#// THATS NOT AN IN-CHARACTER BIT I GENUINELY DONT KNWO WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED TO THE OG POST

[jaimemes]

GUYS I THINK ROTOMBLR ATE MY FUCKING ZECRETS POST. LIKE THE ORIGINAL POST IS FUCKING GONE. BRUH.

i might need to genuinely remake the post if i ever want to edit it like goddamn,,,,,

anyways. for now uh. speaking of ZECRETS. because i am so niceys to you all. i made something for your convenience.

i dont have anything really hidden here. no gamez, just info. cuz i know throwing a shit ton of info at yall can get overwhelming and its hard to look back on all the zecrets for shit about individual ppl.

[nenastrology]

i havent watched or read fma yet bc i still dont know why between fma and fmab everyone says fmab is better like someone told me fma’s ending deviates from the manga but is it that bad thx for ur time

i dont know if i can fully speak to like the later parts of fma 03 i think i might have only actually watched half of it 6 years ago and then tried to watch it again this year and it ended up being so depressing i just stopped like its absolutely painfully brutal with what ed and al have to go through like we just completely gave up after i think it might have been as early as the nina tucker story where they were literally just left to sit alone in the rain and like mustang told them to deal with it and also this was all happening when they were 11 and 12 instead of 14 and 15 and like theres definitely some interesting things with the new stuff they add like the homunculi are like made from failed human transmutation like theres a totally new wrath they invented whos like created from the baby izumi tried to bring back its like got some very interesting ideas in there but i have in fact seen the ending movie conqueror of shamballa and let me tell you that is a whole fucking mess just like end to end i have no clue what they were thinking so like based on that alone im like i cant say id recommend it and from what i knwo the story ends on a cliffhanger of ed maybe being dead if you dont watch conqueror of shamballa so its a bit weird like i know a lot of people really like  fma 03 but it definitely seems to focus more on like the magical alchemy stuff and not a lot of the other themes that at least i see as why i like fma so much like this is just from me refreshing myself on the plot from the wiki but like its got none of the government corruption stuff it doesnt have some of like my favorite characters which are the characters from xing who show up a bit later like i just really love every aspect of the story the manga sets out to tell with like all the things about the conspiracies in the government and like how that ties deeply into alchemy and how its used in the country and discussions of war crimes and genocide and like also the more small personal stories of ed and al and their personal friends and family and like all of that seen through their eyes and it also has a much happier more hopeful ending than the 2003 anime i think theres a lot of really interesting stuff in the 2003 anime and i personally really really prefer how it starts and like the first 3 episodes of it to both the beginning of the manga and especially early brotherhood i like the drama i like the pure intensity of emotion and pain you really never get in brotherhood but like plot wise the manga genuinely just has one of the most engaging interesting and well crafted plots ive seen in like anything really everything has good payoff the surprises are so good and like the twists and turns and idk how everything goes along i just love it so like thats why i would recommend it over either anime and like i think however you experience the story first is probably what version you end up liking best because thats the tone and style you become attached to but also more minor thing i cannot stand how winry is written in 2003 like you can tell all the added stuff was written by men because shes so much better of a character in the manga and brotherhood which is just copying the manga cuz she was written by a woman 

[klainymphs]

i jus trikejgfnkdg gotta put this out somewhere and this is the most sterile place i have.........

in the last week couple of weeks or so i started talking to this guy mostly via texts but also a lil bit face to face. thing is he is 1. my boss 2. engaged to a woman who is my coworker. none of the above shouldve been a problem bc we only started talking outside of work when the world cup started and before we were never very friendly with e/o. most of the convos were abt the football and shit but at some point we had a shift together and we talked abt other things and it was kind of nice in the way talkign to men can be nice and  exhausting at the same time. and then after that shift we talked almost constantly like morning to evening which i wont lie seemed a bit excessive but i read him as a needy person and figured this is how he talks to people. anyways at some point he started referring to out “flirting” which i didnt really see was happening but afterwards started noticing and well i didnt stop it bc idk. i had fun talking to him also i should mention again that hes my boss and i honestly dk what it could mean to me to offend him like personally... not that my job is all that but still idk. anyways today we were talkign again and he mention again how our convos could be read badly especially by his fiance and we talked abt that and i mean hes fun to talk to i felt like we were becoming friends but he kept referring to non-friendly things liek making it obvious that he wants to flirt (and maybe more that that? idkkkk) so i got us talkign abt well not doing that and not participating in behaviour that could hurt his fiance and well he straight up admitted that he doesnt see how we could talk without flirting and that he wouldnt want to stop. we talked for a long time abt that and i kept pushing for a solution while he kept pushing for me to admit that i feel the same and that i wouldnt want to stop too. well i did want that bc im reallly not gonna be a gotdamn homewrecker or whatever the fuck just bc this guy needs some attention from someone hes not gonna marry bc i guess he like to self sabotage or wahtever (his fiance is like. too good for him even before all this bullshit went down idk where he gets off thinking hes like allowed to think abt doing that to her i mean whattt) so i kept leaning towards that and when i mentioned that im a lil freaked out abt the whole situation plus i dropped the f work (friend) i guess he got the message or at least realized hes not gonna get anything other than some vaguely flirty texting out of me so he sent me this ridiculously long text abt how we should just go back to talkign liek we used to (which is next to no talking was less than two weeks ago lmao) and like reassured me that this wont affect out work relationship and hes still like here for me and stuff.

anyways im fucking befuddled as to how i even got into this whole mess and genuinely have no idea if its over or has not even begun bc i feel like there hasnt been any consequences to this but in the cosmic sense there should be. idk if its gonna come from him or his fiance or like if im gonna be the one to fuck something up but like. i feel like im a sims character whose major life events happen on the span of like five days i mean. i think i almost took part in cheating? i think thats what that was? oh and i never even mentioned lmao i dont want him!!!! yeah hes fun to talk to and uh one friend said that my face when i text him (w/o knowing whose him) is a “guy face” meaning the face u make when u talk to ur crush but. its just the excitment from getting to knwo a new person (new in a personal way ive formally known him for a year and a half lmao) and i guess the flirting is nice even before u realize its flirting (rip) bc its attention u get and also uh i have an authority thing and a teachers pet thing and i always end up with the shitty guys some way or another and this is like all of it wrapped up nicely in a very dangerous packaging and now i both feel like i got broken up with (unreasonable) and like im aware of someone planning to murder me but unable to do anything abt htat (could still happen tbh).

tl;dr im a fuckign dumb ass idiot stupid fucking asshole and i wanna go back to the time i thought it was a good, fun innocent idea to befriend my known asshole about the be married boss liek hes not just looking for someone to fuck and the fire when it all goes to shit