#/ drusilla verses *

[gh-0-stcup]

New concept: a souled!Dru who's like. actually pretty okay with it.

[dearyvicious]

@dcmnhr continued from (x)

she knew she should be afraid, that she should keep her pretty mouth closed and not confront him, because, since their first meeting, ludovic had kept every damn promise. but she just couldn't, it was an impulse stronger than her. that need to feel the adrenaline that derived from fear. damn, it was moments like that that made her feel alive. " looks fucking like it, after all, you're the one who dragged me here, aren't you? " injected brown eyes seemed to search their surroundings for something before rising to his. " funny, i don't see your fucking name anywhere… what's the matter, dog, did you go pissing around and claim it as your own? " he'd taken everything from her. fuck, he'd stirred the shit out of her. she'd had the misfortune of catching his eye a long time ago and he'd made sure her boyfriend found out about them only to kick her a while later. pathetic, she knew. a groan of pain zapped from her lips when she'd felt the brutal touch crushing her soft skin. delicate hands bouncing against his chest, trying futilely to push him off her. yes, she should do as he commanded. back off. be the obedient little fucking animal, but she couldn't stop herself. there was a warmth curling into a tight knot between her legs and melting, making her gasp against his lips. a hysterical laugh lit up her lips. " you're pathetic with your empty threats… what are you going to do? kill me? oh, ludo, you're just a little boy playing at being a fucking man! " she did exactly what she wasn't supposed to do: she provoked the beast. her knee came up against his pelvis hard and harsh, pushing him back. " oh, you pretend… pretend to be a smarter one. " she looked at the darkness of the alley in front of her and then, at him. fuck. " hide and seek, monster. come and get me if you can. " clattering feet running to her death.

[chaos--mode]

@9odsent went trick or treating! vampire au starter for drusilla creed .

it isn't often that ren runs into others of her particular creed. she's usually pretty lowkey, but, well. this time of year brings a certain appetite for risk to the surface.

she practically leers at the other vampire, fangs bared as thick globs of blood drip down her chin. it's smeared across her cheeks like she rubbed her face in her meal. which, like, yeah, kinda. so she's a messy eater ; bite her. ha, get it?

❝ sorry, babes, well's already dry. ❞ the body slumps as she lets her hold on them go. she practically bled them dry already anyway — drusilla isn't really interrupting anything. ren shrugs ; ❝ m'not big on sharin'. ❞

[l0nglives]

majority of her looks , abilities & soft-spoken nature comes from drusilla. the prominent cheekbones & eye color & proclivity towards music comes from spike. for the most part , she is drusilla's dead ringer , but at heart , even if he never raised her , she is william through-&-through.

[dearyvicious]

" i don't know, okay? i don't know! " the scream rang out from her trembling lips, the feeling of exposure making her sick in front of dawson's eyes. it was confusing. they were confusing. the 'actual issue' was that, yes, she had feelings for him and, no, she wasn't saying. that was the first rule established between them: never cross that line. " why do i… what makes you think that is? " she crossed her arms below her breasts, her countenance turning to displeasure. " i don't… i feel uncomfortable when i see you with someone, okay? it's a sense of loss that seems to tear me apart… i'm here, why do you need to talk to them anyway? "

“why can’t you just explain what the actual issue is?” dawson wasn’t ever this demanding or upset, but he couldn’t help his reaction. every time he got close to someone else, things got bad between them and he didn’t understand it. he was so sure his feelings for them were unrequited, but the way they were behaving had him asking a question he thought he’d never utter. “are you jealous, is that it?” 

open to f/m/nb plot: argument turned admission of feelings turned intense smut? thanks that’s what i want 

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[bambimanifests]

BYVS DR ~ intro !! 🧛🏻‍♀️

This DR is new, I took a shifting break to focus on my CR, as that needed, but now i am back, cause I started watching Buffy and want to shift there!

So for some basics I’m shifting around s2, I haven’t seen the whole show yet, currently I am on s3 & I will continue to watch it, hopefully even after I shift as I want to watch it to the end. My name is same as my CR and I just chose a last name, i’m 16, same grade as Buffy and others, I live with my mom only and she works on the outskirts of Sunnydale, as a nurse I believe…

For relationships, I’m friends with the whole Scooby-Team or whatever, Buffy, Xander, Willow, Oz, Cordelia & Giles (+ honourable mention to Jenny Calendar).

My s/o will either be Buffy or Spike, at least that’s the plan, I gotta say I like them both a lot, even though I feel like there is so much more Spike to see and probably a lot of development for both characters I enjoy them both, but I am leaning towards Buffy.

And lastly my backstory, so I didn’t want to be a random person that just stumbled into Buffy, I like having powers and such in my supernatural DRs, so as I am on s3 I don’t know if anything like this exists in the Buffy-verse, with the exception of Drusilla who does have visions, so I scripted I’m a seer, basically I have predictions of the future that mostly if not always come true, I dream of the future, but I also read tarot (as I do here), I scripted that I’m really good at it, cause even though I would say I’m good at it, I have my weak spots when it comes to readings in my CR.

So I essentially can read the future or see it, or both.

Some helpful basics to script if you plan to shift to BTVS:

— your homework is always done, you always pass every test, you have enough grades and been to enough classes to pass (you may miss a lot, so just so you pass this can be helpful!)

— you cannot be possessed by any demons (unless you want to be a vampire I suppose? but it’s not really you in that case…i think)

— good stamina, you’re fit, win every/most fights,

— your parents/guardians are chill, they don’t mind if your grades slip, they don’t notice if you sneak out, they won’t find your stakes or anything vampire/supernatural related etc.

— vampires won’t feed on you, you can’t be mind controlled by the Master, Drusilla can’t get into your head or any other vampire for that matter.

^ pretty sure there is more, but i’m too tired to think, remember to shift safely 🩷

[tulipscomeinallsortsofcolors]

Proud

May and June, through the years.

Pairing: platonic familial May & Everybody basically

Word count: 3108

Warnings: Hey Look At Me. Theres some pretty serious homophobia at the beginning of this, and references to homphobia throughout

Notes: part of my Love and Other Fairytales verse, spanning from Abby, Dot, and Larry being teenagers to a little less than a year after Linda’s birth.

for @creativity-no-renewal

thank you to @airiervessel for beta-reading!

---

There was a lot May could say about Lazarus Sanders.

None of it was kind.

She hadn’t been angry when she’d found Abigail hiding Laurence in her closet – she’d mostly just been confused. She wasn’t entirely sure she knew what the three of them had going on, and if Abigail was going to give up her disdain for dating for anyone (which May found entirely unlikely) she would have guessed Dorothy before Laurence, who was obviously infatuated with Dorothy himself.

When Larry tumbled out of the closet looking like he’d been crying for hours, she shuffled through the possibilities and came up empty.

“C’mon, up ya get,” she said gruffly, helping him to his feet, “Abigail, did you kidnap the poor boy? The hell is going on?”

Larry, in a rather uncharacteristic move, shrugged off her hands harshly, darted across the room, and- hid.

Hid, behind Abby, like he was- like he was afraid of May.

“Hey, baby,” she said, raising her hands non-threateningly, “What’s wrong? Are ya alright?”

Abby turned and whispered something to Larry, pressing her forehead almost to his temple. Larry looked on the verge of a fresh round of tears, and Drusilla climbed out of Abby’s shirt pocket to clamor up the fabric and onto Larry’s shoulder.

“Promise?” she made out Larry whispering.

“I swear,” said Abby fiercely, “And I can take ‘er if not.”

May recoiled a little. There was a very, very short list of things that Larry could do that she might get genuinely angry at him for, and fewer still that would make him this terrified to tell her. She flipped through them frantically, her heart rate picking up.

“Larry, baby, I need you to tell me straight right now,” she said cautiously, “Do I need to deal with a body?”

Larry actually barked a wet, startled laugh.

“Uh. No,” he choked, “You know, uh. Unless Poppop makes good on the threat to shoot me if he sees me again.”

“Excuse me?”

“Yeah, well, you might want to wait until I tell ya why, in case you agree with him.”

“Laurence Sanders,” she said, some part of her heart crumpling like wadded up trash, “There is not a goddamn thing on this earth you could do that would make me hurt you.”

Larry swallowed hard, and Abby squeezed his hand; he curled into her in spite of having a good six inches advantage, and May wanted to wrap him in knitted things.

“He… found some stuff,” he said, wincing, “You know, like… embarrassing teen boy stuff, please don’t make me say it.”

“He threatened to kill you over smut rags?” she said incredulously.

“No,” said Larry, laughing bitterly, “He threatened to kill me over gay smut rags.”

“… Oh.”

May was ashamed to admit it, but she did blank out a bit. She’d never met a gay – she didn’t really think they even existed this far out of the city. She had a better understanding of the mechanics than most – she was very thorough when giving sexual education to idiot teenagers who were liable to stick their bits damn near anywhere they’d fit – but that was about it. “How to Talk to a Gay Kid” had never been something she’d gone about making a script up for. She was also scrambling to figure out what exactly was going on with Larry and Dot if Larry was gay - she’d been pretty sure, but maybe not-?

“I’ll leave with him,” blurted Abby furiously, shoving Larry further behind her, “If you make him leave I’ll go with him and you’ll never see me again and I’ll make yer life hell from three states away, Momma, I swear I will-”

“Calm down, ya hot-headed little shit,” said May, back on surer footing in the face of Abby jumping the gun like a fool, “No one is leaving. I’m taking a minute to process but let’s make that damn clear.”

“I- No one-?” said Larry, and god, what an awful expression; hope buried under layer after layer of misery, a baby bird too afraid to break the rest of the shell and face the snake.

“No one,” she said, firmer, settling in herself, “I don’t really know what ya need from me right now, baby, I’ll be honest. But you can stay long as you need, and if your granddad comes around I’ll put a bullet in ‘im. Sound doable?”

May had an armful of teenage boy then, and that settled that.

---

Abby had set up this little… picnic. There was only the four of them (Larry, with Abigail and and Dorothy there for moral support and May there for security), the little picnic table covered in knick knacks (crocheted miniature flags, a tub of pins, stacks of hand-drawn pamphlets that they’d had to buy their own printer to copy because no copyshop would let them in) and Jax, circling above and behind. The pamphlets weren’t anything special; black and white, L-G-B-T and a page to explain each that May had had to surreptitiously swipe one of and read rather than put Larry through the misery of explaining what exactly his… situation was when he clearly found the topic very embarrassing. She was pretty sure he was the B, but she wouldn’t say anything until she at least overheard something to that effect.

May sat a bit away from the kids. They were excited – flush and adrenalined with the excitement of doing something they shouldn’t, high on their defiance. May could give them the space for that.

They were just kids. They were old enough to know they were rebelling, to know Lazarus had meant what he said about killing Larry, to know that they were in danger.

And yet still young enough that Abby’s Momma and a twelve-gauge were enough to set them dizzy with victory, make them feel untouchable even in broad daylight, in full view of a road that was gathering increasingly gawking traffic. Some folks drove past four or five times, gaping or glaring or flipping them off. Jax circled the treeline, looking out for anyone sneaking up from the back, and May kept a white-knuckled grip on the shotgun and her eyes glued to the road.

No one stopped. Nobody had the balls or the stupid to face May Gage at her worst, and May was just fine with that. If they could get through this with just the threat alone, she’d be well pleased.

When someone finally crossed that line, she knew it was definitely stupid and not balls.

She stood from her chair, hefting the shotgun, and turned to the kids.

“You hear a shot fire, you run,” she said, “No heroics. You follow Jax back to the house and you lock up and you do not open the door for even god himself, you understand me?”

“Yes, ma’am,” said Abby, steel in her eyes. Larry was looking over May’s shoulder, his face ashen.

“Larry,” she said, “If there’s one thing your granddad is, it's a grand ol’ coward. I can take him.”

“Yes ma’am,” he said tremulously.

May turned, stalking across the field toward the incoming column of fury that was Lazarus Sanders.

“What the hell is this?” he demanded, “May fucking Gage and her degeneracy again, your feminism turning my boy into a damn sissy-”

“Let me make this quick,” said May, “You’re gonna leave. You’re gonna let my babies have their picnic. You’re gonna never speak to any of ‘em, ever again. And if you don’t, I am gonna kill you, Laz, and I ain’t even gonna feel bad about it.”

“You threatening me, Gage?”

“I damn well am,” said May, “On my life, on God, on Eve and all her daughters, if you raise a single hand to my kids for the rest of your life, I will put you in the fuckin’ ground, Lazarus Sanders.”

Jax finished his third circuit around them, high over their heads, and even Laz wasn’t stupid enough to not notice the June warm climbing to August blood-hot. Jax swooped down to land behind her, wings spread wide, and Lazarus paled like the cowering dog he was.

“You,” he hissed, furious and terrified, “You did this. Possessed him with your- your devil worship!”

“Larry is the sweetest boy who ever lived in this town, no thanks to you,” said May, “If he’s possessed, may we all be so lucky.”

Lazarus’s eyes bugged out of his head, and apparently that was just too much for him. He turned tail and booked it for his car, and May waited until it was full out of sight before she turned to walk back to the kids.

Dorothy was looking at her with wide, astonished eyes, like May had summoned lightning or something, and Abby looked as smug as a Gage ought to.

May turned to Larry, only to find him already half in her arms, bullying under a damn shotgun like an idiot and hiding his face in her neck, shoulders shaking under her hands.

Well. She’d give him the gun safety lecture after the hug then.

---

Dot and Larry had been running the pride picnic long before their falling out, and May had to admit that she’d missed it. It hadn’t gotten much bigger by then, but it had fairly exploded in the past five or so years. Sure, there were still grousing folks, even a few protesters a handful of times, but even that had died down once May came back with the shotgun in tow once more.

She’d sat a bit further away this time, not without ulterior motive. She was glad she did – Roman, Patton, and Logan ran their own little mini-booths apiece, and Virgil would have been alone if not for the spot saved just for him next to her.

“Seems odd.” he muttered.

“How so?”

“To celebrate something like that,” said Virgil, “I mean... is it like the difference between Seelie and Unseelie, for humans? Or more like springs and summers?”

“Is what?” said May, furrowing her brow, “Sexuality?”

“Yes.”

He was looking up at her with those big, wide-set purple eyes. He was tall and gaunt, no baby fat left on him, but he still had the knobby-limbed gangliness of a teenager, looking a bit like he’d been stretched like taffy too quickly. She didn’t know if he’d fill out over the next few years, if he’d age with her boys. His head was tilted so like Logan’s, his fingertips gripping the hem of her skirt as if to ground himself. The Lord of the Forest, clinging to a grandma’s skirt, nervous around a bunch of strangers.

He was just a kid. And May ought to tell him the truth.

But it was a happy day. And something cold and miserable curled up in her belly at the thought of the way his face would crumple if she told him that some – a lot – of the world hated his boyfriends, for no good reason at all.

“Everybody loves a good party,” said May, shrugging.

Virgil nodded, accepting her explanation easily, and May swallowed the guilt like she did everything else.

“Mamaw!”

May looked up at Roman, who was out of breath and flushed pink, beaming and holding out a pamphlet.

“Okay, so- I know this is weird,” said Roman, “But- Dot said- Dot said she thought Mom would have used it if she'd heard it and I know it's not really cool to speculate on people's identities but I thought- I thought maybe it's a bit different? Because you knew her, and I was wondering, if- what you thought. Maybe.”

“Hm,” said May, nodding, “I have no goddamn idea what ya just asked me.”

Roman laughed nervously, and held out a little green, purple, and black pamphlet. May vaguely recognized the colors from a couple of the flags up, though she’d never bothered to keep track of them. She remembered that first little picnic with Dot and Larry and Abby arguing over which of the rainbows they ought to be using, eight or seven or six stripes, and she’d thought it was silly then and she thought it was silly now.

“Do you think Mom- do you think Mom would have identified as aroace, if she’d known the terms?” said Roman, his voice small, “Do you... do you think she would have been queer, too?”

May skimmed the pamphlet... and a lead ball dropped right into her belly.

Aromantic...asexual... lack of attraction... sex repulsion...

May was old. Old enough she’d thought she was just about unflappable – that she’d seen too much of the world to get caught off guard.

Her baby. Always managing to surprise her, even beyond the grave.

“Yeah, baby,” said May, handing it back to him and for once thanking the shake in her hands that never left, giving her an excuse if either of them noticed, “That sounds like my girl.”

Roman beamed, swooping in to kiss her cheek and pressing the pamphlet to his chest.

May decided she was gonna tell him more stories. It hurt, it hurt more than almost anything, to talk about Abigail, to talk about the baby she’d loved with every cell in her body and betrayed and lost without ever the chance to apologize. To make it right. Abigail died angry at her and she deserved it.

But Roman deserved this. To know her, as best he could. To know how alike they were, how much she saw pieces of Abby embedded in him like crystals on a fresco. May’s pain would have to take second fiddle to that.

Virgil set his head on May’s thigh, and she rested her hand on his head as Roman trotted back to his booth with a spring in his step.

Anything. Anything, for her kids.

---

“What’s that one?”

“That’s the demisexual flag,” said Roman, “Your Papa is demisexual. It means not feeling attracted to someone until you already love them.”

“And that one?”

“That’s the genderqueer flag! Avaun Ellie is genderqueer, and so is Vati, a little bit.”

“That doesn’t sound like Vati’s gender,” said Linda, wrinkling her nose at the flag.

“That’s why I said only a little bit,” said Roman, bouncing her a bit on his knee. May listened with half her attention, the other half on Brian in the bassinet next to her as she jingled his little teething keys.

“Vati’s gender doesn’t really fit any of the ones humans have named,” Roman continued, “Because he grew up among the fae, and not among humans.”

“That makes sense.”

“So he says that agender and genderqueer are closest to his gender, and he likes just ‘queer’ for his sexuality. They aren’t perfect words for him, but they don’t bother him, so he uses them for conversations with humans.”

“What about you?”

“I’m a queer gay man,” said Roman, “That means I’m a man who likes other men.”

“But Vati’s not a man?”

“Ah but that’s where the queer comes in!” said Roman, tickling her stomach and making her giggle, “We aren’t supposed to fit into the words; the words are supposed to fit us! I know Vati’s not a man, but the word ‘gay’ is important to me, and Vati doesn’t mind. I use it because it feels good to me and makes me happy, not because I fit the dictionary definition perfectly.”

“That makes sense,” said Linda, “Like how you’re not really a prince cuz you're a consort but Papa and Daddy and Vati call you Princey anyway cuz it makes you smiley.”

Roman laughed aloud, and May cracked a smile too.

“Yes, exactly.”

“What about the green and black and white one over there?”

“That’s aromantic,” said Roman, “Like... well, like my mom.”

“You have a mom?”

The pause lasted just a touch too long, and May ached.

“I did,” said Roman softly, “She passed away when I was very little.”

“And she was aro-mat-ic?”

“Aromantic, yes,” said Roman, “It means someone who doesn't experience romantic attraction.”

“How’d she have a baby if she didn’t have a husband?”

“Stubbornness,” muttered May, and Roman laughed.

“I wish I could tell you more,” said Roman, “But I don’t actually know much about aromanticism, it’s never come up. The only aromantic person I ever knew was my mom, and I don’t remember her.”

May was old. Older everyday. More forgetful too – there were some things even the fae couldn’t delay, the slow creeping away of her memory being one of them.

She might not have many more chances to say it.

“Roman,” she said, shifting in her wheelchair, “Gimme.”

Roman blinked, startled, and turned to Linda.

“Do you want to sit with Mamaw?”

“Yes!”

“Okay, be gentle.”

Linda was, ginger and feather-light as down as she crawled over the armrest to sit in May’s lap. May breathed her fruit-and-earth smell, and steeled herself.

“... Mamaw?” said Roman softly.

“Actually, baby,” she croaked, “I’m aromantic.”

Roman stiffened, but Linda perked up curiously.

“How’d you get a baby without a husband?”

“I did have a husband,” said May, “I got my baby the usual way.”

“Why’d you have a husband, if you didn’t love him?”

May breathed around the lump, in through the nose, out through the mouth.

“You see this festival, all around ya?” she said gently, gesturing around, “How it’s a big party, and most everyone in town comes, and we’re all happy?”

“Yeah?”

“It wasn’t always like this,” said May, “It used to be scary, to be different this way. People might hurt ya. And so nobody talked about it if they could help it. When I got married, it was because I was lonely, and I thought that if he loved me, and I had company, well, that would be enough. I didn’t know there was a word for what I was, I thought... I just thought there was something wrong with me.”

“Mamaw,” choked Roman, clutching her hand hard.

“But... that’s sad,” said Linda, furrowing her brow in confusion.

“It is a bit, ain’t it?” said May, “But now things are better, and we have a grand ol’ party, don’t we? And I’m happy. Happy enough that I can admit it and not feel like I’m doin’ somethin wrong. I’m so, so happy, baby.”

Roman jumped from his chair to kneel beside hers and wrap his arms around both of them. May slipped a gnarled hand into the peppered white at his temple. Her boy, all grown. Maybe grown enough that May could put a little bit down, and trust he’d help her out.

“I’m so proud of you,” said Roman wetly.

And there was no better feeling in the world.

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[giftedeath]

there’s  this  odd  yet  familiar  feeling  that  buffy  gets  around  drusilla.  it’s  adrenaline  that  starts  from  her  fingertips  and  rushes  through  PURPLE  veins,  but  it’s  also  something  confusing,  too.  it’s  envy,  and  it’s  this  sense  of  fear  that  comes  with  an  idea  ;  that  maybe  drusilla  understands  her  …  more  than  buffy  wishes  were  true.  it’s  all  of  that,  wrapped  into  one,  and  it’s  what  brings  her  here  in  the  first  place  …  speaking  of  secrets  and  truths  that  buffy  wasn’t  ready  to  𝒔𝒑𝒊𝒍𝒍  just  yet.  ❛  i  was  hoping  you’d  get  the  ball  rolling,  actually.  ❜

she  wouldn’t  be  buffy  if  she  didn’t  deflect  automatically.  something  of  a  𝒅𝒆𝒇𝒆𝒏𝒔𝒆  𝒎𝒆𝒄𝒉𝒂𝒏𝒊𝒔𝒎  at  this  point.  upon  the  realization,  she  softens  …  mimics  drusilla’s  movements,  and  tilts  her  own  head  to  the  side  in  thought.  ❛  do  i  really  need  to  say  it  ?  don’t  you  …  can’t  you  see  it  ?  ❜  this  is  the  closest  to  vulnerable  buffy  was  able  to  manage.  it  doesn’t  just  eat  away  at  her,  it  gnaws,  it  consumes  her  whole.  maybe  her  life  would  be  different  if  it  hadn’t.

❛  do  you  think  about  it  a  lot  ?  ❜  the  question  seemingly  comes  out  of  left  field,  but  it  had  been  on  her  mind  this  entire  time  …  ❛  him,  i  mean.  angel  …  or  angelus,  i  guess.  what  he  did  to  you.  ❜  sometimes,  it’s  the  only  thing  on  buffy’s  mind.

@giftedeath sent: “ we all have secrets, don’t we ? ”

HEAD SLOWLY AND SLIGHTLY CANTS TO THE SIDE when she looks upon the slayer, hand wanting to rise and reach out to touch her face for a split second though she resists the urge to do so. She's more curious than anything else, wondering why Buffy would say such a thing regardless of knowing how true it is. They all held secrets, yes, and she's wondering what secrets Buffy has specifically. But she knows too that the woman won't be so easily willing to share them, not with Drusilla of all individuals. It doesn't stop her from asking though, ❝ what secrets do you have, lil' dumplin'? What goes on in that head o' yours? ❞

Oh, is she curious. To know the amount of torment that comes with being the Chosen One at such a young age and having that weight layered upon precious shoulders. Dru can only imagine and she's salivating at the mouth just thinking about it. But the blonde is the one who presented this small bit of information in the first place and made its presence known so of course, she can't help but indulge further as much as possible and poke into it like a stick pressing into a dead animal carcass.

❝ Do they eat away at you? They do, don't they? Just like they eat at me. From the inside, out. ❞

[thecarnivorousmuffinmeta]

muffin muffin i have to know -- how would the cullens fare as buffyverse vampires?

Caveat

Who knows?

Buffyverse vampires are entirely different as they do, truly, lose their souls and are piloted about by demons. The demons take on the body's fixations and habits, but you're not at the wheel anymore. Something else that's completely evil is.

We'd also be in a world without the Volturi but with a single Slayer who's usually bound to one location or another for a few years.

It's quite easy for a vampire to avoid the Slayer, though perhaps not conflict with other demons or what not depending.

Alice

She'd fair quite well, as Drusilla does with her own clairvoyance/powers.

Alice would be able to avoid situations that would harm her, have her fun how she pleases, but get out when it's too dicey.

I see her being a very impulsive vampire who flits from victim to victim based on where she'll a) have the most fun b) won't die.

Carlisle

I imagine never creates a coven as he now has 0 desire to save anyone from anything or even himself. He likely never becomes a doctor, never integrates into towns, and probably wanders around eating people out of boredom.

This meandering lack of connections probalby keeps him alive as he never has significant runins with anyone dangerous.

Edward

Oh, Edward goes to town. We've seen hints of Buffyverse Edward in his violent fantasies and plans.

Edward's going full Angelus: eating humans who annoy him, psychologically torturing women who catch his interest, violently murdering those he sees as rivals, and going over the top in every way.

Of course, I see him as the type who would personally challenge the Slayer for the thrill of it as well as his own pride and belief in his telepathy.

This probably gets him killed very early.

Emmett

Challenges every demon he meets to wrestling: dies very soon because of this very dangerous pasttime.

Esme

What...

What even is Buffy-verse Esme?

I'm picturing someone who ends up with Carlisle and is still the weirdest, sweetest, woman who just eats people now. Everything's the same. She just eats people.

Regardless, she'd probably keep to herself and keep out of trouble.

Jasper

Likely dies in some demon skirmish or another if not murdered by the Slayer.

Rosalie

Please, Rosalie's a Vengeance Demon and we all know it.

She does very well for herself.

[prophecey]

* . ⊹  BRIDGERTON CHARACTERS AND VERSES

CANONS :

so far i have added anthony bridgerton, sophie beckett and violet bridgerton ( with a canon and a younger verse ) i may consider adding more canons as i read through the series, but also if there is anyone you want to write against, let me know.

ORIGINALS :

benjamin de vaillant — ben's mother passed away first, then his father a few weeks later. they say the late king died of a broken heart. ben was named king very prematurely and he was not ready to bear the weight of the crown. society pressured him to find a wife, but he had no luck in france, so he accepted the queen of england's offer to participate in their current season to try to find a wife.

drusilla lovelace — the lovelaces are cursed. at least, that is what the people of the ton whisper about whenever one of the surviving members of the family walks through the market or shows up to an event. in recent generations, lovelace women have passed away at a young age, usually shortly after giving birth to one or more heirs. it is dru's turn to be presented to society, but as expected, she is having a hard time finding potential suitors.

indira petrova — indy is in her second season, but she's more interested in the other girls presenting themselves to society than she is in any of her potential suitors. her mother keeps pressuring her to find a husband, and her father has even threatened to marry her off to one of his friends if she doesn't accept a marriage proposal soon. in her first season, she was proposed to three times, making a mockery of her family ( according to her parents. )

josephine elmsworth — posey has waited her whole life for her season to start. she's idealistic with her head in the clouds and she can't wait to fall in love. her older brother jules is presenting her to society since her father passed away a year ago. at least, he was supposed to be presenting her, but he's too busy flirting with all the other girls with no intention of finding a wife.

VERSES :

alex claremont-diaz — as the only son of american royalty, alex is very well known, and his hand in marriage has been the talk of the ton. unfortunately for the ladies of the season, he seems to be noncommittal in the pursuit for a wife, as he sneaks around with a british noble, and still a hangable offense.

daniel le domas — daniel would be a rake if he had any motivation. instead of meeting potential suitors, he spends most of the time at the taverns. his family was very well known around the ton . . . for all the wrong reasons but they all died in a tragic house fire. now lord le domas is head of the house and the talk of the ton, but he wants nothing to be disassociated from his family so he can move on.

evie grimhilde — lady whistledown called her the season's sapphire instead of a diamond due to her signature royal blue dresses. she entered her season in a bid to get away from her evil queen mother. the grimhildes were once one of the most loved families in england before their titles and land were stolen away from them.

grace le domas — grace is a dowager after her husband and his family were all killed in a tragic house fire ( except for one of his brothers ) on her wedding day. now she's just trying to survive in the ton without a husband or any land while dispelling any rumors about her and the family she was supposed to be married into.

rebekah mikaelson —  as the youngest surviving member of the mikaelson family, and the only girl, her presentation was highly anticipated about the ton. unfortunately for rebekah, the three brothers in town have a terrible habit of scaring away any of her potential suitors instead of helping her secure an engagement.

rosalie hale — rosalie was orphaned at a young age and taken in by a wealthy family. even though she is not biologically their child, they have always treated her like she was, and that included presenting her into society, but she proved to be difficult, showing no real interest in finding a husband, at least in the traditional way that society expected her to. she participated in three seasons before she stopped and started supporting her siblings in their pursuits.

[cabeswaterdrowned]

some btvs-verse ships for your ask game: Spike/Drusilla, Willow/Kennedy, Buffy/Willow, Angel/Cordelia

Sprusilla: 7.5-8 they have a type of monster couple charisma and playfulness that really appeals to me! Not a full 8 only because I don’t feel that I think of them enough when they’re not on my screen to warrant it but I do love them…I tend to love the Buffyverse villain couples lol.

Willow/Kennedy: solid 5/10 I don’t have the active dislike for them or for Kennedy herself many do in fact I like Kennedy okay, but I would have preferred Willow’s next romance to be with Faith or Anya, an already fleshed out character she’d had chemistry with in the past and who had a storyline/redemption arc going on of her own with complementary themes to Willow’s, and trying to shoehorn in a new character and whole new dynamic didn’t work after how impactful Tara was. Hard indifferent ultimately. 

Buffy/Willow: currently will give them a 6.5 but this is one I’ve gotten more intrigued by romantically in recent years, and I wonder if when I get around to my next rewatch the rating will increase. I primarily love their friendship and how complex/interesting it is but I do like to muse about them having crushes on each other in the early seasons especially Willow having a crush on Buffy circa s3, and can see a basis for an s7 onwards romance, they’re also one third of my favorite Buffyverse ot3 (not counting like. the whirlwind ot4 which is in it’s own league to me as it’s basically canon) which is Buffy x Faith x Willow will say I feel more about/ am significantly more into both Faith ships in that equation but the parallels between Faith and Willow’s dynamics with Buffy are tasty for char exploration, especially through a queer lense. A lot of themes I enjoy a lot in that mix. But I will say that a reason it took me a while to warm to them as a ship compared to a lot of other f/f Buffyverse dynamics is that, with the exception of a couple distinct scenes, I don’t tend to feel SMG and Alyson’s chemistry has as much of a shippy leaning compared to how both of them play off a lot of the other actresses Eliza Charisma Amber, Amy when Willow guest stars on Ats, Alyson and Emma, SMG and Bianca or even Juliet, I think they have more chemistry than Willow and Kennedy but that bar isn’t high and idk how much of that is chemistry vs depth of emotional content. But it’s a fascinating dynamic that I can see / enjoy in a shippy way depending how it’s done. 

Cangel: 8 / 10, I love them!! It’s a testament to how well they work for me overall that they have this rating even with the Connor stuff and me knocking some points for how bad that was I think they would be even higher otherwise… one of my favorite friends to lovers tv pairings and heart breaking in the end. 

Ty!

(Send me ships and I’ll rate them)

[theyfeast]

MUSES

anne rice's vampire chronicles

santiago . vampire. primary .

amel . demon / spirit / vampire. creators of vampires. primary.

daniel molloy . human / vampire ( verse dependent ) . request.

prince amar babur shah. rohan. vampire oc. secondary.

viktor de lioncourt. human. ( headcanon based only. will go more in detail if asked. ) son of lestat de lioncourt. request.

alex graham. human. member of lestat's band. request.

MISC.

marko. vampire. the lost boys. request.

drusilla. vampire. buffy the vampire slayer. request.

[jennycalendar]

Jenny attempts to establish her power over Angelus, Spike, and Drusilla, with varying degrees of success.

THE NEXT INSTALLMENT!!! i am so honestly excited to finally have my writer brain edging back into existence, i have missed it SO MUCH and this fic is SO messily fun to write. so many big plans in store for this thing.

blowing a lil kiss to @hal-1500 bc we talked a lot about my plans for this 'verse today and then i literally sat down and wrote it and that's so exciting. thank u for ur help, dear <3333

[giftedeath]

verses/about under the cut ! spoilers will be rampant ! but its been twenty years my loves <3

give me back my girlhood / it was mine first › los angeles.

pre - sunnydale buffy. living in la, attending hemery high school. she's popular, she's a cheerleader, she's everything she has always wanted to be. she is the quintessential valley girl. her parents are together, even if they do argue all the time. this is the time in her life that she will constantly refer back to seasons and seasons later ... her girlhood, the thing that is torn from her. her innocence.

she then becomes the vampire slayer.

in every generation there is a chosen one. she alone will stand against the vampires, the demons, and the forces of darkness. she is the slayer.

this verse will be broken up into two parts.

part i - as innocence; the period before becoming the slayer part ii - as the reckoning; she is told one day on the steps of hemery high that she is the chosen one - that she must defeat vampires; slay them ! this is her destiny. she is instilled with what can only be explained as superpowers ! she's faster and stronger than normal girls. her nights of studying long gone as she takes up nights of slaying vampires in cemeteries. school stops mattering, friends turn away from her, and then one day, there is an incident. she accidentally burns down hemery high's gym and is expelled. her and her mother, joyce summers, move to sunnydale california. the beginning of the end

i'm sixteen years old / i don't wanna die › season one.

after her expulsion from hemery high, buffy thinks this will be her chance to get away. no more slayer responsibilities. her move to sunnydale is a blessing in disguise. until she meets sunnydale high's librarian - rupert giles; who also just so happens to be her watcher and it is solidified that not only is she the vampire slayer, but she is now in a town full of vampires, demons, and other forces of darkness. things which she is responsible to take care of, for the better of society. a girl of sixteen !

key events for this verse

she meets the core of the scooby gang; willow rosenberg, and xander harris who become and stay her best friends until the end of the show. as well as other important characters, such as cordelia chase, who becomes a very significant figure in her life.

the relationship with her watcher giles begins. their relationship can be described as very father/daughter-esque but also has tumultuous ups and downs; especially in later seasons ( but also in early seasons tbh )

she meets angel ! the vampire who is cursed with a soul ( formerly known as angelus ! ) and she develops a crush on him which eventually turns into her very first serious relationship <3

she learns that sunnydale is situated atop of a 'hellmouth'; she faces multiple different vampires, including a member of the fanged four and angelus' sire - darla !! who is also his former lover. ( he does eventually kill darla during this season )

the major threat of the season however, is the master, who is an ancient and especially threatening vampire, who is trapped underground in the middle of the hellmouth. buffy defeats him with the help of the scoobies, but not without officially dying first. ( she is drowned by the master, and does die for like two minutes before xander harris is able to give her mouth to mouth and save her ! yay xander )

verse. you only get a few more candles › season two.

season two is where things really start to get fun and buffy, as a show, starts to understand what it is really about. buffy is seventeen, now and a junior at sunnydale high. she's deep in her relationship with angel. she passes time by trying to do her best in school, training with giles, as well as going to the bronze for a bit of r&r every now and again ( a lot ! ) all while fighting the forces of evil!

key events for this verse

iconic vampire couple spike <3 & drusilla <3 enter and begin to wreak havoc in sunnydale! they are established as the 'big bads' of the season.

due to buffy's brief death in season one, a new slayer named kendra is introduced ! we love kendra so much

xander and cordelia start dating which causes cordelia to become one of the scoobies, thus growing closer to buffy by association.

oz osbourne is introduced, a senior and later revealed as a werewolf. he begins dating willow and becomes a scooby !!

willow begins to dabble in magic !

jenny calendar, the computer teacher at sunnydale, starts a romantic relationship with giles & we learn that actually ( lots of retconning goes on ) jenny is romani, her true identity is janna of the kalderash, the same people who cursed angelus and gave him his soul back - making him angel ( and if you choose to watch btvs just know that there are a lot of racist elements in this, and slurs are used very frequently, and it's disgusting. )

in s2ep14 'innocence' buffy and angel have just had sex ! yeehaw, buffy loses her virginity. but alas, angel experiences a true moment of happiness ( yeah. ejaculation jdfkjdkf ) and the curse is lifted, he becomes angelus once more; the notorious, blood sucking, evil vampire. which sucks for buffy bc he then starts to treat her like shit !!! it's all a very weird joss whedon metaphor for men pretending they like you so that they can sleep with you, and then change completely right afterwards. blah blah blah. it is deeply traumatizing for buffy!

angelus joins spike and drusilla to destroy the world ! the fanged four is 3/4ths reunited and hell is unleashed upon everyone. angelus kills lots of innocents, including jenny calendar. drusilla kills kendra. ( TRAGIC AND I HATE IT !! btvs stop killing off woc challenge ) and buffy, in the end, teams up with the scoobies + spike ( yes SPIKE ! the big bad ! ) and sends angelus / angel, the man she is in love with ! into a hell dimension, never to be seen again. very traumaizing again, for buffy.

buffy also comes out to her mother this season as a vampire slayer, and joyce doesn't take it well. ( yes more metaphors ) so ... buffy leaves sunnydale.

verse. a begging to be believed › season three.

terrible awful things happened to buffy in season two like what the hell. so she disappears to la for the summer, bc isolation is how she deals with trauma hello ! eventually she does go back to sunnydale and back to the scoobies and is now eighteen, and a senior. yay ! graduation time !!

key events for this verse !

due to deplorable writing choices, kendra's tragic and unjust death means a new slayer is in town. enter faith lehane !!! buffy's shadow, a girl just a bit younger than her, a very important part of buffy, someone who makes her ... her <3 initially, buffy can't help but be a little bit jealous over faith. her friends love her instantly, she's cool and calm and wears a lot of leather, and she's kind of hot ? oops. ... but yeah, she's in sunnydale !! and they start another very tumultuous friendship .. one that starts off on jealousy, later buffy warms up to her and they have some good Bad Girl times ! until faith kills a man ! and suddenly buffy has to think about what it means to be a slayer, slayers aren't killers, am i bad too ? etc.

angel mysteriously comes back from the hell dimension lmao !!! but he's fucked in the head a bit, ok sorry wait. angel is not the same angel that she knew when she fell in love with him i guess ? bc he suffered for who knows how long in the hell dimension that she was forced to send him to. but now he's back, and she helps him regain his sanity and strength. they kind of start their relationship back up again, but by the end of the season, they break up and go their separate ways.

anyanka the vengeance demon enters ! we love her we love herrrr. she loses her vengeance demon powers tho very quickly and becomes a normal girl ! and goes to the prom with xander

buffy turns eighteen and the watcher's council basically has giles perform this ritual called tento di cruciamentum and it's the beginning of buffy and giles' decline. :( giles is fired from the watcher's council & is replaced by new watcher wesley wyndam pryce !!! oh dear wes <3 also buffy decides fuck the watcher's council and stops caring about them ! good for her !

enter big bad of the season, the mayor !! who is on a mission to ascension or becoming a "pure demon" and with faith on his side, he kind of does it ! but buffy and the scoobies and also the sunnydale class of '99 stop him ! yay ! oh the high school gets blown up lol

buffy stabs faith and puts her into a coma eek

angel and cordelia officially leave sunnydale to go start their spinoff show in los angeles ! good for them :) <3 wesley even joins them a lil bit later ! and angel the series ensues. we'll see angel again tho

verse. she is as destructive as a coriolis storm › season four.

it's the college season! buffy and willow both are attending UC sunnydale yay ! buffy's still kind of cut up about her breakup with angel, but its ok and she's healing <3 she meets some cool people. she loses her soul once ! phew. oh and there's this whole thing called the initiative which kind of sucks :/ but lets get into it

buffy's a freshman, nineteen, she likes psychology with professor walsh and her TA riley finn. she's good at it too ! actually, given the opportunity - she's pretty good at school. which is a cool realization that she has.

anya and xander start officially ? dating. willow and oz break up and oz leaves :( but that's okay bc willow's a lesbian and she meets tara who is also a witch !!! and more scoobies are added to the roster!

spike comes back lmaoooo. and uh, a chip is implanted in his head, and it prevents him from harming humans by giving him big bad migraines. but do not fear ! because he can still harm demons! which causes him to join the scoobies! yay !

oh and its put there by "the initiative" which is ( wikipedia ) "a top-secret military installation based beneath the uc sunnydale campus" they experiment on/kill demons idk. riley finn is like the main bunker boy and professor walsh also runs the shit too. the big bad this season is a guy/demon - man made The Creature from frankenstein like thing named adam and he's very smart or whtvr. it's a very uninteresting season overall lol

buffy and riley start dating and its um .. interesting. she definitely learns and realizes things

buffy and her friends defeat adam and the initiative is shut down and buffy starts thinking about the lineage of slayers, a perfect transition into season 5

verse. death is close / but so is life › season five.

DEATH IS YOUR GIFT ! or probably the best season of buffy.

your gaslit into believing that buffy has had a sister named dawn for four seasons. and you believe it too, for like a second. we love dawnie <3 dawn is the most important person ever, actually.

big bad of the season "glory" enters. she's pretty, she has cute outfits, she's also a god ! and she shares a body with this guy named Ben. he's a nurse ! but again, glory is a god ... and she's searching for a key so that she can open a portal to her hell dimension. the problem is, if she gets the key and opens the portal, it essentially blurs the line between hell and earth and it will unleash hell onto earth ! so she really can't get the key

oh and the key is dawn. dawn is the key. she's energy that was made out of buffy and formed into her teenage sister. so yeah, she wasn't buffy's sister for her whole life, she's actually just existed for a few months ! and the fake memories the key makers planted into all of their brains, makes it kind of feel like she's been there forever. buffy loves her. dawn is her. they are the best sister duo relationship i have ever seen. i am very fond of them.

joyce ( buffy's mom ) dies of a brain aneurysm. it is ............... heartbreaking. it changes buffy's life. it changes buffy.

riley and buffy break up. spike realizes he is IN LOVEEEE with buffy. it's kind of iconic but im a little biased ngl. he also really ups the ante by protecting dawn and joyce a lot and buffy really is relying on him to protect her loved ones this season. also .. he kind of becomes one of her loved ones this season as well :')

glory kidnaps dawn and despite the scoobies efforts, dawn's blood opens up the portal, unleashing hell on earth. buffy sacrifices herself and dies and the portal closes. and buffy dies for the second and final time. ugh god. THE GIFT ! DEATH IS HER GIFT !

verse. life is pain / and life is suffering but my god / you're alive › season six.

my favorite season. season six u will always be famous

buffy's dead but not to worry, the scoobies (willow, xander, anya, and tara) are going to bring her back from whatever hell dimension she's in! don't worry! willow knows what she's doing and she won't come back wrong

they do it! but oops they think that they didn't do it and so buffy is forced to claw herself out of her grave. traumatizing

buffy is alive again, she's back and she's .. not wrong, but also .. she's not the buffy that the scoobies have known and loved all these years. ( to them ) and buffy's actually extremely depressed, empty, and feels very very wrong, ultimately; is suicidal. she was pulled out of heaven ! she has bills to pay, she needs to get a job, her mother is still dead, the soulless vampire is still in love with her, there's a very iconic musical episode where she almost basically attempts to off herself but spike is there to tell her that life is worth living, you have to keep on living SO ONE OF US IS LIVINNNNGGG!!!

giles leaves this season bc he thinks that buffy relies on him too much ? weird but ok.

buffy and spike start a 'sexual' relationship... i guess

their relationship is .... it's an incredibly interesting dynamic which explores the theme of the jungian shadow in depth. it's mutually toxic, but it also stands to represent a lot about buffy and spike's characters. there will be tons and tons of metas written about this whole relationship bc it literally is so......... it's just, it makes sense why it happens. but from a basic perspective, it's not something i support or condone. but it serves a very critical narrative purpose and it is pivotal to buffy's character and the way that i write her. also if u have zero basic media literacy, then it's just a toxic relationship. but it stands for so much more. spike is consistently there, someone who she confides in throughout the season. he is her anchor in a lot of ways. she starts having sex with him because she knows that he is in love with her, she feels safe around him, but she is also disgusted with herself bc that is her shadow. he has no soul and it reflects her emptiness and the void that she has felt since being brought back to life. like i said, very interesting dynamic that changes buffy as a character and honestly, helps in her journey to healing !!!

there is a spike and buffy scene in season 6 ep19 'seeing red' which i largely ignore. actually ! yeah .. i don't feel that it is canon. in fact, spike already knew that he wanted to get his soul back prior to /that/ interaction, and so for my portrayal, i look at it as ... he feels he's not a man and not a demon, he's not the man that he needs to be, for her, to be hers, and so based on their relationship throughout s6, he comes to the conclusion that he always had: he goes and he gets his soul back!

oh yeah ... and there's this trio of incels warren, jonothan, and andrew. they try to fuck up buffy's life in "comical" and silly ways. warren gets tired of being beat by buffy so he decides to shoot her. he also manages to kill tara, and this sets willow off and dark willow is unleashed !!!! but don't worry bc xander saves the day and buffy lives because tara dies. it's tragic and terrible

verse. i owe myself an apology › season seven.

bc buffy got resurrected last season, it caused an imbalance between good and evil and something called 'the first evil,' is the big bad of the season

it's killing potential slayers and plans to raise a huge army of these ancient vampires that are practically unkillable

the watcher's council is destroyed ! everybody clap

buffy keeps a whole group of potential slayers in her house to train and protect them. oh and she's working at the high school now as a guidance counselor

spike has his soul back which means buffy can heal and be okay, because he's not empty anymore and neither is she. lots of good moments this season for them. they're married actually.

everyone in sunnydale evacuates bc the hellmouth gets worse!

faith comes back to help buffy's cause <3

there's a preacher called caleb and he's a misogynist. he's safe guarding this weapon - it's a scythe. buffy gets it and kills him with it !

angel comes to sunnydale and gives buffy an amulet that is to be worn by a 'champion' meaning vampire with a soul. so she gives it to spike.

they go down into the hellmouth to fight the ancient vampires as a unit. willow does a spell and it unleashes the potential slayers powers. now there are lots and lots of slayers, and buffy is no longer the only one! she is not alone! she is free!

spike's amulet harnesses the power of the sun and it unleashes onto the vampires, saving the world but also sacrificing himself in the end. also - buffy tells him she loves him and for the first time since angel, she means it :') and then he dies haha !

from wikipedia : in the end "dawn asks, "what are we going to do now?" buffy slowly begins to enigmatically smile as she contemplates the future ahead of her, ending the series on a hopeful note." SHE IS FREEEEEEEEE

verse. meanwhile / the world goes on › goodbye sunnydale.

basically everything after sunnydale. i don't follow the comics bc i haven't read them. i like to think that buffy rests. she has a big giant rest. i'll flesh this out later !

marvel verse: verse. it’s open season on all suckheads › the mcu.

verse. the strange and unexplained › xfiles.

[dearyvicious]

a dark mist had clouded lilla's almond eyes as she stared at the man in front of her, a lethiferous irritability setting them afire, though, it was this tiny flicker of disappointment that bothered her the most. she had not looked forward to having this conversation with him, it was as if the whole evening had been for prelude to this moment, shaping it as the climax of the evening - or, perhaps, that was dakota's act. the rounded chin lifted, the affronted petulance moulded in the snatch of the ridge of the delicate nose, he had inherited all the traits of the matriarch, although, the temperament was similar to his grandmother's. " i asked, no, i begged you to be on your best behaviour tonight. " she punctuated in a fervent whisper. " i warned you that my whole family would be at this dinner, i told you my grandmother would be here and she was worse than my mother, " she continued, not holding back her own hurt. " that was important to me, dakota. " a smile emerged from the core of her being, a mask perfectly displayed. " i wished they would accept you, that they could congratulate themselves with what we have, but… all right. forget it. i just… i just was foolish to think you could do that for me. "

even though the gif is m/f, this is open to all genders ! muse is dakota, who's a 27-year-old soccer player.

"what? come on, baby. give me some credit. i've been on my best behavior, as promised! no foul language, kept my shirt on, no loud or unnecessarily contrarian talking points." he used air quotes towards the end of his sentence, and looked up at his partner with puppy dog eyes. "is this about how i spit on the floor ? fine, i'll admit that was disgusting." to be a little fair to himself, dakota was used to being around ten other sweaty, overly aggressive men who had no reason to adhere to any social etiquette. but dakota, unlike the rest of them, was something of a high-profile player. he did a much better job at toning certain aspects of himself down if it didn't match the social dynamic of the room. plus, no sponsor would work with him if he acted like a degenerate. he had better media training, more exposure to different parts of the industry and did a much better job at using charisma to win people over. but still, even he faltered sometimes. "who did i offend? your mom, again? she never liked me... guess i'm not winning her over any time soon."