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You ever just get tempted to message your first rapist on FB, then see that they're doing well and touring the world and also teaching at a special needs school across the country? Yeah. I want him to not exist. I want teenage/young years back. My first experience shouldn't have been with a man who took advantage of a child.

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DAILYFLICKS 20K EVENT: FAVORITE FALL/HALLOWEEN FILM PER MEMBER  ↳ THE ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW (1975) — Sonny (@eddieshimbo)

A mental mind fuck can be nice.

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The Great Wall of Vagina - Jamie McCartney (x) Jamie made molds of the vaginas of women between 18 and 76 years. Among others, they include twins and transgender women. Women are often confused about their vagina, because they think it looks different: with this project he demonstrates that vaginas are as different as faces. McCartney hopes that his work will help to stop the increasing growth of labia corrections in recent years.

(Yes these are vulvas, the title of the work is a play on words, The Great Wall of China/Vagina rhymes, Vulva doesn’t.)

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Them 💗🖤

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Welp. Still not ready to touch on figure skating.

I’ve been avoiding the idea since I was allowed to quit in college. Always knew it was traumatic because I can’t watch it on TV without starting to cry.

Just tried to watch Yuri on Ice! because I love me a sweet, queer anime, but uhhh....literally almost had a panic attack in the first 10 minutes. Calmed myself down and tried to keep going because it seemed like it would be a cute reunion- Kid is going home after the traumatic experience of not doing as well as he was supposed to due to trauma and weight gain, (very relatable especially after your family spends so much money on you.) Then the show decides to just perpetuate the issues with body image by having him suddenly be like 3x the weight he actually was in the previous scene for humor’s sake.

Can’t do it. Don’t recommend watching it if you are a person who had a “dance mom/dad” in any sort of sport like figure skating.

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Don't forget the small part of finally feeling okay to cry at movies in front of others, but getting instantly upset when someone mentions that you're crying.

half of adulting is basically you trying not to cry

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bbs 🥺 (📸 zachary gray)

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©Rune Guneriussen

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i am filled with a longing for a past i don’t remember

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💁Me as I'm employed but trying to get out of the hell hole I work at, every day questioning why I haven't just quit, realizing I can't, but listening to my manager complain about how young people just don't want to work.

All I'm learning from watching the new hires come and go-

Don't just let yourself get hardened to the stupid shit. Find somewhere better.

Otherwise- lie on your app. You will find a place that does not call references and if you can talk through a situation, as long as you can catch on quick, you can keep a job in the service industry. Our office keeps not calling references, and we've gone through 8 hires who claimed they were experienced, except 1 who was honest. She was let go because while she was sweet, she was young, and well...not very good at listening.

But hey. Those of us up front have no say in the hires so. 🤷 Let's go. We just have to deal with the newbies who have no idea what they're doing even though they claim they do.

oouuh, oouuuhhh!! we are hiring! we are hiring!! we are sooOO desperate for workers we will take anyone !! OOUUHH labor shortage!!!! pleaze let us hire you!! ouuUUUHuuuUhh................ Your application has been rejected. You are not what we're looking for at this time. We're sorry.

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lord grant me the serenity to do my laundry, the courage to do my laundry, and the wisdom to do my laundry

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Kay, not to mock my old self, but holy fuck is it evident that I was in the midst of getting my english-publishing major. xD Anyways, maybe I’m back. Idk. I need a journaling system, and this came to mind. We shall see.

It’s Been A While

I haven’t used this account in years because it used to be a source of depression, anxiety, my not being able to sleep- but now I am back.

I want to get back into using Tumblr, but instead of deleting this account and creating a new one, I really want to keep my old posts and use them as a show of my growth.

I have went through years of highs, lows, moments of mass depression, moments of mass improvement, and now I am at a place where, while not in the best place, I feel that I am more stable than I have ever been.

Hence why I want to begin using this account again. It’s a sign of my new start amidst my improvement. I have been through so much in a few years, and this time I intend to utilize this blog in a healthy way.

I will occasionally be using this blog as a way of talking through items on mine and my therapist’s goals, so do not be surprised by sensitive content. I feel that the people on this website can handle certain things that I will be talking about, and also I understand if certain people feel the need to unfollow. 

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Reviewing my Tumblr as an adult to see if I’m willing to share it. Even though I love my partner very much, this still sounds so lovely.

Concept: you’ve been married to your wife for 3 years. You wake up in your bed before she does, your nose cold but your body warm. Careful not to wake her, you get out of bed and your toes curl when your feet hit the cold floor. You brew a pot of coffee and take a cup, making sure to leave enough for her. You pull on a big sweater and walk out onto your deck, sitting in a big wood chair to look out over the forest. The leaves are orange and edged with frost. All is quiet as the sun rises over the trees. You hear the door opening behind you and your wife sits down next to you, wrapping the comforter from your bed around both of you shoulders. You sit there like that until the sun is well up and your coffee cups are empty.

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Actually me in the future as a parent.