summertimeghosts

[summertimeghosts]

I need rules and I need to stick to them. - gym three times a week - only three meals a day with no snacks - only one coffee a day - no squash - avoid bread at all costs

[summertimeghosts]

The self loathing is real tonight. How have I let myself put on so much weight. Why have I not sorted my hair out, it looks fucking terrible. When did I get so spotty.

[summertimeghosts]

I forgot how unbearable the teeth whitening pains are. Owwwww.

[summertimeghosts]

drunk me is the me i really want to be. confident, hilarious and, most importantly, drunk. 

[summertimeghosts]

Am I just on permanent self destruct mode?

[summertimeghosts]

I used to be so much more confident than I am now as a twenty something. I used to be witty, funny, I felt quite smart, was happy with how I looked and how I interacted with people. But now I don’t feel any of that anymore. I always feel a bit dim around certain people and I’m nowhere near as witty as I used to be. I can’t even bare the thought of dating because I just don’t feel good right now. What happened.

[summertimeghosts]

I'm a total slug rn. No motivation to do anything. I'm in a sluggy funk.

[summertimeghosts]

Can people please stop asking me what shift I'm on as a means to start a conversation. Because it never results in a conversation. I literally say I'm on an early shift and you'll be like oh right cool. ITS FUCKING ANNOYING. And it also doesn't matter, it's still just work no matter what time I'm in.

[summertimeghosts]

I'm just having a really shit time atm. Really not happy with a lot of things right now.

[summertimeghosts]

I wish my friends liked me as much as I like them.

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I feel like I used to be really witty and clever and funny when I was like 17/18 and that's why new people liked me when they met me and talking to boys wasn't hard because it came naturally but now I just feel like I'm not witty, clever or funny I just come across as boring and grumpy and I don't know how to fix this.

[summertimeghosts]

I'm in a funk

[summertimeghosts]

Just fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck off.

[summertimeghosts]

I just think, me and you could have been really fucking great in some other lifetime/universe.

[summertimeghosts]

Can anyone explain me this? Like, I want to pay for Spotify. I wanna have it on my phone and I wanna be rid of the adverts. I want to buy it. But how can they charge £9.99 a month, when Netflix is £6 a month? Surely films, tv etc are far more expensive (takes longer to make, more people involved, location, editing etc etc) and albums are made by probably half the amount of people, mainly in a recoding studio? Like, I wanna pay but I feel like I'm getting so ripped off if Netflix can charge £6? Am I wrong?

[summertimeghosts]

why do so many people romanticize the 1950′s? like calm down we still have milkshakes and racism 

[summertimeghosts]

Loving you forever can't be wrong Even though you're not here, won't move on.