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everyone thought i was his saver,

but they never knew it wasn’t the case

in fact it was him who saved me

made me feel at ease

during those times i felt troubled,

made me feel loved and wanted

when the whole world despised me,

made me see the light

in the dark hole i caved in for so long

truly it was him,

my saver, my knight in shining armor,

the one who knew me so well,

the one who loved me real.

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no one dared to ask

if she was okay,

thinking she was

always alright,

but no.

she wasn’t.

and just like everyone else,

he didn’t bother.

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am i missing you–

or is it just the weather

playing in my mind?

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a love that feels like home—

keeping me safe and warm,

a love that is flawed but real—

not the love we fantasized in romance books,

not the perfect love being portrayed in dramas,

but a love that is simple and certain,

well-written by the universe for the two of us—

that is what i truly wished for

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i just realized neither of us knew what love really was—so i forgive you, for not loving me the way you’re supposed to make me feel loved.

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and when the rain pours,

does it remind you of me?

i hope it does.

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in love

with the thought

of having you

and never losing you.

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what is love?

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take a breather from chaos in the world

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let our voices be heard.

this is not the time for us to remain silent.

fear not.

we must fight against injustices.

uphold our rights.

we must fight for our country.

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“cowardice, an end to his untold feelings, a farewell to his beloved” (iv. goodbye)

— 17th of the winter month

he

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“and so,

the moment you bid your farewell i knew it wasn’t the end, rather, it was just the beginning of an endless longing for your presence—

milady,

goodbye never once ended these feelings i have for you.”

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“you live in a different galaxy,

billion light years away from

the star i live in

i tried to pay a visit,

travelled long way through space

with time i pleaded, borrowed

a moment to be with you,

risked my life in a game of death

against the law of physics

just so i could explore your world,

to know you more—

that is, all i ever wanted,

to love you amidst the chaos,

yet, you never let me.”

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“i never had you,

but i loved you very much,

— have i told you that?”

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“it’s never my intention to hurt you, there was never an us to begin with.”

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“a jerk—

i am, as you say.”