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Took him on a walk last fall

Bonus: dinner date

He has arrived at last! Dram by Gray Hamster (Instagram, VK)

I guess my almost a decade long hyperfixation has reached its peak with this one

Huge thanks to @ijiwaruuma who shared this whole idea of commissioning someone to create Dram figurines 🗡️💚🏹 we both have the same exact figurine now (which is precisely lore accurate since Dram and his simulacrum thing…you know the drill!)

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good things will happen 🧿

things that are meant to be will fall into place 🧿

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He has arrived at last! Dram by Gray Hamster (Instagram, VK)

I guess my almost a decade long hyperfixation has reached its peak with this one

Huge thanks to @ijiwaruuma who shared this whole idea of commissioning someone to create Dram figurines 🗡️💚🏹 we both have the same exact figurine now (which is precisely lore accurate since Dram and his simulacrum thing…you know the drill!)

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what the Fuck has happened in amnesia fandom last week

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happy pint y’all

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AMNESIA: THE DARK DESCENT (2010) dev. Frictional Games

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why is nobody talking about the servant grunt plushie. why is nobody talking about him

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tf2 boy dinner aesthetic

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I have seen too many “tag yourself as a horror game aesthetic” tiktoks and unfortunately they all lack Amnesia so Have at thee - Tag yourself as horror game aesthetic (amnesia edition)

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I’m so deeply sorry but Rosa lowkey looks like she has seen an iphone.

I’M FUCKING CRYING AT THE UPDATE OF THE PHOTOS IN AMNESIA THE BUNKER, WHAT DID THEY DO TO LAMBERT’S FACE?!?

LIKE I GET THAT ITS A IMPROVEMENT SINCE THE ORIGINAL PHOTO LOOKED LIKE SOME AI GENERATED IMAGE, BUT LOOK HOW THEY MASSACRED MY BOI—

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Dug around old files again and found more content! These are stencils from all of the games that served some kind of purpose on one of the old website versions.

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The best post on r/Amnesia this far

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18th of August, 1839

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To think of it there is this Amnesia shtick about characters drinking stuff which fucks them up big time like Wilhelm and his men drinking poisoned wine, Cassandra’s crew drinking from the fountain in the temple, Henri collected water from the spring for Augustin to drink

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whenever something goes wrong or i feel really bad and have some sort of mental breakdown i say to myself “19th of august 1839” and sometimes it makes me smile a little and sometimes it makes me feel even worse

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Amnesia: Rebirth and Misogyny

Hi! I’m rereading old Reddit threads and getting worked up over men males Annoying Amnesia Fans™️ deliberately misunderstanding the roles men and women play in video games. Here’s the fruits of my labor:

First and foremost: let’s debunk the obvious, frankly asinine counter-arguments.

“I don’t particularly, consciously hate female protagonists, so that’s not why I disliked rebirth/tasi” — if misogyny was only what you believed at the forefront of your mind, then we would not have misogyny. If misogyny was not a subtle plague that is hammered into you the moment you’re born, we would not have patriarchy. Just because you don’t know you hate female protagonists, doesn’t mean you don’t hate female protagonists.

Additionally: pregnancy is, if not inherently, a largely feminine thing. You cannot separate pregnancy from a uterus, and uteruses threaten men. The mere concept of pregnancy easily offsets a man and makes them denounce a game entirely, whereas women have dealt with all sorts of uncomfortable male topics (sexual abuse and violence against women, misogyny, fetishization etc) and dealt with it.

(Do you see where I’m going with this? The obvious double standard? That’s important later.)

Next: Tasi did not ramble any more than Daniel did, any more than Mandus did, either in general or about their children. The only time she really did was when she was narrating something that happened (common occurrence in horror games including amnesia) or the mechanic which is LITERALLY centered around dialogue, and changes based on your environment. That said, it’s also largely optional, and more often than not DOES serve a larger narrative purpose.

(Also— and this is my personal opinion- I think Daniel is poorly acted. God be damned if I don’t love him and his VA, but he is poorly acted. Hur dur are there dead people in the morgue Alexander).

On the same topic: Amnesia is not a fucking RPG. If you feel like you’re in the role of the character, great. That’s easy when they’re fucking silent as the grave the entire time except for letters and flashbacks. Amnesia has always been driven by two things; Characters and their motivations, and the fear of the unknown. (Rebirth checks one of those boxes).

Furthermore, when we look at the general consensus on rebirth, most of the reviews will be from men, because amnesia arguably has a predominately male audience. The reviews I’ve seen from women, though, all say they felt plenty immersed with Tasi as a character, that the game reflected their own fears.

Men (I am not going to specify not all men for the millionth time, fuck, if it isn’t about you then it isn’t about you) refuse to empathize with women the way women are forced to empathize with men because in gaming, and in the world, men are represented in all sorts of ways, where— at least for a very very long time— women had very slim pickings and, in recent years, there’s only been a handful of gems.

(No, don’t say Bayonetta or Peach. Do not fucking say Bayonetta or Peach. If those two roles were all women could ever be in video games, forever…)

You could argue you tired of Tasi talking about her child the way you grew tired of Mandus doing it, but Mandus very, very seldom verbally laments about his children the way Tasi does. You cannot reasonably draw that conclusion.

(I don’t see Oswald being condemned for, fuck, for what? For having children? The way Tasi is, either. Surely there is a systemic reason for that.)

Also: Tasi is held to a FAR higher standard than any male protagonist. When we see a male character we automatically take their actions and don’t view them at face value, we consider the shades of gray which is the very same theme the original game hoped to convey. Did Tasi truly do anything worse than Daniel? Then why do you shun her so deliberately while excusing him?

(Truth is they’re fictional and you shouldn’t act like either of them should be put before a court or something or other. But come on. Are they truly comparable?)

Female characters are slightly annoying once and are raked over the coals. Male characters can genocide an entire fucking country and people will still forgive that.

All in all: Misogyny is literally baked into our society. A game with a female protagonist will 100% of the time be subject to more criticism no matter what and Tasi is no exception especially because she experiences something directly correlated with women.

We could relate to Henri, I doubt many amnesia fans served in world war 1. We could relate to Daniel, I doubt many amnesia fans were manipulated into murder. You cannot relate to one fucking pregnant woman and her baby?

(I will say ONE thing to credit these people: the birth scene was uncomfortable not because it was childbirth but because Jesus fucking Christ doctor can you stop staring into the depths of my soul.)

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I have made an ATDD iceberg quite some time ago to post it on reddit and I thought I have to post this thing here as well!