in my mind since April; a project that celebrates SHINee’s 10th anniversary by making a collection of fanarts themed around their songs. The name ‘10 years by your side’ is also referring to their song '1000年、ずっとそばにいて・・・’ (1000 Years Always By Your Side). 

Gib and Flo organised the technical aspects like choosing a printing shop, looking up printing requirements, shipping options, setting up a Tumblr page with all the necessary information, asking a friend to translate to korean and making the actual application form. It’s a big work and involves a lot of discussion, so I’m glad we could work it out; three is a good number for organising a zine, especially for first-timers like us as we can discuss and ask each other things effectively, split up work, point out things that the others forgot and such.

About the participants; we decided to invite some artists and open applications as well. We came up with a list of about 20 people — mostly SHINee fanartists known in the fandom — who we would like to work with and simply invited them through Twitter. It was a really rewarding part of the organisation process as it got me to talk to some of my mutuals i really look up to but we haven’t talked because of language barriers; someone whose art I really adore actually told me I made their day with the invitation and I found out we’re birthday twins with another artist! Also, good language exercise, hehe. While inviting artists, we also promoted our application page, where we received over 120 replies (which is incredible) and ended up choosing 15 artists from them, making our number 36 with admins.

To distribute the songs, we made a document of the list of songs we wanted to include in the zine (so they make a coherent timeline of SHINee’s music and visual concepts through the years) and sent it to artists so they can sign up to the song(s) they would like to draw, or add others that they had in mind. Currently, everyone is working on their pieces and us admins are in the making of the design of the printed zine. We also have a chat with all artists to get to know each other and share work in progress pictures.

For what’s still to be done; after all the designs and artworks are edited into one, we will start printing and selling towards the end of the year. Until then, we will update our social media (@shineefanzine on Twitter and Tumblr) on how things are going and possibly previews of the artworks!

It seems like you are doodling all the time, cause you often publish works done in notebooks, on working sheets of paper. It creates a unique atmosphere of understatement, so what does it say about you, in your opinion? 6v6

Haha that’s actually not correct! It’s true though that my sketchbook is a checked spiral notebook (that’s probably 10+ years old), so I understand why it seems so! I kind of wish I could draw more in school but it’s simply not the best place for me as I’m occupied with other things, and I like to make more focused drawings lately. Which is also why I haven’t really used that sketchbook (and updated my Instagram where I put traditional sketches) in the latest months. I might get back to it again, as I need to make some studies and I can’t continue my summer break drawing work ethic with finished digital pieces almost every day.

Understatement is a really nice way to put it though, I’m glad it seems so! There are multiple reasons for my sketchbook, one is that I feel too pressured having to draw something nice if it’s on some expensive special paper. Also, it’s easier for me to sense depth, proportions and sizes (aka how close i am to the paper) if it has patterns on it, although when the print ink is too strong, it’s not very good for drawing. The notebook I have has a good paper and lightly printed so it’s nice to draw on. This is the technical part, and what I think this says about me…simplicity? Since I started doing digital, traditional art became secondary for me and that’s great in the quality that it provides me more freedom in it, in some way. That it doesn’t matter if I draw something badly in traditional as it’s not as important to me. This is more of an image I would like if people saw when they looked at my Instagram, that it’s carefree, not looking for perfectionism but has its own beauty in sketchiness and stationary tools. Also that the first and most important thing you need for art is, well, doing art, not professional art supplies.

Be it a pencil sketch, or a digital masterpiece, your artworks are professionally done. Do you have plans to follow an artist’s career?  ㅍ_ㅍ

Thank you so much!! I do! Since a little less than a year ago, I decided I don’t want to study anything I’m being taught (mistake of going to a school known for its math) and it would be much nicer to occupy and surround myself with art and artsy people. I am planning to start taking art courses later this year or next year, learn to make a portfolio and look up some art colleges. At this point, I would be the happiest to be an illustrator but animating sounds good too, I will have to see yet where I will go!

What role does fashion play in your life? Do you use it as a tool, an artist’s medium? `ㅂ´

I’m probably not fashionable enough to say that, haha. Or rather I’m not satisfied with my own fashion because I don’t have the wardrobe I would like to have, my own personal issues getting in my way. It interests me though, and I do have the nagging feeling to do better, the room to improve, the inspiration. I like simplicity, gray and dull colors, oversized clothes, simple and clean designs that are great in their quietness. I would like to be like that.

Fashion in my drawings is a bit of a different topic I know, but I would like to mention since even though I’m usually preoccupied with people in my drawings, it can be really meditative and nice sometimes to sit down and compose an outfit and fiddle with details. Also high fashion, it can be quite an inspiration for me.

What thing, or maybe person, impressed you most of all recently? ㅎㅅㅎ

Eastern Europe. It has an exciting aesthetic that isn’t celebrated enough, at least from what I could see. I really love the folk wear, and it feels like home. I would like to make illustrations based around it as well as my own country’s historical fashion, it’s beautiful. The other side is the ~dark~ post socialist aesthetic, big blocks of panel houses made of concrete that don’t age well. It has a grim and heavy feeling but it’s also something uniquely here. I don’t know, maybe only the grim feeling might appear in my art style, maybe I will abandon it for lighter aesthetics but it’s interesting nevertheless.

We are thankful to Viola ( @faheej​ ) for her fabulous creations and the talk. Design by Anna Maria ( @sh5untik​ ).

[nighttimefjaeril]

Jaaaaae! I wanted to send an ask for the ship thing! But Houmei and Jyoan got taken hahaha sooo...pick your second favourite ship! ♡ [[Also I hope you're having a great day today!]]

Hello darling, first of all, sorry for taking it so long >

So, since you gave me the option of choosing the ship it took me a while to decide: that’s because, besides the obvious nr.1 (aka Houmei/Jyoan), I love my other favorite ships pretty equally: Koumyou/Ukoku, Houmei/Toudai and Ukoku/Kami-sama (yes, lots of Koumyou/Houmei and Ukoku in there unsurprisingly :’D)

I’m not gonna tackle the last one as I know it’s a no-no couple for you my friend ;) As for the others… I was gonna do Koumyou/Ukoku at first, ‘cause I did the previous one with Houmei already and wanted to use his “mature” form this time: but then, after talking to @amadriel and @kimagattinanera about it, I’ve decided to go with Koumyou/Goudai instead, as it’s a less popular ship that needs more love :3 This way I can still use Koumyou over Houmei, and well, Momo-chan is still Momo-chan, despite some more years on his back and less hair on the top of his head ;) xD

Who said “I love you” first

Oooh again, this isn’t so immediate to reply, because I don’t think that they would say these types of things to each other often; they’re definitely the kind of couple that lets actions speak louder than words. Also, Goudai would definitely react all flustered upon hearing such passionate declarations :‘3 Koumyou knows this well, so he tries to tone it down a bit. But still, it was definitely Koumyou the one who said it first, because hadn’t he been the one to be honest with his feelings first I’m not sure that they would’ve ended up together in the end :’) Momo is incredibly shy when it comes to these things and it’s hard for him to express his feelings, so he needs someone like Koumyou to take the first big step and allo him to open his heart to him.

Who would have the other’s picture as their phone background

Goudai would have a nice picture of him and Koumyou, taken on a vacation, where the two are standing together in front of a marvelous view with a drink in their hand, all smiling and happy; it took him forever to decide which one to use because half of these had Koumyou making silly faces, the other half had Goudai  closing his eyes or looking too serious and grim (he’s not good at putting on a fake smile for pictures): finally they were able to take one where they were acting natural and comfortable, probably aided by a few drinks ;) As for Koumyou, he used to have an old picture of him and Momo during training days as his backround, Genkai probably took it; but after a while he replaced it with a picture of baby Kouryuu of course ;) He takes tons so he keeps changing it every month pretty much hehe~

Who leaves notes written in fog on the bathroom mirror

Ah, this is pretty much mirrors the one I previously wrote: it’s always Koumyou who writes and draws random stuff on the bathroom mirror (he doesn’t draw butts and dicks anymore though… maybe :’) ). Goudai sees it, finds it cute for a second before getting mad at him, but instead of cleaning it himself he has Koumyou do it, hoping this way that he will learn his lesson… someday. ; D

Who buys the other cheesy gifts

Similarly to the Houmei/Jyoan one, Koumyou still cherishes the habit of finding the tackiest, most useless trashy knick-knacks as a joke-gift for his partner :’D Of course, a second serious gift would follow, but Koumyou just can’t say no to bad taste for laughs :’D Goudai would just shake his head and scold Koumyou for the money he has wasted on such a piece of tat, but he would still keep all of his gifts somewhere hidden, where the eye can’t see… :3

Who initiated the first kiss

Again, there could be so many different ways that this could have happened…as much as I love fantasizing about Toudai, his shirt open and pecs in sight, holding the beautiful damsel Houmei in his strong, muscular arms, kissing him passionately in the moonlight (lol), I’m pretty sure that Koumyou had to take the first step and initiate the kiss, otherwise if it was up to Momo-chan they would have waited for the rest of their lives :’) That or he would’ve teased and torment him so much to the point where he left him no other choice but to kiss him… poor Momo ;) But yeah, Koumyou had to be the driving force for their romance, in a way or another.

Who kisses the other awake in the morning

Goudai as an attempt to waking up Koumyou: first he starts by hook, kissing him gently and whispering sweet words to his ear, then by crook by shaking him and yelling at him :’D In the end, when he’s finally awoken, they may indulge in a more or less extended cuddle session, depending on how much time they have left before getting their day started (and that only depends on how long it takes for Koumyou to wake up ;) )

Who starts tickle fights

Erm… I don’t think that Koumyou would ever dare attempting that :’) Let’s face it, if he tried to tickle Goudai he would end up severely crushed(perhaps he did try once back in the training days and from that day forward has never made anymore attempts :p ) so he knows that he would be better off not poking the bear :’D However, I could picture Goudai tickling him Koumyou as a means to take revenge on him for some wrongdoing (he tries not to show it, but he’s extremely ticklish), or again, as an attempt to wake him up on time in the morning :‘3

Who asks who if they can join the other in the shower

Hmmm… probably Koumyou, which depending on the subtext the invite may either entail either sexytimes in the shower or just an extended relaxing bath time for Goudai, who’s always in a hurry and never takes his time to enjoy the finer things in life, at least according to Koumyou: he doesn’t it like the “pampering sessions” all that much as we all know that Goudai is a spartan man, but if he gets to focus on Koumyou instead of himself - helping him washing his long hair, washing his back etc., it’s something that he would definitely take pleasure in doing (especially if ends up leading to sexytimes heheh~)

Who surprises the other in the middle of the day at work with lunch

I can imagine both knowing their way around their kitchen; Goudai is probably the best cook of the two, but Koumyou is the one that gets more adventurous with his food and always tries out different dishes and combinations of flavors, so I could picture him surprising Goudai in the middle of training his students with some interesting-looking dish (by interesting I mean weird and/or gross) that surprisingly ends up being delicious.

Who was nervous and shy on the first date

That would be Momo, that goes without saying :‘3 He’s just not very comfortable with the idea of dating, or better: he’s not comfortable with all the unavoidable clichés that dates usually entail: the small talk, the flirting, the desperate attempts at making a good impression and all that jazz… for this reason, Houmei tried to make things appear a bit more informal for him, but as soon as Toudai realized that what they were having was not a normal night-out with a friend but an actual date, he literally went “oh crap!” and got tense all of the sudden xD Good thing that Houmei managed to save the situation with a skilled recovery, and everything went smooth after that… but needless to say, things between them have never been the same from that day forward :‘3

Who kills/takes out the spiders

This one also mirror my previous ship post: it’s Koumyou who forces Goudai to take care of bugs and spiders by acting over-the-top terrified on purpose because he’s a lazy piece of shit that pushes the dirty work onto others:’D He definitely has a talent for that, and of course Goudai knows it’s all an act, but puts up with it anyways ‘cause he’s top notch husband material :3

Who loudly proclaims their love when they’re drunk

Hmmm well I can’t really imagine Goudai ever getting drunk; sure, he enjoys his alcohol, but always in moderation. Koumyou, on the other hand can hold his alcohol pretty well, perhaps even better than his partner, but would end up going overboard from time to time :‘3 And it’s during those times that he would get… more affectionate than usual, a bit more flirtatious and even a bit frisky perhaps x°D Because of that he would proclaim his love and lust for Goudai loudly and proudly, embarassing poor Momo into oblivion and probably not really setting up the mood for later unfortunately… x°D But as drunk!Koumyou would probably end up falling asleep anyways as soon as he reaches the mattress, I guess it really doesn’t matter in the end, does it? :3

So yeah, that’s all folks! I think in the end I made the right choice ;) I’ve had so much fun coming up with these, usually my other fave takes the spotlight so this was a great chance for me to express my love for this amazing pairing! And thank you so much my dearest Nimo for offering me the chance to tackle it, hope you’re gonna enjoy reading my Koumyou/Goudai headcanons, and sorry if some replies are a bit similar to the previous ship post I made, but after all it’s still Koumyou/Houmei we’re talking about so… ;)

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This is gonna be a long post, so brace yourselves, hehe.

There are three occasions for a folIow forever post tbh: I hit 200 followers on Monday, my blog turned three month yesterday and it’s my 1,000th post (okay, maybe I cheated on this one a little bit, hehe.)

The truth is -- when I created this blog, three months ago, it was just because I was pissed off over Sherlock s4 (actually I still am lmao) and I didn’t think, even for one moment, that I’d meet so many amazing people and would have a lot of fun. These three months were crazy and I must admit I owe you a lot for making me cry, laugh, sob, histerical laugh and 23234 different emotions and actions.  I’m having a difficult time now and you can’t even imagine how many times you made me happy and I’m so thankful for that. Really.

So it’s time to spread the love I recived! Here we go.

♡ conductor of light aka the person who literally keeps me right ♡

@jxhnwxtsxn - well, Lynny, I guess I told you this many times, but let me do it again!!! I love you. Thank you for putting up with me every day (and I don’t understand how you’re doing this) and words aren’t enough to describe how happy I am that I can call you my friend. Even if you don’t like pineapple on pizza. You’re the most amazing, beautiful and wonderful person on the whole planet and seriously I really wish I could teleport myself to the US to tell you that in person. You deserve the whole world and even more. I’m so honoured to know you & can’t wait to rp with you more, even if we both currently are drowning in drafts, hehe. (I really wanted to stay serious for this part but if I did, I’d start sobbing.)

♡ partners in crime aka the people who I’m thankful to meet & rp with them a lot ♡

@cansprainpeople - Mikki! You’re the cuttest cherry pie ever and I’m so happy you want to rp wth me since you’re one of the best writers here, literally. You’re the nicest person ever and I love you even if you don’t like chocolate, haha.

@letshavediinner - Brittney, you’re being one of the most lovely people I’ve ever met and your Irene is so on point  that every time I read your reply I hear Irene’s voice in my head. Constantly. You’re actually the first person I started to rp with and I’m so happy we’re still doing this!!

@jawnlovesjumpers - Rachel, you’re the cutest cinnamon roll ever and I love you so much that you want to turn almost every meme into a new thread because I don’t deserve to write so much with such a great wrtiter like you!!! You’re so good, and your John is so well-written it makes me so jealous, hehe.

@itsusxallysubtext Laura, you’re a such a cute dork and I’m so happy you’re still not annoyed of me because I send you too many memes & moan about my writing a lot. It’s such a pleasure & honour to rp with you for such a long tim and I’m so happy you want to rp with me too!

@blackvclvct Léa, you’re such an amazing person and I love rp with you because your take on Moriarty is such an unique one. I also enjoy talking with you because you’re such a cute theatre nerd and I’m so jealous of all the plays you saw!!

@photographcr Cory, you’re absolutely a beautiful and wonderful person, I stalk your art blog a lot and I’m in awe! And of course I love rp woth you because you understand Seb so well and your writing style is great.

@mollv Mondy, you’re the cutest cinnamon roll ever and I’m so happy to rp with you since your take on Molly is so good and you write her so beautiful that I always see and hear Molly when I read your replies.

♡ i’m sherlocked for you aka the people i rp with and so happy to see them on my dash ♡

@deductionisms, @jumpersandsoldiers, @doctxrwatsxn, @blggr, @storyspinningspidcr, @watsonofagun, @aknackforhacking, @pullingrank, @amongdeadthings, @bbcmary/@bbcmycroft/@vtrevor, @mxrstan, @traiinedassassiin, @amanandgoodatit, @adler-thewoman, @eastwiind, @adlerthetattler, @rosiv, @the-detectives-blogger, @yourdearestwatson, @ytrairomsemaj, @isaidfocus, @pullingrank, @psychopatx, @amanandgoodatit, @grcy, @hisjiminycricket, @kingxfcrime, @lestradable, @crownjeweledspider, @col-sebastian, @brokenlittlebrother, @vxctorx, @hiddenpathologist, @ask-mary-watson, @deadsexy, @jackxhooper, @iappreciateworksofart, @thesecondmost, @goodshxt, @dcntcount, @imdealingwithachild, @notadolly, @consultingsister, @pleaseentertainme

♡ people I stalk love admire from affair aka my fav people who I don’t rp with but I’m always happy to see them on my dash. ♡

This is not a call out post or forcing you to rp with me -- I just want you to know that you blogs are so good & your writing style on point that there are people who just enjoy reading your threads, that’s all. Okay, I sound like a stalker anyway lol.

@julietthotelwhiskey, @britishnation, @poxsonmenace, @belgravianbitch, @morietvr, @governmentofficial, @toldabetterstory, @wasadrinker, @mvcrofts, @predomiinates ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

If I forgot someone, I’m sorry. It’s late here & I got too emotional about this post, haha.