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I call him Tarzan

I've had sexual experiences in my past but there is one that stays with me. It makes me cringe in a good and a bad way. Wanna hear??? Well lets just say this have you ever met your soul mate??? I call mines Tarzan. Well I have and it was everything I thought it would be and everything I didn't. It stated off great but the way we met was fucked up. I was into your friend thought I was in love but it was really infatuation until the fucker began to piss on my character. My ex started off as a butterflies and rainbows but then turned into a shit storm. NEVER in my life did I feel so low when with a guy until him. Then YOU came along... Tall brown skin and handsome, your eyes of honey and smile so hypnotizing. At first he was just someone that I talked to and made me feel heard. Next I’m riding next to you in a truck delivering food. I remember the one time we all drove in the car and your grabbed my hand while staring deeply into my soul. I blushed and pulled away and you never broke eye contact. My breath begin to quicken and my face started to flush. How can I feel this way about you??? You are just a friend... right?? You would come to me and tell me to tell you everything about me. I just stare while you wait for me to answer. Something about you just makes me want to spill everything in my life to you like a child pouring a glass of juice and pouring the contents of everything on the floor. Fast forward our time spent together feels like the perfect weather of about 73 with a warm breeze with the sun Kissing my skin. Everything is in slow motion for us while things in the background are moving as fast as the speed of light. I remember the first time we fucked... You talked so much shit to me and I did not like it. I decided to test your bs sentences. Next were in my mothers basement with me touching my ankles and you pumping your anger into me while I roll my eyes..... You can tell I am not pleased with what just happened. You call and text me everyday, you even show up to my job. You show me things other have not... attention, communication, and protection. I soon begin to fall for you and scared to admit it. This is not right wtf should I do? Lets fast forward to now we spend every waking day with each other. were at your moms in your room smoking and talking. I get undressed and put on a sexy outfit to get your attention. I try to kiss you and you just stare at your iPad and tell me to lay down. I get a little disappointed but do as you say. I grab the L and try to think what is so important other then our time. You begin to notice me in my thought and decide to calm me in the strangest way. You take one hand and drag it up and down my body while still looking at the iPad. My body craves your touch to the point that my juices are flowing down my leg and my nipples as hard as rocks. You suddenly stop and i pop up confused. You look at me and ask what's wrong and I say I'm mad that you stopped. You turn over and grab my chin lightly kissing my forehead. You push me down on the bed and begin caressing me as before. Soon your naked cut up body is in front of me while you take in every inch of my body, and soul...… Should I finish??? let me know.

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Will this feeling fade?

As I sit here my eye begins to twitch, then my mind takes me to place I try and fight on a daily. Its that one moment that at first I smell you, then the next I see you. last but not least I can feel you again. How is this even possible??? I begin to have goose bumps while my whole body electrifies from this instant memory. How can I see , feel, and touch you when your miles away. I feel as if I am outside of my body watching us. I see me looking up at you while your hair hangs lightly brushing your face. Your touching my leg with one hand while the other is addressing me. I try not to rush from excitement but I feel like if we do not hurry I might loose my courage. Now I am naked and you begin to undress yourself. While I'm watching I admire your dark skin being kissed by the moonlight. The space that we are in is small but I do not mind. Being able to be this close to you is what I have been waiting for so long. I begin to flash back even further to when we used to be together. Us as one I never been able to find a relationship like that again. I snap back to the current memory and see you again. As you kiss my thighs and begin to rub my chest. Next I feel you kiss my stomach then my hard nipples, then last my neck and back down again. My eyes just begin to roll in the back of my head. Next my body electrifies when you begin to fill me up. I am not used to your size anymore so the pain is not pain it is pleasure...… Soon your strokes open me up and my moans become louder, and louder. My ears begin to ring and my body goes numb, but strangely I can feel everything's. Your touch, your kiss, the deepness of you in me that I no longer though I had. For a moment I forget I am a wife and mother but in need of your presence..... Should I finish ??? let me know !

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عقل ہے تیری سپر عشق ہے شمشیر تیری Intellect is your shield, Love is your sword

Jawab-e-Shikwa, God’s response to (Man’s) complaint - Allama Iqbal  (via two-browngirls)