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[eroticdarling]

𐙚 ˚ ⋆｡˚ ᡣ𐭩 BIRTHDAY BITCH 𐙚 ˚ ⋆｡˚ ᡣ𐭩

[ PAIRING ] Shuji Hanma x PocFem!Reader

[ SYNOPSIS ] After going out to the club for your birthday last night, you have a serious hangover. You were soon met with Shuji who gave you the rundown of what previously occurred including some parts you wish you were sober to experience. To help you, he decides to give you a visual of how your night till morning ended.

[ CONTENT WARNINGS ] Hangover 𖹭 Language 𖹭 Pet Names 𖹭 Birthday Sex 𖹭 Daddy Kink 𖹭 Chocking 𖹭 Teasing 𖹭 Ass Slapping 𖹭 Cock Drunk 𖹭 Post-Sex Cockwarming 𖹭 Aftercare 𖹭

[ WORD COUNT ] 3.9K

[ A/N ] Today is my birthday sooo in celebration I'm writing this and including the man im obsessed wit 😩🤌🏾 Happy birthday to me and everyone else whose birthday is on the 10th!! 🫶🏾🎂

┃3:01 PM » Evening

When you woke up your head was booming in pain. Your body felt very weak and you were dehydrated. It was to the point you didn't feel like getting out of bed.

Hangovers are the fucking worst. You complained in your head as you forced yourself out of bed to use the bathroom even though you could barely walk.

After using the bathroom you head downstairs in a sluggish motion, leaving yourself in nothing except a bra and panties. Once you make it down the last step you shortly turn your head to see Hanma in the kitchen eating cereal. Now suspicious, you question who invited this man into your home to eat your food.

Walking closer to the kitchen you noticed dark red marks from his chest up to his jawline. You also see small scratches on his arms since he had on a V-neck short-sleeved shirt. At this moment a plethora of questions started running through your head.

"I see you're up now darling." He acknowledged your presence and smirked causing you to mug him.

You silently sat down at the bar counter, giving up on the fact that Hanma was in the comfort of your home. At this point whatever happened, it happened, and you soon stopped caring. Noticing your miserable expression he decided to continue talking.

"You look like shit but that's what you get for getting wasted last night." He commented on your messy hair, fucked up makeup, and a few of your nails that had popped off.

"Nd we gon do it again." You say in an excited groggy tone attempting to stick out your tongue.

Even though you had a bad hangover, that wasn't going to stop you from being yourself, "And that's the same attitude that caused you to be like this." He looked you up and down before proceeding to eat his frosted flakes.

"I mean, would you like to fill me in on what happened at least?" You asked curious about the events that occurred.

"Let's see... As soon as you entered the club you started dancing and drinking. You and the girls had a dance battle with random girls. After you won you drank some more to celebrate. You, Smiley, and Angry jumped a guy who wouldn't take no for an answer when he wanted to hook up. More drinking. The same guy you beat up girlfriend came to confront you and you fought her. I decided to talk to you which was the best time of my life. I let you drive the boat or whatever you girls were saying after everyone sang Happy Birthday to you. You got all touchy with me at the end so I drove you home and while I was driving you gave me head. Not to mention how dominant and cocky you were acting until we got here and I had to put you in your place." He briefly explained what happened last night.

Hearing this your mouth widened with shock, wishing you were sober enough to experience that last part. But for the most part, it wasn't surprising you showed your ass last night. In everyone's words, you are the life of any party.

"Is that why you have those marks all over you?" You wondered receiving a chuckle from the very tall man, "Sweetheart this isn't even half of it."

You were about to say something until he turned around to lift his shirt, revealing a back full of thin, red lines. They were scratch marks made by your nails. And they still seemed fresh, indicating this must've happened in the morning.

"Oh my fucking—I wish I was sober." You whined, prolonging the end of your sentence.

If you could do something like that then it meant the sex was super good.

Once you're done talking you suddenly feel the same dehydration from when you woke up creep back up on you. Getting up from the chair, you go inside the kitchen to get some water to quench this thirst.

Hanma put his shirt down, watching you walk past him with a brow at your secret confession, "Which part?" He asked as you opened the refrigerator, "Which part do you think I'm talking about?" You deliberately bent over at an undeniably attractive angle to grab the cold water bottle from the bottom of the fridge.

You suddenly felt a presence behind you pressing against your ass while hands grabbed your sides. "I dunno but if you're thinking what I'm thinking then I'll gladly give you a visual of that last part." His voice got seemingly deeper, lacing pure lust into his words.

You instantly start cheesing by hearing this, feeling your face heat up by how hard he is. You shortly stop to keep your composure stable before standing up straight to close the refrigerator, making Hanma move back.

"At least gimme a minute 'cause y'know I'm still going through my hangover." You open the water bottle to guzzle down almost all of it, now facing his way.

"I'll make it real quick and besides I know you wouldn't wanna leave me hanging." He tried to convince you but you weren't going for it, "That's the problem, I don't wanna make it quick, lil Daddy." You stared up at him giving away your signature 'fuck me' eyes.

Your statement made him suggestively cock his head to the side with his long golden drop earring following his moment, "Lil? This morning I could've sworn you were begging me to stop 'cause it was too much?"

You choked on your water a little, thinking your ears were deceiving you. Attempting to give out a good comeback you were cut off by Hanma, "I guess I'll have to put you in your place again." He grabbed your water bottle to put it away before picking you up by your legs and throwing you over his shoulder.

"I—Shu—Hanma!" You stuttered at his name, unable to process what was going on.

"It's okay to call me Shuji darling but I do prefer daddy." You could practically sense the grin on his face as he went upstairs to your bedroom.

┃3:42 PM » Evening

Inside your room, he tossed you on the bed allowing it to catch your fall, "Damn do you gotta be so rough?" You sat up to ask, observing how aggressive he was with you.

"Blame it on that smart mouth of yours." He leaned over to lift your chin with his fingers, "Now sit back and spread yourself so I can see your pretty pussy again."

When he released his fingers from your chin, you did what he said. Laying back you spread your legs wide, giving him a crystal clear view of the wet spot in the middle of your panties. His violet eyes narrowed as he studied your curvy figure intending to cure his craving for you.

"You're this wet already? I'm wondering what you were thinking about to get you like this." Shuji's voice was getting alluring as your brown eyes lowered to see his hardened dick through his grey sweatpants.

"Eyes up here darling." He broke you out of your trance, witnessing him taking off his shirt and putting his lean muscular physique on display.

"Damn..." You say under your breath, thinking about riding his abs until your juices are on them.

"Mmm? What was that?" He questioned in a teasing manner, already hearing what you said yet wanted you to repeat it, "I'm just sayin' you look good." You look to the side.

"What a real ego booster." He joked causing you to roll your eyes, "Don't get your hopes too high."

"I already did when you let me fuck for the first time." He chuckled, pulling his pants off to get in between your thighs.

He then slipped off your panties while his face was inches away from yours as you waited for him to make the first move. The touch of cold air hitting your wetness made you feel the small electric shocks going through your body.

"Please eat me out, Daddy." You finally pleaded, seeing a smirk plastered on his face as if he was waiting for the words.

"You look so fuckin' pretty when you beg." He gave you a quick kiss before diving face-first into your cunt.

His tongue was subtly playing with your sensitive bundle of nerves as you gripped his blonde-streaked hair that was relaxed and tousled. His pleasant attacks on your clit send waves down your spine while moans escaped your lips.

Somehow Shuji instantly understood your body to the T although y'all only fucked once. It seemed too good to be true by the way he had you under his thumb in a matter of seconds. His touch, his body language, and the way he always allowed his eyes to do the talking—it was all too good.

He then moved lower to the hole that was practically begging for attention. Not needing to coat his fingers with saliva since you were already dripping, he slowly sank the two middle and ring fingers inside of you.

This action caused you to moan a bit louder at the feeling of being filled. He made you feel like a virgin again by how he worked with your body. You assumed these were the same sensations you were met with when you were intoxicated.

Pumping his fingers in you at a semi-fast pace, he observed how successfully he satisfied you just by plunging his fingers deep into your cunt. His purple eyes only focused on your lustful expressions as if you had a hunger for more of him.

"You're still the same needy girl like earlier." He commented, watching how your hips willingly grind on his fingers for more friction.

"Lemme help you out, Dollface." His thumb circles your bud adding on to his pumps.

Your thighs were wider to the point that they attempted to touch the bed. The extra friction you were receiving had created a knot in your lower abdomen that desperately wanted to come undone.

"I needa cum, Daddy!" You warned seeing Shuji bite his lower lip into a smirk.

"Go ahead and cum on my fingers." His voice goes into a whisper, permitting you to release on him.

Dipping his head back down, his mouth switches with his thumb, sucking on your clit to guide you to your release. You gripped his hair tighter, unaware of it as your eyes rolled back. You could feel the tears prick the corners of your eyes, getting closer to your orgasm.

You were at the peak of your limit, feeling your body contract as the knot from before become undone, cumming hard on the man's fingers. From the way his attention never shifted away from you, you could easily tell he was enjoying this more than he should've.

Shuji took his fingers out, putting them directly into his mouth, "You taste even sweeter than before." He complimented licking his fingers clean.

"Ass up face down, Darling. I don't want you to add more bruises you already have." He ordered making you shakily sit up to do his request.

To him, this was the perfect view, loving how the position gave him the luxury to observe your pussy swallowing him up. You then hear the faint sound of him taking off his boxers, feeling his bony hands abruptly pull you closer to him.

You couldn't help but look back to stare at his uncovered length. It seemed to be a good seven to eight inches long while the head was a blushing pink, dripping with precum. His pubic hair was neatly trimmed and his balls looked heavy. You knew dicks wasn't supposed to look pretty but he was an exception at the thought.

The view was something you couldn't take your eyes off, "Since you wanted to be a brat, you don't have a say so on anything I do. Got it?" He says, forcing you out of another daze you were in.

"Mhm," You replied, biting down on your lower lip.

His hands make their way beside you as he's now towering over you with his dick inches away from your pussy. "I don't think you understand." He gave your ass a quick slap receiving a yelp in response, "Use your words, Doll."

"Yes, Daddy I understand." You whimpered as your body felt hotter from the anticipation.

"That's a good girl." Shuji grabbed the base of his cock to align it with your aching cunt before sliding it in.

You both gasped at how good each other felt as he started moving, feeling how warm your gummy walls felt. Instead of allowing you to adjust to his size, he started moving at a fast pace. His 'punishment' hand wrapped around your neck, pulling you upwards to where your back presses against his chest as he sloppily kisses you. Swallowing all your muffled moans every time he brushed your G-spot, his hips made your body rock while your breasts bounced.

Hanma soon broke the kiss to make his way to your neck, sucking on it with his 'sin' hand holding onto my waist. His mouth unattached itself from your skin, leaving noticeable, purplish red marks behind in the process. He then trailed these marks down over your shoulders as if doing this was payback for what you did.

"S-Shuji! Fuck!—Ahh—Feel s' good." Your ass jiggled every time it hit his pelvis, calling out his name from this euphoria he was giving you.

You then feel Shuji push your back into the bed in your original position. By doing this your face was buried in the pillows giving him the pleasure to go faster. From this sensation, you unwillingly grip the thick blanket, almost losing your train of thought in the midst of it.

"Wanna know how I put you in your place the last time?" He abruptly asked as tears ran from the corners of your eyes to the pillowcase, "Y-Yes, Daddy!" You moaned in agreement.

Shuji put his hand back around your nape to give it a tight squeeze, pushing your head further into the soft white headrest. You suddenly feel a hard slap come across your ass, receiving another wince. The pain and pleasure mixed with your cries as he kept the cycle going.

"Since you're sober maybe this will make you remember to stop smart mouthing me." He said using his free hand to keep you in a perfect arch deepening his movements.

Your eyes rolled back once more with my mouth hung open. You started to writhe under him because of how overstimulated you were. This was too much ecstasy, you could handle putting you in an incoherent state.

You looked like a hot mess under him, your tears alongside your drool stained the pillow and your body sweat had you glistening. He showed you how much he enjoyed making a mess out of you for the second time. To him, putting you in your place was like a reward.

"S-Shuji! S-Slow down, please! It's too much!" You cried out about how excessive his sex drive was.

"Nuh uh, remember what I said? This is your punishment." He retorts, not slowing down the pace.

The sounds of his balls slapping against your cunt mixed with your loud sweet moans fill the air. You could feel deep strokes getting deeper by the second. However, now you really couldn't take it anymore.

You subconsciously place your hand on his abs in an attempt to stop him, "Slow down Daddy!" You managed to moan out in between these blissful senses.

"Don't do that now." He says, slapping you on the ass with his punishment hand, "Your pussy is sucking me up so well. I know you can handle it." He adds.

You could practically feel the way his cock tried to reach your belly as he had you in this position. You soon felt that knot tie up again from earlier, "Daddy I need to cum again!" You announced.

"Cum as many times as you need to cause we ain't stopping until I do." He tells you.

The hand that was slapping your ass slithered under me, circling your clit. Not even a full minute had passed before you were clenching down on Shuji's cock, leaving a second cloudy ring around the base. Seeing how you creamed around him while spreading your cheeks to get a better view sent him spiraling.

You drove him to the point he wanted to see you cream on him over and over until both of your cum was seeping out of your abused hole. "S-Shit! You know how to make a guy cum fast!" He groaned, trying to keep his head straight.

You were also an organic creamer, too, so he was wrapped around your fingers. This mix of sensual emotions was starting to be too much for him yet unlike you he knew how to hold his own.

All of a sudden, he decreases his tempo to give you slow and deep strokes that drive you insane, "What's my name, baby?" He asked, gripping and squeezing your ass.

"D-daddy!" You replied, receiving a hand smack down your ass.

"I can't hear you. Say it again for me."

"Daddy!" You say louder.

"Mhm, and are you gonna stop getting smart with me?" He asked, waiting for your answer.

"Yes! I'm gonna stop." You satisfy him to the point he's holding back the urge to cum inside you.

You prepare for your orgasm for the third or fourth time tonight as you feel yourself tightening up again. Already feeling your climax coming, you cream over his dick again, sending him over the edge. You could hear his quiet whimpers as his head rested on your neck to find his orgasm next.

The pace he was going was rougher than usual yet you still loved it, "D-damn Doll you're p-pushing me over the edge." He whispers in your ear.

Hearing the sounds he made, gave you the decision to move against his dick, allowing you both to move in sync. This made his cock sensitive by the second, feeling him twitch inside you.

"I'm g-gonna cum!" He stumbled over his words getting closer and closer to his climax.

"Cum in me daddy! Please fill me up!" You incoherently begged, feeling his dick twitch again.

Observing how cock drunk you were, pushed him further in addition to feeling your walls squeeze him. A few more deep strokes and you quickly came around him. He then pulled you closer to him before shooting a load of thick sticky ropes inside you. He held this position for a few minutes as your chest heaved under him.

You could feel his dick soften before he fully pulled out causing the mixture to seep out of you, "You're such a mess, but I like it." He commented as you lowered your ass to collapse on the bed.

"Now I see why I was weak in the knees earlier." You mumbled, earning a chuckle from the man behind you.

┃10:40 PM » Night

After you both freshened up, he decided to continue to stick around just to give you aftercare. It was still your birthday and for the rest of the day, you just wanted to chill and have fun with Hanma. When you told him about this he had a few ideas in mind that you both are starting to do now.

"I got the PlayStation and stuff so what game do you wanna play?" Shuji came back into your room with the gaming console you left in the living room the other day.

"You tryna catch his work in Modern Warfare?" You asked receiving a grin in response, "You think you can beat me?" He questioned as he searched for the disc before inserting it inside the PS4.

"Think? I know I can." Your arrogance makes him smile, knowing he could beat you but what he doesn't know is that you've had a lot of practice.

You move to the bottom of the bed to join Hanma who's also sitting there waiting for the game to load up. It only takes a few seconds, allowing him to go inside the game to put it on 1v1 split screen mode. He then passes you the second controller to go against him.

"Let the best player win." You heard Shuji say nodding your head in agreement, "Right."

Y'all were playing the game for a good hour straight. You were winning since Hanma went easy on you but that soon ended cause whenever you won you'd trash-talk him. To humble you, he stopped going easy which reversed the roles and he started saying slick things in return.

After you quit playing for being a 'sore loser' in Shuji's words, you both played other games that required teamwork. Sometimes Shuji wouldn't go through with the tasks and do his own thing ignoring what you'd say causing you to leave him behind. Doing this, he'd beg for you to come back and say he was just kidding.

Once the PlayStation was getting boring, you both decided to order take-out along with snacks. Shuji went downstairs to get the food including snacks and you both searched for a movie on the console.

"Ooh let's watch that!" You pointed at a comedy movie that seemed interesting.

"Nah, I've already watched it. It was so boring I almost cried." Shuji retorts continuing to move the controller buttons.

"Hold on, you just passed Coraline! We could've watched that." You furrowed your eyebrows at his lack of taste in movies.

"I ain't watching no damn Coraline. Your taste in movies is ass." He insulted you in search of something else.

"Tuh, I know you ain't talking about my taste when you act like you don't have taste buds." You instantly clapped back in annoyance.

"Watch your attitude unless you want me to fuck it outta you again." He warned.

You stayed quiet to be on the safe side until he started teasing you for it, "Oh so that's how I need to talk to get you under control?" He grinned.

"Shut up and choose a move already." You uttered under your breath which doesn't go unheard by the guy beside you, "What was that, Darling?"

"Nothin'." You simply answer.

"That's what I thought." He said in a slick tone.

Shuji finally found a movie after what felt like years later. It was an action movie about a security guard trying to convince a veterinarian cop that he was worthy of his sister. Two of your favorite celebrities played as the main characters and nevertheless, it was hilarious. This made you take back what you said about Hanma's taste in movies mentally.

As you both enjoyed the movie you were sitting up eating Chinese food while Shuji leaned back on the headboard to enjoy his food. The night went on and you'd say you went through another good movie until you suddenly felt the cover move. Looking back, you see Shuji making himself comfortable by getting under the soft blanket to go to sleep.

Moving over to give him more space you continued to finish the movie while laying flat on the bed. You couldn't help but reminisce on these last ten days together with your friends. And you'd be lying if you didn't enjoy having birthday sex from the guy you're already crushing on. To you, these days were the best ones, which made you consider doing something like this again next year but a little differently.

[chevvy-yates]

How about beloved Ryder!

Oh, I'm always ready to talk about my black sheep of the family <3 Since I saw no number, I'll just do all of them, so this is probably going to be super long. I'll set a cut somewhere.

01. Full name:

Ryder's full name is Gilbert von Scharfenberg. He hates his real name for a good reason: his family – wealthy pure German Corpo blood. Basically no one knows that he's a Scharfenberg either – except for Vijay, because he was the one who deleted all of Ryder's data soon after he left his old life behind. So, basically if you scan him it would only show 'Ryder' and nothing else (I still write it out here on tblr completely bc it sounds so damn good <3). As soon as the family moved to the NUSA, Ry started calling himself 'Ryder' using it as his nickname from now on. It comes from the German surname 'Reiter' (rider, horseman), which was his first love's surname (who sadly died, getting shot by a Cyberpsycho during a rave in a club in Berlin).

02. Best friend:

Ryder's bestie is Vijay Steyr. They know each other since 2071. Vijay is the guy who helped Ryder out of his old life (mentioned above). They didn't met in person back then but their paths crossed a while later again: they ran into each other at a Depeche Mode party, talked, became buddies, then also lovers shortly after. The relationship lasted about a year and they parted for reasons everyone understood and accepted. Ryder rarely saw V the following year, because he needed a bit time and was busy with his own life/job, but Vijay eventually began to contact him again in 2074 when he got into buisness with Jackie doing merc jobs. They needed someone on the front and Ryder was the best guy Vijay could think of since he has mantis blades and a good know how about Militech and Corpo things as well. After Jackie died on a secret job neither V nor Ry knew about, the bond between the two got stronger again and today (2077/78) they are best friends. If you listen to their talking you could also say they sound like an old married couple. Ryder would protect V with his own life and it's vice versa. Vijay was there for him in his worst times, helped him to settle into his new 'street kid' life and most of all: pep talked Ry all the time tearing that wall down he had built up for years. Vijay is defnitely the reason why Ryder feels content with himself and smiles so often now.

03. Sexuality:

Ryder is openly gay. He doesn't look a lot like one in the first place, but he is. He's always been gay because he never had any sexual interest in women since he can think. Only the opposite gender doesn't seem to notice and he had to refuse a lot of times giving him a hard time to express it in words. He also feels kinda awkward when a woman shows a bit more affection towards him than the usual (he's better with friends after a while), so forgive him for behaving like a douchebag. Sadly he couldn't live out his sexuality for many years because of his family. But since he got away he was finally free to do what he wanted. He's no go-getter though. It's the contrary – he's too shy to make the first move. And that's probably why he's been single a long while as well after the relationship with V (who's the go-getter ofc).

04. Favorite color:

Ryder loves black. He knows there are people who don't accept black as a color. For that phrase he's got another answer: purple and green. Besides black, it's these colors he loves (he just won't wear anything purple nor green). Purple like amethysts he collects and (dark) green like the mysterious German forests he misses a lot.

The rest is under the cut for those who are interested in reading more about him. Beware, it really has gotten long!

05. Relationship status:

Ryder is off the single market. After I created him back in Sep 2022, I already had Vijay flirting with @nervouswizardcycle's Arki (<3), so my original idea of V and Ry together couldn't last and was made into a backstory part instead since I still like that ship that formed in my head when Ryder was only an idea. However, I couldn't imagine him with any official npc and looking for some possible other oc over here didn't bring me much further, and also with no one making a real move either (I waited for it like Ryder would do), I decided just a few weeks back that my boy shouldn't be lonely for so long. It made me sad having to look at him knowing his profile still said 'single', so I sat down and created another oc for him: So, yes! His love interest is Thyjs De Wit.

06. Ideal mate:

Ryder's ideal mate is @nervouswizardcycle's Arki. Arki turns out to be his best gay buddy. There's just ideas existing right now but I'm loving it! The two literally don't like each other at first — well it's more Ryder who has a grudge against Arki, but he will find out soon enough that the two are much alike in many things I don't wanna name now bc it could be possible spoilers for some future fanfiction. However, Arki will be a good mate for Ryder: giving tips in training for battle, trying to control his anger, but also the guy to go shopping with (bc Arki is fashionista, baby!). And the two may have many evenings where they get drunk, laughing over stupid anti-jokes (where V just shakes his head and Thyjs also doesn't find it laughable) and watching a shit ton of anime if they don't do stupid stuff in the city. They are both Scorpios and this is a certain vibe you can't turn off easily once they come together.

07. Turn-ons:

Bottom lip biting. It seriously turns Ryder on when you go from casual busses to biting down onto his bottom lip. He sees that as an invitation to get more passionated. Hard lollipops. The meaty kind. He likes a man's best piece a lot. Especially when they have a beautiful shape and tint. Loud, hard rave beats. Eespecially when it has some naughty lyrics it kind of turns him on. If the right person is with him, this may be a chance for making out on the dancefloor, vanishing into a darkroom or just go somewhere else to get dirty.

08. Favorite food:

Pistachio ice cream. In generall he loves pistachios: salted or not, in combination with chocolate, ice cream – everything pistachio – give it to him. You'll make him be a happy pistachio.

09. Crushes:

Thjys De Wit. He's going to crush on him the first time he meets that Dutch pale soldier boy — Thyjs literally zapped him. There's a lot of pining from Ryder's side. Vijay, however will notice and tries to encourage him to make the first move since Thyjs is not a go-getter either (and has to cope with his own feelings for Ry as well at first). It's gonna be interesting. Don't wanna tell too much, though.

10. Favorite music:

Ryder is a true Raver. <3 He lives for hard and dark techno beats. There's nothing better than that ever enduring repeating bass under his feat. It keeps him going, helps him to vent off his never ending anger for a while, keeps the beast within at bay, while he moves to those amazing loud eletronic beats combined with unreal but also beautiful accompaning melodies. Ryder also listens to Industrial and New (German) Wave.

11. Biggest fear:

His biggest is facing his superior again. He fears nothing more than is father: Wilhelm von Scharfenberg — now CEO of Militech HQ in Night City. There is another one: He's afraid of losing control over the beast within him completely, hurting those close to him. He doesn't know where it came from, it was there one day, accompanying him ever since. It lusts for blood mostly so the chance it takes over in a heavy fight during a job is pretty high. Once he's in a killstreak for too long, he's unable to stop and literally goes berserk. Therfore he has asked his best friend Vijay to take control and stop him if the situation gets tricky. He's got a special mod installed that allows Vijay to hack into Ryder's Berserk Operating System making him able to reset it since the beast seems to feed heavily from this system. Ryder's Mantis Blades will receive an order to retract and he gets unconscious for a short amount of time to make sure he's gonna be stopped. If that case happens and the situation is tricky, someone must be right there to protect Ryder for that time since he will be unable to defend himself. Before every job V double checks the mod and renews the codes to make sure everything works. Ryder isn't exactly proud to always leave a mess of blood puddles, organs and dead bodies behind. It scares him as well since it has gotten worser over time. It's his greatest wish that the beast within vanishes one day the same way like it showed up.

12. Biggest fantasy:

To fly to the moon. Ryder loves space and the universe since he was a small boy. He dreamed to be a space pilot one day, flying people or cargo to the moon. He would love to walk on it as well, feel the lack of gravitiy when he jumps. The moon is very fascinating to him. He's amazed by the surface, all the pattern the craters made, the grey tones. And he very much would love to see how earth looks seen from up there. If you suspected something sexual instead: To have hot, dirty, greasy sex in a tank. Specifially in a retro WWII model.

13. Bad habits:

Ryder has a obsessive-compulsive disorder. He sees himself forced to align everything neatly and symmetrically. He will do it all the time: at home, during shopping, sitting at the table in the Afterlife, aligning billard balls in the Coyjote Cojo, staple Vijay's vinyls in his apartment (he even tidies up V's apartment at times bc Vijay is a bit chaotic). His own apartment is clean and simple, every bottle in the shelf faces with the ettiket, books are placed ordely and even pillows on his bed sit how they should and so on. Besides that Ry is still super fidgety. He can't sit still. It mainly has to do with background music everywhere, so he's bobbing e.g. his leg all the time. But he also constantly needs to play around with something in his hands. He can't sit still longer than five minutes and then repositions. The only times he's not fidgety is when he's sleepy or in fact sleeping. Once he falls asleep he likely won't turn around much and stay in the position he feell asleep in.

14. Biggest regret:

The missed oportunity to run away earlier. His decicion to leave his Corpo life happend when he was already 21. If he had left earlier, he would probably live in Italy now together with Tommy Reiter, his first love, who would probably still be alive as well. Tommy wanted to go away with him, but Ryder was too scared to do it back then, still being a teen.

15. Best kept secrets:

That he's Corpo – a von Scharfenberg. As already mentioned, only Vijay knows about that. Ryder did literally everything for not looking like a Corpo anymore: changed visually completely with adding cyberware, new eyes, getting tattoos including scarifications (to cover own scars), changed his hairstlye, grew a messy beard, trained like a mad-man to gain some muscles for not having to watch the thin useless Corpo boy in the mirror he once was. Starting the life of a so called street kid. His Corpo attitude sadly comes trough at times (and can be extremely helpful for some missions as well). In some cases he sees himself on the high horse thinking he's better than anyone else (but Vijay reminds him of that).

16. Last thought:

Maybe 'Bitte ein Bit'? Idk man, but I have the feeling that Ryder's last thought ever will definitely have something to do with beer.

17. Worst romantic experience:

When he decided to try out bottoming for once in his life. It was a good experience at first but it ended with something unexpected: receiving an exceptionally good fuck that caused him to feel like a supernova seeing stars all over brought some negative connotaion with it: he entirely lost control over his body making him have his mantis blades spring out ready for action. Nobody died though, but it was Vijay who topped him and V has a huge trauma concerning blades … So once both finally relized what actually happened, Vijay got off and fell into a shock he was unable to explain to him. And Ryder ofc was shocked by the thought that he can lose control that hard by just getting railed (the beast within was just evolving and a minor problem btw). The situation could have turned out much worse that night. And this situation is also the cause for their break-up in the end, with both really feeling bad about it: Vijay because he wasn't able to tell him why and Ryder for losing control that hard in such a situation. Since then Ryder never bottomed again, because he can't allow himself to let it happen again.

18. Biggest insecurity:

Ryder has had a lot of insecurities — still has. His biggest besides him not being able to live up to his father's Corpo ideals is probably that he (still) feels he is/was not good enough for anything or anybody. This situation started early in his childhood and reached the worst high as soon as he had to start working at Militech unable to do anything right (he hated this work and it wasn't what he wanted to do), nonetheless he tried hard to make his superior satisfied, but it was quite the contrary in the end. He was treated by his family like ballast they had to carry through, got bullied by co-workers and therefore fell into a huge hole of depression. It took him a long time (and quiet a lot of Vijay's patience) to accept that he's good enough in what he does. Vijay told Ryder more than once, that he is valued, that he is thankfull for Ry's support, and that people appreciate him and that he is a good person. He still does and it is impotant to reward Ryder constantly with nice and cheering words otherwise he's prone to worry about it again. Ryder still has a lot of trust issues towards new people to this day.

19. Weapon of choice:

answered here.

20. Role Model:

Vijay of course. Ryder looks up a lot to his best friend. He wishes he could be more like him. Capable of leading, always having an answer to everything, understand the realm of netrunning, his entire positive character and warm personality, looking forward and not back, the ability to stay friendly towards literally everyone (Vijay is good in hiding his disgust for someone if he want's to, but most of the time he lets people know when he doesn't like them).

[primusfortuna]

Mel ✦ Beginning of a Bond (06)

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“The Uncut Gem of Adversity”

Some time after the gem polishing began... Mel had waged a fierce battle with the stone, not once taking a break.

Mel: Dammit...! This stupid drab gem... Ah, I know! Next I'll try carving it after chilling it for a while.

Emma: You're going to chill the gem?

Mel: Yup. I hate to admit it, but I can't attack head-on, so I've got no choice but to exhaust my strategies.

In the end, however, that strategy did not work.

Mel: ...I'm not the type to back down that easily. When pushing doesn't work, try pulling instead―isn't that right?

Emma: What are you going to try next?

Mel: Heh! Obviously there's only one answer.

Mel: ――Burning it at the stake!!

As Mel was cheerfully holding the gem over an open flame, Rose happened to walk by.

Merryrose: Woah, what are you doing?

Mel: Exactly what it looks like? Or do you think I'm roasting a pig?

Merryrose: Ha, since when do fairies eat gems? Kinda weird of you.

Mel: Hah? Who said I'm gonna eat it!?

Once again, the uncut gem remained unchanged in the end.

Emma: (I wonder where Mel went this time.)

Mel: I'll throw in some of this, some of that... hehe... hehehe...!

Emma: (Ah, there he is.)

Emma: (Wait, he's dipping the gem in some kind of suspicious liquid...!?)

Canaan: Oh, Mel. I'm going to go have some snacks. Wanna come with?

Mel: Ab-so-lute-ly not! I'm in the middle of something. Could've figured that out if you used your eyes.

Canaan: Sigh. Volks really has you in the palm of his hand, huh?

His murmurs never reached Mel's ears. Instead, Mel sent a wicked grin towards the gem, which was now soaked in that suspicious liquid.

Mel: Hehe...! This time... this time, I'm gonna get to the bottom of this...!

Afterwards... I left Mel so I could take care of my duties, then met with Volks-san ahead of him.

Volks: How is Mel doing?

Emma: He's fighting with that gem as if it wronged his parents...

Volks: Heh, I see.

(Mel enters)

Mel: Hah... hah...

Emma: Mel, are you okay!?

Volks: I see you're having quite a struggle. Why don't you lift your physical form and give yourself a short break?

Mel: ...I'm fine. Just so you know, I'm not giving up even for a second. I've still got a hundred more things I haven't tried yet.

Volks: Is that so? Hats off to your efforts and perseverance.

Mel: Hah? What, were you being sarcastic 'cause I can't make a single chip?

Volks: No, that was genuine praise.

Volks: I believe that tenacity of yours is a quality on par with the finest of artisans.

Mel: ......O-Oh yeah?

Mel: Well? I mean, so what? Not like I'm an artisan or anything.

Emma: (Despite what he says, he's totally oozing with happiness...)

Mel: Anyway, there's something I wanted to make sure of. You didn't give me an unchippable gem for this competition, right?

Volks: Of course not.

Mel: Really? 'Cause, like, this gem is so hard—

Volks: Mel, what does beauty mean to you?

Volks: What would you consider the most beautiful jewel?

Mel: Hah? What's with you and randomly asking things that don't make sense?

Volks: I am asking because it's an important matter.

Volks: What does your idea of the ideal jewel look like? Could you try giving it a little thought?

Mel: Yeah, yeah. You're just saying all that to get my opinion, right?

Volks: Perceive it that way if you wish.

Mel: ......

Mel: Then...

Mel: I want to witness perfect beauty, even if it's just once.

Mel: A radiance so perfect, you can't find a single thing to complain about. If there exists a jewel that has that—

Mel: I... want to see it with my own eyes.

Mel's voice is barely above a whisper. At that moment...

(Drop!)

Emma: Huh? The thing that fell just now—

Volks: Oh my. It seems that the excess of its surface has chipped off.

Mel: Y-You're right! But why now...?

Volks: Perhaps this raw gem is responding to your wish to witness a perfect radiance.

Mel: ......

Mel: I don't like that I'm saying this now, but... looks like it's not impossible to polish after all.

Mel: See that, Volks! I'm totally going to win this competition!

Volks: I'm looking forward to it.

Encouraged by the change that the gem underwent, Mel began polishing it with even more passion.

As to not disturb his concentration, I started talking to Volks-san with a lowered voice.

Emma: ...Volks-san. What happened with his gem just now?

Volks: You see, that uncut gem has the unique characteristic of shining in accordance with the wishes of the one who polishes it.

Emma: ! So... The wish Mel made just now reached the gem?

Volks: Yes. It's a tricky gemstone that even the best jewelers struggle with...

Volks: But just as I had hoped, he possesses a great power.

From beside us, Mel wore a serious look on his face as he excitedly polished the gem.

And it shone as radiantly as any jewel.

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[still-a-morosexual-help]

Okay so. I’ve been playing OB! And I just got to the part where they discover Mc is the descendant of Human Lilith

Now my question is, does this counts as (The Mc and 7 bros) if they are relatives? Like a long line of lost nephews? Is this a Zeus situation where all that logic goes out the window?

After that, I don’t see them as datable anymore.

I see them at the end of the story visiting Mc’s house and relatives in a family gathering or something. Like their son/daughter just went to Hell and came back with 7 more uncles, the parents since then just invites the guys over for celebrations and dinners!

I went with the idea of a datable sim, came out with found family. Fuck! I love it?

Boom! So I'm actually officially??? qualified to answer this question! I was raised Buddhist & was actually good enough at the whole theory/concept behind it that I got the batch prize for religion multiple times/years (weird thing to brag about but my list of things I can brag about is v small so lemme have this one damnit). And reincarnation is a big thing in Buddhism so *jazz hands* yknow

I'm gonna answer this in 2 parts & add a bonus part for a "what if" AU;

1. Is MC Actually Related to Lilith the Angel aka The Brothers' Sister Lilith?

The Answer: No.

• Lilith died after the war. It's very specifically said that Diavolo reincarnated her as a human.

• Reincarnation, simplified, means that after a sentient being dies their soul is born again in the body of a whole new sentient being.

• Reincarnation allows a soul to live again as a whole new person with 0 ties to their previous life (unless the soul is born again within the same family). They may retain a couple memories from their previous life for their first 3-4 years of life* but that fades away eventually. They may hold on to a few characteristics but lots of unrelated people have the same characteristics so it's not a Big Deal.

* not sure how much I believe in reincarnation because it seems fantastical & a lot of this could just be childrens' brains being weird, imaginative and half formed but here's a few fun anecdotes of kids I knew talking about their "past lives"

01. My brother at age 3? would constantly tell us he was just staying with us till his real mother came to pick him up.

02. My cousin, an only child, would constantly tell his mother his older sister wanted him to change the lightbulb

03. There's one about my school friend (who currently may or may not hate me)'s little sister that I can't say because I'm lowkey scared she's got a tumblr account and on the 0.01% chance she sees this I might actually die so :D

04. I, till 4, apparently had a whole series of things I'd say about London of all places (I also constantly told one of my aunts not to sit in certain places cos there were ghosts already sitting there so I had a weird imagination so this should be taken with a boatload of salt); 1. Used to point at a very specific building and insist there was a similar one in London. 2. Talked about my dog Hiskie & how my parents? hid the both of us in the basement? when the police? were banging at our door - obviously we didn't have a dog or basement

• Lots of people see it as and call it "Rebirth" but I personally don't see it as that. You, the person you are & all that makes you up, dies. There's no second chance.* It's a way for your soul to live on but not you the person. Your soul gets to live on as a whole new person. You couldn't point at two strangers on the road and say "they're the same person" the same way you can't point at the person you were and the person your soul will become and say "they're the same person"

* In game, the brothers also see it as "rebirth" and as a second chance. They see it as Lilith surviving and living past the war. Which makes sense because;

• Rebirth/Reincarnation is not a phenomenon than occurs naturally in OM!. In OM!, canonically as seen in S2, peoples' souls are represented as candles that burn out. Once the candle burns out that's the end. Their soul is gone for good. Diavolo specifically uses his powers to stop this from happening to Lilith and to give her soul a second chance even if Lilith the person doesn't really get one. In a world where it's a known fact that once a person dies their soul is gone for good, finding out that your loved one, who died tragically and at a young age, 's soul got to live another life that was long and happy would be amazing. It would seem like that person got a second chance for real.

• A dog could die and the soul could be reincarnated as a human, who lives their life and gets married etc etc. This person is a human, not a dog in a human's body. (Though according to Buddhism you need to collect a lot of good karma to be born as a human & if you're a shithead your bad karma gets you demoted to an animal when you die* <- personally don't believe in this at all for a lot of reasons but mainly I know for a fact that there are animals living better & more luxurious lives than me so what is this bs?)

* 01. My grandma constantly told 5 yr old me that if I continued to blow spit bubbles I'd be reincarnated as a slug (this only made me blow more out of spite)

02. There's a saying? that you can tell someone who's pissing you off, which translated, basically means " I hope you get born as a dog in a shitty family" which I think is the funniest way you can tell someone to fuck off

TLDR;

* "human Lilith" probably looked nothing like Angel! Lilith, probably had a different name, canonically only remembered her life as Angel! Lilith when she died & her soul returned to its original state (she did have the soul of an angel though which probably affected her human body and which lead to MC's latent magic powers/why MC canonically doesn't seem to be 100% human/why MC's own soul is so shiny even though they're kind of an ass)

*MC is not related to the brothers' sister Lilith, so it ain't incest, if it were that means according to Buddhism everyone is always at a constant risk of accidentally participating in incest and beastiality which yeah....I'm not religious but good god would I fight someone who sees it as this

2. Are the Brothers & MC a Family - More Specifically A Found Family?

Answer: Yes.

• MC and the brothers are very much a family- more specifically a found family - something which is explicitly stated in OM! near the end of S2.

• Found families are as important as biological families. Their bonds are as strong, if not more so because they get the option to choose each other.

• But found families are gonna be messy because no one's gonna be actually related to each other & romantic and/or sexual chemistry can crop up. And that's normal.

• Depending on the found family, no one may take on more stereotypical family roles or certain people may rise up to take on those roles (eg: parental roles). With either of these types it's still pretty normal to date each other because they're not your real parents. Hell even normal friend groups have the "Mom Friend", that doesn't mean said friend can't date within their friend group.

• Most found families are friend groups who got closer and started seeing each other as family (it's also a very queer concept because lots of found families are queer people who came together because they couldn't get the love, acceptance & connection, all humans need, from their biological families).

• They're not "family" in the biological-related sense but rather in the "we care about each other above all else. we'll always have each others' backs. we'll call each other when we need help. we may fight but at the end of the day we love each other and will come together again". Again it doesn't mean they can't date within the group.

• In OM! however it gets Extra Messy because it mixes an adopted family and a found family. The brothers are a found family (the oddballs of the Celestial Realm who came together), but they're also an adopted family (adopted by Lucifer who saw them all as his brothers/kids) - the second part of this means they're actually brothers - they grew up together and are no different from biological brothers. None of them are gonna see romantic or sexual prospects in each other (with the exception of Asmo but that's just cause he's the personification of Lust + he always gets shut down by the rest).

• MC on the other hand is NOT part of their adopted family but IS part of their found family. MC's a stranger they met when they were all adults who became friends with them and who came to see the brothers as their (found) family and vice versa. This means MC dating the brothers would be completely normal and again not incestuous which I think is a lot of peoples' worry.

• The best example of a found family, with certain members taking on parental roles, that still has them dating/sleeping with each other within said found family is Community (the tv show which is getting a movie HELLO!!?!?). And this is an issue that community actually addresses in more or less detail;

Fucking watch this clip it's hilarious thank you

BONUS ROUND;

+ 1. What If MC Was Actually Related to Lilith the Angel; Would They Also Be Related to the Brothers?

The Answer: No.

• I've written a handful of human au! fics for the brothers and because of how short the time span in them must be, the whole descendent of a reincarnation thing doesn't work. Meaning I make MC a far off relation to OG! Lilith.

• For the answer to this question to be "No" you need to consider the background of two main points;

01. The Brothers & Lilith being an adopted family

-> Lilith & the brothers are canonically an adopted family. All the angels were created by God? presumably but they're not family/don't see themselves as family - the angels don't seem to practice family in the same way humans & demons do - I'm pretty sure the brothers are the odd ones out. Lucifer is the only one who refers to God as "Father" and Mammon canonically sees Lucifer as his dad. The brothers + Lilith are a family because Lucifer took them in one by one & referred to them as his family.

-> Am I saying being an adopted family makes their connections any less real or familial? No, calm down lemme get to my point.

02. MC's relationship with Lilith in this AU

-> MC (if MC was actually related to og Lilith) is a far off relation by thousands of years (my timeline between The Rebellion & S1 puts it at 5000+ years). Do you know who your blood relatives were 5000 years ago? Would you know who your blood relatives are 5000 years later?

-> To make up for the 5000 year time, in a human au MC would be a relative that's so far removed from your family that no one knows they or their own family branch even exists. It's doing a 23 and Me test & seeing you have some unheard of family line on the other side of the world. You're not gonna call them up and pretend to have some familial relationship with these complete strangers because not only will that be lowkey creepy, there's a high chance you won't even speak the same language.

• To make it easier to understand in our human lifetime perspective: Lilith and the brothers are part of a family where everyone was adopted by Lucifer (with only Satan being his biological son & only Lucifer being "God's" biological son). Lilith passes away and eventually the brothers meet MC who they befriend. Almost a year after they meet MC they accidentally discover that MC is a "so far off there's basically a 5000 year gap between us" relation of Lilith's. There'll be a lot of feelings involved, because Lilith's yknow dead, but after that's all dealt with in the grand scheme of things nothing's really changed. Lilith & the brothers' not being blood related didn't make them any less of a real family BUT Lilith & the brothers' not being blood related combined with how removed of a relative MC & Lilith are from each other means that there's no actual familial connection between MC & the brothers - they're not gonna look at each other and see their new sibling or something similar

Overall;

☆ Yes, MC & the brothers are a found family. It's one of my favourite things about OM! and one of the biggest reasons I stuck with this game for 2 1/2 years now (when a couple months is my usual attention span for games). OM!'s also the only dating sim ik of that pushed off the romance for one whole year (in game time) just so they can establish the found family aspect of it (ik there are lots of really good queer dating sims now - shoutout to The Arcana my love - but OM! is the queer dating sim for me)

☆ No, MC & the brothers aren't actually related and they don't see themselves as being related either

☆ Yes, MC can have romantic/sexual relationships with the brothers, it's nowhere near incest

☆ If you don't see the relationship between MC & the brothers as romantic then that's completely okay! While the events push the romantic aspect the main story lets you reject them and be only friends/family AND there are 7 more LIs available (though they are side characters & only get more screentime starting from S3)

☆ Here's more posts I made about Lilith that are related;

* I had about 3 more answered asks about Lilith's Reincarnation but I can't find them because the tagging system on tumblr is shit and I really need to make a masterlist of all my posts before I lose my mind trying to find a relevant post. Anyway this ask goes the most in depth about all of it so*

Lilith, Her Lover & Reincarnation

Lilith & MC's Story Relevance to One Another

Lilith and Her Other Descendents

☆ Here's me being shameless, in my self promotion, with a Lilith centered fic;

Speaking to Myself

7 brothers seek comfort from the grave of their long lost sister, a human lives and breathes just floors above them

[roadtogracelandx45]

Life In The Fastlane |1| Fast Saga

this has been sitting in my google docs for ages, I just started going over it and editing it. Decided now would be the best time to post it.

masterlist

Life In The Fastlane 

Summary: Sophie O'Conner runs away from Barstow not long after Roman Pearce is arrested by the team of cops that her brother Brian was working with. She ends up in LA and quickly is taken under Mia Torretto’s wing. And into the family 

Rated M for Adult content  and mentions of polyamorous relationships 

01: Prologue

‘He was a hard headed man.” 

 “Ya know you don’t have to go to that hell hole.’ Vince commented from where he was standing in the doorway of Sophie O’Conner’s bedroom watching her get ready for the shift she had at the strip club she had been working at.

 “Relax V, it’s not like I am taking my clothes off or anything.” Sophie returned, he had come in one time when she had to fill in for Janet, one of her friends from the club and he, Leon and Jesse came in. It took all of 30 seconds to realize who was on the stage and for Vince to peel off of his tank top and try to cover her up and remove her from the stage. 

It had been one of the most embarrassing things that had happened to her and that was under the time that Roman Pearce, her older brother Brian’s best friend walked in on her and her high school boyfriend. Her cheeks still burned in embarrassment even now.  “And besides that, when have I done anything wrong?” Sophie was right, in the last 6 months that she had been there, she hadn’t so much as blinked an eye the wrong way at any of them and she had been giving a share of her tips to Mia for the bills. “And I will be done after the set up is done. It's some sort of private event and he is only keeping a few people and Kevin hates me.” 

Vince and Leon who joined them smirked. “You look smug now but this gonna come back and bite us all in the ass.” She said waving her fake ID at them. They had recently told her about their side gig and Dom was working on bringing her in slowly. “Then quit kiddo, we can take care of you.’  “I like to remain self-sufficient, thank you.’  Sophie rolled her eyes, that is the one thing that her drug addicted mother had taught her, be able to take care of herself, and not needing a man to take care of her. It was hard for her to let Dom and the boys take care of her. But she was learning. 

Slowly. 

**

"Oh, come on Soph, there has to be something that you look forward to." Janice Conard said looking at the young blonde that was sitting across from her at the bar. The younger blonder smirked and picked up her vodka and soda and took a sip off of it before looking back at her, "There's not a damn thing that I am looking forward to." "Come on! Everyone has something they are looking forward to. You are young. You have your whole life to look forward to!"

Taking another sip of her drink, Sophie turned the barstool around and stood up, there was nothing in this world that she was looking forward to. She was just shy of 18 years old and didn't think her life had much meaning. "What about finding your brother?" Janice asked, she had to dig deep and chip away at the many layers she had built up around herself to find out that she had an older brother that she hadn't seen in years.

Not since he had joined the police academy.

"I don't think I am ever going to find him. And besides, Rome told me to give up on him." Sophie answered as she went up to the low sitting stage and wrapped her hand around the pole before she spun herself around. 

"Since when do you listen to everything he says?" "Since he is the one that paid for me to get out of Barstow. And he is the one that stopped my stepdad from beating the hell out of me." She returned, "After Brian left, Roman is the only one that gave a damn." "He never reached back out to you?" Janice asked as she stood up and started to wipe off the bar top with a damp towel. Sophie sighed as she looked up at the tinted two-way window that overlooked the floor, their boss and his boss were up in the office and she didn't want them to hear what they were talking about.

They had a strict leave it at the door policy. And they would take it on them if they heard them talking about anything.

"I don't know, to be honest, I left almost 3 months after he did. So, I don't know if he even went back home."

"Why not look for him now?"

Sophie shrugged her shoulders; she really didn't know why she didn't reach back out and get in contact with her older brother. Part of her wanted too but the other part of her wanted to keep the freedom and independence that she had since she left Barstow. Here she was Sophie O'Connor, the girl with no family and no past that would come back and haunt her. In Barstow, she was Brian O'Conner's little sister and she ran with Roman Pearce and his friends.

She was in trouble. Nine times out of ten if Roman and his friends got in trouble, she was right there with them.

She spent many nights in Juvie because of it. In many ways, she was just acting out to get her mother to pay attention to her and to reach out to Brian and have him come home.

That's all she wanted but she wasn't going to admit to that. Not even to Janice who was close enough to be an older sister.

Janice's reply was cut off by a loud banging on the door. "We are closed!" Sophie called as Janice heaved herself off of the stool to get to the door.

"Come back in two hours!" Janice laughed, "You are trouble Sophs. Trouble."

"I know." She grinned as she hopped off the stage and went back over to the bar to grab the bottle of Vodka that they were drinking off of.

"Open the damn door!" A loud voice boomed from outside as they banged on the door again. "This is the LAPD!"

The door that led to the office upstairs flew open and the owners came down pelting down the stairs. "JANICE! Do not open that door!" Roger ordered as he grasped Sophie by the forearm and started pulling her back towards him. "Hey! Roger let go!"

"Shut up!" He ordered as he reached behind him and pulled a gun out of his waistband.

"Hey! Roger man calm down!" Janice said, seeing the shiny gun in his hand.

"Just shut up!" He ordered as there was a loud crack of breaking wood.

Despite herself, Sophie yelped and took a step back only to be pushed back forward by Roger.

"Stay right here." He muttered, digging the barrel of the gun into Sophie's lower back.

"What the hell? What is going on?" Janice asked, holding her hands up as one of the officers went over to her, "Soph? You okay?"

"Fine." She returned through gritted teeth; she was absolutely terrified. The cop closest to Janice turned and looked at her once he had heard the all too familiar nickname. His underage sister was being held at gunpoint by the owner of the bar. How in the hell did Sophie end up here and how the hell did she end up working in a place like this?  

[sondepoch]

VIII: Neutral Route (Luciel)

Where Futures Begin

Life used to be simple for you. Peaceful. But the Savior had other plans for you, and in moments, she ruined what you thought was your one shot at happiness. Blinded by anger, you escaped the Mint Eye, but that triggered a series of events that would bring you further into the world of brothers Saeran and Saeyoung. And further into the twisted world of your love for them.

Neutral Route: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | ✔

Saeyoung’s Route: 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | ✔

Saeran’s Route: 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | ✔

MASTERLIST

Luciel was the first one at (Y/N)'s side after she fell, shaking her body, desperately hoping that she was still conscious.

"The fall wasn't enough to kill her," Vanderwood murmured, his voice calm as he studied the girl where she had fallen. She had landed in a bush, the robe she had once worn now shredded but protecting most of her skin where it remained unpierced by the thorns. "Help me get her out, Luciel."

The two of them pulled her body up from the bush carefully, discarding the robe she was wearing, leaving it among the shrubs. In its torn state, there was no point in taking it with them.

"Let's leave her here. She's part of Rika's personal council, she's one of them," MC said, already walking away.

"No," Luciel blurted, picking her body up, "She was escaping when we found her, she's not on their side. And she helped us escape. If we leave her, she's as good as dead."

Vanderwood arched an eyebrow at the redhead, "Since when did you start caring about random girls you meet on missions?"

Luciel ignored the question, heaving the (Y/N)'s body over his shoulders, trying not to think about how his hand was resting on the bare skin of her back or how the dress she was wearing was riding up on her thighs. "What's with these outfits, MC? Was there some kind of party at the Mint Eye just now?"

MC turned around and watched Luciel with narrowed eyes as she saw him bringing (Y/N), "No. It's part of the uniform that Rika made us wear."

"Gotta say, this chick wears her uniform better than you," Vanderwood said, smirking. He never made any motion to hide his dislike for MC, and Luciel had to admit that his boss was right with that last comment. "Alright, here's the car. Luciel, text V and tell him that the rescue mission was a success."

Now it was Luciel's turn to arch his eyebrow. "A success?" He awkwardly wedged (Y/N)'s body into the back seat before taking his place in the front by Vanderwood, "We're bringing one extra back with us. The last time I did that, you wouldn't stop calling me a screwup, and all I did was bring a cat."

Vanderwood rolled his eyes and started the car, seeing that everyone was inside, "This girl is useful. You saw what she did back during the mission, the agency needs more people like her."

Luciel swallowed and made no comment, ignoring the anger he felt at Vanderwood's words. How could he send someone from an already fucked-up organization like the Mint Eye to an even worse place? The agency was for those who had no other options in life.

Surely this girl's life wasn't fucked up enough for her to turn to that?

Luciel glanced at (Y/N) in the rearview mirror, noting her bleached hair and tattoo. What other options could a girl like that have? MC said she was a council member, right? How far had she gone in the Mint Eye? And what went so wrong that she tried to escape?

Luciel pushed the thoughts from his mind, gazing forward as Vanderwood sped by the dirt road. The cabin they were heading to was far; far enough that the Mint Eye wouldn't be searching for them, but close enough to fix things if the rescue mission went wrong.

"Sleep now, Luciel," Vanderwood instructed.

Luciel knew the truer meaning to his words. You've got work to do when we get back. Still, he found himself able to close his eyes and drift off. It had been thirty hours since he last slept, he deserved a break.

***

When Luciel woke up, it wasn't to Vaderwood's voice. Or even MC's.

His eyes shot open, feeling strangely refreshed. Registering the picture in front of him, Luciel realized what must have happened.

Vanderwood let me sleep in? Luciel chuckled, amused. His boss must have felt sorry for him, after the craziness of the rescue mission. No doubt, they all thought they were done for until they heard (Y/N)'s voice over the loudspeaker. Hers was an impressively quick reaction time, Luciel noted with a hint of satisfaction, before stretching and pulling himself out of the car.

If he was going to let me sleep, he may as well have let me do it in a bed instead of in the car, Luciel thought to himself, stretching his neck out. "E-excuse me?"

Luciel stiffened when he heard the sound that must have woken him up. He turned around and stared at the white-haired girl who had spoken. "What?"

"C-can you untie me?" (Y/N) mumbled, nodding down toward the ropes that were binding her.

"Who tied you up?" Luciel murmured in disbelief as he walked to her side of the car, pulling a bloodied knife from his boot to saw away at the ropes.

He heard (Y/N) gasp. "Who's blood is that?"

Luciel didn't bother answering, freeing her hands and then setting to freeing her legs.

"Or do I not want to know?" She asked with a bitter chuckle at the end.

"I didn't kill anyone," Luciel said bluntly, motioning for her to follow him into the cabin. "Not yesterday, at least. Come on."

It must have been early morning, the sky gloomy without the sun to smile on it, not even birds out yet. Luciel could hear voices from inside the cabin, though. Makes sense. Neither the Mint Eye nor the RFA nor the agency functioned on normal business hours.

He banged on the door, two martelé sounds, the noise disrupting the eerily calm scene. It wasn't long before his knocks were answered. "Took you long enough," MC said, opening the door for him.

She closed it before (Y/N) could enter, though, temporarily leaving the girl dumbfounded by the catty action.

"Seriously, MC?" Luciel groaned, not in the mood for MC's antics.

"Yes. We need to discuss why she was even brought back here. I have a lot of questions for you two." MC said, crossing her arms, looking back and forth between Vanderwood and Luciel, trying to figure out who she could trust to take her side in the argument they all knew was about to ensue.

"Okay," Luciel said, walking around MC and opening the door, gesturing (Y/N) inside, "If we're going to be asking questions, why don't I start: who tied her up?"

Vanderwood's eyes widened, and he turned to glare at MC, "Seriously?" He asked, utterly unimpressed.

MC looked surprised, "I saved Luciel's life! You," She pointed at Vanderwood, "You left him in the car! If I hadn't tied her up, he would have woken up to her trying to choke him to death or something!"

Luciel rolled his eyes, a retort already on his tongue when (Y/N)'s soft voice interrupted them.

"Your name's Luciel?" (Y/N) was looking at him.

Luciel looked away, even more irritated with MC now. "Yeah. What, did you believe my name was Seven?"

(Y/N) shook her head, "No! I just...Luciel is a nice name. It's sort of angelic, if you think about it."

Vanderwood snorted. "This guy? Angelic? You should have seen him in the Mint Eye with that dagger of his, I swear, he was about to revoke his God and slice them a-"

"Shut up, Vanderwood," Luciel hissed, interrupting his boss.

"Vanderwood, eh? Yeah, I think that name suits you a bit better than 'Mary.'" (Y/N) said, chuckling to herself with a soft smile on her face.

"Hello? Guys? Why are you talking to her? She doesn't belong here."

Through the corner of his eye, Luciel saw (Y/N) bite her lip at MC's last words. The redhead felt an involuntary urge to comfort her, wrap an arm around her shoulder and tell her that MC was just a selfish bitch who didn't know what she was saying, but he kept himself grounded. It wouldn't be fitting for him to get attached to someone he barely knew.

"MC, this is my cabin, not yours. Luciel and I brought you back from the Mint Eye at V's request, I would have left you there. The rescue mission was a favor, so be thankful." Vanderwood said bluntly, pouring coffee into three mugs, sliding one to Luciel, keeping one to himself, and offering the third to (Y/N).

"Your 'rescue mission' was weeks late!" MC shouted, her face full of anger, "You know what they could have done to me? Just think about what they did to her!"

Luciel glanced at (Y/N), noting how the girl swallowed a lump in her throat at MC's words. "Tell them, council member (Y/N)," MC mocked, "Or are you scared that they'll leave you once they find out how broken you are?" MC took a step toward (Y/N), "Scared that they'll leave you like Ray?"

"Enough!" (Y/N) shouted. The noise was new to Luciel's ears, and even Vanderwood looked surprised as he saw the soft-spoken girl say, with tears in her eyes, "You win, MC! I'll leave."

(Y/N) turned to the door, readily heading out the way she came in, but Vanderwood put a hand up against the door frame before she could open it. "Sorry, girl-err, (Y/N), but you can't leave."

(Y/N) looked at him through wary eyes. Luciel noticed how tired she looked, despite having been knocked out for the past six hours. "Why? Am I a prisoner now?" Luciel found himself bothered by the nonchalance at which the girl asked such a drastic question, as if the worst had already been done to her, and she had nothing left to fear. What had she been through? The redhead remembered MC's angry words, Tell them how broken you are, and then shook his head, telling himself that it was none of his business.

"Prisoner? God, no. You've just come from the Mint Eye. You can't expect me to believe that you have a home waiting for you," Vanderwood pulled MC into the living room, leaving Luciel to follow and MC to stomp off.

When (Y/N) shook her head, Vanderwood continued, "Precisely. For now, we can give you shelter at this cabin. Our work with the Mint Eye isn't done, and your skills as a hacker are....impressive, to say the least, and you're better acquainted with the Mint Eye than all of us combined. You'll be useful to us."

"And after you no longer have any use for me?"

"Then I'll hook you up with my agency. You'll get to continue working and will be provided shelter and protection." Vanderwood left no room for rejection in his pitch to MC, leaning back like he had it all planned out.

The room was quiet for a moment.

"And if I refuse?" (Y/N) asked, voice timid.

"Don't." Luciel found himself saying, "Don't refuse."

Unlike Vanderwood's words, Luciel's had a tone of request. There was something else, too, what was it? Desperation? Hope? Fear?

"I see," (Y/N) said, taking another sip of coffee, "Then I accept your offer, Mr. Vanderwood."

"No need for the 'Mister.' Just Vanderwood is fine." The man chuckled at (Y/N)'s formality. "Is your real name (Y/N)? Or is that a name they gave you at the Mint Eye?"

"It's my own."

"Very well, then. Luciel, I'm going to V's room. MC's probably already in there...ignore any shouting. I'll see you two in a couple hours."

With that, he left the Luciel with (Y/N).

The first minute was awkward, neither person quite trying to start a conversation with the other. Finally, though, (Y/N) spoke up. "Who carried me back?"

Luciel looked up from his coffee mug, where he had been studying his reflection. "What? Oh. Yeah, that was Vanderwood." The redhead didn't know why he was lying, but something about the way this girl was looking at him made him feel too vulnerable to tell her the truth. "He said we couldn't leave you after all the help you did for us at the Mint Eye." Luciel's voice was met by silence, so he tried to fill it, "Thanks, by the way."

"No problem. I forgot a ladder, so it's not like I would have been able to escape without your help either."

"That's pretty dumb," Luciel blurted, not entirely filtering his thoughts.

"I know."

A second of silence ensued, and then the two burst into amused chuckles. When the laughter died down, (Y/N) continued, "So, uh, what happened to my robe?"

"It got pretty wrecked when you fell, took most of your damage for you - though I guess you're still pretty beat up. You should get those looked at," Luciel murmured, gesturing to the plethora of cuts and bruises (Y/N)'s body was littered with, particularly her wrist from when Vanderwood had tried to save her fall. "...Need help?"

Luciel wasn't quite sure why he offered, but when (Y/N) accepted, he found himself readily completing the task. He had dressed wounds before, much deeper cuts, but his hands shook ever so slightly as he tried to keep his touch delicate so as to not to hurt (Y/N). "Sorry, sorry," he said, clasping her unbruised arm, "You can squeeze my hand if you want. I know that the alcohol stings like a bitch."

He felt his heart beat a little faster when he heard (Y/N) chuckle, and even faster when she began clinging to his hand, but he managed to keep a blush off his face as he worked.

"Do you always look so serious?" (Y/N) asked him as he dabbed a cotton ball at a cut along her back.

"Do you always dress so gorgeous?" Luciel said, regretting the words as soon as they left his mouth. Real smooth, dill hole, he told himself, You just called her gorgeous. Way to be a creep.

"Oh," (Y/N) giggled, "Are we playing the questions game?"

Luciel smiled, "I don't see why not."

"Well then, I guess I'll answer your question first...The Savior has a very formal dress code for her council members. We're the face of the magenta, of the Mint Eye, right? So, we have to have mint eyes and magenta dresses. And bleached white hair. Honestly, though, if it were up to me, I'd have picked a more practical dress..." (Y/N) pinched the satin fabric of her dress and scrunched her nose up cutely.

"Who's the Savior? And how does he change your eye color?" Luciel replied.

"That's two questions. Plus, you're supposed to be answering one of mine," (Y/N) said. "So, is it true? Do you always look so serious?"

Luciel thought to himself for a moment. On the RFA messenger, he was as far from serious as night is from day. In truth, though, the last time he had been genuinely carefree was back when he still had Saeran. Back when he still called himself Saeyoung.

"I guess so," He said, bandaging (Y/N)'s wrist, "But sometimes I let myself go."

"You mean with alcohol?"

"No, never," Luciel blurted. After his childhood, he had sworn to never let himself get drunk or high on sheer principle, "It's just that sometimes...with certain people...I find it's easier to smile."

(Y/N) turned around and shot the boy the most radiant grin he'd seen on anyone, "I hope I can be one of those people for you, Luciel."

"Really?" Luciel chuckled at (Y/N)'s innocence, "You barely even know me. I could be a serial killer, for all you know."

"You remind me of someone I once loved very much," (Y/N) said with a lost look in her eyes, "I can't imagine...that you're a bad person."

Luciel took a sharp breath in, noticing how close he was to (Y/N), still holding her bandaged wrist. "Who do I remind you of?" He whispered, not wanting to disturb the serenity of the moment.

"A man. MC said his name earlier," (Y/N) murmured, "Sa-...I mean, Ray."

Luciel recalled when MC had shouted the name in her fit of anger. Scared that they'll leave you like Ray, her exact words were.

"Uh," Luciel said, scooting backward on the couch, suddenly aware of how close he had been to (Y/N). "Let's continue this question game later, (Y/N)."

The girl nodded her head, confused at Luciel's sudden change in demeanor, but accepting of it nonetheless.

"I'm going to catch up on some work, so, uh, I guess I'll see you in a couple hours?" Luciel winced at his words. He had never had the chance to be an awkwardly cringy teenager when it came to talking to pretty girls, especially given that he had never gone to formal school, but if he had ever seemed like one, it was at this moment. "V and Vanderwood will probably want to talk to you about the Mint Eye, so you might want to head to their room - first door on the right."

(Y/N) smiled, though, not noticing any significant change, "I will, thanks. Good luck with your work, Luciel. Let's talk more later."

Luciel merely nodded his head, trying to get as far from the situation as possible. The only women he had dealt with were MC and Jaehee, and neither of them had made his heart beat the way (Y/N) did. The redhead wasn't dumb, he was a hacker, a secret agent for the world's most secretive agency; he knew exactly what the cause of the butterflies in his stomach was.

I'll control myself better next time we speak, Luciel swore to himself, determined not to let himself risk everything for a reason stupid as a crush.

As Luciel walked out of the door, though, he couldn't suppress the goofy smile that spread across his lips. (Y/N) had told him that she hoped to become one of the people who made it easy for him to smile. Little did she know, she already was becoming that person to him, whether Luciel wanted her to be, or not.

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Neutral Route: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | ✔

Saeyoung’s Route: 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | ✔

Saeran’s Route: 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 |

Word count: 3.1k

Notes: I'm planning on baking cookies either tomorrow or the day after, and I'm super excited! My goal is to be able to make really good chocolate chip cookies, and I've baked four different batches so far. My last batch was semidecent so I'm hoping that this one will be (dare I say it?) actually good! I'll tell you guys how it goes :D

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"Action is the key to change" BEING

When I saw her post asking for help I knew I had to share it, but I didn't right away, my reasoning, I wanted, I had to, tell you more about her and the consulting and outreach that BEING is doing and why it is important to me and others that she receive some help.

Amanda has been volunteering for us @ Seattle Dogs Homeless Program for several years, she started when she was homeless, distributing our pet bags and during the winter survival gear for their owners, once housed she continued to volunteer, to this day she is still with us volunteering, 4 days a week she not only does animal outreach, she is also a liaison to many of the people we encounter. While Seattle Dogs helps homeless animals, there are humans attached to them, many of them asking for information or help to navigate services like where to get mail, ID, shelter, medical needs, drug treatment and much more, so when people ask us for these needs, we turn to BEING. 100% volunteered time 24 hours a day our call for help is answered. These are just examples of the help Amanda / BEING gives to us.

As if that isn't enough she is constantly participating in discussions, meetings and open forums regarding homelessness, opening minds to what is working and what isn't, what is needed and what must be done, she is empowered by what she went through while homeless and what she continues to see today. Her demeanor is sweet, she smiles often but like thunder her voice is loud, her words are brutally honest, passionate, and with her whole BEING she is making a difference. Her advocacy for the homeless people living in our city is stark, honest, beautiful

I hope reading this you can see why Amanda is important to me, to us here @ Seattle Dogs and that you are inspired by all the work she has been doing from homelessness or housed. For her to continue to do all that she does we hope you can donate. Thank you!

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[sxcktwxst]

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

For the most part.

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

My friend, Carmen!

03: Do you regret anything?

Nah, everything is supposed to happen the way it does when it does, even if there's no solid explanation as to why

04: Are you insecure?

Sometimes, still, yes

05: What is your relationship status?

Currently in a relationship with my boyfriend, Peder (yes, with a d)

06: How do you want to die?

One of my biggest fears is being hit by a car, so I'm probably gonna get hit by a car 🤷🏾‍♀️

07: What did you last eat?

I TRIED to eat some over-easy eggs but two bites in my throat was SCREAMING at me so that's in the trash now

08: Played any sports?

Volleyball in 3rd grade and ALMOST lacrosse in high school (I realized it wasn't the sport itself that interested me, I just wanted to spend more time with the girls that doesn't know she made me realize I'm bi)

09: Do you bite your nails?

No, I just rip them sometimes

10: When was your last physical fight?

Literally last night with a grown white man who thought my 120lb ass was gonna hit him with my skateboard, lol

11: Do you like someone?

I love Peder! 😊🧡

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Maybe not a full 48, but definitely close (it was probably 47 lololol)

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

I don't hate anyone, but I don't necessarily *appreciate* certain people lol

14: Do you miss someone?

RIP MY DEAD HOMIES (& DAD)

15: Have any pets?

I'm Peder's cat's step-meowm. 🐱

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Indifferent I guess, I felt my heart rate go up after reading that like "shit, how DO I feel!?"

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

Probably. I've kissed a cook I didn't even like in the walk-in, so I wouldn't put it past me 🤷🏾‍♀️

18: Are you scared of spiders?

Not scared of THEM, I'm just startled by their unexpected appearance in seemingly not common places

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Honestly probably not. I'd WANT to, but I feel like I'd make it that episode of Family Guy where Stewie & Brian go back in time to stop 9/11 but by doing that they made Hitler rule the world or some shit 😂

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

Snogging is kissing, right? Not fucking? Well anyway, here's both answers: in Peder's bed

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

Work, try to fuckin EAT omg, and smoke some fuckin WEEEEEEED

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

I definitely want at least one. If I have a second that'll depend largely on if my eldest wanted a lil sibling, but honestly I'm just tryna focus all my love and attention on one lil beautiful bitch, slap its belly n be like "this bad boy can for SO MUCH LOVE inside of it!!!"

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

Tongue, nose, navel, ears are 1/2 inch

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

Like in school? Def English, for SURE art (my art wasn't always GOOD but I was still v passionate about it so it was still a successful piece)

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

Oh FUCK yeah! If you don't, you're a sociopath (or a Fed)

26: What are you craving right now?

FLAMIN HOT *dramatic pause* MMMMOTHERFUCKIN CHEETOS

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Oh, for sure. Sorry, Seth. 😅

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

Yeah but I've cheated before so I can't talk shit

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

Probably but I hope not

30: What’s irritating you right now?

The lack of presence of flamin hot motherfuckin cheetos

(also our current social/political landscape)

31: Does somebody love you?

My friends, my boyfriend, and my mom. Those 3 I can for sure confirm.

32: What is your favourite color?

Either orange or turquoise! I'm v happy they're complimentary colors 💙🤗🧡

33: Do you have trust issues?

My now ex-husband lied to my face about sexting other girls when I had 16 screenshots of evidence AND a coworker being mutual friends with a girl he was tryna fuck to prove otherwise so idk you tell me 🤷🏾‍♀️ (this is also my most used emoji & i think i'm gonna get it tattooed)

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

FUCK, someone was deadass in my dream last night and now I can't remember who it was or the scenario 🤦🏾‍♀️

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

The cop that apprehended me last night, lmao

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

Probably but not after the situation from question 33

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

I drink to forget so there's that

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

Aside from like TWO things, heck yeah

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

OMG I was in 3rd grade fuckin I remember walking outside to recess and my ~bf~ lol ran up to me with open arms when he saw me come outside and he just fuckin kissed me and I remember just being like "....!!!!!!!"

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

Nope, not tryna get fuckin raped. I mean I could go outside completely naked and STILL not be ~asking for it~ but u ALL know that's what they're gonna say

51: Favourite food?

Mac n fucking cheeeeeeeeese

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Refer to question 3

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Went to the 19 bar and got blackout off Jameson before coming home, stripping COMPLETELY down in my KITCHEN, cooking a single fucking egg

54: Is cheating ever okay?

Only if you're playing board games with children

55: Are you mean?

Can be. I try to call myself out.

56: How many people have you fist fought?

MAYBE like, 3

57: Do you believe in true love?

Love is a spectrum and I feel like if you truly feel a connection between someone, be it romantic or platonic, then your love should be considered true. I'm in ~true love~ with people I'm not romantically or sexually involved with. And if we've had sex before and you see me with my new person, it's still love. I loved you then and I love you now, that's what love is. Unconditional. Shit, I still love my ex-husband after making the VERY difficult but VERY good decision to leave him. I'm not even mad at him, I just truly hope he gets what he's looking for.

58: Favourite weather?

Transition from summer to autumn, hands down. Dopest dope I've ever smoked.

59: Do you like the snow?

Yeah but like, stop making travelling so difficult, ya know?

60: Do you wanna get married?

If I want to spend the rest of my life with someone, and they want to do the same with me, I don't think I need a piece of paper and a giant ceremony to validate my relationship

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

I've had a HATRED for the nickname 'babygirl,' bc it is very heavily associated with negative vibes towards my stepdad, but when Peder calls me 'babygirl,' omg I melt every time. I could be mad as fuck, and he'll just say "listen, babygirl," and deadass I calm tf down and shut tf up

62: What makes you happy?

Music, good friends, the fact that there are still good people left on Earth, and Letterkenny

63: Would you change your name?

Went through an identity crisis just before I moved to Minnesota and started going by my middle name, Meredith, and it stuck for a hot second. Now, though I made it public that I had accepted my name is Cydney, roughly two years ago and I still occasionally have people like "wait I've met u but u weren't Cydney" lmao

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

Absolutely not! I wanna kiss him right now but he's at his house and I'm at mine! ): How disrespectful and unthoughtful of him to go home and sleep after a long, crazy day at work. The audacity of that man, I can't believe it 😉

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Well I'm bi so the opposite sex part doesn't matter, but uh, if I like them too, hey dope! If I don't, I'll say I'm sorry I don't think about you that way

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

Oh hell yeah!!! I've got a few!!! I do need more genuine gal pals though

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

My homie Sunny Sotaaaaa!! ✌️

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Peder

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

I do! And I believe they're not always romantic!!!!

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

I would die for YOU.

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[coquetteblossom]

Hey Isis! Loved your last analysis post and couldn't help coming back to ask you about a certain thing yet again! From... around days 5-7 in the route I believe, the game takes a turn with V blaming his "ideal" love for Rika become the way she is. She even flippin turns around and calls herself his ruined masterpiece that he threw aside. I was inclined to give it thought because I didn't want to be blinded by my bias, but then I began to question is (1/3?)

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Because throughout the route, we see that even though V’s love is super unhealthy and harmful, especially to himself, we also see Rika actively feeding into it by asking him to save her from what “God cannot” multiple times. She was basically also pulling him deeper into that thought process by the ankles, and I think that one unnamed side of the mystic messenger fandom is quick to forget that V never treated Rika like “art” or a “trophy” of his own will, because she was the one who (2/3)

-asked that of him in the first place. V is quick to blame himself for literally everything that happens- and even his voice actor addresses this in his Free Talk (Lee Ho San is sooo salty about Rika, I love it). People insist that V’s “ideal love” was what made Rika start Mint Eye, but.. no?? Mint eye was literally started before the RFA, as seen with how Saeran is being drugged at such a young age in SE1. Thoughts? (3/3) 

Wowie Phil, okay, this is a long question and it ended up having a long answer. It also touches a couple controversial issues in the fandom so… haha…

Naturally, I’ll have to mark a SPOILER WARNING FOR ‘ANOTHER STORY’. This is a long post so if you’re on mobile, scroll down fast!

This analysis is divided in three key segments, so you can read these messy thoughts of mine in some kind of order.

V and Rika are unreliable narrators, so we should be careful when we take their opinions in consideration. 

What was the dynamic in Rika and V’s relationship while they were together

The core of your question, V’s love and Rika’s darkness.

1- V and Rika as Unreliable Narrators.

Alright, so, the first point I have to make clear, and I really want to put emphasis on this, is the fact that both V and Rika are unreliable narrators by default. 

The only people that believe V is literally the cause of Rika’s woes are… That’s right, V and Rika themselves. Jumin, the person closest to the two of them and the character the game highlights as the neutral voice of reason, comments at various points how Rika made her own choices, therefore the whole “V created Rika’s demon” is a biased narrative created by these two characters, and it’s clear why. 

V will always find a way to blame himself in the story, always. He has made plenty mistakes that he acknowledges, sure, but he always tends to overestimate his flaws and underestimate others’, so he highlights his role in people’s failures and minimizes his influence in their victories and successes. Likewise, Rika also has a biased view of the world, in that she tends to put the blame of her actions on other people all the time. It’s her parents’ fault, it’s V’s fault, it’s society’s fault, it’s the RFA’S fault, it’s everyone’s fault but her own. Sure, she had a tragic childhood, but she tends to excuse herself at every point by trying to blame others for the road she took, while still liking to have control over everyone else’s lives.

What I want to clarify with this is that we cannot trust 100% what Rika or V tell us about their relationship unless it fits in one of these categories. 

We saw it ourselves in a Story Mode flashback or in Secret 01.

It’s a fact or an event, instead of a point of view.

It’s commented on by an unbiased third person that is neither Rika nor V.

This means that the story itself is not trying to tell us V is to blame for Rika’s descent to darkness, that is only V expressing his (self-deprecating) thoughts. This route is literally about trying to convince this stubborn man that he’s wrong about a lot of things, why should we believe him when he says this is his fault?

2- V and Rika’s dynamics in their relationship. 

When they had their first date after Rika visited V’s gallery, the two of them had a conversation that highlighted how they had very similar views on love and what they wanted in a relationship: Rika wanted a kind of eternal love that will last no matter what bad, awful things she does, and V wanted to provide that kind of love to someone because he wanted to discover the reason he lives for through that action, since he thought his goal in life was to love. He wanted to give that love and be there for her, and she wanted to take it, so they were a match made in Hell, basically.  

So… What happened when they got together and Rika got the love she was looking for? A plethora of things: They felt happy for sure, and they settled down… But she never believed V’s love, and kept trying to test it by attacking him, insulting him and demanding things from him to push him to the edge and see if he’d remain with her or not. She also simultaneously wanted him to always do what she wanted him to do, and at the same time raged because he never “craved something on his own” and did only as she wanted. To summarize: If he didn’t do what she wanted him to do it means that he hated her, and if he didn’t take the initiative to do something towards her then it means that he hated her, too. It was a complex situation where Rika would both encourage him to take individual action, and demand he always did what she wanted him to do.  

As a consequence, V’s actions towards Rika were mild and cautious, and he never expressed much willpower around her, lest he risks upsetting her or going against her desires, because his “love” was all about pleasing her. Subsequently V had two different approaches regarding Rika: He wanted to help her and guide her towards the light (as any reasonable person would) so she could be at peace with herself, but at the same time he didn’t want to force Rika to do something she didn’t want, because that’d make her have a crisis and doubt his love. He encouraged her to take therapy and cheered on her when it all went well… But if Rika started to threaten suicide, or screamed about how she didn’t want it, or just flat out start saying she felt scared of getting ‘close to the light’, he wouldn’t force her to continue, and accepted her wishes. He tried to help her but only for as long as she was okay with it, because he didn’t believe confronting her was the answer, since… Wouldn’t that mean that he didn’t love her as she was? That he didn’t embrace all sides of her?

As I explained in a previous ask, submissive love for him was unconditional love, because he believed he had to love all of her darkness, too.

Rika, likewise, believed that V’s love would dry her tears and would save her, so like you mentioned, she constantly told him as much. She wants the sun to dry all her tears, she wants V to save her since God can’t. V believed that was part of his conception of unconditional love, so he promised to embrace her all even if she were to break him. V’s overwhelming and selfless love made Rika aware of how dark she was and so she decided to embrace that identity. 

3- V’s love and Rika’s darkness. 

The main consequence this behavior had, was that Rika found someone that would always love her no matter what she did, and she felt comfort in that. She felt that she could do whatever “her devil” wanted to do and it’d be fine, because V would always be there for her. 

Rika wanted that love because she never experienced it before, true, but also because it validated her, both in good and bad ways. It made her feel as if she was worth being loved… But it also gave her the excuse to give in to her darkest thoughts: She could do whatever she wanted, commit all the atrocities she desired (in the name of her ideals), and be judged by the world and society without caring… Because someone would always love her, so she would always feel the “warmth” of that unconditional love. She didn’t really care much about trying to reciprocate this love, and, personally, I don’t even think she treasured V as a person, because as I saw it through the route, she just wanted to feel his undying love and loyalty. This is why she mistreated him and enjoyed his pain (physical and psychological), but as soon as he stopped providing the love she needed (By dying in Secret 01, or by moving on and rejecting this kind of love in his route) she loses it. V had no value to her as a person, just as a “sun” that’s there to provide and nurture the daffodil. If a different ‘sun’ appears (like MC) she would flatly ditch him in favor of that someone else. 

This is how V’s love “caused” Rika’s shadow to grow. As you can see, he played a big role in Rika’s descent to darkness by inadvertently helping create the right circumstances for her to decide to act upon her inner desires. However, V didn’t create Rika’s “darkness” since that was with her from the start, he tried to discourage her most outrageous thoughts regarding anyone but himself (as seen in both Secret 01 and his route) and Rika never showed any actual desire to change herself for the better and erase her ‘demon’.

I believe his tolerance allowed the problem to grow, but I also believe blaming V for Rika’s actions is trying to absolve her from her responsibilities, and it’s almost a form of victim blaming. V was wrong, yes, his mistakes definitely let the problem get out of control, and his wrong conception of love validated Rika, but he cannot be blamed for the choices Rika made or what she decided to make out of his love for her.

V’s love provided Rika with the affection and tolerance she always craved, which gave her the motivation to carry on with what she wanted to do, while constantly abusing V so he can keep proving his love to her even more and fuel her. Once that love ceased to exist, Rika crumbled. 

Extra comment: Rika as V’s art.

This is just a small comment I want to make about the art analogies. Rika was V’s artwork in the sense that she replaced his need for pursuing arts in his life, and he filled the void in his heart by loving her. He is an artist, he thinks in artistic terms, so he saw her a as art in his eyes: Because she was beautiful, because he “loved” her, and because he could make a difference in her life. When Rika saw V trying to move on, she assumed it was because he was bored of this ‘old artwork’ (Rika) since it didn’t bring him the results he needed, and so moved onto the ‘next one’ (MC). To me it only seems as the comment of a person hurt by a lover leaving them, so perhaps she perceived that way, but that doesn’t make it reliable.

Also, if V took pictures of Rika and made her his muse and a model for his art, it was because of her own will, since he even told him she wishes he’d never put down the camera in front of her, and it made her feel beautiful. She flat out said she loved it, so… Yeah, I don’t see why people would think V saw Rika as ‘art’ or a ‘prize’. 

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